Web of Emotionsi am entangled in your web
Struggling in the threads that you spun
Full of lies and deceit
Trying to free myself from the pain
That is sure to come.
Like a Black Widow
So beautiful but deadly
A little thing causing so much pain
Enough to make me wish
Wish that i was dead.
You mean so much to me
Yet i seem to mean so little
Just like a toy of yours
To play with when you feel like it.
Shame of a Broken HeartShame of a Broken HeartShame of a Broken Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Time and time again I make this mistake,
fall hard and fast just to hit the ground.
My emotions refuse to remain quiet
when I open up to someone.
Trust is my biggest mistake in life.
I will never regret my choices
but I also wish I could learn from them.
Whats done is done and life continues
to go on at it's own pace.
Losing MyselfLosing MyselfLosing Myself2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I like to project that I am strong,
that no one can touch or shake me.
But all this is an elaborate mask
I wear to keep the real me locked away.
I hide my sorrow, pain and shame
beneath a mask of happiness and joy.
People saw what I wanted them to,
except for the few brave few who dared
to try to dig and uncover the real me.
The me who fights off pain day and night
and writes words on a page to keep from
putting red slshes in my arm.
I feel like a part of myself is slipping away
bit by tiny but until nothing is left
but an empty husk of the woman I was.
People see the sarcastic tone and
haughty attitudeand think I think
I'm all that. Well they are dead wrong.
That behavior hides a vast sea of pain and loss
I will not show to anyone I do not trust.
And maybe I make mistakes but I live through them
and allow my life to go on and unfold before me.
Pain and DecimationPain and DecimationPain and Decimation2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hope saturates my dried out heart,
bringing it back to vibrant life.
I allowed you to make me believe in hope and love,
but this was a stupid choice for me.
I wanted to trust somebody with my heart.
Why did I open up to anyone at all,
let alone someone who could do this to me?
I wish I could do things differently
but all this pain and decimation will
forever change who I am, for better or worse.
I've never made a promise I couldn't keep
but time changes everyone and I am no exception.
Like I once said, I'm nothing but a speck of dirt,
on a speck of dirt in the vacume of space
and I think it's past time I accept that.
Maybe time heals all wounds and maybeit doesn't,
I've never given myself time to heal from
one heart trauma to the next.
Two LoversTwo LoversTwo Lovers2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In an open glade, deep in the moonlit woods,
two lovers slip through the velvet darkness before the dawn.
Fog moves across the heath as slowly and silently as smoke.
It moves over the two lovers as they entwine themselves, become one.
This quite moment is one of love and forgivness.
As these lovers burrow their bodies in the sweet, lush grass
they hope they will never have to hear those ethereal chimes
calling them to the eternal peace of the silent grave.
Please Just Walk Awaydont tell me you love mePlease Just Walk Away4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
there is nothing here to love
there is nothing left to say
you cant change the truth with hollow words
dont tell me Im beautiful
that my sadness is the key
there is nothing behind these eyes
this is all I have become
behind the lies
behind the fake, fake smiles
I am gone
when will it be enough is enough for you?
will you never let me go?
look at you with this cold, cruel glare
let the truth slip
I dont believe in you
I dont believe in me
I believe only in despair
this is how I shall stay
I am nothing
just this poison underneath my skin
just a thorn in the side of your existence
for your souls sake
please just walk away
before it is to late
Awake at nightHere I lay again,Awake at night2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Staring at the dark,
Thinking of now and then,
Hoping my dreams will embark.
To sleep I cannot travel though,
Stuck here in the night,
Demons linger and shadows flow,
Filling me with fright.
Tomorrow never comes,
Time trickles to a halt,
My chest the sound of drums,
My mind lost in a vault.
Death of the Broken HeartedDeath of the Broken HeartedDeath of the Broken Hearted2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I was young
I fell away from life,
I fell into a dark deep sleep
from which I would never wake.
Watching, as if from above,
I saw them prepare me for the grave.
They dressed me in black silk with
a red rose in my hair.
Nobody could tell why I had died.
But I knew, I died of a broken heart.
You broke my fragil heart into pieces
just like it was made of glass.
I tried to go on living but I
cannot live without a beating heart.
So now I lie, cold and dead in my grave.
Are you happy now?
