No Matter What Keep OnIt comes; I hate it; I want it gone.
It lies to me; I like it; I realize it's lying;
my world crashes down; I want it gone.
That sequence keeps repeating,
all the while I'm waiting
for this universe to throw a miracle
Why cry for things in the back of me?
Why go moping on about things
hoping for sympathy?
Why dive into infantile thinking
that has been the fall of so much
Yes, the fact is I put myself here,
and it hurts to see where I could be,
and where I have to go.
Is sadness and regret the same thing?
There's no point in having this pain,
but I can't exactly push a button
and have it exit from inside.
And knowing the cause of my hurt,
can't make it poetic how I feel.
I'm in a crib right now
and tears are close to coming out.
Just do better,
because tomorrow exists.
I have to keep on
no matter how easy,
and less stressful it looks
to give in.
I say to myself in times of hardship
that I won't stop;
even if I fail every time, don't quit.
I'll say it even when
Untitled: Love is a feeling not a definitionLove...Untitled: Love is a feeling not a definition in Free Verse More Like This
That raw emotion that poets dare to frolic with
That magical commodity that fable tellers dare to mangle with
That filler of voids that we individuals strive to understand
As we walk down life's foot path with open hands.
For some, love is merely a word blended into this achromatic world in black and white
Perishing in the gutter alongside with our homeless hopes and our banished dreams lying out of sight
For some, love is more frightening than pain, than misery, than death
They learn to fear the angel bearing crimson heart shaped arrows rather than the reaper of souls, the agent of death.
For some, love is the closest substance they can get to magic
They say the mere scent of it leads one to divine empyreans where loves resplendence lights out everything tragic
For some, love is as crucial as the air we breathe, day in day out
They say that it revitalises the soul, the spirit and the heart with angels blessings slaying fear and doubt.
But I say, love shouldn't be neglected and
Life Is A Choice Of PenLife Is a choice of penLife Is A Choice Of Pen in Free Verse More Like This
Having good or evil intentions and ambitions doesn't alter its colour or how much is written
It scratches down our cold past, our interchangeable present and waits advertently for the mysterious future
It holds the same intangible qualities of life by being able to spur our devious species to make irrational decisions
I've seen our despised kind kill in the name of what is written or being audacious enough to die defending such simple words
But words do not bleed, they do not care, they do not fight or love but only embody our existence giving us meaning manifesting life
In the end all we really want is to leave this world with our own individual alteration on the world's page
Perhaps a full stop, a name or even a single word will suffice, for it is sadly a common objective we all aspire for
My pen has manipulated my soul and in collateral crafted this heart trending mortal writing this piece today
My pen has played me, it has hurt me and seems to have no consci
PastMy world wasn't enough for you, nor was my allPast in Free Verse More Like This
My weakness is I can' t do much, much at all
Maybe it was my fault by being foolish enough to believe in such gambles
Maybe it was my fault to fall into these cursed shambles
Thou art My Juliet and I thou Romeo
Seems like how things ended up I'm in the worse Brother Romeo
Seems like this ended like the end of Macbeth
Leaving me assimilated with eternal death
They say God is in the rain
But all I feel is my floundering heart in the cliché of pain
What you found in peace you left in pieces
What you left behind never ceases
My love was your disposable commodity
Now leaving me to move on with this life of mediocrity
These scars remind me that the past was in fact real
That the love I felt for you was joke that would never heal
Maybe it was pathetic of me to sulk over you
Seeing how it took you no time to get over me and start anew
I carried your hardships on my deteriorating shoulders
As I fought and pushed away the monsters and boulders
Maybe...Maybe it's my faultMaybe... in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I led You to believe that this was all easy that You could do the inexorable
Maybe I could somehow change the undeniable
Maybe bounds of mortality did not affect You
Maybe pain and suffering revealed something that no one else can learn but You
Maybe freedom was not a God given gift, but had to be earned
Maybe knowledge was the curse that humanity had learned
Maybe love gave You life
Maybe love gave You strife
Maybe heroes were born to embody the benevolence and honesty in this world
Maybe villains were born to embody the abnormality of our human nature in this world
Maybe things fall apart so better things fall together
Maybe Your making excuses why You are no longer together
Maybe You all should just give up now
Maybe You shouldn't and focus on the here and now
Maybe there isn't a God watching over us
Maybe there is a God advocating for us
Maybe it was admirable of Me to make You believe in something intangible
Maybe it was foolish of Me to make You believe
Flowers of humanityLife records every little moment in every individual's life; it directs exactly where your headingFlowers of humanity in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Even the factor choice in the equation doesn't slow it down; it continues on adjusting and bending
This contraption we call life is filled with bolts and cogs with an algorithm sending us to our destiny
It doesn't follow the orders we choose but the worlds as our thoughts are evaluated as loony
Yet this mechanism gets it right placing us saying, doing exactly where we need to be
This function excavating our paths through life may be accepted by the weak but not by me
We are not bewildered kittens locked in a destiny's dungeons
We are all deviant artistic heroes and we were born to liberate others with our light
My brothers and sisters allow hope to fill your actions and fight on till our dying day like Trojans
For the fear that rains inside of us is as fake as the deception of sight
We are all meant to fly like phoenixes unbound by the fears of death as hope lies in the ashes
Death's ArrowLove seeps into my body endeavoring my strength as my heart's life depletes into the nightDeath's Arrow in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
As the symphonies of war screech around me I gaze into the oceans eyes
Her blueness in her eyes are now going back out to sea as her life begins to swim away from this fight
Her chest rises and sinks and her luminous tears drip out the pains of the past burning the skies
The darkness eating her is stronger than me, stronger than love
An arrow caresses her tanned skin and leaves her gasping for breath as death smiles in front of me
Her blood drips and splashes onto my skin weakening me as death slays the hopeful dove
The swift arrow of death grows out of her forsaken shoulder as I stand there like a suicidal zombie
As hope is released from the cursed box in my heart, I whisk my woven hand around her tangled earthy hair
Her sapphires lock onto my hazel eyes as I whisper to her I will save you
I raise my resilient hand and grasp the arrow of death and count to three to end the nigh
A Writer's Absurd AspirationsWe often yearn for that special place we know... a refuge that gives us a sense of peace and belonging. However paradoxically enough this visionary conclusion incarcerates us all regardless of who we aspire to be or do in our mortal bonds.A Writer's Absurd Aspirations in Short Stories More Like This
I am a writer. I am a member of a diatonic realm where colour cannot be fathomed. I advocate the ideology that the pen is mightier than the sword. I live through the blackness of words and the whiteness of their medium. I am a soldier who opposes the chromatic spectrum's vividness with menacing letters. I even possess a vocabulary which may seem vulgar or verbose. But as much as I envy it, as much as I deny it and as much as I loathe it, the inevitable truth still stands tall there is nothing more I want in this wondrous world than to belong to the grace of colour.
Why is humanity doomed to live in such specified parameters? Each one of us are losing ourselves inch by inch as our multifaceted aspects become blurred due to the places, people, ideas an
The Hardest WordTo say goodbye,The Hardest Word in Free Verse More Like This
It's not the hardest word.
My honesty is all but broken,
And I look away with eyes so blue,
I cannot say with these tears I cry.
To say sorry,
It's not the hardest word.
My ignorance only leaves you shattered,
And I know in my heart so black,
I should apologise but I'd rather fly.
To say no,
It's not the hardest word.
My addiction drives you insane,
And I feel that my ears bleed so red,
As I struggle to answer your one question: why?
