HopelessI watch and I wait I bide my time.Hopeless3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
She is weak, fragile, already at the breaking point.
Won't be much longer
Little flickers of defiance still remain, but I snuff them out.
It's for her own good you know
It's much better just to let Hope go Hope isn't worth any energy, it so rarely comes through for you.
Things are easier when you just accept them broken and bleeding, nothing can fix it better just to move on and accept that.
This girl right here has been difficult, letting Hope go isn't easy. I expected this to be a rush job, I mean all the signs were there but she just won't let go.
So I tweak and I push and I knock her on her ass. I twist her stomach to the point where she lies down and gives up and when she gets up I do it all again.
She's weakening little by little I'm winning.
Come on girl, just give it up, give in to Hopelessness.
Things don't have to be like this.
I do my best to trip her up, and she stumbles and falls but she keep
Of MM: Houseguest part 2"Ash wait A-Ash?! ACH!!"Of MM: Houseguest part 23 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Damn it woman, hold still!"
"I-I can't!!" I squirm in my seat, nails digging into the couch as Ashlynn's hold on my ankle tightens.
"You're going to smear the nail polish."
"I don't care!! FUCK, why did I agree to this?!!" It's too ticklish, oh God my foot finally twitches and I almost kick her in the face.
She falls back on her ass and we end up laughing so hard our ribs ache.
"You now have a giant blue smear across your foot."
This causes the giggles to begin again and they don't stop until we realize that the Scrubs DVD has ended and it's time for the next disk.
"Okay, God pass me the nail polish remover and go put in the next episode."
"No, you do it."
"Cause if I leave you'll steal the cookie dough!"
"Fuck, I've become predictable!!"
Her blonde hair quivers around her shoulders as she loses it and I begin to think we'll never finish the series. Oh yes, it is 3 in the morning and we've got several more seasons to go. She do
Blood and Lust: TalkBlood and Lust: Talk3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"You are wounded."
"I guess you could say that."
Bony fingers comb through brunette locks, "Why keep it locked inside? Why not let it out?"
"I'm not strong enough."
The fingers catch and tangle, "Not true."
"Hey! That hurts!"
"You are weak; frail you don't have to be."
"Well you try lying on the bathroom floor, knowing that no one can help you. You're all alone; you don't even have anyone to really talk to. No one you know understands."
"Who do you think you're talking to?"
A soft sigh escapes, "Sorry, I wasn't thinking."
"Forget it, I already have."
The fingers begin to comb again, no real rhythm to the action, but it is soothing all the same.
"Talk about it."
"I don't want to."
"Talk." The fingers snarl and twist, yanking the long strands.
Her yelp is loud, "Alright!"
She sees faces in her mind, female and male his face keeps coming back, no matter how hard she tries to forget.
Hatred boils beneath pale flesh, curling her stomach until she can't sit straight. Gh
Of Modern Moments: Matchmaker3"Oh God, Ashlynn I can't do this "Of Modern Moments: Matchmaker33 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Shut up and look sexy, she'll adore you."
"I want to go back to the clinic."
Ashlynn sent an exasperated glance to her lover, "He's hopeless!"
Fenris smirked, "Give him a break I've been in his shoes." The boxer was a lot less hostile towards Anders now that his attention was directed towards another woman.
Ashlynn smiled, reaching over to grab his hand, "And you had nothing to worry about, neither does Anders." She raised her voice towards the end of the sentence, sending a harsh glare into the rearview mirror of the car.
She'd had to drag him out of the clinic, all but threatening him with a Fenris beat down if he didn't ditch the scrubs for jeans and a nice shirt and come with them to the Hanged Man.
Blowing a strand of blonde hair out of her face she rolled her eyes at Anders's angst. He had absolutely nothing to be afraid of; Maeve was practically ready to rape him. Though he didn't know that, and Ashlynn didn't want to have a micropho
When Relationships Diewhen I don't pick up the phone,When Relationships Die7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's not because I don't want to talk,
I'm only afraid to run out of things to talk about.
