Dejar de ladoMejor dejarte en el rincon que se pierde en sí mismo
sobre esas palabras rebuscadas
y esa mirada de bosque hundido.
Olvidar tu nombre de eco,
de silabas cortas y actos lejanos
abrir un sendero por entre las rejas de tu piel y huir
sin freno ni parada.
Huir del cansancio constante de afrontar
que algunos cambios son gratuitos e irracionales,
Mejor dejar de lado ese camino ciego
camino de sólo eso...y nada más.
Why, yes.Steady beats of martyred love-lies-falling down on skid-scraped sidewalks rain-dripped with long lost, has-been joys killed over and over by their selfish words that strike selfless keys on tall pianos making sweet and sour, bright-streaked music whilst wandering aimlessly throughout the dark, life-evaded spaces in a street-whore's one-track mind that thinks thoughts of lust, greed, and intimacy until the back-break wonder of a stolen kiss takes tolls on the mental incoherency that was once whispered in shallow ears with deep-hearted thoughts and telling some revitalized reasons to a trolley-shop tramp that bathed his blood with gold-dusted rumors and spun intricate webs of persnickety, black-eyed drama to take a seriously misguided stab-in-the-dark at a goose-chased tale telling all of its slumbered down sugar-pies to smoke puffs of their last cigar andWhy, yes. in Other More Like This
Oenothera FruticosaTomorrow, in those fluorescent, kaleidoscopic baby-planetsOenothera Fruticosa in Other More Like This
that we fondly refer to as memories...,
I'll take your hand, and lace your fingers [with mine.]
And we'll run in perfect circles
til the scarlet luminosity of a DYING vector
[is completely gone] in a fancy-drawn fit of [sexual apathy.]
When the crystal-clear skies suddenly CLOUD,
full of semi-precious thoughts c a r v e d i n s t o n e .
Marmalade Articulations in...Please. Don't finish that sentence...Marmalade Articulations in... in Other More Like This
I'm imagining what it would be like,
to be the words hanging from your lips... ♥
cwDSKNKHJJU942He said,cwDSKNKHJJU942 in Other More Like This
"I'll let you be in my dream...
if I can be in yours."
You're in my bloody dream,
raping all that was once known
and replacing it with patient hope.
Patient hope in new snow,
bathed in blood and drizzled...
with that oh so grizzly feeling
of sickly-sweet surprise.
So, zip that howling screamer
and go... burn brighter...
...in the dark.
Humming Merry, Little Verses.Stretching out pale, corset-encrusted bodies,Humming Merry, Little Verses. in Other More Like This
heaving upon waves of blue satin,
and raising butterfly-light above.
Blue bedroom eyes clouded with ice-cold lust,
Tiny diamonds beading and pouring
downward from your neck
Ardour blessed passion scratched deep
in the alabaster expanses.
that thin frame, writhing madly.
Matching the rhythm of the blasting stereo
beat for hot-blooded beat.
Lovely, crushed-rose dusted little babies on mine,
they're oh, so soft,
and taste oh, so sweet.
Long, slender fingers running races
through waves and strands of black silk.
Intertwining vines in and out together
traveling all over me
gripping my waist and holding me tight.
breathy whispers touch thy neck as
simple pledges from a lover-beau's lips.
Pale skin, so smooth and warm against my own.
deep in those two emerald dancers,
watching those lovelies steal
the blue-hazed light.
Remember Me In Iceland...Bitter-sweethearts played back in stereo,Remember Me In Iceland... in Other More Like This
falling in and out of love at this loud volume.
to the heavy-metal thunder beat
sucked down through a curious girl's
of smoke and lightning grey.
They're clouding up her glass-light barrier,
pouring that 100-times-done-before melody
down and out on the street corner
begging for a proper penny,
six pence none the richer, at least.
Rocking crew-cut, platinum-plated love accords
through that mad hatter's tambourine.
A Distant Pleasure...Let the hormones rage as cotton thrashes and hearts beat fasterA Distant Pleasure... in Other More Like This
till you cut the kite string on a liposuction dream that coded
on the operating table.
It disappears into Betty Davis eyes
and is shone back through
Blowfly.The flecks of green tourmalineBlowfly. in Other More Like This
in your cherry moon eyes
shine so sparkly in your UV light.
Fuck you too.Drop dead, Gorgeous...Fuck you too. in Other More Like This
That disappoints me... that I can STILL hear your voice
dripping off the light-bulb.
I swore ten times backwards that it was... choked off.
Sometimes, it's just... just.too.much.
One day, I'll pull the trigger,
and you can wash all the love I had once for you off the wall.
Or maybe I'll just hold you... in my hand
and drown you in my own personal ocean.
I don't know... I'm not a goddamn psychic.
Maybe you should just kill me,
pop me off one of these days.
Do us BOTH a favor...
7. ViralDimineața - tuse seacă, două lingurițe de ploaie.7. Viral in Other More Like This
Prânz - ploaia ia formele palmelor ei.
Seara - plouă stângaci, dar plouă.
Lacrimile se amestecă azi cu ploaia,
Iar eu mă-ntreb cine se mai poate distra acum.
Acum când locurile perforate de tun
Se-acoperă cu ce-a rămas.
Flori albastre, albastre!!
Oamenii s-au pierdut,
Oamenii nu mai stiu, nu mai vor să se uite la ceas.
Vor sa străpungă blestemul
Iar bătranul cu părul sau alb țipă: "Am să-i las!".
Azi vom trage linie, iar ea se va face
Randuri de pe luna a sapteaRânduri de pe luna a şapteaRanduri de pe luna a saptea in Other More Like This
Se facea că dormim şi visăm perdele de un roşu extraordinar
Te visam şezând şi parcă
Picioarele-ţi strânse la piept,
Roşul vieţilor din sertar,
M-ar fi putut trezi,
Dar am murit.
Tot ce s-ar fi putut păstra,
Era, probabil, imaginea ta în roşu
Tot mai nouă,
PortabilitateAş vrea să te iubesc uitând de lume.Portabilitate in Free Verse More Like This
Uitând de tot în afară de ploaie.
