I just wanted to say that I know you're going through some stuff right now, stuff that may make life a little harder or even a lot harder. I know you've felt so alone and like no one cares that you're hurting and suffering, but I just wanted to say I love you. Wherever you are, whoever you are, whatever has happened or is happening to you… you're not alone.
You are amazing, beautiful, wonderful, unique, and worth every breath of life you breathe. I love you, I need you in this world, and I wish only the best things for you. You are in my heart always, all of you. I pray that you find a peaceful end to the troubles of your life and I just want you to know that despite everything, despite feeling like no one cares… please know that I do. I may be a stranger to you but that doesn't mean I don't feel for you. You are special and so very loved by more people than you know.
Things have taken a turn...I've spent years of my life in a pretty huge pool of regret. Most of the time I was told I wasn't worth the dirt I walked on by the people who supposedly loved me.Things have taken a turn...1 year ago in Personal More Like This
There was a lot of fear, longing, confusion, and honest to God disappointment in my youth and it led me to develop some kind of complex over the years.
I went out tonight with my mum to go shopping. For the most part we get along sometimes, mostly dependent on her moods. Some days I'm nothing to her and others... I'm a friend. I never really know what day will bring what kind of reception. Today was one of her good days I guess.
The journey started out as usual discussing random crap about her work and the car and then the rest of the time I'm sitting there listening to her hack her lungs out before she goes into another bit of conversation.
Something was different tonight though...
To understand what I'm about to just say you'd have to understand this woman I live with. As I mentioned some
Don't get playedAlright, so there was a recent 'happening' in the dA forums concerning a commission offer made by someone with the starting price of $30. The piece they were asking for was supposedly a really highly detailed piece, large resolution, and basically something you'd spend (on the low end of the market) no less than $250.00 on.Don't get played10 months ago in Personal More Like This
Now, from here on out this may be purely opinion and because my participation in the industry has only been for about 10 years (as in being paid for my work) I may not be the best person to speak on this matter. However, I have to say something, if only to put my own opinions on the matter out there.
15 years ago I got my first commission. It was a full colour realism portrait for someone of their dog and I offered to do it for $5.00 using traditional media.
They took up the offer and it took me about a week of working on and off to finish their image. At the time I wasn't anywhere near being sure of my skills even though I'd been drawing comprehensively
Don't get played (pt.2) Pricing, ads, etc.This will be someway related to my previous article called "Don't get played" and in this I will be posting a few ideas and tips I have gained over the years on how one could go about:Don't get played (pt.2) Pricing, ads, etc.10 months ago in Personal More Like This
* Pricing their artwork
* Gaining more experience and ways to improve
* and a few other tidbits
So let's start off with Pricing, shall we?
It seems to be a common problem, more so among younger/novice artists who are looking to start selling their work. It looks pretty easy when you look at the more popular/well known artists who have already established a consumer base and seem to be cranking out commissions left and right. However, let me just clear the air on this before we get started -- Fame isn't everything. Now, I know it may seem like it is the key ingredient to getting customers but that's not the case. Yes, being more well known can help bring in more revenue but it's not what gets you started in the first
Fantastic!Seriously... this is something to behold, Allons-y!Fantastic!1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Stronger than SuicideYou are so much stronger than suicide.Stronger than Suicide1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
You are so much more powerful than the cuts on your arm,
And so much better than your eating disorder.
So much more than your scars.
Please look me in the eyes,
And show me your wounds,
Whether they be on your forearm,
Or your heart.
Have you been skipping meals?
Have you been cutting?
Well, here’s something for you to try.
Think one thing,
Just one thing,
Just remember to prove to the world,
Are stronger than
A peeve of mine... [vent/rant :P]I have this thing about people who gloat/boast about having a bunch of stuff like iPads, iPhones, Android tablets, multiple laptops, huge TVs, four cars, etc...A peeve of mine... [vent/rant :P]1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Now...I'm all for being proud of the achievements that allowed you to have all that stuff but honestly, there's no need to come about boasting saying 'I just got another ______'. For some reason it bothers me, maybe I'm just weird.
I just don't think it's necessary to boast =/ It really wouldn't be an issue if it didn't seem as though most people who do do that are looking to amp up their worth with 'things'.
It's kind of like "Look at me, I have a crappy personality but I have 4 iPhones and a bunch of stuff! Aren't I awesome?"