When I don't hug you when you apologize,
It's not because I can't forgive you,
I'm only afraid it will lead to another apology.
When I don't kiss you when you say goodbye,
It's not because I don't want to show affection,
I'm only afraid affection will soon run dry.
When I don't want to meet you,
It's not because I don't want to see you,
I'm only afraid of seeing you differently.
When I don't think we should be together,
It's not because I don't want to be with you,
I'm only afraid I can't.
When I don't want to be the one to end it,
It's not because I want to put the blame on you,
I'm only afraid to hurt you if I do it myself.
Knowing I'd handle it with more control,
If you were the one to mutter it all.
When I don't want to hold your hand,
It's not because I'm unwilling to touch you,
I'm only afraid your hand might not fit into mine.
When I don't want to wear your
Of MM: Matchmaker 9"Babe, where's my scrub top?"Of MM: Matchmaker 93 years ago in Romance More Like This
"I don't know, I think I threw it over there..."
I can't help but smirk as Anders runs around his apartment like a chicken with its head cut off. He's late for his night shift and Maeve isn't helping. I can see her down the hall through the open bedroom door, lounging at the foot of his bed clad in one of his med school t-shirts and little else.
I'm here because Fenris is away, preparing for his next match. I figured that instead of pacing a hole in my bedroom floor worrying about him getting hurt, I can spend the night with Maeve.
Anders, now fully dressed, runs back to kiss her good-bye and I have to stifle a gag as I hear him moan.
I can't help it, I look down the hall...Maeve's pulled him on top of her.
"Anders your shift started twenty minutes ago!" I shout.
"Damn it!" He growls, pulling Maeve with him as he slides off the bed.
Then I hear something that makes me pause, a goofy little grin on my face...
"Love you Anders..."
My PurposeI was once hollow, an empty shell.My Purpose3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I needed reason, a purpose.
Blending in with the crowd is what I do.
Everything changed though I met you.
I became your friend.
At times I wish we were more.
I was happy, I'm glad I've met you.
I found out your goal in life, to make everyone smile truly.
I think I have found it.
Everything I was looking for.
Right here, inside me.
Around you and all the things you adore.
I smile every day because I know you think of me.
I laugh because I know if I don't you won't be smiling.
I cry because I know at night we will never say goodbye.
But I look forward to each day because I know when I look at you
I have found my purpose.
Of MM: Matchmaker 10I shivered a bit as we stood outside the building that elegantly advertised "Madame Nicoleta". We weren't in a bad section of Lowtown, but with how people had been reacting lately to Justice's radio show, you just never knew what kind of people would be roaming the streets at this time of night. Riots had been known to break out over the most idiotic of things, though the area was quiet.Of MM: Matchmaker 103 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Oooh, Ash, you have got to see this! Isn't it pretty?"
Grinning at my friend's reaction to a shiny, I shook my head and rolled my eyes. Stepping up beside her, I looked into the window of the jewelry store next door to the psychic's.
"You know I should talk Anders into getting this for me. Even though we made up so nicely, I think he still owes me from our fight," Maeve grinned.
"Go ahead. Want me to talk him into it?" I asked, looking down at the bracelet she was pointing to. It was gorgeous, the cuff made of be
Learning To TrustTell me a story about your lifeLearning To Trust3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And I'll tell you mine
Give me a reason not to lie
So I'll tell you the truth, next time
Whisper a secret in my ear
And I'll tell you a tale
Forgive me but this is my fear
I despise talking in detail
Give me a reason not to scream
And I'll tell you why it hurts
It's like acid in my bloodstream
This terror of being attached
Sorry if I ask for too much
For I am still learning
How to Trust
A Friend..?I've often wondered...A Friend..?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What is a friend?
Is it someone you have known for a long time?
Or is it someone you consider special?
To me, I don't have any friends.
Sad isn't it?
To not trust anyone to such an extent.
But how can I have something I don't truly understand?
I don't tell anyone about myself.
They don't try and understand me.
Still, it's none of their business anyway...
They don't need to know.
