ImpossibleI remember years agoImpossible in Free Verse More Like This
When I was still young, innocent
Someone told me the best advice
That I'd ever heard by then
To take caution when it comes to love
I listened and I followed
But I was careless, I forgot
I met you and the world changed
And now when all is done
After you've walked away
There is nothing to say
No way to explain myself
Falling out of love is hard
Some days I think almost impossible
Falling for betrayal is worst
It makes you question your whole world
Broken trust and broken hearts
That's all that love has given
And if you're done with embarrassing me
With all the lies and hurt
On your own you can go ahead tell them
That you played with my heart
Tell them all I know now
Who you really are
Shout it from the roof top
That your nothing but a liar
Write it on the sky love
That you're playing this game for yourself
All we had is gone now
Maybe it never was anything
Tell them I was happy
That I truly loved you once
And my heart is broken
This Is It.You had me at helloThis Is It. in Free Verse More Like This
No scratch that
You had me before hello
You had me that moment
When I looked across the floor
And our eyes meet
Everyday after that
You've only had me more
Earning one piece at a time
Till now in this moment
I realize you own it all
Every single particle
Aaron means so little
I can hear his name
And feel nothing now
Blayne is here
But compared to you
He's absolutely nothing
Dustin was never anything
Just some crazy attempt
At replacing you
See the crazy thing is
You're the only one
Who makes me feel alive
The only one who
Makes me feel like I have a place
Right there in your arms
You've been my best friend
For almost two years
But it could be a million
Because I don't remember
My life without you
As the total focus
I've been so scared of showing it
How I truly feel about this
Because I know deep inside
There is basically no chance
That you want me
Like I want you
But I'm realizing now
There's zero chance
If I don't give it a try
So I'm writing this poem
To tell you
All At OnceSuddenly it's hitting meAll At Once in Free Verse More Like This
At a hundred miles a hour
All the hurt and pain
It's taking over
I don't know where this came from
So sudden I wasn't prepared
Happy one second
Crying the very next breath
Feel like I can't breathe
Trying to suck in enough air
But it feels like heavy lead
As it settles in my lungs
My stomach is turning
I might just be sick at any moment
Spasms are grabbing onto me
Taking over my body
Don't know what is happening
Why here and why now
No triggers to set me off
No reason for this at all
But still I see his face
The one who hurt me first
And I see his too as it races by
The one who drug it out for a year
Still I see his too as the memories come
The one who picked up the pieces
Lastly I see you my best friend
Who will always be so much more
These faces of these four
They flood my vision completely
Make it hard to even see to write
The tears obscuring the rest
As I lay here in bed just trying to sleep
All that I can think of is all of you
How you broke and are breaki
This House KillsI can't take the screamingThis House Kills in Free Verse More Like This
The fighting, hollering
One more minute
And I may just explode
I want out of here
This hell of earth
Need out of here
Before I fall apart
I'm trying to stay
Steady and unfazed
But this makes it
Almost impossible to do
I promise myself
Right here and now
I'll never act this way
When I have kids
I'll never yell
For no reason at all
I'll never tell them
That they're not good enough
I'll never make them feel
Like there's no place to go
I'll never let their home
Feel like a prison
This house is killing me
One fight at a time.
Faith or RealityRemember when I believedFaith or Reality in Free Verse More Like This
That it was so easy
All it took was a few words
Directed to the heavens
Life has ruined it now
Taken the faith
Trashed it to the point
That it's now unrecognizable
First time it happened
Belief in the above
Saved me from the enemy
Second time was different
No belief was there
But real arms
Saved me instead
The choice is now before
This broken mind
Faith or reality
A decision must be reached
Or maybe neither is the answer.
The NightStanding on the edgeThe Night in Free Verse More Like This
Toes firmly planted on air
Waves crashing loudly
Yet to me they are soundless
Around me the air is still
The calm before the storm
Noise punctures the silence
Feet shuffle closer to the edge
Take a breath in slowly
One foot slowly lifts
Make it move closer to the waves
The other one goes to follow
But arms wrap their way
Around my shaking corpse
Pulled back to the ground
Away from the ledge
Tears flow from my eyes
Too many emotions crowd me
You stand wordlessly and hold
Onto this broken body of mine
Now I know it's all changed
It will never be the same.
013. Misfortune013. Misfortune013. Misfortune in Free Verse More Like This
The fragile bones
On this cold street
Wind whips around
Taking along with it
Any warmth around
The ground below
Washes away the sins
Boy sits there
Through it all
Alone in the world
It's all been taken
Ripped from his arms
Sitting on the corner
He has no one
But the world
Continues past him
Without a second glance
To caught up
In their own drama
To see the misfortune
Right in front of them.
Finishes You OffEveryday this lifeFinishes You Off in Free Verse More Like This
Is falling apart
Just a little bit more
This isn't what
I thought it was going
To ever turn out like
When your young
You have so much hope
For when you grow up
But when you reach
That stage you realize
Nothing ever really changes
You might fight your hardest
For the life you want
That doesn't mean you'll get it
I've fought for this love
More times then I can count
Yet I'm still alone
You can fight your addictions
Try and say that your done
But at night the truth comes out
At night addictions show themselves
Rear their ugly heads
Prove I never did defeat them
This life is the biggest scam
We're told so many times
That the future is so bright
The truth of the matter is
This life never changes
It's stuck on repeat forever
Love only ever hurts
Over and over again it will kill you
From the inside out
So you better hold on tight
Because life's a fucking rough ride
One that doesn't end till you die
Whether it's from old age or prematurely
From a broken heart, an accident, o
The Way She FeelsShe's upset, bad dayThe Way She Feels in Free Verse More Like This
Day after day it's building
Never getting better only ever worse
She heads for the dresser drawer
Reaches in for her best friend
The one who will never fail
Nothing good can come of this
She knows it but she can't stop
The feeling is taking over
As the anger runs down both of her cheeks
She clenches the knife in her hands
Wishes things weren't this way
She closes her eyes finds relief in a knife
The tears come stronger
As metal meets soft skin
All alone the way she feels
No one in the world understands
How the perfect girl feels this way
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
It's not the way to deal with this
But it's the only way she knows
Curled up she's on the floor
Wishing there was a way
To give this all up for once
He leans down to comfort her
When did he come in
What will he say now that he knows
But he only wraps her in his arms
Whispers in her ear
The deeper you cut
The deeper I hurt
Pieces of My HeartMy heart is dividedPieces of My Heart in Free Verse More Like This
In a bunch of little pieces
Handed out to everyone
A owns a piece
He had it all once
I stole most of it back
But one piece will always
Be his alone
B owns a piece
He got me through
Those months when it was hopeless
He reignited the flame
When I thought I'd forgotten love
C owns a piece
She has earned it
From my tears, my complaining
For all the hugs
She'll have it forever
D owns a piece
Even though it never really
Got off the ground
He made me feel special
For that I'm grateful for life
E owns a piece
She deserves it
More then most ever could
My constant rock
She's reliable to the end
G owns a piece
Because he knows
How to make me smile
The greatest comforter there is
Without him life would be nothing
K owns a piece
The most recent one
Because she came in
When it was falling apart
Put life back together
K owns a piece
Because she knows
It all from beginning
To the very end
From kindergarten to life
K owns a piece
The sister I never had
And even through the fights
Learning To Love A Demon Chapter 8Learning To Love A Demon Chapter 8 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
When Ciel managed to drag himself back to the guest room to check on Lizzy she wasn't there. He never really questioned it. He wasn't in his right mind to.
