Inspired by your nightmareInspired by your nightmareInspired by your nightmare in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
the fears that drive you
keeping you apart
the mask that you wear
I don my own
fading back from transformation
dancing the dance of oblivion
curiosity refocused and caution ignored
as I lure out the truth from the belly of the beast
no more fear to whisper patience
calm sending waves of anticipation
as the gates of obscurity fade
taking on the lion
with an anvil
Inspired by the weakness
the emotions locked behind the facade
a fortress of inadvertent action
leading to parasitic obligation
inferiority and loss of direction
motivation fails to find me
yet recklessness draws me forward
as I tempt forth the beast
Why should the glory be shared?
when the weaknesses could be exploited?
using pure logic and reason I could seek a better path
emotions get in the way
Raw powerful and changing emotions
that long to sting and bite
the flawed heart
and restrained mind
Boxes and lines adorn the cage
tatters and ruins adorn the body
as still more is asked
redrawn for conveni
Always waitingSummon stirred and calledAlways waiting in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I find myself among the fallen
dreaming songs into the night
I whisper by twilight
as the songs of the night
Pull me into their embrace
I wonder if I will see your face
Again into the night I run
Wondering just how long
I find the dreams quelling
Not sure if I will find you there
So I walk the path far away
When the night reaches to the dawn
I hope that you won't be too long
Dreaming into the whispered alleyway
Another whisper of a new day
Hoping still I wait
But it always seems too late
Still I realize it will come
The thing that I have been called from
The light will touch my face
I will be remembered by your grace
and then when the skies do shine
I will be found in time
So I will continue to wait
Not tempted by the weakness of fate
I am who I am and that will stay true
So I will always wait for you.
Seeks youIt's me who seeks you outSeeks you in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You're never there about
I try so hard to catch your eye
I must be like an annoying fly
When our hearts converge as one
I long to bask in the rays of your sun
But it's me who has to track you down
The weakness in myself to drown
If I could entrance your gaze
My eyes invoke a special haze
I would try to draw you here
So that I could have you near
But the truth isn't what I want to see
So far from you stands me
Like the sun and the moon
Songs that sing a different tune
You and I are never chosen
Our emotions always frozen
We stare at each other from across the abyss
The timing we always seem to miss
Focused we stand enchanted still
By each others determined will
Our eyes seek out each other
But we pull away from one another
YouYour eyes see into meYou in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
like lightning striking twice
hidden beneath the depths of emotion
into the wake of a storm
whispered veils of silk and sensuality
summoned to dance the dance of night
passion steals through me
But still you see ..
You whisper into me
like soft kisses in a misty breeze
hidden beneath promises that you can't keep
into the ether of eternity
veiled temptation and discordance
summoned to the edge of understanding
sunset settles on my soul
But still you whisper..
You echo through me
like hate on a stormy night
hidden beneath the words of a sibyl
into the dying euphoria
blessed curses and swirling light
summoned to the side of the dying
blackness steals through me
But still you echo..
