cotton feverand i remembered last summer.cotton fever10 years ago in Scraps More Like This
and i remembered the boy i loved.
and i remembered everything we ate and smelled and tasted and saw.
and i remembered the world a different way. a better way, but a killing way.
and i remembered the time we'd kill with his father the drunk.
and i remembered hearing him fuck some hooker in the room next to us.
and i remembered chasing dragons to bed.
and i remembered taking in the sunsets and rises from his rooftop.
"me and my valuable friend can chase all the pain away"
and i remembered his killing looks.
and his troubled heart.
and his fucking death-star girlfriend.
and her death-star letters.
and the way we would all lay around on the shag carpet with wooden walls.
and how she sucked his dick and told me about it.
and her beautiful eyesockets.
and how they held nothing at all.
and the way on new years day he cried and vomited while he sat naked next to me.
and how his father called us faggots all the time.
and how his father knew nothing.
and the time i