In the Dark, I Am PrettyCould it be that because you cannot see my face that you find me beautiful?
I can only imagine how it is to live life in darkness
To not be able to observe the world as anything more than shadows
[What is it like to be blind?]
I should tell you now that I am many things, but not perfectnot beautiful
[So, why do you persist in calling me so?]
I think it is because you are perceptive in ways I can never be
Unlike me, you are beautiful in the light and the dark
You see what most are blinded to
The inner loveliness that others somehow overlook
You say the best way for me to see a person is to close my eyes
[Will shutting my eyes really change my perspective?]
I wonder, why can't all of us be like you?
Why is it that we identify a person only by how they appear?
The outside is what one sees, but it is the inside that truly means something
In a literal sense, beauty eventually fades
At least, outward beauty
But you told me the beauty that you have come to noticethe beauty that yo
mad worldyou know what hurts?mad world in Free Verse More Like This
filling your head with ideas and fantasies of a perfect love and dreams come true...
and finding out that just because you wish on stars, doesn't mean those burning orbs of gas even hear you.
what hurts is knowing that your world is falling apart.
that it is crumbling away, piece by piece...
and no matter how hard you try, you can't put it pack together, because the "fix instantly" glue won't stick.
what kills me is this need to be someone, to change something...
but never knowing exactly where to start.
i know where to begin.
i need to change myself before i can truly accomplish anything else.
the problem is, i'm so used to being me
that i'm unsure of how to be someone else.
or maybe i got that all wrong.
perhaps i'm so used to being someone else,
that i don't know how to be "me" anymore
it's almost a habit to pretend that the girl i see in the mirror every day is me.
she has my eyes, and my hair
and sometimes, she even wears my smile.
but there's something
Something Loved Something LostYou told me once, that you were never sure if you really loved something until you lost it.Something Loved Something Lost in Free Verse More Like This
[Did that include me?]
I don't think you really lost me, though--I lost you.
I lost the only person that made sense in my life, the only one who knew more about me than myself.
I lost my world.
And it wasn't until it completely stopped spinning that I noticed anything was different.
[You had me fooled, didn't you?]
Remember the way I laughed when you told me I was beautiful?
I laughed because I didn't believe you.
But I also laughed out of pure joy--I had never felt so alive in my life as I had in that one moment.
That's the kind of girl I am, you see.
I am a girl who can find a million beautiful things about everyone else, but nothing even remotely good about herself.
It's a disease really.
One that's out to kill me.
Because not everything about every person is beautiful.
You are living proof of that.
[So, why then my dear, do I still love you?]
Dear SelfDear Self,Dear Self in Free Verse More Like This
You've been this way for so long now that I think you might have forgotten some things.
I'm writing this so you don't have to forget, so you can remember and see how far you've come. So you can smile at yourself for being so silly.
I wonder, do you still have that smile?
The one that almost resembled a frown, but somehow just barely upturned the edges of your lips to qualify as something happy.
You had a habit of using it, but mostly just to assure everyone around you that everything was fine and dandy. So they wouldn't worry.
Do you remember your swing?
I don't know if you recall the way it creaked as it swayed
Like someone was there, making it move. When visibly it was empty.
You made it yours, and thought it gave you the ability to fly.
As your hands gripped the chains and your legs propelled you higher and higher, the ground became so far away that you'd spread your arms and laugh, as if you
The Dream That Never WasI will not be here long dear, but I have to knowThe Dream That Never Was in Free Verse More Like This
Are your eyes always such a melancholy green?
All faded and weathered, drained and worn
You say you have troubles,
My dear boy,
Do you know?
You are not alone
As the rain cascades down your window
And the thunder shakes your splintered floorboards
I sing you a soft lullaby
Timidly, I touch your hair
Day-old stubble lightly grazes my fingertips
And I watch you breathe
I hear you sigh
You whisper that I am beautiful
And I almost believe you
You tell me you're so tired,
So exhausted that you could close your melancholy eyes
And sleep, sleep forever
Because wakefulness seems a misuse of time
Of precious dreaming
My darling boy,
Do you not know?