Must breatheMust breatheMust breathe in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
His eyes pierce me
They see into my soul
I can barely think at all now
Bore into me
They draw me in deeper
As I long to be part of him
I crave their taste
Their soft sweet touch
Wishing for lingering kisses
A soft whisper
Into my very soul
His touches elicit loves hope
A deep timbre
Calling me to his side
Whispering wanton desires
I amI found my heart on a spearI am in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Completely paralyzed by fear
Afraid to let anyone near
Pushing out all who were dear
I've placed it all in the past
No longer to do what is asked
The burdens that held me fast
I am freed from at last
I always knew how
I finally made that vow
I am stronger now
No more my back to bow
Those who seek a fight
Better be in the right
Or I'll burn you with my light
Best stay out of my sight
I am closing every door
Removing broken pieces on the floor
Resetting things in my core
Understanding forgotten lore
When next we meet
You will feel the heat
Feel free to take a seat
Your heart will skip a beat
No more shame
I am no longer tame
I have ended the game
It is all done by my name
So very lost insideI feel so lost insideSo very lost inside in Free Verse More Like This
Needing help so badly
but I'll never ask, I'll hide
That's not a part of me
There's nothing I can do
I lay myself down to rest
Hoping that I'll lose
It's all just a mess
The pain that wells
It rips me up deep inside
Tearing me down
And shaking me up
It's all right
It's not like I'm bulletproof
But I can't find my way out
I look into the lies seeking the truth inside
Your eyes they deceive me at a glance
Your touch confuses my senses
Everything is like a deadly dance
As I fight to keep my defenses
My thoughts are racing
Trying to find my way out
It's hard embracing
The truth among the lies
Feeling the darkness
It swells inside of me
Seeing the lights go out
It's like a ship at sea
I wonder when
You'll actually see me
I wonder when I'll find my way back out
This maze, it tricks and it traps me
All I can do, is whisper "Come save me"
But I know, there's no one to answer the call
So I'll just continue my downward fall
As I spiral into the nothing
I wonder if there was
Lost Love storyNo one loves me, it's okLost Love story in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I think about it everyday
Looking in the mirror, I see
A figment of what I want to be
Nothing truly there
No need to really care
Deep inside I fight the war
Of the heart that you tore
Battered and broken down
Look at my tattered gown
When the stars begin to die
That's when I'll finally cry
But only when there's nothing here
Will I answer you, my dear
For the words have died inside
Behind the mask, I'll always hide
As I change to prove myself
Find my place, my own wealth
I'll not look back to then
That story must reach it's end
Scrape it awayScrape away the dead skinScrape it away in Free Verse More Like This
I am nothing more then a fragment
Peel back the scars
And you will find the bitterness
Tear back the masks
And you will see
Me, staring into the mirror
of Feckless lies and pain
Rebuild the scene and you find
For I truly am better than that
I am me.
The Broken Patterns in my headI have broken patterns in my headThe Broken Patterns in my head in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Fighting between living and wanting to be dead
I win the fight every single day
No matter what, I choose to stay
The burning pain that sears inside
The emotions that I try to hide
I wear a mask to keep it all away
Keep the horded masses at bay
Faking the the smile I hide the pain
Close my eyes and wish for rain
Standing up straight, I am strong
Refusing to cower, fighting against what's wrong
Wish that I could break free
Find a new way to be..
I talk of renewal and change so much
But I've only ever felt the softest touch
The circles I follow, they come back around
The same arguments, the same things I'm bound..
So when I say that I long to be free..
Perhaps what I mean is, I don't want to be me..
I do what I have to, I try to survive
The pain lets me know I'm still alive
So when the bitterness piles into a wave
I drown myself, I no longer wish to be saved...
But someone always comes along
And once again I have to be strong
The rock, I hide so many crac
Chain My DesiresChains bound this love gone awry,Chain My Desires in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I lie awake each night and still wonder why,
Drown my tears with lust and fill me sweet,
With a sensous love full of passionate heat.
A dream each night I am plagued to repeat,
Send truth in love given complete,
For I shall never again try and seek,
Something I thought could make my life complete...
Feel the RushTo touch those lips makes me want to suck,Feel the Rush in Free Verse More Like This
Like a dripping strawberry so sweet the rush,
If I could freeze one moment in time this would so be mine,
The taste a thrill please tell my heart to be still.
To feel the warmth of your arms around my form,
Makes one rethink to what purpose they were born,
The intimate desire found like fire in your eyes,
Created a lust to rival all ties.
When two lonely heartbeats join as one,
Only good things can happen thus from,
The dance erotic and slow has begun,
I want a romance to make me come Undone.
Forget we knewWill the price be worth the cost,Forget we knew in Free Verse More Like This
Her body covered in sweat glistening in need,
His laughter his voice like liquid gold,
Making all want to unfold.
A charming devil locked up tight to wander aimlessly through the night,
To touch one time my hearts desire consumed beneath my passions fire,
A souless search to those in need to find someone who quells the deed,
Denied,refused feelings gone misused repress for a time to forgetting we knew.
I met an Angel todayI was blessed and met an Angel today,I met an Angel today in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She sat beside me and she prayed,
Says she visits each of you everday,
Watching over you,lighting paths,showing the way.
