-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 11]
I promise myself not to give in this time. I promise with all the eternity in the world that his eyes won’t penetrate me and disrupt me. I promise that even if he gives me a smile, I will not falter and stay strong. I promise even with my dying self, I will no matter what not fall for him when he gives me his hand. I promise that it is different, and even with the touch of his lips, that my heart does not feel. I promise … nothing. Nothing at all. Seriously, who am I trying to kid here?! My stubbornness is not working. Which doesn’t help at all because all I want is for it to work. Please, just a while. Just for the while so I don’t have to fall into a bucket of mush when I look at him. Ugh, he’s so … NO! Don’t think about him that way. That’s how you will fall for him again and have to submit to that aura of his. Do not do that. You can’t. Not again. It’s not worth doing that to him again. Telling him lies that he will b
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 8]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 8]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
This is not a date. This. Is. Not. A. Date. THIS IS NOT A DATE. No matter what the definition of a date actually was, this was not a date. As Hana and Gou were trailing behind their so called interpreted ‘date’, [Name] was almost beating herself over the possibility of it being. But yet, every time she decide to look into his eyes while he smiled or pointed to things of interest that changed, her heart fluttered and whatever [Name] was trying to make herself believe failed miserably along with her deceiving soul. There was a point and break of how much a girl could react to such things, and it was pretty obvious that she was indeed on the ledge of such. They walked with a space that was warming and no one could interrupt. No one could enter. No one could pull apart. So close but yet so distant, was the feelings being admitted through their bodies as they shied away but then closed in when one felt the need to speak and gaze the look into the others eyes. This true re
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 10]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 10]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
A little note from the writer:
Hey guys~ Before you start reading here's a little song that I put into the story. It's called 'I'll Be Seeing You' sung by Billie Holiday. The Song! The song goes faster than my writing. So if you read first and then listen, it should work. Anyways! Enjoy lovelies!
A deathly pale morning yellow seeped through paper sheer curtains. Falling victim to the curling heat of a sun that rose so still, were cream scarred knees. Soft drowned tunes of harmonious instrumental jazz and the harsh cracking of an older record, played through as the dust particles danced in melody with the sun rays. A body out of all dimensions and life, lie on rustled sheets as eyes watched the music of soothing chills wave in the atmosphere. “I’ll be seeing you… in all the old familiar
-Four Thousand Trains- MakotoxReader [Entry 1]-Four Thousand Trains- MakotoxReader [Entry 1]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Dreams. They’re something that feed into the nonsense of fantasy. Because you dream. You dream so hard and you wish constantly of what you want but yet the thing you want, won’t happen because you’re wishing and hoping so hard. So then you try to wish for the opposite so the real wish you want will happen. But then everything falls apart because you couldn’t possibly think of the real outcome. The outcome of reality. The one that rips you in part because you came to believe that you were happy with the bad and you were happy with the one you really wanted to happen. But of course reality comes to slap you in the face, telling you that you’re a silly girl and that you should never dream. You should never hope. You should never love. Because dreams don’t come true.
Hi! I’m [Name] Natakana. Now I hardly can say this is going to become some formality that I will use upon leisure but I was told that expressing these things I have would be best in
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 12]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 12]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
(Hey guys~ so I have to apologize... this one is super freaking long Q.Q Please don't hate me and take breaks if you need! But I seriously couldn't break it up anywhere and I promise none will ever be this long AGAIN! //cries in a corner//)
I’ll be waiting here for you, always in the end.
