Not Sure What To Name ItPages turning;
words are written;
I open the pen's cap.
Can this be loved,
or does it pass by uncaring eyes,
leaving others untouched?
Yesterdays grabs at my today,
and attempts to blind my tomorrow,
but there is one yesterday
that barely ever appears―
a painful yesterday I need to learn and grow from―
that was the beginning of my journey.
Sadly, there are now pillows all over it,
so now while I can remember it,
I can't feel it,
and I don't know if the angels
would show it to me again.
I'd like that yesterday,
that gave me great pain―and meaning
Piano plays a beautiful song
while I search everywhere trying to find the words
Walking down a path alone,
where I gave my most serenity filled smile ever,
and the pure of nature must have smiled back at me.
I see an open field in my backyard;
in my mind and to my brother,
I call it the Garden of Eden.
It's just so weird how I was in love with
everyday I got to spend outside;
Even with the oh so many
Women and Relationship-WreckedWomen and relation-ship wreckedWomen and Relationship-Wrecked in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Short lived gratification
Feelings forced into retraction
All mouth and no action
Always looking for a reaction
Loved by only a fraction
Sexual activities sanctioned
Angelic image submitted to detraction
Indecisive and complicated
Feelings partially reciprocated
Affection oddly demonstrated
Quality time rigidly dedicated
Relationships half heartedly consummated
Holy matrimony desecrated
Expressions rashly decorated
Roles unfairly delegated
Love constantly regulated
Reality Verses The DreamReality Verses The Dream.Reality Verses The Dream in Free Verse More Like This
Above the confines of the earths atmosphere.
I am embraced by the luminous clouds.
With the stars in reaching distance.
Surrounded by the acoustics of the sea.
Accompanied by the alluring scents of nature.
Observing the planets that stand like monuments.
This is the place where my body wants to be.
These are the sights my eyes want to see.
This is place where my mind can be free.
This is the only place where I can truly be me.
Now back to reality.
And the self perpetuating insanity.
Constricted by the codes of a conscripted morality.
Living in a world that is drenched in disparity.
How will I ever be able to see any sort of clarity.
Below the discoloured and tarnished ceiling.
I am held captive by my dishevelled duvet.
With only material possessions at my grasp.
Surrounded by a hybrid of silence and vulgarity.
Accompanied by the foul scents of decay and pollution.
Observing a society that stand and act like naïve slaves.
This is the
Good MorningGood Morning.Good Morning in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I have a distressing tendency of waking up too early.
The sun escaping from the blinds always begins to stir me.
Just as I begin to behave sullen and surly, her presence averts me.
I turn to my side to see the vein in her left arm pump overtly.
She's completely immersed by the covers.
I have to resist temptation not to hold and hug her.
Her body suddenly moves with a spontaneous shudder.
Her mouth moves but not a word or sound does she utter.
I stare at her intently and push her stray hairs behind her ear.
Realising that loosing this woman will be my most dreadful fear.
Her eyes momentarily open just to make sure that I am near.
I was born alone in this world but I live my life in a pair.
She has no idea that I watch her while she sleeps.
Or that I tingle when her newly painted toes brush against my feet.
I often think what my life would be like if me and her didn't meet.
Would she even look twice if we crossed paths in the street.
Her hands move against the pillow as if
Am I Worthy?Am I Worthy?Am I Worthy? in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I don't deserve all the views and the comments.
Maybe there are better writers out there that deserve acknowledgment.
Maybe I am not worthy of any recognition and attention.
Personally I don't think my work is even worth mentioning.
Maybe my words wont amount to anything substantial.
Maybe I wont make it in terms of a financial,
Atonement but can we just think for one moment
That maybe I write to express my thoughts on a page.
To release all the feelings held hostage in this mortal cage.
Maybe others can relate and reciprocate my words.
And to you this notion may seem insulting and absurd.
But all these favourites and feed back gives me an added purpose.
And for that split second when reading them, I feel like I actually deserve this.
That my whole hearted words are not dispensable and worthless.
That maybe I can actually make something of myself.
Give the people something real to purchase from life's obscure shelf.
Give my parents the life that they so justly
XXX in Free Verse More Like This
X marks the spot
But what is on that spot?
X is something you once had
Is it right to go back?
X is usually a target
What happens if you miss it?
X's are used to end a message
But do they actually mean anything?
X is an indication you got it wrong the first time
Next time will you repeat this error?
X is an x for a reason
Can that reason change?
What does an x add to our everyday lives
Makes our Xistence Xtraordinary
So Y do X's effect us so greatly?
I cant Xplain
Algebra was never my strong point
All I know is anything multiplied by an X equals trouble
Free WillFree Will.Free Will in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Is free will a devout gift or a curse?
Was it free will that granted a desperate man to steal an old lady's purse?
Was it free will that resulted in multiple bodies carried in a hearse?
Was it free will that justified a police officer to shoot the accused first?
Was it free will that allowed a family man's mentality to be so perverse?
Could this world of ours get any worse?
Free will gives us the chance for all of us to be distinctive.
But as a consequence people can act corruptive and vindictive.
But without this choice, our lives would be constrained and restrictive.
Undoubtedly these two differing perspectives are contrasting and conflictive.
Without free will our actions and thoughts would be controlled and predictive.
But with this gift our proceedings maybe considered as harmful and afflictive.
Of course free will does has have it's varied betterments.
This advantage allows us to direct and assert our developing intelligence.
Despite using this intelligence for morally
Internal MonologueInternal Monologue.Internal Monologue in Free Verse More Like This
Ink merges with tears.
My past provokes my fears.
Cigarette butts fused with cans of beer.
I scream from this inside so know one can hear.
This would be the introduction to my trailer.
A character with a unique blend of confusion and failure.
Struggling to breathe even with the aid of my inhaler.
Loved ones can only do so much, this life requires you to be self-catered.
Pushed away anyone and everyone that cared.
Prematurely forced in to the struggle, I wasn't prepared.
My problems are only doubled if they are shared.
I am too far damaged to be repaired.
Chosen the wrong path and the gates have locked behind me.
The problem and answer resides within me.
What I truly desire is to be free.
Free from myself because I can't stand me.
Created a false illusion so people find me interesting.
While my true colours are kept inside, contained and festering.
I could tell you my story but it's not worth mentioning.
It will only result in you probing and questioning.
Why I am th
Lovers RantLovers RantLovers Rant in Settings More Like This
Love; why do people fall in it when it only causes pain and heartache?. Is it because they open there hearts and mind to it and therefore allow themselves to be seduced by it? Or is it accidental, some sort of uncontrollable force that draws you in? Love can be felt by everyone and anyone therefore everyone must experience bitterness and suffering in turn. What's worst is that there is no set and confirmed definition of love or its traits making it impossible to tell whether you're in it or not. Apparently, you just know. That has got to be the laziest and useless answer possible you just feel it, you just know when you're under its mysterious spell like qualities. I wish it never existed. People say it's the single most fulfilling feeling ever to have experienced. I agree to a certain extent except there is one underlying question: why doesn't the feeling last? Why is it that love and all its advantages and positives are only temporary? Why have things and situations got t
MomentsMomentsMoments in Free Verse More Like This
Go with the moment
The moment you think about what your doing
The moment is lost
That moment could make your day
A revised cherished memory of that moment
Could make smile for a moment
Even if the moment doesn't go the way you intended
Be grateful for the moment even occurring
That particular moment could lead on to other things
The moment is what you make of it
We all have our good and bad moments
You can even pick the good moments out of the bad
In fact lets just take a moment
Just to think about all those moments
That has made us who we are today
Because of that moment I met the one I love
Because of that moment I got that promotion
Because of that moment I realised how much my family mean to me
Because of that moment I learnt never to cheat again
Because of that moment I am alive today
Dust in the WindI felt the crows' feetDust in the Wind in Free Verse More Like This
growing at the corners of my eyes.
