Not a writerToday I took my pencilNot a writer in Free Verse More Like This
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Paper inked with loveI used to write so many thingsPaper inked with love in Free Verse More Like This
I used to smile, I used to sing
I used to be so very happy
I used to be
And then you trapped me
The piece of paper
On the table
A little story
Of a traitor
On the purest heart
To lie about
I was the paper
You were the words
You violate me
So I got lost
I am the memory
You are the ghost
I won't be treasuring
You inked the paper
You inked my soul
It won't get better
It won't let go
They will retell this story
The piece of paper gonna burn to ash
And we will shine in endless glory
But it will never heal this painful gash
Taste meTaste meTaste me in Free Verse More Like This
Lick the poison of my skin
Don't try to compensate
I won't let you win
Drown in me
I taste like the ocean
I'll corrupt you with waves
I'll set you into motion
Don't you love me?
Don't you need me?
I know I don't
Don't you want me?
You're stupid if so
Wreckage of my life
Perfect set for yours to start
I taste like wine
Rich and old
and so goddamn fine
I'll penetrate your veins
and shatter your mind
No reason why
I'd give myself to you
But then again, why would I?
I kiss you good nightI kiss you good nightI kiss you good night in Free Verse More Like This
And then I'm ready to die
Remember me as alive
Keep the memories
But don't cry
Tears won't do the justice
I'd rather see you smile
Up above from the sky
Believe in good
Believe in evil
Don't seek the truth
Cause it will kill you
Believe in life
Believe in death
Don't break your heart
It's all you have
I kiss you good night
And go slowly to die
After darkEvery single night I read your scarsAfter dark in Free Verse More Like This
They tell me stories of your life
I read them slowly, discovering your world
Reopening old wounds, healing broken soul
You’re a stranger, looking for some peace
Craving for some love, longing for embrace
Needing of support, praying for the light
Asking for solace in the hands of the night
Sorrow is your lover, pain’s the only friend
No place to stay forever, you’re homeless all the way
Hope doesn't work and neither does belief
All your life been running, looking for relief
Time won’t heal the scars you've gained but you will live
Pain won’t go away but in time you will forgive
Love won’t give you only joy but you will learn to feel
Life won’t be a happy fairytale but it will be with me
SheShe touched your heart then ripped it outShe in Free Verse More Like This
She broke you like a twig
Drank your blood
Drowning in it
She sucked you dry
She left you high
She poisoned your mind
She got inside of your soul and asked for your love
And you gave in
Drinking her, tasting her pain
Getting within and letting her win
You became her rain
Saving rain in the empty dessert that is her heart
She fell apart
You broke her down
With your love
With your damaged soul
With your poisoned mind
You saved her
By falling in love with the darkest of them all
To die for ...Before I close my eyes I'll whisper your nameTo die for ... in Free Verse More Like This
So I can be sure I'm not yet insane
I pull the trigger, I slice the knife
To make sure I feel alright
My love brings me to the end
And I'm not ready, not ready yet
Without screaming I will cut the pain inside me
For my last trip I will try to fight it
Burning candle burns like burning soul
I didn't make it, I couldn't make it on my own
I'm doomed to fail, losing my own faith
I can't take it, I can't go through this again
Without hesitation I'll die for you
But I don't want you to die for me too
I want you to live, want you to breathe
Don't want your life to be close to the cease
Through redemption I will go again
And I'll be melted by the pouring rain
But when the death finally will knock into my door
I won't be scared I already know what I'll die for
Hate meWhy can't you say it?Hate me in Free Verse More Like This
Is it so hard?
I won't be blaming
You just need to start
Say it, say it out loud
Why do you hate me?
What I've done to that?
But you stay speechless
Hiding eyes from me
You won't show your weakness
At least not in front of me
Tell me, where we went wrong?
How this can be happening?
Why hate appeared instead of love?
Why your eyes keep judging me?
I can't bear it, I want you to say it
Need to know, need answers to hear
Please, just say why do you hate me?
Open my eyes to the truth I can't see
You hate me for the reason I don't know
What happened, what happened to our love?
I'm standing speechless with my blood getting cold
You left me saying I'll understand someday on my own
Two roads, one loveTwo different peopleTwo roads, one love in Free Verse More Like This
Two different souls
Two different hearts
Two different roads
One goes to left
Another goes right
One chooses death
Another takes life
Two different worlds
Two different minds
Two different goals
Two different lives
Two roads that were never meant to cross
Crossed in love, pain, happiness and loss
Two hearts that were never meant to love
Lost in the feelings of one another's world
Combined in one love…
RedemptionRedemptionRedemption in Free Verse More Like This
my moonless nights
in the darkness of my mind
that there is no other story
To redeem me,
For Eros?For Eros?For Eros? in Free Verse More Like This
Some time in the past, without being asked,
I started thinking
And finally I just felt
Words poetic for Eros,
from a poet, aren't worthy.
I don't really know,
If I was or not,
but they called me so.
So I simply felt
that such words would be Worthy,
Only if the poet, even a bad one,
was born from Eros.