A Bad PersonAm I a bad person,A Bad Person in Free Verse More Like This
Just because you don't like me?
I can't help the way I am,
Nor do I need this grievance you see,
Though the friendship can never be born.
Am I a bad person,
Just because you hate my smile?
It's not a statement of self,
Honestly I find myself to be vile,
But you don't need to send me into oblivion.
Am I bad person,
Just because I act the way I like?
I'm sorry if I'm such a git,
I didn't mean to generate this psych,
Yet your judgement has passed and you've won.
Dying Under The MoonUnder the midnight moon,Dying Under The Moon in Free Verse More Like This
I shall see you soon.
I will watch you suffer,
I will watch you cry,
And then I will watch you die.
Oh, you have such a feeble fascination,
But I am not your sacred salvation.
There is no option and I give no offer,
I just want you to squirm,
Play the game you disgusting worm.
I hate you so much,
And you wouldn't know as such.
I wish you weren't a bother,
Yet here I imagine you lying in a grave,
Or drowning under a tidal wave.
The Black RoseIn between such delicate fingertips;The Black Rose in Free Verse More Like This
She holds the blackest of roses,
And the dark petals brush her lips.
Her sombre shadow across her face,
Describes the bleakest of life's loses.
Such sweet scent floating in the air;
She breathes in the aroma of the black rose,
That scarlet stem entwines in her raven hair.
Her enchanting eyes are but a glaze,
Those wells of happiness have all but froze.
Thorns of iron dig into her soft skin;
She screams from the pain of that bloody rose,
With it's intoxication of simplistic sin.
Her haunting presence brings haste,
To a silence of a death nearing close.
Surrealism of LovePlease wake me,Surrealism of Love in Free Verse More Like This
This must be a dream.
Is this what they call love?
I hear sounds of a sparkling stream,
And the arias of angels from above.
Please wake me,
My heart beats and my veins shiver.
Can I feel that emotion I did surrender?
I hear roars of a rippling river,
And the moans of monsters along its meander.
Please wake me,
From this ever so rare reality.
Should I lose this anger inside?
I hear calls of a celestial city,
And the howls of hounds that hide.
NexusWhat more could I need?Nexus in Free Verse More Like This
To see you crying in the rain,
With your heart filled with pain.
I'd see you smile just for a while,
But my words you won't heed.
What more should I do?
To hear you sobbing in the wind,
With your facial expression so kind.
I'd hear you laugh only for a time,
But my thoughts of you cry too.
What more would I say?
To feel you weeping in the cold,
With your manner weak not bold.
I'd feel you breathe always in my life,
But my embrace murdered your day.
Negative ViolationYou take away my pleasure,Negative Violation in Free Verse More Like This
You take away my pain,
You stick a stainless blade in deep.
To take the greatest of honesty's treasure,
And never will we hear my beating heart again.
But you lack the guts to understand,
Misery or malice from my point of view.
You take away the most important thing,
That by rights is not even yours,
So here. Right now. You grasp death in a dire hand.
You take away my life,
You take away my love,
You smile a soulless tear to weep.
To strike with the brightest of treachery's knife,
And never will they see my haunting angel dove.
But you fake the cuts to manipulate,
Sin or sorrow from my mind without a clue.
You take away the most important thing,
That by rights should be ours,
So here. Right now. You clutch fear in a fatal state.
You take away my hope,
You take away my hunger,
You sing a skinless melody of sleep.
To choke with the strongest of mortality's rope,
And never will you feel my raging vocal anger.
PossibilitiesEchoes crawl in your fleshless mind,Possibilities in Free Verse More Like This
These are the dreams you've yet to uncover.
Open up your heart of infinite imagination,
Pouring out all those small tender things,
That would evoke such expansive emotion.
Illusions dwell in your boneless soul,
These are the nightmares you'll always discover.
Free your spirit of potent possibilities,
Fly away on such graceful wisdom wings,
Gazing down on a myriad of mysteries.
Pixels slither in your unconscious eye,
These are the images you'll come to suffer.
Release your sight of faltering fiction,
Circling the dust with elegant red rings,
Forming a picture of your internal infliction.
HurtIt hurts so much I cannot speak,Hurt in Free Verse More Like This
I think my feelings are at its peak.
I cannot feel anything right now,
I don't know why or how.
All I know is that I'm hurting,
all I know is that I feel like crying.
Everything is wrong,
why can't everyone just get along?
Now I don't know what I'm feeling,
I think a part of me is dying.
Apart We SmileI talked to you again today,Apart We Smile in Free Verse More Like This
although we don't have much to say.
I feel so down 'cause it's not just you,
it's both you and me and what we do.
Long ago the stories we told,
they are now starting to grow too old.
Even if we start to slowly drift away,
I'd still want to see you smile, everyday.
The memories and times,
will be forever mine.
I will not forget,
my mind is set.
Lets all work together,
to be friends forever.
Always LovedEven if we are apart,Always Loved in Free Verse More Like This
you will always remain inside my heart.
With those words said,
and our love fed,
just know that I want to be with you,
and that's all I ever want to do.
You are the only one that I seek,
for you, my heart, becomes ever so weak.
Your unseen wings take you up so high,
making it seem, like you can fly.
Your face and beauty, incomparable,
my love for you, undeniable.
Your voice a song,
makes seem like nothings wrong.
If you can just be with me,
I'll be forever happy.
Because I am just one of many,
that wants you to be, forever happy.
Fly AwayMy wings take me up so high,Fly Away in Free Verse More Like This
I love to be free and fly.
Into the sky of mystery and wonder,
each cloud, light as a feather.
I am free in the sky,
but soon I cannot fly.
The sun goes down and come the night,
now I must go back, no use to fight.
the sky begins to rain.
I am a bird trapped in a cage,
my owner full of untamed rage.
Right here, wishing to be set free,
and now, you have noticed me.
So help me be free,
and together, we shall be.
Our StoryThose fun days are in the past,Our Story in Free Verse More Like This
I'll still remember them even if they have passed.
Those happy memories are forever mine,
throughout, all of time.
So I'll just continue to live on,
a different pitch, but still the same song.
Even if you and I are apart,
we will forever remain in each other's heart.
On that fateful day,
we both promised and prayed,
that we will always be there for each other,
no matter what happens forever and ever.
So now I will move on and make new memories,
so that in the future, they will become happy stories.
Live life to the fullest and be happy,
this is the story of us, the story of me.
Sent from HeavenFrom my heart of greed and wonder,Sent from Heaven in Free Verse More Like This
rings the sound of so much thunder.
The weather inside is so chaotic,
your voice, your beauty, is like magic.
Walking beside you all this time,
wondering why I didn't notice your shine.
Now that I see your beauty and all,
my brain froze and my heart took a fall.
You walked on by surpassing me,
all I could do was watch and see.
You were a goddess sent from above,
to teach me, all about love.
Just a dreamThe lonely night softly beckoning meJust a dream in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get me to see,
trying to seduce me into joining,
instead of just sadly wanting.
The wind whispers to me
never leaving me be.
Pulling me from the dark night,
where nothing is in sight.
The music screams at me
just jestingly telling me to join in loudly.
Telling me to scream out my heart,
and to never, ever from here part.
The magicians magically making me,
move along with the yelling sea.
Like a puppet I was drawn,
yelling until the soft dawn.
Bam! I woke up to see the familiar scene,
of my old desk, the party nowhere to be seen.
Here I am, back at my boring house,
where there is no sound
Except for the squeak of a small, ignorant mouse.
