LifeMy heart is falling,
Knees are shaking,
Eyes are wondering,
Mind is crawling,
Back of the line just like always,
No ones cares,
My eyes are bawling,
Life can bring sadness, joy, or pain,
But all i know is that it can stain,
Stain your heart and stain your soul,
Can change your idea of all you know.
Worth Saving?People keep asking me...Worth Saving? in Free Verse More Like This
"Are you okay?"
Why aren't you happy anymore?"
I just sit there
Wishing I could answer them
But if I knew the answers
I wouldn't be sitting here right now
Giving them a dead stare,
I turn around
Walking away slowly
They try to catch me by the arm
I just pull away
No once can bring me back
I'm off in my own little world
I don't think I'm coming back anytime soon
Someone waves a hand in my face
Once again the questions come
This time I put the fake smile on
But everything's just so fake now
People are starting to see through me
Almost as if I'm a ghost
I'm pale as the snow
Invisible like the wind
I'm a rather lost soul
And I doubt I'll be saved
Why would anyone save me?
I'm just a worthless piece of shit anyways
Don't bother wasting your time
You wont convince me otherwise
People have proved it to me through out the years
I'm meant to be broken
So I'm used it it now
The thought of being saved scares me in a way
I wouldn't be a
Save Me From YouNo words could tell you how much I miss youSave Me From You in Free Verse More Like This
So I wont even try
All I'm going to say is...I miss you
It hurts to say this
But it needs to be heard
I'm no longer your butterfly
I can no longer save you
I cant set you free
Well I'm no longer free either
I cant soar through the sky with a smile
Now I am chained down to earth
Chained down with memories
Pain and hurt
I'm afraid I'll never break free
The only thing that can break these chains
The only person...is you
And we all know you're not coming back
Not this time
But that's ok
I think we're better off this was
Separate from each other
Don't get me wrong
I love you then
And I love you now
But we both knew it would never work
You had too much to worry about
I was just too heart broken
But it's ok...
This would've happened eventually
Better to have my hopes crushed now
They weren't as high
So it shouldn't hurt as much
Falling always hurts though
And this time I'm falling hard
You had me soaring through the clouds
All I AskTears fill my eyesAll I Ask in Free Verse More Like This
But I wont let them fall
I have to be strong for you now
You've been there time after time for me
It's my turn to be here for you
I hate how helpless I feel
Nothing I say
Nothing I do,
Can make you better
I try to comfort you
I'm here to wipe away all your tears
Yet you're still so broken
There's still that far away look in your eyes
I know you're thinking about her
How much she hurt you
How much you love her
And I hate it...
I hate seeing you like this
It tears my heart to pieces
I try talking to you
But it's not the same
You're distant now
And I know nothing I say will bring you back
I know she still has a piece of your heart
But you said I had the rest of it
So why do you seem so different?
Where did you go?
You told me we would be like this forever
I told you not to say that
Unless you meant it of course
You said you did mean it...
But right now, I'm starting to have doubts about that
All I'm feeling is pain, not love
I hate her...
How she did that to you
My Angel, My EverythingThis heart used to be filled with hateMy Angel, My Everything in Free Verse More Like This
I was lonely and lost
Help always came too late
One too many times I had been crossed
Now this heart is filled with love
You're by my side and I've been found
Heaven sent an angel from above
I know you're always going to be around
I used to be heartbroken
Nothing in the world could make me smile
Words of regret and pain were spoken
I lived in the past for awhile
Now you're healing my heart
You're the reason for the smile on my face
Even though we're apart
I'll keep waiting for your embrace
You're my angel, my everything
Forever by my side
Protected under your wing
One day I'll be your bride
What I really hateI hate how the thought of you never leaves my mindWhat I really hate in Free Verse More Like This
How I cant close my eyes without seeing your face
Sometimes I wish I could just go blind
But those images are something I can erase
I hate how no matter what I do I cant talk to you
How everything you ever said replays in my head
Sometimes I worry that we're done, that we're through
But I know if we were, I'd already be dead
I hate how I cant hear your voice
How if I turn my music down I hear it anyways
Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing this by choice
But everyone keeps telling me this is just a phase
I hate how I cant say I love you
How I have to whisper it to myself instead
Sometimes I wonder if you were untrue
But I'll wait for the answers are ahead
I hate you don't care
How you pretend you do
Sometimes I wonder how much pain you bare
But I'm sure this all means nothing to you
I hate how you always lie to me
How I always seem to believes you too
Sometimes I wonder if you can see
But this sad story is way overdue
I hate how I worry you
Blinded With The Bandages...You know what I hate?Blinded With The Bandages... in Free Verse More Like This
You don't want to know...
