Rebel Love Song Ch. 1Today is a very special day, because today is the day that I was going on my first date. I was really nervous because I never really like anyone before, until I met Andy. He wasn't your average guy, he was different. Your average guy probably buys clothes from Abercrombie & Fitch and looks like someone that belongs on Jersey Shore. Andy dresses like a rock star, teased hair, black ripped skinny jeans, leather accessories ,tight band shirt, black make up, and black leather boots. Totally different and I liked that. We met at a Motley Crue concert, and I got caught up in a mosh pit accidentally bumping into him.Rebel Love Song Ch. 1 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Oh, I'm sorry!" I said.
He looked at me for a while and smiled.
"It's ok, I'm Andy"
I shook his hand.
"Nice to meet you Jessie."
We hung out at that point after the concert and became good friends, then he asked me out and of course I said yes. I tried my best to look nice for the date, I wore a nice red top and black sparkly shorts with studs on them. My hair was
Rebel Love Song Ch. 23Today was the big day. I was really nervous and excited, Andy and I couldn't see each other for the day because apparently it was bad luck. Sammi, Jasmine, Candace, Rosalie, and I stayed at the house until it was time to go to the church. Yes we are getting married in a church. Although Andy is atheist he didn't have problem about being married in a church, and Andy, Jake, Jinxx, and CC were hanging out at Ashley's place.Rebel Love Song Ch. 23 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"So, are you excited?" Sammi asked.
"Yes, excited and nervous." I replied.
"Oh, there's no need to be nervous!" Sammi said.
"I know, but I am." I said.
"Don't worry, it will go away as soon a the priest dude says 'You may now kiss your bride.'" Sammi replied.
Jake, Jinxx, CC, and I were hanging out at Ashley's until it was time to leave. I must admit I'm really nervous and beyond excited. I can't wait to be able to call Jessie my wife and to see how beautiful she'll look in her dress when she walks down the isle.
"You must be really excited." Jinxx said.
Rebel Love Song Ch. 21I had a sleepless night, my head was being tortured by the fact of what happened last night at Jake's party. I don't what to do, I want to ask someone but I don't want anyone to know. The only person that I could possibly trust with this is my mom, so I'm going to go pay her a visit. Andy was still sleeping when I left so I'd text him later before I get back, I got dressed went down stairs and got into my car. I drove off to my parents house, I got there shortly mom saw me from the window and was happy to see me. She opened the door and hugged me.Rebel Love Song Ch. 21 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"It's good to see you! Your father isn't here he went shopping." Mom said.
"Okay, I actually came to talk to you about something." I said.
"Okay, come in and let's sit down." She said.
I walked in and sat down in the kitchen, mom made us some coffee. I took some sips and started talking.
"So what I wanted to talk to you about something that has been bothering me for awhile." I said.
"Okay, well go ahead and tell me what's bothering you." She
Rebel Love Song Ch. 24It was about 3:00am when Andy and I finally got home. I was so tried, from all the dancing and just having a good time. I was so relieved to take my dress off and put on something that was way more comfortable. Then I realized that all my comfortable clothing was being washed so I went to go get them. You know that feeling you get when there's someone behind you? Yeah I had that feeling, I turned around and Andy was behind me leaning against the wall.Rebel Love Song Ch. 24 in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"You are only in bra and underwear because?" He asked playfully.
"I was looking for something comfortable to change into, but I realized that they were washing so I'm going to go them." I replied.
"How do you expect me to let you go get them, when you're like that." He teased and walked closer.
"Well you're gonna have to catch me then!" I teased and ran past him down stairs hopefully making it to the laundry room.
Andy laughed and ran after me. I skipped a couple of stairs hoping it would make a difference, but damn him and his gazelle le
Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 2The music was louder inside. Jake led us into the kitchen, holding tight to Clary's hand. The kitchen was painted a light shade of pink with a washer and dryer behind the door. The white table in the middle of the room was full of liquor bottles, plastic red cups, and boxes of beer were in the fridge.Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 2 in Romance More Like This
"Is this your woman?" A guy said as he pulled a can of beer out of the fridge. It was covered with magnets with funny sayings on them.
"Yup," Jake wrapped his arm around Clary's waist.
The guy pointed to me as he opened his beer and took a drink. "Who's she?" The guy had long, black hair that was straightened and spiky at the top. Black makeup was around his eyes and he was dressed in tight black jeans, cowboy boots, and a white leopard print scarf.
"This is her best friend Sierra," he wrapped an arm around my shoulder. "Sierra, Clary, this is our bass player Ashley Purdy."
