Confusion?My voice cracks out of the fear of nothing.Confusion?6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My hypocrisy has not yet caught up with me.
I want to believe I am who I am, but how would I know if I never was before?
I believe I am who I want to be.
I also believe what I want to.
I want to tell a good lie and have it be true.
I wish I could know what I do right, and what I do wrong.
I wish I knew how to take my own advice.
I hope I am not wrong for not wanting to take it.
I want to have the courage I appear I have.
I wonder why I appeared to have the stability that I did not.
I wonder why I would always lie to myself.
I could never understand my own mind.
I don't understand why I could always understand someone else's.
I understand myself through what I know of others.
I cannot get over the conflict and puzzle of the human mind.
Selfish GoodbyeThey always blame the victim, the one who's life was so full of pain.Selfish Goodbye6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He just wanted to end the hurt, erase the pain.
And they call him a selfish bastard; they just don't understand.
They were always looking on the outside, never wondering what harbored within.
Behind that flawless, prefect mask, was a broken and dying soul.
And they turned a blind eye every time his mask cracked; not believing what they saw.
With his reasons growing few, he cried out for help.
But no one heard, no one listened.
With reasons growing fewer, he scarred his outside.
Hoping it would reflect his insides.
But no one saw, no one looked.
Without a reason to live, he left them all with a final goodbye:
I fought for so long, you can only imagine the pain I was in. I tried for so long, you can only image the hurt I lived with. And when I couldn't take it any longer, I went for help. But you never noticed. Not once.
I'm sorry, but I just couldn't take it any longer.
A Quiet ThoughtA Quiet Thought7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A wise man once imparted to me
by way of a hotel napkin:
"Stay in your heart
and everything will be all right."
I don't have any rules so....from here on outI don't have any rules so....7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
all poems are made
from there on in
I only write
who can't read
who like boys
who don't like boys
(and are okay with that)
each perfect little princess
parading foreign continents
with words that drip like honey
those with time to kill
(they always make the best of me)
the ever faithful stranger
and the skeletons in my throat
Evelyn at Dyer's BayEvelyn at Dyer's Bay7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
what I'm challenging
and the urge
to make this
that's more than
the sum of all
that leans down
to teach the ocean
how to feel
on your heart
that sharp tongue
a bit bit
'til days spent
that we have
we may have
lost it all
Battlefield OasisBattlefield Oasis7 years ago in Open More Like This
Amid the desert sand swells,
Made from grains carried on whipping winds
And discarded carelessly along the way,
a fate they've long shared,
She marches silently onward.
Grim determination set on her face,
A warrior's eyes,
A nomad's mind,
She directs her battlecry
only to herself this time.
She's tripped the wires before,
In this mindfield of insults and dirty looks,
Set off the fireworks.
And the preditors came out,
Carrions sniffing at wounded meat,
Intent to rip
The flesh from her heart.
She rebuilt it with stone,
Refusing to lay down
And let them pick apart her flaws.
Now, she is friend to no one;
Enemy only to herself.
Lost in repeating scenery,
Wary of the weary, like herself,
She watches every step
Avoiding another explosion.
Avoiding any contact.
She is her own oasis.
I WishI wish I could see your perfect smile.I Wish6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wish I could have caused it all the while.
I wish you were here to tell me everythings ok
I wish you were never driven away.
I wish I could be with you again
I wish I could have been a better friend.
I wish you knew how hard this is.
I wish you knew you could fix all of this.
Most of all I wish
That wishes weren't hopeless.
demon bride chapter 4Demon bride: chapter 4demon bride chapter 43 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
A few days had passed. And i spent them with morning sickness and my mother worrying about me. My father didn't know anything. He didn't know that the demon had succeeded in taking my virginity and more. My father knew that something was weong. He had asked my mother and me several times, but we enver told him in fear of him telling the council members. Who knew what they would do if they found out. But my father knew that we were hiding something and he was getting angry about it when we told him nothing was wrong.
I was helping mom with some chores i had to do till my father had called me. I walked inside of the house and sat down at the table. "what is it, father?" I asked. I knew that he wanted to ask if something was off again. "shadow, promise me you will be truthfull." He asked and took my hands with his. "i will." I said nodding. "good. shadow, are in expectations of a child from that demon?" He asked catching me off guard. I didn't know what
mansion chapter 12mansion: chapter 12mansion chapter 123 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I woke up with a shock as i saw shadow staring at me. "good morning, how are you feeling?" I asked and sat up on the bed. "it hurts." He whispered and looked down with his ears lowered. "i can imagine that." I replied and took one of his hands into my own. It was cold, but not so cold that you could assume that it had died because of the blade. It still had a bit of warmth left in it. So i knew that his arm was still able to recover. If i got him quick enough to the hospital that is.
