Alone Once MoreI find myself alone once again.Alone Once More7 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
My fingers trace over the velvety smoothness,
ready to begin.
A soft slow push triggers a low sound.
Another push, another sound.
More pushing, light and soft.
No need to rush, tempo is key.
Traveling up, up, up until I reach the top.
Nowhere else to go.
The pounding starts.
Never wanting to stop, but somehow needing the end.
Both hands gliding, fingers aching.
LastI was last and by the time I got there you were spent.Last8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"It is meaningless to love anymore, Love".
We are just so fucking clever now, aren't we?
You could always do that.
Make me feel so small with the turning of a phrase.
Standing before you or dropping to my knees.
Weak, just so fucking weak.
I bow to you.
Lower my head, shallow my breath.
Quiet as a mouse.
Screams come with a price.
A tongue lashing.
My face, below.
"Lust is a sin".
Not "a" sin.
But my sin.
Between my legs, your redemption.
Take it away from yourself.
Put it into me.
I was helpless, lost.
Looking up for God, finding only you.
Show me your back.
Like you make me give you mine.
Stop and stare first.
All you see.
Hollow, isn't it?
Both shallow and full of pride.
Fill me again with your left overs.
Hate me like I hate you.
I am your fuck.
In terms of sex, in terms of a cunt.
I am just so terrible.
I am filth, I am disease, I am a child.
Give me my sin aga
WaitingYou could be the love of my lifeWaiting6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
but I don't want to tell you
so I'll wait until you figure it out.
DesireI want you to fantasizeDesire8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Think about me at night
When the lights are out
And your breath is hot.
I want you to dream
Of hearing me moan
And saying dirty things
In the heat of the second.
I want you to see me
Naked on your bed
Ready for you
To come and take me.
I want you.
To want me.
Wishful MemoriesI remember how she would tickle her inner arm to fall asleepWishful Memories7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and when she woke up she would lift her heavy eyes to give me a soft smile
like I was her dream.
Still blurry, still in that place between our thoughts and our fantasies,
she would breathe me in like I was her life
and blow me out like brilliant flame.
Her body still pressed against me, I could feel her stretch
to find my arms, my fingertips, anything she could find
to mark her awakening.
And I would find her, all over again, every morning
like it was our first time seeing each other's sleepy eyes
and morning hair.
We were like angels, so perfectly placed in a sleigh bed
hugging the morning and kissing the lips of everything
we had ever hoped for.
Together like we had always planned, caught in a swirl of tangled thoughts
like the tangled sheets and our tangled arms,
never to be undone.
a synth relationshipListening to 80s electro-pop always makes me cringe, the same way your smile does. They both have that synth sort of edge to them. Both so false in their own right. I don't consider that style of music actual music, the same way I don't consider your smile an actual smile.a synth relationship7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And yes, I like explaining myself. Just to be sure you understand. I need everything to be very clear, the same way you do. Only, when you do it, I hate you just a little bit more. I wonder if you know this is for you. You'll ask and I'll deny it. "Don't flatter yourself, love." I'll say.
When I do that, when I refer to as, "love", I think it flatters you. You shouldn't take it that way. I say it to everyone, mostly to strangers. Maybe that will put you in your place. Though, I'm not exactly sure where your place is at the moment. Neither are you.
A big talker, just like me. A lover of life, just like me. I don't like myself all that much. Still, I look at you and smile like I mean it, like those fucking songs. I'm a
PerhapsAnd if I fell in love with youPerhaps7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't think it would be
The worst thing
That's ever happened
You'd like it
If I hold your hand
I'll feel you grip mine
And if you loved me
We could be
Alice's SpeechAnd the closer I get to the mirror the moreAlice's Speech7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
disturbing my reality becomes.
Locked between these two worlds
of glass and tin foil.
I am no more than what I see.
No one is more than
And when you feel yourself breaking through,
I can assure you
it's only a dream.
I can assure you
the moment you wake up
you will be nothing more than you were
the day before.
simpleMy lips,simple6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
burned that night.
I touched them as
you walked away.