Ashley looked me up and down before flashing me a smile. "It's nice to meet you. There is food in the dining room an
Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 6It was hard to stay awake about an hour before we had to leave. We were all in the living room talking and listening to music with a criminal shows playing on TV, muted. I sat on the far end of the three cushioned couch, leaning against the arm. Jake and Clary sat next to me, fingers laced together and leaned against one another. Jinxx and Sammi shared the love seat and sat just like Jake and Amanda. Andy was sitting on the ataman that slides against the love seat against the wall next to the TV.Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 6 in Romance More Like This
I kept catching myself dozing off with my head resting in my hand and my elbow leaning on the arm of the couch. No one seemed to notice, or I thought no one noticed, until I caught Andy staring at me with a small grin. He didn't look away when I caught him. All he did was give me a bigger smile and looked away.
About twenty after eleven, everyone piled into three cars and we drove off. Jinxx and Sammi climbed in a yellow buggy that I assumed was Sammi's since she was the one driving, Andy and
Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 8I followed Andy out to the fire pit. Stones were circled around a pile of ashes and wood. Further down the yard, there was a small, white, wooden shed with a pile of fire wood next to it. Andy sat down in the grass with his legs crossed. I stood for a minute, tightly clenching his jacket closed before I sat down next to him.Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 8 in Romance More Like This
His eyes stared at the unlit fire, like he was in a different place. His thumb on his right hand was tapping rapidly on his knee. The grass was wet and started to soak through my jeans, making my skin feel like ice. I started shivering again.
A phone vibrated and Andy reached into his pocket. He seemed disappointed as he answered the phone. "Hey Scout,"
A lump rose in my throat like she knew Andy was with me, like she knew what he almost did with me. I lowered my head and stared at my legs. How could she possibly know? It's not like Andy would tell her anything. I shook my head. I had to stop thinking about that night. I had to forget and stop worrying.
"I'm a litt
Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 4I paid the cashier and walked into the cafeteria. The tables were full of students getting a quick lunch before heading off to class. Most of them had books open in front of them and pencils in their hands. I walked to the back of the cafeteria with my messenger bag hanging heavy off my shoulders. My lunch consisted of cheese and French fries, chicken fingers, and two peach teas. It wasn't the healthiest lunch around but it was cheap and quick to eat.Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 4 in Romance More Like This
I immediately took out my math book and binder and started on the homework that I had a week to do. My math class started in an hour and there were about fifty questions. At that moment, I hated myself for, once again, waiting to the last minute to do my homework because math homework wasn't one of those subjects that could quickly blow through. All work has to be shown to get credit.
"Hi!" Clary cried. She sat down in the empty chair next to me. "What are you doing?"
"Homework," I said, keeping my eyes glued to my work.
Clary leaned over
Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 5I sat in front of my mirror with a straightener in my hand. Music was lightly playing through my stereo and I sang along while I fixed my hair. I was dressed in black skinny jeans with boots and a black tank top. My face was clear of makeup and a silver chain with a purple gem hung from my neck.Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 5 in Romance More Like This
"Where are you going again?" My mother asked. She stood in the doorway with a smile on her face. Her long, brown, curly hair was tied back in a pony tail and she was dressed in a white, button up shirt with black dress pants and shoes. She held her black apron in her hand.
"Lazar tagging with Clary," I looked at her through the mirror.
"That sounds fun," She tied her apron around her waist. "Will you be coming home afterwards?"
I shook my head. "Probably not, I'll probably go over Clary's."
"Okay, just so I know what to tell your dad." She said. "Do you need any money?"
"Sure," I got up after straightening my hair and tied my hair in loose hanging pig tails that rested on my shoulders. My mothe
Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 22It was almost twenty-four hours before I heard anything from Andy. I couldn't talk to him. Even just seeing his name on my phone made my heart ache. Everything he told me felt like a lie. How could he say he loved me and then go and pull a scene like that because of Scout? It didn't make sense to me. It sounded like he played me and I wanted nothing to do with him.Razor Blade Symphony: Ch. 22 in Romance More Like This
Over the next couple of days, I ignored every text message and phone call I received from Andy. If it wasn't for Clary, I would have turned my phone off completely. It was a bright, humid afternoon when Andy finally stopped blowing up my phone. I thought he finally got the message. I stood in the hot shower. My eyes were closed as I concentrated on the water running down my naked body. My thoughts brought me to every moment I spent with Andy and I felt completely discussed with myself. But, no matter how much I scrubbed, I couldn't get rid of the dirty feeling. Never again! Never again will I let myself be swept up by a guy.