Would she? Would she always be waiting for him? He had to wonder as outstretched arms pinned into the water’s surface gliding his body through. Staring up at the scattered cloud sky, huffing from the thrust of all his backstroke force, something seemed off to him. Even if it was the truth, her being there and not imagining it, how did she know? [Name] wouldn’t have… OH! It had to Gou, she said she was going to do something she wouldn’t tell him, and this must have been it. The pure fact that Gou had done this for him, made [Name] come to see him swim, made his body push forward harder than before, especially after the sight of the girl that made his blood r
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 3]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 3]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was finally the time of the day were sluggish teens got to feed themselves the energy for their lasting moments of the never ending school day. The only time of the day that could be appreciated by the lot of them for it gave them the freedom they hardly were ever given. For a sudden change in the pace of their lives, the four boys from the swimming club ate in the gardens this mid summer day. The heat of the mid-day was just too hot to eat upon the roof, so the shade from the ever living emerald trees provided them the coolness they desired. The only femininity was missing from the normal group; she forgot to pack her lunch today and had to withstand the wretched lines in the cafeteria for her stomach to be satisfied. Though the tallest Makoto offered himself to getting it for her, she denied him all chances by running off before she answered him with a struck tongue and quick moving feet. They all sat within their own worlds, eating peacefully with the summer songs of sparrows gli
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 4]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 4]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
How long has it been? Two days… three days. Four days possibly. I can’t even remember, they all seem put together with messy glue dripping down to the end. I have been sitting here, disgusted with myself. Disgusted with these feelings that shouldn’t be there to begin with. How is that most of my life, I sit here with the empty corpse I am and am now after one morning off utter crap, able to feel these countless waves of what seemed to be happiness. It’s stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Everything is so stupid. I thought, for the rest of my life, happiness would be disappearing like the stability of my mind since I left this place. But no. absolutely no. The gods decided to torture me and tell me that even with a dying head on my shoulders, with a body of a skeleton, with a disgusting disease called myself, I could still feel after what has happened to my pathetic life. Not only that, I am so utterly stupid for even listening to those damned Trains in
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 9]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 9]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was awkward, no doubt about it. What girl wants to be found by a good friend fanning herself in an alley way and practically hunching over in utter dripping excitement. Oh no one. No one at all. But yet, here Gou was with Makoto. Both sitting on the train embarrassed with themselves being found out by the other, in utter silence. Makoto was staring out the window in front of him, his shoulders blazing with the heat that slouched there when she stared up at him with nervous laughter and instincts to run away. Gou was staring at the ground, twiddling her thumbs with the possibility of being scolded. She knew it was wrong to watch what was there, but she did anyways. Now Makoto was mad at her, maybe? She couldn’t tell, there was a mix of emotions in his voice when he found her. Surprised. Embarrassed. Afraid. Pleasure? But now, she couldn’t even bring herself to look at him, let alone sit near him. She was one seat away from his body because his aura was just too much to ta
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 17]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 17]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Goodbye, my love.
A silence so sickening was just too much for any unwanted hearing. A deafening stillness that made ears bleed from inner screams was almost just as loud as the machine telling the world that another had passed on. It couldn’t be her. It just couldn’t. There was no way. In the denying furry of his mind, Makoto kissed those draining lips of color once more but so heavy he broke through to her teeth and pushed as much life as he could so she would breathe once more. She had to come back. She wouldn’t leave him like this. He squeezed her body to him remembering those soft words of how much closer she wanted him but the more he tightened that grip the looser it got. He didn’t want it to be her. That beatless heart couldn’t be hers, but as her head rolled backwards from the ending hope that was leaving his finger tips revealing her pale white throat flattened without air and no nerves to keep it up right, he dropped her from his arms hea
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 6]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 6]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
[Name] never needed Shuuji’s arm on the way home. What she needed was a daisy and the little children that knew she could. Her feet did scrap against the ground and her pace was way behind his. That didn’t matter much though. Her fingers just continued to thumb over the precious white petals and her faint smile was enough to make Shuuji feel his trick worked. Miraculously they did run into some old school friends of his from the past. [Name] paid no attention to them what’s so ever. She looked down at her flower as her knees continued to sink to the floor the longer she stood there. The people took immediately notice to her. She was a walking piece of skeleton from the grave. At the time they said hello, they noticed her presence and felt appalled by her. By the way she slumped down into the background, picking at a flower with a body that was withered into her bones that struck from her body and through her clothes. They had looks of sadness and what mattered was Shu
