Embracing DeceptionMidday yesterday (Saturday) I went to the grocery store, alone, in drag. Alex needed eggs for cupcakes, and was too tied up with the baking to go herself. If this were night, or I was going downtown, I wouldn't have considered it. But since it was public and midday, I decided to go.Embracing Deception2 years ago in Personal More Like This
And something magic happened:
I've gone out in drag before, many times. It's (mostly) uncomfortable. People stare. Kids laugh. Mothers usher their children behind them. It used to get me down, but eventually I've built up a bit of a tolerance to it. It's just part of being trans in the Bible belt.
I've often heard the argument that crossdressers crossdress for the attention. They go by the old adage: "negative attention is better than no attention", and maybe there's something to that. But when I'm out, getting hollered at by teenagers, the only thing I want is for the attention to go away.
To become invisible.
This, I think, is the allure to passing.
It's a kind of mag
We have better mental health than vanillas!i've seen this floating round the mainstream media for a day or two: a new article in the journal of sexual medicine suggests that BDSM practitioners hare better mental health than vanillas.We have better mental health than vanillas!2 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
dominants came out healthiest/happiest, switches in the middle, and subs at the bottom, but still above all the non-kinky samples.
here's the abstract:
It has been generally thought that the practice of bondage-discipline, dominance-submission, sadism-masochism (BDSM) is in some form associated with psychopathology. However, several more recent studies suggest a relative good psychological health of BDSM practitioners.
The aim of this study was to compare scores of BDSM practitioners and a control group on various fundamental psychological characteristics.
The results mostly suggest favorable psychological characteristics of BDSM practitioners compared with the control group; BDSM practitioners were less neurotic, more extraverted, more open to new experiences, more conscienti
Just a few......thoughts on recent news.Just a few...2 years ago in Personal More Like This
As I left here to go home yesterday I heard for the first time about the three young women that had been kept prisoner for ten years in Cleveland.
Tragic. Reprehensible. That's what I think.
Out of the 592 deviations presently in my gallery I know they almost all depict women in peril, bondage, some state of capture and/or slavery. This is all mere fantasy, and I still maintain that all my girls, at least the ones that want to, gain freedom at some point. (Why do you think the delicious Keiko has to get recaptured so often?) For as much of a pervert as I am, I still have a tenderness toward women, and though I may fantasize about capture, keeping, and whatever else, I don't condone in any form or fashion such activity in Real Life. Bondage and capture games, even slavery of sorts, between consenting adults is fine. However, to steal someone's life is a crime worthy of the severest punishment, and yes...I sup
so... the method of workmany have been curious about my work method.so... the method of work2 years ago in Personal More Like This
well to fully grasp that i must first explain my personal origins
1 i was a traditional painter and drawer?...that doesnt sound right...
batman catwoman by nebezial
batman huntress comission by nebezial
2 i was a traditional sculptor..alas photos of that stuff mostly got lost
so here is what i did in high school.... by nebezial
i practiced abour 17 yeears now to get this bunch of mostly self taught techniques to work
most of my stuff is a digital painting now, made or drawn in photoshop cs3. never switched higher as cs3 satisfied all my photoshoppin needs
i used to do quite a bit of modelling in 3d studio max, but it was too technical of a program so eventually i gave it up and completely switched to zbrush as it provided me with excellent set of organinc modelling and texturing tools
aand some of that
ravine- process shot for lynn's winter armor by nebezial
ravine- how dragons are made XD by nebezial
Nude modeling and Healing from TraumaI have discovered this is a common theme with other nude models I have met. Those of use who experienced childhood sexual trauma and later became a nude model is a catalyst for healing from the past, really a way to empower ourselves.Nude modeling and Healing from Trauma2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Most of my upbringing I was sexually abused by several people most notably my stepfather who later went to prison. In addition to the abuse I was not loved by my mother and had the responsibility for caring for my youngest sister during my teenage years. Already a classic introvert, I was extremely lonely and lived in survival mode everyday. My first taste of freedom was when I left home the day after my 18th birthday.
In my late teens I went to modeling school and for a few years was a model in the local town. Mostly fashion shows. Throughout the years I would do shoots for amateur photographers. Then in graduate school I had my first nude shoot in Big Sur, California with a professional photographer. It was my first taste of being comfortable in front o
Cosplay Friday: SkyrimCosplay Friday: Skyrim1 month ago in Art Features More Like This
COSPLAY FRIDAY: I Used To Be An Adventurer
Skyrim - Dovahkiin Helmet
Dragons, Magic and Never Ending Quests.
Welcome To Skyrim.
Hailed by many as one of the greatest games of all time, “The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim” may soon have its successor on store shelves. Rumors are flooding the web that “The Elder Scrolls 6” release date is drawing closer with speculation placing the drop date sometime between 2015 and 2016.