HauntedHauntedHaunted2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Creeping, crawling, silent and deadly
the past comes up behind me and pulls me back
to a time of fear and pain.
Pulled to a time when I lost control
and lost my heart.
Now I live, cold as stone,
in a world haunted by ghosts.
The ghosts of my past.
Heart in my HandsHeart in my HandsHeart in my Hands2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I handed you an open, trusting heart.
You handed me back a broken, mangled mess.
I trusted you with all that I was
but you used and abused it all.
What made me unlovable in your cold eyes?
Was it my open, loving heart and mind?
I never knew what each new day would bring.
You angry? No...You happy? Not really.
Horny? There we go! Every single day.
No love, no feelings other then physical pleasure.
You never opened yourself to me
didn't trust me enough to do it.
But you also told me you trusted me,
that I was your best friend.
I wanted to be more but I'll settle for that.
Maybe my dreams will come true and
cease to be nightmares and tears.
nobody caredI hate it. so badly. How I want to cutnobody cared4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and scratch and bite and otherwise
mutilate myself just to feel better.
Just. One. Tiny. Bit. Better. Sometimes
I can't stand under the weight of it
all. The sadness and pressure, the love,
the pain. The blood and the blade. but
they're all a part of me. I don't know if
I can change that now. but I'm not sure
if I want to either. Sometimes I
wonder if other people think like me
and are too frightened to admit it to
themselves or others. I'm afraid. I'm
afraid that people will lock me up or
put me away or, what scares me the
most, is that no one will do anything.
That no one will think I'm worth
saving. Is everyone afraid of that, I
wonder? of no one caring? Probably.
I think people would miss me if I
was gone, or be sad at least. I try to
remember that when I'm
contemplating suicide. But I also
remember the way that next to nobody
cared after a sophomore at my
school killed herself. I think I cried
for her, not because I knew her well,
or missed h
Seeing Through YouSeeing Through YouSeeing Through You2 years ago in Scraps More Like This
I overheard your voice because of my name.
You must thought that I was gone after our last drink together.
But I'm not the easy one to fool with - my ears can speak for themselves.
Just look at yourself, I point at the only person of seeing is yourself.
And you ask to yourself, "Did he read my mind or something!?" and see the look in my eyes.
Then you feel the gilt getting to you fast, although, it is I, whom be the one to find the truth through your mind.
Now, all will understand what it is like to be the one who's under judgment of their will.
Should I pity you and your lies, I wouldn't given another reason to think of, so no.
If you can escape your way out, let me give you a solution: Never bring my name up again unless it will coast you... for your own life.
I can see though you, and your lies.
WaysideWayside4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and fill my life with yours
for i am an empty vessel
a forlorn and forgotten soul
left by the wayside for you to find
you remake me
with unconditional ferocity
showing my lungs to breathe
inflating them with your own air
the beat of my heart sings your name
the pain of life fades
becomes background noise
drowned out by the incessant singing from my chest
and the heaving of breath from my breast
i no longer long for release
for the sweet kiss of death
now i live
i want and need
and you must take responsibility
for the hunger you have awakened in me
protect the lambs from the wolf inside
some things should be left lost
stranded by the wayside
sometimes the love you awaken is at humanities cost
Ice in My HeartIce in My HeartIce in My Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Day after day I feel the pain insideme grow.
It seems like just yesterday when you loved me
but now it feels like we are seperated by a wall.
A wall taller and thicker then the ones in China and Berlin.
My once open and passionate heart is dust on the floor
from trying to scale the wall and falling on the barbed
wire you built into the concret to keep others out.
I never held back but you never opened to me
and my love was wasted on a heart of stone and iron.
I gave you my all, my everything but only got pain.
So I put on a perfect happy mask every time i saw you.
I hid every emotion from everyone around me
so nobody would know how you made me feel.
Finally after all these years I found a person to accept me
as who I really, truly am, under all the lies.
Who could see beneath the masks to my pain.
He helped me see who I was, what no one else saw.
But in the end I will be all alone.
Every night I sleep completly alone and miss what could have been.
I feel the ice growing
His NoteHis NoteHis Note2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart was not equal to his.
I loved him more then he loved me.
He crept into my heart like a leech
and sucked the love and light out of me.
I wanted to be his one and only
but I was his once and done.
