Web of Emotionsi am entangled in your webWeb of Emotions7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Struggling in the threads that you spun
Full of lies and deceit
Trying to free myself from the pain
That is sure to come.
Like a Black Widow
So beautiful but deadly
A little thing causing so much pain
Enough to make me wish
Wish that i was dead.
You mean so much to me
Yet i seem to mean so little
Just like a toy of yours
To play with when you feel like it.
The Call To Arms - A BVB AnthemThis is a Call To Arms to The Outcasts. We bring to you this New Religion, this Ritual for you and for all of the other Wretched And Divine.The Call To Arms - A BVB Anthem6 months ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
In this Exordium, we lay claim to the fact that we know We Don’t Belong. However, before we have Lost It All, we give to you proof that there is a Saviour – a Perfect Weapon, if you will. The Legacy of our Beautiful Remains, as well as All Your Hate, will be a burden carried by The Mortician’s Daughter.
Never Give In to F.E.A.R.
Heaven’s Calling for Carolyn and the rest of us Fallen Angels. The Devil’s Choir sings its Overture of the Unbroken on this New Years Day.
Our Knives And Pens give proof to all that we have Done For You. Though some claim us to be Nobody’s Hero, let them know and understand their words are only Sweet Blasp
HaikuNot my grief aloneHaiku8 months ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
we can share it if you like
you can take it all
One VoiceSmell the scent of RevolutionOne Voice6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feel the blood pumping through your veins
Acknowledged the fact that you might die any moment
And that even I who started this aren't sure of my cause
Why should I be the one to tell others to lay down their lives
Why do they follow the foolish words from my lips
Who knows what we are even fighting for anyways
All cause died away with the first battle shot
Slowly but steadily the pools on the cobble stones grow
Dark red colors fading to rusty brown
The dead and dying litter the filthy streets
And no matter what they might say no one has won
Now that it is over who's job is it to tell the little child
That the brother who raised him died so others wouldn't have to live
How is that child supposed to survive on the streets alone
But all is fair once one voice says it is
Who is to tell the mothers and fathers
The ones that lost every thing because of the overlords
That now the children they should enjoy freedom with
Lay buried in a place they won't be able to
EdgeThere was something so thrilling about standing at the edge of my worldEdge6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Looking out over the line that has never been crossed
Cars flying past me, up and over the edge
One more step and I could've left it all behind me
But I didn't
Instead I turned my bike around and climbed back on it
Pushing away from the edge and going back where I'm comftorable and safe
Sometimes this little world is all I need
They Threw Me In And Told Me To SwimYou know, I long time ago I went to swimming lessonsThey Threw Me In And Told Me To Swim6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
My mommy paid and I jumped in the water and taught myself to float
Swimming always made me happy, no one had to teach me how
But now the water has taken on another shape
Now I am swimming in air, not liquid
It's made of the smoke from all my burned emotions
I had to get rid of them to make room for my frozen heart
And now they have come to take revenge
They seep into my nose and lungs
Making sure I can't breath the things that keep me happy and alive
I'm chocking and they won't let go of me
I always knew my emotions would be my end
Hidden Meanings"I'm fine."Hidden Meanings1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everything, it's absolutely everything.
"Just leave me alone."
Please, don't listen to me, don't go.
"Yes, I ate."
No, no I didn't. I'm insecure, I'm too fat,
I did not.
"Are you sure you're okay?"
I am absolutely, not okay,
no matter what I say.
"It doesn't matter."
I don't think it's important to you,
I don't think you care,
I don't think it matters.
you see it,
you believe it,
you're too blind,
too blind to see,
too blind to see the pain I hide.
You're too deaf,
too deaf to hear my screams,
this whole time,
I've been calling out,
pleading for help,
it never came,
you were too deaf.
It's too late now,
as you walk in my room,
they hear you scream,
they find you,
crumpled on the floor,
at the sight,
of your beautiful daughter.
is covered in blood,
a good-bye note,
clutched in your hand,
your beautiful daughter,
laying lifeless in her bed.
