Not a writerToday I took my pencilNot a writer in Free Verse More Like This
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Paper inked with loveI used to write so many thingsPaper inked with love in Free Verse More Like This
I used to smile, I used to sing
I used to be so very happy
I used to be
And then you trapped me
The piece of paper
On the table
A little story
Of a traitor
On the purest heart
To lie about
I was the paper
You were the words
You violate me
So I got lost
I am the memory
You are the ghost
I won't be treasuring
You inked the paper
You inked my soul
It won't get better
It won't let go
They will retell this story
The piece of paper gonna burn to ash
And we will shine in endless glory
But it will never heal this painful gash
I kiss you good nightI kiss you good nightI kiss you good night in Free Verse More Like This
And then I'm ready to die
Remember me as alive
Keep the memories
But don't cry
Tears won't do the justice
I'd rather see you smile
Up above from the sky
Believe in good
Believe in evil
Don't seek the truth
Cause it will kill you
Believe in life
Believe in death
Don't break your heart
It's all you have
I kiss you good night
And go slowly to die
My heart is rainingHatred consumes meMy heart is raining in Free Verse More Like This
But I only hate myself
What a waste
Such a shame
I am nothing
Not worth a name
And him and her
And all of them
But that's ok
It's not like I give a damn
I deserved this pain
My life in vain
After all, it's just a game
But my heart
Is still alive
Beating, breathing, living
Hurting, crying, grieving
Not for me
But for those I hurt
Those I made cry
To those I lied
So many times...
My heart bleeds for them
In the stillness
For me ...
But it's ok
I deserve this pain
But my heart is raining
Loudly into the night
It prays to be heard
Prays to be unfold
To be free
Prays to be loved
My heart is raining
Asking for the savior
Begging for the light
In the hands of the night
Trapped in my hatred
My heart needs saving
It hurts how fast it beats
Locked inside of me
It just needs to be free...
My heart is raining
Please, save it for me...
Cocaine heartI just rideCocaine heart in Free Verse More Like This
Slowly into the night
Wind in my hair
I'm driving nowhere
Mile after mile
I slowly ride
Enjoying my life
Life on the road
I keep dreaming on
No one to stop me
No one to say I live my life wrong
So I keep on driving
Searching for the parts of my soul
Day after day, night after night
I'm living it on the wild side
Perfectly balanced and matched
This cocaine heart of my life
One hundred percent pure
Loaded completely with fuel
Beating with rhythm of a psycho
Trembling like leaf under the wind
Who cares how fast I am driving
This crazy life belongs to me
No map to be followed
No goal to be reached
No today, no tomorrow
I'm just chasing my dream
My cocaine heart
My soul and my life
Love=PainI don't have proper words in my mindLove=Pain in Free Verse More Like This
No proper scene in my eyes
Because love is so hard to describe
Some might say it's pure and innocent
Other says it's dark and evil
For someone it might be all the sense
And for other it might be without meaning
I don't know if I know the definition of the love
If I actually know anything at all
But I have something inside
Something what holds me in this life
Is it love?
I don't know
Maybe yes, maybe no
But as long as it makes me going
I don't really care how it's calling
I know it hurts
It causes pain
Makes me insane
Sometimes it makes me even cry
But it's worth to fight
Your love is poor if you can describe it
Cause real love strikes you as a lightning
It means all and nothing at the same time
It feels like heaven but the feeling lives inside
I said so many words right now
But still don't know what love is about
And I don't need to
All I need is to feel it
I can'tI can’t. I simply can’t write.I can't in Free Verse More Like This
I’m lost; I’m out of my mind.
I’m stuck between this and another line.
I want to cry but I don’t know why.
I can’t. I can’t write.
I can’t even force myself to try.
But I want to write. I want to fill this paper with words.
I want to write about everything in the world.
I want to feel the satisfaction of letting go my heart, my soul, my every thought.
I want to. But I can’t.
It’s not writer’s block, and it’s not the lack of muse or inspiration,
it’s nothing but a pure devastation.
I search for the words which not meant to be found,
I’m lost in the emptiness and I can’t find way out,
every line that I write fades away without a sign
and I want to cry but I’m not even able to do that.
No one understands lonely poet that screams into the night,
no one understands lonely girl that hides from the light,
no one seem to understand or care,
no one is out there a
I'm not brokenI’m not brokenI'm not broken in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t have a second part
I am whole
Like I was from the start
I have one heart
And blood in my veins
I won’t fall apart
From the things you say
I have these eyes
And they’re unique
They tell no lies
Only what you seek
I have this soul
But it’s dark inside
It reflects my world
It shows you my life
I have this road
Though I have no love
I don’t need salvation
I have my choice
It belongs to me
And my own voice
Will set me free
Taste meTaste meTaste me in Free Verse More Like This
Lick the poison of my skin
Don't try to compensate
I won't let you win
Drown in me
I taste like the ocean
I'll corrupt you with waves
I'll set you into motion
Don't you love me?
Don't you need me?
I know I don't
Don't you want me?
You're stupid if so
Wreckage of my life
Perfect set for yours to start
I taste like wine
Rich and old
and so goddamn fine
I'll penetrate your veins
and shatter your mind
No reason why
I'd give myself to you
But then again, why would I?
To die for ...Before I close my eyes I'll whisper your nameTo die for ... in Free Verse More Like This
So I can be sure I'm not yet insane
I pull the trigger, I slice the knife
To make sure I feel alright
My love brings me to the end
And I'm not ready, not ready yet
Without screaming I will cut the pain inside me
For my last trip I will try to fight it
Burning candle burns like burning soul
I didn't make it, I couldn't make it on my own
I'm doomed to fail, losing my own faith
I can't take it, I can't go through this again
Without hesitation I'll die for you
But I don't want you to die for me too
I want you to live, want you to breathe
Don't want your life to be close to the cease
Through redemption I will go again
And I'll be melted by the pouring rain
But when the death finally will knock into my door
I won't be scared I already know what I'll die for
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I Am So Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I just can't help some of what I do.
I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.
In your shoes, I would be the same.
I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.
When you look at me, I wonder what you see.
I want to say it's over; do it no more.
In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.
I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.
Please believe me. I promise I am.
You still accept me; hold me tight.
It will be tough, but I will win the fight.
I hope you know how much I really care.
I can't believe that you're still there.
Meant To BeTake back some of your love.Meant To Be in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not an angel for above.
Of all the flaws that you see,
Not a single one you find in me.
You're in a circle of self hate.
Can't you see that I inflate?
What I'd do to make you smile;
I'll try it once in a while.
Kiss and hug is all you could ask.
So I make up a destructive task.
Cut you open, make you bleed.
I'm the poison on which you feed.
Somehow I'm amazing to you.
Does it even matter what I do?
Self esteem is way too low,
But punishment is all I know.
Trying to curb my sadistic ways
Or you won't survive many days.
Why can't love just be easy?
Are we really meant to be?
More Than Anyone BeforeThere's never been a loveMore Than Anyone Before in Free Verse More Like This
Like the one you have for me.
I'm floating; I'm surrounded.
Your love is all I feel.
I just can't comprehend
Why it's bestowed upon me.
I don't deserve
Everything that you are.
But even so
I know that it's true.
