Heart AcheShe fears people like herself
He is what she is
Mirroring each other
Deeper they fall
She cannot trust him
He cannot trust her
Hearts already broken
Lives already shattered
She runs from it all
Between each other
So many walls
Help them cope
But neither are brave enough
to reach past their own walls
and tap on the others
Of what he may do
Of what she may do
If these walls may fall
Repressed with knowledge
Hidden with reason
If someone is going to break it down
Maybe it should be him
DancerShe moves in the shadows of the roomDancer6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Only lit by a single isolated candle
Her elegance is breath-taking
The way she flows through the dance
Her shadow follows
Matching the movements made by its partner
Together they dance a dance of grace
Emotion pours from her like rain
From every finger tip to every strand of her hair
That had fallen from the rest
Her toes tip
Her body arches
And she falls forward into a pit of misery
She twists and turns fighting her demons
Stretching out her arms
Straightening her legs
Moving with poise
She tries to control her raging motions
But they control her tonight
She stops slowly
She arches her spine
Throwing her shoulders back with ease
Her arm folds out
Reaching for something beyond her fingers
Something that her body craves
She turns suddenly
And runs through the black of the room
She flies through the darkness
She falls to the floor
And wraps her long elegant arms around her
Hiding her face with her hands
She sits still
A Funeral ReunionI tasted you,A Funeral Reunion3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And you tasted like San Francisco,
Broken piano keys and betrayal
Left over from your last lover.
Your hair is softer now,
But your expression is tough
And overgrown with malice.
I cup it in my hands
And see nothing but what I remember.
I haven't heard you
Or anything you've said since you began,
Because it's just space
Filled with your tongue
And teeth, and they have left me.
Your body is smaller
Like it has been running for too long
Marked with midnight blue
I understand now that my prayers
Made their way to you after all.
Cushioned with my love letters,
I made you a safe place
Where you can be a little boy
With a red face and soft hands.
No one can take it from you,
Because I made it for you, and
Someone made you for me.
I only write about you late at night
When I can admit that I love you.
The Earth cannot judge me.
Let the red darkness of my bedspread
Reap up and engulf me
Into a dreamless sleep,
You being the last thing on my mind.
The taste of your last
ForeverMyForever3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drift with me on the face of the sea.
It is our destiny,
The sweet sky is too bright for us.
The tides are too tempting,
and your eyes are gleaming.
SisterShe told black tales on her skinSister3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
about ancient ruins and hurricanes.
Her legs speckled gray like ash;
her arms marked with different suns
She was the storyteller.
Once she lifted her tunic and
an infant etched itself on her skin,
holding onto her bellybutton
and dripping blood down her torso.
The outlined child cried for hours,
but it died before it could make a sound.
She was the newborn baptism;
She washed away its hands and feet.
Once she removed her shoes and
claw marks intertwined up her ankles.
She told us that they were the dead souls
who lied in their graves wanting to live;
they reached upward and only found her.
She couldn't help them, because she didn't live.
She existed in the midst of her wounds.
She was a passageway.
She told black tales on her skin
about violent lovers and earthquakes.
Her eyes speckled white like spirits;
her heart withered from different makers
She was the storyteller.
The Second ComingI.The Second Coming3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I struggle because God told me that he doesn't like slackers,
and it is almost winter, and I have to believe in something.
His desk is so tall, I like to sit under it and stare up at where
the edge of the desk meets the ceiling and his hand tapping.
I don't like the cold, but God says that it builds character,
so I trek through it to get to something I once loved and it only
leaves me feeling small.
I was never a child, I told the interviewer when he climbed on
top of me. I was never born, I just appeared.
He wasn't listening anymore, but I kept telling him.
God sank into my skin when I was sleeping one night,
in a church somewhere east of here, and
He speaks to me now.
"God doesn't exist," huffed the Interviewer Man.
There was this man who said that if you spoke to God,
then you were praying. Lots of people pray in snow
And silence, but if they're silent then how does he hear them?
This man also said that if God spoke to you,
then you have schizophrenia.