If it doesn't concern you, why should you care?
It doesn't affect you right?
Then you shouldn't bother.
As harsh as it sounds I long for one thing.
It is one thing I honestly want in life.
Will you be my friend?
Just BecauseJust because I wear black a lotJust Because3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
doesn't automatically make me goth.
I am goth
because I'm a free thinker
and go against your standard of normal.
Just because I was a cheerleader
doesn't mean I'm a bitch.
I'm a bitch
because people like you
annoy the living hell out of me.
Just because I read comic books
doesn't make me a nerd.
I'm a nerd
because I work hard
at the things that matter most.
Just because I'm a writer
doesn't mean I'm a daydreamer.
I'm a daydreamer
because reality isn't all fun and games
so I daydream to make things interesting.
Chimera: A Garrus / Shepard RomanceCHAPTER 7: TRAPChimera: A Garrus / Shepard Romance3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The elevator came to a halt at the Embassy level and opened its doors. Shepard stepped out and headed toward Anderson's office. Her omni-tool blinked and she pulled up the messages one from Gardner with all of the items he needed for the ship, one from Traynor with the location of the florist, one from Dr. Chakwas with the manifest of medical supplies to trade with Tactus and one from her mother. She opened the last one:
I just arrived and got your message from Specialist Traynor. I'll see you in a little while for dinner.
She sighed heavily as she stood in front of Anderson's office door.
Hopefully this doesn't take long.
She pressed the keypad and the doors slid open. Anderson's personal assistant looked up from behind his desk.
"Ah! Commander Shepard! Councilor Anderson is expecting you. Please go on in," he said as he opened the doors to the inner office.
Anderson and the Salarian Dalatrass were arguing but quickly stopped w
Love, Blood and Tears: Chapter 4Love, Blood & TearsLove, Blood and Tears: Chapter 43 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It didn't take long for Shepard to bring Garrus up to speed. She died, she was brought back to life, she found him and he's been with her every step of the way since. Most of Garrus' questions had to do with Cerberus' intentions. Shepard didn't really have answers she didn't know what was going on herself and she didn't like working for them. She was using it to her advantage though and Garrus knew that no matter what, he could always trust Shepard.
"What about you?" she asked. "How did you end up on Omega?"
Garrus' story was much longer than hers had been. He talked about her death, her funeral
"It was hell Shepard. Without you, there was no one left to take on the Reapers; nobody saw it as a real threat. It was frustrating! I tried, believe me I tried Shepard! I ended up getting so angry that I just couldn't take being on the Citadel anymore.
Not GoodbyeI didn't want to say goodbye like this.Not Goodbye3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I didn't want our friendship to end.
I didn't expect you to distance yourself
I didn't want to lose another friend
I can't do anything now
It's time to walk away
We've been hurt too much
There's only one final thing to say
Do you know?
I've dreaded this moment for a long time
But I knew that eventually
That I would have to say this line
We promised we would do so much together
I guess we lied
Didn't we say "Friends Forever"?
Another friendship pushed to the side.
We don't "click" anymore
Let the misery end here
Keep the memories
Mine are always near
I hope this isn't goodbye
My Nearly Best Friend
Diana - Theme Daylight's EndDaylight's EndDiana - Theme Daylight's End2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Ask not the sun why she sets
Why she shrouds her light away
Or why she hides her glowing gaze
When night turns crimson gold to grey
For silent falls the guilty sun
As day to dark does turn
One simple truth she dare not speak:
Her light can only blind and burn
No mercy for the guilty
Bring down their lying sun
Blood so silver black by night
Upon their faces pale white
Cruel moon, bring the end
The dawn will never rise again
The VampireAs darkness descendsThe Vampire3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
And light fades away
Humanity bids farewell to the peace of day
I rise from my dank grave
In the cloak of night
I rise with menace in my mind
I will reap my vengeance
Sordid malevolence cast upon mankind
Condemned to the life of a monster
By my fellow man
Abandoned by the lord divine
My soul forever in this purgatorial prison
The prison of night
To which I'm bound by my condition
The outsider looking in
Through a window of despair
Gazing with longing
From my vast and dismal chambers
My dark soul banished eternally
Joyous life of the past lies in embers
Foredoomed by all
Never to hear the sweet reaper's call
The life of the damned
Of the immortal
Until revenge fills my mind
With its sweet symphony of death
Forever shall I plague mankind
No salvation from their hellish plight
My nocturnal deeds of malignance
Corpses drained of blood
Children stolen in the night
The church defiled
Depictions of t
When a Good Man Goes to WarThe gyre of Time holds it's sway,When a Good Man Goes to War4 years ago in Sci-Fi More Like This
The moonlight ridding high on decay,
Colored Blue, colored true
Whispers pause to ask 'Who'?
