Numb the Feeling ~ Phan part 1Numb The Feeling~ PhanNumb the Feeling ~ Phan part 11 year ago in Romance More Like This
I'm seventeen, I have no goals no
hope and I hate myself. I spend everyday myself in my own company, I prefer it instead of faking happiness. I go to school come back for school with new cuts each day, my family don't know about the bullying or what I do to myself at night. Death doesn't scare me maybe the the fact I'm near enough dead inside anyway so it wouldn't make any difference.
I wonder why no one notices that I'm this bad then I remember that I cover it up so well with the fake smiling or hiding my cuts under a jumper. I just give up trying most times the only thing i enjoy is listening to music, it blocks everything out people,my parents and even myself.
I love walking to school, but I hate going nothing good ever happens. I constantly tell myself that someone is going to notice but the thing is I don't have any friends or people that I can trust.
As I reach the school the nervous feeling hits me even through I've been going to the schoo
Teenage TaoismGiving birth is the closest I’d ever felt to dying.Teenage Taoism1 year ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Before that, my near death experiences had consisted only of my silent announcement of pregnancy—silent, being that my social media accounts were all deleted almost simultaneously and I never returned to school in the fall, saying without really saying that I had caught the malicious disease of “teenage pregnancy”. I’m sure the whisper spread in the hallways like the Bubonic Plague. That September, sitting at home on what would have been the first day of my senior year, I imagined friends I’d never talk to again saying “she was only seventeen, and so full of life!” at my absence in the cafeteria tables, as if they were attending my funeral instead of talking about me behind my back.
"Full of life," I had snorted then, folding a never ending stream of what had once been my own baby clothes. "Literally."
I walked around like a zombie for the months of my pregnancy, deciding t
fati am not handsome, but i am endearingfat2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and wearing clothes to cover my indecent
flesh and unhealthy habits i will charm you
with witty jokes, sarcasm, and a surprising intellect;
because, who would think I’d be social
and approachable, smart, and charming
despite being fat, and unattractive?
considering the question
i dared to undress and see my body
for the first time in weeks
-sagging belly, and a full stomach ,
fat breasts, stretch marks,
and my manhood asleep
as if it were impotent
people compliment my shirts,
or my beard’s red tint
but never my smile,
and rarely my eyes.
sometimes i am cute,
and i’m compared to big teddy bears
‘cause I’m ‘comfortable’ and ‘big’
but i didn’t quite hear the same compliments
when i was 60 pounds lighter.
i am not a man, i am an overweight child
with a bad knee and penchant
to dissimulate my pain
and self-defecating humor.
my beard is a mess, but it hides
Nothing Lasts ForeverNothing Lasts Forever11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You use to tell me
everythig would be okay
You use to hold me
and wipe my tears away
You use to
take my hand
and tell me that
that I've been through
and that I could put
my trust in you
So many times you looked
into my eyes
and told me
nothing more than lies
So much bullshit
you had me believe
Like when you said
you'd never leave
And I trusted
every word you spoke
it was all a joke
I don't know how
I couldn't see
that you would soon
be leaving me
I was such a fool,
I should've known
that I would always
Because no one
can stand to be with me
All this time
I meant nothing to you
Wish I could forget
I ever knew you
I lost myself when you left that day
Because you swore we'd never sever
But I know now, it's true what they say...
...Nothing lasts forever
Forbidden LoveIf I said I cared,Forbidden Love11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
would you miss me again?
If I pretended to be there,
would you hold me close?
If I passed you by,
would you turn and smile?
If I started to cry,
would you stay for a while?
If I looked into your eyes
would you be tempted
to kiss my unfaithful lips?
If I ran away,
would you follow me
just to keep the bliss?
And if I were to die,
would you be my friend?
Would you love me then?
Twilight in five minutesTwilight in Five MinutesTwilight in five minutes7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
BELLA: I'm dependent, weak, clumsy, and appealingly feminine.
MIKE: Hello, Bella. I'm your self-appointed lapdog. I will love you and worship you and protect you from harm and never leave your side.
BELLA: Piss off. Your obsessive, immediate devotion skeeves me.
EDWARD: I'm gorgeous, dark, mysterious, and appealingly masculine.
BELLA: Oh look, something male and physically attractive. Hello, Physically Attractive Male!
EDWARD: (Spotting Bella) --grumblesnarlgrowlglower--
BELLA: Oh no! Physically Attractive Male hates me! Whatever did I do to deserve such unwarranted hatred?