All he could think of was how to make it up to Sebastian, the older Demon surely hated him. How could he not?
Ciel spent the rest of his boring week moping in his room, he refused to come out, trying to hatch the perfect plan to win back Sebastian's affections and then suddenly it hit him like a ton of bricks.
He literally laughed out loud when he came to his realization. How had he not seen it all along? He got to work immediately. He ordered all the servants -accept Sebastian of course- to clear out one of the rooms that was merely kept for decoration. They carried out furniture paintings rugs and ornaments and all other breakable and valuable things that were stored in the room until it was completely bare.
He told all the Servants including Sebastian to go to town and busy themselves by entertaining each other. Sebasti
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Just as Sebastian had promised Mey-Rin, Finnian and Bardroy asked no questions about their master had been. They stayed composed and still, although they were shaking on the inside with excitement. They truly had missed their Master and new that he would someday return, this was his home after all even if he didn't want to admit it.
Unusually for Elizabeth she was quiet too, her head was bowed and her golden hair tumbled around her face and down her back. Unlike other woman her age she refused to wear her hair up on top of her head, she refused to do so until she was married, and she would marry no one other than Ciel. When she heard Ciel and Sebastian she looked up and her perfectly milky skin, cute button nose, and emerald green eyes were visible for the world to see.
She had really grown into a beauty, man men came from far and wide to ask for her hand in marriage, her mother begged her, pleaded with her to forget about Ciel and choose one of the handsome, kind and wealthy
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Ciel heard silence except for his and Lizzy's laboured breathing, but then he picked up something else with his inhuman hearing.
At first he couldn't place it,
But then he realized that it sounded as if some one was shattering glass
There are many things that Sebastian is, ruthless, cold, calculating and brooding being only some of them. But one thing he wasn't was jealous, at least that's what he thought before he seen Lady Elizabeth and Ciel together.
At first he didn't recognize the very strong human emotion. Sure he had seen it plenty of times, like when he would go out with Ciel and woman would faun over the dark Butler, both Ciel and the woman's husbands would be jealous. Of course Sebastian had always thought it was foolish and unnecessary, but now he realized he was wrong.
It was very easy to feel it and it wasn't a very pleasant thing to feel.
The Master had been sulking for three days he refused to even acknowledge Sebastian's presence and ignored him at all costs.
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Josephine wasn't foolish, or stupid. But she was reckless, and fearless. And those two personality traits were what kept getting her into trouble. She knew she wasn't supposed to be wandering this part of London, but she couldn't help herself, it was as if she was drawn to the ugliness of this place. Josephine might not be the prettiest girl, or the smartest, or even the most charming. But she was level headed, one thing she did like about herself.
She also was able to see the world behind her own world. The face behind the veil. She knew the world was filled with things that weren't human. She knew they walked among us, and that we crossed paths with them daily.
Josie was walking down an alley way when she was shoved up against the brick wall by rough hands. There was a light rain coming down and it made the wall somewhat slippery.
But Josephine didn't scream, or shriek, frankly she wasn't even surprised. Walking these streets every night she was only teasing fate, sooner o
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Sebastian couldn't take it anymore. He had found a Doctor (Dr. Reynolds) who didn't even question how Ciel had gotten pregnant. He simply agreed to preform the C section and leave once he was paid. Sebastian had demanded to stay in the room with them but Mey-Rin stood her ground and ordered Finnian to carry the older man out with force if need be.
The Raven haired man decided to take to more dignified route and walk out.
Sebastian had been serving the younger man dinner (Which consisted of nothing but chocolate pudding, since that seemed to be all Ciel was craving and willing to eat) He had just turned around to grab the plate of pudding from the cart when, Ciel 's agonizing scream of pain ripped through the air. Like a knife slicing into butter. For the first time in his life Sebastian felt fear.
He had heard many screams of pain, thousands of voices crying and screaming. But never had he heard someone he loved scream.
It was a different experience entirely, his heart stopp
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Ciel was worried about all the crashing but he knew no one else could hear it. So he decided to cover up a giggling Lizzy as well as he could and carry her to the guest room, she never questioned why he didn't bring her to his own room and he was glad. He still wasn't used to having anyone in his room accept Sebastian and wasn't ready to leave her in there unattended. He placed her on the bed planted a kiss on her forehead and told her he'd be back soon.
He hadn't fully dressed himself and his shirt was unbuttoned. He had a fair idea where all the crashes had come from and he just assumed Mey-Rin had broken everything again. He wasn't mad of course, they could always just buy new dishes plates or ornaments. But one thing they couldn't afford was a new Mey-Rin. Ciel was only worried about her safety and knowing her she would simply nurse her wounds alone.
He finally found the source of all the crashing and opened the door calling out to Mey-Rin, a gust of cold air hit his ches
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It wasn't a slow transition. It was simply dark, and then light.
It was as if Ciel had woken up from a very long nap. And boy was he cranky after naps. He moved his head to the side trying to take in his surroundings but winced at the sudden pain. His entire body was stiff and tensed. He moved his heavy hand up to his stomach instinctively and gasped when his hand only met air at where his stomach had used to bulge to.
He ignored the pain and looked down lifting his shirt to see his toned stomach instead of his round one. Everything came rushing back. He had given birth, and then..a blank.
He couldn't remember anything after seeing his child. And when he looked at her face, his own eyes stared back at him. Except hers were full of curiosity and wonder, whereas his were filled with agony and love.
