This Is Depression The darknessThis Is Depression1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Childhood Thoughts...AlwaysChildhood Thoughts...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Foolish...You can't undoFoolish...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
the damage done-
You can't relive
those lonely years-
You can't resuscitate
someone who has
long ago since drowned...
And you cannot mend
a broken heart
with the use
of a simple
SolitudeFrom dusk to dawn,Solitude1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
in this desolate place
that we call
I feel that
with no way out,
Without a future,
without a purpose,
my yearning soul...
As the darkness
As the numbness
of my sanity
Wilted LullabiesOh flower why hello...Wilted Lullabies1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I didn't see you there
In the world so far below
I could barely even hear
Your screams of pain
Such wilted lullabies
Oh flower so far below me
Why do you cry?
Oh flower below
Hush your little leaves
How hard it hurts me so
To hear your petals scream
Tell me what to do
That's all I need to know
Please flower let me take you
From the world below.
Oh flower in my world
Are you really there?
Your wilted lullabies
Have turned into despair
Your leaves are now holed
You fall with the winds blow
Flower where can I take you?
There's nowhere left for you to go.
Oh flower leaving my world
Where can you go?
The world has forgotten you
Left you so far below.
And while I couldn't save you
And while I know you must go
Flower I sing your wilted lullabies
So the entire world will know
The pain of a single flower
Left in the world below.
Sorry, I Love You.You sworeSorry, I Love You.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
to make me feel
all the pain
I caused you
by destroying everything
My heart broke
and tears fell
from my eyes,
as you killed yourself.
Good Guy.You say that what you want is something you will never findGood Guy.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
You lay your head on my shoulder and I don’t mind
I breathe in deep and love your scent
And you ask if I knew what you meant
I shake my head and then you sigh
“I just want a good guy.”
Has it ever occurred to you, maybe
Your head is on his shoulder, baby
I don’t want to be your best friend
When I’m with you I feel my heart beat again
Has it ever occurred to you that I
Could be your good guy?
Here you come again with tears in your eyes
‘Cause of something he said, it’s no surprise
You fall into my arms and I let you cry
“Where the hell are all the good guys?”
Has it ever occurred to you, maybe
You’re crying in his arms, baby
I want to be more than your best friend
When I’m with you I have a purpose again
Has it ever occurred to you that I
Could be your good guy?
My Little FriendI have a friend,My Little Friend1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
She lives in my head,
She makes me hate myself,
Makes me feel dead.
Is it okay that I love it?
To have a few hidden friends?
I guess we’re just born with it,
We’re together till the end.
Maybe they’re people who passed,
Leaving us behind on this planet,
Trying to warn us of the future,
Throwing us into panic.
I love her though,
She was my first friend,
I won’t let her go.
But only at times,
She can be a real bitch,
saying too many comments,
Making my hand start to twitch.
When You LeftThe first nightWhen You Left1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I was dead
The second night
"I can't handle this"
The third night
Out of my own life
And left everyone
The forth night
"I'm used to it
But I can't tell you
How dead I was
Stay AlivePlease.Stay Alive1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Talk to me.
Tell me what shattered your heart inside.
Your heart is beating, yet, you're not alive.
You're hearing, yet, you're not listening.
You've become a black shadow.
I can see the demons in your eyes.
Your eyes have glazed over.
Your life is coming to an end.
But yet, you're still healthy, still alive.
You smile to hide your pain.
But you're slowly dying inside.
You keep saying 'I'm fine', when I know you're not.
You tell me 'it's just a phase. Don't worry'
But I've never worried so much before.
You're like a leaf
Your beauty slowly withering away, unbeknownst to everyone around you.
Soon, you're going to fall from the tree, and hit the ground.
People will walk over you, ignoring how much pain they've caused your heart.
But hold on.
It gets better, I promise.
Your heart will beat once again.
I'm hoping for a sign of life.
I'm watching for those eyes to fill with joy, like they used to be.
I beg you with all my heart.
You'll never read this.I've made up my mindYou'll never read this.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wanted to be
in the ash
that was scattered
across your cemetary
when the devil came
and smoked a cigarette
over your tomb
and I watched
it was like silk
in the moonlight
because I chose the perfect time
and I knew
that you were
lying through your teeth
every day that you
pretended as if you knew
what your purpose was
so here I stand
and I left
watching as the cigarette ashes
were sucked up by a
that thought it was funny
it wasn't funny
it wasn't a joke
like you thought it was
and I'll keep this scene playing in my head
while you'll keep laughing with
and not noticing
You're too good for themHere you are bruised againYou're too good for them1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Their words stuck inside your head
Trying to shower away
The remains of their devilry
Here you are alone again
Their laughing stuck inside your head
Trying to cast away
The loneliness with small rewards
Here you are confused again
Stuck in the maze inside your head
Trying to find your way
on streets made by someone else
Why do you always end up bruised?
Why do you always end up alone?
Why do you always end up so confused?
Why does everyone belong somewhere?
