Fear of My WorldMost fear the night while I myself have my fears.Fear of My World7 years ago in Other More Like This
But the night doesn't scare me at all.
I dress in dark clothes to show my respect to the everlasting darkness.
To welcome me in its world, in it's presence.
I take walks or runs sometimes pass midnight.
Just to be in this other world, were there is nothing else but only me.
Just a moment to be alone and welcomed by all.
To erase all memories such as the bad.
That will continue to haunt me when the sun welcomes day.
It may be cold but it's just the way this place works.
The shadows on the ground may be scary and twisted.
But then again people are like that to during the day.
I take small steps, big steps, sometimes just one.
I breathe, small breaths, big breaths, sometimes just one.
To take in this worlds essence.
My own world itself.
Mona LisaI want to make a Mona Lisa out of my skinMona Lisa7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to be loved not forsaken
How could I let myself break down?
How could I let my frown take over?
How could this be happening to me?
What am I meant to love now?
Who am I meant to see?
My love is now the knife in my hand
It cuts my skin and bleeds into the Promised Land
I laugh to the sound of skin breaking
My hands tremble
My heart is shaking
My body quakes
My skin becomes steak
I let out a gasp and take in the pain
My blood is like water
It washes out all the problems
Thick and red as my nightmares
Seeing my dad beat my mother
Seeing my cousin coming into my room
In the death of night
And stealing my honor
Seeing my brother become my father
Seeing my grandmother fight
Seeing myself become someone I'm not
Seeing my screams cease as I fought
Am I monster?
Am I a cold hearted demon?
I cut and cut again
For this night to end
For this phase to end
I let my body bend
Put a bullet to my head
I wake up to