You'd do anything for me.
You've already done so much.
I wish so much I could say
My love is the same,
But my hearts been broken
By a lover before.
There's so much
That I would do for you.
But I can promise you
I love you
More than I've loved anyone before.
Showing YourselfShowing yourself doesn't make you weak.Showing Yourself in Free Verse More Like This
I'll give you exactly what you seek.
This vulnerability is a part of you.
There isn't anything you can do.
I'm only here to give you help.
Don't have to do it by yourself.
It doesn't matter what you say.
I promise that I'm here to stay.
When you find it's hard to breathe,
Let me be there to relieve.
Want you to know I don't think less.
Only you think that you're a mess.
Please, I just want to be here.
I really do love you, dear.
EnvyThey say that envy's wrong.Envy in Free Verse More Like This
It burns right through you,
Consumes your time,
Effects everything you do.
But I just can't help
The envy that I feel.
You don't even know
My thoughts you steal.
Straight A's just come.
You don't have to try.
While I work so hard
Just to get by.
Yes, I do burn
When you are so smart.
I'm not ashamed
Of the envy in my heart.
I Still BleedDagger's out, but I still bleed.I Still Bleed in Free Verse More Like This
On my heart you unknowingly feed.
When is it I'll be whole?
You're not the owner of my soul.
It's getting better til I sink.
Why do I have to think?
I just want to be safe,
But have no hiding place.
Thoughts will always follow.
They burrow and make me hollow.
So I run as far as I can go.
Maybe the thoughts won't know.
Now You'll SeeNo words come out;Now You'll See in Free Verse More Like This
Trapped in my head.
What am I feeling?
It doesn't stop.
I'll make it stop.
Can't do this;
Only one option.
No way to explain;
You'll never understand.
Now you'll see.
ObsessionYou are my obsession.Obsession in Free Verse More Like This
Source of my depression.
One that I crave.
Love that is depraved.
I still hold on to.
I would die for you.
Even if you're not here.
My mind just won't clear.
Only one I want.
Mentally I attack.
I'd still take you back.
Glad you disappeared.
Return I feared.
Walk through my door.
Want you even more.
Wonder if I'll heal.
Was this even real?
Only MeWhat would it feel like,Only Me in Free Verse More Like This
To just disappear.
You wouldn't know,
If you just weren't here.
There is no feeling,
Because you can't feel.
You can't interpret.
You just aren't real.
It's so lonely here,
Where you used to be.
I look around,
But it's only me.
I'm Just SorryCan't tell why you're still here.I'm Just Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I only bring out your deep fear.
Constantly near panic attack.
Focusing on what you lack.
So afraid that I'll go away.
Why do you want me to stay?
You deserve more than me.
Really, what do you see?
Trying to be better for you.
I don't know what I can do.
I'll try whatever I can.
I'm just sorry for who I am.
RedemptionRedemptionRedemption in Free Verse More Like This
my moonless nights
in the darkness of my mind
that there is no other story
To redeem me,
My Cell's AwaitingMy Cell's AwaitingMy Cell's Awaiting in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My nightmares were never real,
because my nightmares were born of fear.
I have no nightmares,
for I fear no more,
Now all my dreams,
are past or gone,
There's no hope,
There's no fear,
I am free,
Never so clear,
But it's for human
this damned prison,
A cell's awaiting
for no reason.
Insane!!!I'm scared, I'm so alone,Insane!!! in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Your heart is made of stone
Is this what you desire?
To set my heart on fire?
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane!
I'm here, I want to see you,
It drives me mad, I need you!
I'm staring at your eyes,
Your face cold as ice
You're putting on dark glasses,
Behind I feel your flashes!!
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane-insane-insane!!!
I'm here, I'm scared and lonely,
I feel that I'm the only!
I'm trembling on your voice,
I hear it inside the noise!
You enslave my eyes and ears!
Control my breath and fears!!
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane!!!
I'm here on my own,
I'm feeling like a clown
You rule my breath and feeling,
There is no hidden meaning!
Your move and sexuality
Disturbed my hall normality!!!
And now I'm so in pain!
You're driving me insane!!!
I'm here again in silence,
There is no great science!
You robbed me of my life
And cut it like a knife!
You stole my mind and feeling,
There is no inner meaning!
Sleeping SwanSleeping Swan in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I came to find you White Swan,
Like you, else no one
I came to see your smile again,
To forget all of my pain
I came to sense your warmth, your breath,
You are my heaven, here on earth
You were sleeping, so sweet,
I stood still, I felt so guilt
You were sleeping, so calm,
I stood and stared, angel's charm
I softly touched you, as a baby,
Not to wake you, dream my lady
After all, 'am the bewitched,
You're just sleeping, what you've dreamed?
Am I worthy your be prince?
Am I worthy for your kiss?
I came to find you White Swan,
I hope again we'll dance.
WishCardLet the rays of the sunWishCard in Free Verse More Like This
Bring happiness and light into your house,
Let the sun bring you lovely gifts.
Let your heart's music free,
Let your smile to light up your face.
I wish you happiness and joy.
A Chance?A Chance?A Chance? in Free Verse More Like This
If noone gives you a chance for a long time,
then when you are finally given one,
most of the times, you gonna fail.
And you'll ask for a second one,
but you don't deserve it,
because out there there are many like you
still awaiting the first one.
Don't Ask For A Chance, Demand What You Need.
The Last SoldierThe Last Soldier in Free Verse More Like This
The Last Soldier
The world was changed forever.
Even though, after all these,
the two generals
the one against the other,
with the same arrogance as before,
like nothing ever happened.
He was still wearing
his helmet and his mask.
He knew what he has to do;
The real enemy was revealed.
but they were both so blind;
The Last Soldier.
DeathMareWhen I die,DeathMare in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
still the birds will sing and fly
When I die
few will mourn me, few will cry
When I die,
still will rain, still will dry
When I die;
tell me when, I know why.
When and if I ever die,
you'll see my star up to the sky
When and if I ever die,
gods will mourn me, they will cry
When and if I ever die,
the earth will shake, seas will dry
When and if I ever die...
I am immortal, I can't die!!!
The Sword Of ThamoclesThe Sword Of Thamocles in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The Sword Of Thamocles
I'm looking up,
it's there lurking
Awaiting to cut me,
to end my song
My wish is half,
I must be careful
I'm looking up,
it's there lurking
The spider's silent,
only one, just one string
My wish is half,
I cannot stand it!
I'm looking up,
The blade is sharp!!!
I'm looking up!
It's The Sword Of Thamocles!!!
It's my wish turned to damnation?
Or it's my shield, my protection?
If I dare will it save me?
Or in the end will betray me?
Parallel IIParallel IIParallel II in Free Verse More Like This
I'm dying along with myself,
Always on the same nightmares,
Without being able to help me,
But only to wake,
If I succeed, so.
And when I wake up,
I feel worst,
Because I'm tired
and even more alone.
that feeds me and kills me
at the same time,
Always leading me
to do again the same mistakes
and I feel worst,
Because I can't wake up,
Neither I want to sleep.
