Painful DesiresPainful Desires10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You don't know how it makes me feel.
My heart is bleeding
yet screaming for more.
A devilish curse has been placed upon my soul.
As I am gasping for another breath
wishing for nothing
but a suicidal death.
I feel so
but its all in my head.
The pain you are putting me through
seems to be my only cure.
I am worthless..
I am useless..
I am nothing..
as I fall further and further
away from the world.
Take a needle
pin my heart
on to your chest.
Lying in my bed, I dream of you
..as I die tonight.
All I want from you
'.So This is Love.''.So This is Love.'9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Before the thunder
Before the blinding darkness
Before I felt this hopeless...
There was only the falling rain.
And I felt clean
And I felt safe
And I could see Your face,
But now I'm so alone
Lost in this murderous downpour
That's washed away yet another facade
The remnants of another facade
Are falling in my tears to unfeeling concrete
And I am powerless to save even one fragment
Of who I thought I was
As it collides with the earth and shatters into a thousand pieces
A hollow reflection of myself
Staring back with accusing eyes
As each piece falls…
Life seems to have stopped completely
And rested itself on my shoulders
Until it pushes me down to my knees-
Powerless as the day I was born.
I feel myself fall
And reach out to grab something
To save me
The words escape my constricted throat
Before I know that I've even said them
Rage at betrayal
Overwhelming sadness and pain
So this is love?!
Life seems so futile
As I fall on my face t