Pentru că ploaia nu e o oglindă spre interior,
Ci eterna noastră reîntoarcere...
Călătoria sufletelor noastre
Trecute rupe timpul în fâşii tot mai mici,
Iar timpul, timpul râde nervos,
Ştiindu-se, totuşi, dat
La o parte.
BlankPrimul poem cu tine,Blank in Other More Like This
Nu va fi un poem despre iarbă, seringi, cioburi
Sau alte astfel de prostii.
Nici despre beții
Finalizate-ntr-o rezervă de spital,
Sărituri de la înălțime
Sau alte sinucideri ușoare.
Pentru că-n lumile noi,
Nici măcar moartea nu se mai arată
Atât de sigură
Va fi, poate, despre femeia cu păcate mici
Ce fură zilnic zeci de carți din librariile orașului,
Șoptind că scopul și mijloacele se scuză reciproc
Atunci când vrei.
Despre rictusul inconfundabil, doar al ei,
Despre o dicție perfectă,
Și vise atarnate în cuierul de sus.
Poate câte ceva din cele de pe-aici
Din vremea când nu cunoșteam
Sau nu-mi doream să știu
(Sau nu-mi doream să știu...nimic)
Primul in care nu m-ar revolta
Gândul că tu te regăsești.
Control - Alt - DeleteDac-aș fi scris de cofeină și tutun,Control - Alt - Delete in Other More Like This
poate-aș fi fost ceva mai treaz decât acum.
Dac-aș fi aruncat cu pietre de nebun,
- spre cel ce-a prins trucul mersului pe ape, -
poate-aș fi pus
mai mult curaj în vorbele ce-aveam să vi le spun.
Dac-aș fi fost mai odihnit,
m-aș fi făcut cameleon și calm
mi-aș fi schimbat culorile o dată cu ora.
Dar blestemată-i Nora pentru iubirea ei
și grea-i e soarta ce-a ales.
Am mers, am căzut, vreau s-adun și sa plec,
dar-nainte să spun doar ca ploaia ma face
să mă simt tot mai mic,
un strain. musafir nepoftit
în palatul meu ce stă și el să cadă - a ațipit.
Am să pierd, probabil, drumul spre casă,
pentru că nu știu a da sfaturi despre cum să fugi
sau cum să-i faci pe alții să fugă
sau pentru că miopia mea a evoluat în ceva ciudat
ce mă face să vad deformat -
IrisIris ne zice să "Carpe diem",Iris in Other More Like This
Căci altfel cădem în a morţii povară.
Ea cade, iar eu o ridic
Şi-i spun că n-am s-o mai văd până-n vară.
Diseară-ncercam să-ncropim un refren.
Ficaţi cu sos roşu, legume şi peşte.
(Surâde tumoarea, se rostogoleşte...)
Avem de şoptit "Trei surori" printre buze
El, Cehov, barbarul, ne urmăreşte.
În jos, mai în jos,
Suflul nou îi coboară.
(Încearcă, întoarce, dorinţă, neant.)
În jos, către mine, în jos, către moară,
Norocul pândeşte un magician.
LightAproape că-l urasc pe RA.Light in Other More Like This
Pentru micul dejun din începutul fiecarui poem
Scris cu literele cele mai mici.
Pentru că a avut, probabil, mai multe prietene
De care a reușit cumva să se despartă.
Pentru cele câteva asemănări,
Pentru c-a fost citit de Vanda la "Casa Poetescu",
Pentru marketing-ul atât de bine făcut.
Pentru că uneori mă inspiră
Și asta mă face
Să mă simt și mai păcătos.
Pentru că de fiecare dată
când aud acele câteva mici acorduri,
ceva-mi spune că trebuie,
dar trebuie neapărat,
să o mai ascult o dată plecând.
Pentru că și pe el se pare că l-a lăsat.
Pentru c-am băut din berea care nu trebuia.
Pentru că am început să mă repet
Și pentru ca s-ar putea să dețină
Pe lângă simțul poetic
Și puțin simț al umorului.
What I am to you is not realVioara aia iți vine perfect.What I am to you is not real in Other More Like This
Cei ca tine nu pot fi niciodată singuri.
Nu mi te-aș imagina stând ghemută într-un colt de cameră,
Straină sau nu,
Urându-ți eșarfele sau creionul pentru ochi.
Deși știu că ai putea s-o faci destul de des.
Țigara și singura bretea lăsată la vedere,
Iți dau puțin din ceea ce ei numesc “artist”
Uneori ai nevoie de asta,
Țoti ăștia cred ca te știu ca-n palma
Pentru că ți-au citit patru poeme vechi,
În care reușeai să fi ceva mai umană.
Toți ăștia habar n-au că ingerii
S-au cărat din oraș
Și că te plâng în fiecare dimineață.
Răspunzi de regulă printr-un țipăt
Cu toate că iubești șoaptele.
Au, după cum îți place să spui,
Sunt singurele care-ți
As vrea sa aiAș vrea să ai o mie de defecte miciAs vrea sa ai in Other More Like This
Plânsul tău, mica dovadă de loialitate,
Ar fi îngrozit probabil
O urbe întreagă.
Și toți s-ar fi gândit atunci
Cum se poate opri dezastrul,
Cum se poate evita un nou razboi.
Totuși el avea să certifice,
Să garanteze totul.
Să mă ducă spre mai departe.
Am putea locui împreună.
M-ai putea trimite zilnic să aștept afară,
(O apariție tot mai nouă, o rochie tot mai bine croită,)
Știind c-am să mă port ca și cum nu ne-am cunoaște încă.
Dacă, cu varsta, oamenii iau obiceiul uitării,
Îmi amintesc din ce în ce mai exact.
Dacă, cu timpul, vor deveni indiferenți
Eu voi sta ascuns să le șoptesc povestea
Celor doi veniți cândva în ajutor.
Aș vrea, mai târziu, să te văd plecând
Dar n-ai fost tuNu vreți să muriti,nu?Dar n-ai fost tu in Other More Like This
Nu vreți să vă treziți, nu-i așa?