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 7]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 7]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I wonder if this is some formality to psyche yourself out and then cause your heart to race a thousand beats per second to become this stupid pit of mush that you just can’t seem to control. Like why? I never understood that, but yet here I am, sitting on a stupid park bench sweating beyond compare with a stomach that can seem to control its nerves. I also can’t seem to control my breathing. I'm heaving with an uncontrollable fever that can’t even remember what it was like to be normal. Or my brain even trying to remember how to make a damned decision about anything. What am I going to wear? What god forsaken train do I get on? Should I eat or not eat? Do I bring this or that? Which tooth paste do I use? Why does this have to be some damn stupid game that no one can ever figure out with any mind set? It makes me so agitated. However, here I am. In dusty old overall shorts and a baggy white shirt because the tooth paste I chose spilled all over the PERFECT dark pink
/Melody Relay/ 01.- Whipped Cream (Makoto)/Melody Relay/ 01.- Whipped Cream (Makoto)1 year ago in Short Stories More Like This
“I WANT IT WITH WHIPPED CREAM ON IT! BABY! GIMME, GIMME, GIMME YOUR LOVE~ CAUSE I'M HUNGRY YOU CAN KEEP IT FROM ME, LORD KNOWS YOU GOT MORE THAN ENOUGH! BABY I…”
There he was. His little surprised gone unnoticed till I walked into the room, and flipped on the light switch settled on the wall near the door. What surprised me most causing me to throw the mail that was in my hands all over my apartment was not the fact he was half naked, straddling my bed whilst waving about a can of whipped cream. Oh no, no. That wasn’t the problem at all. In fact, it was quite adorable it made me squeal inside. The problem was, he found it necessary to sing that song along with pointing the whipped cream can towards me, with eyes I think could go unseen. Praise the lords, Makoto; you drive me up walls I have never seen before.
“I’M FIENDIN’ I KNOW YOU GOT YOUR REASONS FOR KEEPING IT TO YOURSELF! BUT YOU GOT, PLENTY HONEY, I DON’T THINK IT’
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 5]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 5]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Freedom finally occurred as the door shut behind him following a gentle thud. With a kick to the front gate he was gone with a dear sister in his arms. Nothing seemed to bother him anymore at this point, without the chaotic feelings being thrown around the house, his head cleared and a deep breath filled his lungs. It was so warm out, so warm he was still contemplating why his mother thought [Name] would need her jacket. She was fine in his arms. She felt… warm to his own belief. As he walked by the front of the house, something caught his eye in the window. Quickly glancing over, he witnessed his poor mother break in front of him. Standing in the darkness of the living room, her hands were pressed against the sides of her head; eyes closed shut as if the voices inside her head were finally too much to take and the demons were ready to split her skull in two. Within the second, the waterfall of tears tore open from her eyes and her body collapsed with no utter emotion but the nu
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 2]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 2]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
After long anticipation of finding a place to sit, the alley way lead then to a small park down the street it opened up too. Gently guiding her by her elbow, she fought as hard as she could from him not to. She hated when people had to change their ways for her. But what did that mean? He was always caring no matter what. Always wanted to take care of her. It was something he just did, right? Always something he did. She reassured herself. She coughed as he came to a bench and sat her down. She covered her mouth with her hand and fought back the tears. She could feel his smiles on her cheeks and she couldn’t get why he was so happy. Or how could she. She hadn’t felt happiness since the day she left. Or the day her father- it was fine now. All fine. But how could it ever be?
Makoto broke the long silence she was forcing herself to keep or that’s what he thought. He thought she was going to be sick some more so she couldn’t speak, or was the fact of seeing
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 14]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 14]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The sound of a pen tapping on paper being tousled between fingers continuously rung but was never heard. The screeches of the rails that metal wheels ran on rang louder but she could still feel the contact vibrations the pen made into her finger tips that kept her mind a little bit calmer. [Name] wanted to write, she really did. But there was nothing making her. She just continued to stare out the window, forever watching the scenery roll by as fields turned to blurred lines and the blue ocean in the distance shinned from the sun finally peaking over its slumber horizon and stretching its hands into a coming blue sky. It was then the pen stopped completely and struck the paper one more time, she looked away from the scenery with a sigh. The feelings inside her were causing things to go from bad to worst. Shuuji had left her finally. Gone far, far away across an ocean you can’t swim to be together. Her only solider in her battle of happiness ducked behind a plane door and disappea
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 15]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 15]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“Where you guys going to kiss?”
