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Noun, Attributive Noun, and Verb.
"Intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury." - Merriam Webster Dictionary.
To feel hostility or animosity toward.
"The emotion of intense dislike; a feeling of dislike so strong that it demands action." - The Free Dictionary by Farlex.
Such a mean little word.
It's been with us since before 900 AD.
It appears in many languages, in nearly the same form. Old Frisian, Old High German, Dutch, Old Saxon, Old Icelandic, Gothic, Old English, Old Norse.
There has certainly never seemed to be a shortage of it.
In truth it seems we have spread it out and carried it with us for centuries.
It's so easy to hold onto after all, and so easy to share.
With our family, with our neighbors, with total strangers even.
Maybe it's time to let it go.
Noun and Verb.
"Unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another." - Merriam Webster Dictionary.
To feel compassion for.
I Was Going To CryI was going to cry,I Was Going To Cry in Free Verse More Like This
The feelings were there,
I could feel the tears welling,
And the sadness lay on me,
Sovereign Female WisdomWeren't you once beautiful?Sovereign Female Wisdom in Free Verse More Like This
you rivaled the jealous on Mount Olympus
hair precious as gold
you served Athena
faithful priestess of wisdom
what's become of you?
tainted by forbidden fruit
so afraid of reflections
fear you'll turn to stone?
cold as the men around you
or is fear something else?
is it your fault
men made you this way?
they feared you
their narrow minds
turned you monster
raped by man
of your intelligence
betrayed by trust
won't you please
look past the glass
just once more
see what's true
may it set you free
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2. How did you choose your name, and what names were you thinking about using and why?
Well I've always liked the name Kyle. Nothing really had me emotionally attached the name- I just have always really liked it.
I knew that I liked it completely when I went to visit my brother Nikolai you see. I took the train to the city to stay 5 days and nobody called me by Kyle. Or even tried to be honest. It was very annoying and I didn't like it one bit.
Anyway, I forgot to mention that I only had told a few people online and my mum who told my dad then told my sister Rosemary. My mum doesn't quite get it but is trying though when I told her she said in these words,
"You'll always be my beautiful little girl."
Which hurt alot for me since, No. I am not a little girl. I am a 14 going on 15 year old Guy. Sure my body says otherwise, but that isn't anyone's business other than my own. You know? Someone's body shouldn't be able to define who a person is.
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8) How do you deal with being read mis-genderd in the beginning of transitioning by people?
Sadly I am still at the very beginning of my transition. As much as it annoys me when people assume that I'm a chick- I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that I don't even see myself as passing yet. Though sadly I feel like I'm stuck in limbo since I don't see myself as a girl fortunately. But not so much a guy yet. But meh, appearances change over time. Once I'm further into my transition I'm sure that I'll feel better and more confident about that.
Right now I'm still living off of girl's skinny jeans which make me feel like a chicken. Along with tight shirts and sports bras. But my birthday is coming and if I get any money I'll buy my first binder from underworks. Yey binders! I'm really excited because sports bras don't do a thing. It's just like going around without anything on for me Though like I mentioned before-I'm very petite.
BLAH. Boobs is a cool word and I enjoy ma
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3)"Have you ever been outed?"
No not yet, And hopefully not ever. I mean sometimes it's hard to pass for me since I have yet to go shopping for guy clothes let alone a binder. //le sigh
So most of the time I just come off as a tom boy for most. Hopefully that'll get better..
4)"How did your family take it when you came out/ if you're not out, why aren't you?"
Well; after talking it over with a handful of supportive friends over facebook that I know in person and a few online- I told my mum. I started out with asking how she felt when my big brother (I mentioned before) came out to her- stating that he was gay when he was 16. After we talked abit about that she asked me if I liked girls, catching onto what my intentions of the entire conversation was. I then told her that it was abit more than then, alot more than just that.
I told her that I was uncomfortable with my body and that I've been feeling this way for a long while. That I was a f2m Trans. She was a bit confused
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When did you learn the term "transgender" referred to you?
That's Hannah up there.
Well, You see I grew up in a Christian house with 5 older siblings (3 sisters and 1 brother). Yes, I grew up as a little girl and never really heard the term Trans till about the age of twelve or so. During that time I knew there was something different about me compared to the other kids I played with but obviously didn't really pay much attention to it. My friends and I played "imaginary games" Where now I'd just call it poor roleplay. hah. But they always had me play the boy roles and told me that I'd make a really cool guy or that I'd be better as one. Which only furthered my confusion though I didn't think too much into it.