A Fork in the RoadChoices, choices, everywhere,A Fork in the Road in Free Verse More Like This
life is truly so unfair.
To either move on from this place,
or to remain here, at your pace.
At first we were on the same old track,
but now there is something we both lack.
The emotions between us are now neutral,
the feeling of neutral is now mutual.
So right now, I think we should go,
since we've already been so high, and sunk so low.
We are sick and tired of each other,
so now, let's not, stay together.
Let's both go our separate ways,
and live, apart, our future days.
I truly loved you, and you loved me,
but sometimes things, just aren't meant to be.
Just know, that you are still one of a kind,
and that you, are truly, hard to find.
Even if we are, now apart,
you will remain forever, inside my heart.
The Closed RoomYou,The Closed Room in Free Verse More Like This
to really be
We would walk,
and together talk,
about nothing at all.
All those days that we had fun,
I still can't believe that they're done.
You have left me and I'm so alone,
never picking up whenever I phone.
The sky sings a song so dark and gray,
alone in my room, I cry again today.
You're all I see, through both night and day,
I'm thinking of words that could've made you stay.
but it is now, clear as day to me,
that making you my world, came with a fee.
I need to find the strength inside of me,
need to show my stronger side for her to see.
I will live on and fight, like never before,
because you leaving, is like opening the door.
I shall now leave this room, with no tears,
even if I still wish you were here.
So here I am, making my way,
through this cruel, world today.
Save MeI'm waiting here,Save Me in Free Verse More Like This
waiting here, for my angel.
She's yet to show her beautiful face.
But I believe in her, I have faith.
She will show, and light my way.
She will come even if its not today.
I'm still here waiting,
My angel will come and save me,
my angel will come maybe.
QuietusQuietusQuietus in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Dead men, dead men
Hanging on a tree
How many dead men
Do you see?
I see a dead man
With remorse in his eyes
He lived a life of hiding
Yes hiding from his lies
I see a dead man
Who loved the sight of fire
He burned his own house
To sate his own desire
I see a dead man
Who lived in the name of lust
He tainted all the pure
His heart the shade of rust
I see a dead man
Who envied all light
Who moved with the wind
Stole the stars of night
I see a dead man
Crying tears of pain
Hands stained with blood
All washed up by rain
Sins veiled in darkness
Cries of the slain
Reflect upon such madness
Feel their very pain
Cast them retribution
Blind them with the night
This is their conclusion
Bring back the lost light
Misty blue and carrion wine
Her tresses stained with red
"DROP DEAD YOU HIDEOUS SWINE!"
You can't say that, you're dead
Dead men, dead men
Hanging on a tree
How many dead men
Do you see?
EnlightenmentEnlightenment is the gift of lightEnlightenment in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
that casts aside life's pain
it is to cherish all that is right
to stand through the pouring rain
sing to me not a song of sorrow
but a song of infinite mirth
tell me the joys of a brighter morrow
the miracle of a childs birth
tis time so cruel yet meek
to hinder the granting of ones desire
yet memories of past I will forever keep
That in heart it will burn like a blazing fire
The love of AshterAshter's loveThe love of Ashter in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Like a clad of darkness
White roses burn to dust
Sorrow within my heart
Restrained sins of lust
It's tearing me apart
Blood slides down the fragile arm
Promises left for broken
Keeping one safe from harm
Hypocrisy's only token
Save me from myself
I can't take it any longer
The picture on a wooden shelf
Emotions ever so stronger
Love is a widow's song
A bird's broken wing
A mirror of all wrong
A tune she used to sing
Love is a broken vow
The tainting of all light
Accepting what is now...
Straying the path of right
Obsession like a fragile flower
A most ludicrous dream
Like building Babel tower
All is not what it seem
Pain of this love
Its lingering scorn
A gift from above?
A bond that is torn
SelfishSelfishSelfish in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Blood slides down
In pain I drown
At what cost?
I hate you
I don't hear
I hold dear...
You fill me with hate
You fill me with resent
Redemption too late...
Too late to repent....
I hate you.............
You bring me pain...
Sentiments hold true
Even in the blinding rain
Joysing to me not a song of sorrowJoy in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
but a song of infinite mirth
tell me the joys of a brighter morrow
the miracle of a childs birth
DornroschenDornroschenDornroschen in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Listen to the whispers of the moon
Heed its gentle lullaby
Sleep for light will come very soon
This my child is not a lie
Sleep here in the arms of your mother
For I will keep you warm
Dream of happiness like no other
The healing of all things worn
In dreams, you silently shed tears
Therefore, I wipe them all away
I blow the winds that carry your fears
So in solace you are to stay
Silence the songs of war
Sing but a song of peace
The cries of death from afar
Hush child be at ease...
In this endless darkness
Let us pray for morn's light
That the Gods show kindness
And get us through the night
The bright lights from the outside
Are the remnants of a sinful fire
The cries of those whom have died
Souls ensnared by thorns of brier
The morn of a sunless sky
A desire for freedom
A hypocrite's sugar sweet lie
A cursed kingdom
Her mother's voice like a tainted memory
Its gentle and soothing essence
Was it all but a child's silly fantasy?
A desire for a mother's presence
Her mother y
PersephonePersephonePersephone in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Dear little child of Eden
Whose smile hides a thousand tears
Forgive the weeping sinner
Cast away his fears
"I paint white roses with blood stained tears
And hang them for all to see
You said you'd rid me of all my fears
Your lies brought me much glee"
Nestling close to her mother dear
A child of most sacred birth
Braced close with hearts so near
A song of salvation's mirth
Smiles in the lighted haven
Roses of ivory lace
A most beautiful maiden
Who left without a trace
The sky draped black
Cried tears of deep sorrow
"I want my daughter back"
Such laments of the morrow
Lights like a thousand charms
It pales in the moonlit dawn
Warmth of her mother's arms
A blessed light now gone
The flowers begin to die
The earth sings a song of mourn
A serpent's selfish lie
Blood stains a rose's thorn
Entangled in chains of darkness
Lost in a world of pain
Love sings a song of madness
The voice of an endless rain
memoriestis time so cruel yet meekmemories in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
to hinder the granting of ones desire
yet memories of past I will forever keep
In heart it burns like a blazing fire
Broken dollsBroken DollsBroken dolls in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I lay here in the wake of eternal darkness
Waiting for your gentle touch
Your pleasant smile fills me with so much happiness
Is it sin, to find happiness as such?
My dearest, tonight let me sing you a song
Of a doll that loved you so
Here in ruins of a broken dream, I've waited for so long
Cherishing memories I will never let go...
The pain that I feel, within this porcelain heart...
It breaks my very being
Feigning bliss, I'm being torn apart
Your presence is my only healing...
I always thought, your love held no cost
That is until you pushed me away...
Your gone forever leaving me cold and lost
Never to know, of what I truly wish to say
My dearest, I only wish for your joy...
Such feelings unbefitting of a toy
Yet here I am living in this very moment...
Your absence alone brings me unrelenting torment
The years go by and you've lived on without me...
My dearests...please come back...
I'm breaking away with time...do you not see?
Only you can fill the emp
Black SwanBlack SwanBlack Swan in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A tale of broken innocence
Of white fading to black
A heart of burdened pestilence
A light that won't come back
Figures of naivety
A ballerina dancing
A contorted reality
Of endless shadows prancing
She was always full of life
A bloom of the most pure
Tainted with a bloodied knife
Perfection her only cure
She dances in the darkness
she's bounded by his lust
Caught within such madness
there's no one left to trust
She gave her all
Kept holding on
Continued to fall
A light now gone
she's confused and lost
she's suffering in pain
She'll pay at any cost
Even if she goes insane
Her desire for things to go right
Her desire for perfection
And how it takes away her light
Like a devious infection
she's blinded by the dark
she's falling to insanity
The sins of pride will mark
Such overbearing reality
Tell me, oh swan queen
The depths of your heart
A world no one has ever seen
And how you break it all apart
Why do you cry such bloodied tears?