Look, if a car doesn't have an engine you can paint it as pretty as can be, but that doesn't make it a good car.
Maybe it's because I don't have a lot of stuff or because I was taught that your worth and merit wasn't measured by material things, but it bothers me to no end
|| Read ||Far too many of today’s youth believe they are a mistake.|| Read ||3 weeks ago in Personal More Like This
They need to be reminded that they are not mistakes but that they are a different and new path than the one taken previously.
Don’t let those who are lost lead your path for you. They will only you lead you wrongly and you will lose yourself along the way.
This is your life, live it based on every little success you earn and learn from every mistake you make.
Their mistakes are their own, and you are not a mistake. You are a successful example of what it means to be alive. There is no greater success than that.
This life is yours. Be something — be someone you’re proud of.
That's all I have to say.
Depression"It's not real" -- It sure as heck feels real. So real it IS my reality on a daily basis.Depression2 years ago in Personal More Like This
"It's just an excuse to get out of doing things that other people have to" -- I'd love to do thing other people are doing, and I'd relish in being happy when I do so.
"You're just a little sad, you'll get over it" -- Depression isn't just 'feeling sad sometimes'... it's feeling sad ALL the time for what seems like no reason at all.
"Just grow up! Everyone is depressed, you just have to deal with it like everyone else!" -- Stop using everyone else to justify your insensitivity to other people's conditions (also, most of the people suffering from depression are adults, you don't get much more 'grown up' than adult).
"You're not suffering from anything, you're just lazy, ungrateful, and being silly" -- Ok, because obviously I LOVE feeling miserable, worthless, and stupid all the time...who wouldn't...?
"Stop using that as an excuse to not do anything." -- If I could manage to do something a
Responses to my last article (pt.1)So after reading comments on that latest article http://fav.me/d6q4snq about 'humanizing wolves' I noticed a lot of people argued or debated quite a few points. Points I felt I should try to cover in a sort of Q&A section here.Responses to my last article (pt.1)1 year ago in Personal More Like This
KEEP IN MIND PLEASE: In some parts of this there is personal opinions but I have included facts which can be backed up by research and by searching the internet as well. I've tried to cite sources as much as I could and give sound evidence when possible. I cannot be held completely liable if some information is outdated and I'm unaware but I would be glad to learn the updated information IF you have it accessible.
Now, let's begin!
1. Wolves can be tamed! My 'so-and-so' owned a wolf and it was the best pet I've ever seen! You're wrong if you think wolves can't be tamed!
(This goes along with wolfdogs as well for the most part)
Answer: Yeah, just because y
DD! Today I've got a Daily Deviation on my Maneki pixel!DD!1 year ago in Personal More Like This
This is the 8th Daily deviation I ever received ;w;
And this is the piece I'm the most excited of seeing featured,
because I've put much more time and work on this one than
all the other DDs I received.
Thank you to RRRAI for suggesting it
and vanmall for featuring it
You can't say you can't!As a child I was a bright student, always used to grab among the first 3 positions in my class, teachers used to love me (I was never a teacher's pet though) and my mom and dad (specially dad) supported me with his heart and soul. We always have guidance/influence from others in some way or the other. I was fortunate enough to get them I guess. But there comes a time in your life where you need to move alone and build your own responsibilities, you need to make your own ways, you need make your own decisions and you need to choose the right path.You can't say you can't!1 year ago in Deviant Events More Like This
The world is cruel enough to pull you down every time you want to climb up. But you can't stop there. You have to move on. You can't say you can't!
I have seen a lot of phases in my life in the last 25 years. In deviantART everyone says they like the way I talk to people, the way I treat them and the way I guide them. May be I shouldn't use the word "everyone", perhaps it should be at least most of them says so.
I get a lot of people coming to
'Just be yourself'As a kid I had problems grasping the meaning of "be yourself". Whenever I asked what it meant, the replies were hardly satisfying. Mostly, I was told NOT to be the way I thought of as ok but to be like the kid next door, because he was so well behaved. Or someone famous, someone rich, because they were successful and the more successful you are, the better.'Just be yourself'1 year ago in Personal More Like This
But even at a very young age I already noticed the contradiction here: how was I supposed to be myself if I was copying someone else? This seemed off.
In the end it wasn't a human who was able to explain the concept of "be yourself" to me.
It was a video game.