Make Your MoveWaiting for you to make your move.Make Your Move7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
My craving can't be soothed.
I just can't be the first.
Don't my body you thirst?
Everything's going fine.
Just put your lips on mine.
You are my desire.
Just set my soul on fire.
But instead we just sit.
This distance doesn't fit.
Awkward is what you are.
That won't get you far.
First move I'll have to make.
Your kiss I'll have to take.
Can you feel my heart?When she dreams there is no prideCan you feel my heart?6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The only thoughts are thoughts of suicide
An idea stays with her
That she won't be missed.
A blade, across her perfect wrist.
One little cut, she'll never be the same
Playing with fire is a dangerous game
Of course, that one cut grew to more
People asked, she lied
Blaming it on her nonexistent cat
No more sleeping
No more eating
One look in the mirror sent her weeping
A broken girl, a pretty smile
This has been for quite a while
A glance down at her wrist
She had enough
Picking up the blade she cut a vein
She was put on this earth
Reason still yet unknown
She closed her eyes
And let herself die
Pain and DecimationPain and DecimationPain and Decimation2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hope saturates my dried out heart,
bringing it back to vibrant life.
I allowed you to make me believe in hope and love,
but this was a stupid choice for me.
I wanted to trust somebody with my heart.
Why did I open up to anyone at all,
let alone someone who could do this to me?
I wish I could do things differently
but all this pain and decimation will
forever change who I am, for better or worse.
I've never made a promise I couldn't keep
but time changes everyone and I am no exception.
Like I once said, I'm nothing but a speck of dirt,
on a speck of dirt in the vacume of space
and I think it's past time I accept that.
Maybe time heals all wounds and maybeit doesn't,
I've never given myself time to heal from
one heart trauma to the next.
Shame of a Broken HeartShame of a Broken HeartShame of a Broken Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Time and time again I make this mistake,
fall hard and fast just to hit the ground.
My emotions refuse to remain quiet
when I open up to someone.
Trust is my biggest mistake in life.
I will never regret my choices
but I also wish I could learn from them.
Whats done is done and life continues
to go on at it's own pace.
Death of the Broken HeartedDeath of the Broken HeartedDeath of the Broken Hearted1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I was young
I fell away from life,
I fell into a dark deep sleep
from which I would never wake.
Watching, as if from above,
I saw them prepare me for the grave.
They dressed me in black silk with
a red rose in my hair.
Nobody could tell why I had died.
But I knew, I died of a broken heart.
You broke my fragil heart into pieces
just like it was made of glass.
I tried to go on living but I
cannot live without a beating heart.
So now I lie, cold and dead in my grave.
Are you happy now?
Two LoversTwo LoversTwo Lovers2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In an open glade, deep in the moonlit woods,
two lovers slip through the velvet darkness before the dawn.
Fog moves across the heath as slowly and silently as smoke.
It moves over the two lovers as they entwine themselves, become one.
This quite moment is one of love and forgivness.
As these lovers burrow their bodies in the sweet, lush grass
they hope they will never have to hear those ethereal chimes
calling them to the eternal peace of the silent grave.
Heart in my HandsHeart in my HandsHeart in my Hands1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I handed you an open, trusting heart.
You handed me back a broken, mangled mess.
I trusted you with all that I was
but you used and abused it all.
What made me unlovable in your cold eyes?
Was it my open, loving heart and mind?
I never knew what each new day would bring.
You angry? No...You happy? Not really.
Horny? There we go! Every single day.
No love, no feelings other then physical pleasure.
You never opened yourself to me
didn't trust me enough to do it.
But you also told me you trusted me,
that I was your best friend.
I wanted to be more but I'll settle for that.
Maybe my dreams will come true and
cease to be nightmares and tears.
Fallen AngelFallen AngelFallen Angel2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A solem angel cries.
It cries to be loved.
It slowly began to die,
since it had been shot down
from the heavens above.
My beautiful, lonely angel
with the lovely green eyes
you are not alone.
