Must breatheMust breatheMust breathe in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
His eyes pierce me
They see into my soul
I can barely think at all now
Bore into me
They draw me in deeper
As I long to be part of him
I crave their taste
Their soft sweet touch
Wishing for lingering kisses
A soft whisper
Into my very soul
His touches elicit loves hope
A deep timbre
Calling me to his side
Whispering wanton desires
Numb to TomorrowAs the absence of all painNumb to Tomorrow in Free Verse More Like This
truly nothing else left to gain
For the minds eye is but biased
Thoughts that scatter in the winds..
Winds that take away the cruelty of truth
Perhaps the winds that can burn the fire
are what I most desire
An undeserving fate for those who wait
Truly nothing left of creations hope
For those are left for ones with better chances
I've wasted behind false romances
The bias of another days dream
Lost or so it would seem
Numb to the coming of tomorrow..
Inspired by your nightmareInspired by your nightmareInspired by your nightmare in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
the fears that drive you
keeping you apart
the mask that you wear
I don my own
fading back from transformation
dancing the dance of oblivion
curiosity refocused and caution ignored
as I lure out the truth from the belly of the beast
no more fear to whisper patience
calm sending waves of anticipation
as the gates of obscurity fade
taking on the lion
with an anvil
Inspired by the weakness
the emotions locked behind the facade
a fortress of inadvertent action
leading to parasitic obligation
inferiority and loss of direction
motivation fails to find me
yet recklessness draws me forward
as I tempt forth the beast
Why should the glory be shared?
when the weaknesses could be exploited?
using pure logic and reason I could seek a better path
emotions get in the way
Raw powerful and changing emotions
that long to sting and bite
the flawed heart
and restrained mind
Boxes and lines adorn the cage
tatters and ruins adorn the body
as still more is asked
redrawn for conveni
Lost Love storyNo one loves me, it's okLost Love story in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I think about it everyday
Looking in the mirror, I see
A figment of what I want to be
Nothing truly there
No need to really care
Deep inside I fight the war
Of the heart that you tore
Battered and broken down
Look at my tattered gown
When the stars begin to die
That's when I'll finally cry
But only when there's nothing here
Will I answer you, my dear
For the words have died inside
Behind the mask, I'll always hide
As I change to prove myself
Find my place, my own wealth
I'll not look back to then
That story must reach it's end
So very lost insideI feel so lost insideSo very lost inside in Free Verse More Like This
Needing help so badly
but I'll never ask, I'll hide
That's not a part of me
There's nothing I can do
I lay myself down to rest
Hoping that I'll lose
It's all just a mess
The pain that wells
It rips me up deep inside
Tearing me down
And shaking me up
It's all right
It's not like I'm bulletproof
But I can't find my way out
I look into the lies seeking the truth inside
Your eyes they deceive me at a glance
Your touch confuses my senses
Everything is like a deadly dance
As I fight to keep my defenses
My thoughts are racing
Trying to find my way out
It's hard embracing
The truth among the lies
Feeling the darkness
It swells inside of me
Seeing the lights go out
It's like a ship at sea
I wonder when
You'll actually see me
I wonder when I'll find my way back out
This maze, it tricks and it traps me
All I can do, is whisper "Come save me"
But I know, there's no one to answer the call
So I'll just continue my downward fall
As I spiral into the nothing
I wonder if there was
That sad truthYou ask me for nothingThat sad truth in Free Verse More Like This
You whisper you can wait
Your lips make my breath abate
Your heart beats so close to mine
And slowly I close my eyes
You want to earn my trust
Knowing all the pain I've been through
The walls I built weren't built for you
I can't change my past, I am forever changed
Your wish to protect and hold me, soothes
Those beautiful eyes read my soul
As you tell me your stories and secret dreams
I feel my resolve weaken and my heart sometimes sings
But I can't be without my armor, I can't let you in
When you touch me though, I wish it were true
I want to love you and I want to believe
But this heart has been burned and broken
Left by the wayside, the blood soaked in
Those who claimed they'd never cause me harm
Never meant to hurt me and would never try
But still I was left to die..
Your eyes tell me that you would never
That you're trying to promise forever
But the mirror is broken inside
Still you catch the tears I've cried
I wish I could open up but I dare not again
YouYour eyes see into meYou in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
like lightning striking twice
hidden beneath the depths of emotion
into the wake of a storm
whispered veils of silk and sensuality
summoned to dance the dance of night
passion steals through me
But still you see ..
You whisper into me
like soft kisses in a misty breeze
hidden beneath promises that you can't keep
into the ether of eternity
veiled temptation and discordance
summoned to the edge of understanding
sunset settles on my soul
But still you whisper..
