EyefulHis hateful eyes.Eyeful in Free Verse More Like This
Which killed my parents.
That which burned my arms.
With sinful marks.
His loving eyes.
Which killed my parents.
That kissed my arms.
With loving hearts.
This all happened, faster then I imagined.
Here I am staring at a murder, falling in love.
I'll kill for you, sweetie. Let's end the world together.
Won't it be fun?
Our killing spree?
Watch us world! As our murders show on tv, and run by your eyes!
WATCH US KILL!
Watch him die
I never could forgive such a disgusting man.
Watch me get locked up.
His dead eyes.
Which killed my parents.
That kissed and burned my arms.
With sinful and loving marks.
Lost for wordsI used to be able to take a group of ugly words, and turn them into a beauty.Lost for words in Free Verse More Like This
I used to be able to have the words tell a story.
Now I’m at a loss for words, wishing I could bring back the inspiration I had before.
I know if I force it out, my words will become lies.
Un-relatable, and confusing.
Despite my efforts to change this.
It’ll remain the same.
Till I find my inspiration again.
My wordsThe amount of words spoken everyday can become repetitive.My words in Free Verse More Like This
“I want to be stronger.”
They don’t sink in anymore because we've overused them.
“Why doesn't anyone love me?”
No longer can we start a revolution, or inspire a world.
“We can do it! Keep on fighting!”
Instead we wind up sounding cliche.
“I want to die”
No longer are we the poets who make people cry.
“Life is shit”
Instead we leave a blank feeling, because we've heard it before.
So we are left with this emptiness.
But that can’t be true.
Because it’s too cliche.
I'm doing this all for youPlease forget that I am here, but don't forget that I once existed.I'm doing this all for you in Free Verse More Like This
This world I wanted to abandon has now embraced me, in the most loving of ways.
Forgetting my old emotions, I embarked on this new journey in life.
But instead of being welcomed.
I was destroyed on the spot.
Fighter planes gunning me down.
Once again I found myself at a roadblock.
Pretending that the exit behind me didn't exist.
Nor did the signs leading me in the right way.
Instead I ran straight into the bullets.
Pretending that I could take them.
That I was made of steel.
I ignored the cries telling me to turn back.
Unable to close my eyes from this fearful sight.
The sight of my own demise.
I am aloneMy feelings I threw into a box, too big for me.I am alone in Free Verse More Like This
So I created a mask, made of all the tears I've shed.
I know I know how cliche that sounds.
You asked, you asked “Are you ok?”
But you didn't want an answer.
Instead you wanted to be smiled at, and say in a plastic voice “I’m fine, you?”
Because you wanted to talk about yourself.
The feelings you had were apparently superior to mine.
Apparently I am just here as a blank slot.
To be played and then left because I ‘gave nothing’.
The time limit for you to care lasts a minute, and then you’re off.
“This ‘you’ isn't the person that we want to deal with.”
“Be happy, or we’ll stop being around you.”
“I've always been there for you!”
“Stop being so depressing.”
ThanksWhen did my inspiration fly south?Thanks in Free Verse More Like This
It isn't winter anymore.
Why can’t I gain the excitement I used too, about someone enjoying my work?
Was I faking it all along?
Shouldn't this mean more?
This used to be my life, my escape, my everything.
I have all these ideas.
But when they come through I do not care to see the outcome in the readers.
Instead of connecting, I simply say something useless.
Instead of fighting back against those who dislike I just reply.
No argument in sight.
Didn't I used to care about the few fans I had?
I used to explode with happiness when someone said “I connected with this!”
Now it’s just, a bleak thanks, and I move on.
My demiseTell me dear.My demise in Free Verse More Like This
That you want to do it.
Or that if I offered you'd like too
My heart, is twisted.
And knows this simple logic of saying no.
But within these walls, let's experiment.
Nobody can see me each day round.
To carry or care.
Hours spent, on mindless things.
Eyes dead, in this soulless life.
Single again, another rounding heartbreak.
This heart, hasn't been known for much.
These words haven't been shown to the world.
Good enoughYou’ll never be good enough to beat that person in video games.Good enough in Free Verse More Like This
Nor that online player who claims they're the best.
You’ll never be good enough to earn that pay raise at work.
Nor become employee of the month.