I don't know what
Mothers Unrequited LoveWhat's right is wrong, as wrong is right,Mothers Unrequited Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The governing thought of the soul,
I can't feel, nor would I wish to,
The sad cries of sickly longing.
To think a child could make me love,
For just its innocence alone,
Love is but a trick people play,
For their own advantage nothing more.
Never will you soften the heart,
Owned by an unwilling mother,
Turning fury into longing,
For such an undesired child.
Friends think I'm cruel, even knowing,
My daily trials and sorrows
An ungrateful youth forced on me,
Its heretical thoughts they say.
Even still I won't give in yet,
To your fake loving, sickly charm,
Why can't they see, why don't you know,
I will never return your love.
December RainThrough mist, through my eyes, I see I am blindDecember Rain3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
my soul hath no knowledge, heart hath no sight
through my ears the wind blows, cold as the night
deafening me to the sounds of my mind
The sun, his face shining, mocks me with light
his bright severe finger pointing at me
illuminates things I can't bear to see
nowhere to hide, I am faced with my plight
But rain falls, empathic, drowning my cry
her icy chill numbs me so I cannot
feel memories of a heart so distraught
thus consoling me with tears from the sky
And if the rain cannot drown my sorrow
She will cry with me until the morrow
Copyright 2010 Julia Rain Jeys Wellman. All Rights Reserved.
I Am as a ForestI am as a deep and endless forest,I Am as a Forest3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
with paths that wind forevermore.
My winds do wail unbridled,
My rivers flow though lands unrivaled.
My spirit shines though hearts downpour.
I am as a vast and boundless ocean,
With waves a-rage 'gainst endless cliffs.
My tides do count the pass of time,
My echoes ring with voice sublime.
The waters edge--my fingertips.
I am as a great and glorious mountain,
With spires of granite held tightly bound.
My valley's depths seek timeless belonging,
My precipice cries out with longing.
My summits soul to all confounds.
I am as a cold and lonely desert,
With sand-filled winds that call your name.
My emptiness seeks lifes salvation.
My dunes defy all desolation.
No companions dwell upon my plain.
I am as a sad and solitary aster,
With failing fires from my core.
My light does quest for endless purchase.
My fiery heart does long for purpose.
My potent rays will shine no more.
I am as a deep and endless forest.
I am vast, unknown--and glorious!
A SCATTERING OF PETALSMy body is the unfriendly mime for the RegretA SCATTERING OF PETALS3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
too crimson for Time to erase, nor can I forget
the tears that stirred emotion from my eyes,
from me they bled until my virtue fell and I
became the slave to my self-deceit, how did I
get here following the 39th beat of my heart?
I thought it was Love that stole my breath,
but my mind had forgotten to carve reason into
the vapors I exhaled, my heart was unfaithful
and soon my body followed suit, it was Treason
who had spread my legs and scattered the
petals of my Purity into oblivion, now all
I can do is remember the faith that once
bound my reflection to a liberty of crescent
Moonlight, I try not to feel the thousand
splinters of Regret working their way under
my skin-screaming-seething-bleeding emotion
that stains the Night's obsidian sheer, these
doubts have doubled my tears and rituals of
carmine need, a design I've sewn with needles
of scarlet dyes ripple my ivory coast, but
your lips still taste of Summer and mine the
ash of my self-d
Whorl - WobbleDancers cast the paintWhorl - Wobble3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And so they draw
Where figure stands
In chains of smoke
With the Vivaldi-sound
And so they sleep
They laddle out
And try to pull
Up from the brink
Something exhausted -
In the rave
Their bodies in the eerie
Go flirt with angels
Finding names for them
Pinching their backs
While they're punching their chests
In severe attack
Try stride and walk
To stay and rest
Exhausted - making antics
From the flows and strings
Always lit and frolic
The read and Play
Of the Big Come in
And sucking corollas
Decide to pack up
Like all the matter
Insuring and orienting
Making body open
For the meddle
And juxtaposing it
Where all collect the money
From the ground
And bring the mad
To Stage the bed
And in the bed -
In anger and denial
In bargain and depress
Accepting standing in the Just
And closing in on monument
And their veils
Broken and BeautifulI knew a girlBroken and Beautiful3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
broken and beautiful
such hardships she had seen
from a small town far to north
she lost her mother at thirteen
Before that point the life she knew
was stable and fairly routine
with enough love for all of us
the word family held its meaning
After the cancer came and went
the family drifted apart
crossing states she landed in H-Town
expected to make a new start
But H-town isn't a place for new starts
and hardly a small town
all she really wanted to do
was catch a train back round
Only back around
wasn't where she left it
with hands to hold her down
she ended up once again
right back in H-Town
I met her a year or so later
under a car port on the north side
one look and you'd never know
the grief she hid inside
She had a kind of bounce to her step
blond hair and beautiful green eyes
an easy going personality
she calmed demons with a smile
For whatever reason she fell for me
to this day I can't imagine why
the only answer she ever gave
was "the heart never lies"
Thrice BegottenThrice Begotten3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Time held me tenderly
within its azure eyes
I thought I'd fall forever
inside those lovely lies.
