ContradictionMe; ContradictionContradiction in Biography & Memoir More Like This
Do not try to pigeon hole me
I am a square peg to your round hole
I am neither liberal nor conservative
Christian nor Pagan
I am all
And was taught too much to be none
I am me.
I have claimed to be neither Hippy nor Goth
I have never been accused of being Prep
Hey, Im me.
I will dress how I please
All black with lace one day
Skirt and sandals the next
Jeans and tee today
Wrap dress and heels tomorrow
Then jump in the river wearing it
I will listen to what I want
Iron Maiden or Metallica yesterday
Later The Doors
Then turn on some Tchaikovsky
Dream to Lorenna McKennitt
Dance to E Nomine
Drive to Rammstein
Only later debate if I want Blackmores Night, Billie Holliday or Dropkick Murphys
Maybe some Bob Marley
No, Robert Johnson
What is my mood?
I cannot fit your stereotypes
Nor will I try
I am me
I live in the suburbs
Dream of the country
But go to the city to dance
When I decide I want to be around others
Maybe especially th
Cu FaoilAwaken the sense of mystery, possibility, and compassionCu Faoil in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Long hidden behind a shield of cold and indifference
Marching to face this brave new world
With weapons of hope and love
Looking deep for the courage to fight a new fight
My soul releases its battle cry
As I charge towards the treasures of my heart.
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The almost epic achievement
For which some men strive
Some may contemplate this
While others actively pursue this legendary quest
Rarely, does one attain his goal
Yet on they go
The Holy Grail
Not beautiful and shining as thought
But plain, simple and strong
This may be the most illusive acquisition
For surely one of the trinity has more power than the other
A quinella at best
Seldom will you get all three
While this inner debate rages on
Judgment may be taking place
If the allusive Alpha grants you clandestine audience
Permissive as she is
Beta may be blocked
For Beta is the more seclusive
Of these two celestial beings
And she would quickly grant all acquittance from her life
Including Alpha no matter how pentinent
Only Pendragon has been granted access
To the Avalon that these two elusive stars share
Yet as furitive as he may be
Stealth must be attained
And he would suffer the wrath of a Goddess
With great tribulation
CelloEver so faint, I heard the voiceCello in General Fiction More Like This
Of a friend from long ago
Come back to me it cried
Within that soft entreaty
Vaguely hid a taunt
An autumn eve
First dawn of spring
A lonely winter night
Bit by bit
My desire rose
I turned my back
A roaring fire
Dying embers banked near morn
All this I was made to feel
Hear, see and smell
How well this one
Still knew my heart
To see you walk away,
Out of nothing more than
I was gently rebuked by that seductive voice
And yes, the taunt was definitely there
Peace of mind, you might find
I may calm your restless heart
Tears burned behind my eyes
Never once did you disappoint.
That was all within your self.
You set yourself too lofty a goal.
But first you must come to terms.
Are you doing this for yourself this time?
Or are you trying to rectify the past?
In the slump of my shoulders
I turned to face him
At least once more
SoughWhispers in the darkSough in General Non-Fiction More Like This
to those destitute
of these seemingly
Q and A"Do you wear that star as a sign of the Devil?"Q and A in Philosophical More Like This
"The Devil made the stars?"
"I like that circle necklace you wear."
"It's the moon."
"Why do you seem to promote witchcraft?"
"Why do you wear a murder weapon on your neck?"
FortressThe walls Ive builtFortress in General Non-Fiction More Like This
To surround the keep
Of where I house my heart
Theyre tall and wide
And ages old
A fortress for my soul
From the parapets I watch
Them be constantly battered and rammed
Its not that you desire
To reside here
Or are interested in whats within
More that you want to sack and pillage
Merely for the sake of conquer
As part of its defense
I release the weapons of my tongue
Still on you batter and ram
Only intending to inflict damage
Neither realizing nor caring
That if youd only knocked
Youd have gained entrance
for all the...For all the times that you would second guess andfor all the... in Free Verse More Like This
Underestimated the way that I honestly
Cared about you and all the acts of
Kindness I showed you, only you
For all the pain you caused me
Useless pain that took years to heal, something I
Could have gone without but which
Kept building up within me all this time
[Im better off without you so ]
Forget about all the things we had, the
Undying love I thought we shared, the
Cloud nine euphoria I felt in your presence, you were
Killing me bit by bit, slowly sucking the life out of me.