BELLA: How suspicious and heartbreaking that he hates me so. Oh wellhe's beautiful, so all his wrongs are to be forgiven.
Here, BELLA is nearly smooshed by a car. EDWARD, however, displays inhuman abilities and SAVES her.
BELLA: Edward! You saved my life! I love you!
EDWARD: (Muttering under his breath) --Darkmysterioussuperpowerssnarlsmirkswagger--
FuneralI walk down the middle of the church, no one sees me.Funeral6 years ago in Fantasy More Like This
I see my best friends in one area, the family opposite.
I continue walking.
I see Wade sitting in his seat, showing no emotions, but with a tear running down his cheek.
I see Alex wearing shades, his face is cringed, and tears are slowly descending.
I see Joe sitting, looking at his shoes, hiding his face.
I see Riley wearing white, just sitting not showing her face. I knew she had a heart.
I see John sitting next to Wade, like always, but he wasn't listening to his shuffle.
Did they really care that much?
I look across and see my mother, wearing all black, and crying silently, praying.
I see my step-father comforting her, they may be divorced, but this brings people together.
He was also wearing shades like Alex, but i could see his sad face.
I see my father, sitting with his head in his hands, sobbing.
I see my siblings sitting with each other, silently, Atlee was being quiet for once, Anabel had manners, Adeline wa
My BellaPressed against your neck in a gentle embrace,My Bella7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
My thirst arises like a beast inside me,
I can feel your veins pulsing against my lips,
Your lifeblood flowing inside them, just out of reach.
I pull back, slowly, to gaze into your eyes,
And smile, for I know how mine must appear,
Black as coal, but you do not flinch, nor look away,
Nor do you show any slight sign of fear.
My hands slide up, your cheeks fitting into my palms,
As if they were made especially for me to hold,
My mouth presses tenderly against yours,
And I apologise silently for my eternal cold.
I feel your fingers, entertwining lustfully with my hair,
As I fight my own kind of lust, deep within the soul,
Now that I can taste your sweet lips, dangerously close,
I must pry you away, before I lose control.
But even as you lie, head against my chest,
The hunger subsides; I inhale, as if I could actually breathe,
And hold you close, promising in a whisper:
"My Bella, I'll never hurt thee."
Wizard of Oz 1Wizard of Oz 19 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Chapter 1: Swept Away
The sound of breaking glass filled the air, and it was quickly accompanied by the screaming of a certain royal imaginary friend.
Up in the Mansion, Bloo was running as fast as his non-existent legs could carry him, to get him away from the scene of the crime. Duchess' shrieks and screams of bloodlust filled the air, as more random objects were thrown in Bloo's direction as he fled.
"YOU INSOLENT LITTLE TOAD!! I AM GOING TO HAVE YOU KICKED OUT OF THIS DUMP!!!" the indescribable European accent filled the air, her shrieks filling the air like poisonous gas. It caused most friend's in the close vicinity to jump at just how dangerous and angry she sounded. It was given that Duchess was rarely happy, but her voice alone could melt metal.
Mac had just arrived, it being three o'clock, and had heard the tail end of Duchess' shrieks and screams as he entered the foyer. Bloo all but flew off the stairs and skidded to a halt, falling onto his back and came to a halt in front
Twilight-Uncensored Ch.1ReviewTwilight-Uncensored Ch.1Review4 years ago in Reviews & Guides More Like This
Review of Chapter One
By Stephenie Meyer
Years have gone since I've first run into a little thing called Twilight and now I've come to the part of the getting over it and letting kids have their fun, but in all this I've decided to trudge through this pile of shit and actually reread it for the first time since I took an exacto knife and cut a hole out of my only -stolen- copy.
Please note that I'm doing this not only for my own closure, but for your entertainment. I am reading this. I am not enjoying it, but I also want to lay to rest every beef I have with Twilight. [Though just the first book, the others can rot in hell.]
Lastly, I'll probably be dropping a lot of F-bombs and various other angry letter bombs. Deal with it.
Now, on with the horror fest, where we start with the preface.
As plain as you can possibly get, the preface of Twilight says nothing while saying a whole god forsaken paragraph. The tone of the paragraph honestly reminds me of w
Lost in a KissLost in a Kiss11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've never felt like this before.
I was venerable and scared, and the worst part- he knew it.
I looked into his eyes, and he into mine.
I felt a warmth spread throughout my entire body.
He put his arms around my waist and I knew I would be safe forever,
If only we could stay like this.
He slowly pulled me closer, closer, closer…
Until I could hear his slow steady breaths.