He had to find her, see her, hold her. He tore the blankets off himself and tried to stand. But his legs were wobbly and couldn't hold his weight. He cursed and crashed to the groun
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Juliet wasn't sure why she she went with him. She didn't even know who he was, and now she was in his house. He didn't want her to be able to find her way back on her own so he insisted on blind folding her.
And now she was sitting in his parlor which was decorated in deep golds and purples. The colors drawing attention to his eyes and hair. His legs were crossed and he leaned back lazily in his chair, although he was clearly lean and muscular there was still something feminine about him. The way he moved perhaps? Full of a woman's grace.
She was mesmerized by him, and he knew it.
"You're wondering why I brought you here?" Her stared at her, as if he was seeing into her very core. As if he was looking at everything she feared and desired, and could make them all come true.
"Of course I am, it's the first time I've seen a demon outside of the Phantomhive manor." The young man in front of her smirked.
"Yes oddly enough they do seem to have you sheltered. But that's never a goo
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Blinding. Searing pain.
That was all Ciel knew now.
Was his name even Ciel? No, he didn't have a name, not anymore.
He had no name, no face, no past, no future. Just this pain.
It was all he knew. He had felt pain like this before.
A constant gnawing in his chest, that he lived with for years, an existence that was eating his soul from the inside.
But this pain was different, it was all consuming.
CRACK. A rib was broken.
Screaming..Who was screaming?
The thing that was once Ceil laughed, what a fool for screaming..no one could hear them..not in this place.
This place was made of darkness, perfect all consuming darkness.
But it was not the type of darkness that numbed your pain..No, it was darkness that made your mind focus on the agony.
There was nothing around you, nothing to see..hear..taste..touch..So all that was left for him to do was feel..
He felt everything, the bones splintering..the pressure..something was trying to get out..
What was trying to get out and where a
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You could never describe hell, not even if you stayed there for eternity, it was hideous,beautiful, evil,pure,hot, cold. It was everything, but still you could never describe it with words. For demons it was enjoyable, it was their home, although some demons did long for the human world. Sebastian was now bound to Ciel until the day both of the died, and who knows maybe even after then. Ciel wasn't sure how much time he actually spent in hell, time flowed differently their, a day in the human world was equivalent to a week in hell.
All that Ciel knew was that he was down there for a very long time. He grew up in hell he was tutored and raised by demons, he learned their history, the different kinds of demons their weaknesses and strengths. Ciel was the first of his kind. Never before had a human been turned into a demon, you either born a demon or not. So they treated Ciel with special care, they didn't know what powers he had, they knew nothing of what he was. So they taught
Pride Is Pride is walking around with your head held high no matter what's going on around you.Pride Is in Free Verse More Like This
Pride is not replying when someone calls you a faggot or a dyke, you just walk away smiling.
Pride is when you can look someone square in the eye and say "Yeah, I'm gay."
Pride is when you're no longer ashamed of who you are, you embrace yourself.
Pride is learning to love yourself so other people can love you to, and if they don't, fuck them.
Pride is dishing it out when you know you can handle it back.
Pride is knowing who you are and putting yourself out there whether you look stupid or not.
Pride is what I don't have.
Prideful is what I'm not.
LoveLove is seeing her everyday with a smile upon my face.Love in Free Verse More Like This
Love is seeing that flower blossom into something beautiful.
Love is smelling that burning candle that smells like apples and cinnamon.
Love is knowing she hates you but never being able to reciprocate the feeling.
Love is giving up a lot of things to see her.
Love is laughing whenever you fall.
Love is when she's dressed in the most ridiculous outfit and you still go out in public.
Love is when she finally kisses you, and the world explodes.
Love is noticing the tiniest difference about her on a daily basis.
Love is knowing she'll be there for me no matter what.
Love is touching her hand when she's sad and telling her she's fine because I'm here.
Love is going after her when she walks away in a mood.
Love is hearing her voice giving me sheer joy every day.
Love is incredible.
I Know What To DoI've come to a decision.I Know What To Do in Free Verse More Like This
I don't need to think, I just need to do.
It could be lust, but most likely
But, if I tell the world, there isn't
Any looking back, not one peek.
I could give up, or I could keep on making
My way down each path to find the one,
That best fits my needs, not my wants.
Even if every single one I go on,
Leads me no where.
Would I regret it if I told them?
Or would they learn to accept it,
As would I.
I wish I knew my place,
What I should do to keep me happy.
Silly LoveNo disparity in age,Silly Love in Free Verse More Like This
But that wasn't even my first concern.
Age is but a number,
But distance is quiet the opposite.
Maybe it doesn't matter to her,
Maybe she doesn't care.
Maybe this might work out after all.
We have so much in common,
I'll just give it some time,
Let us get aquainted.
I want to know her,
I don't mean just say hi every once
In a while.
I want to really get to know her.
But I want her to like me.
You, How Do You Do This Thing To Me?Feeling a tingling sensation in my legs,You, How Do You Do This Thing To Me? in Free Verse More Like This
Just walking up to meet you.
And when we were heart to heart
For the first time I told you.
I feel you in me,
And I dont even know you.
I felt you in my mind
Before I ever thought of it.
And you're stuck there,
Just like gum stuck on cement.
I wouldn't say it gets annoying,
but it never feels right.
I feel so upset.
Sometimes, I know
Im all alone,
You were all I had.
I was all yours.
You were all mine.
Pathetic Pathetic is when you have a sister who won't cut you some slack when the first thing she wants doesn't appear in front of her.Pathetic in Free Verse More Like This
Pathetic is when you start to cut in the 4th grade.
Pathetic is when you kiss the opposite sex on the streets and people make gagging noises.
Pathetic is when you have to cover up in a mask of makeup every time you go out in public.
Pathetic is when teenagers are in the park harassing an elderly man and no one does anything about it, some pedestrians actually laugh.
Pathetic is this whole fucking world we live in.
FriendshipIt comes and goes like the flip of a switchFriendship in Free Verse More Like This
Only the feeling never leaves
No matter how much you wish it would.
That's how you know whether
It was all real or not.
You miss her,
You wish you would've done something,
You know you put her through hell,
You regret letting her down,
You hate the fact it can't ever be the same,
You still love her.
Friendship seems like
The only thing that's keeping you alive
Whenever you feel like dying.
Dying or cutting.
You just stop it though,
You stop it all of them.
You're hurting them so you
Come to a halt of your actions
And comfort them because
Your actions have phased them.
Mommy, why?You said I could tell you anything,Mommy, why? in Free Verse More Like This
You said you'd always love me,
So why is it when I tell you I'm gay
You can't even see
How I'm honestly feeling and
How you can't let me be.