heart songthere is aheart song in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
deep in the
my heart that only
you can play.
something more - collabback in the day we'd spin around in criclessomething more - collab in Short Stories More Like This
with our hands locked together like iron vices
we wouldn't stop till walking in straight lines was impossible
and our intestines had moved to sit atop of our stomach and lungs
my world would spin out of control for hours on end
but your eyes were the only thing that kept me from crumbling
and then the only thing that stopped my heart.
even at the age of six years and two months
we were the ones people would point at and laugh
my friends would always call me crazy
because i preferred talking to you at lunch time
and it made me sad that they never wanted to speak to you
theyd rather pretend that you werent there because you didnt matter to them
but you did to me, and you still do
so wed ignore them, we never really cared about it and sometimes,
i think you still dont
all i remember from the fifth grade is you and it's all i'd like to.
adolescences took hold of us and change was seeping through our skins,
to the...girl with her head in the clouds,to the... in Short Stories More Like This
stop dreaming and face reality,
life isn't a picnic with the occasional sandwich missing
love isn't easy to find nor does in seek you out when you stop looking for it, furthermore how can you hope to find something you know nothing about, look for something and yet not know what you are looking for? does that not contradict your mission itself, doesn't that make your task pointless and tragic to watch... like a car crash where all you can do is witness and watch those within die?
please respond and tell me why you do this, i want to know. i need to know to understand and accept it.
give up the clichés and ask for help to find home,
you're no better than those that surround you so stop trying to be
we're all equals in this world so stop acting like you're better, stop posing as something you'll never be, accept help, seek it and you'll find your way back home or close to it sooner rather than later, please just put an end to this destruct
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but there's bad news; it's dying.
every star is on the verge of combusting
simultaneously and soon there'll be
nothing left to see but a black hole,
a mirror of the despair she feels within.
her voice has lost the light bell ring
of youth and joy, and everything else
that spells h-a-p-p-i-n-e-s-s. it's been
replaced with that of a ninety-six-year-
old emphysematic smoker who hopes
that every breath is their last and
only ever says goodbye these days.
her body's given up on the production
of tears for every misadventure, deciding
to save them for when the they can symbolise
something other than melancholy;
and her not-so-soft skin stretches across her
metacarpals, cracking, almost exposing the bones
as she grasps onto everything she's got left
(even though it's not much).
she sits broken-hearted on the bleachers
hoping that one day, just maybe one day,
he'll realise it was a lie when she
said she was 'much better than okay.'
elizadear diary,eliza in Short Stories More Like This
here is what you need to know about what i think i know about myself;
x im as fragile as a dandelion dipped in liquid nitrogen
and as volatile as a bottle of kerosene resting next to a naked flame.
x i dont know who i am, who i was or who ill be in the future- not even tomorrow,
-i am not a mind reader so i dont know my own thoughts.
-i do not study history.
-and am not a psychic, so dont ask me to pretend i am.
x i get lost easily.
x i cannot equate how i feel in to hallmark expressions of; i love yous,
i am not sweet like candy so i wont ask you to be mine and i hate
the simpsons so dont expect to hear the words i ch-ch-choose you
to leave these lips.
i am cold and i cannot stop shaking, because
i need kinetic energy as some source of heat.
my lips are as blue as my veins,
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rusted pins on blackened oil
stained walls, their munja
strings barely holding them
distressed faces are painted
in melancholy colours of blue
black and grey with slithered
red and fading lines as lips
curved in the reminisce of
and dreams lay
broken on the
tarp covered floor.
and you call this home
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still waiting to hear you tell
me that you're sorry
i am so sorry
that you will not let me say
that i am sorry.
you have tripped
me with your words and
broke my heart.
in too many words,
i am seeing how i am
just everyone else.
you're important to
me in so many ways and
to you i'm worthless
if i got a dime
each time i misunderstood,
i would have so much
that wouldn't make you
love me now.
you've lost your abil-
ity to reciprocate
and replaced it
with sadistic acts
i want nothing more
than to hate you, but my heart
still sits in your hands.
and even though i'm
fighting so hard to get it
back, i keep losing.
take my spine, take my
heart, i am just dying here,
please pay me no mind.
don't ask me if i'm
okay or still breathing when
you're the cause of it.
i can't bear
the thought of saying
i love you.
that i hate you just
won't fit right.
please don't listen to
me, i can't bear to listen
to you, just please- don't.