Why do you only see lies?
The moving of fate
FakeI want to be a fake as you areFake in Free Verse More Like This
If it helps me to survive
Show off those masks
Take them down
I will be proud of my life
Living in the perfect lie
Proud for being fake
Lie to you as much as you can take
Forgive me please
I can't resist
I want to lie
I want to cheat
Then laugh into your face
You're fool, you're just an idiot
You're thought that I've forgot?
Those hurtful things you've done to me
Those painful bruises on my skin
Millions of tears from my eyes
Consequences of your stupid lies
All those nights I was crying
All those days, pretending of smiling
It's not a living, just days of poor existence
All happiness that I've been missing
Miserable and destroyed
Played and fooled like a toy
My lord, if I deserved it all
Then take away from me this love
Let me suffer to the end
But don't leave me, take my hand
Punish me for things he wants to make
I want to see how much I still can take
See what else can make me break
As long as I'm betrayed
As long as I am fake
I have no eyesBroken wingsI have no eyes in Free Verse More Like This
I have no eyes
Wants to cry
I'm craving for the light
But not chance to see it
I have no eyes
Cutting my heart
It's a wrong feeling
It has no start
My hands are bleeding
But I don't know why
It hurts so much
Living without eyes
My whole life
I'm living in the dark
No chance to see saving light
I wanted to be strong
I wanted to fight
But I was dead wrong
My life is the night
It's not a lie
I have no eyes
Hope"Hope"Hope in Free Verse More Like This
I am waiting for the end just to see your face,
I'm just standing on the world to get out of space
You're the only one and your love is all I need
But you're not mine, you're just a dream
A silly dream for me
As can see you I'm going down, fall on my knees
Watching you go and melting my tears
You're passing me by saying hello
I see your eyes and can't take it no more
Please talk to me, give me some hope
I need your love I need you
I can't live anymore
Writing stupid lyrics about you..
Pointless life, without love, without true,
My eyes full of tears when I'm looking at you
You're so beautiful, you drive me insane
There is no words what I can say
I hate the love, I hate myself
Can't wait to say but I can't say
I'll give you part of me I swear
Just leave me the hope to the end of the day
Not a writerToday I took my pencilNot a writer in Free Verse More Like This
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Letting goFor the last time I'm standing hereLetting go in Free Verse More Like This
Forgive me please
I'm writing these words to you
I want to go easily
Not saying good bye
But saying I'm sorry
For all I've done
And for all I haven't done
Looking back on the days when we were happy
I feel good, I'm even smiling
I remember everything and I don't want to forget
But surely after last step I'm gonna regret
If I still be able to think
Forgive me please
Forgive my soul
I should've done this long time ago
But I was holding on
You kept me safe and made me going
That's how it is, the ways of loving
But I was weak I've destroyed myself
I've destroyed everything that I had
So here I am writing to you
Saying I'm sorry
And all words that is going to you
They're coming from my almost empty heart
I'm going now
If you're reading these words
Probably I'm already out of this world
And I'm not able to see tears in your eyes
I can't see anything because I've died
Forgive me if you can
But don't try to understand
It's not gonna help
And now b
Not fineTonight I said myself, I'm fineNot fine in Free Verse More Like This
I looked into the mirror and tried to smile
Looks good? Still repeating I am fine
I'm going out tonight
I'm going out and again I feel fine
Driving my car, driving so fast
Into the night, leaving my past
Somehow I can hear voice in my head
He's saying - take care
Oh no, forget it
I'm having fun tonight
And I push the pedal, driving faster and faster
And again I can hear a voice
It screams in my head,
I can't ignore
But hell no, I'm not gonna stop
Till car will pull over because of no gas
And I will get sober to see breaking dawn
Sunlight slowly touches me
As I am lying somewhere on the beach
Still hearing your screams
It hurts, it hurts so much
And no, I don't feel fine
I can't pretend
I lied, no I'm not fine
It feels like I've died
Can't stop asking myself why
It screams in my mind
It hurts inside
I don't feel fine
I am sorryI am sorryI am sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I will repeat these words thousands times
Just say you love me
And I will do anything
I am sorry
Forgive me please
I made mistakes and no chance to fix it
But your smile can heal me
If you could just say that you love me
It would change everything
I am sorry, so sorry
Can you forgive me please?
I know I don't deserve this, but still
You know I love you
Wish I could say the same that you love me
You never said I'm sorry because you haven't done anything wrong
I've destroyed our love
So I'm saying once again
I'm singing a song for you
Standing at the pouring rain
I am sorry
But nothing there I can change
So I will leave
Only paper with song and guitar will remind you
About someone who was making too many mistakes
About someone who already has gone
Still repeating words
I am sorry
Please, forgive me
Last DanceShall we dance tonight?Last Dance in Free Verse More Like This
Shall we dance for one last time?
Can I ask you to stay with me for this song?
Let's dance this night away
I would love to dance all night long
Let's put all those feelings back in our hands
Back in some place where our love still stands
Don't kiss my tears, let them run from my face
Just keep on dancing
Dancing to the star trace
The rhythm will lead us back in time
When I was yours and you were mine
Slowly moving, slowly kissing
I can be like this forever
My heart like an old clock, still ticking
But something keeps breaking
Baby I wanna hold you in my arms
I want to see us flying back to stars
Rushing slowly we're dancing in nowhere place
Last sound of music finally had reached me
I am so empty when I'm looking on your teary face
Wish I never had chance to see how you feel
It kills me seeing like it's killing you
We finished dancing underneath the moon
So I shall say thank you
For dance, for love, for life that I can't forget
For those mistakes I do regret
PainPainPain in Free Verse More Like This
Does anyone can describe this feeling?
When you are down and there is no healing
When you don't have the wounds
But something inside really hurts!
I would cut myself but there is no pain
I don't feel anything what touches my skin
It's all inside, where should be my soul
But now it's just empty and dark hole
Something has broken inside of me
I never will be able to see
That cold water changed blood in me
I guess now I must be free
The feeling that I have it's burning me
But I still I don't feel the pain
My heart beating very fast I can hear
Someone please return my fears
I never gonna be alone, my pain always here with me
Reminds me about those things what used to be
About those people I used to love
Reminds me that now it's all gone
Love=PainI don't have proper words in my mindLove=Pain in Free Verse More Like This
No proper scene in my eyes
Because love is so hard to describe
Some might say it's pure and innocent
Other says it's dark and evil
For someone it might be all the sense
And for other it might be without meaning
I don't know if I know the definition of the love
If I actually know anything at all
But I have something inside
Something what holds me in this life
Is it love?
I don't know
Maybe yes, maybe no
But as long as it makes me going
I don't really care how it's calling
I know it hurts
It causes pain
Makes me insane
Sometimes it makes me even cry
But it's worth to fight
Your love is poor if you can describe it
Cause real love strikes you as a lightning
It means all and nothing at the same time
It feels like heaven but the feeling lives inside
I said so many words right now
But still don't know what love is about
And I don't need to
All I need is to feel it
The Suicide DreamThere's blood on the floor,The Suicide Dream in Free Verse More Like This
A cold hand still leaning on the closed door,
The echo of a painful shout still overcome,
Imprinted in the empty sight,
The image of a purpose that was too soon gone.
