No RegretsNo Regrets1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
There was once a time,
When nothing else mattered,
Not the future, not the past,
Not the world, beaten and battered.
Our little party of three,
And though I'd never say it,
You were my family.
We strived to escape our "home",
And venture far outside,
But the journey came with a price,
Along with my damned pride.
Because of me, you're gone,
And I can't forgive myself,
But once I'm all done here,
I'll serve my time in Hell.
I'll see you two again someday,
But my time has not come yet,
So till then I'll be down here,
Making choices with no regrets.
It Isn't Wrong...I used your words to form an apologyIt Isn't Wrong...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I didn’t know another way
To make you acknowledge me
But I’m still here, you know
As much as I was a year ago
I’m going in blind and taking shots in the dark
But I’m pulling every word from the bottom of my heart
I’ve had a lot of time to see things straight
You’re someone that I love, that I could never hate
That’s why every time I tried forgetting about you
I couldn’t force myself to do what I had to do
Now I can see your pain, I’m sorry I put you through it
If there was one thing I could change
You know that I would undo it
I don’t want to live, I don’t want to breathe
The reason we’re like this is all because of me
I don’t want you to be yet another closing door
You think I could care less, darling, I couldn’t care more
Take away from this all the evidence you need
I miss you just as much as you say you miss me
I want this forced silence to come to
WorthYou don't have the rightWorth2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To tell me how much I'm worth
Constantly bringing me down
With a few simple words
You throw them at me
Like it's nothing
But it feels
Everything I've ever done wrong
Trapped between two words
I try to prove you wrong
I try to be worth something
I try and I try
But it's never enough
I try and I try
But you never change
You brawl behind words
That I've learned to shield
But when it comes down to it
You're the one hiding
And I'm the one fighting
One day I'll be free
And then you'll know
That you had no right
To label me worthless
Apart from loveThey say they never workApart from love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But we will let them know
It’s hard enough being alone
But it’s even harder without each other
Because, even though you’ve left my side
I can still hear you cry
Fear that brings all the doubts and lies
Forgive me please if I can’t show you my love from so far
Your heart and mine,
They’re fragile by the tides
We’re bleeding and bleeding
With nowhere to hide
We’ve got no home,
When we’re set so apart
sleep tightThere are dreamscapes,sleep tight1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
vast blank planes that unfurl
in the night to greet me.
They roll off my tongue - like
the lies I used to tell you -
and dribble down my chin,
collecting in the hollow of my throat.
I am swaddled wholly by them,
need no coddling but their
You roam my body,
grace me with your 'why me' smiles,
and grip me tighter.
honey, please don't pull that triggerI'm always taking bullets for you.honey, please don't pull that trigger1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Mignon (2/27)IrritatinglyMignon (2/27)2 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
cute, lightbulb to ev'ry room.
Sure wish he was mine.
PTSDWhen I was younger my dad was my heroPTSD1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
my mom said, look up to your father, he's the smart one
he fed me dreams of harvard in small spoonfuls ,
college ideas at the mere age of eight
i swallowed it, caught it like a raindrop
always begging for more, a little more please papa
fifth grade came, and my dad became a harder man
my mama repeated , still look up to him honey,
he knows, he knows
seventh grade brought shouting anger and sadness
my papa gave me the talk, the talk about ptsd
he said it would change him, make him not my papa at times
the monster isn't me he says, just something you can't find under your bed
throughout his screaming and abuse,
my mama said, look up to him, he still knows
but his wisdom is just frayed at the edges, like your new skinny jeans
i could not help but see my perception of my father was altered
where was his support? why did he take my moms support from me?
my perception of him was forever altered,
it was an invisible scar on my arm,
something surgery can n
Butane KissI remove the memories from my brainButane Kiss2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I replace them with a gas
I force the kiss from my mouth
Then fill it with butane
I remove the blood from my loving heart
I replace it with alcohol
There'll be no love in me
I burn it from myself
I don't want to hope for what won't come
But I desire a second chance of that kiss
I want you to pull the butane from my lips
Then replace it with that love
I wish I could have that love in my heart again
I wish your love could remove the scars
And put the love back into it
But it's all been cut out of me
And then burnt away
Everyone is evilEveryone is evil,Everyone is evil2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
some are just more evil than others,
as every child is cruel,
but some just learn faster
how to behave.
Dirt Water ~ SerodousDirt Water ~ Serodous2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It’s like a hurricane going at minimal pace
I don’t mind being alone, it’s where I finally understand the human race
I can’t describe it, the need to just hear myself plead
And I’m screaming about my sadness, locked out and down
Screaming about a hurricane until I let it all out
You see they whisper at me when I’m closing my eyes
When I open them up, the thoughts are screaming dark lies
Dreaming of a heartbeat, rescue me.
I say, I don’t mind being alone, it’s the only way I can be a part of a family
And I cannot remind you of how many times I hit my head against the wall
Waiting for the disease to crawl, I’m begging you just to listen to my health
As the clock counts down and the bastards count their wealth
I’m open, looking back on who I was to be, it was destiny - What are you doing looking at me?