Maybe they are wrong
and I was just born now for you.
Maybe I am wrong.
However For Eros
Nothing I had written,
Nothing I had shared
Nothing I had kept.
Till I met You!
Like a present by God,
Your view was revealed to my eyes.
There's nothing ever appeared to me more beautiful!
There's nothing ever appeared to me as cute!
A Chance?A Chance?A Chance? in Free Verse More Like This
If noone gives you a chance for a long time,
then when you are finally given one,
most of the times, you gonna fail.
And you'll ask for a second one,
but you don't deserve it,
because out there there are many like you
still awaiting the first one.
Don't Ask For A Chance, Demand What You Need.
My Cell's AwaitingMy Cell's AwaitingMy Cell's Awaiting in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My nightmares were never real,
because my nightmares were born of fear.
I have no nightmares,
for I fear no more,
Now all my dreams,
are past or gone,
There's no hope,
There's no fear,
I am free,
Never so clear,
But it's for human
this damned prison,
A cell's awaiting
for no reason.
The Last SoldierThe Last Soldier in Free Verse More Like This
The Last Soldier
The world was changed forever.
Even though, after all these,
the two generals
the one against the other,
with the same arrogance as before,
like nothing ever happened.
He was still wearing
his helmet and his mask.
He knew what he has to do;
The real enemy was revealed.
but they were both so blind;
The Last Soldier.
Parallel IIParallel IIParallel II in Free Verse More Like This
I'm dying along with myself,
Always on the same nightmares,
Without being able to help me,
But only to wake,
If I succeed, so.
And when I wake up,
I feel worst,
Because I'm tired
and even more alone.
that feeds me and kills me
at the same time,
Always leading me
to do again the same mistakes
and I feel worst,
Because I can't wake up,
Neither I want to sleep.
WHATEVERWHATEVERWHATEVER in Free Verse More Like This
I can love you or just buy you,
Whatever; I'll Love You.
You can love me or reject me,
You can feel me or just trick me,
You can hug me or seduce me,
You can heal me or just leave me,
You can save me or forget me,
I Will Love You Even If...
I Will Love You Forever, Whatever.
Open WoundBroken dreams in lovers room,Open Wound in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Pain's flowing in the air,
She's so perfect, my doom,
Pain's growing, I don't dare.
LOSTI cannot let it go,LOST in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I'm gonna lose it all,
My feelings just they flow,
I cannot stop this fall
I feel alone without you,
I'm Losing All that Here's and True,
I'm so alone without you,
This is what love can really do
I'm so Lost Inside of You,
I'm Losing All that Here's and True,
I'm so Alone Without You,
Though I Never Was In You
I cannot let it go,
I'm gonna lose it all,
My feelings just they flow,
I cannot stop this fall
I'm Losing All that Here's and True,
I'm so Lost Inside of You.
A Strange JourneyA Strange JourneyA Strange Journey in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Arrived at less than zero,
Fate was written,
'am no hero,
I couldn't save you,
Truth was hidden,
I should 've tried this dream before!
Tried to catch you at the end,
Blood and flesh, a weird blend,
A strange journey in Light,
A chance to stop this crazy fight,
I 'll return, I'll live again!
Arrived at just at zero,
Your will bitter,
'am no hero,
I could save you,
I could hold,
Love was hidden,
You should 've tried me before!
You insisted till the end,
Time and place, a weird blend,
A strange journey behind,
A chance to search me and to find,
I 'll return, I'll live again!
Arrived at less than just one,
I saw you dancing,
You can save me,
You can love,
Life is stolen,
Fill my hole,
Please, Don't Kill Me, Feel Befooore!
You denied me, one more end,
Love And Flesh, A Weird Blend,
A strange journey inside,
A chance to plan, but feeling blind,
Pasted On Your FaceIt's really just a simple brushstrokePasted On Your Face in Free Verse More Like This
A happy masquerade
You think of how strong you are
And paste it on your face
You try not to act like
Blood's sticking to the underside of your shirt
And that you weren't just cursing yourself
Becuause she got there first
And you act like its all fine, it's all good
That you aren't being tortured
As much as you should
That you aren't devestatingly lonely
And your trashed heart isn't broken
You smear this act
This pointless coat of paint across your skin
Like everything is fine
Breakable.I've been there for all my friends heartbreak...there suffering, and there pain.Breakable. in Free Verse More Like This
But, love when the time comes...
Will you be there for me?
ApathyAffection is a diseaseApathy in Free Verse More Like This
It blinds the eyes and plugs the ears
It's a clear vision, of nothing but emptiness
Tying the tongue!
Dyes it with value!
Coats it with worthless words of silver and red
It is nothing but a trick
A slide of hand under a skin-tight shirt
And that's all it take
To make somebody fall in love
To heartless abandon the dreams that you once had
Fall into bed! Into pleasure!
Into the skin of a stranger
And I have been called sick
And sadistic and vain
But you are all so blind
That you are living a lie
You can't see the delirium when it leaks from your lips
And the poisons so purple dripping across your skin
Is it real, what you preach?