Tangled bloody hair,
Of a person that decided no more can bear,
Tears like crystals still resting on the dead face,
The soundtrack of a film,
The scream of lost innocence,
On a black and white screen.
Suppressed words that cleaved a heart,
Broken promises and lies,
One more soul tore apart,
A person drown in useless cries,
Bloody, bruised wrist,
The result of the decision - no more can go on like this.
A peaceful grin,
Of a person that in the ocean of despair couldn't anymore swim,
Is frozen and distorted,
A blade, a stain of blood,
Life away has faded.
Like in a dream,
I see the bruised, dead face,
I hear a scream,
On the floor I see a bloody trace,
Snippets of a jumble film.
Another person broke down,
Took away by the whirling waves of the suicide dream,
Another person decided this world is m
The Hope That Kept Me AliveI thought you were here,The Hope That Kept Me Alive in Free Verse More Like This
I thought you would stay by my side,
But It wasn't real,
Now I know I can't hide,
It was just an illusion I've created,
My own happy world, far away from the dark.
When the truth was right in front of me,
I lied to myself telling "this can't be".
I closed my eyes and wished for better,
I wiped my tears realizing this will come true somewhere near to never
But at the end of the dark tunnel, I've seen a light,
It was a drop of hope,
The hope that kept me alive.
Hanging by the thread of hope,
I've figured out that you're so gone.
Were you even there?
All this time I've been alone,
Holding on by a shadow,
Feeding with memories,
In a world of hollow.
I am just a fool, I keep the memory of you alive,
Hiding from the crowd, they'll never understand,
But in the end I think I'll survive,
Or is this another illusion?
The hope that kept me alive
Because This Is ChristmasFragile snowflakes are falling this night from the sky,Because This Is Christmas in Free Verse More Like This
Violet, blue, red Christmas lights are flashing while I'm passing by,
Laughter and carols, the joyful sound of bells I'm hearing all around,
A white, sparkling blanket is covering now the ground.
I lift up my face,
At the dark night's sky I gaze,
I close my eyes wishing I could feel,
The emotion they are talking about, the Christmas thrill,
The clock strikes midnight,
But my heart still can't warm up from this hollow, shiny light.
I kneel in the snow, breathing deep inside,
Somewhere on this barren road my soul died,
But how could a scrawny light,
Break the chain wrapped around my languid heart?
If I had just one wish, one demand,
If it could be possible to make an amend,
I'd chose my core to be animate,
Maybe on Christmas Eve,
Maybe there's still some hope left for me,
Maybe I still got the right to believe,
To believe that from the noose of memories my soul can be set free.
On a bench, a Santa Claus is sitting,
I Think I'm Ready For The EndThe sky is bright, but it's turning into red,I Think I'm Ready For The End in Free Verse More Like This
The sun is coming closer,
It seems like the whole world is about to bend.
The earth is shaking, is about of breaking,
Smiling, I look up ahead,
Maybe tomorrow is something we'll not get,
But as long I've got you, I think I'm ready for the end.
They're screaming, running,
Trying to get out alive.
I don't care,
I can see we're about of dying,
This may be the ending,
But I'm sure will come a new start.
There's no use in crying,
So I'll take your hand,
And as long I've got you, I think I'm ready for the end.
The earth is opening, releasing the creatures of the deep,
Flying above us, trying to devour us alive,
But I don't worry, I keep saying "this will be just another trip",
On our shoulders they'll land,
To tore out our eyes,
To cleave our head,
But as long I've got you, I think I'm ready for the end.
The flames of hell seems to come out,
Wanting to quench its blood hunger,
They are desperately running,
From death they think are hiding,
The Sore Of A Deaf PoemAnother crumpled sheet thrown on the floor,The Sore Of A Deaf Poem in Free Verse More Like This
Another shout, a thud, because she can't get rid of the sore,
The deaf poem of her broken heart is maybe too degraded,
She's not able to write it down, her soul is jaded,
The phrases of her life are burning on the inside,
A description about the moment when her dreams died,
It's smashing her heart and her tired mind.
From nowhere she hears a sardonic voice,
"- You're not able to hear the words anymore, in fact you never really did,
You have shed some scraps on pages, lies your soul to feed with",
She covered her ears, closed her eyes,
To stop hearing the demonic voice she tries,
"- Shut up!" she yelled again like every day,
It's impossible to escape this abomination that came in her way.
Maybe this is an already lost fight,
A decommissioned road to the healing light,
Her pathetic flounder makes no sense,
She's laying on the floor holding a broken pen.
Torn by the fall from grace,
She will leave behind just a bloody trace,
Do You Remember?I burst into laughter,Do You Remember? in Free Verse More Like This
You're begging me to let you go,
Do you really think this is a joke?
Now is time for you to bow.
Do you remember when you used to call me "freak"?
What made you believe that I'm so weak?
There's nothing bad in being different,
Now, I hope you know how pleased you should be,
To know the real me,
A mad psycho, that's what I am,
And with a bloody murder, that's how I'll end this game.
Do you remember how you used to break me down?
Everyday bit by bit, why you wanted to destroy my soul?
But I didn't let you see my tears,
I turned my back, pretending is not real,
I couldn't let you know my fears.
Now, I hope you won't mind,
If I tear you open wide,
Chop your heart,
Do you remember you did the same?
For your savage death you are the one to blame.
Why don't you laugh in my face once more?!
Do you believe now that the wheel can turn?
Well, your whole life is about to bend,
Take a look at my hand,
Is that your miserable life that I'm holding?
With your own blood,
Glass WallI look at you, you look at me,Glass Wall in Free Verse More Like This
I miss the way we used to be,
I call out your name, but you can't hear,
Even if you're standing there, you're far away from here.
I sit and stare,
I know is not my world anymore,
A glass wall separated our lives,
Built by broken promises and lies,
An impenetrable wall without a door.
How could we let this happened?
When we got this to an end?
But now my world is shattering,
With tears in my eyes,
I'm leaning on the wall,
Waiting for this world to fall.
The sky is coming down on me,
Sherds of sun are ripping off my skin,
From the pain soon I'll be set free.
You stare at me,
But your sight is empty,
I touch the glass wall, waiting to flee,
Or maybe just to drown in my own blood,
Destroyed by my expectations,
In the end that's all I've got.
I close my eyes,whispering "goodbye",
I don't hate you, I never really did,
I smile, even if now for me is time to die.
This NightUp on the sky,the moonlight is so bright,This Night in Free Verse More Like This
But as I look at your face, I can't understand what happened this night.
Your body is cold,but so my heart,
Your flesh is torn apart, but so was my soul,
When you left me all alone.
Painfull screamings, tears and blood,
Are hauting me tonight,
But it doesn't matter, I don't care,
I can live with all this blame.
Your whacked body lying down there
But trust me, this time,
You ain't going anywhere.
I yelled at you come back to me!
But I couldn't let this be
I grabbed your hands and begged you-don't!
You pushed me away, tried to leave again,
With my face soaked in tears I sworn-this ain't gonna be this way
Blind rage, frustration, broken soul,
This night they took again control,
They blurred my eyes and mind,
Through the shadows of the night,
I've let the anger be my guide
So I've pulled out the knife,
I stabbed you in the back,
This night I ended your life.
