Forgotten SuicidalForgotten Suicidal7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Im so, so sorry.
For thinking these things.
For considering how many pills, it would take to kill me for certain.
For wondering how many seconds it would take with a pillow over my face.
For deliberating how long and deep a bloody cut would have to be.
For pondering how I would hang the rope from my ceiling.
So many, too many options.
I want all of them. Every single one.
And Im sorry that youre not enough to stop me.
Im sorry that I am not strong enough to continue.
Im sorry that no amount of love, words and emotion will stop me from falling under, and becoming another Forgotten Suicidal.
Pandemonium- Chapter 01Pandemonium- Chapter 018 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Let us draw back a moment and observe all the players in this game as they are now, frozen in time. The dramatis persona, if you will:
Here am I, standing from a unique vantage point; able to see all, but affect nothing, watching a war rage between destiny and free will. I know the cost of each action; I can observe each event unraveling into threads and sequences that will spin themselves into history. But history is changing even as I watch; which is just as well. The future I come from is not an enviable one. Yet, from a few choice words and actions, the same threads that wove that tapestry are forming a new picture, a new future. I wait to see how it will finish.
Behind the scene stands Death- not the impartial element of Nature, but a God born of man's fear of cessation, and their worship of that fear. He has motivation and will and has clothed himself in flesh. He makes alliances and meddles in the world of men. Like most gods he is envious, self-serving, cruel, and predictable.
Pandemonium- Chapter 02Pandemonium- Chapter 028 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
" Some natural tears they drop'd, but wiped them soon;
The World was al before them, where to choose
Their place of rest, and Providence their guide.
They hand in hand with wand'ring steps and slow,
Through Eden took their solitary way. "
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Chapter 2: Strange Bedfellows
Trevor slept fitfully that night.
He had awoken several times, irritated, adding to the fire and trying to clear his mind. He was too old for such nightmares. In the past, sleeping had been a different affair. A hunter could not sleep heavily- it was imperative to be able to wake at any second, but neglecting sleep would only decrease one's stamina. One could not afford a restless night. He had learned ways to coax his body into a dreamless sleep even in inclement weather and hard ground, but tonight
Somehow, tonight he was incapable of closing his eyes without regretting it half an hour later.
There were wolves gnawing at the raw
MindMind7 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Sometimes it gets clouded.
Clouded with junk.
I let it in.
The things you let in your mind, dictate your actions.
If your constantly being bombarded with negative or impure thoughts.
Then you need to clear your mind.
Where the mind goes, the man will surely follow.
PrussiaXReader Colds Travel but Doctors CurePrussiaXReader Colds Travel but Doctors Cure3 years ago in Romance More Like This
You look up from your book when a pounding could be heard at your door. With a frown you marked your place in the book and stood from the couch, stretching your arms as you did so. Sadly you had just gotten comfortable with some tea and a nice book and you weren't expecting anyone to be coming over. 'Who could it be?' you thought with flinched when the pounding at your door became more erratic and louder. "I'm coming, I'm coming! Calm down!" you shouted and walked over to the door, you yanked the door open and the person knocking on your door nearly hit you right in the face with a hand. The man outside your door currently had a bright red nose and looked almost miserable. "What are you doing here? I thought you were sick and staying home with Germany," you said slowly, taking in his appearance. He man laughed, 'kesesesesese' and muttered something about being 'awesome'. "I am sick, so let the awesome me in," he replied and his sorrowful eyes flashed misch
EnglandxOtaku!readerEnglandxOtaku!reader3 years ago in Romance More Like This
You sat behind England, everyday, for Your 7th period class, english. It was almost unfair how things always worked out for you.
Everyday, you'd sit in looking distance of him, everyday, he didn't look.
You sighed and pulled out a small, yellow, lined, notepad, quickly jotting down some ideas for a new fan fiction about Harry Potter and Pansy Parkinson.
English was Your favorite class. The teacher, Mr. Jensen, was young, and inspiring. He always gives the class fun homework too, like poetry and short stories, your specialty. But, the best part, was England.
You glanced up from your notepad and gazed at England's light hair. 'Isn't it funny? I don't even know his real name, everyone just calls him England '
Out of the blue, another idea struck you and you pushed your ______ hair out of your face and jotted down more notes.
Mr. Jensen cleared his throat after a short lecture on paragraphs.
"Before you leave class, your Homework." A moan escaped from a group of girls and a few guys g
My Hellsing OC Ellie Beatrice (Re Updated)My Hellsing OC Ellie Beatrice (Re Updated)2 years ago in Profiles More Like This
My Hellsing OC Detail
Name : Ellie Beatrice La Hellsing
Nickname : Lady Ellie,Countess Ellie
Age : 596
Born : 6 June 1434
Birth Place : Nowhere Europe
Skin: White (Non Hispanic)
Eye Color: Red(Before Became A Vampire,Ellie's Eye Was Blue Bright As A Sea)
Bloodlines : Vampires And Witch
Hair Color: Black
Hairstyle : Long hair
Blood Type : A
Tattos : -Butterfly On Her Left Shoulder
-A Magic Seal (Just Like On Alucard's Glove) On Her Right Shoulder
Ability : Kill People With Sword,Summons Some Servants,Hand To Hand Combat,And Resurrect Everything
Weapon: Swords With Blood Poem And Witch Book
Outift: Ellie Wear White T Shirt,Black Vest,Black Dress Pants (Black Suit trousers) As For Her Shoes She Wear Boots,She wear sword belt (she always brought her sword almost everyday)(her outfit example http://www.details.com/images/slideshows/mens/standalone/details/fashion/1107/vests/00005f.jpg )
Allies : Alucard
Ocupation : As The Witch And No Life
La luna y el SolLa luna y el Sol7 years ago in General More Like This
En vano trato de conciliar el sueño
pensando en que en este justo momento
te hayas de pie frente al sol
Por qué tenemos que vivir
uno tan alejado del otro?
Por qué soy yo un vástago de la noche
y tu un hijo del radiante sol?
Mis pensamientos vuelan
tratando de alcanzarte vida mia
Mis pensamientos vuelan
para encontrarse junto a ti
He de tratar de salir
de mi cuerpo
Tratare de morir
para verte en mi sueño eterno
Así paso mis horas
con los ojos bien abiertos
alzando las manos
a ver si te toco, bello efebo
Un viaje inesperado"kukukukuku, nunca me dejas divertirme"Un viaje inesperado1 year ago in Settings More Like This
El absol despertó de a pocos, se sentía cansado, adolorido, enseguida se dio cuenta porque; estaba totalmente atado de pies a cabeza y en la boca tenia una rama de algo viscoso, parecía que la había mordido dormido puesto que con cada movimiento de su boca salia mas liquido del interior, un liquido amargo que le alcanzaba hasta la garganta. Cuanto tiempo había estado dormido?. Miro alrededor, estaba en la mitad del bosque parecía, era un lugar un poco apartado pero no podía verlo bien porque no tenia sus anteojos, donde estaban?? ; no alcanzo a terminar de ver cuando algo lo agarro del cabello y lo halo como si fuera un perro
"Así que al fin despiertas bestia, no te preocupes, acabare contigo en un momento" -le soltó echándolo con fuerza al piso y Ellito levanto bien la mirada a su verdugo, un lotad? parecía algo diferente, como era que lo