No matter what he does to me I'll never hate him
What an unfortunate thing...
He'll always have a piece of my heart
A big piece actually...
I'll always love him
It hurts more than he'll ever know
I'll never tell him how much he's hurting me
Breaks my heart to pieces
Little tiny, itty, bitty pieces
And the funny thing?
Oh, it's quite funny indeed
He's not even trying...
I'd hate to see the damage if he wanted to break me
I'd be dead if he was trying...
Wanna know something else that's funny?
Oh! This one's even funnier!
He said he would never break me...
Look at what he's done to me...
He sure had me fooled
Either he's a really big liar
Which everyone doubts
Or I'm just over reacting like always
That's probably it...
He used to hold me tightly
Oh how I loved his arms around me
Become Forever NumbScars on my wristsBecome Forever Numb in Free Verse More Like This
Voices in my head
I need help
But I'm too afraid to ask
I'm sending you all the signals
So why cant you see?
That I'm only pretending
This isn't the real me
You think the problems are all fixed
Since I've gotten help everything's been better
But it's so far from that
Things have fallen apart once again
I wont let you see the scars
Know what's going on
I'm afraid I'll hurt you
But in the end this is just going to kill me
Of course I smile and laugh
I don't want you to worry anymore
It's called a mask my friend
Over the years I've gotten very good at wearing one
Pretending everything's okay
And even when it's not
I know how to hold it all in
No one ever said this was right
I'm not saying it is
But I've been doing this far too long
I don't think I can stop now
Talking never helps
It only leads to yelling
Yelling and fighting only make matters worse
You think I just go to my room and cry
Well you're only half right
Sometimes that's not enough
All I want is a sign.So I did it again, was looking for you.All I want is a sign. in Free Verse More Like This
I hate that I have no idea where you are,
if you're happy, well, even alive.
It hurts to write this and think about you again,
I don't like that I can't let go.
My eyes are beginning to sting
and my throat's starting to close.
Damn you, you always do this to me.
All I need is a simple sign,
or a breath, a whisper, a few words,
a smile, a touch, a hug... A kiss?
I remember all the time we spent, together,
I know we probably never were going to last,
but you know me, forever the hopeful.
Even when everything seemed to pile against us,
you smiled when I said "There's always hope."
And yeah, there is always hope,
but now it's a different hope.
Now I'm hoping for a sign,
a breath, a whisper, a few words,
a smile, a touch, a hug... A kiss?
Just something to tell me that you're still around,
I know you probably wouldn't go out that way,
but... It's happened before when I least expect it,
so I don't really say never any
Self InjurySelf Injury in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The pain that you feel,
Pain that feels so real.
This is your only,
Single way to deal.
Warm crimson liquid,
Leaking from your skin
Riding your body of your pain,
All your shame, and all your sin.
You know it's wrong,
But when it feels so right,
You just give up
And stop your fight.
In silence you scream,
Your struggles unknown,
Your pain goes unseen,
You suffer alone.
RememberingI remember when we metRemembering in Free Verse More Like This
How could I not?
It's such a vivid memory.
Since then, we've made many more.
They stand out in my mind.
Through good times and bad,
you were always there.
We've shared laughter and tears, hardships and triumphs.
Thinking back I think
that without you in my life,
would all those wonderful memories
be empty voids?
I remember when we met.
Did you realize we would become so close?
Did I realize our relationship would grow?
I really can't say.
But what matters is the bond we share now.
You really are incredible.
You see through my flaws to the beauty within
and you put up with my foolishness.
It's nice to know that someone cares.
You're my trusted confident and counselor.
I know I can always come to you.
I can share all my secrets, and they're safe with you.
You always seem to know the right thing to say.