You’ll never be good enough to be the strongest and smartest in class.
Nor get the best grades.
You’ll never be good enough to be a model.
Nor have the body you've always wanted.
You’ll never be good enough to walk away from that fight.
Nor be able to fight back.
You’ll never be good enough to hold back your emotions.
Nor always be the best friend.
You’ll never be good enough to always do the right thing.
Nor make the right choices.
You’ll never be good enough to make that person love you.
Nor always be loved.
You’ll never be good enough to make it somewhere.
Nor ever be noticed.
But you can damn well try.
love is hurtingThe beautiful days we held so close, I once said to 'hello' to you.love is hurting in Free Verse More Like This
Our meeting was brief, and simple.
Caring, and kind.
We left with helpless hearts.
Neither regretting, nor forgetting.
Our meeting place, once helped me smile.
Overcoming each day.
I still wish for the past,
with crying into my hands, at last.
Letting lose the tears,
I know I shouldn't fear.
You tell me "You'll move on".
But the glass still digs into my skin, and prickles each time I see you.
Wandering like I'm not here.
I touch my lips, and hope for yours to return.
The tears keep streaming, never forgetting.
Black voidsA black void escapes my lips.Black voids in Free Verse More Like This
As the infection of pain takes over.
I’m screaming to an empty room.
In it lays all my fears.
My eyes are filled with parasites.
Seeing nothing but black.
Which leaks it’s way into my heart.
Trembling fingers, and sweaty palms.
Bugs clinging to my hair.
Nesting in my skin.
I have been contaminated.
By the sins of others.
Nobody can harm me now.
I have been contaminated
By the whispers of the heartless.
Reaching forth for some light.
It only seems to burn my skin.
My right eye has been removed.
And left with a hole.
Head spinning round’ and round.
Sitting in this dirty contaminated room.
A perfect fit for me.
AngelAngelAngel in Free Verse More Like This
Hair like silk
Dances off graceful shoulders
A face like an angel's
Though human and mortal
A body like an hourglass
Every curve perfectly molded
Skin so soft and supple
So pure and untouched
You, my darling
Are perfection at it's finest
I'm sorry, she's straightI'm sorry, she's straightI'm sorry, she's straight in Free Verse More Like This
She doesn't like me like that
We're best friends
We give each other advice
We laugh like any other normal friendship
But she's not a lesbian
She's not bi
There's no hint of lemon
Or twist of lime
And it's never meant to be
So why make things awkward
It's just a hopeless case
Of love that's lost
It's just a hopeless case
Just a hopeless case...
No one's listening. . .With every breath I takeNo one's listening. . . in Free Verse More Like This
I feel as if there's someone hammering at my head
And clawing at my heart
With every move I make
Something is tearing me apart
Making me grow weak
With every word I speak
Someone else gets hurt
And I'm ignored once more
So tell me...
What's the point of me screaming
If there's no one to listen?
Untitled Everything hurtsUntitled in Free Verse More Like This
Waking up in the morning hurts
Trying not to cry hurts
Plastering a smile that I hate
With a passion hurts
Talking to you hurts
I try to hide it and act like everything's fine
But you always manage to see right through me
I don't even know how...
My wall's been up for so long
It's strong and thick. Keeps people out
Why not you?
You're the cause of my pain
Why can't I keep you out?
AbandonmentEveryone leavesAbandonment in Free Verse More Like This
Don't get attached
It all seems good at first
But never seems to last
One day they'll decide you're not good enough
And cut you out of their life
Then you feel like you did something wrong
And cut yourself with a knife
After a while, you get tired of being abandoned
Being thrown away like you're nothing
So affected by your past
You resort to cutting
You bring your inner pain out
You want to scream and shout
Until you have nothing left to say
Looking forward to the end of today
But not the start of tomorrow
The monster in the mirrorI look in the mirror and all I seeThe monster in the mirror in Free Verse More Like This
Is that freaky little monster staring back at me
She does so much damage but means no harm
Her parents she does not want to alarm
So she keeps her feelings bottled up inside
Paints on a smile and acts like everything is fine
Puts on long sleeves and pretends the scars aren't there
It's not like anyone would even care
She waits until nighttime to sit and cry
Thinks about how much she wants to die
When everyone's asleep, she lies awake
Thinking of how many pills she'd have to take
Or how deep the wound would have to be
So people would finally hear her plea
Her need to see blood pour from her wrist
The pain that she had missed
It feels so good but it is so awful
The damage done to me has been so brutal
She looks at herself and makes a face of disgust
Wonders if there's anyone else she can trust
She sheds her tears every day
Wondering when the world won't look so gray
She doesn't hurt like she hurt before
With all the pain she's had to endure
I think she'
AliveI don't understand why people say Good MorningAlive in Free Verse More Like This
What's so good about it?