My kind of love.I want the kind of love that forms colourful wings in my stomach. Wings that fly in circles because they're disorientated from my hearts heavy beating.My kind of love. in Free Verse More Like This
I want the kind of love that's so radiant, I can't even bare to look in its direction without closing my eyes first–– it burns brighter than the sun.
A love that scares the fear out of my life, making anything possible again.
A love that regresses two adults back into kids, playing hide and seek with their future.
I want the kind of love that's a Sunday in the middle of the week –– inconvenient.
A kind of love that dances at a funeral –– inappropriate.
Love that's a muse to an artist –– inspiring.
The kind of love that's a .44 magnum revolver in a trunk of BB guns –– authentic.
Love that sparkles in the dark like pearls around the moons neck.
Love that speaks in tongues possessed by the spirit our two souls create.
Love that regenerates like a phoenix, and flies us on it's back
SynchronousA little girl waltzes to a tune in her head.Synchronous in Free Verse More Like This
A young boy begs the streets for some bread.
A mother waits in a hospital room full of dread.
A groom smiles at his wife-to-be as they wed.
An old lady pulls the last bit of her thread.
A homeless man stares at a stores comfy bed.
A boy loves a girl; she loves a woman instead.
A teenager writes a suicide note to be read.
A drunk man doesn't see the truck up ahead.
A once minor virus, begins to spread.
A billion single tears are being shed.
An army of first-time soldiers are being lead.
A colourblind man see's a lady in red.
A heartbeat begins, after being pronounced dead.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
RemainThere is a time and place for allRemain in Free Verse More Like This
A time to rest, to climb, to fall.
If you embrace
Purpose and place
You’ll find within
An inner grace.
A tranquil skin
To hold you in.
To grasp the end
As we begin.
The ego’s coat must be shed
It blurs what truly lies ahead.
It sinks its knife into your soul
You, yourself drip through the hole.
It lasts as long as you allow
Set it free, and find the Tao.
What will stay forever more;
Our nucleus floating back to shore.
We shine until we self implode
We linger on; a dulcet ode.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
His and her love."Don't let go", he said,His and her love. in Free Verse More Like This
she complied, as he bled.
"I love you more than life,
my one and only; my wife.
––Don't cry for me baby,
just promise to never forget me"
She wept and held him tight,
shaking, in the cold of night.
She pulled out the blade,
his vision began to fade.
"I refuse to let you go,
you know that you're my beau.
Stay with me… right now,
don't leave me like this…how?
I can't love you more than this,
nothing comes close to when we kiss.
WE have to be kept alive!,
let's BOTH fall and take the dive!
you and me… in the dark…
forever igniting…our spark…
I said I'd die for you, I meant it."
tears fell down his face as she said it.
"It has all lead up to this instant,
you and I, our existence...
We'll rise up to the sky,
we'll be together when we die.
Just me… and you,
Forever in my heart.
you are my missing part."
She grabed the knife on the floor,
and lay still, by his side forever more.
"I love yo
Let me be your poem.Let me melt the cold pain from your skin, transform into the sun and heat your hurt––so it evaporates into white clouds of hope that inspires the trees to sway.Let me be your poem. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Let me touch you like the first story I've ever read in brail, after deciding to go deaf before letting another sound replace your voice.
Let me shatter every tiny ounce of doubt from your being, using the weight of my love for you–– to demolish it's once relevant place in your thoughts.
Let me carve holes in to the night sky, so you can see how my universe revolves solely around you, making the moon shine bright with jealousy.
Let me fly you to the nearest nebula, so we can finally be as high as this love makes me feel.
Let me drive you crazy like a mirage in a desolate desert, making you crave it so much you imagine it in front of you, dying for a taste.
Let me be the sun to warm you and you can be the rain to cool us down, and we can make the sky blush a million different colours.
Let me be the baseli
Anxious.I retire from the crowd, feeling kinda strange.Anxious. in Free Verse More Like This
This anxiety is drowning me, somethings gotta change.
I gotta get in my mind's soul and start to rearrange––
your confidence for my sadness, care for an exchange?
This loneliness has company,
Gaining on me subtly,
I'm handing out custody,
I'm left with nil––utterly.
I think about tomorrow; wasting my today.
Already feel broke, before I even gotta pay.
I hear what I wanna hear, not what you have to say.
Losing bits of self; as I try and make my way.
This stressing is messing––
maybe it's a blessing;
dressing up depressing.
Trying to fool me, as it's assessing––
keeping me on my toes daily; guessing.
I need a change, now
I want to be the cause of "wow"
Just give me a go; allow,
I'll be the answer to your "how".
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Distant.I realise it all, but I can't seem to follow through.Distant. in Free Verse More Like This
I'm biting the bullet, but i've bitten off more than I can chew.
These days are copies, all i'm getting are paper cuts.
Sick of reading the prologue, getting stuck in familiar ruts.
Making the same mistakes; time and time again.
What disappoints me in the end; I have no one to blame.
Things are crystal clear one day, the next a distant blur.
In complete disagreement one moment, suddenly I concur.
Why all the confusion? damn this feeling is persistent.
Everything at my finger tips, yet still so fucking distant.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
TeachTeach how to read, not what to read.Teach in Free Verse More Like This
Teach how to speak, not what to say.
Teach how to love, not who to love.
Teach how to think, not what to think.
Teach how to be, not who to be.
Teach how to listen, not what to listen to.
Teach how to stand, not what to stand for.
Teach how to write, not what to write.
Teach how to admire, not what to admire.
Teach how to fight, not who to fight.
Teach how to laugh, not what to laugh at.
Teach how to question, not what to question.
Teach how to accept, not what to accept.
Teach how to succeed, not what to succeed in.
Teach how to follow, not who to follow.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
InvertI think most of us should work on inverting our lives. We’re too preoccupied as a western society (I’ll only speak for what I know). Too preoccupied and distracted to notice what we’re actually noticing. The things we tend to focus on can be condensed into two brackets. (Money) –– which can comprise of work, saving, providing for your family/friends, getting security for yourself and those you love, gaining materialistic worth that make the every day life easier. And finally consumables; which in this case would be food, clothes, shelter, water, and basic resources.Invert in Philosophical More Like This
Another thing we focus on that can be condensed into a somewhat fidgety bracket is (distraction). Active distraction from the essence of life, from the pulse in your wrist, neck and heart. From the energy surrounding you, from the vital questions that linger on throughout the course of a life. This category can be difficult because something that is distraction to one person when used cor
It's good to be back.You tried, you just failed.It's good to be back. in Free Verse More Like This
You said you'd stay, but you bailed.
You hugged me tight, now you've let go.
You were my best friend. Now, a stranger I know.
You promised me the world, then left mine.
You said you couldn't be without me, I guess it took time.
I cared for you deeply, now I don't give a fuck.
No one's going to love you like I once did, you're shit outta luck.
You took a lot from me, but I still got it in spades.
See, all the love and memories…it all fades.
I'm doing really good now, I smile all the time.
It used to be reserved for you, when you were all mine.
I'm moving forward, doing things for myself.
I'm the protagonist in my life. You're the book up on the shelf.
I found myself again, and damn it's good to be back.
I got it all again now, everything I began to lack.
I was compromising my future because I thought you might be it.
It was always meant to be mine, and yours –– only a little bit.
You couldn't make up your mind, until I made if up for you.