I remember when we met.
Back then, I didn't realize how special you are...
I didn't realize your value.
But now I do, and I appreciate you.
Even though I may not alw
hollow.maybe desperation has made mehollow. in Free Verse More Like This
hollow. maybe if you had carved
your name in me, maybe my shell
would have broken and all that
would be left was a crater in the
misshapen form of a lover's heart.
(minus the initials.) you told me, 'you are not empty.' i can feel
my heart trembling, like it was echo echoing,
boucing off my ribcage. please tell me, how
am i echoing if i'm not empty? there's someone inside me, i can tell.
they're twirling and swirling, dancing
fancy pirouettes and leaving broken
butterfly wings in their wake. maybe
i'm starting to think they're better off
broken. [okay, who is doing this to me?]
A Cry For HelpI wish you could see inside, to the deepest, darkest recess of my mind. I want to share it with you, but I fear your rejection. I want your help, but I am too afraid to ask. You will never know how much I need you right now. You will never know the secrets I hide out of fear of losing you. Instead, I bury my pain deep inside and cover it with a smile. You look at me like I am so strong, but it's all a lie. I'm falling apart inside.A Cry For Help in Short Stories More Like This
I'm tired of being strong, tired of smiling like nothing is wrong. I just want to let go for a little while, let someone else take over. If you would only look a little closer you would see the truth, but you turn a blind eye to my pain. I need you to see me, see how I feel, why can't you do that? I am invisible to everyone including you. All you ever see is my strength. There is more, so much more to me than that, but you don't want to soil your hands with the truth.
I want to scream until my voice fades away, until the agony is gone. Everyday is agony, but
Who do you think I am?Look deep into my eyes,Who do you think I am? in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
tell me what you see.
Who do you think of,
when you think of me?
Am I the sweet one,
the loyal, faithful friend?
Or do you just use me,
am I a means to an end?
Am I the love of your life,
the one you can't live without?
Or am I just a good time,
just trash you'll soon throw out?
Am I the mean girl,
the one that scares you so?
Or am I the one you torture,
when you think no one will know?
Am I the forgotten girl,
the one that no one can see?
Or do you spend your nights
awake fantasizing about me?
Am I the weird girl,
the one that you put down?
Or am I the funny girl
everyone calls the class clown?
Am I the suicidal girl,
the one who tries to kill the pain?
Or am I the vibrant girl
who loves to dance in the rain?
Who do you think I am?
Do you even really know?
There are so many sides of me,
but only a few I ever show.
I Hate Life When...I Hate Life When... in Free Verse More Like This
When you have no choice
But to lie –
Especially to your friends
When people cannot accept you
For who you really are,
And you have to continue the act
Just for them.
When your darkest secrets
Are discovered by your friends --
The ones you never wanted to know about it
In the first place.
When you think someone loves you,
Then they go and let you down.
When people think
They know best for you,
When all you want to do
Is follow your heart.
When someone acts
Like your friend,
Like they really care about you,
Then the next day
They go and bitch about you
Behind your back.
When two people,
Who both like each other,
Won't go out with each other.
When the person you care for most
Will never know.
When your family,
Your own flesh and blood,
Turn against you.
Maybe water is thicker than blood?
When people make judgements
On your appearance
Instead of on the way you act.
When others cannot,
And do not,
Listen to your opinions
And simply think that your views
Do not matter.
SorryI'm sorry that life isn't black and white,Sorry in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Sorry that I can't be your shining knight.
I'm sorry that I make you feel this pain,
Sorry that I just do it again and again.
I'm sorry that I'm never here nor there,
Sorry that it feels like I just don't care.
I'm sorry for all the stupid things I say,
Sorry for the way I was just yesterday.
I'm sorry for the agony left in my wake,
Sorry for the promises I always break.
I'm sorry for the person I'm failing to be,
Sorry that all you have left is just me.
I'm sorry for the times I left you broken,
Sorry you think my love is just a token.
I'm sorry for being a really crappy friend,
Sorry for wondering how it's going to end.
I'm sorry for the silence between us two,
Sorry that the best thing about me is you.
I'm sorry for the way we argue and fight,
Sorry for...I'm sorry for everything, alright?