You echo through me
like hate on a stormy night
hidden beneath the words of a sibyl
into the dying euphoria
blessed curses and swirling light
summoned to the side of the dying
blackness steals through me
But still you echo..
Love's bet"Death would be a kindness for me.." I whispered softly, I'd always felt this regret at living. I couldn't quite explain it but Gabe knew me better then most and I could never hide that from him.Love's bet in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
"You shouldn't say things like that to me." Gabe replied, his voice soothed my heart "We never know how much time we have."
"I'll die young." I replied flippantly, "Go out in a blaze of glory before I reach my 30's. Just watch."
I turned away from him trying to hide the emotion in my face, looking at the trees in the distance. Our secret place was the only place I could meet him anymore. If my parents knew about him they'd be furious.
"No you won't." Gabe said slowly as he turned me to face him, "I won't let you. You mean more to me then that. You never see the good in yourself, always so focused on the negative. I wish I could get through to you."
"What good?" I replied irritated, "My whole life has been about church, doing what other people wish. Being used, abused, and completely
Mis-timedI look into your eyes, see the passions that you hideMis-timed in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
So many things you'd say, if your hands weren't tied
It's always been the timing, that keeps us far away
When you want me closer, I'm afraid to stay
And just when I've changed my mind
Those hands that held me tight re-bind
And so the circle'd dance follows it's chosen path
The broken pieces of the heart, more then we both hath
Our hearts are always closer, then we like to admit
But the way things are now, perhaps it's time to quit
I'm tired of the fighting, and the way things seem to be
The soft look in your eyes hurts, when you see into me
It's like you fear our closeness, but long for it as well
Almost a painful ending, like a broken twisted spell
Your arms you wrap around me, holding on so tight
But deep inside, you push me back an internal fight
When sleep has claimed your eyes, you hold me so dear
But when you're awake, you push me back in fear
I feel drawn to protect you, and to run away so far
Chasing after you, is like chasi
TrespassTrespass in Free Verse More Like This
Unhinge my thoughts
with the images
tucked under your blouse -
soft offerings of lace
that pull twilight's edge
wrapping my fingers
in silk stung knots
that unfasten buttons
and ripple your clothes
and leave me enthralled.
Unsettle my world
with the syllables
tucked under your tongue -
those sweet consonants and vowels
that lovers keep hidden,
stripping words down
to primal sounds
that chase down the dark,
and let my mouth wander
and trespass at will.
Danger SignDanger Sign in Free Verse More Like This
The thinly veiled threat of you
runs my jaw
like a black velvet finger
aching for riddles.
You are all soft silk and whispers
sweet suffering and innuendo
and a jade's game
that loves to taunt me out of my skin.
The unplanned danger of me
plucks your mouth
like a hornet stinging nectar,
drinking in your taste.
I am all nightshade and silver
coarse textures and rough propositions
and a rogue's game
that longs to leave you unhinged.
DaybreakDaybreak in Free Verse More Like This
I re-create my world
from what the moon has left hidden,
soft motes and shafts of twilight,
tucked away in the shadows of night.
They spin like tendrils,
silver wisps that trace outlines
of city streets and skylines,
and spatter their traces over the paths
that greet my feet in the morning
and wake the world anew.
They grow warm and feral
starting in golden buds,
threading their way through fields
and blooming in a riot of horizon
that yields up its bounty
and gifts the waiting world.
They make songs from scattered words
and music that clatters from clouds,
caught humming on the wings of starlings.
They paint pictures with faces
and colors that bloom from landscapes -
all captured in the days lazy palette,
swelling the world in bee sung glory
where the sun crests its orbit
and carves out the new day
WanderlustWanderlust in Free Verse More Like This
I want us to ride a tiger,
fur sleek with sandalwood,
out through the bamboo forests
under paper lanterns
and firecrackers that snap the night.
We will ride him bareback
through market stalls of blue tile,
on magic carpets of indigo
and let hennaed fingers
run through our hair
and taste saffron on the summer breeze
that blooms like red orchids.
We will hunt for jade eggs and silver combs
along the silk road
and let our feet find their way to Kathmandu
where we can hear the shimmer of brass bells
and feel the shiver of glass beads
sparkling the dark and our skin,
exploding the night in warm honey.
I want us to steer a sloop
sails unfurled like music
into the green flash of Islamorada
and search for flying fish
among the coral fans and spiny urchins.
We will sleep upon warm sand
through the deep velvet of night
under Casuarina trees
and let steel drum music
lull us to sleep
and taste the rich fire of cane rum
that comes in tin cups.