Open up to me
put your trust in me.
Beauty is more then
just skin deep.
You are beautiful
in your own right.
Cry no longer
because you are not alone.
Let me hold you
in my arms
and show you
how truely special
you are to me.
when I cutI pick up the razor blade,when I cut2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I take a deep breath.
I look down at my pail skin,
I place the razor blade on it.
I take another deep breath,
I close my eyes and then open them again.
I pull the razor blade across my flesh,
I take the blade and do the same,
on the rest of my arm.
then I'm done,
the pain is the best release I've had.
Next TimeI'm sorry I let you inNext Time6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Next time you'll know to run
You just seemed so nice, honest
I thought I could open up
Next time I'll know, don't trust
Smiling faces always lie to me
You pretended like you wanted answers
I should've known, no one cares
Next time someone asks my feelings
I will tell them I'm fine
That's the answer they all want
I just wanted someone to hear
What We AreWhat We Are4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I may seem cruel
I may seem evil
I may seem insane
I may seem like a sociopath
I may seem like a criminal
But I am not
But I am
You put down the only humans who want to change the world for good
You are the one who abuses your children and your spouses with your choices
You are the one who calls your fellow humans fags because they wear black and cut
You are the one who pushed and stressed poor girls to anorexia so they could be beautiful
HauntedHauntedHaunted1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Creeping, crawling, silent and deadly
the past comes up behind me and pulls me back
to a time of fear and pain.
Pulled to a time when I lost control
and lost my heart.
Now I live, cold as stone,
in a world haunted by ghosts.
The ghosts of my past.
DepressionI hate just sitting and watching time slowly tick by,Depression7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
With nothing being accomplished
I wish I had someone to make me happy, to make me smile;
Anyone I have or had now only brings sorrow
My lungs are inflating and deflating,
I only wish they would stay punctured
My body feels numb... lifeless,
I am beyond tears, my cheeks are bare
There is nothing left but torment and despair
I wonder if genuine happiness will triumph once more?
The time I spend waiting seems infinite
I'm not sure what makes me hold on, still grasping;
I feel strong but yet so weak
I wonder if it will ever end...
That miniature spec of hope keeps me breathing,
But it also keeps me dead.
nobody caredI hate it. so badly. How I want to cutnobody cared3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and scratch and bite and otherwise
mutilate myself just to feel better.
Just. One. Tiny. Bit. Better. Sometimes
I can't stand under the weight of it
all. The sadness and pressure, the love,
the pain. The blood and the blade. but
they're all a part of me. I don't know if
I can change that now. but I'm not sure
if I want to either. Sometimes I
wonder if other people think like me
and are too frightened to admit it to
themselves or others. I'm afraid. I'm
afraid that people will lock me up or
put me away or, what scares me the
most, is that no one will do anything.
That no one will think I'm worth
saving. Is everyone afraid of that, I
wonder? of no one caring? Probably.
I think people would miss me if I
was gone, or be sad at least. I try to
remember that when I'm
contemplating suicide. But I also
remember the way that next to nobody
cared after a sophomore at my
school killed herself. I think I cried
for her, not because I knew her well,
or missed h
Ice in My HeartIce in My HeartIce in My Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Day after day I feel the pain insideme grow.
It seems like just yesterday when you loved me
but now it feels like we are seperated by a wall.
A wall taller and thicker then the ones in China and Berlin.
My once open and passionate heart is dust on the floor
from trying to scale the wall and falling on the barbed
wire you built into the concret to keep others out.
I never held back but you never opened to me
and my love was wasted on a heart of stone and iron.
I gave you my all, my everything but only got pain.
So I put on a perfect happy mask every time i saw you.
I hid every emotion from everyone around me
so nobody would know how you made me feel.
Finally after all these years I found a person to accept me
as who I really, truly am, under all the lies.
Who could see beneath the masks to my pain.
He helped me see who I was, what no one else saw.
But in the end I will be all alone.
Every night I sleep completly alone and miss what could have been.
I feel the ice growing