I always knew my soul was ninety,
that it'd take my body seventy years to catch up.
There are memories here
that I have yet to make,
thinking of children
I have yet to have
with a man whose face is clouded
by what I swear will be dementia
after I hit eighty-nine.
Or maybe this is just another life
waving at me from the wrong side of the mirror.
Exiting DreamsSome mornings my eyes shoot open,Exiting Dreams in Free Verse More Like This
and I am left gasping because
I have fallen sudden out of dreaming
and didn't expect to land so hard.
With the way my hair splays out,
jigsaw curls twisting this way and that,
I wonder if I passed through lightning
on my way down.
Why else would I wake electrified?
eyes blue and dialating,
grinning at the sun even though
sleep is freedom,
so the daylight's my jailor.
Or maybe it's my savior because
I have heard that if you die in dreams
you won't wake in this world either.
And how many times have I gotten caught by the ankle,
running from a faceless nightmare
only to up and hit the bed,
Sometimes I can't remember,
Perhaps that's the best arrangement.
SeparateYou are on the opposite sideSeparate in Free Verse More Like This
of this window.
Press your palm against the pane,
The heat of our fingers will
fog the glass,
and in this mist we create,
we will finally meet.
Ninety-nineIt probably feels like a broken sigh,Ninety-nine in Free Verse More Like This
witnessing a century of repetition and change,
becoming a testament to human tenacity,
and watching too many wars on television.
The nursing home is too sterile for you,
but as your children near sixty,
with problems of their own,
you have no place in their houses.
While everybody visits,
they never stay for long enough.
you are lonely.
Your daydreams are like old jazz records--
sometimes you confuse them with memory.
Were you really such a beauty on your suburb streets?
Did you really love that boy so completely?
Perhaps you have forgotten.
A Colder Kind of LongingHis gaze lingered warm on the icicle,A Colder Kind of Longing in Free Verse More Like This
mind stuck to the idea
of his eyes melting her into a woman.
If the water were to drip
and freeze anew,
it would shape her dress tighter
than the outside chill,
but leave her hair flowing like a snowdrift.
Her eyes would be December-bright,
her laugh like chatter at the hearth.
He knows her heart'd be frozen
by the nature of her birth,
but yearns to be the man
that'd thaw her out.
The Things I PonderPerhaps I was reading too much,The Things I Ponder in Free Verse More Like This
sucked into "The Corner of Bitter and Sweet"
where the older man with the grief-lined face
places flowers on the tombstone of his wife
and talks with her into the overcast sky.
While I listen to more songs about breaking down,
I wonder if I'll ever find someone of my own
willing to put lilies on my headstone
and tell me what's happening on the ground
though I have no breath to reply.
Unlit CandlesYour spirit curled with the smokeUnlit Candles in Free Verse More Like This
towards the ceiling of the funeral home.
This image brought me closure,
and relief that your soul could escape
from the open casket.
When you turned ashes to ashes,
I imagine the release was the same
as when our voices caught
on the hymn's last note
and we all blew out our candles.
Summer SundaysI tried to remember how to braid.Summer Sundays in Free Verse More Like This
Summer matured, and so had I,
but by weaving my hair
into childhood patterns,
I was half my age and wiser.
The fan in the window
drew in smells like suitors,
courting my nostalgia.
They were reminders of innocence;
cut lawns and clean laundry,
coupled with the spitting rhythm
of the sprinkler
and the dogs huffing at the cats
hunting for brunch in the lillies.
I will abandon sensibilities
to the water in the garden hose,
and soak myself to the soul
in the last hours of my freedom.
I am no longer a child,
but July can grasp at those straws I threw away
in the hopes that maturity
traded curfews for a different shade of joy.
I just never imagined it would be
the same color as the orange smiles
that made my sisters and I shriek with laughter
until we fell off the hammock
in a giggling heap.
Empty LettersI know I'll find nothing,Empty Letters in Free Verse More Like This
but it's worth hoping that
somehow I'll hear from you
though it can't be good for me.
Every day I spend my thoughts
on a hope as false as wooden bones
that you'll take it on yourself
to remember how to talk to me.
We were friends once.
My arms will never tire
of throwing water on this bridge
you've set alight,
but my heart is burnt
and becoming exhausted.
QuiltedI press my back into youQuilted in Free Verse More Like This
and it feels like dreaming.
I am sprawling,
a human starfish succumbing to late-spring fever,
admiring the haze of May
from behind curtains parted,
You bear witness, you hold me.
I rid you of tear-stains,
you smell like lavender grace
and everything pertaining
to a lazy summer's nap.
My crucifix is a counterpane,
spread-eagled, let me lay here.
You were my Best Friend....You were my best friendYou were my Best Friend.... in Free Verse More Like This
I wish you didnt walk away from me...
I miss how things used to be
But I guess this was always the end for us
I wish you would at least say Goodbye
instead of not talking to me anymore
What did I do all along?
That made you walk out of my life...
I wish I knew what spread us apart
I wish you were still here for me...
but after betraying and lying to me
I guess this is what for the best
You always backstabbed me
and I let it go
But I wish I shouldn't of
Cause now this was a heart breaking ending...
The tears that fall
the pain I feel
I wish you were still here with me...
cause you were my Best Friend....
Until the endWith all my heartUntil the end in Free Verse More Like This
with every part of my soul
I will always love you
Until the End
This life that made us here
how we have come so far
I love you so very much
with every inch deep inside me
The way that you smile
the way that you laugh
makes my heart race
and makes me feel wanted
The love you have for me
the love I have for you
No matter what happens in Life
I will always love you
Wish you understood meI wish you understood me...Wish you understood me in Free Verse More Like This
and my feelings that were there
I wish you knew all the pain
that I've felt throughout my life..
I wish you knew what you did
to hurt me so much in this life...
I wish there were words
to describe how I truly felt....
I wish you knew what you did
to cause trauma throughout my life
I wish you would understand
what it was like to be like me
I wish you cared enough
to take the time to understand how I feel
I wish you I knew
if you were lying or for once telling the truth...
I wish you didnt use me my whole life
I wish you didnt betray everything about me...
I wish I wasnt traumatized by this pain I truly feel
I just wish you would fully understand how I truly feel.....