You see it’s all perfectly fine just to be left behind
But when there are many shadows on the wall you can’t possibly
I Am AtlasI am AtlasI Am Atlas1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
with the sky balanced upon my spine
and my eyes staring at the Earth
beneath my feet,
the unchanging and dirty world
which forced this weight upon me
and continually called
for the sky to crush me.
I am Atlas
kneeling and groveling
before the ground whilst
and every night
to see the sky which I uphold
with my being.
I am Atlas
dying slowly whilst
you all around my feet
and say not a word
recognize not a moment
of my continual torture.
I am Atlas
and though I dream of releasing the sky
and finally seeing its wonderful beauty
I know I would only see it for the moment
before it finally crushed me
and I realize
that god truly hates me.
Merry go roundhold tight to your seatMerry go round2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the ride gains speed
our hearts have been taken over
by lust and greed
we walk in so many different directions
we're hiding behind so many masks
and even on these different roads
we still cannot forget our pasts
love, life, trust and laughter
holding hands, a bond almost broken
we're all lost, running after the dreams we're after
we finally let go when we see our wish tokens
broken hearts, and a single tear
these fragile emotions we keep so dear
and as we try to keep up with our ways
we still hold in our memories, those days. . .
we're on a merry go round
spinning in opposite directions
and once we pass, we think for a split second
Cannot Control - FamilyI don’t want to do this,Cannot Control - Family1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
This is not like me.
My brain is in chains,
Clouding all reality.
From whence did it come;
Contempt for my family?
I shriek “Everybody go,
My will is not free!”
Instead of turning tail
They rushed to my side,
Pleading me to tell them
What’s happening inside.
I reach into my mind.
So desperately I tried
To dig into my conscience,
To lift the rage’s disguise.
The frustration is fuel,
To what? I do not know.
I beg back to my family
“I cannot control, please go!”
My little bro, terrified,
Runs out into the snow.
He looks back at me crying,
While my anguish still grows.
I flip the table and shout
“Please, do not stay!”
But my parents persist.
“You need help right away!”
My mother tries to calm me
With her tender tone,
Despite my begging
To just leave me alone.
I break free of her grip
And shove my dad from the phone,
Smashing it to bits
Before running out on my own.
I didn't shift my gaze
To see my Da
Robotic scientistsRobotic scientists2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm standing behind a door of mathematics
rulers and protractors cut into my insides
and my veins are scattered over the floor
knowledge is everything
science and math are everything?
They have cut into me
made me bleed
the measurements of experiment infinity
have taught me nothing more than what my eyes ignored to see
the heart is dying
the words are building a wall of misunderstanding
we are falling
into a world of endless calamity
We are machinery
born to investigate
not to communicate
There are words inside my closed iron gates
going into cardiac arrest
the heart will stop beating
if this world doesn't hear me screaming
this information means nothing
if the heart refuses to listen
insanity has taken over humanity
born to go in reverse
for the past has failed
and the future a dead end
Science, you have failed me.
Math, you always confuse me.
the textbooks filled with stories of human beings that were caged
Life: A Reverse PoemLife is about abandoning hopes and dreamsLife: A Reverse Poem2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it is a mistake to believe that
the most childish wishes will come true one day
Ambition can get you anywhere you want to go
that is a lie
“You have to throw away impossible goals, and accept reality”
Those toughened by the world will tell you
Be everything you want to be
Seek fame, fortune, and love
Thoughts like these will only limit you
You cannot save a life
You cannot change the world
You cannot be special
You cannot be who you want to be
Happiness will come
Life will take everything away
No matter how much you think otherwise
WineHead on a patisserie tableWine1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
with a wine-scented napkin
that I scrawled your name all over
in the hopes it might necromance
or just romance you
to this place, at this time,
so we could be together again
and although the guitarist knows
that I'm broken beyond blue
I keep reaching for the bottle
in the hopes it might recreate
or just replicate
Darkly seduced.Darkly seduced with the pleasure of painDarkly seduced.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sinful acts, my good side now slain
Tempting evil wonders with a burning desire
Willing to be consumed by this dark erotic fire
The light has now left me so empty and alone
Dark rises to power and takes its wanted throne
Blood mixed with drops of a sexual love
Fits my soul like nothing from above
Hot wild passion from deep within
Take control and I want it to win
Nothing needed now but to just embrace
This truly evil feeling as I hide my face
When the deed is done my power holds your soul
To do as I want no matter how foul
Opening up your darkest fears
Turning them to blood soaked tears.
CryingCrying10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Letting the cloth sheets catch my every tear,
I cry again tonight.
Over the things you say and don't mean.
The little things you say hit me so deep,
I don't know whether to believe them or toss them aside.
All these signals. I'm so confused.
What am I to do?
I hate doing all of this crying just because of you.
It drains my energy and I slip back into depression's hold.
I just can't seem to stop the tears from coming.
I can't stop it.
Why can't I stop them?
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep...
Silent OneI am the silent oneSilent One2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can speak, I can speak
Believe it or not
But I choose not to
Out of fear that my words will hurt you
Words from my mouth spill and burn
When I open it
So I don't, for safety's sake
So I can protect you and me
It hurts me, you see
To see how my words hurt
And I can't bare that
So I stay silent
I am a labelI slid the blade across my wristI am a label3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.