Thoughts on: being fuckedThe reality of love is hard. It's heavy, it hits you; and then it picks you up and shakes you. That's the part the stories don't tell. The movies never show the way love grabs you by the shoulders and shakes you awake before you even know you've been sleeping. Love doesn't treat you like you're fragile. I've never felt love in trembles,
you're off the Richter. I feel dizzy when I try to be her, to emulate her unremarkable face, but we both know I can't
stop being extreme.
I'm not made the same, stop bending me into her, I'm sorry I can't
open my legs like she did.
I'm sorry you can't hold my waist in one hand, I'm sorry my hips carry weight,
My body has become an apology.
I had never apologised and meant it.
I wish my mother never taught me that boys hurt you to get your attention.
bittersweetcouple draw close and sway with temptations of lustbittersweet2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
looking deep into there eyes they are lost in a daze.
a bittersweet charade
twisting fate along strands of notes buried under the guides of envy
drinking from the wine of fate there is no escape,
exchanging kisses at first they tasted so sweet but the poison in each touch was enticing.
12:18And I think that 4am knows all my secrets,12:182 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think it knows how you once held my waist as you told me secrets of your own,
I think that it knows that when I was lonely I would drink wine and dance under pine trees.
By Friday you smelt like Summer again,
you smelt of the salt kissed air on the nights our feet would trail along train tracks.
You kissed me again like that day in March,
you kissed me as you did when it was nothing but lust, nothing but star-like shadows.
Burni will hold the candle and its flameBurn2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
upwards for the moment when you realize
i have yet to disappear
i will breathe into your lungs
so inhale sharply and let your eyes snap open
i'll exhale my soul into your body
so these old husks we carry around upon our backs
will have their use again
b u r n b u r n b u r n b u r n
i will hold myself steady right here just for
IntoxicationWhat can intoxicate the brain faster than a gulp of beer?Intoxication2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
And make the soul sink to the deepest abyss in the ocean?
What would I give to live in a different version of reality?
One in which you and I are in each other’s arms –kissing and loving
Kissing and loving our hours away
Wasting our hours away every second
Wasting every second of the night in the company of the long and dreadful night
But instead I miss you as the cold and dreadful night devours my dreams
I miss you as my thoughts take ride on a train that run into a wall of misery
I miss you as you; yet I know you might not even thing of me, let alone miss me
I’d wait upon a dock; only if I knew the truth.
If knew that you miss me too and want to put an end to darkness of the night
But it might be in the darkness of the night
That you make love to her and not me; and she consumes me with the coldness
And takes my heart away; beat after beat
She won’t let me go
Because it is you; who can intoxicate my bra
LilliesOh in secret, we held our meetings,Lillies2 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The emotions we felt had been so fleeting.
I poured my soul and stretched it lightly,
The joy we spoke was almost nightly.
We always argued, despised our day,
Tried our best to keep them at bay.
We had different ideas, could not relate,
Could never say she was my 'mate'.
I did not astound her, she knew me right,
My only attribute thrown to the night.
She who I loved, she saw me straight,
It did not save us from our fate.
She held dominion, infected my thought,
Corrupted my mind, the skill she had wrought.
She knew it well, she played her cards,
In games of emotion, she was never sparred.
On our last occassion, we decided to cross,
The shallow river, twas our great loss.
I saw her colour, I saw her feeling,
I saw the thoughts she was concealing.
It made me bitter, it made me mad,
Oh, the romance we could have had.
In weak-kneed triumph, I clawed and clawed,
During my glory, she claimed last straw.
Never dared to think of history,
The truth she held in
A Part of MeDrawings on paper constructed of hope and stardustA Part of Me2 months ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Gathering memories long ago lost and forgotten in the void of night
Line up the pieces
Gathering pictures of friendship and journeys far away
Put the pieces together forever knowing that they will be entwined
Linking the memories
Caged is the bird with the pen and the paper of your heart
Casting shadows of memories of another time and another place
Onto the pages
Your Marlboro LightsI'm letting go of the sightsYour Marlboro Lights2 months ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Of a future with you
With your Marlboro Lights
And your bottles of booze
Because death and desire
Seem to go hand in hand
And while we burn like a fire
We still fall with the sand
You were curing my lonely
I was making you worse
And I could pray to the holy
That you could live through the hurt
But I was making you bitter
I was making you drown
Between white lines of glitter
My love was holding you down
Once the future was bright
When I missed all the signs
Of your Marlboro Lights
And your tabletop lines
But you tore me apart
And we brought out the worst
From inside our own hearts
Nothing cuts like the first
You were curing my lonely
In the dead of the night
And I could pray to the holy
That you could live through the fight
But I was making you colder
I was killing you slow
Between a rock and a boulder
My love had to let go
Once we dreamed of a future
And we wanted it all
Thought with stitches and sutures
We might survive the fall
Now the bruises and break