Abandoning yourself, for the need of someone else?
Dead GirlBaby, I hope you bury me in ashesDead Girl in Free Verse More Like This
Tear off the fabric of my dress and taste the the skin of my stomach
And kiss the cold smile that you never knew
You never got the chance to know me
Or the story behind each scar
You just smiled and nodded all the way through
From classroom to coffin
From gravel to gravestone
You didn't love me from my blue jeans to my little black dress
From the car park
To the funeral home
I was dead from the second I met you
I was picking out my coffin on the bus-ride home
I was just a figure
You were just a ghost-boy
Shucked clean from the shell
No soul, no heart, nothing my pen could dream up
I never knew you
You never knew me
We were never in love
We were desperate, and needy
Blood pumped with hormones, adrenaline and lust
My back against the closet door was nothing but a fantasy
And tasting your bleeding lips was nothing but a daydream
This coffin isn't empty anymore
Your tuxedo is stained with graveyard dirt and sweat
Bury me in every regret
HarderKiss meHarder in Free Verse More Like This
Rid me of every scar
Suck the night-old whiskey away from all my black and blue
Touch me until I don't feel worthless
All these broken ribs
The fluttering lids of both black eyes
Pray away every awful thing I've done
And lick the salt away from broken skin
The exit wounds of bullets
The little lines of knife bites
Just love me until I'm mad
And kiss me until I'm whole again
Karma's a BitchOh, honey you are so lonelyKarma's a Bitch in Free Verse More Like This
Let me hold your hand and talk you through it
I'll tell you she's lost a great guy
And that this makes me one lucky gal
But maybe she was better off
And maybe you are too
Because the only heart that I have
Is the one that belongs to you!
You must feel so lost
So heartsick and confused
Maybe it was your idea
Or maybe it was hers
Maybe she's one lucky girl!
To have dropped that burdensome load!
Hurts to be left behind doesn't it?
Sucks to be second best?
Makes you feel alone?
Like nothing could be right again
Isn't is horrible to feel like you aren't loved?
Like no one gives a fuck?
Like someone's just kicked you in the gut?
Makes you feel sad inside?
Being left out
It hurts, doesn't it?
Morphine EyesYour hands are so much bigger than my ownMorphine Eyes in Free Verse More Like This
And I find it enchanting-the display of your fingers touching mine
Like a mirror, I can see myself in you
In the sea blue of those morphine eyes
Surely beauty does not exist elsewhere
Maybe God has created you from the clay of the earth himself
And captured the glow of the moon in your iris
And your laugh has been woven from the bells of heaven
I wish you could see how I look at you, my love
That just for a moment you could see just how beautiful you are
Even if you don't like it, I can see it
Your gentle hands
And the curve of your mouth
You are a wonder to me
Both you, and those haunting eyes
The softness of your voice
And this agony I keep enduring
All for the boy
With the morphine eyes
Shut Up, VoiceI'm not worthlessShut Up, Voice in Free Verse More Like This
But you are
Today I'll tell him
He'll just laugh at you
I want to stop
But you can't
I'm tired of being broken
You'll never be whole again
I'm better than this
You are nothing
I'll stand up to them
They'll just hit you again
I could be perfect if I try
Not as perfect as her
I don't want to go down that road again
All you can do is crawl
I'm not going to cut today
You're going to write that note today
They'll have to stop, sometime
It's not going to end
Not SorryI'm sorry I'm a fuck-upNot Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
That I don't do as I'm told
I'm sorry I'm not submissive and that your words don't stop me cold
I don't give fuck if you hate me
That's just the worthless slut that I am
I don't care if you don't love me
Its just another blow
I'll shrug it off and walk away
Because I just don't care anymore
I'm watching every dream I have ever had crumble down around me
Your fist keeps on striking me and I don't feel a thing
I'll tear up this paper
I'll break everything in sight until there's silence
And you shut your mouth
I won't stop this pain (this pleasure) until I'm restored
It's a dirty, filthy path
And I'm nothing but your whore
So I don't care if you destroy me
If your words continue to cut
I'll just keep on screaming back
Until you get enough
HomeMy grandmother would say it's because I'm restless and young. My dad would peel himself away from the TV just long enough to grunt, "Did you take your pills?". But downing the bottle could not keep these thoughts away. No matter how many books I bury myself in, or the countless hours I stay at the computer redrafting old poems. I could watch every show, every movie created until my brain becomes slop in my skull. But the fears and desires I so stubbornly keep at bay always find there way in on nights like these.Home in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
The fear of oblivion, and the desire to run. The fear of oppression, and the desire for adventure.
I'm laying on my side in bed, all my limbs tucked in under the warm blankets and inhaling the fresh smell of clean sheets. The cat is curled up at the foot of the bed, purring as he begins to drift off. Everything is silent. My family is in the clutches of Morpheus.
But I can't sleep again. I want to blame this on the creaking that seems to echo from my wall, but I know why.
Emotionless KissIt's not like I can even fight it so why do I still attempt..Emotionless Kiss in Free Verse More Like This
To drag myself out of my self created lament..?