Why mommy, why?
Why can't you accept this?
Why do you make me want to die
Just because I'm not following the norm?
Would it be better if I were bi?
At least I'd have the slightest interest in men.
Screw you and your old-fashioned ways.
Emotions EmotionsEmotions in Short Stories More Like This
No person, gay or straight, will ever be able to even fathom what I felt when he left me. The emotions were endless.
Jealousy. I envied his new boyfriend. I envied the way he enticed Justin. The way he was so good at lying to Justin's face, only to make everything seem less surreal; their new 'love', their life, Justin leaving me
Depressed. My Sunshine was gone. My blonde haired, blue eyed Sunshine left me for some schmoozing violinist. No more night time chats, no more blinded love, no more anything.
Pissed. After everything I gave him, I everything we went through together. His coming out, his virginity loss, his bashing. He hasn't even called. It's like none of it ever occurred. Like I
Faggot.A word no homosexual wants to be called.Faggot. in Free Verse More Like This
But, they can't help it when it happens.
"Hey, fag! You faggot!"
I used to think being a faggot was disgusting and terrible.
I used to hate that term... 'Faggot.'
Now? Well, now I think of it as my badge of honor.
I can say I'm an honorable faggot.
Rain Of ColorRain Of Color in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Color
All of the struggles I had to endure
I always desperately held on
It was a day after day ritual
Learning to stay strong
Different advice from the wise
I had to fuse it all together
And make sense of every voice
I couldn't allow my hope to wither
Believe in the soul
Embrace the heart
It's what makes you whole
It defines who you really are
Envision the dreams
As if they're real
Remember where you've been
Know that every wound will heal
Every scar tells a story / Every step is towards glory
There's always a chance to triumph / There's always a time for resonance
We always pick ourselves back up / There's no such thing as enough
Born to live free / Alive to feel peace
Hold onto that spark
Even if it's not much
It'll guide you through the dark
It'll help you when you're lost
Compare not to others
Live at your own pace
It always gets better
Faith never really fades
I've made it to this place
Where finally I realize
I've journeyed through the pain
And I have
The Rainbow FlowerThe Rainbow Flower in Free Verse More Like This
The Rainbow Flower
Green, as bountiful as a hidden, untouched, unexplored forest
A secret of the ages, a wonderful landscape to see, so please, let me experience the loveliest
You are untainted, and still so innocent, you are a passion that has always been sought, and promised
The Earth below, the grass in between, the trees up above, the wind, I've waited for you the longest
You are my bountiful forest, everlasting, eternal, undying, immortal, you make me so selfish
Because I want you all to myself, always, and I will never, ever share you with anyone else
Yellow, as bright as a million Suns
A bringer of life, and in the center of it all, there is only one
You are the center of my heart, you are the meaning of my true love
Yet, you stray from my sight sometimes, leaving me cold and blind, I'm abandoned from above
You are my bright Sun, meant to be so far away, and if I get too close, you will get too hot
But I still yearn to hold you in my
(I Gave) My Soul (To You)(I Gave) My Soul (To You) in Free Verse More Like This
(I Gave) My Soul (To You)
I'm inadvertently lost in that smile of yours
And in each and every single word that you say
Sometimes I don't even know who I am anymore
As you lead me on a path that I'll never astray
I will keep following you
Because I want you
And every night I can't help but watch you sleep
Down from the countless flickering stars, I'm soaring
And every time I wish I could step into your dream
Through the calming dead of light, I'm falling
I will keep loving you
Because I fell hard for you
While you're slumbering, I put my ear to your welcoming chest
And I can't help but lose myself within the echoing sounds
Putting me into a trance, it's such a feeling I will never forget
For those cherished memories are found
I will forever remember you
Because I need you
I never dare to slip into unconsciousness
As I pretend to meld myself into your fantasies
Entering a world that leaves me feeling somewhat restless
But the thoughts an
To Save Your LifeTo Save Your Life in Free Verse More Like This
To Save Your Life
Heroes are hard to come by
Especially in this day and age
Because of you- I am still alive
Hail, the vanquisher of pain
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over
My fists let go
Of the resistance
I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance
It was all a dream
A simple false belief
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
A hand reached out
I was finally found
I rose back to grace
And the darkness brightened
The savior I awaited
Lifted me up and triumphed
I prayed as much as I needed
Even when I was beyond drowning
I knew a kind soul would pay heed
Every mourning human deserves saving
When we are used to being alone
True kindness is difficult to find
But one day that hero will come
To save your life
Healing My HeartHealing My Heart in Free Verse More Like This
Healing My Heart
I thought a day like today would never come
When a sincere smile finally broke through
And I've grasped onto this sense of freedom
When I forged this connection with you
I was so deep into it
Thinking I never would get out
Being stuck in the past has made me into this
But now I hold my head up instead of facing down
Because of this, I've realize there's a difference between my tears
I used to only shed the ones for all of the mistakes I've made
Which I've cried for all of those long, and lonesome years
Until today, so I'm overwhelmed by the relief you gave
Undone, unvexed, unbroken
The difference is the forgiveness
Unbecome, unsilenced, unforgotten
The pieces have become painless
I waited for a night like tonight to arrive
When I could finally sleep so peacefully
And for once I have never felt so alive
When I found myself dreaming faithfully
I had no choice but to force my own hand
So I took that mass of hurt and made
A Moment Of LoveA Moment Of Love in Free Verse More Like This
A Moment Of Love
This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much
I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does
I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark brighter
And you're always there no matter what
Every time you smile at me, it makes my day
Every time you laugh with me, it completes my night
Every time you speak to me, my problems fade away
Every time you're with me, it betters this hopeless life
You've done a lot for me that you don't even know about
Like when you told me that I was never alone
Time Is The CureTime Is The Cure in Free Verse More Like This
Time Is The Cure
Right hand of destruction
Left hand of creation
It's a never ending cycle
A fatal revival caught in a downward spiral
I tear down reality’s mask
As I build up a truth to give hope a chance
The veiled darkness decays
The guiding light fades
I let go of an old pain
As new tears wash it away
The sun always rises
The moon always sets
The rain subsides
The storm is put to rest
Clouds confide / Memories detest
Skies collide / Cries confessed
Light shines / Dark regrets
Pain hides / Peace professed
A new day awaits
An old night forgotten
Tomorrow I shall awake
To cradle what remains unbroken
I can't erase my mistakes
But I can't let them define my fate
There's always control
There's always faith to hold
Opposites are locked together
I am the sinner; I am the confessor
With time- comes change
