Web of Emotionsi am entangled in your webWeb of Emotions1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Struggling in the threads that you spun
Full of lies and deceit
Trying to free myself from the pain
That is sure to come.
Like a Black Widow
So beautiful but deadly
A little thing causing so much pain
Enough to make me wish
Wish that i was dead.
You mean so much to me
Yet i seem to mean so little
Just like a toy of yours
To play with when you feel like it.
The Call To Arms - A BVB AnthemThis is a Call To Arms to The Outcasts. We bring to you this New Religion, this Ritual for you and for all of the other Wretched And Divine.The Call To Arms - A BVB Anthem1 year ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
In this Exordium, we lay claim to the fact that we know We Don’t Belong. However, before we have Lost It All, we give to you proof that there is a Saviour – a Perfect Weapon, if you will. The Legacy of our Beautiful Remains, as well as All Your Hate, will be a burden carried by The Mortician’s Daughter.
Never Give In to F.E.A.R.
Heaven’s Calling for Carolyn and the rest of us Fallen Angels. The Devil’s Choir sings its Overture of the Unbroken on this New Years Day.
Our Knives And Pens give proof to all that we have Done For You. Though some claim us to be Nobody’s Hero, let them know and understand their words are only Sweet Blasp
Awake at nightHere I lay again,Awake at night2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Staring at the dark,
Thinking of now and then,
Hoping my dreams will embark.
To sleep I cannot travel though,
Stuck here in the night,
Demons linger and shadows flow,
Filling me with fright.
Tomorrow never comes,
Time trickles to a halt,
My chest the sound of drums,
My mind lost in a vault.
Strength In Numbers - BridecestJinxx groaned, the full effects of his hangover hitting him like a punch in the gut, as his gray eyes fluttered open. He could feel sweat and dry, cracked warpaint clinging to him, and he felt dirty, and far too hot.Strength In Numbers - Bridecest3 years ago in Romance More Like This
His head was pounding, but as a rockstar Jinxx was used to the feeling. Sitting up, he felt the thin white sheet that had covered him fall down his small torso, revealing his bare chest. Jinxx usually slept naked, so this didn't worry him, however, after struggling to think through his aching skull, he realised that he didn't know where he was.
As he shifted, a pain began to make itself known in his lower back. Jinxx clenched his teeth and grunted softly, bringing his hand down to rub the small of his back.
What had happened the night before, Jinxx didn't know. His thoughts were hazy, and his brain felt like mush, as though it had been chewed on and spat out. Blinking, Jinxx tried to open his eyes further, rubbing away the sleep from them.
Jinxx slowly began to
A Christian Coma Fanfiction.Now, there were some things that needed understood about Christian Mora.A Christian Coma Fanfiction.2 years ago in Drama More Like This
Christian, or as he'd ask you to call him, CC, was the definition of an extrovert; enthusiatic, assertive, talkative and outgoing. He positively emanated positive energy, and in just five minutes he could have you laughing hysterically, even after the worst day of your life.
Being part Spanish, CC had chocolate brown eyes akin to those of a puppy, and sunkissed skin. His silky, black hair was a tangle and a bandana often adorned his forehead. He was the kind of person who's flaws made you love him more, like the slight gap in his front teeth, or the stubble that never seemed to leave, no matter how much it was shaved.
He had many friends, and was well loved.
But CC was also a complicated being. Despite his extroverted personality, if something was bothering him, he would bottle it up because he never wanted to bother others with his problems. No-one knew that he struggled to pay his rent, and couldn't get a job.
Shame of a Broken HeartShame of a Broken HeartShame of a Broken Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Time and time again I make this mistake,
fall hard and fast just to hit the ground.
My emotions refuse to remain quiet
when I open up to someone.
Trust is my biggest mistake in life.
I will never regret my choices
but I also wish I could learn from them.
Whats done is done and life continues
to go on at it's own pace.
Losing MyselfLosing MyselfLosing Myself2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I like to project that I am strong,
that no one can touch or shake me.
But all this is an elaborate mask
I wear to keep the real me locked away.
I hide my sorrow, pain and shame
beneath a mask of happiness and joy.
People saw what I wanted them to,
except for the few brave few who dared
to try to dig and uncover the real me.
The me who fights off pain day and night
and writes words on a page to keep from
putting red slshes in my arm.
I feel like a part of myself is slipping away
bit by tiny but until nothing is left
but an empty husk of the woman I was.
People see the sarcastic tone and
haughty attitudeand think I think
I'm all that. Well they are dead wrong.
That behavior hides a vast sea of pain and loss
I will not show to anyone I do not trust.
And maybe I make mistakes but I live through them
and allow my life to go on and unfold before me.
Pain and DecimationPain and DecimationPain and Decimation2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hope saturates my dried out heart,
bringing it back to vibrant life.
I allowed you to make me believe in hope and love,
but this was a stupid choice for me.
I wanted to trust somebody with my heart.
Why did I open up to anyone at all,
let alone someone who could do this to me?