I tried to make things right but I can't force out your repent...
You're standing right next to me so why do you feel so distant?!
I only wish
To take your hand
Pull you in close
And do everything that I can
To keep you
I wanted to make you mine
Though I waited and waited
You never gave me a sign
It's not like I try to hide it so why is it that you ignore me?
I've got no one to confide in and you won't even reassure me...
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally start missing me...
It's strange that when I'm dead how you'll finally start listening..
And I hope
That you're happy with this
We can try to save ourselves
With an emotionless kiss
But it's too late
You've missed your chance
Let your love die
And lost out on our romance
I really wish that you could hear me as I'm crying out in pain..
But in this blanketing darkness nothing ever will look the same...
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?If Ever I Lost You in Free Verse More Like This
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Beautiful.They say I’m beautifulBeautiful. in Free Verse More Like This
Because of the way my crystalline heart reflects light off its fractured surface
Well, that isn't a reflection
It’s rejection of the light because it’s all too much to handle
Throw myself away into the dark without even a candle
‘Cause I don’t want to recognize all the pain I’m in
Or realize the truth behind what I am or who I've been
And I tried to make things right but I just keep on making wrong
I never listened to the angel on my shoulder when she called
I count my tears like they’re experience
And my scars like they’re mysterious
And that’s a feeling I’ll remember –
Watching as you left
Watching as you ended what was meant to be forever
And I can see it in their eyes; everyone can empathize
So they say that I’m beautiful because they don’t know what else to say.
But if being broken is beautiful, then it’s the ugliest way...
It's Lonely At The Top.It's lonely at the bottom, too.It's Lonely At The Top. in Free Verse More Like This
Coming BackYou looked at me with sunset eyesComing Back in Free Verse More Like This
Teeming with an ocean’s depth
Waves were crashing down your cheeks
Tears you should have never wept
And I heard a sound I’ll not forget
The slamming front door as you left
In shock I waited as tragedy unfurled
Denial settled into the silence of my world
Without a glance or shallow sigh
You left me here with no goodbye
But in my heart there grew an ache
A pain that, most nights, keeps me awake
And now I finally realize
What I saw in those shining eyes
Not the sunset; the sunrise
So this was never a goodbye
This was letting go.
And now I’m coming back.
Love Me.She falls asleep most every nightLove Me. in Free Verse More Like This
To the sound of her parents pointless fight
And clinging tightly to her tear soaked pillow
She goes to school most every day
Wishing she could run away
From all those who torture her
For not being ‘cool’
Her mother, she just plain ignores her
Her father’s never even there
Who would notice if she were gone?
Who would even care?
She just wants to make it quick
To take this razor as her friend
And feel its tender loving kiss
Pressed against her paper skin
She just wants to make it stop
The feeling lonely, sad and hated
She holds the blade up to eye level
I don’t know how long she waited
She presses hard against her skin
And lines of ink bleed from the pen
The blade, it rests there on her knee
On her arm she wrote
Wonder.Do you fear your own death?Wonder. in Free Verse More Like This
Is it hard to conceive?
Draw in your last breath, then-
Your last breath will leave.
Isn't it strange to think,
That there's a timer above your head?
A countdown you can't see,
That finishes when you're dead.
Don't you ever wonder,
What it'll be like when you're gone?
I bet the world will keep on spinning.
There will be another dawn.
But the harsh reality behind it-
We're all going to die.
There's no reason to try to fight it
Not even to question why.
It makes me wish that I could have a little more to give,
Because I'm not afraid of how I'll die...
I'm afraid of how I'll
Stenciled Smiles on Paper HeartsI don't like to feel this wayStenciled Smiles on Paper Hearts in Free Verse More Like This
There must be something I can say
Cause I hate just watching you
When I know the pain you're going through
You're not alone; I've been where you are
Contemplating where I'll place my next scar
Hiding razor kisses underneath long sleeves
It doesn't make it better; nothing is achieved
All you'll earn are the scars you've got and
The lesson learned is the lesson forgotten
You feel like no one's there, no one cares what you do
Let me put it to you straight: That is never true
I was shunned, pushed away many times before
Then I realized it was I who had closed the door
I took a chance and opened up to the people around me
Told them of my secrets, now their love surrounds me
You're not alone; I've been where you are
And I know that life sometimes seems so hard…
But believe me, from one person to another
To make a book better, you never destroy the cover…
You are worth it...
The Truth (And The Lie)I'm br(OK)en, really.The Truth (And The Lie) in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
They SayThey Say.They Say in Free Verse More Like This
They say there is always a silver lining.
But right now my future looks bleak.
They say the sky is the limit.
But my vision is blocked by a mountain peak
They say life is a game.
But I was never any good at hide and seek.
They say were all different.
But does that mean that were all unique.
They say everyone wants to win.
But I have no desire to compete.
They say there are plenty more fish in the sea.
But they didn't say whether the water's shallow or deep.
They say everyone is searching for the same answer.
But I have'nt got it in me to cheat.
They say I'm too negative.