Agony and serenity dawn a n
The Road Of YesterdayThe Road Of Yesterday in Free Verse More Like This
The Road Of Yesterday
These closed eyes have wept
Over the pain that I've kept
Realizing I'll always be far from perfect
I'm tired- just too tired
A moment of peace is all that I desire
Too long have I tried; too long have I suffered
I just want to collapse
And let these be my last footsteps
Allow me to give up this life that I want to forget
I've always been out of breath
But I still continued to tread
And I feared to look in the eyes of death
I'm sore- just so sore
A final sunset is what I selfishly yearn
Too long have I endured; too long have I resided within the eye of the storm
I refuse to ultimately break
I don't want to believe in the flaws of my faith
I won't be swallowed by this void that I have made
As I reach the end of my despair
I realized that life's fissures can be repaired
And when I shed that last tear I let go
A Voice In The WindA Voice In The Wind in Free Verse More Like This
A Voice In The Wind
I can only think of how much I miss you
The fragments of my shell scatter
The smiling dreams of you rupture
On the inside, I know it's wrong
That I still cling onto you as I fail to carry on
I try and search for where my passion belongs
I can only remember how much I loved you
Tribulations welcome singularity
Upon the footholds of my diverse insecurities
I still whisper apologies to try and feel a difference
Because I can't take any more of this sleepless conscience
And I don't know which one of us is the one who is unforgiven
I will always be the arms of the storm
Trying to rebuild what was most dear to me
I don't even have the luxury to mourn
For the person that tried to hold me when I needed to be
Wincing at the random flashes of lightning
They temporarily distract me from our memories
This weakened state of mind isn't worth enduring
The harsh sting of freezing rain-
Sends staggering chills all over
The waves of r
Reaching For A MirrorReaching For A Mirror in Free Verse More Like This
Reaching For A Mirror
Listen, sooner or later you're going to have to look me in the eyes, it's unavoidable
It's going to be that time when you let your guard down, your reaction will be recognizable
I don't know if you're able to face me yet, but you need an intervention, because this is personal
You're not going to like what I have to say to you, I know you're going to resist, you're so predictable
What exactly do you know? You know NOTHING! Because left you a long time ago
We don't need to talk, you don't even really exist to me, you don't have power anymore
There's nothing you can say to me that might help, not even by a little, so just leave me alone
Don't even speak to me, don't try and "get through" to me, it's useless now, so please, just go
I don't know where I went wrong, I've already told you that I've only ever tried my very best
You need to quit being stubborn, stop this foolishness, remember who you are, and never forget
Before you took
Owning it on youEverything I ever seen looks now brighterOwning it on you in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Everything I ever heard looks now clearer
You and me, me and you, togheter for a reason
I want to hold you for enturnity
Every year, eatch month, all seasons
I will do anything what is possible
to close you in my arms and let you stay
I have a clear light in my heart
You are the reason of my life since you came in
I can't live without you anymore, don't even want to
All I think off is related to you
No I'm not swollowing in lies
everything I say is true
I own it on you, oh you
forgetwellforget the religion i'm raised in, that's the past,forgetwell in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
forget the country i live in, that is just a part of the cast
forget the family i'm been raised by, even if they are important,
forget the 5 months, the way we ended
forget my body please, it is just a wrapping
u shouldn't forget my eyes, the mirror of my soul
u shouldn't forget my heart, the center of it all
La vidaLa vida ...La vida in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I love you too much
I think I had been
Too long in the bad side
Now I just want sunshine and eating
I want only the good
Only the good is the best for me
La vida ...
I love you too much
And dancing ...
Feel the rhythm of music
in your veins, in your bones
Running like blood
Like the beating of your heart
And your soul, so is it
Don't you believe that? Try!
La vida ...
I love you too much
No one takes away my happiness more
I'm tired to be called
Now I just want to be famous
Not called liar no more
Not called thief no more
That is not my identity no more
La vida ...
I love you too much
The street gave me new life
It taught me to forgive
It gave me strength
To take what is not mine
To look to it to be
That's my goal now
EducatorShe's trying to help people,Educator in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
She really does, She really does
She wants to make happy
She don't care if she is sad
She can't leave them alone
In that cold night crying
She has to comfort them when they are whining
She can't hear the sad song of a broken heart
She can't see a lost soul
She is been stuck in the helper's role
Like she pulls people out of the sand
But while trying, she is drowning
This could be her end
She doesn't see she is rolling
in the quicksand
It's sad but it's true
When you are a helper
And if making happy is all you do
When you need someone they will walk through
they will barely look at you
Climb up, stand up, stand up for your rightsShe wanted to climb the trees to see the world.Climb up, stand up, stand up for your rights in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
She jumped up but Gravity held her close to him.
It is too dangerous, he said.
She turned rounds around the tree.
back and forth, left and right
So high. Too high. She did not dare.
She wished it so badly so she begged for it
Tree, let me in. Please I just want to have a peek
She dreamed of it every night in her sleep.
That she could see what was invisible.
But she knewed it was mission impossible.
She wanted to see the world behind.
I hope that little girl her dream becomes true.
That I ever have the courage to all the things where I've dreamed of.
That I see the things that are left for me to see.
That nothing stops me anymore. Not even Gravity.
LoveletterPlease believe me, please respond me ...Loveletter in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
But who I am?
I am no one special,
I'm just a common 19-years old girl/woman.
But I could be whatever you want.
Just tell me what you want.
I'm dieing every unreplied mail again and again
I prefer to die tomorrow
than living/wasting whole my life without loving you
It is you I want, only you, I don't care about the rest
And I'm sorry for it, I'm not supposed to stop this
So talk to me
Please, pretty please?
Het verschil van zot en zotZotHet verschil van zot en zot in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Zot ben ik
van jou en jij
zot ben ik
want jij bent niet van mij
zot word ik
zolang ik hier alleen sta
zot word ik
als ik helemaal van miserie verga
When the darkness visits youWhen the darkness follows youWhen the darkness visits you in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Can't hide another day
Can't think things through
You're heart is as fast as a subway
In this night
Is the focus on your back
You can fight
But there is no turning back
And yet you hope
Around your neck is a rope
No family reunion
Everything you think 'bout
It's getting all black
All you think about
The darkness in your back
Because the darkness
Cut your own.
You're standing alone
Sun is a dash your hopes.
You fight yourself to the fact.