If you know the rules you'll see they're only tools
The blood cloth folds around a sword
They all follow blindly that dazzling cord
Lock pick magistracy, framed decency
The geometry of sacrifice hilts the logic of mercy
Caged instead of flesh is the honest reflection of self
Shadows dance when a Good Man goes to war
Fear will surge over a last chance when a Good Man goes to war
Chaos's spiral gate, with it's maw agape,
Calls on friends of old to face their fate when a Good Man goes to war
But blink and it's all for naught as always athwart is what was sought
Out from the final tower's lonely bell
Toll the moans of living hell
Lost is the moon, lost is the tomb
Blackened claws pluck fire from the womb
Reaching out across the stars, as war that crackles only far
From candle to cradle burnt out
This child is stolen, so without a doubt
Space will roar, dead gods ab
RelationshipsI like you, he said, after a moment of hesitation.Relationships5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
She paused. You like me?
Her tone surprised him; it was airy, disinterested. The boy continued. I've liked you since grade eight. Please go out with me.
Go out with you?
Yes. His knees shook a little, though he tried his best to prevent it.
What will we do when we go 'out'? she said casually.
Will we holds hands, cuddle, and tell each other stories? Will we go to movies and pretend we like each other's tastes, and go to restaurants only to fondle over the bill?
...I don't know.
The girl sighed and rested her head on her hand, gazing up at him with nonchalance. Listen buddy, let's just start off with this. I'm not perfect. So whatever you've romanticized me into in your idealistic little head, that's probably not what I'm like. I'm bitchy, I'm moody, I'm a hypocrite--Look at the shock on your face already!
Animal JamJamaa is a communist country. There are restrictions on what you say, the T-Vs only show about 6 channels altogether. They are constantly monitoring us. Once you enter this fucked up world you're wired. The only time our leaders have shown themselves was when we founded this country. The newspapers printed by the government have promises of our leaders coming back, but they never do. Our houses are merely huts without doors. We are constantly fighting for food. Our government lives elsewhere and doesn't care about us. Our currency is consisted of gems, rare elements that are very hard to find. Hundreds of us were sent to the Shiveer mines to collect gems. The government emits a vapor that causes us to black out. When we wake up the world around us has changed.Animal Jam2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
This is the only thing the kids know.
They enter art contests that are supposed to be held by our leaders. They don't even get gem prizes if they win. All they get is maybe their own Jam-A-Gram card or a picture of their drawing
B+L: And So It Begins...B+L: And So It Begins...3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Elske is late.
She's never late.
The drive is intense; her stick thin body wound tight, hands gripping the steering wheel until the knuckles turn white as she disregards all mention of there being a speed limit.
She's late how can she be late?
She'd taken precautions, steps to ensure she was never late
But she is.
"Idiot " She hisses as she pulls into the parking lot of her destination, her jet black BMW swerving to take up two parking spaces. She doesn't care.
The world is made of ice, chilling her to the bone as she leaves her car. Wrapped in her black fur coat she shouldn't be cold but she's late and that freezes her to her very core.
Stepping inside the store she makes her purchase, grey eyes hidden behind thick sunglasses that aren't really needed indoors but she wants no chance of being noticed.
The plastic bag is far too loud for her liking, swishing against her leg as she all but runs back to her car.