You're too good for them
Not everybody is the same
Most people really are a shame
You're stuck in a world of sheep and shit
They take one path and then commit
But you, you got the whole world in your hands
You can be all and nothing, for you it blends
You aren't cool
You aren't lame
You aren't hot
You aren't dull
You aren't pretty
You aren't ugly
You aren't a boy
You aren't a girl
You aren't straight
You aren't gay
You aren't rich
You aren't poor
You aren't white
You aren't black
You aren't yellow
MusicI hope your music can fillMusic1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The void in your chest
Where you told me your heart
Used to be
I hope it flows from your ears
Into your veins
Through your heart
To your brain and around again
Until your very footsteps
Pounding out the pavement
Seem to speak of its rhythm
I hope you tap out the rat tat ta
Of it's addictive beat
While you smoke in the streets
And that in the shapes you make
You see something that makes you happy
I hope all this happens
Because you once told me
Music always makes you happy
And I'm so sorry that I can't do that anymore.
Cardiac ArrestBreak these chainsCardiac Arrest1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Around my heart.
AbuseHitting, punching,Abuse2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Trauma at dawn,
This is all so wrong.
Nothing was there,
Just the cold air,
There you stare,
With the huge chair.
You never let me free,
To run at the big tree,
But you had other plans,
With my bloody hands.
Days turned into weeks,
Losing color within my cheeks,
The floor creaks,
With every pressure in my feet.
There lays the remains,
Of my veins,
There lays the chains,
For his gains.
Love Me.She falls asleep most every nightLove Me.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the sound of her parents pointless fight
And clinging tightly to her tear soaked pillow
She goes to school most every day
Wishing she could run away
From all those who torture her
For not being ‘cool’
Her mother, she just plain ignores her
Her father’s never even there
Who would notice if she were gone?
Who would even care?
She just wants to make it quick
To take this razor as her friend
And feel its tender loving kiss
Pressed against her paper skin
She just wants to make it stop
The feeling lonely, sad and hated
She holds the blade up to eye level
I don’t know how long she waited
She presses hard against her skin
And lines of ink bleed from the pen
The blade, it rests there on her knee
On her arm she wrote
LoveLove isn't romantic walks on the beachLove1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Love is learning to accept and not preach
Love isn't falling asleep in his arms
Love is reassuring all qualms
Love isn't watching the sunset at dusk
Love is knowing she smells of musk
Love isn't buying her flowers each day
Love is saying the things hard to say
Love isn't writing a cheesy love song
Love is accepting that sometimes you're wrong
Love isn't easy and sometimes you're scarred
Love is a battle and it can be hard
Love isn't always the things you'd expect
Love is trying not to be circumspect
Love can be found for all walks of life
Love is not just for husband and wife
Love can be seen between friend and friend
Love is a treasure that lasts to the end
Love is as difficult as you make it be
Love is for you and love is for me
HurtThe murmuring...Hurt1 year ago in Emotional More Like This
I hear them everywhere.
Talking about me, and them...
Making me insecure.
I can't handle that.
They don't know that...
I've been bullied by someone I used to know already.
I don't want to be bullied by others too...
they're passed down as I just cry on.
I just keep everything to myself,
thinking that if I'll just keep it to myself,
I'll be fine.
"Only rainbows after rain,
the sun will always shine again.
So you gotta keep your head up."
Is my motto.
Do you think this will help?
That I'll be happy?
This helps me realize,
that maybe keeping it in,
won't help a lot.
Maybe. Just maybe,
I'm not the only one who has this problem too..
I Won't Let GoWhat happened to you?I Won't Let Go1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your hollow eyes, sunken into your head.
Your pale skin, stretched over your brittle bones.
Your raven hair, falling in strands into your jet black eyes.
Your gangly arms and your long, spindly fingers grasping for a sense of reality.
But what scared me the most were your scars.
Long, thin scars ran down your face, arms, and legs like veins
One scar for every time you made a mistake.
One scar for every time your heart shattered.
It made you look...inhuman.
Your eyes were almost like that of a madman's.
They glinted with pain, sorrow, and regret.
Remember when your eyes used to be a brilliant blue?
As I recall, they were a beautiful shade, like the sea; crystal clear.
Now, your eyes were fogged.
They became dull orbs of lifelessness.
You told me it was because of the pain.
I wanted to help you, but you refused.
'Best if I'm left alone,' you'd say sadly.
You barely even talked now.
I almost wonder what's in that brain of yours.
What could've happened
Alcohol LipsI used to be an alcoholicAlcohol Lips1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
but my alcohol was second hand
passed through a set of red lips
and distilled by the flutter of tears hanging
from my lashes like I would
cling to you
I’m trying to quit
but you linger like that acid twist
that lay like a poison on your lips
and you run through my veins
with a burning fire that I figure is whiskey
and no one can fix me
I’m just wishing for another night
just begging for the liquor on your lips
another fix that will break me down
and leave me drunk
from the bite of your short instance
Can’t you see that
tempting me like this
is so twisted
because you drown in that bottle
like I drown in your kisses
and now I’ve come to miss it