The shadows will always follow
With the Devil you signed a contract
klavertje 4Ik ging eens naar een apothekerklavertje 4 in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Zei "Geef me nou eens een pilletje geluk"
Ik was een beetje onzeker of dat wel bestond
Maar hij kwam niet eens van zijn kruk
Zei dat dat niet in zijn voorraad stond
Ik zocht in een winkel, het was heel druk
"Waar staan de blikjes Geluk?"
"Jammer toch, zoals je ziet" zei de verkoopster
"Dat hebben we niet"
Dus ik ging daar de bloemist
En vroeg naar een bloemetje geluk
Die zei dat hij het niet wist
Geluk verwerf je nu eenmaal niet
In een bloemstuk
"Wacht nou even, uk...
Ik ken een leuk plantje.
Dat brengt je wel geluk"
En hij drukte in mijn handje
Een Klavertje vier
The World I Want To Live InI want to live in a world where no one has to come out. I want nobody to ever have to go through that emotional and physical torture. I want there to be no reason to come out. Because in this new world, it wouldn't matter! Nobody would care who another person loves, because it's love and none of their business!The World I Want To Live In in Emotional More Like This
I want to live in a world where no one cares. I want apathy, not acceptance. Because, there's no need for acceptance because there's no chance of rejection! There's nothing wrong with it, so rejection and persecution are logically ruled out. I don't want to hear this dialogue ever again "I'm gay." "Good for you!" Good for you? You don't hear "good for you" for being born with hazel eyes or being heterosexual. Honestly, there is no difference, stop perpetuating one! It's just like when a little kid gets hurt, you don't tell the kid they're hurt, because if you did, they would freak out. If we never recognize it as a difference, then there won't be one! Everybody is the
I TriedI did my damnedest to forgetI Tried in Free Verse More Like This
about the way he made me feel.
That, uh-holy amalgamation of
sickness and happiness
I had come to call
I tried so hard,
so hard to get over
that remarkable beauty.
Those compassionate eyes,
that trim physique,
have stayed with me.
Against my will,
to love him.
Midnight Ravings of Love and LossI feel nothing.Midnight Ravings of Love and Loss in Free Verse More Like This
I have no reason to go to sleep in the evening,
I have no reason to get up in the morning.
He did this.
He changed me.
He was at the center of the best moment of my young life
and when everything I knew came crashing down, with him to blame
he helped me rebuild.
His soft voice and vulgar humor sustained me.
His eyes, his hair, his body seduced me.
His laugh, his mere existence brought me happiness
I owe him everything.
He changed me.
He was my reason to go to sleep in the evening,
He was the reason to get up in the morning.
He was my world.
He forced me to feel
He made me feel love
Even if it was all one sided,
he made me feel.
I'm sure I'll miss those feelings
I know I'll miss him.
But, right now, I can't tell.
I feel nothing.
RememberingThe worst part is remembering.Remembering in Free Verse More Like This
Remembering the feel of his shirt,
the sound of his laugh,
the roll of his eyes when Michelle Bachman opens her mouth,
the security of his embrace,
the warmth of his unique love,
the fact that he misses me too.
That's the killer.
I Love a BoyEvery part of me wants him.I Love a Boy in Free Verse More Like This
Body and Soul
ache for the unattainable.
His soft golden hair whispers
His deep blue eyes implore
I long for his touch.
Being near him, without being with him
I will roll over and see his smile,
blissfully content as mine.
His CologneThe perfect accessory,His Cologne in Free Verse More Like This
gets me every time.
It seduces my senses,
teasing me perpetually.
A sensation indescribable,
it takes my breath away.
Leaving me with thoughts
of what could be.
It lingers when he leaves
leaving me begging for more
Because of HimBecause of him, I laugh differentlyBecause of Him in Free Verse More Like This
I never turn off my phone
I curse like a sailor
I listen to new music
I lose sleep
I cry dry tears
I love myself, if only for a moment
I know true pain
I know true bliss
I am different, because of him.
Who I am: A LGBT interview.Who I am: A LGBT interview. in Articles & Interviews More Like This
1. How long have you known you are part of the LGBT community?
Well... I had had suspicions about it for years, but I only accepted it May of 2011. (18 years old)
2. Was it a struggle (emotionally) for you at the beginning?
In the years prior, oh ya. I spent many a night praying and hoping that these thoughts would go away. But the second i said it my life changed instantly.
3. How did you start to discover your sexuality? (Example, thoughts, feelings ex)
I had always been curious about other guys, but there was one guy that changed it all. He was he first person I told, first guy I wanted to kiss (or do other things...) and I felt different around him. Better.
4. What part of the LGBT community do you belong to? (Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, ex)
Labels are for scared straight people. I'm a guy who likes guys.
5. How long have you been out of the closet, or if your not, do you
what would you doWhat would you do?what would you do in Free Verse More Like This
If you knew the truth?
What would you do?
What would you do?
Would you cry?
or would you lie?
What would you do?
What would you do?
would you leave me?
or would you beat me?
what would you do?
What would you do?
if i told you i was born a boy
but I am now a girl
what would you do
What would you do?
if i told you i love you.
what would you do?
would you leave me bleeding
what would you do!
hate you.She makes me shake she makes me stutter.hate you. in Free Verse More Like This
She makes me bleed she makes me love her.
We both can fall down knowing we will never get up.
Breathless and trembling is how you make me.
With out saying a word you can make me scared for my life
Hating my self for needing this.
Without you I am in a dark bliss.
So kill me now but leave me with one lasting kiss.
Last time to trust.Lets leave it all behind.Last time to trust. in Free Verse More Like This
Don't think about the past or the future.
You have me.
Everything and yet nothing.
You are rare.
Like a rose in the middle of winter.
No matter what do not let them get you.
Hold your head high. Look them in the eye.
Give them hell kid and never say die.
You will become every thing that you want to be.
Even if I must stay for ever in the shadows.
I would, for you.
Never again will I give some one my whole heart,
They will just break it like you did.
where do we go?You should have never told me the truth, Because I was happy with the lie.where do we go? in Free Verse More Like This
You should never have stabbed me in the back, For now I start to die.
Why did you have to do everything for you?
Never thought of me.
My darling can't you see?
I knew what you where doing, I just did not want to believe.
Now that you have told me, I begin to see.
No more living in this fake world.
I now know so where do we go from here? I still want you.
.... But you don't want me
killing my self ,by loving youYour a sickness spreading in me.killing my self ,by loving you in Free Verse More Like This
No amount of pills will save me from your side effects
with shaky hands that reach out
They clamp around my protesting mouth.
im forced to swallow. now I see the shadows.