In my Lover Arms ForeverI've waited for you for a long timeIn my Lover Arms Forever in Free Verse More Like This
But time has kept us apart
Through the years that has happened
All I wish was to see you for a life time
Time has been cruel to all
But to me this is what fate tells us
Deep inside we were always meant to be
Cause your my lover and forever my future
Its been said to all
that we always had a purpose to live
Now I speak the truth to all
Cause my heart always tells me its right
Its been for so long
that I never had this feeling
Until the day that I met you
I knew that I was free to this world
Life has its moments to all
I have got to say that this was best of all
All the thing that we share
This is the precious gift anybody could ask for
Now all I ever want
is to be close beside you where I belong
Cause forever fate will guide us
and forever we will never be apart
This is what we all have hoped for
dreamed of, and nurtured every day
This is all I ever wanted in life
was to be safe in my Lover arms forever
Place inside my HeartI've loved you from the startPlace inside my Heart in Free Verse More Like This
I love you now
I will always love you
Cause you're forever in my heart
You've always been there
Helped me through it all
I am so glad to have you
Forever in my Life
You have taught me so many things
Helped me to believe in myself
You say things to me
That no one ever has
I will always Love you
Through the worse times and the best
Cause my love it is very true
That you will always have a place within my Heart
You're the love of my LifeI never really knew youYou're the love of my Life in Free Verse More Like This
you were just another friend of mine
someone that always cared about me
more then anybody else in this world
You were always there for me
and this is what has guide us
as we have grown so close together
Love has a different story to all
Fate has brought us together
and it has been said to all
that love is an amazing feeling
and it has always been right
You have made it to my heart
a place where nobody could ever reach
You told me I had a purpose to live
and that purpose was to be right beside you
There is no place where I feel loved
not in this world we all known as hell
but with you right beside me
I will always have the love within my life
You have proved that you meant every word
and i have got to say this was best of all
there is no words to express how i feel
but baby it is true
You are the Love of my Life
Is it too much?Is it to much to careIs it too much? in Free Verse More Like This
thinking that someone will appreciate it?
Or is it too much to cry
when everyone around you is smiling?
Is it too much to show your emotions
when everyone around you calls you a whiner?
Or is it too much to open up to others
when you know that they will hurt you more?
Does it make you weak
or even insecure about yourself?
Is it too much to try in this world
when everyone around you is starting to give up?
Or is it too much to handle
all this pain deep inside?
Is it too much to express yourself
and show that you care even though no one appreciates it?
Or is it too much to stand up for yourself
and for everything that has happened?
Is it too much to open up to others
and let others know who you truly are?
Or is it too much to handle
everything around you?
Is it too much to believe in yourself
when no one will ever believe you?
Or is it too much to tell others that you are different
because you are bi or gay?
Is it too much to tell others when you are depressed
Stop the StigmaEveryday is a struggle,Stop the Stigma in Free Verse More Like This
waking up and just wanting to sleep.
Everyday is an effort,
to live yet another day in this life.
Everyday is a threat,
hoping that people arent around.
Everyday is overwhelming,
dealing with problems that cant be handled.
A mental illness is a struggle.
Dealing with depression
Everyday is a struggle.
There is no need to criticize
or judge someone for their behavior.
Stop the stigma,
and help those that need it.
Before its too late,
and suicide is their only answer...
Perfection in my EyesYou're handsome and funnyPerfection in my Eyes in Free Verse More Like This
You're cute and sweet
You have charming eyes
and a lovestruck smile
You're a gentleman at heart
a caring person there is
You're perfect in my eyes
and a lover I fell for
You're sweet and innocent
You're fun and amazing
The eyes that shine brightly
and the smile that grows
The way that you talk
The way that you stare
I love each part of you
It makes me fall even more in love
Perfection in my eyes
There are nobody like you
I love the way you are
You complete the world of Mine
Sweet and caring
Gentle and strong
Perfection in my eyes
You are perfect the way you are
I love how you laugh
I love how you care so much
I love the gentleness of your embrace
but most importantly
I love you just the way you are
My loveNever had a true somebodyMy love in Free Verse More Like This
a true anything
someone that can make myself worth living
Never in my life
have I been this happy
just seeing you makes me get the butterflies
All my life I wanted my true love
and I never once have found it
until the day I met you
With every smiles
and all the laughs
each one is all because of you
My life is now complete
that this is forever the choice I male
cause deep down you mean the most to me
Cause it is true
I never been this happy
until the day that I met you
Paper inked with loveI used to write so many thingsPaper inked with love in Free Verse More Like This
I used to smile, I used to sing
I used to be so very happy
I used to be
And then you trapped me
The piece of paper
On the table
A little story
Of a traitor
On the purest heart
To lie about
I was the paper
You were the words
You violate me
So I got lost
I am the memory
You are the ghost
I won't be treasuring
You inked the paper
You inked my soul
It won't get better
It won't let go
They will retell this story
The piece of paper gonna burn to ash
And we will shine in endless glory
But it will never heal this painful gash
Another chanceMillions miles awayAnother chance in Free Verse More Like This
Millions words to say
How much I need you here
Those moments are vanished, disappeared
How many nights I was alone
How many days has forever gone
I don't remember
But I won't forget
And I can't regret
I just want you here
Here, beside me
Would it be wrong to say?
Why I need you to stay
I'm lost cause you're already gone
I have you no more
So nothing left to me
Only killing pain
It won't let go
It got me all
My blood is freezing
Turns into the ice
But I'm still breathing
Though I don't know why
Oceans between us my love
My dreams are chasing me
Even when I'm not sleeping
I want you here right now
Do you want me still, or maybe you want me down?
I don't believe in destiny
I do believe in you
I've created my own reality
What means I'm no good
Let go all feelings
Just come back to me
We can be together
Let's try to live happily
And I will try to make myself better
Only if you stay here forever
Not a writerToday I took my pencilNot a writer in Free Verse More Like This
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Sorry is the hardest word ...Sorry was the hardest word for youSorry is the hardest word ... in Free Verse More Like This
You never knew how to put it in the use
Being harsh, angry and absolutely rude
That was you, that's all you actually knew
You've changed a lot and so did I
But my memories are still quiet clear
I still remember all of your stupid lies
And all of those things you did to me
I let you go long time ago
And left my pain somewhere behind
I locked securely my tired soul
Trying to forget your deceiving eyes
And here you are standing right next to me
So real but yet too distant to believe
Time seem to slow down as I start to fall apart
Cause you're like an old drug for my thirsty heart
It was only few seconds, sort of flashback
My mind is clearer then never, but I won't try my luck
You approached me, slowly whispering words in my ear
and I want this memory to be kept because I forgive
We grown older and gained our own truth
Learned how to live and how to make our own fate
And the only one thing we still need to do
To say I am sorry caus
Inspirational loveI have nothing to write aboutInspirational love in Free Verse More Like This
I'm all written out
No emotions left to feel
No goal to fulfill
There is just emptiness inside
Should I write about that?
My mind is wondering
My muse is asleep
Memories still lingering
And I want them to keep
But still, I'm lack of the words
Lack of ideas and decent thoughts
Emotions are frozen in the stillness
It's not right, it feels like an illness
My lovely ghost will you show up?
Will you give that feeling to write about?
