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AnxietyWalking down the street,Anxiety6 years ago in Other More Like This
I feel everyones eyes on me.
Slowly I speed up to avoid their nasty glares,
fearing that I wont be able to break free.
Anxiety spreading quickly through my body,
making me feel like a bird locked in a cage.
My heart pounding rapidly against my chest,
so hard that I feel like I could collapse.
Trying to escape the crowd thats laughing at me,
I cant seem to find a way out.
Tears stream down my face as the people point at me,
my head is spinning trying to proccese it all.
Everyone in the crowd is taking their turn verbally attacking me,
why can't they leave me be don't they see that I'm filled with missery
AnxietyMy eyes rip freeAnxiety3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The tears running down my cheeks
I've nowhere to run
I'm all alone
Why can't you see
The only thing left
Is silence
My eyes are closed
My screams are gone
All that's left of me
Is tears
I've tried to run
But its caught up
No matter where I go
Or what I do
My life catches up to me
AnxietyIt begins with a melancholyAnxiety8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
feeling deep inside my soul. Something
pushes it deeper until I
can't handle it anymore. I stop
breathing for a few seconds.
My chest heaves and my lungs take
in a deep, ragged breath. They
get addicted to these sharp
stings. I start to hyperventillate.
I rock forward. I rock backward. I rock
forward and backward and forward
and backward. I rock. I rock. I pull
my hair down. I smooth it out. I smooth my
hair and rock forward and backward and
heave in another ragged breath. One
tear builds up in each eye until
they decide to take the plunge down
my cheeks. The right tear falls onto my
chest with a
Anxiety4 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry
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AnxietyI sat alone another day.Anxiety5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The world was moving all around me,
but it seemed as if my life was in a standstill.
The doctors say its anxiety.
Everyone thinks anxiety means nervousness or fear,
but it is deeper than that.
Anxiety holds you prisoner.
You can't leave your house.
Ding
Dong
Ding
Dong
The doorbell rings but I can't answer.
There is too much fear inside.
You can't answer the phone.
Ring
Ring
Ring
"Telephone for you!" my family yells. I
tell them to say that I will call back, but I won't.
You can't eat.
Chomp
Bite
Chew
No, not me. The anxiety
even controls that. All the pain rushes back up with
every little thi
AnxietyJust beneath the surface,Anxiety4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Waiting all the time..
Nerves and bottled problems,
Playing on the Line.
One step across the boundary,
It all just falls away.
No resolute, confidence,
No 'I'm OK' charade.
It spreads across my body,
Prickles under my skin..
It's inside, in my mind,
This demon.. I can't win.
My breathing becomes shallow,
I yearn to stop the tears.
It plays with every weakness,
It taunts, it glares, it leers.
This monster that's inside me,
Loves to come and play.
Beating me completely,
promising to stay.
So desperate for silence,
I try to ignore my curse..
My solitude will never last,
Each time it just gets wor
poem for him...He means the world to me,poem for him...6 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
but he can never know....
I think about him daily,
but I cant let it show....
The age difference has left me confused,
maybe I should try to put myself in his shoes?
Figure out his thoughts,
but I guess that would just be a loss.
He means the world to me,
but he can never know....
I think about him daily,
but I cant let it show....
I wounder if this is how it was meant to be,
leaving me here trying to find things that I just cant see.
His face is always in my mind,
I guess we can just take our time.
He means the world to me,
but he can never know....
I think about him daily,
but I cant let it show.
social anxietysocial anxiety9 years ago in Other More Like This
stop staring stop
don't look
stop staring don't
don't
don't look
stop
DoN't LoOk
StOp
Do NoT jUdGe
DoN't
Do NoT jUdGe StOp
StOp StArInG
DO NOT
JUDGE
STOP
DON'T
STOP
LAUGHING
DON'T LOOK
STOP
STARING
CAN'T
BREATH
CAN'T
STOP
DON'T
STOP STARING
DON'T LOOK
DO NOT JUDGE
me
Anxiety DisorderI feel worthless, useless.Anxiety Disorder2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
A pest, a weight, ruining everything.
I feel broken, shattered, like glass.
I have no hope, no light.
Feeling like running away.
From everything that curses me.
I don't feel like living with this anymore.
I feel like falling, endlessly, into the ocean.
Under the waves, choking, drowning.
Where I try to lift my hands up.
My body is heavy, my mind is scrambled.
I don't think normally anymore.
The words don't have a proper sentence.
I listen to their poison lies, over and over.
I can't do much else, it's the only thing in my head.
I've wished and worked hard.
To no avail have my efforts been.