I was shocked in Awe of what I did see,
Such innocence goodness and purity,
Sitting next to me and holding my hand,
Producing such a warm light in euphoric contentment I am.
Keeping at bay each's fright,
To guide and encourage your daily flight,
She said the reason she felt compelled to come by,
To tell me our's is not to question why.
She promised a new day would arrive,
To live life right have faith,keep hope alive,
For love is there for all to see,
Try looking at things a bit differently.
So few can love so hard,so deep.
These are traits you must so keep,
So remember each time other's cause you pain,
When truth is found so much sweeter the gain.
Friendship Loyalty and LoveThe amazement of kindness still touches my heart and soul,Friendship Loyalty and Love in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
As the tears fall they are of joy at this union with hope of a giving nature that it may be a shining light for all to see,
Even though I would to aspire for such the happiness and love infectious making all who view smile and laugh,
The celebration of devotion and commitment a divine and pure testament to those things that make us truly human,
Indiviuals to love one another without judgement to inspire others in grace humility and hope shielding us giving us the armour to endure,
Making such a delicate human trait more enhanced by the beauty felt by two joined as one.....
My RegretsWhat can I say,My Regrets in Free Verse More Like This
Things get in the way,
Inspiration passes thru pain,
Wishing you could regain.
I miss but I won't be put aside,
Honest I can say I enjoyed the ride,
With tears and blood I give to thee,
For the one who clearly can't give to me.
This was my oasis my place of peace,
Now has become a place of grief,
If I knew the pain I would endure,
I take back every word,each verse,each lure.
A SpellHe weaves a spell...A Spell in Free Verse More Like This
But he knows not the one he is already under,
He severs the last tie but he will be bound to her for an eternity,
He will feel the sting for she desires to be part of him.
He thinks he is alone.....
But alas I mark his soul well,
He has cast the last die,
She pulls him closer in mind.
No matter where you go your thoughts shall always wander back to me,
He seeks truth.....
But she no longer gives,
She will fade from the pages but never from his mind she knows him too well
it is he who is under the spell.......
Letting goWhat could have possibly come from it,what pray tell had I expected,Letting go in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
A memory,a moment,a day or night,would it have been worth the sacrifice,clouded by the impossibility of the intense desire,would it be enhanced or fulfill that passionate craving,would it quench this eternal insatiable thirst I face in agony.
Better not to have given in vain such a mystical gift only few can concieve a parody of the surreal mixed with reality brought to light by a torched scorching flame,teasing it fueled to the point of explosive,the lust so primitive,defined only by the variety of endless imaginative and creativity of the participants.
In short a paradise,the nirvana of sensual delights not for the weak,demanded on a magical thread,weaved into a intricate web of the most decadent abandon longing for a blissful enchantment it aspires.............
Wish upon a forgotten starConnected so tight the lines intertwined,Wish upon a forgotten star in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Laced up tight to your hope and strength,
Tied to that feeling,needs no words to be heard,
Caught by the chance under a surprise attack absurd.
To look forward and never look back,
Severed dreams lost I'm still paying the cost,
Abandoned alone wandering aimlessly lost,
Trapped in a past you so delicately tossed,
driven by fear,exhausted by scars,
I failed again to believe I can wish upon that star.
SomedaySomeday...He will take me on that rideSomeday in Free Verse More Like This
the one that never ends,
Of endless erotic pleasures that when end just re-begin,
To the highs that take us away from all,
Each moment lost in fantasy realized just knowing available upon the call.
Such a warm content cozy place we make all safe and secure,
Surrounded in one another's arms a drug from which no cure,
True to form imagine a place where love is just and pure
right upon your reach,
So much to learn,to grow,to know,to explore, find and teach.
The nearness of you takes my breath away as you softly caress my cheek,
Lost I'm falling into those eyes to join the soul I seek,
Take me to your deepest thoughts your wants,wishes and cares,
So I might know how your life is lived without the masks we wear.
To be so close to draw you near a sensual dream come true,
My body warms reacts and starts when I am close to you,
Such bliss,such energy a decadent carnal delight,
Tell me my love what plans have we tonight.