You.Why is it so hard for me to tell you.You. in Free Verse More Like This
That I adore you.
That I am a mess really.
That all I look forward to doing.
Is talking to you.
At this point I would do anything to tell you.
How much I do.
But of course my nervousness continues to shake me away.
From what I want.
I will keep trying.
I will keep trying.
Trusted SecretThe words you said belong only to meTrusted Secret in Free Verse More Like This
I won't let anyone have them
I will protect them, cherish them
People will ask over and over again
So they can dig up your past
So it can define you
I am not one of them, can't you see?
I am not hiding behind a mask of falsehood.
I am right here
There is no one else
I am always here to help carry the burden you are so desperate to hide
You just got to let me.
I am always here for you_
SensesI am happySenses in Free Verse More Like This
Can't you see?
My mind seems to have nothing but the simple thoughts of you in them
~Wondering if you are okay-wounder if you would like this.
My nose takes the scent of you, as you walk past me each and every time
~Giving a friendly smiles as you do this~
My eyes just seemed to be glued to you, drawn into your brown eyes
~Taking in your features- almost drawing my own mental picture of you~
My lips speak nothing but you
~"How are you today?"~
My hand touches you and gives me butterflies and a deep sense of warmth
Can't you see.
That you are almost all of me already.
Sudden Realization.Sudden RealizationSudden Realization. in Free Verse More Like This
I finally faced the fact that you don't love me
I don't know why it took me so long to see
Your actions, your words
Yes they were my cure
But I soon saw the hidden meaning behind them
I know you were only trying to help
To save me from myself
But really I am now much to vain/selfish
To let you continue this
I am not saying stop talking to me
Because that is far away from what I want
I fell in love with you
But please understand, I don't want to be apart of a schedule
Of your caring
Keep in mind I love you so much
In fact I always will
But see me for me
Not what you know I can (and should) be
Words of GlassWords of GlassWords of Glass in Free Verse More Like This
You got what you wanted
I can't believe I trusted you
Not only that but I gave you the chance
I done with chances
This time I am not turning back
Of course you will think:
"She will come back-she always has"
I am done
Playing your game, believing your lies.
Have a good life, without me in it.
(not like you cared much to begin with....)
My Only.Here I am talking to youMy Only. in Free Verse More Like This
This smiling person who has it way to bad for you
The only way at times I feel whole is near you
The only person I look forward to seeing is you
The one that I want to watch grow is you
The one I feel is deserving of everything is you
Every sentence I seem to say ends with you
So naturally it would be good to say:
I Love You. <3
White CanvasWhy, does the very thought of thisWhite Canvas in Free Verse More Like This
Bring out a cold uneasiness into me
Is the change good, is the new slate pure?
Is this really free from the all the defilement
That I have brought into myself
Was I weak? Am I even strong now?
All I know now is that..
I was nothing before...at least that is what I made myself
But now....I think I have finally made myself something
Finally just finally
I made me
I made the colors I wanted
They are splattered, bright and flamboyant.
Even missing the canvas completely
I finally released it
I made it imperfect
Goodbye : )
Can you Feel Me?I wait, for each timeCan you Feel Me? in Free Verse More Like This
We meet gazes..
When we do it feels as though
it is lasting forever.
I resist the urge
To smile for fear that you will
look away at that momenet.
You're stong gaze makes it hard
To look away.
It almost as you are looking through me.
At times I am almost too afraid
to look back at you.
I STILL want to talk to you...
Is it the same for you?
Now.I see what I want.Now. in Free Verse More Like This
I now know what I need.
It took me forever to see
It has been you, and it always has been.
I have tried my hardest to look past it.
To cross out what I knew to be true.
But I can't go around it any longer.
What a weakling that I have become...
That I can't tell you.
Forgive the corniness.
This is become more than just a fondness of you.
Did I Lose it?I remember this, better than I shouldDid I Lose it? in Free Verse More Like This
I try and forget, erase it from my mind
But it comes back-just as I knew it would
I become frightened because the very thing I am hiding from is myself
I wish I could tell you this
That I am crazy and you should stop wasting your time
But everything in me wants you to still be around me
I know now though, that you don't plan on leaving me
But this sickness-this evil in me
Will not accept the fact that you will be there for me
But as I write this-almost in a pleading voice
Please don't leave me...
My Soul, My Dream, My TeamMy Soul, My Dream, My Team:My Soul, My Dream, My Team in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
We are dreamers, we humans.
We reach out eagerly to that which lies above us
Tempted by its unattainable nature and egotistically;
We simplify the task that lies before us...
We climb without any forethought, without preparation;
Recklessly we charge head on for our goal -
And eventually, we lie broken by our failure.
I myself, Captain as you call me,
Am little better than a foolish dreamer.
One who dreams in a childish manner;
Unaware of his impotence, when left alone.
How many times have I been saved by others?
When I lack time, it is my officers who stand,
They keep the ship running smoothly,
Expending hours of precious effort.
When I fall, it is my co-captain who rallies me,
And reminds me of our responsibility -
One that we owe to our readers and friends.
When I write, it is my team - my uncles,
Who lay the path before me;
They give their time and their heart,
Supporting my work from its birth as but a simple idea.
And when I am dow
Living With A LieYou sit there shaking; emotionally frozen.Living With A Lie in Free Verse More Like This
You check the time on your watch, despite knowing it already.
The ever-present numbness, the cold feeling which clutches at your soul;
That is what you feel upon the dawn of the lie.
To know its nature, to know its being;
To have it spill upon your awareness.
What words would surmise such a bitter feeling:
Perhaps the use of dejection, p
The Feelings That LingerThe Feelings That Linger:The Feelings That Linger in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The sound of your voice still lingers here
Even though I know you're gone...
And my nights have turned to sleepless days;
They grow worse with every dawn...
You've probably heard this story though
At least a thousand times or more.
But the thing I remember best about her
Is the sound of that closing door...
It was like the end to everything;
A cloud inside my head.
When I came awake on that final night;
I reached for her in bed-
But an empty space was all I got;
There was no one to wipe these tears.
I could scream and cry for many hours;
But it wouldn't chase my fears.
I tried so hard to tell myself
That everything would be alright.
But instead I ended up reminsicing
About her ever-present light...
I'm just so tired of everything;
I wish I didn't have to think...
But maybe you'll hear me one last time;
If I put this down in ink:
We had a life that was beautiful
Player versus PlayerPlayer versus Player:Player versus Player in Free Verse More Like This
Elemental artisttry, as lightning weaves through the air.
I see the bloodthirst in his eyes, the hunger for victory.
A demand to be recognised, yet soon to be silenced;
Perfect and perfunctory - my opponent made defunct...
As I stand above this dying creature;
The flicker of life soon fading from their eyes.
I smile and whisper a word of parting,
For the fool who fell where he lies.
-Unfinished piece by Chen Yuan Wen, 10th April 2012
White Lily GirlWhite Lily Girl:White Lily Girl in Free Verse More Like This
They say that love is plenty
But mine is simply dead.
She sleeps amongst the flowers
I grew upon her bed...
I wonder if she's dreaming
Of smiles and happy things.
Or playing her favourite game
Of rubber balls and strings...
She used to mean the world to me
But humans took her life.