I need to get help. But I don't
So what are the side effects?
Loving some one who does not love you back.
Crying your self to sleep at night.
And hoping for what will never be.
Of being forced to hear how happy you are with her.
Of seeing a smile I dident cause.
You are my pills.
And now I'm dying of an over dose.
The girl everyone hatesThe girl your parents would hate "If they knew me"The girl everyone hates in Free Verse More Like This
I'm the tease.
The girl who gets you hard then leaves you like that.
I'm the girl who says things she should keep to herself
I cuss and hit and spit.
I like what I am, I hate what you are.
Venom in my eyes but love in my heart.
Lies on my lips, My hands gripping your hips.
Shoving you against the wall.
Pictures shatter and fall.
Being so rough you start to cry.
Don't like feeling excited by this do you?
You look at me, Blood drips from where I bit you.
You don't tell me to stop so I keep going.
How rough can I be with you until you break?
You think this is love? No baby this is hate.
GsaCome one, come all.Gsa in Free Verse More Like This
We'll have fun, we can have a ball.
We will greet you with open arms and open hearts.
We like you no matter what.
So why don't you come?
It's not that far.
Where all is loved.
Where no one is judged.
A safe place
like an angel with grace.
No tears will be shed.
Where bad thaughts are left behind.
A happy place with no one to discriminate.
You'll see smiles
instead of eyes filled with fear.
So why don't you come?
Why don't you come here?
NumbLove.Numb in Free Verse More Like This
It only will hurt you in the end.
We know it will hurt and yet we still want it.
what does that make us?
I've finally given up on love.
I can't stand it.
Getting shot down time and time again.
One can only stand getting abused so much.
I just don't care any more.
You said no, thats fine fucking dandy.
No one ever thinks about how I would feel.
So I give up.
From now on I am making my self numb to you.
Love is black and white.
But love for me?
There is no color.
None at all.
A Dream"Mama....I had a weird dream."A Dream in Drama More Like This
"Yes sweetie? What was it?"
"Well....it was Alternia....but the sun shone...and the wind gently blew across the fields and seas...and everyone was happy."
"Yeah...it didn't matter what your blood color was. Everyone was friendly and everyone was happy."
"...That sounds nice"
"Yeah! And we didn't have to keep running from those scary men! We had a really nice hive and everything!"
"Mmmm, it would be nice not having to keep moving away from the Highblood's army."
"I hate fighting. When will it stop?"
"It won't. Nothing will change. That is, until you do something about it."
"Yes. You suffer now, but one day you will have the power to change the whole world."
"That sounds nice Mama. Then we can always be together."
Day 1- 7 word biographyHomestuck Yet Dreaming Of My Endless AdventureDay 1- 7 word biography in Short Stories More Like This
Day 13- Day OffGergos dragged his feet, panting and groaning. He had been running for HOURS. He FINALLY got back to his hive and FINALLY found the stupid portal and was FINALLY able to move forward. He chose to warp to Koufie's land. Her land was a perfect change from his Land of Mist and Swamps. It was the Land of Wheat Fields and Sunshine. No seriously.Day 13- Day Off in Short Stories More Like This
He fell down into the wheat, exhausted, his eyes closing. He heard footsteps near him, but was too tired to respond. He was drifting off to sleep now, even though he could hear a soft "Woof?" and small yet strong hands wrapped around his waist and began dragging him. But it was futile; he was already asleep.
When he woke, he was blinded by the bright golden lights of Prospit. He stretched and walked over to his window. Gasping, he looked up. Skaia surrounded his tower, it's clouds passing rapidly. So many visions flashed through his mind. Of Alternia before the game, of the wheat fields and of broken trees. And of dead bodies. Many, many dead bodies
Day 8- Early School DaysHe was still very young, just old enough that his grub-like body had transformed into a more bipedal form. He walked over to his lusus and tapped on his thigh gently. "Father.....my friends said....that they're in.....school....what about...me?" The deer lifted his head slowly and looked into Gergos's eyes. He held his gaze for a few seconds, then turned to the treetops. "I can teach you nothing." He lowered his head and continued eating. Gergos stared up at him in disbelief. "Then....what do I...do?" "Let the forest be your guide." The lusus spoke, mouth full of grass. Gergos sighed and walked off. "Let...the forest....be my guide?" He wondered. Maybe there was something to be learnt, from the singing birds and the soft sunlight. Maybe the forest would teach him more than his lusus could ever.Day 8- Early School Days in Short Stories More Like This
Day 25- The EndDeersprite starting trolling distancedYonderDay 25- The End in Short Stories More Like This
Deersprite: I'm so...proud of....you
DY: I...wont be able...to see you again....right?
DY: I love you....dad
Deersprite: I love you too....Gergos
DY: Thank you....for everything....
DY: I promise....to be a good troll....
DY: The world....we are going to create....
DY: We all want...to be friends....
Deersprite: That sounds....beautiful
Deersprite: You will....all prosper
Deersprite: Good luck.....son
DY: Thank you....dad
Deersprite ceased trolling distancedYonder
Day 17- In LoveGergos stretched out by the pond. Koufie happily splashed around in the water, despite her injuries. They had successfully rescued her from the imps and were taking a well-earned rest. Suddenly, Gergos's trollian went off.Day 17- In Love in Short Stories More Like This
ancientLanguage began trolling distancedYonder
AL: Eyhay Ergosgay, Iway eardhay ouyay escuedray Oufiekay. At'sthay
DY: Oedisu....its good....to hear from you....
AL: ^_^ Eway aven'thay alkedtay inway away ilewhay, osay Iway oughtthay eway ouldcay, ouyay owknay, atchcay upway? Ifway atsthay okway ithway ouyay...
DY: Oh...yes of course....how has...your struggle been?
AL: It'sway eenbay okway. Echaltay andway Iway areway ustjay estroyingday esethay ittlerlay erpstway Avehay ouyay eardhay omfray Aurrieway, Attiepay, orway Ekierzay etyay? Eythay
aidsay eythay antedway otay artakepay inway away "owblood'slay allengechay" orway omethingsay. Iway on'tday evenway owknay.
DY: No....I havent....talked to them....