UnsureI don't know where we're goingUnsure in Free Verse More Like This
Or even if a future for us exists
You stand me up more than you
Lay me down, makes me wonder
Why I even want you around.
It's hard to love a man who's
Yet it's hard to care
About that when I'm in your arms.
I don't want to smother you
I just don't feel I get enough of you
Your like a disease
Like I need you to live
I fear constantly that one
Of us will get fed up
And we'll go our separate ways.
Sometimes I wish I had the guts to say
Everything that's on my mind
But I always hold my tongue
Only letting my tears fall when
My backs to you and I walk
My Brightest StarI'm sorry's just a wordMy Brightest Star in Free Verse More Like This
That's been overplayed and overworked.
I'm no good at the man and woman game
Sex is the only thing I've had to offer,
That isn't tainted with deranged.
I've failed every time I've tried
But I swear I've never felt for,
Anyone what I feel for you inside.
My offenses are many
I seem to always cross the line.
I speak before I think
In trouble all the time.
You could do so much better and
I'm so sorry I caught your heart,
Hurting you was never my intention.
I'm so afraid you'll get fed up
And our ways you'll have us part.
I do love you with everything
Inside my soiled broken heart.
I know it's not enough
But it really is all I've got.
I've not been standing upright
I'm not sure I know how,
All I know is anything to do with you,
Makes me happy, makes me smile.
You still remain a constant presence
In my mind
Will we make it through this
Or is it about that time?
Not EnoughI keep trying but all I seeNot Enough in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Scoreboards of failures
Staring back at me
Everyone's a critique
And the crowd's the same
No one wants you to succeed
When you don't
You take all the blame
I did everything
That I could do
Followed each and every rule
Sacrafice and compromises
Mean little in the face
Of my demises
When it's not enough, to do your best
When it's not enough, you fail life's tests
When it's not enough, you try your hardest
When it's not enough, not enough
Not enough to be you
Staring at my reflection
The mirror an unwelcome companion
Hit my lines to perfection
As I watched you crumbled
my every defenses
My back's against the wall
Left holding all the balls
The court becomes a tv screen
My life's drama for all to see
This fantasy sitcom is not me
When it's not enough, to do your best
When it's not enough, you fail life's tests
When it's not enough, you try your hardest
When it's not enough, not enough
Not enough to be you
At the brink
At the edge
A Broken fairytaleThere was a time your world revolved around me,A Broken fairytale in Free Verse More Like This
The axis tilted and I fell from your grace.
When inertia struck, your world crumbled,
And I spiraled into the vast abyss, alone.
Once upon a time, we were inseparable,
A fairy tale romance, everybody said.
But, unlike every fairy tale, the love faded,
And prince charming was left alone, heartbroken.
I pinned all my hopes on the fit of
A glass slipper how could anything made
Of glass keep hearts together?
I can no longer be your Cinderella.
I thought that one such as you
Could be the one in my world, but
when the slipper shattered,
I no longer was your knight in shining armor.
Metal rusts without care,
And I've been wearing the stains upon,
My flesh for too long now.
And we both know I was never your maiden fair.
Who would have thought that love
could be so fragile, with it bending and
Warping until at last it breaks, making
Something so beautiful so irreparable.
There For MeAll my early happy memories, I can see your smiley faceThere For Me in Free Verse More Like This
The boys they were your enemy, but you called me
Your saving grace. No blood shared yet I alone,
Was allowed to sit upon the lap in daddy's chair.
You checked my closet, under the bed,
Another glass of water, before you tucked me in.
And you always made sure to turn out the lights,
After slumbers decent.
All the things that little girls dream of
All the icon's and hero's to be had
The only one to put the stars in my eyes
Was the man I called my dad.
Through the beatings, the blood,
And the broken bones. And all the,
Attempts to run away from the place,
We called home. There's was always,
An open door, a shoulder to cry on and,
An ear to bend within your arms.
You never blamed me for the things I did.
Acting out you said, was just being a normal kid.
Even when I crossed the line, the first words I heard,
Were 'I still love you, everything'll be fine'.
Then your shine started to fade,
I realised the man,
I loved was only flesh and b
Where I've beenI've been so many different versionsWhere I've been in Free Verse More Like This
Of the me I am now.
