DesiderataHands, chest, fingers, back,
eyes with black hole tunnel heading
soulward, stoic, then sordid whispers,
distorted by shifting, lunging, lifting,
leaning forward, moving back,
supressing, depressing, undressing
expressing obsession, a predilection,
to erect a monument to a
lifetime of pent up good intent,
then spent and going slack, exhaling,
words failing, chest heaving, drinking the sound
of labored breathing, sweat dripping,
then slipping back into
the curtain of the dark of evening.
Why do I do this to myself?So I can say "sexy" withWhy do I do this to myself?10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a straight face, buy clothes to
show myself and wear them out
on dates, display what's left for
men who'd pay for my half-size
salad, hold doors for me and tell me
how stunning I look, but take no interest
in anything I have to say.
So I can be what I've always hated
and everyone else always wanted:
bleached blonde and bronze
So I can feel the slow
rise of collarbone, ribcage through skin
and know that I'm finally fitting
in as I feel the deflation of
personality: turn on the bubbly,
learn to flirt, be objectified,
smile when the wolves
me hungry-eyed stares.
Because everything's better
in pairs and to make one,
you've got to lose a little
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
-she seeks solace-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the crevices of her mind
because it's the only place
where innocence still remains;
and it is the only place
where she can think
without the corruption of the world plaguing her mind.
FlawedInsecurities.Flawed5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
-i. the world would be a better place if-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
no longer existed
there is far too little time
to hold such bitterness in our hearts.
ii. the world would be a better place if
we found homes
in each other
home is where the heart is,
and my heart lies with you.
iii. the world would be a better place if
to believe in ourselves
it’s okay to fall
when you will rise once more.
iv. the world would be a better place if
the scars that adorn our bodies
in our flaws.
v. the world is a better place
because of your kindness
and everything you do.
ShatteredShattered12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shattered girl, broken glass
pulled upon by the growing mass
weary eyed and sinking low
she wished this fast paced world to slow
by herself, she walks alone
becoming colder, made of stone
She lays down on her comfy bed
as thoughts of love, leave her head
All the truths, and all the lies
have all darkened, her once blue skies
So in the darkness of her room
she sits and ponders her current doom
For she has loved and lost
and should her soul be the cost?
you should have seen her, those last few days
when all her colors turned to greys
When all her life, darkened in
because of your every sin
Because you broke her fragile heart
She turned and ripped herself apart
'Best Friend'You left me here,'Best Friend'9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
I Luv YouI'll always love youI Luv You8 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
No matter what you do
I'll never forget you
Even though I said I would, too
I will always try
To go on ahead
Because I love you
I'll always love you
It's Hard To Break Bad HabitsIf I allow my tongue toIt's Hard To Break Bad Habits8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
touch the top of my teeth
to the bottom to utter a
"I Love you"
tonight, does it mean I
can't say it again?
I bite my nails
as I recoil, remembering
the bad habit, barely making
progress in this patience
plaguing, somber, far from serene
two minutes since we last
said our good-byes,
good-nights, good-wishes of
sleepfully peaceful mind shows.
Feels like an eternity since
we last spoke, while Eternity
waits by the door,
readying to again make my heart
long so long for you.
~she has always been
so successful in her
-she hides skeletons-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
in her closet;
she hears the monsters
that lurk under her bed
and the demons
trapped in her head.
-you sometimes f o r g e t-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
who you really are
beneath the facade
— — because it is too painful
to acknowledge your sins.
more than friendsi would hate to say itmore than friends11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but our friendship just cant last
the wonderful times we shared together
have faded to the past
i told you it would happen
that our friendship was bound to end
although i know you care,
i cannot consider you as a friend
please dont try to argue
just try to understand
that time can change people
as the tide can change the sand
our friendship has been lovely
but you see it has to end
for i feel a different way
ive fallen in love with you my friend
ReconciliationHey...it's you.Reconciliation3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
You had forgotten about me, hadn't you? I can't even recall the last time there was something between us. At long last you remembered whom you'd vent old emotions with, only to create new ones afterwards. Whatever your mood was, I was ready for our little games. Remember?