Oh lord that took my child away
I offer you this knife...
It bears the blood of your faithful humans
The ones you taught to scream of hate...
How many more will join the ranks
Of the damned that I create?
Droolings wrecks and putrid bodies
The ultimate art of sanguine pride!
The dead that groan in utter pain
Will stay forever by her side...
Cut and sewn, hewn and cleft
Made to match like ragged dolls.
Each will be a lifeless guardian
Watching from the bitter walls...
You took my child and stole her life
Now I do the same for you...
Your children now shall bear my hatred
And there is nothing you can do.
Come and drink of water or wine
I shall feed you as I feed
Just Pull the TriggerThis pain I feel inside,Just Pull the Trigger in Free Verse More Like This
It comes from no wounds.
This pain I feel I've died,
Don't leave me in this room...
I am surrounded by the walls-
And my cage grows tighter.
I pick up cigarettes and crawl,
As I search for my lighter.
Holding flames that I cup,
In these hands so bitter.
I take that first of puffs;
With a swill of liquor.
I have sunk to the bottom.
I'm dreaming of the moment I-
Will break the surface and see the sun.
But sadly I am done...
So let's go play with the gun!
And load, just pull the trigger!
And load, let the gun smoke linger!
- Word of Chen, 13th May 2014
I Believe In YouI Believe In You:I Believe In You in Free Verse More Like This
You feel like things have gone into the ground
When everything is gone and crashing down.
You took your pain and tried to make it end
But give me one more chance to hold your hand...
See I will believe it...
I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it
You will believe that-
You will be alright,
And we are all here by your side
We'll take you through those painful days
We soar like birds and fly away hey!
You will know that we're here,
Cause when you open those eyes my dear;
We will all be here
We will all be here
We will all be here...
See once it was so hard to carry on,
But take my hand, my shoulder; we'll be strong.
Don't think about the things that are all behind,
Just look ahead and hearts will heal with time.
Yeah live and believe it
Cause I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it;
You will believe that
You will be alright
And we are right here by your side
Throw away those painful days
Take a breath and step away hey!
The Great DrakeHe rose from the ground as the very earth split in a series of jagged scarsThe Great Drake in Free Verse More Like This
Molten lava would burst from these wounds, as his wings eclisped the shimmering stars...
The Great Drake Serogar, once laid to rest in the warm womb of Gaia
Had once again awakened, to discipline those who had earned his ire.
Humans and Dragons were killing each other, senselessly bathing in the coldest of blood
Yet all their efforts amounted to nothing and opened the gates for a terrible flood...
For in the realms of the Nether; where the creatures drank of the dark well of Midnight
A rift had been torn of violence and hatred, spawning the children of Blight.
The demonkin arose from this artificial scar, fueled only by their need to destroy
The forces of darkness laughed at us blatantly, for this had been their devious ploy!
Serogar shook his head and cried piteously, for this was not the world of which he had dreamed
He roared defiantly at the creatures of darkness and met them bravely as he screamed:
Rest My Sweetest DarlingSweetest little dragon child, with a tiny broken wingRest My Sweetest Darling in Free Verse More Like This
For you it is a solemn song that we are made to sing.
Your parents fought to save you, but here it is you lie
My sweetest little dragon child, why did you have to die?
There are no words to capture grief, nor the mourning in our hearts
I never thought that we were meant to be easily torn apart...
No pain in life could have ever prepared us, for the pain we faced today
My child I wish you could hear the words that we truly long to say
We wish we could have taught you, about the flowers in the spring
We wish we could have showed you, the homes of our kin...
We wish we could have loved you, and watched you fly away
But in this cold and clammy cave is where you have to stay
We'll lay you down to rest for now, so just dream of better times
Your mother and I will be the ones to atone for our crimes
Sleep for now and rest yourself for you needn't ever rise
We will stay and watch you drift away, before our very eyes...
"My dearest Mideen
The Walk of Utter ShameThe Walk of Utter Shame:The Walk of Utter Shame in Free Verse More Like This
My face is hidden by a blackened mask,
As I am taken to stand before the crowd.
Ripped from my face and cast aside,
My features burn in the glaring sun...
"Who amongst you will defend this man?"
I hear a soldier call.
"None of us sir!" The crowd shrieks back,
As to my knees I fall.
"Shame him!" The soldier cries,
As they begin to pelt me with rotten fruits,
"Maim him!" the people scream,
As they kick at me with mailed boots...
I shudder and writhe beneath the torture,
Too pained to even scream in fear.
For this is the punishment that I deserve,
For shaming the honour that I hold dear.
In anger, in rage, in emotions so dark,
I've carelessly denounced the work of my siblings...
Now I lie, in battered penance,
For only pain can ease the shameful sting...
Never did I think that I would fall,
But pride is arrogant dissonance.
Through penitent pain and suffering,
I have learned the value of reticence.
"Allow me to accept my shame and offer my apologies..."
Beautiful.They say I’m beautifulBeautiful. in Free Verse More Like This
Because of the way my crystalline heart reflects light off its fractured surface
Well, that isn't a reflection
It’s rejection of the light because it’s all too much to handle
Throw myself away into the dark without even a candle
‘Cause I don’t want to recognize all the pain I’m in
Or realize the truth behind what I am or who I've been
And I tried to make things right but I just keep on making wrong
I never listened to the angel on my shoulder when she called
I count my tears like they’re experience
And my scars like they’re mysterious
And that’s a feeling I’ll remember –
Watching as you left
Watching as you ended what was meant to be forever
And I can see it in their eyes; everyone can empathize
So they say that I’m beautiful because they don’t know what else to say.
But if being broken is beautiful, then it’s the ugliest way...
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?If Ever I Lost You in Free Verse More Like This
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Wonder.Do you fear your own death?Wonder. in Free Verse More Like This
Is it hard to conceive?
Draw in your last breath, then-
Your last breath will leave.
Isn't it strange to think,
That there's a timer above your head?
A countdown you can't see,
That finishes when you're dead.
Don't you ever wonder,
What it'll be like when you're gone?
I bet the world will keep on spinning.
There will be another dawn.
But the harsh reality behind it-
We're all going to die.
There's no reason to try to fight it
Not even to question why.
It makes me wish that I could have a little more to give,
Because I'm not afraid of how I'll die...
I'm afraid of how I'll
Awareness.She writes such lovely poemsAwareness. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But nobody really cares
She hides them all the time
To avoid the judging stares
She wrote one yesterday
About a boy who said he loved her
But to her own dismay
She caught him with another
She wrote one about school
And the words painted on her locker
“No one likes you, stupid bitch.
You’re lucky I’m at soccer.”
She wrote about her parents
And how she wished they were together
But she knows that won’t ever happen
And forgetting’s probably better
Yes, she writes such lovely poems
But there’s so much more to this
See, her pencil is a razor
And the paper is her wrist.
Please Come Home...I've not grown used to this...Please Come Home... in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not used to being alone...
And I've had enough of it...
For too long I've been without you...
I have so much to say...
Will I ever get the chance...?
I long for our forever...
To stay lost in our romance...
And I've not grown used to this!
I'm not used to being alone!
I miss our everything!
Won't you please, come
I miss our everything...