Nu vreți să mă părăsiți?
Aici e lumea mea.
Aici sunt eu.
Aici e rândul tau și poate…
O lume nouă,
Un suflet vechi,
Și-o mie de păcate.
Pot duce singur o lume întreagă în spate,
Mai pot duce o viață și chiar o moarte.
Pot să mor sau să mă nasc acum,
Sau pot să dorm de unul singur într-un balon de săpun.
Pot să urlu spre voi sau pot să tac pe vecie,
Pot să vă împrumut viața mea sau pot să vă las dor,
Eu pot să plec și să vă pierd pe toți pe drum,
Să va culeg apoi…
Poate-o să fiți mai buni.
Poate-o să fiți mai buni.
Poate-o să fiți mai buni.
Poate-o să fiți mai buni.
Poate-o să-nnebuniți și voi.
Sau au căzut,
Sau s-au întors sa
Manicured FingernailsSlumped across this jagged edgeManicured Fingernails in Other More Like This
Flickers and resounds
Upturned humble skin
Chewing their manicured fingernails
Drift into this a puckering sleep
Drenched grey Collapse
Slumped across this jagged edge
Maimed HeartShe got home and pried out her heartMaimed Heart in Other More Like This
She took tissue,
dried the pouring blood
She had a nice
Using a sharp knife,
she cut a piece
larger than she'd ever cut
She took the piece
A cynic smile curling at her lips
cut them into little pieces
She burnt them
She took it
The remaining piece of her heart
The weight, still remaining
more than half of the heart to sacrify
She put her heart
Placed it curled in the hole of her chest and started cleaning with a smile.
Lighter the heart, lighter the conscience.
LostSometimes I feel brokenLost in Other More Like This
Sometimes I feel lost
Friendship is the token
Torn, shredded, lost
Used, worn, beat up
Strife, confusion, corrupt
Foolish end, abrupt
Drinking from this cup
Blood, torn, ash
Loose-lead broken, crash
Feel the heat of that flash?
Only trash, only trash....
Number SeventeenScream catcherNumber Seventeen in Other More Like This
I fold my hands
In fear of betrayal
You tore off hopeful parachutes
And as I landed on a cloud,
you wondered why it was raining blood
IntroductionI'd like to introduceIntroduction in Other More Like This
A band new wave
Leaping from the spines of books
Unwound, like a ticking clock
Borrowing my tainted flesh
You're born anew
Corruption from this introduction
Because they're really looking at me
Skeptical of a wrought out plan
I further myself and surrender
Shadowing manacles of mercy over my wrists
Wringing my hands in your sweet deception
The juices of defeat dribble from lips
And no, I'm no longer me
Just as you'd been avoiding you
As I wonder, how I am to introduce myself...
TalkH-help .Talk in Other More Like This
What brought you here?
Its gotten to me
Are you alone?
Because I chose it
Because I chose it!
You dont need to be here you know?
You dont need to be alone
Theres more to this.
Im puzzled quiet one
Why do you think Im alone?
You do not see it.
What? See what?
Anything, not a lonesome shadow.
You dont see anything.
You see all of those people?
Theyre there though. You know that dont you?
no. I dont know that.
Blindness is weak you know. Blindness can never be strength.
They dont know anything.
Ah, so theyre there then.
.I dont know.
You can talk to them you know.
Talk to them about anything.
I dont talk. Only listen. Talking gets you nothing.
Talking gets you no where.
Not true young one.
What are you to tell me that?
You know youre lying
Admit it: what happens when you talk:
What happens when you he
Miss YouTime stopped, you know?Miss You in Other More Like This
When you walked off my ball game
No letter, or e-mails could mend the fact
That you were gone
From that point on, time drifted
I never chose to fly along with it
I just sat
Smack dab in the middle
Where you broke my knowledge of friendship
With a sword, a glare and scripture in hand
A Lesson chanted from earlier days
Oh you taught me many things
In hard funny, exceptional ways
That I sometimes took for granted
Or took too much to heart
Still, the buried patched of my interior
Bent in twisted pain for you
Unsure....Long since forgottenUnsure.... in Surrealism More Like This
Your petals droop
*take a breath*
of yearning for sunlight
Still, seeping shadows
Have no expectation
Of the ever rising sun
Or the infinite stars
Just know they are there
This light in the dark
A grain of sand
Within a trail of shattered glass
Forbidden by most
There is a choice
Darkness may threaten
Water cease flow
Little petals droop, yearning for sunlight
There it is. Choice.
To allow these petals to droop no longer
InsanityIt started as an ItCHInsanity in Other More Like This
And I begun a scratchin'
To heights that aimed despair
This was my last stop
The only way now was down
Still I clawed at a ceiling never meant to be breached
Its popcorn tecture clawing at my skin
Bleaching the popcorn white
With skin-tanned blood
There was no where to go, but down again,
deeper and deeper the itch prevailed
DeceptionAs I circle the rim of deceptionDeception in Other More Like This
Who shall ensue their venom
When shall my lusty rainfall cease?
All is forgotten
As Sick lingers over my door
Manifesting my being
To help me move on
To far-off sensibility
Im hit hard and I crumble
Tidbits of my soul drop with a ting
As they fall to the forsaken floor
As they ensue the damned.
In cryptic sarcasm
You try and pull me back
A taunting of many cruelties
I seep through, slowly receding
Until nothing lingers
And you glare impatiently
When it takes a few moments
For me to fade
100.__________dearest _______ ,100.__________ in Other More Like This
i thought you should know about all the
i've sat up in the night , just watching
you sleep ,
waiting for the lightning to give me a
as you held me close under
the yellowredbeige plaid quilt on
i never was afraid of lightning , i just
wanted an excuse for you
to hold me .
[night, storm, quilt. ]
dear ___________ ,
i looked at the pictures on my camera
there were 44 of you
and i could see a rainbow
in the background
that was the day you told me
you fucking dyke .