I groaned as i felt the pain in my chest return. I wonder if i had broken a few ribs. I laid a hand on the place where it hurt. Shadow got off the bed and looked around a bit. Now that i was awake i could look around in the room a bit. I was very simple. There was a bed and a small table. Shadow looked at the wall and walked to it. He pulled out a stone with difficulty and let it fall to the ground. He tried to get something out of it, but he couldn't reach it and loo
For The Love Of Chaos 4For five days, the Dregs stayed with the cocoon. With each day, Sonia sings various lullabies to soothe the occupant within the structure. Neither Scourge, nor Manic never knew their sister could sing at all. On the sixth day, the three were asleep in their sleeping bags during the morning hours. All seemed quiet, except the swishing, gurgling, low moan like sounds from within the cocoon itself; till out of nowhere, the sound of a huge gush of water was heard. Scourge was the first to stir; then the other two.For The Love Of Chaos 44 years ago in Drama More Like This
"What was that?" grunted Manic. Scourge sat straight up and looked towards the cocoon. The bottom of it was busted open, causing the emerald furred Dreg to look down, spotting a male cobalt blue male hedgehog with razor sharp quills and tan fur. A smile forms on his muzzle. He quickly gets up.
"You've returned, my lord," he cheered. Sonia and Manic looked at one another and were also ecstatic. They, too get out of bed to accompany their brother. The blue adult male had his eyes c
WOWC-SV Chapter 5 part 4.3Continued.....WOWC-SV Chapter 5 part 4.34 years ago in Settings More Like This
"Guys, the reason why I bought Sonic is because he's my mate."
"Dude," Ty chuckled, "Are you serious?"
"Oh, I'm dead serious," Shadow smiled.
The next thing the crimson-streaked male knew, he was tackled to the floor, each brother laughing and ruffling his quills or giving him pats on the back, hearty handshakes, and any other forms of congratulations. He couldn't help but join in on the laughter.
For the first time in 10 months, he genuinely laughed, which his brothers were happy to hear.
At that point in time, Shadow saw that it was best to leave the past in the past. He decided that now, it was time to move on. It was time for him to let go of his dead loved ones; to let go of not only his sparring partner and best friend, but his children as well. The death of Shadow's baby girls made him lose his mind and lose control of what he did afterwards. He was at the border of insanity. Only, to finally come home and find out that his childhood friend had committed
new student chapter 31new student: chapter 31new student chapter 313 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I looked in shock at the police car at my front yard. I hoped he was just asking direction or if he needed to be at a diffirent house. I walked towards my house and the police car. "are you sonic the hedgehog?" He asked. He was looking for me after all. "yes that's me. is something wrong?" I asked in concern. I don't think there was something wrong. If there was mom would've called me. Wouldn't she? "as a matter of fact there is. I wanted to tell you sooner, but you weren't at home." The police man said. "well, i was on a camping trip with my friends and amte. tell me what?" I explained. "i see, well, i have some bad news." The police man said.
My eyes widened as the police man explained. I turned around and ran to the nearest hospital. The police man tried to stop me, but i didn't listen. I just had to go. I ran as fast as i could. This couldn't be happening, could it?
I arrived in the hospital and asked for the person i was looking for. I quickly j
i'm just a slave chapter 9I'm just a slave: chapter 9i'm just a slave chapter 93 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I couldn't believe what he had just said. This girl couldn't become my wife. We had a deal that they wouldn't arrange my marriage. I can't believe this! "no way! you promised me that i could choose whoever i could marry!" I yelled enraged. "sonic, keep your voice down." My mom said and got up from her seat at the table. "no! i'm not going to keep my voice down! i can't believe you aren't keeping the single promise that you made with me! i can't believe it!" I yelled furiously and walked out of the room.
I knocked once again on the door of shadow's room, but recieved no reply. "shadow?" I asked with a clear worried tone and opened the door. I peeked inside that he had fallen asleep. I smiled and sat back down at the chair i had previously been sitting on before i got interupted. I held his right hand with my own two hands again and sat there in silence. Before i knew it i had fallen asleep.
The next morning i woke up with a heavy sore
WOWC - SV Chapter 4 part 4Sonic slipped in and out of consciousness as the doctor tended to him, with Shadow now standing a few feet away to give the doctor his space. But, for the brief moment he was awake, he reached out for his owner, saying something to Shadow that he would never forget:WOWC - SV Chapter 4 part 44 years ago in Drama More Like This
"M-master, I I c-can't take this anymore " The emerald eyes had lost their sparkle, dull now like dead leaves. His words were only a whisper:
"Please kill me so I can stop suffering "
Shadow stared at Sonic for a moment, his face expressionless, right before he sighed and slowly shook his head no, now looking away from his slave to further prove his point. Sonic took in a sharp intake of breath, looking at the boy as though he'd betrayed him. He let his arm drop and he turned away from Shadow, clearly heartbroken, closing his pleading eyes and bringing a hand to clench his aching head once more. It was a side of him that Shadow never wanted to see again.