I wish I could do things differently
but all this pain and decimation will
forever change who I am, for better or worse.
I've never made a promise I couldn't keep
but time changes everyone and I am no exception.
Like I once said, I'm nothing but a speck of dirt,
on a speck of dirt in the vacume of space
and I think it's past time I accept that.
Maybe time heals all wounds and maybeit doesn't,
I've never given myself time to heal from
one heart trauma to the next.
They Threw Me In And Told Me To SwimYou know, I long time ago I went to swimming lessonsThey Threw Me In And Told Me To Swim1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My mommy paid and I jumped in the water and taught myself to float
Swimming always made me happy, no one had to teach me how
But now the water has taken on another shape
Now I am swimming in air, not liquid
It's made of the smoke from all my burned emotions
I had to get rid of them to make room for my frozen heart
And now they have come to take revenge
They seep into my nose and lungs
Making sure I can't breath the things that keep me happy and alive
I'm chocking and they won't let go of me
I always knew my emotions would be my end
Please Just Walk Awaydont tell me you love mePlease Just Walk Away4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
there is nothing here to love
there is nothing left to say
you cant change the truth with hollow words
dont tell me Im beautiful
that my sadness is the key
there is nothing behind these eyes
this is all I have become
behind the lies
behind the fake, fake smiles
I am gone
when will it be enough is enough for you?
will you never let me go?
look at you with this cold, cruel glare
let the truth slip
I dont believe in you
I dont believe in me
I believe only in despair
this is how I shall stay
I am nothing
just this poison underneath my skin
just a thorn in the side of your existence
for your souls sake
please just walk away
before it is to late
Two LoversTwo LoversTwo Lovers2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In an open glade, deep in the moonlit woods,
two lovers slip through the velvet darkness before the dawn.
Fog moves across the heath as slowly and silently as smoke.
It moves over the two lovers as they entwine themselves, become one.
This quite moment is one of love and forgivness.
As these lovers burrow their bodies in the sweet, lush grass
they hope they will never have to hear those ethereal chimes
calling them to the eternal peace of the silent grave.
One VoiceSmell the scent of RevolutionOne Voice1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feel the blood pumping through your veins
Acknowledged the fact that you might die any moment
And that even I who started this aren't sure of my cause
Why should I be the one to tell others to lay down their lives
Why do they follow the foolish words from my lips
Who knows what we are even fighting for anyways
All cause died away with the first battle shot
Slowly but steadily the pools on the cobble stones grow
Dark red colors fading to rusty brown
The dead and dying litter the filthy streets
And no matter what they might say no one has won
Now that it is over who's job is it to tell the little child
That the brother who raised him died so others wouldn't have to live
How is that child supposed to survive on the streets alone
But all is fair once one voice says it is
Who is to tell the mothers and fathers
The ones that lost every thing because of the overlords
That now the children they should enjoy freedom with
Lay buried in a place they won't be able to
Poem to Black Veil BridesWhen I found you, I was sinking,Poem to Black Veil Brides1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you pulled me out of the quicksand.
I'd forgotten my identity,
But you helped me find myself again.
Your words are like the hug of a friend,
Telling me it's all going to be okay.
I write them on my skin
So they'll be with me always.
They strengthen and empower me,
And without them,
I fear I'd forget myself again.
My head is filled with thoughts of you,
And I hold them close
Like a favorite teddy bear.
If it wasn't for you,
I may not even be alive now.
So thank you,
For all that you do,
And for being there for me
When I need you most.
Death of the Broken HeartedDeath of the Broken HeartedDeath of the Broken Hearted2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I was young
I fell away from life,
I fell into a dark deep sleep
from which I would never wake.
Watching, as if from above,
I saw them prepare me for the grave.
They dressed me in black silk with
a red rose in my hair.
Nobody could tell why I had died.
But I knew, I died of a broken heart.
You broke my fragil heart into pieces
just like it was made of glass.
I tried to go on living but I
cannot live without a beating heart.
So now I lie, cold and dead in my grave.
Are you happy now?
nobody caredI hate it. so badly. How I want to cutnobody cared4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and scratch and bite and otherwise
mutilate myself just to feel better.
Just. One. Tiny. Bit. Better. Sometimes
I can't stand under the weight of it
all. The sadness and pressure, the love,
the pain. The blood and the blade. but
they're all a part of me. I don't know if
I can change that now. but I'm not sure
if I want to either. Sometimes I
wonder if other people think like me
and are too frightened to admit it to
themselves or others. I'm afraid. I'm
afraid that people will lock me up or
put me away or, what scares me the
most, is that no one will do anything.
That no one will think I'm worth
saving. Is everyone afraid of that, I
wonder? of no one caring? Probably.
I think people would miss me if I
was gone, or be sad at least. I try to
remember that when I'm
contemplating suicide. But I also
remember the way that next to nobody
cared after a sophomore at my
school killed herself. I think I cried
for her, not because I knew her well,
or missed h
HauntedHauntedHaunted2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Creeping, crawling, silent and deadly
the past comes up behind me and pulls me back
to a time of fear and pain.