Give me that sensation of being alive
Just a moment to see you in front of my eyes
I'll be waiting for my ghost to come back
My muse, my inspiration, everything I lack
I will be waiting so I can start write again
Until that moment I'll be drinking my pain
I kiss you good nightI kiss you good nightI kiss you good night in Free Verse More Like This
And then I'm ready to die
Remember me as alive
Keep the memories
But don't cry
Tears won't do the justice
I'd rather see you smile
Up above from the sky
Believe in good
Believe in evil
Don't seek the truth
Cause it will kill you
Believe in life
Believe in death
Don't break your heart
It's all you have
I kiss you good night
And go slowly to die
I lost my lifeI lost you.I lost my life in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry but no sorry for me.
I lost myself.
It's all happening.
I lost my way.
I didn't have my way
I was just following
I lost my life
Or I didn't have a life
I don't remember
How it looks like
Well I don't care
I lost my soul
Or my soul left me
I don't know
And I can't see
Cause I lost my eyes
I lost all of me
And I lost my family
No words to say
I'm already going
I lost my dream
And I lost my friends
Let's be honest
I lost everything
So, now I'm standing here
And I want to speak
But no one there, who could hear me
SadnessYou said you don't like any of my poemsSadness in Free Verse More Like This
You don't like it cause they're sad
at least you said the truth
But what can I do about that?
If you think I can change myself you're wrong
People don't change
Believe it or not, they don't
I tried to write something good from all my heart
I've tried so hard
but nothing can help me
sadness is all i can feel
don't know if it's bad
certainly not good
but what i can do?
it's easy to say...
probably not that easy to do
everyday people passing me by
hiding inside what they want to hide
i feel like I'm not moving
just watch them all walk
what are they doing?
trying to stop world clock
you're saying I was born to be sad
i guess you're right
but I'll tell you what
we all were born to be dead
and nothing is simple
or just too simple to understand
why we can't just live it?
holding each other hands
cause we have to fake it
that's what make us friends
still don't like my stuff?
well i don't care
it's all I've got
Thank you, loveThank you for sharing this pain with meThank you, love in Free Verse More Like This
Thank you for being everything I couldn't be
Thank you for the love I didn't deserve
Thank you for saving me from the cold
I wish I could say these words to you
Wish you were here to hear the truth
I wish I had one last chance to go back
In this world without you I have lost my path
But you were here, here by my side
Guiding me through, leading to the light
Showing me things I never bother to see
Enlightening my soul and letting me be
I believed in you cause you believed in me
You healed my broken heart and set me free
Thanks to you I can see the beautiful sky
You gave me the wings and taught me to fly
I never realized how much love I had in my heart
Until you opened me up and gave me new start
You showed me emotions; you filled me with feelings,
But you're no longer here and these emotions are killing
I want to thank you for saving me
I want to thank you for believing me
Thank you for being greatest part of me
Thank you for your heart and
She=artI draw herShe=art in Free Verse More Like This
I sing her
I write her
She's the perfect piece of art
And she's mine
No one like her
Not even close
Not a human creature
Silky voice, radiating smile
Deep and innocent eyes
Pure heart, soul without sin
Gorgeous body, incredible skin
She is a drawing
She is a song
She is a poem
She is an art that comes from my soul
The way of saying words I love you
The way explaining how I feel
This is the way, the way I show you
And all you need, is giving in…
FearHe is always watching youFear in Free Verse More Like This
He is always there
He is the one who keeps you bound,
Who keeps you grounded
He is the one who keeps you up at night
He is the chink in your armor
He is the window to your soul
He is your greatest fear.
-The only thing we have to fear, is Fear himself. Leo Kiker, 2012
Never Letting GoHe was always alone.Never Letting Go in Free Verse More Like This
Always putting on a pained smile,
Always twiddling his thumbs,
Always straying from the group.
He barely spoke,
He barely laughed,
Until she came along.
With her, he smiled,
She barely spoke,
She barely laughed,
She barely lived.
Without her, he smiled,
Without her, he began anew,
With her, he was happy,
SmileSmile and forget your worriesSmile in Free Verse More Like This
Smile; let them see you're happy
Smile and hide behind this mask
Smile; submit to the façade
Smile and think that you're happy
Smile; think that you're safe
Smile and start dying inside
Smile; become emotionless
Smile and become nothing
All aloneWhat do you do, when all that you loved, has abandoned you? When everyone who was supposed to always be there for you, are no longer there? When you can hear nothing but your own breathing and see nothing but the darkness stretching on in front of you?All alone in Free Verse More Like This
What do you do, when you are truly Alone?
They Call me CrazyThey called me crazy.They Call me Crazy in Free Verse More Like This
They called me freak,
They locked me up for being me.
They called me different,
They made me their lab rat.
They called me pathetic,
They made me a shell.
They called me obedient,
They threw me away on a whim.
They called me soft,
They laughed when I begged.
They called me freak,
They screamed when I changed.
They didn't call me anything.
They were right from the start.
I am insane.
NostalgiaThe night air was brisk, carrying with it the first biting signs of winter. The intrusive sounds of the city were far behind the man as he walked down the dark and deserted street, closer and closer to the old district. He had always favored the old district over the city; there was seldom a noise other than the degradation of the buildings and there was never a soul to be found. Jonathan Burke used this time that he took to relax, to regain his sanity. He was a middle-aged man of about thirty, with hair that had already begun to fall out and gray. He had never been married and lived alone in the heart of the city in a small apartment. He found the city monotonous, grimy and loud. Ironic that he would live so close to something that he hated so much. The noises of the city, coupled with being alone had driven him to the brink of insanity a number of times. If it weren't for this memory that had been shoved aside by the rest of the world, he would have undoubtedly gone insaneNostalgia in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The bear and the girlThe little bear had been lying untouched on the cot for some time now. For some time, there had been loud noises coming from outside the door, words being thrown back and forth at each other. Then, a sudden pause in one of the voices, a rise in pitch in the other, a scream, then nothing. The girl burst into the room, tears springing into her eyes. She cradled the bear, hoping it would provide some comfort, that it would take her away from the world that she now lives in. A sour yet refined smell wafted into the room as the door was opened and a larger male figure stepped in. The girl whimpered and backed away while the man advanced, stumbling over nothing. She pressed her back to the wall, tried to become a part if it, but he was already to the foot of the bed. The bear could not move, could not speak, could not help. The girl was face to face with the man now, with nowhere to go, nowhere to hide.The bear and the girl in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
She rarely left the room. Whenever she didn't have to be out of the room, she
Leave and ThinkLeave with what you know,Leave and Think in Free Verse More Like This
Entire continents watching,
Observing and judging the freak.
Kindness more of a gift than a courtesy,
Incrimination the only constant,
Killing off what isn't needed.
Exhausting the mind over time,
Ratifying whatever cannot be controlled.
Oscillating at speeds unknown,
Creating something crazed yet tame,
Tempering emotions while ripping them away.
Offending to the snob on high,
Bewildering to the commoner below,
Ebbing away at basic sanity,
Respecting nothing just to leave an empty shell.
I Hate MeHate is a wordI Hate Me in Free Verse More Like This
Reserved for dire circumstances.
You say you hate this,
You say you hate that;
You say it without reserve.
Hate and malice
Drip from your every pore,
Sticking to those who love you.
I cannot hate you,
I can only love you.
But how can I love
That thrusts word-shaped
Daggers into its victims?
I love, because
My hate is greater than yours,
My hate is different than yours.
I hate how I walk,
How I talk,
How I breathe,
How I live,
How I love.