Various shades that never came close
To the woman I've unearthed.
In all alter ego's I haven't
Come close to finding someone
A rare gem to me you are.
I've been around the block and then some,
Traveled roads most leave unpaved,
Done things others only dreamed of,
And hurt every one I've ever had to leave.
I've played the lover, I've been the fool,
I've perfected the player, used every game
And violated every rule.
Yet I only feel at home when I'm with you.
I can lie with both eyes open and still
Fall into a restful sleep each night.
Though the truth is all I care to
Tell whenever I speak to you.
I want to be miss perfect
To fulfill your every need.
I'm not used to these feelings
Sometimes their alieness makes a
Shrew of me.
Every moment shared with you
Has been a joy, a dream come true.
I want everything you have to give
But control is not my aim.
I want you to continue down the road
You've been traveling but I'd just
NightmareLethargy kicks in, I contemplateNightmare in Free Verse More Like This
The break of night as moonbeams pierce,
My skin I realize I've grown gaunt and sallow,
My throat is parched and my vision narrow.
My eyes grow heavy, my limbs light
as a feather, when, giving in, I
let myself drift off to lands
unknown, to dream of better days.
Weary scarred fingers, knotted and twisted
lay upon the cold sheet of the bed, laying
where there once lovers slept with sweet dreaming smiles,
where I now find a restless wondering emptiness.
I dance among calla lilies and dandelions,
Under moon's long stretching fingers.
I am changed but the same,
As sheets tangle around moving legs like long green stemmed laces.
Visions assault my sleep encumbered form,
Hot, salty, tinged rivulets break free from
Lips closed tight to escape the pain,
Lost in my mind, I dream on.
Number mutilationFrom the first slice, dripping red down my spineNumber mutilation in Free Verse More Like This
To the second cut, anguish blurs the lines
The third, the fourth, fifth, sixth
I lost count ...nine?
Each burn sends currents in my veins
Eliciting a desire to drown the pain
Another laceration joins the growing pyre
Ten, eleven, twelve ...lost a few in the fire
Peeled flesh curls like pencil shavings
Metallic smell assaults my nostril casing
A bitter taste brews upon my tongue
Seventeen, eighteen, nineteen ...done.
A Right Choice?If I spill my guts I'll lose youA Right Choice? in Free Verse More Like This
Yet if I keep it all inside I'll die
Maintaining these lies is
Rotting me alive
My health or my heart?
To thine own self be true
Or would keeping you
Be the better thing to do?
Do I regret what was done
Even now I can't claim
That emotion as one
Hurting you is the
Last thing I aim to do
The desire to tell all
Will murder all I am to you
Knowing what will happen
If I speak my truths
Doesn't stop the question
If it's the right thing to do.
PonderationCountless hours spentPonderation in Free Verse More Like This
Deep in meditation
Seemingly as useless
As fighting for peace
At the end of my mental journey
I find myself more lost than
When I began.
No closer to an answer
Though I made redundant
Every formula and equasion
Am I too feeble?
Too much of a young,
Imbecilic simple being
To be able to grasp the closure
Of which I seek?
Or would the ramifications
Cripple one such as me?
Each possible answer
Brings forth a slew
Of questions that spin
Me back to where I started from
With all the obstacles
My mind unleashed constantly
How will I ever make you see
What you mean to me?
She Holds Me...She Holds Me... in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The way she takes me into her own self
I am relaxed as she holds my body so close to hers
We kiss like no other is in the room
Is this the way I want it always to be?
Of course it is...
Something Tells MeSomething Tells Me in Open More Like This
out of my mind
let free to roam
cut loose to meander
enchanting melodies abound
tranquility relieves my soul
love, or the thought of love
suppressed in a relentless cycle
eventually screaming to be heard
kneeling before you
sorting my heart out
silence becomes me
this astral plane
gliding in the distance
back to reality
i wake up
nothing ever happened
Break AwayA need to escape,Break Away in Free Verse More Like This
A need to run,
A need to be free.
My heart is tight
within my chest,
as I look to the mountains,
so far from me.
A taste of freedom,
my soul longs for,
seemingly out of reach.
