I Hate MyselfI don't like my body,I Hate Myself5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think it's too fat.
So I painted over my pale skin,
now it's beautiful black.
I hate my hair,
so I cut it all off.
I look in the mirror,
and call myself a jerk.
I poured dye into my eyes,
and tried to cover the blue.
I don't want my body,
I want to be like you.
I hate my voice,
so I refuse to speak.
I hate my muscles,
so I act so weak.
My mouth is so small,
I stitched it shut.
I hate my heart,
so I don't love.
People say I'm changing,
they don't understand.
I don't need help,
I don't need a hand.
I'm perfectly fine!
I'm just like everyone else!
The only difference is,
I hate myself.
So You Think You Know MeSo You Think You Know Me15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So you think you know me:
You think im overwhelming
When really im just overwhelmed
You think i am controlling
When really im just scared
You think i have no feelings
When really i have too many
You think i am obsessive
When really im just paranoid
You think i have no trust
When really i trust too much
You think i have no love
When really love is all i have
So you think you know me
When really i wonder if you do.
Brotherly Love. [AmericaxCanada] Brotherly Love.Brotherly Love. [AmericaxCanada]3 years ago in Romance More Like This
[America x Canada]
A sigh escaped Alfred as he sat alone in the conference room. His cerulean eyes were slowly gathering tears at his waterlines, causing his vision to blur. When he attempted to blink back the tears, though, they only seemed to fall and stain his blemish free cheeks with their moist trails. His eyes squeezed shut as tightly as possible and his grip on the edge of the table tightened. Trying not to cry these days was taking a lot of his strength.
Alfred remembered a time when he was really happy, and his loud laughter was honestly joyful. Now, though, it only seemed forced. Hi
American Road Trip (Hetalia Fanfic)"I'm Tired!!"American Road Trip (Hetalia Fanfic)3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"YOU'VE BEEN SLEEPING THE WHOLE TIME!!!"
"But Germany .."
"America, pull over we've been driving for hours and it's late."
"Yeah, I need my beauty sleep!"
"Stop complaining France!"
"Well I need my beauty sleep! I don't want to end up looking like you in the morning."
"Everyone shut your holes!! I'm pulling up to a hotel now!!"
America pulls his van into an old, crappy hotel. Hey, it's the only hotel for miles. Where else are they supposed to go?
"O God, America, you must be kidding!"
AMERICAN ROAD TRIP
"This is ridiculous!!" Germany vents to himself as the allies and axis enter the hotel. "I can't believe America and those damn allies dragged us on a vacation road trip with them!! All they do if fight with each other!!"
The group enters the lobby of the hotel that is equally as run down as the outside. A man approaches them and introduces himself.
"Hello I'm Percy, I'll be catering to your needs this evening." He says with a
Inured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch. 4Inured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch. 43 years ago in Romance More Like This
*Ludwig's Point of View*
I was wandering aimlessly, not really aware where my soul wandered. I was lost, but not exactly afraid. My pain and suffering were fading the longer I wandered. I wanted it to end: the pain, the suffering, the strife, the hatred, I wanted it all to end. I didn't want to return where I knew only ridicule and pain awaited me. I welcomed the numbness that was closing in around me, enjoying it, embracing it.
The whole of my wanderings had been in relative quiet, nothing really breaking through the silence that engulfed my mind. Until one day, I heard something. It was a voice. My feet, which had ambled slowly and without direction, stopped. I was still. I listened.
Surprise! Rin X (read to find out)I stared out the window one morning, watching the rain fall steadily down. Recently, Act 3 had been released, so I was fading into the background as a whole lot of new Vocaloids took center stage.Surprise! Rin X (read to find out)1 year ago in General Fiction More Like This
Len walked into our bedroom. "Hey, Rin," he said, stretching and yawning a little. "that one kid, what was his name? Olive? Or something, well, his first song was released today."
"Oh," I said, turning to face him. "Cool."
I paused and looked back at him. "And it's Oliver."
Len gave me a confused look. "Why do you care? I mean, he's nice and all, but really? What, do you have a crush on him or something?"