You're waking up to another miserable day
Of your miserable life
Walking around half dead
Just wanting to curl up and die
I don't understand why people say Good Night
What's so good about it?
Going to bed with would haves and could haves
Regretting not cutting deep enough
When you should have
Crying yourself to sleep...
There's nothing good about mornings
There's nothing good about nights
Either way, I'm living but not really alive
Something I don't exactly want to do
CliffClose your eyesCliff in Free Verse More Like This
Count to three
Jump the cliff and you'll be free
You're not good enough
For them or for yourself
They won't miss you
They won't even cry
That's what it's like
When someone like you dies
You wanted attention
Or so they thought
You hid in long sleeves
And fake smiles
Blood made it better
For a little while
Then even that wasn't a relief
So you needed something more
You went up the hill
Looked over the cliff
Thought of all the people
That said life was a gift
But it was all a lie
You jumped over and said goodbye
I Love YouI Love YouI Love You in Free Verse More Like This
Means that I adore you for the person you are and would never even dream of trying to change you.
That I accept you for the person you are even if society doesn't,
That I will carry on with what we know is right, even if apparently it wasn't
That I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times,
Being the one to uplift you when you're feeling down, in a bad mood, or when nothing rhymes.
Spending all of my time with you, even far past the point that it is uncomfortable, and
That every second away from you is agonizingly lonely and regretful.
I Love You
I know your deepest secrets and do not, and will not, judge you for them at any time, and
I know that you do not judge me for mine.
It means that I care enough to fight for what we have
And that I cherish you enough not to let go.
Love means an actual emotion, not just a word
The feeling is mutual, and this must be heard.
Losing MeI find peace in loathingLosing Me in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I suffer pleasure from pain
I feel comfort in dark clothing
Whether judgment or acceptance is my bane
I have cried all my tears
Still in darkness I am bound
Wandering desperately through the years
The true identities never to be found
Lost is all
A blanked out, thrown out memory
From the abuses that do appall
Hope and love was my every
But now my life will soon dissolve
Into a screaming dark place with no resolve...
FlawedOf every fearFlawed in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Death is past so clear
To be unset
Conceal my fate
Veil my hate
Darken the place
Seal my fate
Broken and cracking
Slitting and split
The blood is lacking;
Flesh now separate
Flawed my fatal design
Never to heal, even through time.
When All is Lost...My hate, subject of its own contagion,When All is Lost... in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Though my inner thoughts will never reveal;
Conceptually, my whole life's abrasion,
Because all of my wounds will never heal
Black-pitted horror is all that is seen
This LifeWhen all is doomed to failThis Life in Concrete Poetry More Like This
How do I prevail?
Do I make my plight
And have to fight
To suffer the burns and scars
And all that mar
Of what this life could be
WantsI want to be the dark abyssWants in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Absorbing your chest cavity,
I want to be the one you miss
That holds you under gravity,
I want to be the deadly kiss
That settles your fatality
I want to be the broken veil
To sabotage the last good thing,
I want to be the things you fail
That finalize your will for trying
I want to be the hidden trail
That leads you to find everything
I want to be the last regret
That haunts you throughout every ring,
I want to be the dreary set
That gloomy sullenness would bring,
I want to be the thought of death
That savors all your suffering
I want to be the lies you tell
That lead you through your false deception,
I want to be the hopeless hell
That burns and distorts your perception,
I want to be the love you felt...
But that I am the one exception.
Only SurvivingCompletely seething,Only Surviving in Concrete Poetry More Like This
My feelings bleeding
I insert the hurt
To flirt with the dirt
I stay; delay,
But pay today
The price for thrice with the knife I slice
And strife my life
In vain it was slain, all pain unfeigned
The main vein--drained
But death was left for deft breath
The pulse to persist pulls to exist
Fall in all
Just to survive is not to be alive
StillSeems like searing silenceStill in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Burns like screaming violence...