The warmth of your embrace...
The way you'd hold me...
The way you made me feel safe...
I long to feel you once more...
And taste the sweet of your kiss...
I want how it was just before...
We were seperated like this...
Cause I'll not get to used to it!
Used to you being gone!
And I miss our everything!
Won't you please, Darling,
Won't you -please- come
Cowards Way OutDid you really think,Cowards Way Out in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That taking the cowards way out,
Would prove anything,
Except all of our worst fears?
Did you even think,
About the ones that you have now?
And the pain that you'd bring,
If you were to leave them all here...?
Do you really think,
You're life is just so horribly unbearable,
That you need to take this knife,
And do something you know is terrible?!
How many times,
Have I told you it isn't worth it?
How selfish of you,
To expect your life to be picture perfect.
Since You've Been GoneYou take my hand and you whisper to me,Since You've Been Gone in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
"Darling, I love you and I promise I'll never leave..."
I look to you and without missing a single beat,
I say, "You were my missing piece, now I'm finally complete."
An involuntary smile spreads out across your lips,
And I can't help but smile as I lean in to taste your kiss...
Then the frame stops and it's stuck on this same scene;
My nights have been so haunted with the recurrence of this dream.
I always hope that I'll wake up and this dream will become true,
But I'm so tired of only dreaming...
Darling, I miss you...
And since you've been gone I've been wasting away,
Just trying to find meaning in every day,
I know that I won't, but I try anyway,
I just hope you'll come back and I hope that you'll stay...
Since you've been gone I've been all on my own,
Trying so hard not to pick up the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But since you've been gone that's all that I've known...
(Since you've bee
What I Can't EraseLike the gnarled roots of an old decaying treeWhat I Can't Erase in Free Verse More Like This
I’m twisted and confused, tired of being me
On the surface I am strong, abrasively calm, and ready
But underneath it all I’m weak, wrong, and unsteady
I shudder at the wind; tell tale of death’s bringer
I feel the chill upon my spine; forever it seems to linger
Now is not the time for cleansing wounds of past battles
Worse is lurking just beyond the howling darkness of the shadows
There isn't much that I can do against an army borne of fear
Every nightmare, all my demons, they’re all assembled here
They’re everything that I’m ashamed to say is part of me
The ugly truth behind my eyes no one should ever see
And if I held my ground would it be too much to face?
Or should I just ignore what I know I can’t erase?
HurricaneI don't really knowHurricane in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
How all of this came to be
When I already know
She can do better than me
I feel like she's the desert
And whenever I hold her hand
I realize that makes me
Nothing more than a grain of sand
I can't help but ask myself
How is it that she's with me?
I'm just a mess when I'm alone
And I'm fucking up constantly
In every way, shape, and form
Like the calm of the night
Or like the eye of a storm
(And if that storm were to break...)
I always have the thought
That if people were rain
l would be just a drop
And she'd be the hurricane...
They SayThey Say.They Say in Free Verse More Like This
They say there is always a silver lining.
But right now my future looks bleak.
They say the sky is the limit.
But my vision is blocked by a mountain peak
They say life is a game.
But I was never any good at hide and seek.
They say were all different.
But does that mean that were all unique.
They say everyone wants to win.
But I have no desire to compete.
They say there are plenty more fish in the sea.
But they didn't say whether the water's shallow or deep.
They say everyone is searching for the same answer.
But I have'nt got it in me to cheat.
They say I'm too negative.
But I know this also comes hand in hand with defeat.
They say a healthy mind is a healthy body.
But I'm not to obsessed with my physique.
They say some situations you must face, face to face.
But sometimes I am not willing to turn the other cheek.
They told me some day I'd be someone great.
But I know that's a promise they cant keep.
They say sometimes shit just happens.
But I've recently discovere
Living a Lie.Living a Lie.Living a Lie. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You say things you don't mean when you're angry.
You call me a waste of space and that you can't stand me.
When the dust settles you say you don't mean it.
You say I should know better than to believe it.
As usual I foolishly upkeep your illusive hold on me.
I allow you to mute my thoughts and take control of me.
You promise and reassure me that it will never happen again.
That this is the last time and you will put it all to an end.
But I know promises only comfort fools,
Who readily allow others to pull the wool
Over our eyes because it is easier to swallow the lies.
Can it be a mistake if it happens more than twice?
Despite my preaching I can never take my own advice.
I've realised that this aggression is a part of you
And because I can never dare to part from you.
I have to believe the love you have for me is true.
Sometimes you have to take a lie not for what it is
But for the truth and reality it suspends.
Withdraw your vengeful tongue and revert it into a kiss.
Standing AloneStanding Alone.Standing Alone in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I can't understand myself
Yet I can't stand myself
So I stand by myself
Because I can't be anyone else.
SurvivalSurvival.Survival in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Give a man a fish he will eat for a day.
Teach a man to fish he will eat for a life time.
Give a man a gun he will rob a bank.
Give a man a bank he will rob the world.
We adapt and adjust.
Constantly dithering on the cusp
Of what is considered wrong and right,
Ensuring that our ambitions remain in sight.
We would be willing to do anything
In order to get what we truly desire.
We would be willing to risk everything
Even putting our friends in the line of fire.
We may share the bounty with others,
Allowing them to experience the fruitful taste.
Given the option we will even care for our brothers.
Just as long as we are well endowed with songs of praise.
We are opportunists.
We are convincing and ruthless.
We are the modern day Judas.
Wasted Words.Wasted Words.Wasted Words. in Free Verse More Like This
We wait for the last possible moment.
Even when confronting our opponents.
How we truly feel.
We hide behind our counterfeit expressions.
Conceal and contain our countless confessions.
Failing to announce,
What our mouths long to pronounce.
We purposely squander opportunities.
Maintaining our positions within our communities.
Avoiding any disclosure,
Reducing the risk of exposure.
We use humour to dilute what we actually say.
Because the truth does not have to be revealed today.
We know there always is a tomorrow,
So today has not got to be filled with sorrow.
We wait and wait.
Stall and prolong.
Until it’s too late
And the moment has gone.
There is never a convenient time.
For us to say what is really on our minds.
It takes the sight of a death bed.
Good Bye FriendGood ByeGood Bye Friend in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Bags packed hastily on an un made bed.
Inactive blue tack firmly attached to the walls.
Earthly possessions compiled regrettably.
Unfortunate circumstances have been confirmed.
Your chariot has arrived to take you away.
The hardest part is yet to come.
I know our connection will weaken.
No matter how hard we try to cling on.
Change is something we cannot avoid.
Memories are all we have to hold on to.
Realities rewind button has been disabled.
This game can never be won.
Humour temporarily dilutes the situation.
Silence is the only language spoken.
Eyes exchange compromising glances.
Half hearted commitments announced.
Things will never be the same.
This equations amounts to a complicated sum.
As you stand In the door way about to exit.
Life's bank has withdrawn all the quality time we invested.
Hopeful plans for the future proclaimed.
Of which a fixed date can never be named.
I will miss you more than you ever know.
I've finally accepted the fact that you must go.
Nonet Four MaturityMaturityNonet Four Maturity in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As I grow older I start to see.
This life for what it really is.
Death is unpredictable.
Success is not assured.