My heart was racing as I slowly fell into his embrace,
Surely he could hear it,
He should be able to feel it- my heart was pounding so hard!
Slowly and ever so gently he bent down.
Our lips met.
His lips were soft and tender,
Then his lips opened…
His tongue was warm and sweet on mine.
I felt as though the rest of the world had disappeared and it was just the two of us standing,
There on the path.
I dreaded the fact that we couldn't stay like this forever;
Lost in a kiss.
But too soon he pulled back, gently smiling-
He knew that it had been my first kiss.
I looked at him and I knew that I loved him;
This man whom only
Missing YouI can't sleep,Missing You11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I lye awake, tears in my eyes,
Heart acks, mind can't think,
Longing for you touch,
The sound of your voice, I can't hear it.
The wanting for you in my heart.
Thoughts of how good it was to have you near,
You and only you thats all I want,
Wishing to see you smile,
Longing to hear you laugh,
Charishing all the time we shared,
Hopeing my heart will heal,
V For VendettaV For Vendetta9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I was nobody....no, no....I was A nobody.
In this dark government , among the faces I was just a face.
I thought I was nothing special...nothing out of place.
You proved me wrong, how totally wrong, I was.
How swiftly you moved...into my life you came boldly!
You saved my life that night...saved me from becoming a statistic.
You must have been moved by my beautiful visage.
Or it might have been my vulnerability crying for justice...
Or you might have glimpsed the hidden strength in my soul...
Strength I didn't even know I had.
How was I to know that reflected in your face...no...your mask was my destiny?
Even as you forced me to grow...painfully...my heart was slowly overtaken.
By you...by the Man behind the Mask.
But you never let me see, touch, embrace you fully.
As if you were afraid of love...as if you were not worthy.
Not worthy of anything but your outrage and vengence...your eventual death.
People would've said that I loved the Idea of you...
But my Heart knew the Truth.
I am Bi
An autumn hopeThey were of dreams I yet not knew could breatheAn autumn hope6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And as it seems my hopes were meant to last.
Though in the scenes still in between
I found no rest for weary feet and lonely hands.
They were of satin skin, as soft as light at dusk
And when my Latin spring came into being thus
I greeted it with weary feet and lonely hands
I was of ice cold dust and melancholy sands.
Viviter's Ruthless Years pt 5A few minutes later, he had managed to find enough dry wood for a safe fire. It wasn't easy to carry wood in his normal form, though. But he couldn't change because he might end up scaring her. Why he even cared about that, he didn't understand himself, but he just didn't want to. He went back to the cave and shook his body so the wood fell off his back. He arched his back and sighed. It was hard to get those pieces on his back, and then he had trouble keeping them there while walking. But now he just pushed the pieces inside with his head.Viviter's Ruthless Years pt 55 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
When he was far enough he looked up to see that Rosemary fell asleep. Her head was on the floor, her eyes closed and her body slightly turned to one side. He continued to look at her, wondering just where she came from, or why she was alone out there. He caught himself and shook his head. Can't be wondering too much, he thought. Because not that long from now he would leave her here to going to travel again.
He pushed the wood deeper inside, and sta
Farmer's Daughter--Hen TFFarmer's Daughter--TF StoryFarmer's Daughter--Hen TF6 years ago in Fantasy More Like This
Julia looked in the mirror at 9 AM one morning
and frowned. She was of average height for her age, with
red hair down to her neck, freckles splattered all over
her tanned face, and a mild amount of muscle which she
gained from working on her father's farm.
Just like every other day of the week, it was
time for Julia to go through her morning chores. After
getting out of bed that morning, her first job was to
add some food to the hens' trough and then take a basket
and collect the eggs from the chickens' last night's
laying. Slipping her clothes and a pair of working boots,
she grabbed the basket by her bedroom door and set out to
begin her work.
The walk from the farmhouse to the chicken coop
was quite a little ways down the path. She decided to
organize her thoughts along the way. "Once I get there,"
she thought, "I'll need to walk around the coop instead
of heading straight towards the door. I wouldn't want to
startle the hens."
She was wise to think this;
How To Be NormalHow To Be Normal4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
HOW TO SUCCEED AT BEING A NORMAL TEENAGER:
(In 15 easy steps!)
1. The first step in becoming a normal, bland, and spineless individual is very simple. Never think. About anything. Ever. If you have a thought, let it go. Let someone else think for you. Thinking is hard. Let someone else do it. Save your little conformist brain cells for something less difficult.