Never again. Never again was she going to let that happen. Never again was she going to let her guard down and think for five seconds that they were alone and they could have done anything in the world being in the close proximity like they were. She felt like a fool. Maybe more than Makoto did and better yet, she could feel those deep nervous breathings of his on the back of her neck, that’s how bad he was radiating the heat of his little sister interrogating them as they stood like idiots in the middle of his room, blubbering with the problem of not being able to make words. Her head got so far ahead of the moment that the possibility of them being alone in a room was just way too good to be true. She felt like being an ostrich and shoving her face into the floor where she didn’t have to pull out till everything disappeared. It was desperate, she knew that but what else was there to do. Better yet, Makoto was making words
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 13]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 13]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Of course she would be confused right now. [Name] was wrapped in a strong hold of Makoto’s arms and before she could even react to anything, he was going to kiss her on the lips even if she wanted it or not. Forbidden, yes. Could potentially get them both killed, yes. Wrong, eh, maybe so. Beyond the boundary of something she truly didn’t want, no. Absolutely not. To tell the truth, she was waiting for the moment he would come to the breaking point and just kiss her regardless if she was screaming no. Her body would say yes, there’s no doubt about it. Just as it did now when the tip of his nose grazed her own and she could feel his heated face that tingled her freckled cheeks.
“Oh no! Don’t let me be the one to stop you.” That distinctive growl Rin released from his throat was as if the dogs were forcing their hunger through his back and change him into a beast of the unforgiving. Makoto’s whole body stiffened as he leaned f
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 20]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 20]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“Mom!?” There was an unfamiliar rush in feet stumbling down wooden stairs so strong that it could of shook the frame of a house bursting from the seams to its final tense stretch. The large body that was on the taller side of his age burst through the opening to a kitchen after doing an impressive slide so he wouldn't collide with the standing wall that was imposing it's possible hurt at the end of the stairs. The clinking of metal on glass and the sound of a tiny splash from a sink was made by the women who would have been fully enveloped by the strong arms of a son that she birthed into the world. Not flinching a bit from her son's frantic entrance, the boy lunged his body right by her side with a loud thud nevertheless causing her to gasp and almost flail about rapidly. “Mom, have you seen my tie?” Nearly scaring her half to death, Makoto decided to speak softly in an almost whisper because of the closeness of her aura and the immanent glare he received when
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Prologue]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Prologue]2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The summer wind crept in through the hot lit rays of the sun, which was taken by the seas arms from down below. It blew on the melting earth like a breath of cool bland whispers. Laughter and the sound of the drying sheets on their designated lines swayed with the wind that pushed them. There was nothing here but the subtle happiness of children playing and a content mother pressing the everyday needs of the house.
“Be careful you two,” the mother voice was solemnly chill just like the breeze that continued to be pushed from the sea. “You don’t want the cloth to get dirty again.”
But the children that played with hearts that were leapt from fantasy, did not hear her. They ran and tagged each other under, threw and around the memorizing whiteness.
“You’re never going to catch me!” the girl squealed as she skipped across the lawn but a hand grabbed her wrist so suddenly her play was jolted to a stop. She turned with a loud giggle.
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 18]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 18]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
In a slight sway back and forth, [Name]’s tiny hand covered her mouth as the breaking cough that sounded like her lungs burst in two, followed a light moan of satisfaction. Finally a cough decided to break up what was sitting on the bottom of her lungs and dwell in her cavities with is mutanist decay. Just the feel of it becoming lighter than it’s before heavy slumber caused her to blush and that hand that covered her mouth went to lightly cup her cheek as she hummed. The sheer hope that she was finally getting over the cough that was keeping her awake and causing her to be so lethargic that she could only get some shut eye if she hugged the back of the couch and slept sitting, was finally leaving her. Having herself sitting on that couch that only gave her a piece of mind and subtle happiness the very moment her lungs jump up into her throat, she started to clear that throat with a hack which then lead to a spit in a tissue of everything nasty that almost sta
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 19]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 19]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Oh jeeze. He's really here. I mean... No I'm dreaming. I'm going to count to three and the moment three hits me, he's going to poof. Be gone. Be gone and I'm going to wake from this dream that I'm having because of the damned couch. I’m only missing him… a lot. He hasn’t called me in … like a week. I haven’t looked into those… Okay. One. Two. Thre- gods he's still there. Oh … that smile. It's so. Going to kill me. And look at him just- wait did he just ask a question? Oh fu-
They kind of stood there and stared. Well, she did anyways. Writing an entry to her journal that was nonexistent. No pen. No paper. Just her mind screaming the sensations that she could not contain but with a simple face of blank. The subtle hint of reality and the non-fantastical thoughts of him suddenly poofing into thin air disappeared with the realization he was waiting for her to answer his question of entry. Lifting her head to look him straight in the eyes
When Killer Whales Love Otters 5(Makoto x Reader)After she caught her breath, (Name) decided to go back to the Squid Festival. The main reason she went was because she was going to "hang out" with Kou, but she ended up never finding her. She took out her cellphone and called the unknown number again.When Killer Whales Love Otters 5(Makoto x Reader)2 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Hello?" a familiar girl's voice answered.