We will get our cards read and fortunes told
under a pa
JanuaryJanuary in Free Verse More Like This
Winter came late that year,
catching lazy autumn off guard,
burnishing the late harvest grapes
into the mellow stain of Brandywine
and breathing soft frost
into the dreams of sleeping children.
It rolled pewter across the sky,
chased the moon with chilly fingers
and cast long shadows across the ponds,
lashings of stripped birch branches
rattling windows at midnight,
and slipping through casement cracks
where it hid in silver fog.
It swept leaves from silo lofts;
muddled tobacco and blackberries,
and spangled cobwebbed corners
like stars strung on a bracelet.
It glistened and twinkled
and made the children dream of flying,
feet skimming weightless on silver
like slivered wings of snow owls.
It made old men think of laughing,
and set mothers to baking apples
and unpacking wool coats from trunks
hidden behind the attic eaves
where moonlight practiced magic.
It crept into bowls of snow pudding
and tucked itself under sleds,
piling in drifts against windows.
It stretched across bridges
Chain My DesiresChains bound this love gone awry,Chain My Desires in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I lie awake each night and still wonder why,
Drown my tears with lust and fill me sweet,
With a sensous love full of passionate heat.
A dream each night I am plagued to repeat,
Send truth in love given complete,
For I shall never again try and seek,
Something I thought could make my life complete...
Friendship Loyalty and LoveThe amazement of kindness still touches my heart and soul,Friendship Loyalty and Love in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
As the tears fall they are of joy at this union with hope of a giving nature that it may be a shining light for all to see,
Even though I would to aspire for such the happiness and love infectious making all who view smile and laugh,
The celebration of devotion and commitment a divine and pure testament to those things that make us truly human,
Indiviuals to love one another without judgement to inspire others in grace humility and hope shielding us giving us the armour to endure,
Making such a delicate human trait more enhanced by the beauty felt by two joined as one.....
Forget we knewWill the price be worth the cost,Forget we knew in Free Verse More Like This
Her body covered in sweat glistening in need,
His laughter his voice like liquid gold,
Making all want to unfold.
A charming devil locked up tight to wander aimlessly through the night,
To touch one time my hearts desire consumed beneath my passions fire,
A souless search to those in need to find someone who quells the deed,
Denied,refused feelings gone misused repress for a time to forgetting we knew.
Feel the RushTo touch those lips makes me want to suck,Feel the Rush in Free Verse More Like This
Like a dripping strawberry so sweet the rush,
If I could freeze one moment in time this would so be mine,
The taste a thrill please tell my heart to be still.
To feel the warmth of your arms around my form,
Makes one rethink to what purpose they were born,
The intimate desire found like fire in your eyes,
Created a lust to rival all ties.
When two lonely heartbeats join as one,
Only good things can happen thus from,
The dance erotic and slow has begun,
I want a romance to make me come Undone.
I met an Angel todayI was blessed and met an Angel today,I met an Angel today in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She sat beside me and she prayed,
Says she visits each of you everday,
Watching over you,lighting paths,showing the way.
I was shocked in Awe of what I did see,
Such innocence goodness and purity,
Sitting next to me and holding my hand,
Producing such a warm light in euphoric contentment I am.
Keeping at bay each's fright,
To guide and encourage your daily flight,
She said the reason she felt compelled to come by,
To tell me our's is not to question why.
She promised a new day would arrive,
To live life right have faith,keep hope alive,
For love is there for all to see,
Try looking at things a bit differently.
So few can love so hard,so deep.
These are traits you must so keep,
So remember each time other's cause you pain,
When truth is found so much sweeter the gain.
Wish upon a forgotten starConnected so tight the lines intertwined,Wish upon a forgotten star in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Laced up tight to your hope and strength,
Tied to that feeling,needs no words to be heard,
Caught by the chance under a surprise attack absurd.
To look forward and never look back,
Severed dreams lost I'm still paying the cost,
Abandoned alone wandering aimlessly lost,
Trapped in a past you so delicately tossed,
driven by fear,exhausted by scars,
I failed again to believe I can wish upon that star.
The Scars I now face...I am still stunned......The Scars I now face... in Free Verse More Like This
The volume spoke in those two simple words,
I know not what to say,
I always knew in the back of my mind
it would be this way.
You didn't think it through this time,
The harm obvious I am so blind,
With the dawning of a new day,
I will go on and hope to find a better way.
You made your move and held your ground
the mask fell off and found you lost,
I will not pay this times Your cost,
I am tired and beat down feeling
need to run and escape,
To leave behind these scars I now face.........I'm sorry.