But I know this also comes hand in hand with defeat.
They say a healthy mind is a healthy body.
But I'm not to obsessed with my physique.
They say some situations you must face, face to face.
But sometimes I am not willing to turn the other cheek.
They told me some day I'd be someone great.
But I know that's a promise they cant keep.
They say sometimes shit just happens.
But I've recently discovere
Nonet Four MaturityMaturityNonet Four Maturity in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As I grow older I start to see.
This life for what it really is.
Death is unpredictable.
Success is not assured.
Pleasure is short lived.
Pain is promised.
Living a Lie.Living a Lie.Living a Lie. in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You say things you don't mean when you're angry.
You call me a waste of space and that you can't stand me.
When the dust settles you say you don't mean it.
You say I should know better than to believe it.
As usual I foolishly upkeep your illusive hold on me.
I allow you to mute my thoughts and take control of me.
You promise and reassure me that it will never happen again.
That this is the last time and you will put it all to an end.
But I know promises only comfort fools,
Who readily allow others to pull the wool
Over our eyes because it is easier to swallow the lies.
Can it be a mistake if it happens more than twice?
Despite my preaching I can never take my own advice.
I've realised that this aggression is a part of you
And because I can never dare to part from you.
I have to believe the love you have for me is true.
Sometimes you have to take a lie not for what it is
But for the truth and reality it suspends.
Withdraw your vengeful tongue and revert it into a kiss.
Good Bye FriendGood ByeGood Bye Friend in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Bags packed hastily on an un made bed.
Inactive blue tack firmly attached to the walls.
Earthly possessions compiled regrettably.
Unfortunate circumstances have been confirmed.
Your chariot has arrived to take you away.
The hardest part is yet to come.
I know our connection will weaken.
No matter how hard we try to cling on.
Change is something we cannot avoid.
Memories are all we have to hold on to.
Realities rewind button has been disabled.
This game can never be won.
Humour temporarily dilutes the situation.
Silence is the only language spoken.
Eyes exchange compromising glances.
Half hearted commitments announced.
Things will never be the same.
This equations amounts to a complicated sum.
As you stand In the door way about to exit.
Life's bank has withdrawn all the quality time we invested.
Hopeful plans for the future proclaimed.
Of which a fixed date can never be named.
I will miss you more than you ever know.
I've finally accepted the fact that you must go.
Good ByeGood byes.Good Bye in Short Stories More Like This
Something so simple and consistent. Something we have all experienced time and time again. It combines the long awkward moment with a short and swift exit. Signifying an end to what once was. An end of an era. A fulfilling moment that always had an end. The conclusion was always present, always there. But sometimes we choose not to focus on it. It almost makes the certainty uncertain for a period of time. But we all know its coming. Sometimes we focus on it to heavily and it ruins the remaining time you have. What I'm trying to say is there is no set way to deal with it. Its something you have to get used to. There are no sedatives to numb the pain or refill the exposed void. Effort is short lived. Things will never be the same. But the time spent will always have a receipt. A blank none existent piece of paper. Imprinted in to your brain. Converted in to the form of colourful images and videos. These memories will always remain on your saved data. It's the only way we know
The Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once Knew in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
We used to talk everyday.
Laughing, talking and spending time together.
I never thought me and you would stray.
I assumed we would be this close forever.
Now your number is never in use.
You're just a photo in my frame of mind.
It went from mutual respect to absolute abuse.
A bond like ours is difficult to find.
I occasionally think of you and wonder how your doing.
Wonder what you look like and if you still talk the same.
Imagine what your doing with life and what dreams you are pursuing.
Despite everything that happened my memories of you will always remain.
I knew you for a while and you made an impact on my life.
Sometimes I wish things could go back to how they once were.
Dry my tears and remove the jagged bloody knife.
Envision what my life would be like if that incident never occurred.
Would we still be close and have that same connection.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be we were destined for different things.
I just wish I got the chance to apologise and compl
ObsoleteObsolete.Obsolete in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Everyone is too wrapped in their own lives to even care about yours.
But what they fail to remember is that this earth is only the first of many floors.
Tears cascade, smiles appear and fade while the universe continues to ignore,
As they impatiently knock and wait outside life's man made divisible door.
So when they become to self involved in the successes of their own cause.
FragileFragileFragile in Free Verse More Like This
Is the glass half empty?
Or is it half full?
Is every glass the same?
Is the glass even there?
Or do we need it to be present?
What happens if the glass breaks?
Can it be repaired?
Who cleans it up?
Can it be easily replaced?
Is every glass made to be invaluable?
Is the glass made to be broken?
Does every glass have the chance to be full?
How long can a glass be filled for?
The level constantly fluctuates
We cant help but be affiliates
I cant find the words to enunciate?
I cant find the voice to communicate?
All we can do is appreciate
Can you reciprocate?
SurvivalSurvival.Survival in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Give a man a fish he will eat for a day.
Teach a man to fish he will eat for a life time.
Give a man a gun he will rob a bank.
Give a man a bank he will rob the world.
We adapt and adjust.