Minutes burning faster than
my beating heart could tell.
Just a 'membered yesterday
into its grace I fell.
I'd cradle to her bosom
and feed upon her treats
In everlasting sorrow did
I learn of life's defeats.
Our years are spent so carelessly
On worries now forgotten.
Our love can capture very few
Of moments thrice begotten.
Slowly backwards I shall seek
and ending that is fitting.
And live my days outside her reach
and shape my own beginnings.
Time held me dying
and whispered false delights.
I thought I'd dream forever
and live outside her blight.
MuttI'm a filthy muttMutt2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Made of scraps
Clandestine skin over internal cuts
I can't even call you dad
In your mind, am I still dead?
Well mom says I'm just like you,
'Cause I don't care
And I still wouldn't care if you came back
Well, I'm a filthy mutt
Made of scraps
Clandestine skin over internal cuts
I'm a dirty kid
But I think I'd be worse if you hadn't done what you did
I'm too ambitious to rot away in a life sentence
You'll never be my dad
If I'm dead to you, then you're dead to me too
I can finish my life without remembering you
I'm a mutt
But I'm cleaning myself up
No thanks to you
I'm a mutt
And I'm naming each one of these cuts
Little Black HeartI don't believeLittle Black Heart3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
In automatic love
No matter how good it sounds
I don't believe
Love starts when eyes meet
Or with a few scraps
Love is evolutionary
Beginning with something else
And let us not forget
Or simple friendship
For some of us
It doesn't start at all
So maybe I
Should face facts
Love never came
The only woman to capture this heart
Do so over time
Chiseling away at ash and stone
Where so many others had tried
Until all that remained
Was this little black heart
This broken charred heart
I never said
When she got to the end
She was going to like
What she had found
Pretty UglyShe's at all the big parties.Pretty Ugly3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The one tipping the glass up in her hand,
like a hurricane is on it's way.
like the world will end any second.
like everything will never be okay.
The one with a needle in her arm.
like she wants to lose her voice,
like she wants to fade, fade away,
like everything is worth leaving behind.
You're the one,
the only one.
Who sees that in her eyes.
the blank stare that grabs your heart and bursts.
You're the stranger at the party,
in the alley that night.
Thinking, "Was it worth it Pretty ugly girl?"
Because you know deep inside,
Is It Too Much To Ask?Heaven, where is my angel?Is It Too Much To Ask?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need him more than ever
my life is danger
send him to me...
Someone who cares
and loves me unconditionally
someone who bears
all my insanity
Forever to be at my side
hugging me when I want to cry
Is there even such guy out there?
I don't believe so
my pleas are in vain
my pain won't let me go
I keep calling & calling
and am left unanswered
I wanna keep trying
but I'll end up hurt
So is it really that hard?
To find a mate for my heart?
I wish I had that someone
that will always understand me
'cause sometimes people
become the enemy
So far solitude's my company
and it too shall abandon me
to the hands of the sickly
were loving equals doom
Is there anyone out there?
That'll save me from my myself...