[dyke, rainbow, camera, letters.]
once i tied my mom's favourite
wristwatch to a purple balloon with
my name and phone number
on it ,
and let go
so that i could find out
what time it was
when that balloon lost it's magic .
it's dark and i can't see but
i know you're out there ,
dancing in the waves
swaying too and fro
holding hands with things that have
i am sad .walking down thei am sad . in Other More Like This
singing in the
clattering heartbeats , sucking
wondering where you're going
wondering where you've been
wondering what tomorrow's like
wondering why i sin
feeling all the hopelessness
of this crestfallen , shattered world
and you walk around the corner to hear
all the king's horses
and all the king's men
"Fuck you , humpty dumpty .
You'll never be whole again ."
088.deathdeath is life's088.death in Other More Like This
only freedom .
only escape .
only promise .
only truth .
only lie .
death is life's
inescapable future .
061.picturesyour eyes looked061.pictures in Other More Like This
in pictures .
but i see you now
infront of me
and i wonder why your eyes
won't reflect your descriptions of reality .
you looked better on the internet .
083.televisionremember when Van Gogh got083.television in Other More Like This
his inspiration from
love and gardens and your eyes
now people get inspiration
from television and hate
and things you can't touch, but only
see with your eyes .
no one bothers being inspired by what's real, anymore
because frankly, what's real leaves
a horrid taste on your tongue .
063.winteryou left me in the spring063.winter in Other More Like This
and i died in the winter
because you weren't there to keep
the coldest of shivers away .
045.coldas the colours fade045.cold in Other More Like This
and the dasies die
i wonder why everything's so
when it's the middle of july ?
085.oddI only count in odd numbers085.odd in Other More Like This
so we can never get even
and then you'll never leave me, right ?
080.enemythe storm is not my enemy .080.enemy in Other More Like This
the wind, the rain, neither is my enemy .
my enemy is my heart ,
and the way is keeps wanting you back
even though we both know it's
this is why i scream .
DecisionSobre el calor de tus manos dejo mi almaDecision in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
mas que desnuda....: transparente.
Nacen flores de la sombra,
y del silencio sales tú.
El abrazo perdido y encontrado,
la palabra esperada,
la existencia completa...
El tiempo que faltaba.
La mano que me salva,
el alma que me abriga,
el beso de mis labios,
el calor, la vida.
RetrocedeCRetrocede in Surrealism More Like This
tu rutina de mi paladar,
T R A S P A S A mi tiempo de frías navajas...
Tu manoSe desliza suavemente entre mis dedos el calor de tu mano,Tu mano in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
recorre cada linea dibujándola mil veces,
sintiendo en cada hendidura los caminos de mi cuerpo.
Se desliza el calor de tu respiración entre mis cabellos
bajando por mi cuello, deteniendose en mis hombros
deteniendo mi tiempo.
Se desliza el calor de tus ojos hacia mi mente,
dibujando tu respiración en los caminos de mi cuerpo,
dibujando en mis manos el camino hacia tu cuerpo.
ImpulsosRecorres hasta el último rincón de mi cuerpo solo con tu mirada,Impulsos in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
en esta noche perdida, llena de segundos incontables
te has hecho mi dueño sin avisarme...
Tus manos temblorosas recorren la geografía impensable
deja de existir todo aquello que no sea tuyo,
un vapor caliente asciende de mis entrañas sintiéndote.
Es una sola sombra la que nos envuelve confundiendo pieles,
destrozando límites, disolviendo el silencio en nuestros nombres.
No quieroTomar agua tibia,No quiero in Free Verse More Like This
ni dormir temprano,
hablar formalmente con el tiempo contado,
escuchar una canción distinta después de la anterior,
tener razones que valga la pena exponerlas a los demás,
Escuchar voces solo cuando alguien las emita,
cerrar los ojos y no ver nada.
o el número perdido,
la llamada que no escucho,
el abrazo que se aleja.
un "buenas noches" sin respuesta.
No quiero una madrugada vacía
sin voces que susurran bajo las sábanas.
No quiero... simplemente no quiero.
De nadaEs en esta insignificante existenciaDe nada in Free Verse More Like This
donde no soy ni siquiera lo que creo,
lo que encuentro
o lo que pierdo.
Y este vacío es tan grande
que ni siquiera existe
para sí mismo.
Este eco de nada,
de golpes de piedra,
de posibles perdidos.
Es este eco
quien dibuja macabro sonrisas
en vez de llanto
A Little LoveI feel you in my bonesA Little Love in Free Verse More Like This
I taste you on my breath
Your skin beneath my finger tips
My lips against your neck
Our legs entwined beneath the sheets
This night is everything we need
The night is young but our souls are old
Used to pain and the bitter cold
Our hearts are battered, our bodies bruised
We've been used, misused, abused
But we're both healing, mending, living
Re-learning all these feelings
We're both remembering how to breathe
A little love is all we need
TimelessHer arm is like a blood bath in the snowTimeless in Free Verse More Like This
Streaked red against pale skin.
Her eyes are like a shallow grave
Ready for death and lifeless as ever
Her soul mirrors a hollow tree
Encased inside, is nothing. Empty.
Her smile is like a shattered reflection.
You can see it, but you can see through it.
Her heart is like a field after winter
Dead. But ever so hopeful.
When does the sun come out of hiding?
When does the bitter grip of ice release it's hold?
She holds her breath, eyes squeezed shut.
Her heart skips a few beats. Still hopeful of something more.
She takes a step. Takes a leap.
And she falls with no one to catch her.
Broken angel wings scattered around her.
She's too tired to get back up and try again.
She waits. Waits like a dead field waits for warmth.
But it seems that love will never come.
She gives up. Gives up the hope of being mended.
The hope of being protected.
And in the darkness of her thoughts
It comes in the form of bitter agony
Blood, pain, and tears
I amSome nights I lie here wondering why I went down this roadI am in Free Verse More Like This
Where I took the turn that lead here
Why I left my home
But other nights it all makes sense
Every piece fell into place
And I'm content with where I am
No matter what anyone says
There's been ups and downs
Lefts and rights
And nights that just wouldn't end
But when the sun came up I knew I was fine
And am proud of the life I've lead
I've broken hearts and fallen apart
But I learned how to stand
I love myself for what I've done
And am sure of who I am
I know what I want and what I don't
I always speak my mind
If you've lost me, you'll be sorry
But I learned not to waste my time.