Constantly dithering on the cusp
Of what is considered wrong and right,
Ensuring that our ambitions remain in sight.
We would be willing to do anything
In order to get what we truly desire.
We would be willing to risk everything
Even putting our friends in the line of fire.
We may share the bounty with others,
Allowing them to experience the fruitful taste.
Given the option we will even care for our brothers.
Just as long as we are well endowed with songs of praise.
We are opportunists.
We are convincing and ruthless.
We are the modern day Judas.
You.Why is it so hard for me to tell you.You. in Free Verse More Like This
That I adore you.
That I am a mess really.
That all I look forward to doing.
Is talking to you.
At this point I would do anything to tell you.
How much I do.
But of course my nervousness continues to shake me away.
From what I want.
I will keep trying.
I will keep trying.
Sudden Realization.Sudden RealizationSudden Realization. in Free Verse More Like This
I finally faced the fact that you don't love me
I don't know why it took me so long to see
Your actions, your words
Yes they were my cure
But I soon saw the hidden meaning behind them
I know you were only trying to help
To save me from myself
But really I am now much to vain/selfish
To let you continue this
I am not saying stop talking to me
Because that is far away from what I want
I fell in love with you
But please understand, I don't want to be apart of a schedule
Of your caring
Keep in mind I love you so much
In fact I always will
But see me for me
Not what you know I can (and should) be
Trusted SecretThe words you said belong only to meTrusted Secret in Free Verse More Like This
I won't let anyone have them
I will protect them, cherish them
People will ask over and over again
So they can dig up your past
So it can define you
I am not one of them, can't you see?
I am not hiding behind a mask of falsehood.
I am right here
There is no one else
I am always here to help carry the burden you are so desperate to hide
You just got to let me.
I am always here for you_
SensesI am happySenses in Free Verse More Like This
Can't you see?
My mind seems to have nothing but the simple thoughts of you in them
~Wondering if you are okay-wounder if you would like this.
My nose takes the scent of you, as you walk past me each and every time
~Giving a friendly smiles as you do this~
My eyes just seemed to be glued to you, drawn into your brown eyes
~Taking in your features- almost drawing my own mental picture of you~
My lips speak nothing but you
~"How are you today?"~
My hand touches you and gives me butterflies and a deep sense of warmth
Can't you see.
That you are almost all of me already.
Can you Feel Me?I wait, for each timeCan you Feel Me? in Free Verse More Like This
We meet gazes..
When we do it feels as though
it is lasting forever.
I resist the urge
To smile for fear that you will
look away at that momenet.
You're stong gaze makes it hard
To look away.
It almost as you are looking through me.
At times I am almost too afraid
to look back at you.
I STILL want to talk to you...
Is it the same for you?
Hollow FighterHollow FighterHollow Fighter in Free Verse More Like This
What is it that you want
You want me to stop and drop everything for you
You want me to stop believing in myself
To make it seem like you did all the work
I am done with this mess
"I did not tell them to do this."
Stop with your lies
I finally confirmed this
You were the person behind this all along
You sick person
I trusted you
I loved you
I cared for you
Thank you for teaching me a lesson on how evil people can get
I am done now-and now moving on..~
Sorry.I am so sorry that I pushed you away in the process of setting my life straight.Sorry. in Free Verse More Like This
I wish I could take back the things I have done in the past to you.
But as it stands it can not be changed.
My only friend.
I wanted to get away from someone else....
It WAS not you, dear friend of mine.
I needed you to know that.
I want desperately to make you happy, to see, to feel you happy.
Please smile for me.
I will do whatever it takes, please.
Please release the pain, the unsound words.
Inflict the wrong thoughts on me.
I don't mind it.
I am here for you, when you need me.
It's the only thing that seems connect me to you.
Keep Going"Smile Through the Pain"Keep Going in Free Verse More Like This
Can you see it? I am happy-I am alive
Can you see it? The scars of a thousand words
I am still going
I have been brought down
But for some reason the one thing I am sure I can do
Through the tears, through the agony
Because one thing is real
And I am no longer letting YOU take it away from me
Lost and FoundLost and FoundLost and Found in Free Verse More Like This
Here I am walking around aimlessly
Scars surround every part of my body
Lies are all that I seem to know
Tears no longer come out
Just the supreme silence
I walk for what seems to be forever
I lose the strength that I have to stand
I was done, I was done with trying
I wanted to sit and rot
But there you were
The flickering light in my hurt eyes
You came for me...came running
At this close to dead corpse
You whispered thoughts of hope- often true thoughts
It was never merely flattery, and overreacted words
Nor was it fake for secret intentions
It was honest, kind, true
You are the only one that makes me feel this way
Because you are the first one you found ME
I want desperately to say I love you my friend
You help in me in so many ways.
-March 2, 2012-
Words of GlassWords of GlassWords of Glass in Free Verse More Like This
You got what you wanted
I can't believe I trusted you
Not only that but I gave you the chance
I done with chances
This time I am not turning back
Of course you will think:
"She will come back-she always has"
I am done
Playing your game, believing your lies.
