For a friend
---------------------- We were just two souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year
OK, this is probably the most emotional piece i've ever done and probably will ever do, cus frankly its tearing my mind to shreds.
On this day (april 14th) exactly one year ago a very close friend of mine was found hanging from a tree in a nearby forest, he had decided the night before to take his own life. I found out about it two weeks later in a payphone on the other side of the world, Australia. It was quite a shock for me as you'd understand, since hes allways been a normal, happy and outgoing guy, he had all the friends you could ask for, a beautiful girlfriend, really good at sports and so on. He was comin down to australia to travel with me and everything seemed so good. But obviously everything wasn't as good as everybody thought.
It's quite hard to grasp what really has happened when you're so far away i guess. All the questions spinning around like a spiked mace inside my head was just horrible, but he had really made up his mind it seemed, since he did it in such a fatal way. If it had been pills for example it would be more of a cry for help, but hanging yourself, then you're pretty fucking set for what's gonna happen.
However I managed to pull through in my own way, and after comin home i've realized i did right in staying down there. This past year has been a black year for most of the people here at home, and it would probably have been for me too if i'd flew home earlier to visit the funeral and stuff.
Nowadays i'm pretty much fed up with all the depressing thoughts and shit, it's just not healthy. Besides hes motto in life was "life is a party", and im pretty sure he wouldn't want ppl to go around feelin sorry and depressed. Thoughts about stuff we used to do, and when we were younger still pops up almost everyday, and actually its not the least depressing, more like bittersweet, and that i can take.
Anyway, on this yearsday of his death i wanted to do something special for him and for myself. After all art is an great way of expressing ourselves.
Please note that critique is discouraged on this one for obvious enough reasons, so please be thoughtful of what you write.