it feels like everything's caving in on my spirit.used
is a word with multiple meanings.
it can mean
all the life sucked out of you.
it can mean
you've wasted away from so much
pressure, a hand you weren't given.
it can mean
you take a giant leap of faith
only to fall to your icy plunge,
into the splash you go.
i don't lke being used.
it's not fun.
you think for so long,
look, this will finally happen
and then it does
when you least expect,
and you feel like shit afterwards.
because you know you're
you know it and
you don't fight it.
i'm not pitying myself,
i'm pitying the girls that deal
with this same problem,
we take what we get
and sometimes what we get
isn't what we want.
maybe it is in some senses,
but after it's all said and done,
it's not what it was
supposed to feel like.
it's almost as if all the
air has been drained from
my lungs, heaving, i'm frightened
by how this thing has been
ruined, bursted to pieces, blown
to smithereens, broken.
but is it?
or are you just pretending it is
so you don't have to deal with
a shadamy story chapter 5sonic: yes shadow is dead yays oh amy!!!!!!!!!!!!!a shadamy story chapter 5 in Free Verse More Like This
amy: get away for me sonic!*gets attacked by sonic *let me go now shadow help me!!!!!!!
sonic: shadow is dead my sweet rose
sonic: just look over there*points at the blood * wtf shadow is not there!
shadow: looking for me *grins but then grrs when he sees that sonic has amy*
sonic: b b b but how
shadow: its a little thing thing called the power of love sonic *hits sonic and grabs amy and dissapers*
sonic : i hate you shadow !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(with shadow and amy)
Amy: oh my god look at you your bleeding you need to stay right here i will be right back
shadow: amy i am ok its just a scrach thats all
amy: a scrach! its not a scrach!*takes out meds and stuff to help it* shadow this might hurt a little * pours water on big cut *
shadow: ouch!!!!! carefull!
amy: sorry shadow here will this help * finshes wraping it up and kisses his arm* feel better now?
shadow: *thinks and smiles* no
amy: *giggles* how about
a shadamy story chapter 6shadow picks up amy and runs over to his house-a shadamy story chapter 6 in Free Verse More Like This
amy: shadow...............you save me so many times
shadow: yeah are you trying to hint me at something
amy: maybe -o////////o ok i am
shadow:and what is that you are hinting on love
shadow kisses amy as they sit down on the couch and holds her
amy: well i umm................i want you to
amy climbs ontop of shadow and purrs shadow smiles and pulls amy in closer
shadow: want me to do what
amy: make love to me
shadow: i will do anythinng for you even that
shadow picks amy up and goes up stairs to the bedroom
shadow wakes up to see his beloved rose sleeping on his chest. shadow smiles and kisses her
shadow: wake up love
amy: mmmm i dont want to five more minutes
shadow smerksand skesuses amy's butt
amy: i awake i awake!
shadow good cuz i want to take a shower
amy:...........u woke me up for that!
shadow: no cuz ur comeing with me
amy: huh o.o
shadow picks amy up and walks into the bathroom
[2 hours later ]
amy starts making break
a shadamy story chapter 11amy: yes deara shadamy story chapter 11 in Free Verse More Like This
dark: you smell
amy: i know hun
shadow: you go clean your self up and i will tell a story to dark
dark: a story! i love stories
amy: ok love
*amy walks up stairs to clean self and shadow picks up dark and sits down on the couch with dark on his lap*
shadow: once there was a hero named sonic everyone loved him. he was always chased by robots and his fangirl amy
shadow: yes mommy anyway sonic got tired of you mommy chasing him and yelled at her this made mommy cry thats when her hero came guess who her hero was
shadow: yes me i took care of your mommy and this made sonic mad it soon made him do things hero's would never do
dark: like what
shadow: hurt people
amy: you telling a story how we came to be?
*amy sits down next to shadow and dark*
shadow: no about sonic
dark: tell story tell story!
shadow: ok anyway it made him do bad things just to get mommy back he ended up hurting mommy
dark: what! why would you want to hurt my mommy!
a shadamy story chapter 7amy, rouge, and cream start shoping hours later they walk by a sex shop and amy stopsa shadamy story chapter 7 in Free Verse More Like This
amy starts to remeber what shadow said
shadow: maybe while your shoping you can go by the sex shop a get some toys for me to plaay with you someday
-end of flash back-
amy: o//////o ummm guys i will be back i going to a shop ok
cream and rounge: ok will be at the plaza
amy walks into the sex shop and looks around
shadow: soooo bored
the door rings
shadow gets up and walks to the door and opens and sees sally
sally runs up to shadow and kisses him
amy walks out of the sex shop and puts the bag into another bag so nno one with see it and walks of to her friends
-with shadow agian XD-
shadow: get the hell off of me sally!