Move onBack and forthMove on in Free Verse More Like This
The thoughts in my head
From all the words you said
My hands shook
As I fought back emotion
My throat closed
My tears like an ocean
I flipped the switch
All my feelings suppressed
I tell myself
This is for the best
You walked on me
And left me in pieces
I was there for you
Yet you weren't there when I needed
I lived for you
And you took me for granted
I almost died for you
Yet all these lies you planted
Too many chances
You used them all twice
Despite how it hurts
I have to take my own advice
You're no good for me
You just hold me down
If I keep following you
I know you'll surely let me drown
I'm better off
Away from your cold grip
It feels harder to live
I'll make it
With me and me alone
My heart you no longer own
StitchFull of shattered piecesStitch in Free Verse More Like This
Questions you can't answer
Shards of lonely
Stitched up empty
Lies and half-assed tries
Giving in, come this night
The words from their mouths
Nothing but hate
Breaking down at a fast-pace
Stitch up these scars
Pretend it never happened
We're all just going nowhere fast
While the rest of them are laughing
Lose ourselves in a world we create
Convince ourselves it's not all fake
But at the end of the day you can't deny
That every moment, you die a little more inside
FatePending choices, which one is right?Fate in Free Verse More Like This
Can I make the right choice tonight?
Only one direction will take me to my destination
Only one path will lead to salvation
Is freedom worth fighting for, If it means I'm in chains?
Is my future worth living for, if I have all this pain?
Uncertainty presses heavy on my chest
With all this anxiety my thoughts never rest
If only I had answers to this burning question
If only I had an arrow, pointing to the right direction
My life is balancing on the tip of my tongue
One wrong word and I can't turn and run
I'm running out of time, I have to make this choice
But I can't think clearly with all of this noise
It's time to close my eyes, let my heart decide
If this decides my very fate- I'd rather chose it blind
PawnYou're full of promises you don't keepPawn in Free Verse More Like This
Empty words you just don't mean
You play me like a puppet on your own string
Saying that you love me when I don't mean a thing
I'm tired of the bullshit, I've grown too old for games
So we'll see who needs who, when I choose to walk away
I promise you'll regret it, when you see I'm not your pawn
But it'll be too late for you, because by then I'll be gone.
The Last WordsYou poor broken hearted thingThe Last Words in Free Verse More Like This
Pinned your future on a ring
But destroyed the feelings we once shared
You wonder why I no longer care
I broke your heart to break the chain
Chained to you in so much pain
In desperate attempts you throw me your life
Give me an option, it's me or the knife
You selfish bitch, you don't know love
With you it went from push to shove
But I know better, at a distance from you
It's I that knows what love is true
You brought this all upon yourself
So don't blame me for all your hell
You screwed yourself over and I got away
Nothing in the world could've made me stay
I'm gone from you, yes from you I'm free
No longer suffocated in your insecurity
I wont forgive but I will forget
Save your apology and save your breath.
You're nothing to me , no longer on my mind
I've run far away and left you behind
Right where you deserve, because you don't deserve me
You don't deserve the time or the sincerity
You cling to your new lover and I'll laugh and shake my head
Not long b
The RiddlerThe green suitThe Riddler in Other More Like This
The question cane
The Riddler asks
Riddles in vain
He was never noticed
But he could solve puzzles
So somebody would
But the world was obvlivious
Ignorant and Blind
So he made a brilliant Riddle
To test the worlds mind
Riddle after Riddle
To toy with your thoughts
He can answer them all
While you're always wrong
But don't be ashamed
He's The Riddler, after all
He can solve any Riddle
Yes he can solve them all.
FighterMy tongue is a weaponFighter in Free Verse More Like This
Sharp as a blade
My mind is a tool
You best be afraid
I've practiced my skills
And mastered my arts
I dare you to attack me
I'll tear you apart
My love is my armor
My strength is my shield
In the past, you've won battles
But I've long since healed
So when we meet again I'll be ready
This time I will win
I'm ready to stand up
And bring out the fighter within
Day: PerfectDay: PerfectDay: Perfect in Other More Like This
I'm free, I'm fine.
I've got nothin to define.
I'm me, I'm myself.
I'm not owned by my wealth.
I've got friends, I've got time.
Hangin out's not a crime.
You've got me, I've got you.
One plus one equals two.
We watch movies, and we kiss.
These times I'll always cherish.
I'm with you, you're with me.
This day went perfectly.
Good NightGood NightGood Night in Other More Like This
It's a rainy somber day.
Everyone goes their own way.
The rain pours down on this place.
Lost are the droplets out in space.
A slow down pour, a saddening sight.
It's comforting to know, everything will be alright.
Cold shivers down a spine.
Cold rain, but otherwise it's fine.
Tired are those awake today.
Wishing home is where they could stay.
But people all have things to do.
Continuing the day, gloom, but new.
The day is over, enough said.
Going home to join a lover in bed.
But they roll over, ask, "How's your day?"
Look in their eyes, "It was gloom and gray."
They'll just smile, and hold you tight.
Before you fall asleep they whisper, "Goodnight."
BelovedBelovedBeloved in Other More Like This
I'm here for you, believe me.
If you're tied up, I'll set you free.
I'll be that knight from the fairy tail.
I'll ride a horse and never fail.
I'll lift your spirits, when you're sad.
And release your anger, when you're mad.
Count on me, for I am true.
Whenever you need me, I'm there for you.
ArtArtArt in Other More Like This
Art is an expression of self.
It relies not on money or heath.
Art is based on what's inside.
To truly show what we hide.
Art is timeless, and will never die.
As long as we live it will paint our eye,
or tickles our ear.
It can make us feel our worst fear.
No matter what the art, or its muse.