Life Spilled On A PageI feel like I can't take it no more, here on the floor I lay,Life Spilled On A Page in Free Verse More Like This
My days, my nights, the moments of my life,
Lost their color, fade to grey
Staring at this blank pice of paper,
I see my memories on rewind,
Starting then to write,
What I really feel inside
I really do my best,
But it seems I just failed this life's test,
I'm nobody and like this I'll stay,
To get up there is no way
So I spill my life on this page,
The only way to free myself,
From the frustration and rage,
I'll paint and write my memories,
While I'm trying to feel again,
The soft touch of the air's breeze,
But it seems like the time is frozen, all I feel is pain
As I write,
For a short moment I've felt like everything was alright,
But then I woke up to the real life,
The dark, grim world,
Where I'm always wrong
Were you really there?Everything is long gone,Were you really there? in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As you're passing by ,
I'm still walking on this road, all alone,
I'm still trying to move on.
An intruder in my mind,the ghost of the old times,
Is reminding me about how you used to say,
That you really care.
All this time were you really there?
Names and ShapesI have broad shoulders,Names and Shapes in Free Verse More Like This
for a woman.
They call my body
"apple shaped" in that
my hips are narrow.
I don't keep time like an hourglass,
I am not sweet like a pear.
But I still hold the allure
of the forbidden fruit I am named for,
and my shoulders are wide
to bear the weight placed upon them.
StuckYour empty gaze was the crack in the road,Stuck in Free Verse More Like This
staring past the pool colored
almost the same shade as last summer's paint job
meant to cover up the scratches
you left on the passenger door
when you were one tequila past sober.
I am a fly trapped in this spiderweb crack
that catches the blue-red urgency of
midnight sirens that you summoned without speaking.
They can't drown out the soundtrack
of our last sixteen seconds,
all caught in my head as if to prove
I don't want it there.
You looked up from letting your fingers linger
on the radio dial when your song came on,
laughing about how it reminded you of cotton candy
and your first boyfriend's cologne,
when your summer eyes caught the headlights,
like stained glass in full sun,
and all you could say was
You always talked about how
if you had three wishes you'd spend one on flying,
but I don't think this is what you meant.
I still have dreams about you telling me
the experience wasn't worth it.
I still reach for telephone to tell you
ShiverYou take twelve steps;Shiver in Free Verse More Like This
the thirteenth becomes a spiderweb.
Its voice cracks out through the winter,
A death rattle.
If you pivot towards the shore,
it'd witness nothing more than
the hopeless groan that leaves your throat
when you recognize futility.
Remember what your father said--
about laying down on ice
like you were a sheet.
He neglected to mention
how frigid the bed.
A beat--you start to move,
trembling like the skeleton trees.
How evil the water leers.
Each moment a torment
as you slowly kneel,
the fire in your knees giving way
like your footing.
Your breath comes short
in smoke-signal gasps
and for all the warmth inside your coat,
its heat is worthless when wet.
How curious the light
when filtered thus--
through water and ice
like cathedral casements.
The blue is like your sister's eyes
and you wonder
if they'll be as wet as you
when you are pulled back out.
Drowning seems slower
when the water's cold.
Then again, you've never died before
A Heart Like the New England CoastYou looked around the empty house,A Heart Like the New England Coast in Free Verse More Like This
imagined it was a deserted shell.
It barely holds water
and runs over with sand,
and neither of us can live here anymore.
Call me hermit,
Call me a crab,
but I will scuttle away
from your shadow on the beach.
You'd put me in a bucket
to show to your mother.
I'm too big for such plastic aspirations.
I dream of shedding claws for fins,
jumping to some larger shore,
avoiding your low tides
and barnacled hulls,
your warped nets tight around my neck.
Here I was, thinking I'm a catch.
Bitter WinterNever mind the summer nights,Bitter Winter in Free Verse More Like This
the glory of windswept July,
or the broad afternoons
light as the dragonfly landing
on the coneflowers in the garden.
Ignore the rippling landscape that blossoms;
the blushing of the earth,
the leaves that chuckle in their
late August rustlings.
Listen instead to my breathy hush,
my frost-tinged sighs and the
bluish blush that winds in the wastes.
Hold my chill in your lungs like a curse,
and never forget that
it's my fingers that paint the mountain sides,
that bleach the evergreens,
that stop the brooks on their ambling path.
And remember you this...
my fists close hard on the world,
and I do not relinquish my grip by choice.
Ninety-nineIt probably feels like a broken sigh,Ninety-nine in Free Verse More Like This
witnessing a century of repetition and change,
becoming a testament to human tenacity,
and watching too many wars on television.
The nursing home is too sterile for you,
but as your children near sixty,
with problems of their own,
you have no place in their houses.
While everybody visits,
they never stay for long enough.
you are lonely.
Your daydreams are like old jazz records--
sometimes you confuse them with memory.
Were you really such a beauty on your suburb streets?
Did you really love that boy so completely?
Perhaps you have forgotten.
A Colder Kind of LongingHis gaze lingered warm on the icicle,A Colder Kind of Longing in Free Verse More Like This
mind stuck to the idea
of his eyes melting her into a woman.
If the water were to drip
and freeze anew,
it would shape her dress tighter
than the outside chill,
but leave her hair flowing like a snowdrift.
Her eyes would be December-bright,
her laugh like chatter at the hearth.
He knows her heart'd be frozen
by the nature of her birth,
but yearns to be the man
that'd thaw her out.
Dust in the WindI felt the crows' feetDust in the Wind in Free Verse More Like This
growing at the corners of my eyes.
I always knew my soul was ninety,
that it'd take my body seventy years to catch up.
There are memories here
that I have yet to make,
thinking of children
I have yet to have
with a man whose face is clouded
by what I swear will be dementia
after I hit eighty-nine.
Or maybe this is just another life
waving at me from the wrong side of the mirror.
Unlit CandlesYour spirit curled with the smokeUnlit Candles in Free Verse More Like This
towards the ceiling of the funeral home.
This image brought me closure,
and relief that your soul could escape
from the open casket.
When you turned ashes to ashes,
I imagine the release was the same
as when our voices caught
on the hymn's last note
and we all blew out our candles.
Love is a BattlefieldI wonder if this is how a landmine feelsLove is a Battlefield in Free Verse More Like This
Is there that same metallic exhilaration?
Does the shrapnel twist into a grin,
false as the leaden skin that coats
its ticking spine?
Oh, but if only it had a backbone.
There's a countdown in your eyes
but we stare past each other
like shells in the dust.
I go off.
All my mind is a fireball,
and I see nothing but hollow wreckage.
I name it "past"
and move on,
our questions turned to casualties
in the twisting smoke.
The Same Sick StoriesIncomprehensible, shrieking, chokingThe Same Sick Stories in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Bony arms grasping, stroking, groping
Above becomes below
The walls pulse and breathe
Reflections distort and contort
Dead ideas grieve
Tar is flooding my lungs
And climbing all the rungs
On this ladder erected with patience, charm
You'll do me harm
It stains my grainy eyes
Writes disgusting lullabies
The same sick stories we heard
Without knowing why
(You know why)
You miss the transition
Insanity building its hungry hive
Electricity thrums, delusions become
Wholly, impossibly alive
Pick apart logic with tainted magic
Prickling, tickling, psychosomatic
Roaring blood and whimpering nonsense
Unwashed thoughts in a decaying attic
Disciplinarians stab poisonous spines
Against my exposed and aching sides
Prying open all defenses, all pretenses
(Come play in the real world, precious
And I will meet you there)
Swapped with another, a hideous herder
Of lambs you tried to save from murder
Voices curse, hearts burst, and bad
Painful QuestionI always ask the questionPainful Question in Free Verse More Like This
Why must we be this way?