DY: I...havent seen you...in a while....we sho
Day 7- Free dayDance, you fool, danceDay 7- Free day in Short Stories More Like This
For the clock ticks away
For the sun doth sway
Sing, you fool, Sing
For your lover hath age
For your father's grave
Drink, you fool, drink
For your next on the list
For you last, single kiss
Sleep, you fool, sleep
For the ending is nigh
For the stars in the sky
Day 15- UpsetGergos furiously tapped away at his handheld computer.Day 15- Upset in Short Stories More Like This
distancedYonder began trolling crazedRabbit
DY: Please...please tell me....you know where they took Koufie
CR: wow YOURE talking FASTER than NORMAL
DY: Please...help me...where is Koufie?
CR: hold ON gergos, I dont KNOW
DY: I need..help now..I dont know where they took her
CR: gergos CALM down SHE will BE fine
DY: I dont know where she went! She hasnt answered and I SAW them take her body away and I dont know if she is alive or not and I NEED HER SHE IS MY BEST FRIEND
CR: you never talk so fast...
CR: ill call up a couple others and we will join you
CR: we will find her, ok?
CR: dont worry
distancedYonder ceased trolling crazedRabbit
Support From The ShadowsMy circle of friends, everyone pretends,Support From The Shadows in Free Verse More Like This
If you don't, your seen as hard, not someone who bends,
In this modern time you must be willing to try,
To be human, experiment and express, learn and cry,
Smoke blocks the view during a conversation,
The TV becomes controlled by a radio station,
I begin to feel out of place,
I'm willing; however this is not my race,
As I life my arm to wave the flag,
A devastating word, dyke or fag,
Some friends admit they had a thought,
They acted and were afraid to be caught,
I lower my hand,
We have this personal trait, try to understand,
Again the smoke comes to sight,
My friends are drugs, still I don't fight,
My circle of friends, everyone pretends,
Except for one similarity, I pretend we're friends.
Whispers In A HaystackYou will forget me, however not this day,Whispers In A Haystack in Free Verse More Like This
An ignorant fearful man views me as the prey,
Vengeful eyes destroy ones mind,
Never to turn around to view what's behind,
Blood you spilt, I state with a fainting voice,
The minority of society ignores while others may rejoice,
To those I met as a man,
I apologise now for closure, sorry that I ran,
I forgive those that hurt me before this day,
Also the words of separation, pain comes with what they say,
I wait for something that will never come, an revolution,
Of equal rights which have been replaced with hope, a substitution,
You will forget me, however not this day,
My grave remains hidden in the bay, I hate being gay.
Learning Their InstinctsI watched my child age; instincts determine what's next,Learning Their Instincts in Free Verse More Like This
However, I know you don't need to know how, a muscle to flex,
Returning home, a long day at school,
My son returns to his room, knowing my advice is a rule,
Dirty clothes are to be washed, toys returned to their place,
Sub routines are leant, the invisible steps of a race,
Sitting on the floor I watch how he prepares to stand,
Eating a sandwich, the way it sits in his hand,
His technique, instincts battle what he has been taught,
I throw the ball of behaviours, assuming what will be caught,
His favourite colour and number, his choice,
However my genetic makeup influenced the sound of his voice,
His friend arrives, to his room they leave,
A child pretending to be an adult, which to believe?
I know they will do as they are told,
But I say nothing, for they are both fourteen years old,
Laughter and joy, I can hear that sound,
An image is created, by that image I am bound,
Then nothing but silence is found,
Now by that absence image
One Step CloserA tear is born, memories of what you put me through,One Step Closer in Free Verse More Like This
However, as the sky you make me blue,
I'm the shadow born from your light,
I'm the justification of your sight,
Standing, we lean on one another,
Having replaced, your father and my mother,
Under a blanket, together hiding, a warm cover,
Having replaced your sister and my brother,
There are times, because of you I cry,
I simply take a breath and again I try,
Confusion rises, you begin to shake,
Paths are seen, from one I must make,
A journey of one, a weakened patrol,
As your depression fights for control,
I open my arms, I prepare for the embrace,
I than hear silent anger, the lines on your face,
They dare to move, they await the impact,
I must run towards danger to keep you intact,
In this position I have been before,
Your standing behind a stable however transparent door,
In my hands I hold the key,
Her depression vs my maturity,
The key is placed in, the door I open,
A hug for my lover, she rejects more than the words spoken,
Waking To A ContradictionThe confusion of a label, the hunter becomes the pray,Waking To A Contradiction in Free Verse More Like This
The objective of my minds intensions begins to sway,
Leaning left then quickly right,
Opened eyes would cement the fright,
Love of lust, the difference is the same,
The differences between X and Y causes shame,
Rolling over I reach for something real,
A body is found, do I accept how I feel?
Silent words and a prolonged stare,
A fatigued body, wondering eyes that care,
We stare at one another,
Denying psychology, to find a father, a mother,
For the past six years I have walked the opposite of a straight line,
My current position is a result that I want to rewind,
As I think and assume a fall,
I watch our shadows dance on your wall,
They have fewer labels for they are incomplete,
I stand shaking for I kneel at your feet,
You are real however my contradiction,
The fact that falls under fiction,
The confusion of a label, the hunter becomes the pray,
Last night we had sex, however you're a woman and I'm gay.
Your Love Is EnoughThe illusion of love, you will eventually forgive,Your Love Is Enough in Free Verse More Like This
The winning race where you did not bid,
Morning arrives I hold my eroding heart,
I turn to my partner, honey we have to start,
A sleeping child that will try to hide,
As a team we can attack from any side,
Breakfast to make, then a room to clean,
My husband goes to work as I steam,
We work together and against one another,
I hate the way our child pauses after saying mother,
Like any family we argue, we fight,
Then we receive closure with the arrival of the night,
My husband changed, took time to believe,
That despite his faults I didn't leave,
At times of anger, fingers I point,
You're a bad role model, put away the joint,
I know my son needs a father and a dad,
I keep smiling while boarder lining mad,
The illusion of love, you will eventually forgive,
The reason I don't leave him; we have a kid.
Leaning Against StatsI refuse to fall in love at first sight,Leaning Against Stats in Free Verse More Like This
For in the past, most resulted in an emotional fight,
With my mouth I have control,
However, my eyes have its own patrol,
They search and then unfold,
Wanting the stable shadow, to hold,
Love is common and a priority,
I remain rare, the smallest part of a minority,
For me to have faith, to cope,
I must ignore that you hold my rope,
To open and allow you to touch my heart,
A silent interview, you must first take part,
You can fall in love and then talk,
My minority has to run before it can walk,
Marriage is a human right, just not for me,
I can kiss my partner as long as you don't see,
Giving birth, the next step to take,
No matter what we do, a baby we can't make,
I refuse to fall in love at first sight,
Life as a gay male; waiting for the next fight.