My symphony of silent screams
were useless because he didn't care.
What I thought were magical moments
were nothing at all but annoying to him.
Twisted MindsDistorted picturesTwisted Minds4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Through corrupted eyes
In twisted minds
History that scares
They make no sense
These ghostly prayers
All in all
They see lies
Hate so raw
Skeletons in My ClosetThere are skeletons everywhere in my closet.Skeletons in My Closet2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I open the doors bones spill out
covering me in a macabre pile.
I fight my way to the surface to live another day.
I put on a happy face and go forward
and try to lie to everyone around me
and tell them I'm just fine.
But when I go home at the end of the day
I sit down on my bed and cry myself out
because by the end of the day my
joyful facade has crumbled like dry sand.
Sadness of the AngelSadness of the AngelSadness of the Angel2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My sad angel, open your eyes,
turn away from the darkening skies.
See yourself for who you really are
and don't think you don't reach the bar.
Shed your gloomy, frosty demeanor
and become heavens devine intervenor.
Take me in your loving arms tonight
until the inky darkness becomes light.
Then we must be parted by day.
You must wait like a night bird of prey
for the sun so you can be mine,
from now until the end of time.
Sadness and ForgivnessSadness and ForgivnessSadness and Forgivness2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Waking each day in a haze of darkness
know who caused it and what he did.
I pick up a blade and look at the cold silver,
maybe this can easy my soul deep pain.
I raise the shiny blad to my skin.
I tell myself, "don't be stupid. go slow."
As I lower the cold metal to my skin
I feel a hand on my shoulder.
He turns me to face him and takes the blade away.
"Im sorry for the pain I caused, I didn't want this."
I try to grab the blade back, to finish what I started.
He tosses it away and wraps me in his warm embrace.
"My friend, you are far to good for me,
thats why I had to let you go."
All of a sudden my pain leaves and I forgive him.
I hug him close and cry silently.
Thank you my love for setting me free.
Fallen AngelFallen AngelFallen Angel3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A solem angel cries.
It cries to be loved.
It slowly began to die,
since it had been shot down
from the heavens above.
My beautiful, lonely angel
with the lovely green eyes
you are not alone.
Open up to me
put your trust in me.
Beauty is more then
just skin deep.
You are beautiful
in your own right.
Cry no longer
because you are not alone.
Let me hold you
in my arms
and show you
how truely special
you are to me.
Deepest OceansDeepest OceansDeepest Oceans2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A woman's heart is deeper then
any ocean known to mankind.
In my case this heart's ocean is a pit of acid
that causes and feels nothing but pain and suffering.
There are depths inside my heart no one can see
because I don't want to risk more pain.
I've been blindedd by love time and time again
and everything has it's price and you were mine.
Goodbye hallow sky and hello peaceful sea.
The Good Girlwe find her dancing with perfectionThe Good Girl4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
singing her song of insanity rejection
holding blood stained knives
clenched in fists of rage
her inner war wages
I'm a good girl
I'm a good girl
a mantra repeated with every gash
every slash she places in him
slowly, carefully she carves
words of devotion into his skull
his grin now a permanent curve
dead and dull
I'm a good girl
I'm a good girl
she chants as she paints the walls
with gory love scrawls
dripping crimson, ruby passion
he just had to open that door
and we will leave her there
laying on the floor
creating blood angels to her nevermore
ButterfliesButterfliesButterflies2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Butterflies are an age old symbol.
A symbol of rebirth and discovery.
The butterfly is never still
always flitting from flower to flower
and place to place.
Butterflies could symbolize anything
from luck and fortune
to life and death.
If I were a butterfly I would
want to be a monarch because
nobody messes with them and they
can just live their lives their way.
They are free to go where ever they
want and do what they please.
Full MoonAs the moon grows full and round in the skyFull Moon2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel my body begin to shift.
Into that timeless body of my curse,
a curse that ties me to the night.
My body sprouts fur and I howl to the sky.
I howl for the life I lost all those years ago,
the world i was forced to leave behind.
The world of light and joy and family/
Now I live in a world of lonesome darkness.
I miss my family but I know they are gone.
I am intrigued by thenew world around me,
With all it's lights and harsh sound.
Now I live in the world of the wolf
because the modern world of humans
has become as foreign to me as I am to them.