You are a dream
Some Things Stay HiddenShe lost what she was looking for in the search to find herselfSome Things Stay Hidden in Free Verse More Like This
The Porcelain PeopleI had a dream once, about a place where people were obsessed with perfection, and longed for beauty.The Porcelain People in Short Stories More Like This
In this place, anyone who looked normal was considered ugly.
They found me wandering about in their strange world, and I was brought before a council of sorts. There I saw people that were so beautiful and faultless that it left me breathless.
A very handsome man, I assumed to be their leader, told me that this was their perfect world, and that I was disrupting their splendor with my unattractiveness. They asked if I wanted to look like them and at first I craved to say "yes" because it was true, perfection was something I had always dreamed of. I had always desired to be beautiful.
Slowly, I turned a small circle, looking at each of the members of the council. They sat with supreme posture in fine chairs. Every one of them was shockingly beautifulit was almost frightening.
Each one had their flawlessly stunning eyes pointed at me, all of them lovely shades of vibrant b
The Things I Never Told YouI'll start with this, a simple wishThe Things I Never Told You in Free Verse More Like This
My long-awaited dream to fly
When you told me forever, I almost believed you
And I nearly let my hidden wings unfold
But then I thought maybe you didn't mean forever, not really
Maybe you were just exaggerating
So I tucked them away, hiding them deep within myself again
Flying would prove to be very lonesome, if I had no one to join me
The second was my inner desire to become lost,
To somehow lose myself in search of uncovering who I wanted to be
But to merely pretend, and fall into the masquerade of life was too effortless
Instead I sought to be free, to find what made me different and never change
That's where we clashed unpleasantly
You always knew where you were going; you always had a plan
I only drifted aimlessly, hoping that with a hint of serendipity sooner or later
I would unearth what I was looking for
Losing myself would be rather impossible, if I had nobody to find me again
The final was the most significant, but also the most strange
Dear SerendipityYou are a word so closely fused with fate, destiny, chance, and sometimes loveDear Serendipity in Free Verse More Like This
The most beautiful word I know
Is it possible not to fear an unknowable future?
Perhaps life is not about knowing, but rather about finding outdiscovering
Maybe it's hints of surprising, unforeseen, partly inevitable circumstances that test our limits of comfort
Tell me, is love properly defined as two lost people thrown together by chance?
Or could it be that they were always meant to find each other?
Did some divine, other-worldly force reach down and gently place these lives on the same path?
Or is it simply destiny that caused these two souls to meet?
What if I choose the wrong way?
Will I spend the rest of my days wondering and imagining what my life would have been?
Or will I move on, as if nothing ever slowed me down in the first place?
Too many questions, not enough answers
I believe there are things that can never be explained
Fate is a mysterious, frightening, yet exciting concept
We all desi
I'd Rather Lie StillThere are times when I don't want to wake up.I'd Rather Lie Still in Free Verse More Like This
When my only desire is to sink into my mattress, and allow my blankets to swallow me whole.
Because it's just so much easier to tell my restless heart to sleep.
InsanityI stepped into a poorly lit room. The only light in the darkness came from three small candles resting on an end table, their glow not reaching the dark and eerie corners of the room. The walls were covered with broken mirrors; and I watched as shattered reflections of myself followed my every movement. The dim lighting cast strange and frightening shadows over my face. It was then that I became increasingly aware of the pain in my feet.Insanity in Short Stories More Like This
I looked down at themthey were bare. And there was broken glass sprayed across the floor. I gently lifted one throbbing foot, shards of the mirror had cut into my skin and blood was oozing from the wounds. My eyes began to tear up and I choked back a scream. If there was one thing I couldn't stand, it was the sight of blood from my own veins.
In the far corner, I saw a chair. A lonely, wooden, termite-infested chair. Somehow, I had overlooked it and not seen it before now. As I walked closer, I heard a noise from behind me, and turned around to f
Accidents do happenAccidents do happen....I Accidentally fell for youAccidents do happen in Free Verse More Like This
I fell in love with you.
Completely by accident.
Now I cant get you out of my head.
