paper thin whispers.Display any old sentences, and i'll secretly fall apart.
I'm unspeakably numb.
between black smoke and white umbrellas, silence ran away.
your arms wrapped around my mind
Behind ears ,
With paper thin whispers.
There are wet footprints on the floor, after dry rain.
Silhouettes under the window sil
warm, peppered words slept underneath your eyes
seething through your lips, you've erased me.
grief table stumbles
a l e
l v r
e n O
I need all of you.
"I cant find forever in your eyes
I will leave you while they're dry."
In This bulletproof glass with eyes closed
still hard to say whats going on.
with fingers roaming through tears
S t a y
Helpless and beautiful.
I forgot to forget you.I forgot to forget you.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Once you told me you didn't like the way I curl myself towards you
And that I shouldn't walk with my feet facing the other because it was childlike
I took the long way home that night thinking about what you said, staring at my feet
Forcing them to point forward. Every time they disobeyed I pinched myself till my thighs were anesthetized,
So now I cant feel my legs.
Ive always written the words youve said to me and posted them around my room,
I'd bite my lip, as the sun hit the L in useless,
Us-(e)-less. Imaging the way the words rolled off your tongue
That day I found you sitting on the edge of my bed reading your words,
The sunlight hit your nose as you stared at that L in useless.
Your top lip quivered as your bottom lip cringed
You pulled them down
I called you the next day,
You had the voice of last years cough
And your phone
Rain in a black box.Ive lost my feet dear,Rain in a black box.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In the black rain
Seems Youve fallen asleep again,
Waiting for something to change
Loosing things, unwanted to be found,
Endless sleep, sinking right into the blue
Feeling alone: (but, but hes right by your side)
Further and further Auxiliary.
About a boy,I could stand here forever alone in this rainAbout a boy,5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Counting the cloudbursts that fell over me
Arctic, Trickling down my spine.
I had this dream ,
That We faded in.. chasing cranes
Youd count them each time they hit the floor
And just stare as if a part of you had fallen apart.
(Always the Gray ones. )
I would hold your hand so tight, because I was afraid you would Really fall apart.
There we were, standing with fallen cranes.
After a while they turned black;
And Youd fade away.
Id close my eyes and pretend you were still there
See, I could never find you through these tears.
Ive imagined the way you would.
Youd wrap your arms around my mind,
You felt so warm,
Strange and beautiful.
Youd kissed my neck, I kissed your fingertips.
Its The way your eyes smiled, as you fell asleep.
I cant find, Forever in your eyes
Crash:lights and a stop sign.I wish I had wings, I could teach my fears to fly aCrash:lights and a stop sign.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the wrong bodytheres a boy around the cornerthe wrong body6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to grow up into a man
but hes awkward in step and
alone in a crowd and he
cant quite fly with the flock
cant quite grow his wings they say
these words like bullets to the
head he rots inside, he feels
his heart tremble to the bone.
he cant see too well hes
short of breath and short
of height, five foot
three and feeling so down
so ashamed. the boys laugh,
dyke! and freak! and push
him down and push him
away. he just tries to fit
in. he cant seem to fit in.
the girls point and giggle,
lesbian! and pervert!
and he cant seem to fit in.
his friends abandoned him
his family doesnt love him
and he feels so empty
and worthless inside. he
tears himself apart and falls--
victim to self loathing.
and he looks himself in the mirror,
looks himself dead in the eye,
he stares hard and hateful
and then he begins to cry.
he weakens and weeps and he whispers,
Well dear, why I am given.Ive written this goodbye a thousand and lone times,Well dear, why I am given.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Streams are below the lower and the lowest
Trepidation thrown out the window.
Dreams of mine, dreamed last night
Surly they travel (loose themselves)
Our penguins arms were broken
Through the centuries, he turns in sheets of shining memory
Over and over..
Sat emptied of beauties
I cant find forever in his eyes anymore!
Waiting is all I can do
Ive walked on our roads before, without a sound.
Its too much for my heart
Words words falling from your mouth
stand up with me dear, leave your tissues behind
Well be gone before the noon arrives,
Down barren roads, our shadows will fall from our feet.
Tissues filled floors:
Thousand breaths till we see our ways
I think I can feel it, our thoughts melt in the absolute
Its 3am:drive way.
You and me, are disappearing over the lights..
Fading in and out, falling into sleeps
Red DressThe store was not busy tonight.Red Dress6 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Customers wandered in and out, solitary dancers to the muzak that floated down the aisles. Cady watched them with unfocused eyes - her job didn't take a lot of concentration.
"Good evening, ma'am, do you have Flybuys?" Hands moved automatically, packing groceries into plastic bags with unconscious precision. "That will be $11.90, thank you, have a good night. Good evening, sir, do you have Flybuys?"
Her eyes focussed with a snap - he hadn't handed over a card.
There weren't any groceries on the counter, either.
The man's face was unremarkable, the kind of face that had passed her a hundred times that night, forgotten before they reached the door. But, his eyes - they were remarkable, a golden brown that drank in the light and glinted hypnotically.
"Arcadia," He said, "Wake up."
"Good evening, sir, do you have Fly-" Cady's mouth gaped for a moment, and embarrassment burnt her cheeks. She was on the wrong side of the counter