You turned back,
blew me a kiss
and they burned even more.
I cant pray
for this sin.
I cant hope
for a fate
I am unworthy of
but I can dream.
I will dream
of fiery tongues
And wrists shackled
above your head
I will dream
of your body tensing
and those words you
I wont hope
for more than these nights
I wont ask
for anything you wouldnt offer.
But I will dream
of what could be mine.
I dreamt I woke youWide awake, sitting up in bed,I dreamt I woke you10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I dreamt I woke you,
my heart whispering secrets I was not ready to tell.
Secrets you were not prepared to hear.
Caught in your gaze, my throat tightened,
closing in on itself
strangling me with thoughts
that scrambled a hasty retreat,
too many all at once.
And then the day dawned.
And you were still sleeping,
still peacefully resting there beside me.
I watched your head on the pillow.
I studied your chest as it rose and fell,
steady, calm, my own breathing falling
into that deep rhythm with yours.
Only your eyes behind their lids betrayed your dreams.
And when you awoke
and saw me there watching,
only a glint of a tear hidden in morning's shadow
betrayed my thoughts.
our changing seasonsWatching you walk into the roomour changing seasons7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It was like a Winter rainstorm
Like those days you plead for a change
And when it finally comes, you want the old back
I caught your eye and for just a moment
It was all the same
A brief glimpse of a smile
And a glimmer in your eye
Until you were drenched in the memories
Sucked back into a season of cold, unyielding misfortunes
Covered by the dead leaves and bare branches
That were ours
They cant keep you warm anymore
And they shouldnt have had to
Twigs and trunks are only good for one thing
And those fires came and went
Like the Summers and the Springs
Those times that things should have grown
We were always so broken when they didnt
Welcoming another change
Those changes you hated so much
Pushing the rake across my back
Into my lungs
It was cold air
It was always the coldest air
And the moment you left the room
I sprung back to my life.
Your wayYou have a wayYour way7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Summer sun eyes
That strange stinging way
To shock me
Tongue tied speech
Tame bitter taste
The way you
Catch me off guard with
Soft, subtle thoughts
You let spill from
Light and lonely lips
The way you
Make it easy
Keep it soft
Let me breathe
That way we breathe
You hold me down
With a word
Take my breath
With a touch
Keep me here
untitledI've walked down streets, lifting hats and pushing hair out of strangers faces.untitled7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Looking at eyes-
looking for you.
I don't remember much but I know you have soft, blue eyes.
It's all I have to go on.
I rip through
pray that you'll be one of them.
You never are.
search that never ends the way I want it to.
I could make it easier and fly 15 states from here and now.
I could always just go door to door.
I wouldn't want to come off as desperate-
but I am.
I remember now.
bit them to the
All the better for the touch I suppose.
And you'd touch me so soft with
hands and I'd hold my
heated breath and smile.
special can be
I know that one day, when I stop all this,
you'll find me.
the hardest words to sayThose words thatthe hardest words to say7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
from your mouth, they were like a punch in the face.
given by your lips and felt by my heart.
a kiss like an "I love you".
And you didn't quite understand why I
I think that was always your problem.
You were never aware of your own strength-
Never aware of the power
save yourselfVulnerability won't get you anywheresave yourself7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Stay cold, stay distant
And things just come to you
You'll get what you want
It's hard at first
Having so much to say
With your mouth sewn shut
Your words begin to drown your tongue
A close mouthed smile
Just nodding along with I love yous
And in the end it'll be worth it
Your heart will be fully intact
She'll think you're heartless
But you'll know better
You can still hear it
Pounding away in your ears
And she'll look at you confused
Tears streaming down her face
Until she walks away
While you stand there, like a stone
You can scream on the inside
And hold out your hands, begging
But only after she's gone
Let her leave to keep the upper hand
You'll be left alone
But you'll stand strong
On shaky legs, sure
But who's legs are really all that stable?
Another girl will come
And when she does you'll learn
How to smile with your eyes
Show your soul and she'll fall in love
But don't give yourself away
Never whisper, "I need you"
Because she's never really
Give me moreStretching open I feelGive me more7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
exactly how I want to.