Art is a quality we can't lose.
LiesLiesLies in Other More Like This
We touch what we can,
and let our minds suspend.
We imagine the sky.
Shape it with a closed eye.
We bend what is real,
replace what we feel.
We only need to survive,
but we lie to thrive.
Moment of thoughMoment of thoughtMoment of though in Other More Like This
Ive a thought in the mind of mine.
Its intriguing of design.
It has a high difficulty to define.
The measure of thought cant be beat.
The complexity makes me sweat like the summer heat.
The normal sence of self, in every way it will defeat.
It seems to have no meaning.
Like a mute man screaming.
The purpose is rather demeaning.
This knowledge I seem to found.
A flower growing out of the ground.
Like a flower, to the earth Im bound.
So I continue to think.
Philosophies and lies I begin to link.
My mental and physical heath is starting to sink.
LONLL. O. N. L.LONL in Other More Like This
Loves Over Nothing Left
But me but you,
We are but two,
Lost in the crowd,
Lost in space,
Lost in time.
We have no one,
Nothing no fun,
Out of time,
Out of luck,
You are me,
We are crazy,
You say no choice,
Remember no voice,
Losing our grip,
Losing our mind,
Gone our life.
Beauty, truth, choiceBeauty, Truth, ChoiceBeauty, truth, choice in Other More Like This
My love, of such elegant beauty.
Like that of an angel standing before me.
Smiling, for I can now not frown.
When she is here, I cant feel down.
Her smile as soft as the mornings sun.
When Im with her everything feels fun.
But one thing she fails to understand.
I will forever follow her and hold her hand.
My heart deep as the ocean is wide.
My thoughts and feelings, from her I cant hide.
She needs not doubt my feeling for her.
Her very presence sends my head into a blur.
So now you know where I stand.
Turn around now, please extend your hand.
So that I may grab it and hold you tight.
To see you smile, earth, hell, even heaven I shall fight.
I am being honest; all Ive said is true.
The rest, my love, I leave to you.
LonelyLonelyLonely in Other More Like This
Hopeful chaos, accidental lies.
Meaningless apologies, deaf cries.
Beating heart of once dead.
Oxygen returns, leveling head.
Signs of life, for all to see.
Loved ones watch; surprised, happy.
Open eyes, blur of light.
Thoughts pour in, everything's so bright.
The worst is over, enough said.
That was close, I'm glad you're not dead.
As they leave, she realizes her action.
She felt so numb, she needed a reaction.
She tried to die that very day.
She thought no one loved her anyway.
So she took some pills and went to bed.
Her father found her, already, half dead.
Now she knows that someone cares.
Now she let's people in on her affairs...
Wrath of GodWrath of GodWrath of God in Other More Like This
Bleeding happiness coming from my slit wrist.
Broken windows due to my destructive fist.
pain overwhelms all that I see.
Chaos is the drug that sets me free.
So thrust the blade into my heart.
Add the venom to the dart.
So forgive, I didn't want to die.
So forget, everything that was a lie.
From broken hearts, to broken wings.
My words are dead, my hate still sings.
My loathing heart, my blacken garden dies.
Black clouds cover dark skies.
So as I descend to hell.
So loud is the church bell.
See the devil's spiteful laugh.
I defied God, and faced his wrath.
Tremors Of The Hand...The pen quakes in my handTremors Of The Hand... in Other More Like This
And the words simply won't come to mind
Rather than others, it is I that I do not understand
To the truth of my self I am blind
I know of only one thing I wish to do
With the implement in this hand of mine
I wish to stab it deep into
My heart, or, to numb the pain, my spine
Your words, I'd finally be able to escape them
And I'd be free of the constant need to cry
The feelings I'd finally be able to condemn
But I'm afraid of bleeding dry
Truth Is A Lie.I do not know the meaning of truthTruth Is A Lie. in Other More Like This
I find it to be overrated
Why not be creative?
I do not know what is not and what is
But I know that fact is whatever you want it to be
I try and try to do whats right
But your perception of morality and mine are different
I am not a stereotype, I am a
Human with feelings and thoughts
I see what I want to see
And screw what anyone else thinks
Love, adoration is a lie.
Its only temporary infatuation
There needs to be excitement, changes
Otherwise I lose interest.
Brokeni know how hard you triedBroken in Open More Like This
and you know well how i cried
i ripped my damaged heart out to show
the words i cannot speak, 'i love you so.'
i'm in a place now where i am, yet am not, alive
i cannot be killed, nor will i ever revive
for you took that heart and walked away
leaving me in my own world of gray
pain would be better than this lack of sensation
i'm surrounded, but even so, i'm in isolation
if i started to beg, if i were to plead
would you return, or just leave me to bleed?
A Sea Of DreamsI was always told to liveA Sea Of Dreams in Other More Like This
As if I'd die tomorrow
But it's so hard to forgive
When life is full of sorrow.
So I only have these dreams
They tend to swallow me
Swimming blindly, it seems
But I can dream of being free.
O, how I wish for reprieve
To leave all this behind
But my heart on my sleeve
Made my life declined
I try not to see the truth
I tell lies of peace
And, though it's quite uncouth,
I wish all the pain would cease.
I've experienced all five
Of the worst agonies
They make it so hard to strive
Each one, a disease.
O, can I start life anew?
For it's not worth another day
I am alone without you
And I've only started decay.
Hearts And StartsI hate how you make me draw those stupid little hearts on every single piece of paper I get hold of. And on every page there is a water droplet to emphasize the pain. I hate how you never see them. Because if the ocean was made of my own tears (and, damn, it very well could be), ninety percent would be the ones I cried because of you. The other ten percent are the ones I cried because of what and where you weren't.Hearts And Starts in Open More Like This
I hate how every time our eyes meet, I turn away from your gaze. And I hate it because of how beautiful you are, and how I'm never able to fully absorb that. Because if I had a moment of sunshine for every time my thoughts strayed to you, it may be enough to evaporate the water-works. Though I still would be unable to thaw my heart.