With a blue hedgehog.
The first thing I noticed about the game was how happy he looked. He was clearly doing the one thing he loved to do, the one thing he did best. And he made a dent with it.
I was impressed.
And then I was hooked.
And by the time we had traveled through three games, I was certain that I had understood the whole "be yourself" thing. And I adored him for it.
It's Not LoveIt's Not Love (but it hurts like it)It's Not Love10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
He says things to her that I wish men said to me.
Things like - the image of your beauty
will press in on the eyelids of men
your departure from this lifetime.
Things like - you make me feel like being myself
is not just acceptable but it is wonderful!
That I, being the only me I could ever possibly be,
is proof positive of a chaotic world
creating love and life and joy -
and that no one else but me
could make you smile the way you do.
Things like - I don't need you.
If you were gone I could breathe,
I could pump blood,
I could spit
I could do anything I wanted to -
but I would not want to.
I wouldn't want to do anything
without you by my side.
Things like - I'm always here for you,
because I prioritise the things that matter to me
and you are at the top
- so if that means I can't pay my rent
because I had to come save you
from the fog in your heart - and I lost my job - fuck it.
I'll still come.
...But try not to mak
Stop humanizing wolves...[please]Just so this is clear: This has nothing to do with the term 'anthro' or 'anthropomorphism'. This is an article talking about REAL wolves, not fantastical depictions of them or even characters. By 'humanize' I mean the actual definition of it -- "make (something) more humane or civilized." -- "give (something) a human character."Stop humanizing wolves...[please]1 year ago in Personal More Like This
UPDATE: **If you're unsure of some areas of this and what I mean, read this -- http://ninjakato.deviantart.com/journal/Responses-to-my-last-article-pt-1-407083397
Alright, now before I get started I'd just like to say a few things so that people won't jump down my ass and call me some kind of asshole that hates wolves or thinks they should all die. I love wolves. They're beautiful, intelligent, and amazing creatures. They're part of the Earth's ecosystem and they belong in the wild where they are.
I studied the wolf for 10 years of my life (maybe more; I
Out of ContextOut of Context1 month ago in Personal More Like This
"I [am the son of the Great and Almighty Tightwad God and have decreed
that all of my tightwads must be eaten by the people of Earth. I] like [eating tightwads and you should too. For I have decreed it. For
those of you reluctant to ingest scrumptious tightwads until the end
of eternity, they taste a lot like] pie."
Fake How are you?Fake1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am fine, thank you.
How was your weekend?
It was great, tons of fun!
Besides the nights I spent crying….
Are you sure you’re okay?
Think of This..You want to end it?Think of This..1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Think of this.
You write your suicide note... And you set it on the table.
You take your razor, your silver, two inch razor. And you start to slide it across your wrist. You barely feel a thing. After all, the pain of life is more than the pain of the blade.
And you take that belt you never wore, the one that was too tight, the one you starved yourself to fit into. And you wrap it once, twice around your neck... and you pull it tight.
Barely breathing, you put the ends of the belt on something to hold you up.
Something to strangle you.
Something to kill you.
And you die.
And that's the end, right?
So, so wrong.
Your younger brother, the four year old little boy that you loved so much. He walks into your room, only to find you hanging there, lifelessly. Only to find you with dried tears on your pale face. Only to find your suicide note... the one you left right before you died.
And so he runs in tears to your mother. And she reads the note, barely able to brea
Can I ask a question...? (Religious)Alright, I'll probably get shit for this but I am seriously curious...Can I ask a question...? (Religious)1 year ago in Personal More Like This
What the hell is up with all these young people becoming Satanists? [Please forgive that awful pun... |D]
I mean honestly... do you even know what a Satanist is?
What they do? What you're getting into?
This isn't just a 'walk in walk out' kind of thing...
What drives people to become Satanists? More so young people...
I mean really... What convinces you?
Are you trying to stick out, be different, be edgy?
Look, if you were BORN into the religion fine... but if you willingly, openly, and nonchalantly just walked into that religion I suggest you rethink what you're claiming to be.
Satanism isn't what they show you on TV with shows like 'Supernatural' where the demons are these hot men and all's well ends well, okay?
It's not that at all.
I'm all for free choice but when I see so many teenagers walking into a religion that
Before you kill yourself...Before you kill yourself,Before you kill yourself...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Remember just one little thing.