IT was the way you smiled.
The way it reached your eyes
The way you laugh, the way you cared.
But it wasn't to be.
I did what my mind told me not to.
I ended up saying I loved you.
Against better judgment and all odds, I told you the truth.
And then like a knife cutting through my heart , you said you loved me, just not the way I did.
MY heart broke and I felt and unnerving pain fill my chest.
I held my head high and didn't blink.
My mind cloudy, at that moment i couldn't think.
All I knew was that I had to walk away without hurting you.
So I hid my emotions and lied.
"Oh don't worry I'm fine"
Couldn't tell you that you were my sunshine.
I turned around and walked away.
My heart shattered and my voice broke.
That night i cried myself to sleep....
(c) 2010. katherina paul .
SacrificesSacrifices in Free Verse More Like This
As the tears roll down her cheeks,
Her mind replays his every word...
Yet it also shows her the truth.....
Both her mind and his words.
She sees him in another girls arms,
"that hurts ...that really hurts" she murmurs to herself.
Her stomach churns and the dagger stabs her in the heart.
She can't think... all logic has disappeared from her
She has no time for logic... not when the pain is so intense,
Silence is sliced in half with broken sobs.
But she smiles...smiles through her tears
Because even though shes broken and alone
She cant help but wish him happiness .
Love demands sacrifices and maybe shes the one that has to endure the heart break and dirty tissues.
But he'll be happy and that's all that matters.
Day dreamsDay dreamsDay dreams in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes all I want is to be close to you.
I don't care about anything else.
I just want to feel your arms around me!
Your fingers running through my hair.
Your fingers intertwined with mine.
Your comforting voice in my ear.
Your feet moving against mine slowly.......
Your heart against mine.
All I want is for you to be happy with me.
To be in your arms forever .
I just want to lay with you
Take you in .....take in you with all my senses in pure happiness...
All I want is to love you .
is it loveis it loveis it love in Free Verse More Like This
when you think hes there
is it love
when you feel his fingers
is it love
when you see his eyes and compare it to the grass
is it love when
you think hes brighter than the sun
is it love when
all you hear is his voice
is it love when
you see him everywhere?
is it love
when hes in you thoughts?
is it love when
you need him to make you smile
is it love when
hes all you ever think about?
is it love?
cause i really need to know
Everyone writesEveryone writes about the the things they can relate toEveryone writes in Free Verse More Like This
Everyone writes about love....
Their first love...
their first heartbreak....
Everyone writes about that special someone
The way they shine ...
Everyone writes about dejection
Rejection being pushed away.
Everyone writes about death
Time to leave this life
whats my purpose?
Do I even have a purpose?
Everyone writes about loneliness
Will I ever be loved?
Everyone writes about emotions
Everyone writes about the things they can relate to
GoodbyeI never got to say goodbye to herGoodbye in Free Verse More Like This
i didnt talk to her
i miss her
I need her
Why did she have to go
i dont remember her voice
Why cant i remember
I feel so stupid
i want her back
she always like what i did
when it was art she loved it
other people dont like it or love it like she did
the doctors said she would ger better
NothingMy soul is goneNothing in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
This side of me doesn't exist
No one knows about me
They never will
I live alone
My heart and soul are gone
Now I'm nothing.
We careWe care in Emotional More Like This
Dont let depression ruin your life
Dont let it get between you and your friends and family
I've had problems since my depression
It caused me to almost lose my best friend
I didnt want that to happen
i just almost gave up
You dont need to give up
i'm trying to get my life back.
Since two of my friends separated and my friends found other groups of friends
Its made me feel I was alone
Why cant things be like they used to be? Like before high school
I've always wanted to go back
Since High school my depressions gotten a lot worse
When my mom passed away is when I saw it become the worse
Then this year was the yea, I found it making me more emotional
And ruining my friendships
But I'm getting through it
I'm trying to be a good friend
I'm trying to be happy
That's what you need to do try.
That's what I'm doing and I hope you do to
From the lose of a parent to a lose of a friend
You have to know that we are all here and here to help
Friends need to help
Family's need to help