The fear makes me tremble
This moon is not full.
I am not wild now.
and I roll into memories that daze me.
I feel my mouth still full
of kisses and sweet fruit.
The loneliness is both cruel and dear.
Can I be your earth for a while?
Can I feel shared instead of taken?
There could be merriment
and fire as deep as bone.
LoversWrapped in fantasy blissLovers7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All with just one innocent kiss,
He captures her soul, all that she is,
She wonders, How can love be like this?
So pure, free unrestricted by others,
We are purely, truly, simply lovers.
Void of sin and wrongs,
Holy and righteous is our song,
Arch Angels wish to feel as you and I,
But all they can do is between earth and Heaven fly.
God looks upon us, at our love and rejoices,
He hears us, and drinks in the sweet scent of our voices.
Loves purity and purpose is obvious
When all creation looks upon us,
We fulfill and show loves sweetest light,
Our passion and devotion is pleasant in Gods sight.
Let all nature marvel at the perfection,
For we are the worlds loving revelation.
Here and ThereHere and There6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We are everywhere
So it seems
in our dreams
There might be something to share
I Would for YouIf I could tell you I love you, I wouldI Would for You7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I could tell you a million little things to make you smile
And If I could rip you apart
Well, Id do that too.
I have a lot of regrets when it comes to us
A lot of unanswered questions and a lot
Of answers I wish Id never gotten
I want to scream and tell you I hate you
And I would
I put these words out there
Knowing youll never read them
Knowing youre out of my reach and
If I could bring you back here
And it would just be another thing to regret
Like our love and our life
The way were
The ways we werent
The meaning behind each kiss and
The lies behind your touch
The force in our fists and
I want to take it all back
All the sweet and all the sour
Erase it for a spotless mind
Just to start over
And I would
Sink or swimIt's rainingSink or swim7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's not just outside
My room is flooded
Is seeping into me
You look at me and dive right in
My breach headache
Swim between my ears
Feels like a butterfly stroke
You seem more like a freestyle type
Poke your head through my eyes
Spit out all that found it's way
Into your mouth
"It's thicker than rain"
"But just as acidic"
Catch your breath and
Head for the high dive
I can't look at you
But I hear you
You're laughing at me
You sound like a whale
Not nearly as graceful as a dolphin
Caught in a net
The board bends at your will
And you cut through the air
Miss your mark
Land in my bed
Still holding your breath
This room is flooded
Get up and
Walk like you're on the moon
Up and out
I hold my nose
Pop my ears
The water rushes out
Power of GodYour hair slips slowly through my fingersPower of God7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like my morality
Like your pain
Like my sins
And I cherish every strand
I feel it bringing me closer to God
I feel it all sliding slowly
And slower yet
Right down to that place where you
Really find me
And you call me Lucifer
As I scream out His name
Be my sin
What I live and die for
What I plea and cry for
Be what I need
Be worth the Hell that awaits me
Your fingers slip slowly through me
Past the pearly white gates
Past the seven burning layers of skin
And darkness and
Hotter than any Heaven
Could ever be
You make me an Angel
Make me a God
Spread my wings and fly on
And down further still
Devil's AdvocateNo one cares;Devil's Advocate7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You refuse to let them see.
Im not worth the time
You fight them when they try to cross the line.
Really, I am not that strong!
But thats how youve been seen for so long.
I want to run; I want to run so far away.
But that wont give you your new day.
Lock me away to a solitude eternal night
But that isnt what is right.
Youll all finally be safe with me gone
They wont leave you all alone.
I can stand on my own!
Youre just barely grown.
Nineteen and still their child!
Would you rather run wild
To stand all alone is my goal.
Are you prepared to pay the toll?
I can do anything I want!
Bad fortune is not one you want to taunt.
Have no choice it seems,
You do, follow their dreams.
Succumb to what they want me to be.
There there child, its not as bad as it could be.
Chained to everything but my desires
Let those be burned by a tho