I ask and ask and ask
Though the painful truth remains
Darkened doll eyes fix on distant hells
Foul water hides mementos unclaimed
Thoughtless caress of reality unveiled
In cheerful explosions in a counterfeit crystal sky
Death is festive, decorating all we love
With more appropriate patterns.
Birds break free and stir the ashes
Beaks cracked wide with wordless promises
Stuck down below we strain to hear
The soothing voice beneath the screams
I always ask the question
Why must we be this way?
I ask as if its a secret
A secret no one dares to say
Beneath the danger a swinging schism
Meaningless calm where they all lie
After the storm tore away everything
Leaving only a shell of pride
Encasing a bitter brew of realization
Deafened and numb, scorned by fate
Those that are left endure for their saviors
And hear only bullets and the shrieks of angry birds
I ask this painful question
Beg the universe for a reason
I ask and ask and ask
Sweet And SorrowfulDesolation, wishes in whiteSweet And Sorrowful in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Beneath our conversations
They wait hidden out of sight
In a cave of silken lies
Fat and noxious hungry host
Brings us here and tucks us in
Celebration of the ghosts
Who fell into the undertow.
Gossamer like a recent snow
Subterranean voice of reason
Poison songs that I should know
Of waiting fangs and open arms
Swallow fear and look inside
Mind your manners won't you please?
Clad in white you cannot hide
Or move without vibrations
They will sense your careful tread
The web will fall and so will you
With all the passions it has fed
Its poison sweet and sorrowful
LiberationIn the journey you face there will be many cavesLiberation in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Many traps and the fools who will take them
But no traps hurt more than ones of your own
In your deepest transgressions you make them
But that's not the end; no, its only the start
Though part of you wishes it so
That there was a trapdoor out of here
An asylum where failure could go
They barely know you; justifications
All for the purpose of keeping you bound
They'll cage what's unique as if its a beast
Doomed to be kept underground
But even with hands tied the psyche goes free
This body restrains most of all
Within your dreams you'll find what you need
The trapdoor where misery squalls
Go down the stairs and open the door
To let everything out of its prison
As the casket yawns open you'll discover yourself
Freed and awake and arisen
In this cave of unconscious the shadow will sing
Of cruel and unshakable fear
But if you weren't meant to do more than follow
Why would you even be here?
Mind GamesCandies laced with poison and virtues leashed with viceMind Games in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Look at them with appraising eyes and name your awful price
Afraid to say whose fault it is, afraid to voice your pain
No matter that you're thirsty but afraid to drink the rain
Lips pursed tight with tension and readied hurtful words
Polish all the cages where you keep your broken birds
Whose wings were severed over time so they can't get away
So they would parrot all the lies you feel a need to say
Manipulation is your game and most don't question why
After all, its what we do, before we wilt and die
Moving ShadowsMoving shadows on the wallMoving Shadows in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Maybe you've seen them, they're strange and tall
Some of them look like men with hats
While others look like small black cats.
I don't understand why they stare at us
When we stare back they disappear
We are afraid, and don't know what they want
They have no eyes but they see us here.
When the night seems darker than it should ever be
From the corner of my eye I'll see
Those sinuous shapes that dart away
No matter what we do, they'll always stay.
Blacker than my shadow, stranger than yours
Often they slink fast on all fours
Like our beloved animal friends
Walking along in twos or tens.
When it's dark in the house, they seem to know
When the lights go off, they begin their show
Dancing, prancing, on the walls
They walk and writhe and twitch and crawl
The ones like men, I can feel them stare
I see them here, and everywhere.
They come from somewhere, but not from here
Could it be that they come for our fear?
There are places that we can't quite see
Free Your HeartRose thorn claws pry at the shellFree Your Heart in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Around the dark shard of her heart
Please remember what you were.
Don't take the bait, the curse, the lure.
Love corrupted, madness planted
A grasping wraith inside your mind.
When you were young and so unsure
Trusting as we all once were
The hate will fight to stay alive
Understanding singes vice.
Through all the pain you had endured
Your mind is frayed, but your heart is pure.
I know the truth, the fog has cleared
No more broken promises
She can't hurt you anymore
Defy her now, and take the cure
The Karmic SpiderSmall and vengeful, see it jitter?The Karmic Spider in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Across your wall, intentions bitter
Coming toward you for what you did
Those terrible things you thought you hid
The Karmic Spider, its approaching, slowly
A beacon made by deeds unholy
As time goes on it gains on you
Not even giving a single clue.
Mandibles scissoring, needle fangs poised
Reaching your bedside without a noise
It knows what you did and it knows what to do
The Karmic Spider will be the end of you.
Venom potent, agenda hidden
To the prey that it has smitten
Guilt will be coursing through your veins
The night will rejoice when you feel the pains
No one will see, no one will hear
The bite will feel mild but damage, severe
This arachnid arrived to collect a debt
From the worst of people as they slept
Even knowing of the crimes they commit
There will not be time to have a fit
Soon it will be far too late
The spider will come; Fate is Fate.
Sprig Of MercySpidery grape stems prickle my hand as I take the fruitSprig Of Mercy in Free Verse More Like This
As I search for the truth
Should I be doing this? Would the others approve?
This little seedling yearn to grow
But something inside restricts blood flow
I forgive you
The words like eucalyptus on my tongue, medicinal
But I hold them back and swallow
This world is extracting my seeds
One by one by one
It is filtering the pulp from me
I can't breathe
The blade lances through carotid artery
Grazing bone; a soul goes home
Should I feel guilty? Should I grieve?
This is all that's left of me
Brambles coil around my ribcage
Bringing on the next painful stage
And strangles my heart like barbed wire
You disrupted a wonderful choir
The punishers become the punished
Our cherubic children grow up to be bogeymen
I forgive you
Those beautiful, impossible words
That anti-freeze quelling my righteous rage
Extinguishing the fires of vengeance
Until only doubt is left
But if you let it, will doubt turn to understanding?
The CallFrom the knowing depths of darknessThe Call in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Comes the soft insistent Call
A voice both loved and hated
Inviting meek ones to its thrall.
What is yet shouldn't be
Knows and feels with twisted glee
Dwells in darkness, yet craves light
And corrodes our will to fight.
Through an opening barrier
Chaos longs to be a part
Of our feelings and our choices
Chaos longs to get a start.
It tells you to come close
And to come and stay and dream
While it sounds the silent soul-scream
And shows you skeletons that gleam.
Abysses filled yet cold and empty
That we've never seen before
Beckon sweetly and insistently
Resonating through our cores.
Through distant primal minds
Sounds that deep and haunting Call
That seeps inside, spellbinds
Goading sanity to fall.
False promises abound.
Our inner child it surrounds,
Smoothing hackles, savage bones.
Creating thoughts that aren't our own.
We are told we won't be hurt
But do not listen to the Call
For in your heart it yearns to crawl.
Do not listen to the lullaby
AsphyxiateI am confusedAsphyxiate in Free Verse More Like This
I have no clue
what to do
I once was a lover
I once had an other
She was undercover
My heart she did smother
Drain the blood from my veins
Or blow out my brains
Down my throat stuff your hate
You've caused me to
Warning: constructionThe assembly is slowWarning: construction in Free Verse More Like This
Part by part
Just leave me in peace
to rebuild my heart
A ShoulderWhen she smiles my heart takes flight.A Shoulder in Free Verse More Like This
Her beauty is radiant in any light.