"Can't you find out what's wrong with him?" he ask
Love's First Kiss: chapter 3Chpt: 3Love's First Kiss: chapter 33 years ago in Settings More Like This
Amy tucked her face underneath Shadow's quills and against his shoulder to shield herself from the wind. She held onto Shadow's belly tightly. Shadow breathed slowly, exhaling through his mouth to calm himself. This girl was driving him insane, the soft touches, the blush on her cheeks. Why? He didn't know.
They rode through the dead wood until they came back to the city. Shadow took the back roads to Amy's house. When he came up to her house in her small neighborhood, he slowed to stop and let her get off.
Amy unhooked the buckle and took off the helmet, handing it to him and fixing her hair. Shadow stored the helmet behind him.
Amy saw he was getting ready to leave.
Shadow paused, starring at her in question.
Amy fiddled with her thumbs.
"I I just wanted to thank you for giving me a ride home."
Shadow grunted in reply.
Amy fixed her hair a little.
"You don't have leave now you can stay with me I won't tell anyone "
'Plus, I want to get more of a
new student chapter 30new student: chapter 30new student chapter 303 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I looked at shadow's sleeping form. I was pretty surprised. To think that he wanted to be a mother already. Of my child noneteless. That was a big thing. He should've thought twice about it. He knew that i still had to start my senior year. So why want a kid already? It didn't make any sense. Why not enjoy life while he can? If he would've had my child then he couldn't do anything apart from taking care of the kid and staying stuck at home because of it. Maybe shadow wanted to hurry it up because he wanted to enjoy motherhood instead of just being a teenager while he still could? Is it because he didn't have a normal childhood that he doesn't know how to act as a normal teenager? I was in deep thought thinking about that till i fell asleep.
The next morning i woke up and looked at sonic who was still laying on top of me with his head on my chest sleeping. I smiled and petted his top quill. he could be so cute at times. I softly pushed hi
new student chapter 32new student: chapter 32new student chapter 323 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I woke up next morning. "good morning." i heard someone say. I looked up and saw shadow looking at me with a tired glint present. I had forgotten all about the illness he recieved from being out in that storm during the camping. I felt so guilty all off a sudden. "shadow, you should've gone home and get some rest." I said and got up. "that's what mom...uhm...i mean maria's mother had told me aswell." He said and smiled. I still can't understand why he doesn't call his mother 'mom' instead of saying 'maria's mother'. "couldn't you atleast sleep?" I asked him, but all shadow did was smile sweetly at me. "you're ignoring that sentence, aren't you?" I said and i watched him nod with that sweet smile of his. "are you feeling better?" He asked and looked at my mother. I turned around and looked at her. I frowned sadly. "the doctor said that with wounds as terrible as these that......there might be a chance she won't wake up anymore." I whispered the last p
new student chapter 38new student: chapter 38new student chapter 383 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
A month passed by and i was now 3 months far. I was reliefed to know that because it meant that the baby was now over the most vulnerable part of the pregnancy. I had been also noticing a small bump forming on my lower belly
By the time i was halfway through my 4 month i was starting to notice a small movement. It felt so wonderfull. But after watching a really scary horror movie then it felt a bit creepy. I was a sucker to horrors and thrillers. And sonic obviously saw this as an opportunity to scare me out of my wits. I made him regret it soon enough. he really did and quickly apoligized for it.
It was a shame we hardly got anytime to spent with eachother. Last year we couldn't complain because we always had the same classes and always were together because of them. But now it was as if we both had seperate lives now. Only having a little bit of time with eachother during the morning, evening and between school and sonic's part-time job
new student chapter 16new student: chapter 16new student chapter 164 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
After school i waited at the gate for rouge to arrive. I looked at my cellphone to see what time it was. Soon it had become dark and i sighed in annoyance. Why was i still waiting here for her? I guess it was because she's a really good friend of shadow's. I looked at my cellphone and saw that i had gotten a text. It was from shadow. 'sonic? i thought rouge said you were coming. did you change your mind? if you did, then please tell me. i would really want to go to sleep.' The text said. Shadow was probably staying awake because he wanted to wait for me. I wonder if rouge had gone over there without waiting for me. I sighed in annoyence again and started to walk towards shadow's house.