She's late she's late damn it why is she
Monster's endThe feeling of the gun jerking with each shot was satisfying to Emile. Like he could feel each round as it hit the ships, sending Covenant soldiers to a fiery death. He wasn't really aware of the words he shouted as he shot his enemies out of the sky. He was slightly aware that he was shouting insults and vengeance for his fallen teammates.Monster's end4 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
The onslaught of ships stopped and Emile sat back in his seat. He was tired, but he knew he had to keep going. For now there were no enemies to fight, but he knew there would be more. Though his bones ached and his muscles were sore, he felt there was nothing more he could do for now. "I hope I did you proud, Jorge." He let his head fall back and stared up into the sky. He noticed a slight shadow a bit to the side. He recognized the shape.
"Noble Four, I need fire on that cruiser or we're not getting out of here! Do you copy?" The voice of Captain Keys was calm even with the threat looming overhead.
Emile switched on his radio. "You'll have y
Pack Up the SmilesPack up the smiles, pack up the games,Pack Up the Smiles4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Pack up the laughter,
Pack up the names
Leave behind calm and light hearted chatter,
Abandon all hope,
Feel your heart shatter
Your time is up, now you must go
Pack up the smiles
They won't be needed you know
Though things once missed will be seen again,
It doesn't seem worth it,
Not at this end
Pack up the smiles, leave the giggles behind,
To the void with dark humor
They won't welcome your kind
Mask firmly in place? She can't see you cry,
You know she won't like it,
Let it out while you fly
Two hours to go, almost home little one,
You thought you could hide it?
Your emotions have won
Pack up the smiles, lock up your heart,
Time to be an adult,
Throw the luggage on the cart
It's time to see Mom, you know you missed her,
Oh look she brought Matt,
And your good old Step-Father
Pack up the smiles, enjoy the car ride,
Look at the mountains,
Once home you can hide
Pet all the puppies; cry out as they lick your face,
Wave at the llamas
20 Ways to Annoy Grievous1. Hug him.20 Ways to Annoy Grievous3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
2. Get some of his fangirls onto his ship.
3. Yell "DADDY!" and give him a hug.
4. Do number 3, but yell "MOMMY!" instead.
5. Get a droid to do number 3, 4, or both.
6. Paint "I Love Jedi" on his cape.
7. Do number 2, but tape a "Free Hugs" sign to his cape.
8. Tell him that Obi-Wan likes him.
9. Throw a party at his lair. Be sure to invite ALL of the Jedi and Clone Troopers.
10. Paint him pink.
11. Steal his lightsabers.
12. Replace his lightsabers with toy ones.
13. Sing "I Know A Song That Gets On Everybody's Nerves" as loud as you can over the intercom on his ship. Try to get a droid to do it. Get as many droids as you can to sing along.
14. Yell "Quick! Do a Barrel Roll!" to the droid piloting his ship. If it does, see how many times you can to this.
15. Lock him in a room with Obi-Wan. Make sure both of them don't have their lightsabers. Tell Grievous that is he hurts Obi-Wan, then you'll drop him into a pool of lava, and if he is nice to him, you'll let him go. Griev
029 Vacation029 Vacation4 years ago in Sci-Fi More Like This
Kat sat hunched over her workspace. Only the light of her worktable lamp allowed her to see. She was focused completely on the radio transmitter that she was modifying. If all went right she'd be able to attach it to her helmet and it would allow her to have contact with the team from a further distance. If it worked on hers she could make the adaptation to all the other members of Noble Team.
Light flooded the room as her door opened and she snapped around to whoever had opened it. "Close the door. You're letting in too much light." She hunched over more as she tried to stay in darkness.
Carter moved through the doorway but didn't shut the door behind him. "No, you're in too much dark." He moved into the room and she glared up at him. "It's a nice day outside and you have yourself locked up in a room with tech and only a little bit of artificial light."
"I like my tech." Kat turned back to her project. She didn't care about sunlight or the outdoors, she had work to do and she was goin