I hate how each time I take a breath when near you, you force me to hold it in. And I hate how you make me wish to hang on to your scent for as long as physically possible. Because each time I breathe the air that you breathe, my breath is stolen
The All-American RejectIm sitting in a classroom of thirty studentsThe All-American Reject in Other More Like This
But I could be no more alone
The rejection magnifies the seclusion times ten
I sit just like a stone
I wish to relieve the constant ache
That seems to always haunt my heart
But so many things add salt to the wounds
And I keep being sent back to the start
I bow my head, hair hiding my face
Im sick of being treated in such a way
So I stand and walk out of the wretched room
Something so bold can make all seem okay.
Until another day...
Rewriting The DictionaryMy hopes and dreams are severedRewriting The Dictionary in Other More Like This
As are the ties and bonds
You've changed the sense of forever
So it no longer corresponds
It's all my fault, I should have held on
But everyone makes mistakes
And there is no time for bygones
For there are far too many aches
Just promise me one thing before you leave
Swear to me you will not come back
For I wore my heart on my sleeve
And if you return it just may crack
Close Off The CoffinChasing rainbows in shades of grayClose Off The Coffin in Open More Like This
Watching silver clouds go by
Roses and violets wither away
Your turn, my dear, to die
With my future fears
I try to bury the past
The desperate, listless tears
Dry up all too fast
I walk away, on a trail not made
Let my own shoes pave the way
And as all faith begins to fade
So does the month of May.
Caught In The StormI can no longer feel the coldCaught In The Storm in Open More Like This
Despite the sub-zero temperatures and the snow fall
My heart sinks further with each passing moment
And, with the rhythm of the snow, the tears descend
The frost creates an icy beauty
One that is withdrawn, impervious from all in this world
The snow is the quietest of splendors
Peace brought with the loneliness
From Treason To DevotionEveryday its the same damn thingFrom Treason To Devotion in Other More Like This
The same people, the same ache,
You hold the world by a fucking string
The sobbing victims could make it quake
Talk is so very cheap
Tears fall and then flood
I am sick of each and every weep
On my hands will be your blood
Its time to say it, but I just cant say it
The words wont come no matter how I try
Despite all you do, I dont want to part, I admit
But I must learn to say goodbye
I lay my heart down on the table
Im pessimistically optimistic and the ends in sight
You place your heart, its filthy and sable
Then, suddenly, all seems right
I knew it would happen, I didnt want to make it real
I know how you think and I wish to know more
From these wounds I cannot heal
And I know your wearing thin down to the core
I thought I hated you, but I guess I was wrong
I tend to dream of you when I sleep
I know Im strange and I dont belong
But this incline is just so steep.
WallsWalls in Free Verse More Like This
Eyes peer into the very soul
Bring forth feelings never felt before
Hidden so deep inside
Secrets and lowly alibis
Brought to the surface
With just a gentle touch
How can what he says
Mean so much
Things never told to another
Spoken to him within weeks
How can it be
His hold is so deep
Fearing hatred for secrets told
Yet he seems not bothered by a word said
Going against all that is me
I lean into his gentle hold
Smiles and laughter
Fill me up and I find my walls
Are there no more
OnceOnce in Other More Like This
Once in awhile
Through my happy smiles
Tears will stream down my face
Though the sorrow is hidden
Dark times still lay before
Pushing through in memories
Of the nightmares that once lived
So when I cry my silent tears
Dont think you caused me pain
For the happy memories
Ive shared with you
Will always bring back my smile
YesterdaysYesterdays in Free Verse More Like This
Soft words whispered
Slowly sung in lullabies
Pulling at seams
In the oddest of ways
And untold truths
Not where you planned
Not what you dreamed
But everything is as it should be
No regrets from yesterday
Though saddened still
By what once was
Learning from the past
Moving onto the unknown future
And holding onto only good times
From our yesterdays
Rose Garden 2 version 2Rose Garden 2 version 2 in Free Verse More Like This
With every day we spend apart
Ill plant a seed within my heart
And until the day we meet again
Ill tend to our garden
And help it grow from within
Ill make it grow with the love
That you gave to me
That you ignite within my soul
And the day our souls
Become one again
Ill have for you
A stronger love than
When we began
Saying It Didn't HurtSaying It Didn't Hurt in Other More Like This
Saying it didn't hurt
Was probably the biggest lie
Truth be told
You still are all
That haunts my mind
My heart breaks
Every time I think
Of how you feel
About me now
Makes me wonder and think
If you truly ever loved me
I mean for real
The words you said
The lies that you spread
Why must you make
I could have loved you,
Truth be known,
For the rest of my life
If it weren't for your lies
Such hateful words
Such painful lies
Why must we have
To say goodbye?
It's not that I love you;
Not anymore anyways;
But my heart longs for,
My mind dreams of
The you from yesterday
SatisfcationSatisfcation in Other More Like This
Slick, gleaming droplets
Rolls down my cheeks
And I moan in satisfaction
Ever new drop
Pounds away my sorrows
Bringing me to heights
That feels so new
Loving the feeling
Engrossed in the pleasure
Longing for it to never end
My head is spinning
And with each turn
The memories fade
And new ones are made
Not once do I regret
Each step that I take
It'll lead me to you
So I'll sit here and stare
Up at the skies and let the rain
Wash it all away
How I love the rain
The World Go RoundThe World Go Round in Other More Like This
Loves what makes the world go round
It makes you fly
It makes you fall
It makes the world spin
Time speeding by
But it makes the world stand still
Every moment frozen in time
They say love is grand
Feeling the life altering delusions
Where hopes become reality
And he knows your darkest of dreams
But in my mind
In that moment in time
I run for the hills
Afraid of all of those thrills
Hearts been broken millions of times
Which Ive spoken in numerous rhymes
My darkest secrets are untold
No one knows the cause of my pain
As I hide from the never ending shame
Reality beats down on my door
And I dont know if I can hold up
Against these feelings anymore.