I quickly turned away from my brother. " No," I said, trying to stay calm.
He shrugged. "Whatever. Maybe we could become friends, kinda like having a younger brother instead of an annoying twin sister!"
I tossed an orange at him. "Len!"
Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch 8Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch 83 years ago in Romance More Like This
I woke up with as much life in me as a ghost. I contemplated not even moving, just burying my face in Ludwig's bandages and giving up. I felt his chest slowly rising and falling, raising my head up and down on its gentle waves.
He still needed me. If for no one else, I had to live for Ludwig.
I shifted my shoulders and felt something rustling on top of them. I opened my eyes and saw a coarse, green wool blanket draped over me.
'Elsie, thank you.'
I lifted myself up slowly from Ludwig's chest. He seemed peaceful enough, but he also had a look of I couldn't place the shadow of emotion that went across his face. It wasn't exactly sadness. What was it? I puzzled over his expression, forgetting my sorrow for a moment. Without knowing it, I was grateful to him for the diversion from my dark and sorrowful thoughts.
Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch. 6Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch. 63 years ago in Romance More Like This
I dipped my shaking hands in the cool washtub, trying to remove the slimy, shiny, hot blood from them. My whole body shook like a leaf in a gale as I tried to process what had just happened.
There was Elsie, calling to me from across the hall for more bandages. There was me grabbing the linen strips and rushing to her side. Then there was the soldier. His right arm was completely severed and gushing blood through what were once layers and layers of clean, white bandages and onto Elsie and two others nurses hands and arms. There was Elsie moving my hands to put pressure on the stump at his shoulder while she started to put a tourniquet on him. There was the blood, so much blood. There was the man chanting prayers under his breath, begging for God's forgiveness and mercy. There was the sound of Elsie's voice, telling me he was gone. There was the blankness in his eyes.
Reader x Austria - Musical DistractionThe day outside was pleasently shining and the sky had a cloudless blue. The air was as fresh as a daisy and everyone seemed to be enjoying it very much. You enjoyed it too but from inside the room where you were listening to Austria play his piano with sweet emotion. You relaxed as you heard him play and felt yourself swaying in the music.Reader x Austria - Musical Distraction4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The music sounded so beautiful until-
You turned and looked at Austria with a stunned look on your face. He never would mess up when playing. His fingers were shaking and he was looking at the piano so red and sweaty.
"A-Austria?" you called out. He turned away completely and stood up from the piano bench.
"______?" he asked nervously looking at the wall and his fist clenched in a fist.
"Y-yes?" you asked, surprised that your voice didn't come out shaky.
"How long have you been living in my home?" he asked.
"A couple of years sir."
He turned slowly to you and asked in a shaky, nervous tone, "And what do I have as my number one rule?"
Germany X Child!Reader No Need To Be ScaredIt has been only a short while since you lived with Germany, I mean Ludwig. You still had to get used to things there, everything was completely different.Germany X Child!Reader No Need To Be Scared3 years ago in Drama More Like This
Ludwig adopted you a few weeks ago. He didn't plan on taking care of you for a long while, he wanted to pass you as soon as possible, he didn't have much time for raising children. He was already busy enough.
And with being so busy came a lot of frustration too, he was pretty annoyed lately. He often walked around growling and mumbling words in German that you never understood. When you saw him like that, you rather turned around and sneaked back to your room, hoping he didn't even notice you.
No, he never hurt you. Your father did back then. Until you got finally rescued and now just the sight of a strong and tall man scared you. You feared Ludwig and you shivered when you looked into those icy blue eyes. When he touched you, your body tensed automatically. When he woke you in the morning, he didn't have to say twice, you jumped o
GermanyxReader - Broken SaviorGermanyxReader - Broken Savior2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
“Easy. Easy, Luddy.”
Ludwig grunted as he painfully sat down on the couch. _____ looked sadly at his bloodied and bruised face, wanting to wipe the dried stream of blood that trailed down his chin. She quickly went to the kitchen and soon returned with a damp washcloth and a small white box. She set the box down on the couch beside Ludwig, and placed the washcloth gently on the German’s discolored and cut cheek. He flinched as it made contact, but slowly leaned into it.