Now for those of you who wis
Put on these cat ears, the world is in peril!quick! put on these cat ears! and this maid outfit! don't ask why, just do it! the world is in peril!Put on these cat ears, the world is in peril!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
and that's how it all started... a few days later and now there are kitty maids everywhere! but not nearly enough. not if we are going to save the world! (or at least intend to save the world, then get distracted and curl up happily instead. it's a cat thing)
so... join us! join the kitty-maid revolution! all you need to do is grab a maid outfit and some kitty ears and post a pic of what happened next...
Patches67, the madman who started it all, has a meme template here: http://fav.me/d5zra2m
and i'm also working on a slightly kinkier one of my own which will be up soondone!
i'll try to feature all the kitties here ^ ^
the original craziness (HeartGear/Caregan):
silenceyoursword joins in
passionWhat do you think of the passion that some women have put in pictures of themselves, provoking the anger of people who think that if you do you are a person not serious. for me it is a pleasure to photograph myself without veils, adhering aa nn exceed the limit I call vulgarity .... I think you will appreciate the commitment and nn you stop to see just a body .... everything is over and the passions should be grown .... eroticism is nice to see ... I'm against pornography ......passion8 months ago in Personal More Like This
you tell me if you like.
thanks you friends
well...damn XDtoday i woke up with my wife giddily urging me to check this bit of awesome XD...well...damn XD1 year ago in Personal More Like This
and my mind being a compilation of stupid puns with a few coherent thoughts floating around here and there....
of course my first thought was...
hang in there anne XD
Art Made With My Stock: SkullsArt Made With My Stock: Skulls2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Skullcrusher Mountain by StarsColdNight Death by zanck19 Temple by jaro78 Messenger of the Gods by IIIustrathor
Magical by ChiaraLily9 An Ancient Evil by thatstranger95 The Sun went dark by Yellwolf
Elemental by GalenValle Calavera by LadFree Faceoff ~ My Beauty by LordLollypop
Come with me! by Astralview
Solus by Alimera
The gunfighter by doclicio Sick of my life by carlosmaximus Fire Skull by CecileVCreation the ELECTED by oneoftheclan
Seawind by tekhiun
so image comics solicits for december are up!http://www.comicbookresources.com/?page=article&id=55551so image comics solicits for december are up!6 months ago in Personal More Like This
and there is sunstone book 1
and i am going full productivity mode!
cause this month i have to finish all the pre print preparations
and make a new lengthy strip as well....and make some fun stuff here
so lots of news coming soon
but till then,
with my thanx to :iconyaponez:
schedulei'm working on the next strip atm. but post 21st of december i will have the time to spam out quite a few of them so that will be fun.schedule1 year ago in Personal More Like This
i am currently juggling ravine, aphrodite 9 twitch, and sunstone + upgrading the artwork and writing for printed version of sunstone, as i have to get the book 1 done by years end so i can finalize the printing deal on that one.
now in 2014, chapters 5 and 6 will be completed, thuseending the first "book" XD
then the second "book" begins called ... mercy...
(and no, i'm not that bloody pretentious to think them as books, just.. dunno, kinda fits given their nature as separate but interconnected narratives)
aand some of you just had that look of.. oooooh i get it!
to you i say.. yes! it is exactly that
to all of you staring confusedly at the screen i say...
that too! XD
Shit Hitting The FanAs some of you may have read on my Facebook this morning, last night and perhaps a couple weeks ago, the 'ol SquirrelShaver has been going through some shit and I wanted to take a moment to clarify some issues. As a professional artist sometimes these are lessons learned the hard way because the politics of the industry, comic books in particular, are so sensitive. I'm normally very reserved and my wife and I keep these situations to our own circles but things need to be vented before my eyes explode.Shit Hitting The Fan3 years ago in Personal More Like This
1st.) Don't sell yourself short when selling artwork. You put your time and effort, sweat and tears into every piece of art that you create and you, if no one else, should respect that. Set a price and stick with it. No one is coming to you at your job to haggle you about prices on sheet rock, a gallon of milk, or that awesome new purse that Coach just released right? No. Your price is the price.
Also, if you have a piece of art th
updatesokay , so i am all but done with ravine book 2,as that is a printer priority. i have a few more days of that before i start posting new pages of sunstoneupdates2 years ago in Personal More Like This
next one is more than half done, and i will try to wrap it up in the next 3 days if everything goes right.
and then once ravine is cleared, i can both spam out chapter 4 and wrap up preparations of chapter 1,2 and 3 for print...
besides all the other stuff i'm working on my schedule is just a wee bit erratic...
GOOOD! I LOVE ERRATIC!
bondage maid-kitties featurenow that there are over 180 maid-kitties trying to save the world, i'd like to pick out some of my favourites so far to share with youbondage maid-kitties feature2 years ago in Personal More Like This
first of all, to the awesome people who did the kinky version of the meme template! thank you for validating the time i spent drawing tiny heels and handcuffs!