CaliforniaCalifornia in Other More Like This
Once again the sun has set
I lay back and watch the clouds drift
Tightly snuggled to a fuzzy blanket
Every now and again the rain fall
Washing away my silent tears
Not quite sure why my tears are here
Sliding down my upturned face
The stars hidden
From my curious view
As I hear the wind blow
Whispering the timeless secrets
Of a world we once knew
The smell of fire fills my nose
And I hold back a smile
A sigh of contentment leaves my lips
Wishing I could be held tight
Memories fill my mind
And I long for the days old
Even missing our glomping fights
When things seemed so much easier
Made more sense and in reach
When, what are now memories
Was my day to day life
Sorrow pushes back my smile
As the painful memories begin to flow
Hateful words and lies spread
Things that were never meant to be said
And though things turned better from my worst
I still cant help but miss California and the way things once were
HuskyHusky in Free Verse More Like This
Blizzard cold swirling all around
Snow beating on your face
Yet you still jump for joy
When you wake from your peaceful sleep
All thought the snow
My beautiful husky
How can you stand the cold?
Knowing there's no warmth
For tomorrow to bring
How can you still be happy?
How can you stand the cold?
Childish DreamsChildish Dreams in Free Verse More Like This
You ever wonder why
They say your heart can sing
When you know in real life
It cannot do such things
And have you ever wondered why
They say your heart can leap
When all it can truly do
Is that thumpidy-thump-thump beat
But being raised in a world such as this
And always taught not to believe in such childish dreams
So Ive never let myself believe in such things
Ive heard them say that when youre in love
Your eyes will sparkle like stars
When youre raised not to trust
In such childish dreams
Like true love and happy endings
Or growing old with the one
Who holds your key
So as you can see
I dont believe in such childish dreams . . .
When your heart is put on the line
And love takes away your soul
Then you fly up on the highest cloud
Or so Ive heard them say
But I never believed in
Such childish dreams
Like true love and happy endings
Or growing old with the one
Who holds your key
Because as you can see
I was not raised to believe in
Fairytale EndingCan you feel it in the air?Fairytale Ending in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When summer is out of reach?
Trace the clouds through the windows
And let your mind wander
On adventures in faraway places
Just waiting for your knight-in-shining armor to come and rescue you
5 minutes down
5 minutes to go
The let the bell toll the coming of a new hour
And watch the sun rise higher in the day
Only for it to set when the moon comes out to rule the night
As the clock strikes twelve
You find your prince
And life becomes as it should be
AngelPaint a picture worth a thousand wordsAngel in Other More Like This
And fill a heart with hope
Make peace with yourself
And you will find who you truly are
No words are needed when you can express all you feel with a simple kiss
Because it's like sun shining through a rainstorm
An impossible emotion
Yet at the same time, a good one
You are an angel
Whose job is to spread love and hope throughout the world
So take on the task with grace and dignity
For you are needed
CreativityWhen creativity strikesCreativity in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
There is nothing that you can do about it
It's a flow of inspiration from your mind, to your pen, to paper
It's the freedom of speech in the form of words and pictures
Like a surge of power that does not die until you have set it free
It's the one and only thing that keeps you alive
It's the way you express yourself
When you cannot speak
It speaks from every fiber of your being
Screaming at the world that this is who you are!
Recurring NightmareThe tumultuous melodyRecurring Nightmare in Other More Like This
Rings through my ears
Silence is my name
And harmony is my game
The gauze that binds my arm is there for a reason
Struggling throughout the day makes the pain just that much harder to bear
It's like a snake is choking me
Cutting off my screams
Giving up I let it consume
Filled with a hatred beyond recognition
Does it look like I'm smiling?
'Cause I'm not
This smile is fake
And so is this laugh
So please just stop
Stop this tormenting
My body cannot handle it anymore
It's like my head is spinning in circles
Other WorldsLet your mind wander through vast unknownsOther Worlds in Other More Like This
Delve deeper into an impossible adventure
Become someone else
Even if it's only for a day
Travel to unknown worlds
And become a hero
Or maybe the villain
Triumph with creativity over tyranny
And let the crowd roar in satisfaction
Know that you are meant to be something greater than a hum-drum life
Let the magic whisk you away to the land where the elves play
And where the giants sleep
After all it is your mind
HelpCan you feel their rage?Help in Other More Like This
Can you taste it?
All you feel is the pain of skin against skin in a deadly strike
What did you do wrong?
Everything is a mistake to them
Haven't you learned that?
Keep your head down, eyes to the floor, don't speak, don't question
Just do as your told and the abuse might stop
It never does
And it never will
You know better than to hope that it will
You are a mistake
They will never love you, even if they say they do
So just look them in the eye and tell them that they are wrong
Because the pain will never cease
Until you cease to be no more....
TaintedYour soul is taintedTainted in Other More Like This
But so it mine
Violence leads to hatred and sadness
This violence is a tear drop
It stains everything
Like the focus is just barely there
And the glamour kills
Just like vulgarity destroys everything in its path
The bite of a poisonous spider
Makes the wound deadly to all who see
Pain is apart of this world
So take it as you please
It numbs the bones
So you don't feel no more
The toxins spread
Killing everything in their path...
MaggotsHello my darlingMaggots in Other More Like This
The sadistic monster awaits you
Don't give in
Cause you might just lose
The blood boils beneath your skin
With a passion for death
Chaos rules your world
Can you stop it?
Try and Try
Fail and Fail
Its your head
Sadistic little bitch
Sadistic little bitch
They scream at you
Cover these wounds
Cover these sores
Sores and wounds that'll never heal
Like decay that just won't go away
Cover your ears
And scream until your deaf
Sadistic little bitch
Your time has come....
Taxi to HellOne taxi to hell pleaseTaxi to Hell in Other More Like This
To the underworld of hatred and pain
Where we can show our scars
And be ourselves
So jump on the train to freedom and pain
And say good-bye to all that you know
And say that your coming home
For tonight is your last night on this planet that is damned
So damn yourself first and take the plunge
Take the lead and don't look back
Your too far gone anyways to turn back
And once you go theres no forgetting anything except the hatred and pain
So HAHA! to you and I'll see you real soon...