Losing ControlI need you...Losing Control in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
I love you...
I thank God above for you...
I crave you...
I miss you...
Can fate ever change what we do...
I want you...
I believe in you...
Can you see past the protective push away...
Regret the day You met me...
My RegretsWhat can I say,My Regrets in Free Verse More Like This
Things get in the way,
Inspiration passes thru pain,
Wishing you could regain.
I miss but I won't be put aside,
Honest I can say I enjoyed the ride,
With tears and blood I give to thee,
For the one who clearly can't give to me.
This was my oasis my place of peace,
Now has become a place of grief,
If I knew the pain I would endure,
I take back every word,each verse,each lure.
Letting goWhat could have possibly come from it,what pray tell had I expected,Letting go in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
A memory,a moment,a day or night,would it have been worth the sacrifice,clouded by the impossibility of the intense desire,would it be enhanced or fulfill that passionate craving,would it quench this eternal insatiable thirst I face in agony.
Better not to have given in vain such a mystical gift only few can concieve a parody of the surreal mixed with reality brought to light by a torched scorching flame,teasing it fueled to the point of explosive,the lust so primitive,defined only by the variety of endless imaginative and creativity of the participants.
In short a paradise,the nirvana of sensual delights not for the weak,demanded on a magical thread,weaved into a intricate web of the most decadent abandon longing for a blissful enchantment it aspires.............
UnsureI don't know where we're goingUnsure in Free Verse More Like This
Or even if a future for us exists
You stand me up more than you
Lay me down, makes me wonder
Why I even want you around.
It's hard to love a man who's
Yet it's hard to care
About that when I'm in your arms.
I don't want to smother you
I just don't feel I get enough of you
Your like a disease
Like I need you to live
I fear constantly that one
Of us will get fed up
And we'll go our separate ways.
Sometimes I wish I had the guts to say
Everything that's on my mind
But I always hold my tongue
Only letting my tears fall when
My backs to you and I walk
Not EnoughI keep trying but all I seeNot Enough in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Scoreboards of failures
Staring back at me
Everyone's a critique
And the crowd's the same
No one wants you to succeed
When you don't
You take all the blame
I did everything
That I could do
Followed each and every rule
Sacrafice and compromises
Mean little in the face
Of my demises
When it's not enough, to do your best
When it's not enough, you fail life's tests
When it's not enough, you try your hardest
When it's not enough, not enough
Not enough to be you
Staring at my reflection
The mirror an unwelcome companion
Hit my lines to perfection
As I watched you crumbled
my every defenses
My back's against the wall
Left holding all the balls
The court becomes a tv screen
My life's drama for all to see
This fantasy sitcom is not me
When it's not enough, to do your best
When it's not enough, you fail life's tests
When it's not enough, you try your hardest
When it's not enough, not enough
Not enough to be you
At the brink
At the edge
Washed AwaySteel shards clawWashed Away in Free Verse More Like This
Diamond tips bite
Blood flows freely from my
Veins this night
My promise no longer matters
Like yours never do
The relief is lasting
Numbing the pain for a
Second or two
Another slice deeper than
My tears mix
With my life's flow
Under twin bridges road
Of lovers exit my
Lost in forests of dementia
Swimming in the rivers
My palms are stained a
As my soul starts its decent
It's not yet time to
Snuff my lights
The blood spots outline
A familiar face
As the tears ripple his
Displeasure I only
Lying in puddles of myself
My arms hug me tightly
And I leave wet prints upon
Not quite pale flesh
My chest is hollow
And the cold seeps in
Like a mental patient
I write my name within the blood
Then lick the evidence
From my fingertips
Replenishing some of what
I eye the blades
Realize I'm not
L.H. and K.F.Lips Hips & Killing FingertipsL.H. and K.F. in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Lies like crushed roses pressed between the pages of your lips.
Taunting memories that died lined upon your hips.
Watermelon gloss trying to cover up the rottenness of deceit;
Acrid poison spilling forth from bursting seams.
Don't touch me.
I don't need your pollution branding me.
Truth hurts for a moment but lies hurt forever.
Especially ones crushed between the inviting petals of your lips.
I'm more than just the scarring on your hips.
Ignorance isn't always bliss.
The truth can be a soothing balm to a fiery throat.
The fresh air to lungs filled with cigarette smoke.
Fill me up.
Heal my rose.
Stop denying the words you wrote.