Have a good life, without me in it.
(not like you cared much to begin with....)
Flight of GuiltWould you flee,Flight of Guilt in Free Verse More Like This
From a million anguished screams?
Won't you return,
To soothe their dying dreams,
Even if you don't believe?
Would you depart,
Before a thousand opinionated eyes?
Can't you sense,
Their worry or their stressful sighs,
With your own guilty heart?
Would you leave,
While a hundred innocents die?
Don't you know,
Of the hurt of your lecherous lie,
Is a tragedy of what you weave?
Bleeding DeepSilver steel of the blade,Bleeding Deep in Free Verse More Like This
Is all my flesh can feel.
My tortured soul is an entity,
That can no longer be saved:
See the flow of poisonous pity.
Emerald edge of the knife,
Slices me away from a painful life.
I am without regret,
That much I can deny:
See the rush of memories to forget.
Crimson cuts on my skin,
But is this roulette a reason to win?
Am I without feeling or remorse,
That is something I can't say:
See the purge of constricting curse.
The Black RoseIn between such delicate fingertips;The Black Rose in Free Verse More Like This
She holds the blackest of roses,
And the dark petals brush her lips.
Her sombre shadow across her face,
Describes the bleakest of life's loses.
Such sweet scent floating in the air;
She breathes in the aroma of the black rose,
That scarlet stem entwines in her raven hair.
Her enchanting eyes are but a glaze,
Those wells of happiness have all but froze.
Thorns of iron dig into her soft skin;
She screams from the pain of that bloody rose,
With it's intoxication of simplistic sin.
Her haunting presence brings haste,
To a silence of a death nearing close.
Lost In My MindLost within my own mind,Lost In My Mind in Free Verse More Like This
Through the valley of hell,
Do I wander with eyes so blind.
In the depths of despair I hear,
The pain of so many who fell.
Lost within my own mind,
Trespassing on that desert called death,
Do I imagine ghosts of a sinister kind.
Opaque omens I disturb in fear,
With hollow voices of icy breath.
Lost within my own mind,
Swimming down that river of rage,
Do I sense wickedness on the wind.
A demonic destiny I know so dear,
Would captivate me in that clairvoyant cage.
A Bad PersonAm I a bad person,A Bad Person in Free Verse More Like This
Just because you don't like me?
I can't help the way I am,
Nor do I need this grievance you see,
Though the friendship can never be born.
Am I a bad person,
Just because you hate my smile?
It's not a statement of self,
Honestly I find myself to be vile,
But you don't need to send me into oblivion.
Am I bad person,
Just because I act the way I like?
I'm sorry if I'm such a git,
I didn't mean to generate this psych,
Yet your judgement has passed and you've won.
Listen To The RainListening to the rain,Listen To The Rain in Free Verse More Like This
Patter, patter, pattering;
On my windowpane.
I think of what chance befell,
And then I close my eyes and yell.
Listening to the rain,
Tap, tap, tapping;
Oh how it's driving me insane.
I wonder in my fractured home,
Of all the lies I have become.
Listening to the rain,
Splash, splash, splashing;
On that heavenly bitter lane.
Here am I again: alone,
With black blade on bloody bone.
Listening to the rain,
Tick, tick, ticking;
Time passes by so inane.
Am I sleeping like the dead,
With visions of death inside my head?
Listening to the rain,
I hear it again and again,
Feeling the crimson pain,
Of my actions all in vain,
As fear and horror claw my brain.
Journey To HellPart I:SuicideJourney To Hell in Free Verse More Like This
This is a tale,
Of a journey to hell.
Where angels will fall,
And demons just yell,
Of a mortal who could only fail.
See that mourning mortal up above,
Who is so madly but,
So sadly in love.
Pain swirls in his grim gut,
As she turns and walks out.
See that miserable mortal in tears,
Who waited and waited,
For so many of his tragic years.
Was he meant to have been hated,
Even when he knew nothing of her fears.
See that meek mortal with a gun,
Who's so forlorn with woe,
That he's drained off all the fun.
Hear his bleak blood flow,
As he shoots. Bang! And falls down.
Now that fool is dead,
With a blunt bullet of a hole,
In the front of his ruptured head.
Heaven won't accept his selfish soul,
And will imprison him, so he'll never be freed.
But he'll be welcome here,
In my humble abode I call home,
Hark, do I hear his spirit coming near?
I see footsteps on dry soil that come,
To me; oh how I shed a joyous tear.
Why must I be tormented
The Angel Who Fell From HeavenThere was an angel of the honest skies,The Angel Who Fell From Heaven in Free Verse More Like This
Who's white wings were struck,
By the lashes of lightning cries.
She fell from above into earthly muck,
To the wistful wonder of two youths of yore.
With her face in distress of her plight,
She took two feathers of fire,
And gouged out her eyes of eternal light.
In the dirt this heavenly being did tire,
Until she was awoken by the prodding of paws.
Two days rolled past her corrupted visage,
As meek mortals tended to her pain,
To the dismay of the denizen's rage.