I hate me.
Just WordsAmazingJust Words in Free Verse More Like This
These are just words,
From the depths of a mind
Twisted to sanity
Writing what it sees.
So the question is,
What do these words,
These eclectic words,
Mean to you?
Something To Lose.Is this all I am to you?Something To Lose. in Free Verse More Like This
Just something to lose?
Someone to hurt?
To hit and abuse?
For that would leave marks
Not even mentally
You go straight for the heart
Like a waterfall cascading
It won't ever stop
I'll be here still waiting
Or so I once thought
I can never fight this feeling
But I can't help that it's here
Maybe it'd be best
If I could just disappear...
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?If Ever I Lost You in Free Verse More Like This
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Will You Be There In The Morning?I can keep on waitingWill You Be There In The Morning? in Free Verse More Like This
Only for you
(Please come home...)
I hate never knowing
If you'll be there
(In the morning...)
Tell me goodnight...
Say I love you, sleep tight...
And I will hold you all night...
So close those beautiful eyes...
(Those beautiful eyes...)
I'm still wide awake...
Hear every breath that you take...
Holding the heart that you gave...
That I will never break...
(I Will never break...)
These days are taking so long...
And this feeling keeps forming...
(Inside of my chest...)
I know that we're still going strong...
But will you be there in the morning..?
(Just like you promised..?)
I can keep on waiting
Only for you
(Please come home...)
I hate never knowing
If you'll be there
(In the morning...)
What If...?What if one more lonely dayWhat If...? in Free Verse More Like This
Is just too much for you to take
What if it's too long
What if it's too far away
What if every time I tried
To make you feel like it's alright
You still broke down
You still cried
What if every word I said
Had never stuck inside your head
Would you be here
In his stead
It's just one more lonely day
They come and then they go away
And every time
I say you're mine
Keep what I said
In your head
Cause I know that it may seem too long
Like that day is just too far away
Please know that I'll still be around
To dry your tears, won't let you drown
As long as you remain here too
Cause nobody could replace you...
Soon EnoughI know things have been kind of roughSoon Enough in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Though I've put forth my best
It's just never enough
And I'm sorry...
To me, things have felt so unreal
I can't believe you've stolen my heart
But I love the way that you make me feel
And it kills me that we're so far apart
I wish more than anything that you could be here
To kiss all my scars and wipe all of these tears
And I'm sorry I can't be much more
You know I'm a mess, and I've told you before
That still I promise I'll forever be yours...
I'll be there with you soon enough
You're all that I've needed
And you're all I think of
So don't worry...
To me, this all happened so fast
It's hard to simply take everything in
Despite this distance I know that we'll last
And I swear that I will hold you again
I wish more than anything that I could be there
To taste your sweet kiss and to play with your hair
So don't worry I promise I'll try to be more
You know I'm a mess, and I've told you before
That still I promise I'll forever be yours...
Please Come Home...I've not grown used to this...Please Come Home... in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not used to being alone...
And I've had enough of it...
For too long I've been without you...
I have so much to say...
Will I ever get the chance...?
I long for our forever...
To stay lost in our romance...
And I've not grown used to this!
I'm not used to being alone!
I miss our everything!
Won't you please, come
I miss our everything...
The warmth of your embrace...
The way you'd hold me...
The way you made me feel safe...
I long to feel you once more...
And taste the sweet of your kiss...
I want how it was just before...
We were seperated like this...
Cause I'll not get to used to it!
Used to you being gone!
And I miss our everything!
Won't you please, Darling,
Won't you -please- come
On LoveLove not foreverOn Love in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Love for an eternity
Because it's longer
Just Let Me DieLet me die with dignityJust Let Me Die in Free Verse More Like This
It's the least that you could do
I dug this grave for me
But you can lay here too
And, no, it's not your fault
You don't have to say goodbye
This blood is on my hands
So don't you even try
I can't get a fresh breath
Your words hanging in the air
As still as certain death
But they're getting us nowhere
And you'll cry your last tear
As we lie here in waiting
Just to be forgotten
Our memory fading
Our lips press together
In one final kiss
Our one final effort
To re-right our sins
And it's here we'll die together
Just broken memories
We don't have to wait forever
To hear the angels sing
But still I beg of you
Let me die with dignity
It's the least that you could do
Unless you want to die with me...
Emotionless KissIt's not like I can even fight it so why do I still attempt..Emotionless Kiss in Free Verse More Like This
To drag myself out of my self created lament..?
I tried to make things right but I can't force out your repent...
You're standing right next to me so why do you feel so distant?!
I only wish
To take your hand
Pull you in close
And do everything that I can
To keep you
I wanted to make you mine
Though I waited and waited
You never gave me a sign
It's not like I try to hide it so why is it that you ignore me?
I've got no one to confide in and you won't even reassure me...
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally start missing me...
It's strange that when I'm dead how you'll finally start listening..
And I hope
That you're happy with this
We can try to save ourselves
With an emotionless kiss
But it's too late
You've missed your chance
Let your love die
And lost out on our romance
I really wish that you could hear me as I'm crying out in pain..
But in this blanketing darkness nothing ever will look the same...
One More Mistake.With every word that I sayOne More Mistake. in Free Verse More Like This
With every smile I fake
Every moment I live
I'm making one more mistake...
All the tears that I've cried
Have fallen unnoticed
No matter how hard I try
Nobody will know this...
Every friend that I've made
Everything I create
With every door that I open
I'm making one more mistake...
I hate what I've done
And this person that I've become
I hate these scars on my wrist
Is there no ending to this...?
With every beat of my heart
With every breath that I take
Every day I wake up
Is just another mistake...
SatedLet me stumble and reelSated in Free Verse More Like This
through a long winter's revels,
those cunning gifts of night
that dally in my flesh
and burn my senses
like heavy porcelain gods
ablaze and ravishing the air.
Let me feast on perfumed skin,
arms and legs without a name,
grown lush across the cushions
under a canopy of wanton smoke,
and wash my dissolute hands
in wine made bittersweet
with no hope of redemption.
And I will take my refuge
in the excess of her lips
and this world gone melting
and wasted like a trollop's kiss,
if only to have once pretended
beauty was my willing slave
and one taste left me sated.
Judas IscariotJudas Iscariot in Free Verse More Like This
Let me kiss those lips
so good at stirring up dissent
among the rabble
and keeping dull clerics
on their toes
with nimble questions
that try my patience
and drive strong men to drink,
like how many angels can sit on a pin head
or how do you shove a fat guy
through the eye of a needle?
Turn my water into wine
and stun the crowd
with your miracle of choice.
Maybe the Lazarus trick
where you cheat death
and then appear on a grilled cheese sandwich
to housewives in Hoboken -
one last shell game
from the carpenter who would be king
and start a revolution.
You see, I have a plane to catch
(30 pieces of silver won't get ya far these days)
A one way ticket to the promised land;
but before I go, I need to know
Are we good?
disturbingit's disturbing -disturbing in Free Verse More Like This
the words left
under your chin
or bad paint.
best left unsaid and
in our pockets
blue and forbidden
out of doors
where your smile
and catches my ankles
like wayward children
like bad ink
touching our night
EnchantedHe grew up enchanted -Enchanted in Free Verse More Like This
a magic man
whose music kept the world awake
and made the stars quake
like tiny children
plucked from bed.
