Painpain,Pain in Free Verse More Like This
it starts in my heart,
it burns through my skin,
it bleeds out my eyes,
it shuts me from the world.
Rooftop star counting"I left a lonely boy counting stars on a rooftop last night."Rooftop star counting in Free Verse More Like This
"A lonely girl left me last night worried that I would jump, three hundred and ninety eight."
"He was so distant and confused I didn't know what to say, so I left wordless."
"What she doesn't know is that I couldn't speak, so I stared at the stars
"Maybe he can't sleep at night or he has nightmares that could make you cry, maybe he has my life."
"I wonder if she has unexplainable dreams that could make you turn every light on in the house."
"He wouldn't look at me, just the sky or the graffiti filled walls that were spelling out not so nice things."
"I couldn't look her in the eyes, she would have seen the guilt trying to escape, count the stars."
"Alcohol filled veins, higher than the planes that you could barely see in the cloudy night sky."
"I bet she's never done a drug in her life never took that dare to drink she looked like a good kid."
"He's probably a druggie just like me, except he doesn't like to b
Forgive or forgetForgiveForgive or forget in Free Verse More Like This
Forgive forget forgive
Forgive forget forgive forget
Forgive forget forgive forget forgive
Forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget
Forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget forgive
Forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget
Forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget forgive
Forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget forgive forget
Just forget it
Just forget it just forget it
Just forget it just forget it just forget it
Just forget it just forget it just forget it just forget it
Just forget it just forget it just forget it just forget it just forget it
Just forget it just forget it just forget it just forget it just forget it just forget it
Forgive someone forgive someone
Forgive someone forgive someone forgive someone
Forgive someone forgive someone forgive someone forgive someone
Actually just fucking forget.
Alphabet strangersAnd we'll never learn.Alphabet strangers in Free Verse More Like This
Be okay, alive, amazing.
Can someone be honest all the time?
Ditch the fake personality for five minutes.
Everyone has a purpose, find yours.
Fake a smile maybe it will turn real.
Go some place inspiring.
Help just help.
In to the darkness you never know what's hiding in the shadows.
Just live your life.
Kaleidoscope eyes watching traffic.
Late night lights and blurred vision.
Maybe that random person was right.
No one believes me ever.
Optimists, who looks at the good side first?
Psychotic phrases speaking slowly never helps.
Quiet houses loud thoughts.
Resist the urge.
Silence, what is that?
Tell me a story about a boy and a girl.
Undo everything if only it was possible.
Vast landscapes picture perfect.
Wish upon a shooting star it will never come true.
X rayed to show
Never forget foreverI told you something that night when we were so cold our bones shookNever forget forever in Free Verse More Like This
Trembling in your wore down high tops I told you something and the next day you didn't remember
You didn't remember when I said "Love me forever?" you said "Of course"
If you didn't take those pills you would have told me again the next night and again and again
Empty ribcages and cracked hipbones I left you alone with a bottle of pills and a loaded gun
I figured you knew what to do instead you wrote a letter in italics and then you walked away
I remembered everything but I'm scared of love that four letter word terrifies me
Love you forever and ever
Frozen tears shattered on the piece of paper smearing every word together spilling black water
I cried for exactly two seconds and then ran out the door to your house there was a gun on the mattress
And another note next to it
I use words not bullets, kill me again and again I'll still never forget forever and ever
I promised you somethingI told myself I wouldn't write tonight but I liedI promised you something in Free Verse More Like This
I promised myself that I would never believe those depressing stories
I left what was important to me a few years ago; I should have asked that one question
That one question that's still eating away at my mind today but I didn't so it's irrelevant
I couldn't sleep last night it was like before when I would never sleep ever
Just because I didn't have a reason to wake up the next day
I woke up in the middle of the night surviving a suicidal nightmare
I opened my eyes just before I hit the ground after jumping off the roof of a hotel
The bad thing was that what woke me up was a text message from an unknown number
"Live another day, it's not over yet." I did the usual "Wrong number." Text back
Put a pillow over my head, drowning out the sound of everything and hit the ground
What if this was all a dream
A "Maybe it will end soon." dream
And I'll wake up
This is all just a trial
Someone wants to know if you can handle the real thing
Tell me you're scared tooShattered glasses from drunken nights left in the past but never forgottenTell me you're scared too in Free Verse More Like This
Sleepless nights spent counting one million and one black sheep
Breath taking views from mountain top hotels that you spend to much time staying in
Ripped jeans running from the cops means you have to jump fences sometimes
And then there's that one time where you don't make it all the way over
Shark infested waters it's dangerous but you dive in anyway
You would play hopscotch in a mine field if you were given the chance
Drive a car into the ocean and just sink to the bottom and wait
Wait for your lungs to finally run out of air the darkness starts to fade in
You would have drowned that night if I didn't watch the whole thing
Watching someone just give up is scary especially someone like you
That's when you really know things aren't going so well
Something saved you last night and it wasn't me
It was you; you saved yourself used your last breath to say "I love you."