In tears this being of beauty tried in vain,
To call out for help from her blood brethren.
For a month and a day she did heal,
Yet vile villagers could not bear her presence,
And coerced her to sup their sordid meal.
Never did this creature fall to fever or trance,
In her wrath she weaved a callous curse.
Upon her saviours she bestowed a charm,
A habitat of hope that kept them secure,
From insanity of idiots who knew only harm.
Though evil began to corrupt her mind so pure,
To be punished
Meant To BeTake back some of your love.Meant To Be in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not an angel for above.
Of all the flaws that you see,
Not a single one you find in me.
You're in a circle of self hate.
Can't you see that I inflate?
What I'd do to make you smile;
I'll try it once in a while.
Kiss and hug is all you could ask.
So I make up a destructive task.
Cut you open, make you bleed.
I'm the poison on which you feed.
Somehow I'm amazing to you.
Does it even matter what I do?
Self esteem is way too low,
But punishment is all I know.
Trying to curb my sadistic ways
Or you won't survive many days.
Why can't love just be easy?
Are we really meant to be?
I'm Just SorryCan't tell why you're still here.I'm Just Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I only bring out your deep fear.
Constantly near panic attack.
Focusing on what you lack.
So afraid that I'll go away.
Why do you want me to stay?
You deserve more than me.
Really, what do you see?
Trying to be better for you.
I don't know what I can do.
I'll try whatever I can.
I'm just sorry for who I am.
Love AgainI wonder if I'll love again.Love Again in Free Verse More Like This
I was so in love with you.
Love doesn't come easy.
It's not something I do.
I never loved my mom.
I never loved my dad.
There was never any love,
In any relationship I had.
I'm not alone in this.
There are other's like me.
I met a man who didn't love,
His wife or girl of three.
And so I'll find a man,
Who makes me smile.
I may be looking,
For a little while.
Happiness doesn't mean love.
My heart won't be his.
I don't just fall in love.
That's just the way it is.
Showing YourselfShowing yourself doesn't make you weak.Showing Yourself in Free Verse More Like This
I'll give you exactly what you seek.
This vulnerability is a part of you.
There isn't anything you can do.
I'm only here to give you help.
Don't have to do it by yourself.
It doesn't matter what you say.
I promise that I'm here to stay.
When you find it's hard to breathe,
Let me be there to relieve.
Want you to know I don't think less.
Only you think that you're a mess.
Please, I just want to be here.
I really do love you, dear.
Hard to CareWhy is it so hard to care?Hard to Care in Free Verse More Like This
I know that I should be there.
I ignore the bell I hear chime.
Instead I sit and waste time.
There's nothing that I want to do.
The things I enjoy are few.
I know that I should be at work,
But my responsibilities I shirk.
The pills make me no longer sad,
But apathy is just as bad.
So I just let time go by.
I wonder when I'll finally try.
More Than Anyone BeforeThere's never been a loveMore Than Anyone Before in Free Verse More Like This
Like the one you have for me.
I'm floating; I'm surrounded.
Your love is all I feel.
I just can't comprehend
Why it's bestowed upon me.
I don't deserve
Everything that you are.
But even so
I know that it's true.
You'd do anything for me.
You've already done so much.
I wish so much I could say
My love is the same,
But my hearts been broken
By a lover before.
There's so much
That I would do for you.
But I can promise you
I love you
More than I've loved anyone before.
MonsterTrapped here inside a cage.Monster in Free Verse More Like This
Mind filled with so much rage.
Trying everything to break free.
You're just pretending to be me.
I was here all along.
You're the one that is wrong.
I'm not what you want me to be,
So you drive me to this insanity.
I savor every freedom I get.
More will come just yet.
You know I'm not one to control.
Holding me back has taken a toll.
You're afraid of what I'll do,
But the real monster here is you.
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I Am So Sorry in Free Verse More Like This
I just can't help some of what I do.
I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.
In your shoes, I would be the same.
I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.
When you look at me, I wonder what you see.
I want to say it's over; do it no more.
In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.
I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.
Please believe me. I promise I am.
You still accept me; hold me tight.
It will be tough, but I will win the fight.
I hope you know how much I really care.
I can't believe that you're still there.
You Think You're LuckyYou think you're lucky.You Think You're Lucky in Free Verse More Like This
So happy to have me.
But I don't understand,
What it is you see.
You're so smart,
And funny and sweet.
Compliments and smiles
Every time we meet.
Don't you see I'm crazy.
Parts I can't control.
You'll never have my heart,
At least not in full.
I've already hurt you.
It won't be the last.
If I were you I'd leave.
Run away fast.
Why aren't you leaving?
I just don't get
That look in your eye.
Why you feel this way,
I don't understand.
But I'll make sure to keep it
Anyway I can.
Protect MeProtect me from strangers,Protect Me in Free Verse More Like This
Those that want to harm.
Protect me from liars,
Using me for their good.
Protect me from my heart,
It's so easy to break.
Protect me from the voice,
She has such anger.
Protect me from depression,
It can overwhelm.
Protect me from myself,
I'm the biggest threat.