“Hold that there for me, please?” _____ said softly.
Ludwig did as asked, and _____ began to pull off his shoes and socks. She then sat up on her knees and gingerly slipped off his shirt. He grimaced when his arms had to twist back slightly, but relaxed back into his seat. _____ stared momentarily at the bruises starting to form on his torso, but looked away and took back the washcloth and sorted through the white box. She extracted a bandage and placed it on the long cut on Ludwig
Reader x Norway - Behind an Icy HeartReader x Norway – Behind an Icy HeartReader x Norway - Behind an Icy Heart2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Note: Again please read description if you have not read the intro please :3
“Vell (name), vhat do you vant to do?” Germany asked in a calm voice.
Your eyes scanned the room, looking at each of the nations who eagerly awaited your decision. How could you choose one out of them all? You loved them all and this made it even harder to decide.
However your thoughts were cut short when you felt an icy stare coming from the right side of the table. You turned towards the gaze’s owner to find Norway looking at you. His icy blue eyes bored into you like they were trying to figure out something. His stare sent a few chills down your spine and you cuddled further into the blanket Japan brought you.
But those eyes that were once staring at you quickly closed and he slightly tur
Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch. 5Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch. 53 years ago in Romance More Like This
I dipped the rag into the warm, soapy water. Suds clung to my wrist as I wrung out the excess moisture. I began with his face. Taking gentle, slow strokes, I cleaned his forehead, his cheeks, his neck, careful as a mother cat cleaning her kits. I dipped the rag into the water again and proceeded to his chest.
I hesitated before I began to clean it. I knew this would hurt him. I pursed my lips as I looked at the near-fatal wounds I was about to touch. I gathered my courage and began to clean it. I lovingly wiped his upper chest first, above where his wounds began. I was amazed that, even with almost a week of disuse, it was still as firm as a drum head. Once again, something in my stomach fluttered. I ignored the sensation as best as I could and began to clean the left side of his che
Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch 7Injured!GermanyXNurse!Reader: 'Til I Awaken Ch 73 years ago in Romance More Like This
I tied off the bandage to his chest, glad that we had both gotten through the agony of cleaning his wounds again. I was pleased to see less blood on his bandages, and the scabs continue to overtake the open red gashes. Ludwig's jaw was still tight from the painful ordeal. This cleaning was just as bad for him as the last one; he'd gasped and groaned so much that I almost felt every jolt of his pain.
"I'm all done now," I informed him. "It's over. You're not going to be in any more pain." I started lightly caressing his head, just looking at his face, still taught from pain. He started to relax as I stroked his hair. I could feel his muscles release and see the lines of his face soften.
I ran my fingers through his smooth, blonde hair, letting the strands flow across them like water. I enjoyed the experience as much as he did. I could feel my worries fade away and m
Hetalia GermanyxReader - Stuck In a BoxHetalia GermanyxReader - Stuck In a Box3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Ugh," groaned Gilbert as he downed the rest of his drink. "I'm so bored!"
"Well, this is your party, mon ami," chided his best friend Francis. "We should do something entertaining."
"Oh! I know!" said Gilbert's other best friend, Antonio. "Let's play Hide-and-Seek!"
"Good idea!" Gilbert climbed onto a tabletop. "Everybody! I've got a cure for all of your boredom! We'll play Hide-and-Seek!"
_____, hearing her friend's announcement, put down her drink and smiled. "That sounds like fun!"
"Seriously?" said her boyfriend, Ludwig, with a raised eyebrow. "Games are for kleine Kinder."
"C'mon, Luddy!" _____ took his hand, making him blush. "We all need to take time to play. Loosen up!"
Ludwig sighed. He could never say no to her. "Alright, schatz. I'll play one game."