So I suff
AnxietyThere is a freight train inside my ribcageAnxiety5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And it pounds at the walls
Shredding my dignity to pieces
This anxiety is scratching the chalk boards
Peeling away at the rooftops
It never leaves me alone
I am left with spider webs on my tongue
One bullet for one mind
A one way ticket to the unknown
Tonight I pray to a God I do not believe in
For some type of relief
To help my soul from melting
AnxietyMy anxietyAnxiety3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is biting me
It's fighting me
Childish like a frightening night
So innocent, but the lightening might
Shut off the lights
Shut off the electricity
All interesting
Because I'm never sure of anything
You liking me
Trying to see
If my everything
Is worth anything
Understanding nothing
Kind of like huffing on helium
Drinking numbing rum
And I'm strung
Can't we just get coffee
Do you hate me
Am I over reacting
Probably
I blame it on my anxiety
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AnxietyAnxietyAnxiety10 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I never expected this to happen
But then, no one ever does
I guess I expected all too much
And now I wish it could be
Back to the way it was
I wanted it to be something great
For you, it could only be that way
But it never followed my plan
So I\'ve screwed up all over again
This is just another mistake
I don\'t know what you\'re thinking
And I don\'t know if you care
But I put my heart into this
I did the best I could for you
And life still won\'t be fair
All I can do now is hope
Hope you\'ve appreciated my effort
Hope that I can finally have you
Yet no matter what I do
I still get treated like dirt
It\'s already
IsolationWhen I had no one to talk to, I had conversations with the voices in my head.Isolation3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
When I had no friends, my imagination was my closest companion.
When I had no reality to hold on to, I embraced the world of fantasy.
When I had no light to guide me, I threw myself into the darkness.
When I had no one else...well, at least I had myself.
DesperationI sit in my roomDesperation6 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Desperate for attention
Letting these words flow out
Never to be heard
The music's so loud
I can't hear myself think
This habit is so old
I can't feel it anymore
I'm all alone
No one is here to help me
You won't answer your phone
The point of living, I do not see
I've been sitting here for hours
Searching inside
For answers
Nothing is alright
My thoughts are jumbled
Look at me;
I'm a mess
What am I to do
I'm scared of being left here
Without you
I've got nowhere to turn
Aside from towards this blade
Come to me
Take away the blade
You are the only one
That can hold me back
Tell
For YouLet me do this for youFor You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me be there
Let me make you happy
Let me fake my emotions
Let me stay quiet
Let me do this for me
Let me love you
Let me watch you
Let me hurt myself
Let me be emotionless
Let me do this for them
Let me pretend I don't hurt
Let me say I'm alright
Let me eat without a lecture
Let me grieve
Let me do this for Him
Let me scream at nothing
Let me talk to the air
Let me have my fits
Let me cry alone
Just let me do this
Because it's all I have left now
I'd RatherI'd rather you be happyI'd Rather2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd rather you have fun
I'd rather stay silent
Than admit my distaste
I'd rather you feel better
I'd rather you not know me
Because, in truth, I hate this
It's not fun, and it's all for you
But I'd rather not say that
I'd rather just keep silent
Because I want you to be happy
I don't want to be selfish
DepressionYou want to hurt yourself, but you can't feel anything anymore.Depression3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You want to smile, but every attempt makes you want to cry.
You want to live, but the urge to die is hard to push away to the back of your mind.
You want to die, but you're too scared of what happens after you take your last breath.
Isn't it pathetic when people want what they can never have?
Close...I am getting so closeClose...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feelin' the need to overdose
It really gives me a scare
Know I must not travel there
A knife that I am gripping tight
An urge I always have to fight
Laughter ringing in my ears
Constantly holding back my tears
Pain follows me when I'm awake
Not much sleep that I do not fake
Writing is my only cure
Lessening the pain so that I can endure
AloneCompletely aloneAlone8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In a crowded room
Can you see me?
Hear me?
Or am I not part of this world
Am I nothing?
I'm pushed away
From the living
From life
And from you
In solitude
In darkness
In hope
that you will save me
(you don't)
I push through the crowd
Effortlessly
They aren't there
Don't care
But I fall
Over and over
and over
Tumble
Trip
Fall
Crawl
To the corner
And sit
Alone
Yet not
I can't see you
Hear you
And I'm alone
Again
In a crowded room
You won't save me
(you wont)
ListenThey all said "I want to save you"Listen6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And they swore "We want to be there for you"
Then they told her that she pushed them away
That they couldn't help if they didn't know
If they didn't understand
And she said,
"I never wanted you to understand.
I only needed you to listen"
anxietyits not that i amanxiety2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
mean, or cruel
even though i am,
a bit.
i am just so frightened
that
you will disappear.
im talking about all of you
about everything
about all things
rocks, the sky
asphalt, steel
fire, pearls
blood, and bone
all might dissolve
like memories
from a dream
the fear is crushing
taste could be burned away
and sight imprisoned
motion concludes
and potential energy is expended
but existence
is eternal
what is shall be
a rose is a rose is matter and energy
neither created
nor destroyed
everything exists
it won't just
go bloop
and disappear forever
right?
but i fear it-
(the fear it
scratches at
DesperationI have cried todayDesperation8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll tell you why
People don't give a fuck if someone tries
I ran away today
I'll tell you why
People seem to just pass on by
I stumbled and fell today
I'll tell you why
I run from my fears as they assault my life
I died today
I'll tell you why
Nobody really cared about an outcast like, I
Not The Girl You Think I AmI'm not the girl you think I amNot The Girl You Think I Am8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I promise I never will be
I'm not what you expect and know
Just open your eyes and see
I'm not as simple and innocent
As you all want to think
I'm not so cute and I'm not sweet
So take another drink
Because when you see the real me
You'll wish you never knew
That one day I'm going to hurt you
One day I'll fall through
So you want to know the truth?
To pull away the covers?
Well the girl I really am you know
Has a heart a different colour
I could tell you just who I am
And who I want to be
but who I'm not is more important
So tell me what you see
You see the girl you think I am
But I've been
Sta.sh