La Petite MortStill my beating heart once moreLa Petite Mort3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
rest 'til morning's light does break
withdraw from heaven's farthest shore
into the gently fading take
the ever distant leagues of time
are whispered with serene intent
the smallest glimpse of fair divine
lies deep within that sweet torment.fly my stilling spirit's splendor
leave this place where I once died
the Little death (each time remembered)
the little Death dwells deep inside.
sleep my love through dream undone
breathe in once, breathe out again
rise anew with Dawn's first sun
and feel the tender moments end.sing my fearsome quickened heart
to keep my tattered soul aloft
evermore inside the bliss
Evermore the death so soft.
XXXI'd grope your mindXXX3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
if I could get my hands on it
Your words are my pornographic video
with no subscription needed
Tame MePlease don't be in loveTame Me3 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
with someone else; you could be
the one to break me
Artistic AbuseI color your words in shocking redsArtistic Abuse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with undertones of purple to show
the bruises they create
Each syllable like a stab in my chest
I know you meant for them to hurt me
but the physical wounds are brightly colored
In mocking tones of lively colors
They pain me
even though I catch myself staring
unable to look away from the mutilated beauty
Paint me green, blue, black
Scathing words thrown at me like rocks
Bouncing off my flesh
And all I can do is beg you to paint me
No matter how much it wounds me
because I am your canvas
And you are a master artist
That Will Flower.I have skin and I have bones,That Will Flower.3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I have hopes
out on loans.
I have a beating heart that bleeds,
Desires and lusts
shaped like seeds.
GhostSometimes I just feel like a ghostGhost3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everybody is around me
But only few take the time to listen
I speak up
I even scream and shout
Nobody hears me
I can hear everything, even your heart beat
One two one two one two
Your blood is racing
If you could open your ears and hear me for a quick moment you might understand
Baby I'm the man
I don't got no bills in my pocket
But I got few loose coins
I wouldn't mind dropping a dime on you
Or maybe five
But baby you don't even know my name
I'd be quick to show you Paris in the night time
But you'll never know me
I'm just that ghost in the corner of the room
Nobody hears my words
I'm lip syncing my own life
I'm doing a horrible job
I should be fired
I tried to quit once but I didn't make it past the front door
I see stuff thats never there
I tried running away but my wings broke and I was caught
I guess I should of kicked and fought for the door
For the next car to drive me far away
Never should of taken mercy
I was just burning to t
A LIZARD'S IRIDESCENCEA lizard's iridescence glamorizes the EarthA LIZARD'S IRIDESCENCE3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with its divine light, its iris of color, a
tree is blessed when such a gentle creature
makes its humble home within its rustic depth,
the branch it perches on is a throne of con-
templation as this little lizard runs up its
nimble lance, sits with a radiant glance at
the Earth seated below its divine stance, a
God dwelling among the mossy bark and dewy
leaf, it listens without ears and sees the
sounds of the earthenware spheres, feels the
cosmic swell...it knows the iridescence of
Truth...this little lizard who is as genuine
onto itself as I am onto me...if men could
be as genuine as a lizard's iridescence,
then men would be worthy of iridescent me.
May 20, 2005
© Jewel MoonSilver Knight - All Rights Reserved.
Immortal CallI won't forget all I've foundImmortal Call3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Oh, you can't convince me
As this life fades into the background
I close my eyes and dream of what I could be
Distant shadows show the way
Oh, into the twilight
Lead me back to yesterday
Before I made the choice to lead a "real" life
Tease this ghost inside of me
Can't return without your will
With every breath I feel the chill
Life is slipping out of me
To meet the voices in the trees
Don't leave me here
To face the light
Call me back into the night
Don't leave me here to face the dawn alone
Bring me home
Starlight burn emotion deep into these thirsting eyes
Oh, release their poison
I feel the wind and realize
The emptiness of what I've chosen
Walking a mortal's beaten path
Oh, the straight and narrow
Tightening this noose around my neck
Pierce humanity with time's dull arrow
Tease this ghost inside of me
Can't return without your will
With every breath I feel the chill
Life is slippi