"Hey, is this Kou?" (Name) asked, making sure.
"Oh~ (Last Name)-san! My friend and I have been looking for you!"
"Ha-ha, me too," (Name) lied. "Where are you guys?"
"We just got done buying squid ink spaghetti. So we'll be waiting in front of the booth."
"Alright. See you then," (Name) said, before hanging up. She sighed. This was completely new to her, since she never really went on a "girls' night out". The closest she's ever gotten to girl bondage was with her sister and her friends, but that wasn't much. She was always left out anyway.
(Name) finally reached the booth and saw Kou and another girl with brown hair and pale blue eyes.
"(Last Name)-san!" Kou said, rushing up to (Name
-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 16]-Four Thousand Trains- Makoto x Reader [Entry 16]1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I have never been so lost before. Left, right. Up, down. I have no idea what door to choose. Tell me what door to choose… It so very loud. Why is everything so loud? I can hear their screaming voices. But they come. They come from everywhere. I can never follow them no matter how long I run for. I’m lost. So very lost. I just want to be with him. Something take me from the darkness. Makoto. My light. My truth. My hope. Find me please. I’m scared. I don’t want to be scared anymore.
The Wednesday that cursed the forever swimming practice to run longer than it should have, had the boys skipping along the side of the abandoned road facing the orange setting sun that early August day. In the last week and a half, summer break had come and gone so quickly they all didn’t have time to count the moments they never had. During that week they had all gone their ways differently having the fun they knew. Today was the first day Makoto had been back from his
When Killer Whales Love Otters 6(Makoto x Reader)"You okay now?" Makoto asked after (Name) calmed down.When Killer Whales Love Otters 6(Makoto x Reader)2 years ago in Romance More Like This
(Name) felt herself get red. She didn't mean to cry in Makoto's arms. In fact she didn't even expect herself to cry at all. "I-I'm sorry," she said, rather embarrassed. She pulled herself away from Makoto.
"Oh, it's fine," Makoto said. "It's okay to let out your feelings." He smiled.
(Name)'s heart skipped a beat. "Uh... Um... I think it's getting late, right? And your friends are waiting, right? So, maybe I should go..."
"You don't have to," Makoto said.
"N-no," (Name) said, about to explode. She had to get away from Makoto. She was too embarrassed. "I'll leave. I forgot to feed my cat." She slipped by and rushed down the dirt stairs, not looking back, even though Makoto called her name over and over again.
"You didn't have to go home!" Kou complained on Monday after school.
"Sorry..." (Name) said, feeling shameful.
"You should have stuck around," Kou pointed out. "And maybe you two would
Ohisashiburi IV (Makoto Tachibana x Reader)This kind of state was starting to feel so unfamiliar, that you almost believed your mind was playing tricks on you.Ohisashiburi IV (Makoto Tachibana x Reader)1 year ago in Romance More Like This
Such warmth that enclosed you, could only have come from somewhere high – heavens. And to feel such safety was surely some sort of Patronus’ doing. It had to be, considering how safe and comfortable you felt. As if you were in some kind of deep hibernation or coma, regenerating your energy and resting your fatigued body.
Nothing mattered. Everything was well.
Slumberland welcomed you generously, opening its gates and ushering you inside with fair promises. You felt like a child, who cozily snuggled up in her bed, after her mother tucked her in. The tepid feeling made you feel so homely, that you didn’t dare to move, in fear that it will vanish.
Thus with a soft, content sigh, you sank back in to the welcoming arms of Morpheus.
It was 6’o clock in the morning, and his head was still resting beside yours. Green eyes lazily watched eve