_____ pumped her fist in the air. "Yes! Hey, Gil! Luddy and I'll play!"
"Awesome! Alright, peeps! You go hide! Toni, Francis, and I'll be it! Go!" And with that, the Bad Touch Trio turned around, covered their eyes
Bullied!RussiaxReader: To Save You Ch1Bullied!RussiaxReader: To Save You Ch12 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“What a pathetic loser!”
You let out a sharp cry as the attacker’s fist came in contact with your face, falling onto the floor from the impact. You immediately clutched your cheek, tears pouring down your face.
“Look at her cry!” They laughed. “She’s so weak!”
You whimpered in response. Getting on your feet, you ran as fast as you could. All you could think about is how much you wanted to get away from them.
You came to a stop when you saw a giant willow tree. It was the place you called your “comfort hideout.” You ran under the tree and collapsed, legs exhausted from the sprint. Hands covered your eyes and you sat there on your knees, sobbing.
Why were they so mean to you? Why did they hurt you the way they did? You hated it. You wanted it to end.
“Why are you crying?” A voice said.
You removed your hands from your eyes; looking up to worried, purple eyes that belonged to a boy that was six or seven, somewhere
GermanyxItaly: Never Again Italy woke to a start, bandages wrapped up his arms and legs, his torso covered in red and white covered by his normal blue jacket,"V-Ve~?" He was confused about what happened to him, how he got in this condition, and where he was.GermanyxItaly: Never Again4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Looking around, he noticed the white walls of a hospital room,"G-Germany~? J-Japan~?" He cried out helplessly. Had the Allies captured him? He really hoped not. Last time, they were really mean to him and Germany.
Footsteps of an approaching person neared the room that Italy was resting up in. Who came in was a similarly damaged German man,"I-Italy..." He paced himself to the bedside and fell to his knees,"How do you feel?"
"Ve~ What happened to you Germany?" He looked innocently at him.
Germany smiled a bit, seeing his close friend seemed to be okay,"Ve vere fighting Italy. I'm really proud zhat you actually got hurt zhis time." His hand clasped onto Italy's shoulder gently,"Not zhat I'm happy to see you hurt. I'm just hap
RomanoXReader - Her Voice Resides C10RomanoXReader - Her Voice Resides C102 years ago in Romance More Like This
It was the day before the concert and it was everything Romano could do not to bash his head into his wall. Throughout the past days, Romano watched as Feliciano started to lose all memory of you completely while he was stuck remembering you. Remembering how you left in the dead of night with only a note saying good bye. How you kissed his brother, leaving him emotionally like everyone else, even his grandfather, did. There was only going to be one more band practice. And that was tonight. Tomorrow was going to be the concert.
To be honest, Romano was a bit nervous. This would be the first time that he would be performing in front of a crowd of people. Maybe even getting possible fans. It was nerve wracking. And also strangely exhilarating. Arthur said, having been in a band before, that being up on stage, playing for a bunch of people, was the best feeling in the world. Romano just hoped that he was right.
The last practice before the show was going to be in a few hours and Romano had
Hetalia x Injured!Famous!Reader PrologueHetalia x Injured!Famous!Reader Prologue8 months ago in Humor More Like This
((A/N: This is my first Fanfic! Please read description!))
Hetalia x Injured!Famous!Reader Prologue
First were the bright lights, getting closer and closer every passing second. Then there was the loud noise of two things colliding, metal crashing into metal. After that there was pain. Pain that made it feel like you were dying, and that your head was being ripped off you shoulders. Lastly, there were the screams, screams of fear, anger, and more pain.
You wake up, with a pair of blue eyes shining down at you with worry. After almost bolting up in fright, you catch your breath, while the pair of eyes move away so that you could sit up. Alex, which was short for Alexandra, was watching you making sure you would be alright.