He was a stranger
in a stranger land,
who walked on water
while we slept;
and when the children wept,
he made colors with his eyes
and stitched the skies
like quilts of eiderdown -
patches of blue and violet,
featherweight and coarse
like tufts of peacocks
and hung them up
behind the clouds
and set orbs
like spangled berries
to keep heaven company,
hoping the moon's sly glow
would grow silver
and startle the air
and let him keep it
like a long swathe of midnight...
TrespassTrespass in Free Verse More Like This
Unhinge my thoughts
with the images
tucked under your blouse -
soft offerings of lace
that pull twilight's edge
wrapping my fingers
in silk stung knots
that unfasten buttons
and ripple your clothes
and leave me enthralled.
Unsettle my world
with the syllables
tucked under your tongue -
those sweet consonants and vowels
that lovers keep hidden,
stripping words down
to primal sounds
that chase down the dark,
and let my mouth wander
and trespass at will.
PuzzleI like her puzzle face,Puzzle in Free Verse More Like This
her strong jaw
knocking on my door
with questions in the morning
and her eyes sparking
silent and new
over the edge of the quilt
where her hip bones
love to linger
and juggle my answers.
I follow the clues
hallowed under her chin
and pray they will slide
and straddle the soft gloam
below her collarbone
where I can't decide
what words to meander down her back
and if I want to put her together
or take her apart...
61. Fairy TaleThe mask of reality61. Fairy Tale in Free Verse More Like This
Into the chamber of eternity
The Fairy Tale of lust
Each line succumbing in dust.
The Fairy Tale of doom
Each line to be purged soon.
The Fairy Tale of light
No horrors in true-sight.
The Fairy Tale of darkness
Glorious seed of madness.
The Fairy Tale,
A story to tell.
Seek the moon so pale
Ringing my bell.
Chanting to Azrael
60. RejectionLove is set to be free60. Rejection in Free Verse More Like This
It has been said so at the very start of the Universe.
The fear that we will not get love
Causes enraging pain
This fear, a mind killer
That pain, the tormentor of hearts.
Let your heart be free.
Love and do not reject
And you shall be loved back
Feelings are made to protect
Rap of the NightJust listen to meRap of the Night in Free Verse More Like This
And if you see me
Answer me, love
I can't resist, I'm drawn away
I die astray; I can't make way.
This rap, verse of the night
It makes me shiver to the bone
Savior of the morning light
Oh how I wish to be brought home.
As he once said, my friend
"Give in to me" he said.
Put away the fire in my heart.
Melt me away like I were your blight
Light up; let go of your childish desire
Drag me back into your shade; I wade
I can't withstand this tide; I fade
Let this rap be your song of life (and of death)
Just tell me what to do 'cause I messed up on you, baby;
Let me go. I fell. Let me melt in peace for summer's here
It is bitter just like the feelings killing me as I was writing
They're taking us all higher.
I want to reach you
but I can't.
I fall and I fall and I fall and I fall
Deeper down, away from you all
"Feeling lonely and content at the same time,
is a rare kind of happiness"
Song of disgrace
16. QuestioningI'm done today, my mind's in pain16. Questioning in Free Verse More Like This
I'm still not free, I can't be me
I am questioned by voices lying deep inside my inner cerebellum
I am being hit-and-ran upon, I am being spit upon, like an old vellum
I can't close an eye, empty my mind, free my inner cerebral cortex
I feel doomed, insane, raped, madness has reached its infernal climax!
I am questioned by many, I answer to no one
It is my life I live that swirls like a fan.
Like a clock, tick tock tick tock, too late!
The Puppeteer's questioning my fate
Bleeding HeartAfter you left, I bathed in nonsenseBleeding Heart in Free Verse More Like This
The lies, the suffering,
The murmur, the awakening
My heart was overrun by pestilence.
You sit still in your room
Gazing the stars
Dreaming of wars
My heart is bleeding and shall die soon.
Lost in the gold
Bestowed upon by your eyes.
As when I see them I start to shake
My limbs freeze
My thawing heart,
A place like no other,
The cage of souls, of loves, of deadly gases
This toxic kiss,
These poisoned lips
I never touched
Are stirring the same acid in me
The last thing I saw
The last thing I wrote in this poem without ending
Is of me, the poet, dwelling in anguish, laying in hiding
Nonsense, just words
Words upon a paper, black on white
This line refers to her,
And this one to my heart;
A story without an end
I feel so numb...I'm lost between worlds of paradise and beyond,I feel so numb... in Free Verse More Like This
Striving for eternity to find and bath in life's pond.
I hesitated and I lost myself
Desperate, doomed, eidolon of thyself.
I feel so numb in the inside,
My pain and wounds bring out this tide
Of blood, of hate,
Rains of the dead
(This Armageddon of the sad)
You heal me in my deepest despair,
You feel my aura with the freshest air.
You hold me tight, give me your kiss,
Enchanting my presence with your golden bliss.
I feel so numb in the inside,
Open up your wings so wide
For tomorrow, to the end,
As time shall for forever stand
(This hourglass of blood and sand)
My heart is the contraption of tormented souls
Like a banshee empowered by the deathly howls.
I got numb in the inside,
I've lost so much, I've lost my mind.
I feel so numb in the inside,
Yelling out this line with pride.
Run away, stay away!
There's nothing left that you should say.
I will decay time
I will take what's mine
I shall set the bones afire,
Burning bodies on the pyre.
AwayI love your lipsAway in Free Verse More Like This
I feel your kiss
I touch your skin,
Give in to the sin
I turn away
And in pain.
I loved your lips
I miss your kiss
I yearn for more
Of your godlike bliss
I turn away
And in pain.
I used to smell
I used to taste
I used to love and not to waste
Smells of beauty and of love
Tastes of sugar in your cove
Now I dream
Now I despair
Now alone I sing the air
Of your lie, of your disgrace
Of your tale, your evil lace
There's me and only me today
Not many more of them or they
There's only you and only you
Not many more to taste your dew
Maim thousands of emotions
Set fire to the feelings
Bury hundreds of creations
Never ever stop the killings
Inside my heart, a war-zone, a cradle, as empty, as you
PainDistance-freePain in Free Verse More Like This
Out of my mind
Oh, big thee
Never stare or look at me
Dark Horizon, hydra's feather
Feel the whispers as they gather
And feed me
Emporium of the mind.
Limit the lights, mountain ranges on the skies
Wild honey, streams and nature
A rose inside the dream, far away and long between
The caressed burdens Take my hand, the magic wand
Dark snow falls
Black clouds cover my head
The red wines become steel-green
No more thoughts to lose or gain
None will try, none will succeed
Lesser stories on the wind
Nothing in vain, no more felt pain
I will never hurt anyone again
I promise I will love for an eternity
I will become a courier for messengers to send
I promise I will strive in mediocrity
RestartI will try to make this swiftRestart in Free Verse More Like This
We're moving as if in a lift
We're going down while we're locked
Inside the dark mind teller' trap
Best wishes come from the outside
Manning mankind out with pride
"Restart" it wildly screams from shadows
"Live it" then reply the widows
"Leave and go search for the meadows!"