Now...don't expect everything to be the way you left it. It's no secret that you've been out there spying other couples, and whenever you got motivation to come back to me, you set it aside, favoring mundane pleasures that didn't take long to die.
I forgive you.
For all this time I've done nothing but think of your return.
I’m here just for you.
Of course, you have to start doing your own part, and you better put effort this time. You can start by telling me what you're like nowadays. What have you done lately? What dreams, ambitions and fantasies are still there from the old times? Do you still have that peculiar vision of life, which got us together in the first place? From that moment, there w
Free VerseThey call this verseFree Verse7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A free verse
But how free
Can it be?
It' can't reject my rhymes,
Say no to my syllables
This free verse is as free as a slave
This slave verse is stuck on the page
What is Free?
-you do not know of the burden-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
that lies upon my shoulders
nor the pain
that i carry in my heart.
Let Me DieLet me dieLet Me Die15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
L' HirondelleQuand il regarde le ciel au-delà des nuages,L' Hirondelle5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Je suis une hirondelle lovée dans le mirage
De ses yeux éclairés par les brumes océanes,
Déposant sur mes ailes une lueur diaphane.
Lorsque la nuit s'éveille, ses prunelles s'agrandissent
Vers un profond silence dans lequel je m'immisce,
Pour écouter son cur plus grand que l'univers
M'offrir sans restriction les clés de son mystère.
© Deedrane 2010
One by OneThe human soulOne by One4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is a thing so hollow
Not even time can fathom
The end to it's fathomless depths
Just like the hole in your heart.
No one wants a broken toy,
That is all that I can ever be
Shameful to burden society
With my petty useless nonsense.
Your eyes betray
So much more than you allow them,
And you are so much more
Than you give yourself credit for.
Haunting melody that calls to me in silence,
As we're gazing at the stars together
Everything goes by,
And we're counting all the scars
One by one
And the hidden meaning behind
The look in your eyes
Says it all.
-my breath hitches-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
at the sound of your voice
my heartbeat quickens
at your pulse felt beneath my fingertips
and my world shatters
at the realization
that you no longer remain at my side.
I HideAll that I am and all that I doI Hide4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is riddled with pure destruction,
Laced with toxic cyanide;
Never to be touched by mortal hands.
Can you buy a simple soul from me?
No, what I know is not for sale,
And even in your dreams
You could never see anything so pure.
Always saying things like
No, never, broken, so damaged;
Eternal, forever, always, so permanent,
And nothing can ever repair it.
You've stolen such things from me
That cannot be spoken of,
And yet I still must go on knowing
The true source of all this despair
My entire world is dying all around me,
And all I can do is watch the embers burn;
White hot, like the deadly pure magic
Which I am no longer to use.
Addicted to you and all of your charm
Not because of who you are
Or because you treat me well,
But because you cause me pain.
I've always been in love with pain,
Ashen cinders burning to a black death
Always wanting, but never feeling more;
At least I can feel you now
You're the only one in all the world
Who has the p
sweet dreams, sweetheart..sweet dreams, sweetheart..11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sun has drawn its curtains,
the stars dance in the sky,
as butterflies kiss your sweet forehead,
I sing this lullaby.
The wind sighs in careless breezes,
and flowers fade away,
rest on feather pillows,
watch white sheets turn to grey.
Please rest well my lover,
I pray this slumber will not end,
as I'll tiptoe through the hallway,
and fuck your hot best friend.
Wish ListWho was it that ever madeWish List4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The very first wish ?
Longing feeling to have
Something they did not ?
It continues to elude me.
Each moment that passes us by
Is another moment lost,
For it is another moment
I am without you
For so long I have burned
Sinning in my own personal hell,
Only to be saved by you
One day an angel took my arm
And He refused to let it go.
That was when I knew
He would be mine. <3
If now is not to be the Time,
Then so it may be.
If I had a heart full of wishes,
I'd waste every single one
And once I made a list
That I truly wished for
The only thing on the list
Was a name
It was His.
Nothing else in all the world
That I could want
Would ever make me happy
I'll never ask for anything else.