If only I had wings,
to carry me across
the still waters,
to carry me away
from this dead life.
Tired of my feet
feeling parched earth,
I want to feel the grass,
see the trees,
smell the flowers.
I want to touch the sky
and break away.
EnoughStop, I've had enough.Enough in Open More Like This
Can't you see,
down my face,
I'm a wreck,
haven't you hit me enough?
My eyes should be black,
my teeth should be loose.
How much does it take,
to snap my ribs,
to break them like my heart?
How much can I take,
how many times can I shatter?
When will you stop,
when will you be done?
Why do you do this,
over and over and over again?
How can you hurt the one
who loves you the most?
I'm only human,
I look in the mirror.
How do I stop beating myself up?
When will enough be enough?
Finally YoursWe've spent so much time...Finally Yours in Free Verse More Like This
so far apart,
longing for each other's touch,
waiting for any chance to talk,
worrying if the other was true,
wondering if our feelings were real.
So many lonely days and nights,
only able to speak through wires.
The sound of your voice,
makes my heart take wing,
and alleviates the darkness,
that which holds me in fear
each moment we're apart...
So many fears,
would you still want me?
when will we be together?
But all that fades away,
at this, the magic moment
we've waited for, so long.
No longer separated by thousands of miles.
Able to touch, to see, to hear
for ourselves at long last.
A precious kiss, a taste of your lips.
Everything I've wanted and more.
Now that I am,
New Year's EveA black velvet canvas,New Year's Eve in Free Verse More Like This
stretched over twin hills.
Dark water below mirrors,
vibrant greens rivaling emeralds,
electric blues that mock sapphires,
fire reds shaming rubies.
Higher and higher,
whistles, pops and loud bangs,
fly up into the sky, exploding.
Lighting up the night with broad strokes
that linger for a moment,
then are gone...
replaced by the next.
Silver sparkles and shines,
while glittering gold shooting stars
reach the heavens,
never touching the earth.
A broad canvas,
lasting a moment in the sky,
and forever in our hearts.
Let Me KnowYou torture me,Let Me Know in Free Verse More Like This
leave me hanging.
You are my everything.
I long for a glance,
that look in your eyes.
no matter how small.
Anything, other than this,
a cold indifference.
I once believed you cared,
almost believed you loved me.
Yet, no matter
what I give you,
what I do for you...
only results in a cold, barren smile,
that flat tone in your voice,
when you thank me.
I've tried to walk away,
I've tried to leave,
to find another,
someone who will love me,
as I long for you to do.
But when I do,
your silent tears break
You rob me of everything,
leaving me broken at your feet.
I am your humble slave,
tied by the chains upon my heart.
So, please, if you love me...
let me know...
Letter to my HeartbreakTo my Heartbreak,Letter to my Heartbreak in Letters More Like This
This is hard to write, but I have to. There is a lot I need to get off my chest before it eats me alive. I know you won't read this, may never even see it. Even if I sent it to you...
For months, almost a year, of my life, I've given. My time, my heart, whatever you asked that was in my power to give. I've made time for you, gave you room in my heart. And at first, you seemed to as well. We talked for hours on the phone, online, everyday. When my cat died, you canceled your plans and spent time with me.
You've told me that you care about me, very much, that you're very fond of me. And when you're drunk, you tell me you love me. You tell me, "IloveyouImissyouIwishyouwerehere." But never when you're sober. Oh no. When you're sober, you hide everything behind this wall of almost smarminess. When you're sober, we're just friends with benefits. You tell me you can't say it, that if you do, you'll break. Well, you've already broken something. My heart.
You see, I let you li
The Real Me -part 1-I stand here, waiting.The Real Me -part 1- in Free Verse More Like This
A lantern for a beacon.
He said he's meet me here.
I don't know what I was thinking.
He's never seen me at night,
he doesn't know I'm different...
All I know is I love him,
I have to take the chance.
But can I bear it?
If, like the others, he turns away?
To see the revulsion in his eyes?
That would kill me.
Perhaps it would be best to leagve,
pretend I fell asleep, but still...
I cannot put it off.
For his love, I must take the risk.