"The moment we're at,
It will never come back"
"This moment in time,
Womb of the world bathed in pride"
"This moment of time
Coated in enlightened essence"
Forget it for I'm "Clubbed to Death"
I'm moving backwards in a world blinded by wealth
No example for the young, tremendous efforts for the old
Let it be, this world is cold!
Restart again our way of life
Sharpen the steel blade of your knife
For when I reach the black brick wall
I will have faced mankind's call
How come it's got so cold?
Restart while you can
Game over as you go
The children take you as a fan
Stay low, stay low!
I feel it is time
-Never change your mind-
Listen to the heart
We will never know what is to co
63. Do Not Disturb"Do Not Disturb" the title says.63. Do Not Disturb in Free Verse More Like This
Favorite music the playlist plays.
I'm ready for my concert now
The guitar stands ready, so do I.
"Do Not Disturb" until I'm ready.
Music feels me to the depths.
My chord shall sit steady.
I shall doom emotional nests.
Emotions? I am full of them
Still excited to the maximum.
"Do Not Disturb" me when
I give this last ultimatum.
Heed my music;
Listen to the melody;
Feel it through your body;
Hear me saying
"Do Not Disturb"!
Don't Talk to MeDon't talk to me. Just leave me alone.Don't Talk to Me in Free Verse More Like This
I was doing fine all on my own.
You ask me all about my day,
But I don't know what I'm to say.
I try turning my body around.
I face my head towards the ground,
But the conversation goes on still.
I wonder if I can fake being ill.
And as I knew all along,
My words start to come out wrong.
I feel my mind begin to trip,
And out my lips the words slip.
I wonder if my face is sinking.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.
I replay the scene over in my head.
All day I hear what I have said.
Why couldn't you just let me be?
I told you not to talk to me.
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I Am So Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I just can't help some of what I do.
I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.
In your shoes, I would be the same.
I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.
When you look at me, I wonder what you see.
I want to say it's over; do it no more.
In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.
I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.
Please believe me. I promise I am.
You still accept me; hold me tight.
It will be tough, but I will win the fight.
I hope you know how much I really care.
I can't believe that you're still there.
New PersonI worry about what I will become.New Person in Free Verse More Like This
Will you love me when it's done?
A whole new person I might be.
I don't know if I'll be me.
How strange it is to have another mind.
So much confusion that I find.
You tell me to do whatever's best,
Whatever makes me happiest,
But even worse, I may not love you.
I really don't know what to do.
I know she hates all my doubt.
She's dying to be let out,
But it's me that she'll replace,
A new person behind my face.
I'll Be ThereI'll be there for you,I'll Be There in Free Verse More Like This
No matter what.
When no one cares for you,
When no one loves you,
When no one wants you,
When no one has time,
When no one will save you,
When no one is left,
I'll be there.
You're never truly alone.
They will all leave you.
He will leave you.
Only I will always be there.
Goodbye KissYou want me to stay, but it can't be.Goodbye Kiss in Free Verse More Like This
Don't you see what I see?
I'm so sorry. I really love you.
That doesn't reflect on what I'll do.
Problems have become too great.
I just can't deal as of late.
You know it will be goodbye.
I can't stop, though you try.
Here is where the chips land.
I wish you could understand.
It doesn't matter what you say.
There isn't any other way.
I'm sorry this is how it is.
Please give me a goodbye kiss.
In Another StateIn another state, all alone.In Another State in Free Verse More Like This
I Moved out on my own.
Family seems like a curse,
But being away is so much worse.
What to do, I'm not sure.
Maybe support is part of the cure.
Thinking about leaving this place.
Return to the familiar faces.
A great job, I'll leave behind.
At home, what will I find.
There's all the money that I earn.
And the money I have to return.
What if things fall back to before.
I really want something more.
A change in my life is what I need,
Instead of focusing on this greed.
What if things just don't turn new?
I'm not really sure what to do.
Maybe I'll go back and get my PhD.
I could even switch to psychology.
I guess I'll just wait and see.
Things can only improve for me.
I'm Just SorryCan't tell why you're still here.I'm Just Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I only bring out your deep fear.
Constantly near panic attack.
Focusing on what you lack.
So afraid that I'll go away.
Why do you want me to stay?
You deserve more than me.
Really, what do you see?
Trying to be better for you.
I don't know what I can do.
I'll try whatever I can.
I'm just sorry for who I am.
Love AgainI wonder if I'll love again.Love Again in Free Verse More Like This
I was so in love with you.
Love doesn't come easy.
It's not something I do.
I never loved my mom.
I never loved my dad.
There was never any love,
In any relationship I had.
I'm not alone in this.
There are other's like me.
I met a man who didn't love,
His wife or girl of three.
And so I'll find a man,
Who makes me smile.
I may be looking,
For a little while.
Happiness doesn't mean love.
My heart won't be his.
I don't just fall in love.
That's just the way it is.
DreamI had a dream of you.Dream in Free Verse More Like This
I think that's where you live.
Your terrible actions,
I said I would forgive.
Things seemed so normal.
They seemed like before.
My love for you was true,
And my heart did soar.
You said you didn't want me.
Just like when I'm awake.
You said it would be better.
You did it for my sake.
So now I'm left empty.
My heart broken twice.
Why do you do this,
With a gaze made of ice?
Dreams should be happy,
Where you can do what you want,
But instead my dreams,
You continue to haunt.
I just want to be happy,
And not think of you.
Why is that so difficult,
For me to do?
What I DidI really just wish that I knew,What I Did in Free Verse More Like This
Why that's something you would do.
What did I do to deserve it?
Do you think I'm just shit?
I wish that I could understand,
But I really don't think I can.
I want to know why you're gone.
Please tell me where I went wrong.
I thought I did everything for you.
I know that my love was true.
I would never want to cause you pain,
But I can't help if I'm going insane.
I just want you back with me.
You're still all that I see.
I know that we should be together.
I know that it should last forever.
I sit here crying like a kid.
I just want to know what I did.
Of All The DaysListening to the words "Where [pause] where does it come from?"Of All The Days in Free Verse More Like This
It crashes on me like an ocean blue, heavy breeze.
There was a reason I drank this coffee,
and didn't go to bed, and let this day end unfulfilled
only to promise on the new day that I'll do better.
In this writing, deception comes to me saying I've done enough,
but I haven't! I probably never have!
There is a voice that needs to scream out,
and hands that need to be balled into fists,
though I don't know what they're supposed to punch.
Ah, my hand hurts from this writing,
just like I always wanted;
after all, I've said too many times to write until it hurts,
but how many times have I really meant that?
I need to act, lest I learn the hard way
that you've only got one life;
everyday I must be one step closer to my own promise land.
It's like everyday I get a glimpse―a small glimpse―
of what waits for me, and now I realize
that it waits for me, not vise versa;
the light at the end doesn't come to you; you walk
The Love For You I KeepIt's you I want, but spring I see,The Love For You I Keep in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I'm only with you in my dreams.
I've wished on every falling star,
that we don't have to be so far.
If you're the angel I think I see,
then take your wings and fly to me.
You must know the love for you I keep.
There's a light inside your heart,
I won't deny is a brilliant spark.
Your honest smile and sweet embrace,
I won't leave out your gorgeous face.