Pulled to a time when I lost control
and lost my heart.
Now I live, cold as stone,
in a world haunted by ghosts.
The ghosts of my past.
Heart in my HandsHeart in my HandsHeart in my Hands2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I handed you an open, trusting heart.
You handed me back a broken, mangled mess.
I trusted you with all that I was
but you used and abused it all.
What made me unlovable in your cold eyes?
Was it my open, loving heart and mind?
I never knew what each new day would bring.
You angry? No...You happy? Not really.
Horny? There we go! Every single day.
No love, no feelings other then physical pleasure.
You never opened yourself to me
didn't trust me enough to do it.
But you also told me you trusted me,
that I was your best friend.
I wanted to be more but I'll settle for that.
Maybe my dreams will come true and
cease to be nightmares and tears.
Unexpected Attraction - an Andley fanfiction - Cha*Andy POV*Unexpected Attraction - an Andley fanfiction - Cha1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Holy shit, guys! We fucking rocked it tonight!", CC called out over the roar of the crowd as we left the stage. It had been a pretty intense show, everybody put in their all tonight. We were all sweaty and exhausted.
"Let's celebrate! We finally finished this tour!" Ashley was always up for a drink, but I felt like shit. We had just finished the last show of our tour and the last thing on my mind was getting wasted.
"How about we all shower, because we smell like shit, then sleep. We can drink tomorrow or something." I sounded like a whiny bitch but really, I wasn't in the mood to puke my brains out and hear Ashley fucking some random chick in his bunk.
"Okay, Andy, you can have fun being boring, but I'm getting some girls from the bar and we're all gonna have fun!" Ashley looked at me, flipped me off, and grabbed his jacket. "CC, you wanna come with me?" Without hesitation CC grabbed his jacket and they left the venue and headed straight for the bar a block or two down the
WaysideWayside4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and fill my life with yours
for i am an empty vessel
a forlorn and forgotten soul
left by the wayside for you to find
you remake me
with unconditional ferocity
showing my lungs to breathe
inflating them with your own air
the beat of my heart sings your name
the pain of life fades
becomes background noise
drowned out by the incessant singing from my chest
and the heaving of breath from my breast
i no longer long for release
for the sweet kiss of death
now i live
i want and need
and you must take responsibility
for the hunger you have awakened in me
protect the lambs from the wolf inside
some things should be left lost
stranded by the wayside
sometimes the love you awaken is at humanities cost
Ice in My HeartIce in My HeartIce in My Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Day after day I feel the pain insideme grow.
It seems like just yesterday when you loved me
but now it feels like we are seperated by a wall.
A wall taller and thicker then the ones in China and Berlin.
My once open and passionate heart is dust on the floor
from trying to scale the wall and falling on the barbed
wire you built into the concret to keep others out.
I never held back but you never opened to me
and my love was wasted on a heart of stone and iron.
I gave you my all, my everything but only got pain.
So I put on a perfect happy mask every time i saw you.
I hid every emotion from everyone around me
so nobody would know how you made me feel.
Finally after all these years I found a person to accept me
as who I really, truly am, under all the lies.
Who could see beneath the masks to my pain.
He helped me see who I was, what no one else saw.
But in the end I will be all alone.
Every night I sleep completly alone and miss what could have been.
I feel the ice growing
I Am (Not) Bulletproof Part 1 Finally, he’d been able to relax. They had been touring nonstop for the past year; what with a new cd release, Warped Tour, and a make-up tour in Europe from when they had gotten sick. He never thought he’d be so happy to say he was done touring for a while.I Am (Not) Bulletproof Part 11 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
He flopped back on the first real bed he’d had available in a long time. Running his hands through his hair, he sighed.
“My God, it’s good to be done.”
“What’s that?” A familiar voice rang out. It was Jinxx.
“Nothing, Jinxx; I’m just glad to be done touring.”
“But, Andy, you love touring!” Jinxx sat beside him on the bed.
“Well, yeah, but we’ve been going nonstop. Isn’t it nice to just…relax?” Andy sat up and smiled at Jinxx. The guitarist blushed lightly.
“Yeah, I suppose so,” he said, returning the smile.
His NoteHis NoteHis Note2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart was not equal to his.
I loved him more then he loved me.
He crept into my heart like a leech
and sucked the love and light out of me.
I wanted to be his one and only
but I was his once and done.
My symphony of silent screams
were useless because he didn't care.
What I thought were magical moments
were nothing at all but annoying to him.
Sadness of the AngelSadness of the AngelSadness of the Angel2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My sad angel, open your eyes,
turn away from the darkening skies.
See yourself for who you really are
and don't think you don't reach the bar.
Shed your gloomy, frosty demeanor
and become heavens devine intervenor.
Take me in your loving arms tonight
until the inky darkness becomes light.
Then we must be parted by day.
You must wait like a night bird of prey
for the sun so you can be mine,
from now until the end of time.