Pleasure is short lived.
Pain is promised.
Good ByeGood byes.Good Bye in Short Stories More Like This
Something so simple and consistent. Something we have all experienced time and time again. It combines the long awkward moment with a short and swift exit. Signifying an end to what once was. An end of an era. A fulfilling moment that always had an end. The conclusion was always present, always there. But sometimes we choose not to focus on it. It almost makes the certainty uncertain for a period of time. But we all know its coming. Sometimes we focus on it to heavily and it ruins the remaining time you have. What I'm trying to say is there is no set way to deal with it. Its something you have to get used to. There are no sedatives to numb the pain or refill the exposed void. Effort is short lived. Things will never be the same. But the time spent will always have a receipt. A blank none existent piece of paper. Imprinted in to your brain. Converted in to the form of colourful images and videos. These memories will always remain on your saved data. It's the only way we know
The Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once Knew in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
We used to talk everyday.
Laughing, talking and spending time together.
I never thought me and you would stray.
I assumed we would be this close forever.
Now your number is never in use.
You're just a photo in my frame of mind.
It went from mutual respect to absolute abuse.
A bond like ours is difficult to find.
I occasionally think of you and wonder how your doing.
Wonder what you look like and if you still talk the same.
Imagine what your doing with life and what dreams you are pursuing.
Despite everything that happened my memories of you will always remain.
I knew you for a while and you made an impact on my life.
Sometimes I wish things could go back to how they once were.
Dry my tears and remove the jagged bloody knife.
Envision what my life would be like if that incident never occurred.
Would we still be close and have that same connection.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be we were destined for different things.
I just wish I got the chance to apologise and compl
FragileFragileFragile in Free Verse More Like This
Is the glass half empty?
Or is it half full?
Is every glass the same?
Is the glass even there?
Or do we need it to be present?
What happens if the glass breaks?
Can it be repaired?
Who cleans it up?
Can it be easily replaced?
Is every glass made to be invaluable?
Is the glass made to be broken?
Does every glass have the chance to be full?
How long can a glass be filled for?
The level constantly fluctuates
We cant help but be affiliates
I cant find the words to enunciate?
I cant find the voice to communicate?
All we can do is appreciate
Can you reciprocate?
Social PhobiaPeople scare meSocial Phobia in Free Verse More Like This
this world is a scary place
why is everyone staring at me?
They must think I'm not worth it
Hiding alone in the corner
crying my heart out
why is this world a scary place?
Why am I hiding all alone?
There is no true feeling
no fear that i ever had
a feeling of restlessness
a feel of hate and disgust
Why is it crowded around here?
why are they all looking at me?
I can't control these emotions
I need to hide from this world for good
True loveFrom the first day we started talkingTrue love in Free Verse More Like This
i knew that there was a bond going on
I knew that one day you will be mine
forever and always
Than i started getting to know you
and i found out i had feelings for you
from the day we first met
i knew that i fell in love with you
I love your gorgeous eyes
and hugging you
if i could
i would hug you and never let go
I knew this was love
from high above
the moment i have fallen in love
was the moment i knew it was true
I started getting to know you
and everything about you
i thought that we can work this out
especially since we have so much in common
Now we are finally in love
and you have finally reached my heart
a heart for you
and i wont let anybody get in the way
Cause i love you so dearly
and you mean something to me
more than anybody that ever knows
and to me this is what i called
and forever will be
until the very end
of our living lives <3
I am Fine...I say I'm fineI am Fine... in Free Verse More Like This
when it was always a lie
I hide deep inside my mask
where the pain is hidden inside
Nobody knows what is real
Nobody knows the truth
I will leave this world
as it was always meant to be
A life full of lies
a life full of hate
I want to be forgotten...
than all this pain will go away
I hide deep within myself
Lying to myself all along
I am not fine in this world
Deep inside I am drowning in sorrow...
I want to scream to the world
Tell everybody how I really feel
Will anybody truly understand?
Or even care for that matter..
I am lying to hide this pain
a pain of sorrow and misery
Nobody knows how I truly feel
Cause I am forgotten in this world
My face shows different emotions
than the pain I feel deep inside
I am "Fine" in this life
while deep inside I'm truly dying...
Why am I here?I can no longer feel,Why am I here? in Free Verse More Like This
this pain any longer.
I can't wipe the tears,
that burns my face.
I can't hide from this world,
when I am lost, forever alone.
I wish someone would understand,
but I am alone dealing with the sadness.
Nobody seems to care,
the scars that made my life.
Nobody seems to understand,
the life that I have lived.
I try to be perfect,
but I am hopeless.
I am not wanted,
cause this world doesn't need a problem.
So why am I here?
Facing today and another tomorrow.
Why not end it all?
When this world would be a better place without me.
I amI am the light,that will shine through.I am in Free Verse More Like This
I am the ears,that will listen to all.
I am the voices,telling me to keep going.
I am the eyes,that sees the good as well as evil.
I am a daughter,to a hurtful family.
I am a sister,to a brother that doesn't care.
But I am strong,when those think I'm weak.
I am alive,to find my path to the light.
I am unique,in every aspect of my life.
I am creative,when I find the joy to do so.
I am me,and that's all I care about.
I am beautiful,even if depression tells me otherwise.
Despite of my past,I am still here to this day.
To fight the battle of depression
I will always be me,a strong woman there is.
I will find my path into the light,and that is when I'm finally free
Does it ever go away?Everybody screamsDoes it ever go away? in Free Verse More Like This
swearing, yelling, hitting!
Does it ever go away?
feeling the pain on the inside
But does it ever go away?
Screaming in pleasure
hurting everyone in site
but does any of it ever die?
Nothing will change
nothing will get better
just screaming in pleasure
and crying in pain
Taunting one another
hurting everyone in sight
will this pain ever go away?
Nothing but pain
tears falling to the ground
will this life ever get better?
What about this cruel world?
Screaming at everyone
swearing every single word
Nothing but pain on the inside
feeling of nothing
but pain on the inside
Blood falling to the ground
with eyes of pain
All this pain
all this screaming
in this nightfall evening
when will this torture ever end?!
I need YouI need to feel your touchI need You in Free Verse More Like This
I need to love you
I need to hear your heart beat
and to always hear your voice
You lighten up my world
You bring happiness within my life
I need to be with you
to always have smiles on my face
I need you here
I need you there
I need you with all my heart
cause without you I am nothing
I need you to want me
I need you to love me
Cause I will always love you
deep within me
I always want to show you
I always want to be here for you
I need you to be with me
cause without you, I am nothing
So love me forever
love me always
For with you in my life
There will always be love
I need to feel your touch
To hear your voice
I need to always be with you
Cause my love, you complete my world
If OnlyIf only you understood,If Only in Free Verse More Like This
then maybe we could have a new start.
If only you saw the tears,
then maybe I could be able to move on.
If only you know how I feel,
maybe life could be better.
If only you knew what you meant to me,
then maybe I could call you a friend.
If you truly understand my pain,
then why can't we be friends again?
If you truly cared enough about me,
then why do you not see me as the real me?
If only you know the heaviness in my heart,
then maybe you can see that I truly care.
Where has our friendship gone?
Do you truly want to be my friend again?