Step OutsideI think there was happinessStep Outside in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
but why should i have to guess?
you take me from life's a blur
now i'm here i'm so unsure
don't know who i really know
in the end i am alone
All I thought came undone
It all unwove at my feet
Can't tell what was real
Which was fun
It's all just details cause
It's done and I remain alone
i have been left to one thing
can already feel a sting
i know it's not over yet
a few more things to forget
last rites and thoughts leave my mind
left around for you to find
Crawling inside out these
Wounds don't heal themselves
I step outside myself
To find a place to feel
i hope this place will be warm
i hope this place will be real
but it's cold, made of metal
locked in here with frozen steel
I crushed it all under my feet
All the love, the pain, the betrayal
All that's left is a hollow empty mess
Nothing for my soul to feed off for awhile
And I blame it all on you, and them
But I'm alone so you and them is I
you took all of it from me
you stole my naivete
Bad Luck BluesOn my way out of this corrupted townBad Luck Blues in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The law's got it in for me
Sure enough the sirens
Run me down
He pulled me over
Classic Andy Griffin style
Now he's Barney Fife come to
Lay a ticket down
He said you were going 36 in a 35
One mile over's still a crime
I went to unwind at my favorite dive
And on the way out the door
My car got backed into twice
I got the bad luck blues
There's nothing I can do
Got this cloud raining down
Won't let the good vibes through
Way home, two am
Ran off the road
By an angry, drunk, black man
Punch to the face
Still buckled in place
I think I really need
From this life to escape
Read me a letter
Said you got to move
We're taking your house
There's nothing you can do
Lost my phone
Cause I can't pay the bill
Nothing to drink in the
Whole damn house
Except for beer
I said I'm going nowhere
But I'm going there fast
And they say this bad luck
Ain't gonna last
But I don't see the bright light
Coming up the tracks
I got the bad luck blues
To Precious to KillLife is a series of choicesTo Precious to Kill in Free Verse More Like This
Consequences neither good nor evil
Better or worse
They just are
Though disappointment fills my soul
My heart for you
Remains pure as the
Fresh fallen snow
I cannot turn away for another
Who would spend 'his' everyday
At my side
For no mater the hours 'he'
Would devote to me
Your the only one
In my heart
On my mind
I ache to hold you
To have you press
Your lips to mine
I'll keep the ache
Rather than soil our love
On an act
Won't be worth my time
My Brightest StarI'm sorry's just a wordMy Brightest Star in Free Verse More Like This
That's been overplayed and overworked.
I'm no good at the man and woman game
Sex is the only thing I've had to offer,
That isn't tainted with deranged.
I've failed every time I've tried
But I swear I've never felt for,
Anyone what I feel for you inside.
My offenses are many
I seem to always cross the line.
I speak before I think
In trouble all the time.
You could do so much better and
I'm so sorry I caught your heart,
Hurting you was never my intention.
I'm so afraid you'll get fed up
And our ways you'll have us part.
I do love you with everything
Inside my soiled broken heart.
I know it's not enough
But it really is all I've got.
I've not been standing upright
I'm not sure I know how,
All I know is anything to do with you,
Makes me happy, makes me smile.
You still remain a constant presence
In my mind
Will we make it through this
Or is it about that time?
PonderationCountless hours spentPonderation in Free Verse More Like This
Deep in meditation
Seemingly as useless
As fighting for peace
At the end of my mental journey
I find myself more lost than
When I began.
No closer to an answer
Though I made redundant
Every formula and equasion
Am I too feeble?
Too much of a young,
Imbecilic simple being
To be able to grasp the closure
Of which I seek?
Or would the ramifications
Cripple one such as me?
Each possible answer
Brings forth a slew
Of questions that spin
Me back to where I started from
With all the obstacles
My mind unleashed constantly
How will I ever make you see
What you mean to me?
A Broken fairytaleThere was a time your world revolved around me,A Broken fairytale in Free Verse More Like This
The axis tilted and I fell from your grace.
When inertia struck, your world crumbled,
And I spiraled into the vast abyss, alone.
Once upon a time, we were inseparable,
A fairy tale romance, everybody said.
But, unlike every fairy tale, the love faded,
And prince charming was left alone, heartbroken.
I pinned all my hopes on the fit of
A glass slipper how could anything made
Of glass keep hearts together?
I can no longer be your Cinderella.
I thought that one such as you
Could be the one in my world, but
when the slipper shattered,
I no longer was your knight in shining armor.
Metal rusts without care,
And I've been wearing the stains upon,
My flesh for too long now.
And we both know I was never your maiden fair.
Who would have thought that love
could be so fragile, with it bending and
Warping until at last it breaks, making
Something so beautiful so irreparable.