Numb the Feeling ~ Phan part 1Numb The Feeling~ PhanNumb the Feeling ~ Phan part 11 year ago in Romance More Like This
I'm seventeen, I have no goals no
hope and I hate myself. I spend everyday myself in my own company, I prefer it instead of faking happiness. I go to school come back for school with new cuts each day, my family don't know about the bullying or what I do to myself at night. Death doesn't scare me maybe the the fact I'm near enough dead inside anyway so it wouldn't make any difference.
I wonder why no one notices that I'm this bad then I remember that I cover it up so well with the fake smiling or hiding my cuts under a jumper. I just give up trying most times the only thing i enjoy is listening to music, it blocks everything out people,my parents and even myself.
I love walking to school, but I hate going nothing good ever happens. I constantly tell myself that someone is going to notice but the thing is I don't have any friends or people that I can trust.
As I reach the school the nervous feeling hits me even through I've been going to the schoo