There are places to go,
Where you have never been before.
How can you be sure those places are bad?
There are things to see,
Things you have never seen before.
How can you be sure those things are ugly?
There is a new tune to hear,
Something you've never heard before.
How can you be sure that tune is scary?
There are words to be said,
Things that have never been said before.
How can you be sure those words are hurtful?
There are dreams to be imagined,
Things you have never dreamed before.
How can you be sure that they are nightmares?
Darling, please don't give up.
Please stay strong.
Don't let go.
A thing about Art and so called 'talent'MOVE on Identity: A thing about Art and so called 'talent'A thing about Art and so called 'talent'2 years ago in Personal More Like This
[My Opinion Versus Everyone] Please remember these are simply my opinions and are not meant to imply that you should agree or disagree nor should these prove to be offensive in any way; if I do come across displeasingly then you have my apologies beforehand, thank you.
EDIT: I added the project MOVE header ^-^ 12/18/12~ This was written a while before that though but it falls under the category
I'm writing this partially because of a situation I'm in right now with an artist who I will keep anonymous... and partially because I've wanted to get this out for months now.. And I assure you I probably will not sound like the same person you've known as 'Capu' for my 10 months here now..
Although I a
Don't be scared, darling.We're going to try something newDon't be scared, darling.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Eating our meals, and swallowing each bite,
Not hiding the chewed up remains under our tongue,
And not making ourselves vomit through the night.
We're going to try something new,
Bringing the liquor down from our lips,
Not turning to the alcohol for comfort,
Until the addiction rips.
We're going to try something new,
Throwing away the needles, the pins, and the blades
Not searching underneath our skin for emotion,
Watching the wounds and the scars fade.
We're going to try something new,
Darling, I challenge you, I dare you.
We're going to try something new...
Why does that scare you?
suggesting DD's (daily deviations)Edit on Sept 3, 2013: I changed this article a bit after I had a friendly chat with some of the (former) volunteers and senior members of the website. I hope the details help you in making even better submissionssuggesting DD's (daily deviations)1 year ago in Deviant Events More Like This
Everybody on DeviantArt seems to know about the Daily Deviations, or DD's. The handful of artworks that makes it to the frontpage every day. The artworks that are shown at the bottom of the site all day long, and get loads of exposure. I guess they're the wet dream for many people on DA.
DD's are usually a reason for discussion. I can't even begin to count the topics on the forums that are about why some deviations are chosen over others, and how the quality of those deviations keep declining year after year. Not many people know, however, that's it's not entirely up to the staff which works are picked. And that we can have our own vote on this.
So I can have an influence
MINI HALLOWEEN CONTEST!Horror's Collection ContestMINI HALLOWEEN CONTEST!3 weeks ago in Personal More Like This
So, many of you guys approved the contest idea, so here's the official Journal 'bout it!
For the entry, all you have to do is draw me something related to my story "The Horror's Collection"! (the folder of it: http://runandwine.deviantart.com/gallery/41486363/The-Horror-s-Collection )
Pretty simple, and doesn't need to be something elaborated! The theme is Halloween, but since the story itself is full of horror, you can draw whatever comes to your mind! Anyone is welcome hehehe
SO BE FREE!
Also since I think it would be a bit confusing drawing chris or wolf, I'm sharing here a W.I.P. of they reference sheet:
This sheet is not done yet, and I didn't had the time to check up the texts and grammar, so if there's anything it's confusing, let me know!
how to get better at art:I know im not a master of anything- infact, its only been about a week since I started working on improving rather than appealing.how to get better at art:1 year ago in Personal More Like This
BUT BOY DO I FEEL GOOD ABOUT MY ART.
and you should too!
Tips on becoming the artist you want to be
✸ note that these are tips on how I've started- everyone is different! Learn however you want to learn!
1. STOP DRAWING ONLY FOR OTHERS AND JUST START DRAWING FOR YOU
Ok so this for me was the hardest step. I never ever drew for enjoyment. Even when I drew my characters I wasn't really having fun? What you should do is stop all commissions. Stop all trades. And give yourself one day to draw to make you happy. Even if you don't improve at all you will start loving your art! I know I do!
2. FIND ART THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
What is better than finding a style that you really love? Than looking at all this art from people that inspires you? NOTHING. (okay maybe besides starbucks and kittens but still!)
when you fin