Then you collapsed on the beach I laid down ne
And it's all perfectIn the middle of the nightAnd it's all perfect in Free Verse More Like This
A man sleeps alone in his bed for the first time in ten years
A woman packed a suitcase and checked into a hotel with her three kids
Three children miss there father
The woman files a police report for abuse
An elderly man gets rushed to hospital for a major heart attack
An elderly woman waits in a cold waiting room to see if her husband will survive
A depressed man commits suicide
A depressed woman finds a man hanged in his house; she also commits suicide
later that year
A father gets fired from a job that he has had for five years
A mother worries for her children
A homeless man sleeps in a dumpster and starves to death
An alcoholic who has been sober for three years takes one more drink
A child loses there father to a car accident
A woman gets a gun held to her head; she lives to be terrified for the rest of her life
A teenager overdoses on medication he should have never found
A man see's his daughter for the first time in eleven years
A family loses thei
You're a psychopath andaliarYour mind is infected twenty seven thousand bad thoughts found; would you like to remove all?You're a psychopath andaliar in Free Verse More Like This
You're so stupid for not listening to them when you had the chance
Now you're in this white room hospital air and all of the questions you're not going to answer
Because just because
And they really want answers but so do you so we're all even
"You threw yourself in front of a car!?"
"No actually I walked."
What are the new meds for this week?
I'm sure these ones will work
All of the other ones (never) do
And while you got the white coat on can you tell me what's wrong
You say the TV is watching you (You aren't watching it)
The furniture walks around at night (when you're asleep)
And your bed basically swallows you whole (Dreams and all)
You're a nightmare and you don't need someone with some degree to tell you that
Or some clipboard where you never see what they're writing about
(Maybe they're just drawing stick people
Or brains and hearts
I want reality"Dead rose petals are the prettiest things to me."I want reality in Free Verse More Like This
Live ones are to cliché and I'm far from that
"I don't want to be called darling, gorgeous, or dear those aren't original anymore."
Drop dead gorgeous would be better of course
"I don't want a ring, I want a key instead."
A key to your heart don't you know
"I don't want someone who can tell the truth before even thinking about lying."
Truthful is always better I want to know reality more than anyone else
"I want everything no one else would; I want the bad and the good."
With a twist of non fiction instead of fairytales
Dear dead boyIf I write tonight it's not going to be about youDear dead boy in Free Verse More Like This
If I fall asleep thinking about something it won't be about you
If I live another day it definitely will not be because of you
So here's what I'm about to write
And I'm going to write it like I care
Even though I don't
Dear dead boy
I lived in fear for years because of you; I hope the guilt finally got to you even though I know you don't have a heart to actually care. Last night you were killed by someone, gun to the side of the head and now you're dead. Leave me for others to see, just perfectly happy knowing that you can never hurt me again. When I say goodbye I'll be the only one there, no one likes you very much nor do they know you're dead. Tonight I'll leave this city and move back to my dream house in the middle of the meadow, perfect flowers that bloom year round. Please warn me the next time you come back to haunt this old town, I don't care actually. I killed you last night, you didn't see a thing.
You're worst nightmare