2. Now let's talk about music. You like unique music? Not anymore! You get to listen to the same generic, repetitive sound that everyone else does. You know, that one beat over and over with the words "Yeah", "baby" and "ooh" being repeated. Lucky you!
3. To be normal, you've gotta dress normal. If you're a girl, that means you wear leggings as pants and cut up your t-shirts so they just barely cover your chest. Uggs are a must, for any time of the year, including midsummer. If you're a guy, you wear the hem of your pants on the back of your knees. Overly violent band t-shirts for bands that you only know one song for is highly
hurthurt5 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
I'm losen myself chasen somethin i think no I know I wont get.I'm hurten and getten angrier as the days go by and to tell you the truth I never cared til now.That person who made me lose what I had with the person I care about so much is a person who i truly can never forgive, or even trust.I lost my trust in her, I lost everything in her.I know I have to give up...,but I feel like I shouldnt.Oh well what's done is done that's life, can't beat it
HelplessIt was just another day in New York City. People were swearing at each other randomly and the ever-present sound of police sirens droned in the background. And there, in the midst of the commotion, sat a cardboard box. On the outside it read in scribbled black letters: Very special kitten! Free to good home!Helpless7 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
If someone were to peer into inside, they would indeed spot a kitten. It was completely black with amber eyes, and such intelligence burned in those cat-eyes that it was almost eerie. This was indeed a very special kitten. But of course, not everyone saw it this way. An older man, appearing to be in his late forties, was staring down upon the little feline with skeptical eyes. His name was Thomas Ring and he wasnt exactly the nicest person you could meet.
He scoffed. Very special kitten? Pft, you look more like a common stray. He reached inside, plucking the kitten from within and dangling it by its scruff. The kitten mewled but did not struggle
10 Ways to Annoy Emmett Cullen10 Ways to Annoy Emmett Cullen10 Ways to Annoy Emmett Cullen7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
10. Tell him he looks like a creepy stalker rapist.
9. Inform him, as politely as possible, that he has grizzly in his teeth.
8. Ask who wears the pants in his relationship.
7. Try to stab him through the heart with a stake.
6. Tell him brawn is out, scrawn is in.
5. Inquires as to how he feels to be the least-liked Cullen male.
4. When he is around, wonder aloud what Rosalie calls him in bed.
3. Ask if he is overcompensating for something with that Jeep.
2. Ask if he is overcompensating for something with those muscles..
And the Number One way to annoy Emmett Cullen?
1. When he denies the above two claims, respond with Thats not what Rosalie saaaaaid!
Edward Cullen by Bella SwanHis body is hard as stoneEdward Cullen by Bella Swan8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
and his touch is cold as ice.
His voice is smooth as silk.
His thirst is his only vice.
Vampires don't exist.
That's what I've been told.
But Edward never changes.
He never will grow old.
His family is kind
though unconventional at best.
They consider me one of them
though I am not one yet.
I deem myself unfit
for the love that he bestows.
I still have no idea
why it was me, he chose.
His immortal kiss is coming.
Better late than never.
But I know this fact is true,
only a vampire can love you forever.
Inchis in sine.Sa te sarut, as vrea,Inchis in sine.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
inc-o dat sub cerul albastru, senin,
inconjurat de atatia,
iar pe noi sa nu ne-ntereseze nimic.
Sub soarele ce-si trimite ultimele raze,
pe pamantul dezmortit,
mainile-n juru-ti sa mi le-ncovoi,
sa nu ma-ntereseze nimic.
"Apropie-te, vino mai aproape!",
desi-ti tin mainile-ntr-ale mele,
vreau sa-mi incovoi mainile-n juru-ti si
sa nu te-ntereseze nimic.
De ce-mi refuzi propunerea?
De ce-ti retragi cuvantul?
De ce nu-mi furi sarutarea?
De ce-ti suprimi avantul?
Nu trebuia sa nu ne-ntereseze nimic?
Unde fugi, unde fugi?
Ma lasi cu ochii-n soare.
Soarele stralucitor, luciferic, e inca sus
pe cer, pe-albastrul senin. Ciudat,
acum ma intereseaza totul.
Te faci ca ploua, insa la tine e soare
"pe-a mea parte norii vin",
dar stii, speranta nu moare.
De ce nu te-ntereseaza nimic?
Stai, pe mine de ce ma-ntereseaza?
Sa fi fost ceea ce afirmai pana atunci?
De te bateai cu pumnu-n piept,
dar in mod special ceva te-nteresa.
Ce? stiu ce, dar vreau din gura ta s-aud.
Nu vreau s-o