I coughed and snuggled further beneath my blanket. I yawned and looked at my cellphone to see if i had gotten a text from sonic, but found none. I sighed and laid the thing on my nightstand. I was really tired. I didn't know where this disease came from, b
not alone anymore chapter 12Not alone anymore: chapter 12not alone anymore chapter 123 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I wondered what was bothering him so much. I hope it didn't have anything to do with me. I'd feel very guilty if it had anything to do with me. I wouldn't want him to be sad because that's what i think his late-husband wouldn't have wanted him to be. Even after he passed away. He would've wanted shadow to move on and live life to the fullest. That's how i feel. And that's how he must've felt at their marriage and at his death bed. I'm sure of it. I can't even describe how intense my feelings get whenever i think of those images i got, these memories from his late-husband. It were only short images and they mostly made no sense at all, but i knew that they would once i got all of his memories.
I got up from the couch and walked up the stairs. I was a bit worried about shadow. And therefore i wanted to check up on him. I walked up the stairs and made my way towards the bedroom. I opened the door and walked inside. I smiled as i found shadow sleep
new student chapter 21new student: chapter 21new student chapter 213 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Next morning i had awoken to the nice smell of a well cooked breakfast. "i didn't think shadow's parents would've been home this soon." I said and sniffed the nice smell of a delicious breakfast. i mouthwatered a bit and got up and walked downstairs.
I arrived in the kitchen and saw shadow doing the finishing touches on the breakfast. He turned around and smiled at me. "good morning, sonic." He said and wrapped his arms around my neck. "good morning." I replied and placed my hands on his butt. He blushed a little and kissed me. I kissed back deeply. Shadow pulled away and put some breakfast on my plate and sat down on the table in front of me. I sat down aswell and began to eat. "don't you need to eat anything?" I questioned since shadow wasn't eating his breakfast. "i've already eaten mine." Shadow said and smiled.
I finished breakfast soon and shadow had washed the dishes. I noticed that shadow looked hot in my shirt. It was way to big for him, but
not alone anymore chapter 3Not alone anymore: chapter 3not alone anymore chapter 33 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
After i had passed out they had taken me to the hospital. The doctor helped me through my emotional turmoil. I tried my best to get my mental state up again. Because i wanted to attend sonic's funeral. They didn't allow me to leave untill they were sure that i was mentally stable again. Since i wasn't doing any better when sonic's funeral was here they weren't sure to let me attend. But after some begging i was allowed to go after all. On his funeral it was raining very heavily. It was as if nature felt our sadness and showed it with the heavy rain.
After sonic's funerall i was brought back to the hospital soon. Sonic must be really happy now. He's able to see all of his friends again. The friends who had passed away years before he finally did. He must've missed them very much. I was kinda happy he was now reunited with them. His friends were his family after all. Just like his friends had become mine aswell. We were all having a great time. B
Shadow's Wild Chapter 5Three weeks after Sonic entered the short-tempered businessman's life, Shadow felt a sudden burning desire to bring the wild into the house and show him the rest of the grounds. He sent away all of the staff for the evening and night, and after the blue male's meal he led the surprised creature out onto the dark lawn. Sonic tread slowly, his eyes scanning the area (unfamiliar territory called for caution, after all), until Shadow grew too impatient and dragged him up to the house.Shadow's Wild Chapter 54 years ago in Drama More Like This
Once inside he allowed the wild a minute to regain his bearings, and to marvel at the vast and elaborate foyer. Then, smirking, Shadow began the tour, telling Sonic about the world-renowned designers and architects he had hired to build the mansion, and about the rare and high quality materials used in every part of the grand estate. He extolled the fine marble floor, the custom made carpets and Persian rugs, and the hardwoods used in the staircase, wall moldings and furniture. Every description included, of
the vampire and the werehog chapter 2sonadow: chapter 2the vampire and the werehog chapter 24 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
To my surprise i woke up. I felt cold and i felt pain. but other then that nothing. I sat up a bit sore. I laid a hand on the side of my throath and felt two bite holes. They hurt, but i didn't feel the usuall pulsating feeling that was very common in wounds. I didn't feel or see any blood. My eyes widened in fear and shock as realization hit me. I wonder to myself. Did i turn into a vampire. "oh my goodness." I said and got up. I felt scared. I didn't know what to do now. I hoped that my father would still allow me inside of our house and would still accept me as his son. I wrapped my arms around my body feeling vulnerable and walked home.
I arrived at home and saw something that made me worry. There was no light in the house. I know that i was still night, but the sun was going to come up soon. He should be up by now. I walked inside and looked everywhere and i called silently for him, but there was answer from him and no sight from him. I felt more wo