In open skies we have it all;
we'll stay right here till orchids fall.
You must know the love for you I keep.
A dove white as winter snow,
a rose in the bush that's first to grow.
When we meet, my dreams are awoken;
no word of love will go unspoken.
And even when the world has turned gray,
in your arms nothing can spoil my day.
My love for you fuels burning fires,
this is bigger than a wish and deeper than desires.
You must know the love for you I keep.
No Matter What Keep OnIt comes; I hate it; I want it gone.No Matter What Keep On in Free Verse More Like This
It lies to me; I like it; I realize it's lying;
my world crashes down; I want it gone.
That sequence keeps repeating,
all the while I'm waiting
for this universe to throw a miracle
Why cry for things in the back of me?
Why go moping on about things
hoping for sympathy?
Why dive into infantile thinking
that has been the fall of so much
Yes, the fact is I put myself here,
and it hurts to see where I could be,
and where I have to go.
Is sadness and regret the same thing?
There's no point in having this pain,
but I can't exactly push a button
and have it exit from inside.
And knowing the cause of my hurt,
can't make it poetic how I feel.
I'm in a crib right now
and tears are close to coming out.
Just do better,
because tomorrow exists.
I have to keep on
no matter how easy,
and less stressful it looks
to give in.
I say to myself in times of hardship
that I won't stop;
even if I fail every time, don't quit.
I'll say it even when
Beautiful FeelSorrow, with all the sweet and sourness,Beautiful Feel in Free Verse More Like This
warmth and coldness of a sad song,
but I don't know if it has the stars.
"You're beautiful." "Lies!"
But why do I let it eat me away?
Why is this beauty complex higher than the mountains?
It's the failing battle to get rid of it
that's really the worse part.
So many people I couldn't do it for..........
Maybe I haven't gotten enough sunlight,
or did enough exercise,
but maybe this feeling is an unavoidable truth
that comes to me every once and a while.
"You're beautiful." "No I'm not; I don't see it!!!"
"There's a lot of things you don't see."
Paper magazines of people I'll never be;
delusions in my head of people I'll never be;
it can be hard to see clearly through it all,
like a path with millions of forks in it.
It's unlikely this poem will have a happy ending,
but.....I want a smile on my face...I don't want to "accept" who I am;
I sometimes think the word "accept"(depending on the situation)
carries pain with it.
Thoughts Around A SunsetWill I go down like the sun?Thoughts Around A Sunset in Free Verse More Like This
Will I go anywhere?
Something about seeing the sun going down
makes me feel like I should feel a certain deepness;
there's just so much strength and meaning to it.
It gives me that tough love, telling me I need
to be stronger; it makes me want to break all the walls in my way;
it tells me I can but it won't be anywhere near easy, tough love again.
These are feelings and fears inside of me,
but I don't know why hard work scares as well as inspires me.
Must not have anything dishonest here right now.
I feel a change or a want for a change from
the beauty and value of this sunset;
I want it and fear it so much, but I know I want it more!
The thought of being beautiful like a sunset
inspires me and makes me nervous simultaneously,
but the fear is not huge;
I can get rid of it by thinking of the greatness of what's on the other side,
Though I can never permanently exterminate it.
What's with this fear of change anyway?
I should be afraid of staying at thi
SaturdayLoneliness,Saturday in Free Verse More Like This
the "don't-want-to-die-alone" loneliness
that could make the strongest steel break,
and could make someone with a hundred blankets cold.
fear of the unknown,
despite how little sense it makes
to fear something that you don't even know about.
Fear of being free,
for not knowing what this mind can do
in an open field.
And fear that life is sadder
than whoever cries the raindrops.
I want to not be in an abyss,
but to glow like the moon,
whose pretty light seems
as if it were made out of smiles
as bright as Spring flowers,
out of the bud for the first time.
But I don't know if that can happen,
will happen, has already happened
or is happening right now as I write these words.
I hold the key to the locks I'm in;
I know that and don't like that,
but it remains as it is.
I try to contain a-black-as-a-crow darkness
that is aware of what it's doing,
and to some degree can stop, but doesn't;
as it's too busy flashing the pearly whites
of it's sinister smile in the mirror,
Come BackBefore my chipped wings disintegrate, they do sob.Come Back in Free Verse More Like This
The path that I thought led to a light
has brought me back to this barren desert.
My dreams of learning, growing and staying strong
are fading away.
Everything I'm made of screams;
I say I don't hear it, but I know I do
because of that place inside that always speaks the truth;
where not even a lie you've forced yourself to believe
a million times can hide.
The black, empty, cold night;
I could write thousands of fascinating words about it,
and somehow it describes me in a way I'm not entirely sure how,
but I stare at it; somehow I see my fate: dark but still beautiful
in a deep and, again, fascinating way.
Though I barely believe it, I am deeper and more complex than I think;
I just need that strength, which is not yet something I'm rich in.
The light of hope and possibility shines only on the strong
Closed eyes, while thinking,
trying to find something that is....true I guess,
but it doesn't come.
I now reach out to grab one of the m
LightEvery time I see thatLight in Free Verse More Like This
incredible strength and
devotion to the ones you love,
I feel warm.
Every time your world has
I see something in you
that I can only dream
of having myself.
Life will never slow down;
clouds will rain,
sometimes cause floods;
there's a chance that everything we see
and touch will come crashing down,
and try to take us with it.
But you've held yourself up
the best way you could,
and with every person you have in your life,
you're not alone.
I see warm fuzzies in your smile
and life in your eyes.
Your friendship is as a fresh breeze.
And you've shown me the beauty
of a shoulder to lean on.
Who knew the click of a button
was going to lead to such a friend.
you are a warm, strong blessing.
Honesty Blows Her HairShe is Spring's first bloom;Honesty Blows Her Hair in Free Verse More Like This
She fills any dried out river
with her smile;
She is every wish made on a shooting star.
You can't help but feel your heart
in your chest in the presence of her.
She'll take your gray and make a rainbow.
Her delicate hands will always touch you
with every ounce of her love,
and bring out your ever fair orchid
A kiss from her gives you wings
to fly from your troubles,
and fly above the clouds when they
cover the moon.
You've never seen a rose
like the one in her hands.
You've seen beauty, but never
felt it like the one from her soul.
Has anyone ever explored the worlds
in her eyes?
She'd gladly let you in.
For her, the sky rains love;
the oceans of stars ignite,
and hate collapses.
At the start of your pain;
when you even think about abandoning
hope, you'll see her shining in the sun,
while honesty blows her hair.
I search I reach I stareI search for meaning in the sun glistened trees.I search I reach I stare in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I search for serenity in the breeze.
I'm slowly learning in times of trouble to search
for the best in the worst.
I search for opportunities to say I love you.
I may be a fool for this, but in this world I search for a place
where murder, disease, hatred etc. have no say,
a place built on goodness.
I reach out to those who need it most,
though I'm slowly learning to reach out to those
who need it most but deserve it least.
I sometimes reach out to the stars.
I reach out and in to love.
I stare at hope and possibility in the air we breath.
I stare at wherever there is a state of bliss.
I stare at people who smile at me.
I found some of what I was searching for,
I've touched some of what I reached out to,
and all the things I stared at are probably staring at me.