Cat Maids by ThatBondageGirlEmilia in the World in Peril Meme!! Finally xD by FireDragonEntei488
ok, this one totally blew me away:
World in Peril by MaximK
go and take a look at it and absorb all the lovely details. there's just such an elegant style to the lines, too. my favourite thing, though? the unconscious mirroring of styles between the maid's cat ears and the mistress's hairband.
Gagged Neko by YiceThe first adventure of Kitty the Maid 8 by Natsuko-Hiragi
two adorable kitty-maid photos here from Yice and Natsuko-Hiragi respectively. i picked these because th
this is my favorite video i ever diddon't know why, it is just weird seeing myself making a page layout XD even i have to admit my methods are a bit oddthis is my favorite video i ever did9 months ago in Personal More Like This
aaand another awesome cosplay!!!and i LOVE the framing of the shotaaand another awesome cosplay!!!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Avengers and their PokemonFerioWind has been taking over the internet with her collection of the Avengers & their new best friends, Pokemon! (Well, at least what we would like to believe are their new best friends. ) Check out her work below to see which Pokemon are teamed up with your favorite super heroes!Avengers and their Pokemon1 year ago in Art Features More Like This
SNIPPY: QUESTIONABLE REALITYI definitely thought about killing Captain, especially after several pranks that were pulled on me like that time when I woke up with a bucket super-glued to my head and declared "iron man".SNIPPY: QUESTIONABLE REALITY3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Or that time when Captain made a soup out of my gas mask filters because the broth needed the "Smooth flavour of Snippy" and salt wasn't available... so I had to roam the decaying shopping malls for a new pair.
Or that time when Captain pushed me into a watery abyss inside a wooden barrel to celebrate "Niagara falls day".
Have my thoughts become so compounded as to finally cause schizophrenia?
...Am I a stone throw away from becoming like Pilot, talking to pet rocks and building the Bastion of Captania out of rotting shoe boxes?
And if I were to kill Captain who would I have left?
I must have been talking out loud like those crazy hobos that lived outside the protectorate dome that communicated with radioactive rain clouds via conversations of interpretive dance, until they were consumed by a famil
Kirk/Spock day 2013 group fanart project! - UpdateUpdate: You can find the links for the full book below Please share!!Kirk/Spock day 2013 group fanart project! - Update2 years ago in Personal More Like This
What's K/S day?
September 15 of 1967 is the birthdate of Amok time - the gayest Star trek episode ever filmed! Every year fans from all over the world celebrate this date as the official Kirk/Spock day!! (Yes, our fandom has its own day. Yield!)
We Spirk fangirls/fanboys from Deviantart got together to illustrate a whole story in celebration of this beautiful day A group fanart - each scene drawn/written by one amazing artist
At the end of Star Trek Into Darkness, Jim and Spock live through a pretty intense situation. As Kirk recovers, they grow close enough to talk about their childhood memories of Vulcan and Iowa (Jim's birthplace). That's when Kirk decides to take Spock on a roadtrip to Iowa taking care to drive through the desert landscapes of the US as
The Matter of the MassesI've been painting for a few years now, but I feel like I'm only beginning to grasp the importance of this concept. I'll quote Robert Henri (1865-1929) from his book, The Art Spirit, which is packed full of such profound wisdom.The Matter of the Masses1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Robert Henri stresses this point:
"Insist on the beauty of form and color to be obtained from the composition of the largest masses, the four or five large masses which cover your canvas. Let these above all things have fine shapes, have fine colors. Let them be as meaningful of your subject as they possibly can be. It is wonderful how much real finish can be obtained through them, how much of gesture and modeling can be obtained through their contours, what satisfactions can be obtained from the fine measures in area, color and value. Most students and most painters in fact rush over this; they are in a hurry to get on to other matters, minor matters."
"The beauty of the larger mass is primary
Born AgainThis Tuesday, the 23rd, I ended my life as Michael Schmit and started my life as Noah Page. It's been a long, three month process and a few hundred dollars, but it's done. No going back now.Born Again2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Yesterday, the 24th, was my birthday. 28 years ago I started my journey, and yesterday I took time to remember that. It was serendipity that it was the day after my name change hearing, but something about it rang true to me. My first birthday as a new person.
Yesterday, the 24th, early in the morning, my Grandpa died.
His journey as Grover ended. His next, whatever it might be, just began.
It's a sentiment I used to fear, then disdain, then simply ignore.
But now, meditating on reincarnation and renewal
I see it happening all the time.
Enjoy your new day everyone.
A Little Word for the StrugglingTo me, healthiness is sexy,A Little Word for the Struggling3 years ago in Personal More Like This
(no need to be super skinny)
Natural is beautiful
(don't layer on ten pounds of make up)
Intelligence is stunning
(drop the dumb act please)
Difference is amazing
so be yourself please
Hope this little poem I wrote made a couple of you guys smile