Is this relief
I find in grief?
The old days drifting through my head
And I should really go to bed
But I'm not with you....
Oh, there was nothing I could do
So I've been sitting here alone,
There's not a single thing I own
Yet if I try to change,
...I know I'll fade...
And I know these thoughts are broken,
And my heart is cracked wide open
You might reach inside...
...To see what you find...
But I am still empty,
All false promises of plenty
But what did you say...?
'There was no other way...'
Yes, I know I hide
Because...A part of me has died
There is no way to recover
So I just have to suffer...
FinalityHence forth, through yet another day's abuseFinality in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Sharpened blade, of whom, weeping use
Stings the call of the unrepenter's eye
Distorted metal threatened, evokes a sigh
Wincing, contorting expressions perform
Before comfort, respite, and relief reform
A thirsty weapon crimson gore pursues
Satisfying such pain to gain thus reuse
Delved into flesh with unrelenting force
Cries and sighs yet no remorse
Wishing emptiness a feeling filled
Eternal unrest thus ne'er willed
Across again, and through swollen veins
Pure misery pierce, weeping sanguine rains
Without even a tear, nor feeling of fright
The resentful soul seeks the realms of night.
A Beautiful LoveAt first it was hard to tell how you feltA Beautiful Love in Concrete Poetry More Like This
So she just played on with the hand she was dealt
Thankfully she began to play her cards right
Though she missed a few moves, she still held on tight
And never let go
Or let her weaknesses show
Soon enough you caught on
And she loved you like music
For you were her song
She didn't need to choose it
Always stuck in her head
Especially as she lay in bed
Just dreaming of the day
That she would hear you say
"I love you,"
And when that day came,
She was, overjoyed,
If I may,
For she loves you too
With all of your feelings realized
The ensuing delight materialized
And your hopes and dreams began to blossom
Into something sincerely and entirely awesome
Yet again despairing and just beginning to cope,
But all that she needed was some courage, bravery, and hope
And with just the right guidance, she knew what to do
And now she's completely dedicated to you.
You Never Loved What You'll Never MissOpen your heart, like an open doorYou Never Loved What You'll Never Miss in Concrete Poetry More Like This
So that you can see what's in store
for you and all your little friends
this is how your story ends
If you'd just keep quiet
hide your personality's split
then this rumor mill could stop spinning
because when it spins no one's winning
Never bite the hand that feeds you,
it'll be the last thing you really do,
with out food you'll just starve
and start to fade away slowly, like your wrists' scars
And if you cry I won't wipe away your tears,
because when you cry I disappear
Maybe I don't want to be seen,
I don't want to be a golden girl on the silver screen
So take me out of your spotlight, halo of grace
take me away, let me hide my ugly face
And If you do I'll save you a kiss
because you never loved what you'll never miss
BrokenI'm broken,Broken in Concrete Poetry More Like This
hopeless, and shattered.
Feeling like a book left open,
all my pages are ripping and tattered.
almost numb, all alone.
No one could trust me, I was oh-so deceiving.
I just wish I would've stayed home.
boring, and plain.
All these demons still trying to tempt me,
and now I know, I am going insane.
this is the end of the line.
Two shots to the head,
there's no carrying on this time.
Carry OnThey say, "Freedom always wins."Carry On in Concrete Poetry More Like This
But, they just stole my innocence.
So turn around, watch your back,
Look out for the skills you lack,
Because one of these days
You'll get past the haze,
Then you'll finally see,
That we aren't meant to be.
I want you to know,
That this pain isn't just for show,
And you're an amazing guy,
But I'm just too shy.
Plus I'm not right mentally,
So Please, just forget about me.
The time I spend with you is great,
But I'm starting to fall out of love and into hate.
Red blood pours out of my pale skin,
It lets me know I'll never win,
Because this blood is what I could never say,
This blood is just the liquid emotion that I feel everyday.
Bring back my colors because they're starting to fade,
And erase these memories because they're so overplayed
So if I kill my self tonight,
My last wish is to end this fight.
Forget the labels, I've left them behind
Just erase this day, and hit rewind.
Go back to when this was all a dream,
When you where my king and I was