Maybe one day life would be easier,
when you are finally in my life.
Maybe you will one day realize,
what our friendship truly meant
You're the ReasonYou're the reason I get up every dayYou're the Reason in Free Verse More Like This
You're the reason I smile, just knowing that you care.
You're the real reason I can love,
I can show passion when you are near in sight.
You're the truth, that lies within my life.
The moment we met, I knew this was love.
You're the reason, I can believe in myself.
You're the reason, I can live for another tomorrow.
You're the reason I say I love you,
when I never knew what love truly meant.
You're the reason I show myself in this world,
to prove that my life was never a mistake.
You're the reason I'll live my life,
to believe in myself, and to conquer this world.
You are the reason
That I'll live my life knowing you are there with me.
Fly Free from This WorldI fight my way,Fly Free from This World in Free Verse More Like This
deep in this darkness.
nobody seems to care.
I am all alone,
no one to love.
Wishing to find peace,
but only dread the life that I have.
I have no goals,
i dont have a future.
I lost the one I love,
now I am forever alone.
I wish this pain would stop,
but maybe its my time goodbye.
Maybe one day there will be hope,
and I will be able to fly free from this world.
Dead GirlBaby, I hope you bury me in ashesDead Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Tear off the fabric of my dress and taste the the skin of my stomach
And kiss the cold smile that you never knew
You never got the chance to know me
Or the story behind each scar
You just smiled and nodded all the way through
From classroom to coffin
From gravel to gravestone
You didn't love me from my blue jeans to my little black dress
From the car park
To the funeral home
I was dead from the second I met you
I was picking out my coffin on the bus-ride home
I was just a figure
You were just a ghost-boy
Shucked clean from the shell
No soul, no heart, nothing my pen could dream up
I never knew you
You never knew me
We were never in love
We were desperate, and needy
Blood pumped with hormones, adrenaline and lust
My back against the closet door was nothing but a fantasy
And tasting your bleeding lips was nothing but a daydream
This coffin isn't empty anymore
Your tuxedo is stained with graveyard dirt and sweat
Bury me in every regret
HarderKiss meHarder in Free Verse More Like This
Rid me of every scar
Suck the night-old whiskey away from all my black and blue
Touch me until I don't feel worthless
All these broken ribs
The fluttering lids of both black eyes
Pray away every awful thing I've done
And lick the salt away from broken skin
The exit wounds of bullets
The little lines of knife bites
Just love me until I'm mad
And kiss me until I'm whole again
Girl in the GlassI hate this girlGirl in the Glass in Free Verse More Like This
With the sneer on her lips
Her fingers knotted in her pretty hair
Her eyes are wild
She's so curvy it's almost sad
She can't hold down a diet
She keeps yanking down her sleeves to cover those pathetic scars
Her eyes are droppy
Her legs too wide
Ink stains on her finger tips
And pentagram's drawn on her sneakers
She has a silver ring and leather coat
She's so desperate to worm into some else's skin
I don't want to hate her but I do
Who is this, stupid bitch who's smiling like she doesn't have a clue?
Putting on a brave face? Ready to face her accuser?
He's waiting in the car outside
A man she should call father
Looking in a mirror is forgein to me
Trying to contact that girl in the glass
This useless bitch staring at me
Who are you?
And why would anyone want you?
Breakable.I've been there for all my friends heartbreak...there suffering, and there pain.Breakable. in Free Verse More Like This
But, love when the time comes...
Will you be there for me?
Pasted On Your FaceIt's really just a simple brushstrokePasted On Your Face in Free Verse More Like This
A happy masquerade
You think of how strong you are
And paste it on your face
You try not to act like
Blood's sticking to the underside of your shirt
And that you weren't just cursing yourself
Becuause she got there first
And you act like its all fine, it's all good
That you aren't being tortured
As much as you should
That you aren't devestatingly lonely
And your trashed heart isn't broken
You smear this act
This pointless coat of paint across your skin
Like everything is fine
HomeMy grandmother would say it's because I'm restless and young. My dad would peel himself away from the TV just long enough to grunt, "Did you take your pills?". But downing the bottle could not keep these thoughts away. No matter how many books I bury myself in, or the countless hours I stay at the computer redrafting old poems. I could watch every show, every movie created until my brain becomes slop in my skull. But the fears and desires I so stubbornly keep at bay always find there way in on nights like these.Home in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
The fear of oblivion, and the desire to run. The fear of oppression, and the desire for adventure.
I'm laying on my side in bed, all my limbs tucked in under the warm blankets and inhaling the fresh smell of clean sheets. The cat is curled up at the foot of the bed, purring as he begins to drift off. Everything is silent. My family is in the clutches of Morpheus.
But I can't sleep again. I want to blame this on the creaking that seems to echo from my wall, but I know why.
Morphine EyesYour hands are so much bigger than my ownMorphine Eyes in Free Verse More Like This
And I find it enchanting-the display of your fingers touching mine
Like a mirror, I can see myself in you
In the sea blue of those morphine eyes
Surely beauty does not exist elsewhere
Maybe God has created you from the clay of the earth himself
And captured the glow of the moon in your iris
And your laugh has been woven from the bells of heaven
I wish you could see how I look at you, my love
That just for a moment you could see just how beautiful you are
Even if you don't like it, I can see it
Your gentle hands
And the curve of your mouth
You are a wonder to me
Both you, and those haunting eyes
The softness of your voice
And this agony I keep enduring
All for the boy
With the morphine eyes
Karma's a BitchOh, honey you are so lonelyKarma's a Bitch in Free Verse More Like This
Let me hold your hand and talk you through it
I'll tell you she's lost a great guy
And that this makes me one lucky gal
But maybe she was better off
And maybe you are too
Because the only heart that I have
Is the one that belongs to you!
You must feel so lost
So heartsick and confused
Maybe it was your idea
Or maybe it was hers
Maybe she's one lucky girl!
To have dropped that burdensome load!
Hurts to be left behind doesn't it?
Sucks to be second best?
Makes you feel alone?
Like nothing could be right again
Isn't is horrible to feel like you aren't loved?
Like no one gives a fuck?
Like someone's just kicked you in the gut?
Makes you feel sad inside?
Being left out
It hurts, doesn't it?
IncreasingI don't like painIncreasing in Free Verse More Like This
I hate the way my scissors sting
I don't care for the way blood sticks to my wrists
The cotton itching against my opened skin
But I do like the feeling
The way I slump to the floor in reilef
My ignorance of the depth increasing
I don't like the pain
But I do love the feeling
The progress of the depth increasing
God, I love the feeling
Of the only peace I've known
That embrace that I have,
It may be the only one
The calming voice of skin splitting
The gentle smile of blood on silver
The only feeling of love I know
As the depth's increasing
Shut Up, VoiceI'm not worthlessShut Up, Voice in Free Verse More Like This
But you are
Today I'll tell him
He'll just laugh at you
I want to stop
But you can't
I'm tired of being broken
You'll never be whole again
I'm better than this
You are nothing
I'll stand up to them
They'll just hit you again
I could be perfect if I try
Not as perfect as her
I don't want to go down that road again
All you can do is crawl
I'm not going to cut today
You're going to write that note today
They'll have to stop, sometime
It's not going to end