Yet still, I cannot help but ask,
what if he doesn't like the real me?
The Real Me -part 2-Her light, my beacon.The Real Me -part 2- in Free Verse More Like This
I did not think she'd show...
She seemed so nervous
when I asked her to meet here, now.
She trembles, I can smell her fear.
I wonder if she knows?
How can I tell her if she does not?
I'm different at night.
Will I lose her like the others?
Will she run screaming,
leaving me no choice but to run again?
I know I love her,
so must this secret share.
It's only right.
She's so delicate, my heart's flower.
I must tell her, yet I cannot help but wonder,
what if she doesn't like the real me?
May I Come Home Now?How long is too long?May I Come Home Now? in Free Verse More Like This
How long will it take,
until I lose my mind?
The isolation, the loneliness,
wear on me,
like the sands of this desert,
tearing me apart.
from my own kind.
Once part of a mighty choir,
now a lonely solo
that no one hears.
My wings are tattered
from the earthly winds,
rough and grabbing,
not like the winds back home.
I miss the gentle caress
fanning my wings
under a loving sun.
The sun here is harsh,
burning my skin.
I long for the company
of familiar faces,
of familiar voices.
Here, I am utterly alone,
bereft of any comfort.
It's been eons.
Is that not long enough?
I beg of you,
may I please come home now?
Blinded to HopeSeasons change around me.Blinded to Hope in Free Verse More Like This
The birds come and go.
no longer light my way.
Locked within myself,
locked in darkness.
I must rely now on
smell, sound and touch
to know where I am,
to know when I am...
I can hear the nightbirds,
and also the swans calling,
they herald the twilight
as I walk near the waters.
I can feel the cold stone steps,
the moss on my bare feet,
and smell the nearby water.
Things seem so different,
when you cannot see them.
I think back to...
when I lost my sight,
when I lost my dreams,
when I lost my hope.
And yet, still, I go on,
living, feeling, hearing,
the world and those around me.
If I had hope left...
I would hope for a miracle.
DisconsolateA forgoneDisconsolate in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
what we might
what now holds
you and I
I am vexed,
and through this
I simply cannot
hear my own
May 6th, 2010
FallaciousYou believe youFallacious in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
speak of truth
yet all I see
Your acid tongue
on my skin
for every single
word you've spoken.
You can only
so much of
your own reality
just to save face.
June 29th, 2010
DistressI cannot breathe,Distress in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
nor can I find
on my own
I'm finding it
hard to say
my final goodbye,
let alone face
within me is dead,
and it is masked
by a river of
April 28th, 2010
Antithetic SubsistenceLet me burnAntithetic Subsistence in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
as I turn to
May 29th, 2010
CrestfallenWords are futileCrestfallen in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
when I speak in
that set the mind
alight in anguish.
August 26th, 2010
Our DialectWords of kindness,Our Dialect in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
words of sorrow,
words that kill,
words that yield
These words mend
our broken souls,
obtaining the power
of the utmost gods.
Your language creates
barriers and you separate;
this was never meant to be.
You are the epitome
of my broken English.
what do they mean?
I speak this language
every day and
every single time
you turn away.
Do you ever stop to think about
how your words affect me,
how your words infect me?
You were this glorious,
yet you use your words to kill
and maim what we have created.
You speak in tongues,
pushing the world away
yet you are unaffected.
Separate me from
the foul language you
so callously spew forth,
like venom coursing
through these veins.
Your words could heal me,
your words could save me,
But you deteriorate our love
And with these words you kill me.
-Brian Shuffett/Bobbie Lynn
Aoril 22nd, 2010
PenitenceBlame, guilt,Penitence in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I cannot break
around my neck
like a noose.
I choke on
my own guilt.
Do the mistakes
that I have made
cause others to
I am descending
and I know not
where this ends.
July 9th, 2010
LamentWhy is it thatLament in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
what we desire
we can never
within our grasp?
All I find
within my reach
is burning regret,
and it sets
my heart alight
with untold longing.
June 4th, 2010
ClosureI have stained yourClosure in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
living room floor
with the soul that
flourished within me.
I expire beneath you
while you callously
thrive above me.
September 20th, 2010