“_____, are you alright? You've been tossing and turning all night, and then you screamed and fell of the bed and I thought you were getting killed by some mad murder and you made it impossible to sleep since I was so worried about you!” Alex
APH: Hold GermanyXItalyHe tossed and turned in his bed, memories of the one he once loved circled and danced in his brain. He remembers how he would take his hand when he needed it, and always put up with him. How sweet and gentle he was even when the world seemed to be falling in around him. He sat up in his bed in a cold sweat, tears ran down his face.APH: Hold GermanyXItaly6 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
I know Ill never see him again Italy mumbled sadly
Why did he have you go off and leave me I feel so alone now and his face keeps haunting my dreams He curled up in a ball and cried until a light flicked on in the darkness, he looked up sniffling. He heard the sink run for a few seconds and then shut off then loud foot steps echoed through the small house. Veneziano looked around the house, his dark room which was originally covered in his paintings- looked dark and scary to him. He heard a cat yowl and race through the house
Japan and his stupid cat A deep voice muttered outside his
[Hetalia fanfiction] Everything Left unsaidTitle: Everything left unsaid[Hetalia fanfiction] Everything Left unsaid2 years ago in Drama More Like This
Author: Ai Chikane Enma/ :iconaichikaneenma:
Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Character’s death, History, Dystopian
Rating: PG (for swearing)
Disclaimer: I do not own Hetalia. Everything in here is a work of fiction, not a political statement.
Summary: After sixty years of ravaging economic depression, the United States of America collapses in civil wars and diseases. Every country around the world tries to assist the broken nation by sending troops and aids, but with the outbreak of World War III, America gradually loses all of its support and has begun to die. All of America’s friends have come to say the final good-bye.
“If it comes, World War III will be fought with nuclear bombs. Then World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones.”
In the year of 2074, the United States of America is virtually destroyed by a tirade o
RussiaxReader You Saved Me Part 2 “ALFRED PUT ME DOWN RIGHT NOW” You scream as Alfred throws you over his shoulder and carried out your small apartment and outside.RussiaxReader You Saved Me Part 22 years ago in Drama More Like This
“Why call me Alfred that name is so long and strange, just call me Al baby.” Alfred smirked as he throws you in the back of his black Cadillac and shut the top on you.
“God this man has gone crazy” you panicked out loud as you bang the top of the trunk trying to find a way out.You couldn’t see an inch from your face in the blackness.
“He has to have something in back here” you started to feel around for something, anything that could get you out of this man’s car. As you felt around you didn’t find anything.
“I wonder if he cleaned this out before he throws me in” you wonder as the car hit a bump causing you to hit your head on the roof, you could tell that the car was starting t
Hetalia x Reader - The Butterfly ProjectYou could sense the many pairs of eyes on you as you tugged up your long sleeve, revealing dozens of cuts and scars made by the little, sharp thing hidden in your bathroom. Several people gasped, but other than that, the room was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. You didn’t dare look up, even though you could feel the eyes of many others staring at you with a peculiar kind of innocent sadness. Their eyes burned holes though you, and even though that you knew that they would never in a million years blame you, guilt wracked your heart.Hetalia x Reader - The Butterfly Project3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“What did you do to yourself?” a quiet voice asked, while a soft, calloused hand tilted your chin up. Your eyes met a pair of twin violet orbs, looking into yours with such intensity that you couldn’t bear to look away, even though your mind screamed and kicked at you to move your eyes back to the floor. Tears welled up and almost flowed over, but being as strong-willed as you were, you refused to let them slip out.
Injured!Germany X Nurse!Reader 'Til I Awaken Ch. 2Injured!Germany X Nurse!Reader 'Til I Awaken Ch. 23 years ago in Romance More Like This
'What a rough day,' I thought as I plopped onto the seat proffered to me by one of my fellow nurses. Leaning my head back, I slouched down and let my whole body relax. I had been on pins and needles all day, there were so many wounded that needed tending to. Some had missing limbs that needed rewrapping, others needed morphine to kill the pain that plagued them, and still others needed bullets removed.
I sighed and looked down at my blood-stained uniform. The steely-blue dress was spared for the most part, but my white apron was completely gone. There was more purplish-red than white on it now. It never failed to amaze me just how much blood there was in a single human. I shuddered as I thought of the soldierI think his name was Franz--who had died of blood loss just today.
I kept thinking it would end, the tide of blood.
'That's it,' I ke