sally:but you love me sonic said so
sally rubs shadow lillte gut i mean big man and shadow thats when amy walks in
amy: shadow i home
amy sees sally rubing shadow and tryin to get sally of
a shadamy story chapter 8shadow smilesa shadamy story chapter 8 in Free Verse More Like This
shadow: sooo what did you get love
amy: i ummmm ggot ummmm o//////////o
shadow grabes amy and pulls her close to him
amy: y you take a look
shadow: then i will
shadow lets her go and amy pulls out the bag and hands it to shadow then shadow takes a look
shadow: hmmmm eatible panties, *others that little ones should not hear or know about XD*
shadow: well lets see how they work
amy: w what
shadow picks up amy and walks into thier room and closes the door
[fyi its about 7 pm ]
amy wakes up and sees shadow sleeping peacefully amy goes up to his face and kisses him and tries to get up
shadow: where you think your going love
amy: o////o to take a shower and no you cant come
shadow: why you have to be like that
shadow smiles and kisses her then lets her go
shadow: fine fair enogh i guess from last night with those toys
amy: you really never used them sweets
shadow: well i wanted you right then and there i could not wait
amy: oh you
a shadamy storyamy: hi you guys^.^a shadamy story in Free Verse More Like This
silver: hi amy
sonic: O.O * hides*
tails: hi amy
cream: hi amy
ronge: hi amy
amy: how are you guys
sonic: *still hiding*
eggman: mhahahahaha i will rule the world!...............by using amy's powers!* grabs amy*
amy: lets go of me egg head!
sonic*stops hiding and hits eggman*
silver:* takes out a gun and points it at eggman* dont even move eggman
* shadow appers*
shadow: need help eggman?
eggman: yes.............yes i do get amy now!
shadow: fine*grabs amy and disappers*
tails: ok what just happened?
rouge: no time to exsplain we need to save amy cream you stay hereand tails watch over her
cream: why cant i come!
sonic: its to dangruos for you and tails
tails: yeah leave us behide(mad)
sonic: come one rouge silver! lets get amy!
silver: what about egg head over here?
sonic: -.-: uhhhhhhhh silver
sonic: he is not there
silver: what you mean he is.* looks and sees that egg
the shadamy story part 2shadow: amy ithe shadamy story part 2 in Free Verse More Like This
* silver and rouge come in*
rouge: stay away from her shadow!
silver: what she said!* attacks shadow*
eggman: not so fast! * grabs amy and points a gun to her head* one more move and she is dead........ now come on shadow lets get out of here
silver and rouge: amy!!!!!*sivler uses is bluse powers and removes the gun from eggman while rouge trys to grab amy's hand but is hit by shadow*
shadow: i dont think so * grins* see you later eggman *grabs amy and disappers*
eggman: i knew would betrade me!
silver: well eggman we meet agian* smiles* and it will be our last *shoots eggman in the head and egg head dies*
rouge: no time for joy silver we need to get amy back she could be dead by now knowing shadow i think he already left her to die we need to get sonic and now!
silver your right lets go
*rouge and silver go and try to find sonic so they have a better chance that amy live( if she even gets stabed by shadow and i think shadow will not hurt amy anyway so it is p
a shadamy story chapter 3sonic: so silver you killed egg heada shadamy story chapter 3 in Free Verse More Like This
silver: yup ^.^
rouge: -.-;.............HELLO!!!!!!!! whats about amy dont forget about her!
sonic: right!....................grrrrrrrrrr shadow will die if hurts her
*they are about a hour away from where shadow and amy are*
(with shadow and amy)
shadow: amy i love you i aways have amy * kisses amy agian but slips his touge in amy's mouth*
amy: *enjoys the taste and kisses back*
shadow: *stops kissing amy*
amy: shadow i i i just cant fall in love with someone that i know nothing about even you are kind of smexi *blushes*
shadow: then lets get to know each other then *grins*
amy: uh oh i think i know what you me* shadow kisses amy as he picks her up and pushes her agenst the wall then shadow starts to kiss her neck* oh my * amy wrapes her legs around shadow as he enjoys shadow kissing her but suddenly she know all about shadow*(i am too lazy to make like a 10 chapter story about them getting them to know each other)
shadow: *stops kissing amy* you a
a shadamy story chapter 4(at shadow's house)a shadamy story chapter 4 in Free Verse More Like This
shadow:*sign* what to do what to do *looks at a photo of amy* hmmmm well it as been a few day maybe i should go and find her *grins*
*ding dong ding dong*
shadow: huh? *opens the door and gets hit in the face by sonic*
sonic: how dare you kiss amy!
shadow: grrrrrrrrr you will pay for hitting me sonic * shadow kicks sonic in the nuts and sonic falls down in pain* now time to go and find amy *smiles*
sonic: that.....................hurt >.
a shadamy story chapter 10amy gets up and walks to the doora shadamy story chapter 10 in Free Verse More Like This
amy: who is it?
amy opens the door and screams
sonic: amy rose you are mine!
amy: yo yo your dead this cant be.......shadow help!!!!!!!
sonic grabes amy hugs her then starts to kiss her
sonic: i am here so i am not dead...at least not anymore
shadow runs in with dark clinging onto him
shadow: o.o holy moly you should be dead!
sonic: who is that
shadow: that is my son dark now let go of my wife!
sonic: amy did you give birth to dark and not my son
amy: yes and i am glad of that
sonic: well then your coming with me
sonic picks her up and starts to run but his legs fall off of him
shadow puts dark down and runs to amy
shadow: amy are you ok!
amy: yes....i need a bath o.o
shadow: picks up amy and heads home
sonic: amy i will get you to be mine i will even if i am dead i will
[at shadow's and amy's house]
dark:mommy ar you ok!