Alas, inside her, emotions stir.
All I want is to be there for her.
Is this... Love?Do you feel it also?Is this... Love? in Free Verse More Like This
Does it show?
What does it mean?
I do not know...
Will love Prevail?His skin like scalesWill love Prevail? in Free Verse More Like This
Her Antenae long
As one side fails
the other presses on
A spark, a light, Connected their eyes
A relationship protected with covering lies
An enemy that he could not kill
An enemy that completes her and gave her thrill
A war that raged on for centuries
Alas, together, the could not be
Their duty to their nations
Forced to kill each others Kin
Reaching a revelation
that this war was not but sin
The war, no destination
The Culrpit, corrupt legislation
Fighting on, Without explanaition
The end result, Mass Damnation
Yet in all of the confusion
Seeing through the deep illusion
A choice he'd have to make
A chance she'd have to take
Will they choose each other and save the day?
Or will the war rage on and love be slain?
AliveThough sunny days and smiles are all that catch my eye,Alive in Free Verse More Like This
everyday is a struggle for a reason not to die.
All I ever wanted was to see you smile and thrive,
but all you do is frown and fail. It's eating me alive.
When Love Was Still Alive (Contest)A tortured craving in my soulWhen Love Was Still Alive (Contest) in Free Verse More Like This
A desperate desire to feel whole
Search after search revealing none
No other person to be my only one
I think back to our love, every now and then
I often remember lounging in the den
Our Memories unrivaled, by other women and men
These words as my time machine, I would live them again
Parties, events, and movies you invited me to
And When alone together, the things we would do
Every day another adventure, always something new
Everything that I looked at, reminding me of you
Our happiness boundless, we ignored our friends
We told them to screw off, that our love never ends
So perfect together, our happiness forever
Never could we have guessed, one day it would sever
Your sparkling eyes, your beautiful face
We were taking on life at our own pace
You were the one I could never replace
But I could only jog when you made it a race
You began waking in the late of the night
As I tried to protect to you, we began to fight
We said things we didn't mean, to each ot
UnspokenWas it something I said?Unspoken in Free Verse More Like This
Is it all in my head?
What is this feeling of dread?
No more tears can I shed...
So the color is red?
So I can't leave this bed?
How many lies have I been fed?
Will the truth come when I am dead?
What more have you not said?
What are these voices in my head?
Still I cannot shake this dread...
If not tears shall blood I shed?
Everywhere is red...
She leaves me roses by my bed...
Through a tube my meals are fed...
Will answers come when I am dead?
UmbraI love the skyUmbra in Free Verse More Like This
I love the moon
I love the stars
I remember the days
We would call them ours
I love the clouds
I love the breeze
But on this bitter day
It's so cold I could freeze
I love the memories
I don't mind the scars
I remember the days
the whole world was ours
I love the moonlight
I love the dark too
But the cold truth is
I do not love you.
The Turtle and the LeafA tale once told of a forbidden loveThe Turtle and the Leaf in Free Verse More Like This
The Turtle and the Leaf
Though honestly, I'm rather sure
It was made up by some queef
In the land of Irkens and Pokemon
where fierce Beavcoons roamed the land
Where clowns and wombats ate muffins and pickles
Whilst dancing hand in hand
But not all was well in this land of awe
For Daisuke fell in love with the turtle
And out came Dark, to make the spark
But the Leaf overcame this hurtle
With love too strong none could break their bond
Even by means of a tutu'd purple monkey
Luckily Tuesday nights were disco nights
And the lovers liked to get funky
The bond between the lovers was strong
Apart they would not be stricken
That is of course if it were not for
That old hag's delicious fried chicken
It broke their bonds and It tore them apart
Their love though strong did fail
Then the pikachu's sought Seppuku
With elephant farts in a large toe nail
With 49 kilos of plastic explosives
They hired a flame-throwing bartender
Who took them with him as he died
Im-PerfectionIm-Perfection in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not strong,
I'm not athletic,
I'm not always interesting,
though, I may be a lunatic.
I'm not beautiful,
and I'm no genius.
and maybe superfluous.
I'm constantly in need of correction,
for whatever reason.
I'm a living imperfection,
that has fallen for a being of perfection.
Some may not like this,
some may call me crazy.
I know what this is,
and it definitely isn't easy.
I'm no angel.
I'm no hero.
I know well,
and though that is so,
I remain content.
My hope remains endless,
I give 100 percent,
and never any less.
I'm not perfect.
I'm far from it,
but I stay in tact.
is my reason,
it's how I function.
I make mistakes,
that cause me pain,
and gives me aches.
I don't train,
I do fall,
there's things I haven't seen,
I'm nowhere near tall,
there's places I've never been.
Theres things I don't know,
and people I haven't met.
but my weakness doesn't show,
and I'm not dead yet.
I'm a mere mortal,
fighting for a godde
Not EnoughNot Enough in Free Verse More Like This
I've already confessed,
and said that I love you,
many times I've displayed,
that my feelings are still true.
I'm sure you noticed,
that you're my everything.
I hope you've been impressed,
because I'll still be trying.
I love being nearby,
when we're apart,
I kind of want to die.
especially as we depart.
The more we talk,
the more we learn about each other,
and as we walk,
I'm happy we're there together.
I learn more about you,
and how great you are.
Who ever thought,
I could love you even more.
do you feel the same way?
and would you stay?
or just tell me "never"...
with each moment we share,
I discover more to love,
more reasons to always be there,
more reason to live.
I hope you enjoy my company,
but if not,
I could disappear easily.
if you ever want.
I've said what there is to say,
and now I'm just a rerun,
repeating myself day after day.
"You're the one"
"I wish you would say yes"
"You are my reason for living"
I find myself basking in selfishness,
but what am I giving?
Day of LoveDay of Love in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Happy Valentines Day!
It's supposedly a day of love,
so show some affection today,
and maybe get a dove.
Today... should be nice,
you should get that fuzzy feeling,
a lot more than once,
and there should be no crying!
everything today should be heartfelt,
and about your significant other.
today should make your heart melt,
because you'll probably be together.
be you boyfriend and girlfriend,
or husband and wife,
the time that you spend,
should be the time of your life!
make this day a day to remember,
and make the night even more memorable,
remember it forever,
or at least for a long while.
for those on the single side,
Don't you worry,
look far and wide,
and eventually you'll see,
there's someone for you.
If you think you've found them,
do you know what to do?
you keep trying for them,
and maybe one day they'll realize,
that you, their admirer,
are the grand prize,
and that you're better than any other.
maybe not now,
but keep at it,
and let them know,
how long you'll wait.
ElectrifyingElectrifying in Free Verse More Like This
You are electric,
the sight of you,
makes me ecstatic.
this is true.
you send jolts through my spine,
every time we touch,
and thats just fine.
it's never too much.
you stop my movement,
and stop my thinking.
and i stay content,
though i'm hardly breathing.
you still my heart,
yet it beats faster.
you give it a jump start.
you're my defibrillator.
all this from small contact.
your magnetic pull,
this poor fool.
You're very stunning,
But I can't pull away,
not that I'd ever want to,
I hope you let me stay.
I really hope you do.
If only you knew,
what I feel each day,
when I'm without you.
the things I long to say,
every time we speak,
but I just can't talk,
I get too weak,
to the point I can't walk.
My mind grows numb,
when I hear your sweet voice,
I'm struck dumb.
and I have no choice,
but to look foolish,
but I don't mind,
this minor anguish.
when you're around,
I tend to freeze in place,
my heart skips a beat,
then starts to ra