Once I started 6th grade I instantly became best friends with this girl named Lucy. I found her adorable, really nice, cool, and slowly found that my feelings drifted from best friend to love interest I guess. So one night when I slept over she kisse
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6) Who was the first person you told about being trans
Well I know this question only asks who the first person I told- I may as well say a few since otherwise the question would have a 3 syllable answer. lol.
The first few people I told were all very good friends of mine. Three who I know in person and two others who I know over the internet. Though I didn't tell them face to face because I sometimes have trouble communicating important and serious things with my voice. Their names are Jayden, Jordan, Madi, Sammy, and Andrea.
Yes Andy I put you last soak it up. xD
But after telling them, I was happy to know that they all understood and were totally okay with it. Like I said, they're all very close friends of mine. Though I did find it kind of funny that Jordan, (a friend I've known in person for a good eight years of my life) Said that she wasn't all that surprised. When we were little I always wanted to play with her brother and his toys which I find kind of funny n
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7) Who do you look up to?
There are many people I look up to for different reasons. I look up to my friends who accept me for who I am and have supported me through some really difficult times.
But as far as who do I look up too in the trans Community? Well, I'm so very new to it, that I'm not entirely sure. I mean, the first person who I actually got to talk to online who is a Transguy was Marcus, I found him on his Youtube called Dearkitona. He seemed really cool and he has this timeline that I could relate to so much it made me cry.
Because I'm a baby, shut your mouth.
My sister. She is so incredibly strong and knows what she wants and goes after it. She's always been a smartypants for as long as I can remember- She didn't really go to highschool you see, she went for one year and was too smart for the classes so she went straight to college. I mean, She's only 17 and she has moved out and lives in an apartment, has an awesome job..So someday I want
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14) What are some of your passing tips or things you do to pass?
Uhmm Wow I'm not really sure how to answer this to be honest. I should have the word "noob" plastered to my back. Lol. But uh, one of the things that really helped me was my haircut. Getting a good masculine haircut helps(though I don't think that my haircut is any bit masculine.) Be careful, having short hair does not mean that it's masculine, there's certain things that you must do, or it will just look like a pixie cut. But you don't need to just go to a barber and pick out the MANLIEST HAIRCUT EVER. Because in my opinion you should still act like yourself and pick out things that you still like and are you.
I mean, just because I came out as a transboy- doesn't mean I'm going to stop liking neon rainbows, HelloKitty, pink, uh...things that the stereotypical girl likes. I mean, I'm obsessed with my hair and paint my nails. Because it's fun and I like it. Showing off things that you like and enjoy doe
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28)What is something you do daily to feel comfortable with yourself?
Call myself Kyle. Draw myself as a male. Mess around with my itty bitty new wardrobe and act boyish. I also just talk to my friends here on dA. becauseImforeveralone sobsobsob.
I Have a not so secret obsession with hair. I really like to try new styles or dyeing my own hair and stuff like that- So in other words I never leave the house without styling it the way I want that day. OTL. I dyed it today actually, PURPLE CHECKERS. But I'm also obsessive with skin care and I guess just basic hygiene. Because I'm a teenager and my skin is like, "DFSDHDFHTDHTYH" randomly out of the blue. QQ
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17) What's your binding choice and why?
Well my one and only binder is 997 at Underworks and it's really comfy and works really well.Though since its like a wifebeater, it likes to roll up abit sometimes which pisses me off. XD;;
18) How do you feel about the trans laws where you live?
Well the only one that I can name off the top of my head is that StarBucks have in their policy that they don't hire Transgendered people. But uh, I don't really know any other than that.
19) If your religious how do your views effect being trans if your not religious what about your family religions?
Well like I mentioned a long while back, my entire family are Christians. Well besides my brother who is Pagan, which is cool too. But as much as I'd like to call myself Christian as well, I've just been having alot of trouble. I know that other people can't speak for god and no matter what they say when they say things like, "God doesn't love you, you're sinning." It's still jus
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11)"How do you manage dysphoria?"
Well, I guess it kind of depends on the situation. What most transguys get dysphoric about is that certain time of the month, but not me anymore, anyway. Think of it like this: it's like getting a gunshot wound in your junk, slapping a bandaid on it and going about life for an entire week as per usual. Now that is incredibly manly!
But other things that I've done when I'm feeling upset and dysphoric- is to listen to alot of music. For some reason bands like Blue Stahli and Billy Talent make me feel worse though...So I usually end up listening to the soundtrack from Across the Universe or just Dubstep. Or sleep...Or just so simple exercise.
Because I'm really self conscious about my hips,thighs, and butt. My chest is small and I don't really pay much attention to it...Hah. I don't really have bottom dysphoria much, but I always point out to myself, my big hips, breasts, girly facial structure, voice, thighs, curves, all of that. But