Venom of ThoughtYou may think I don't notice
But I can always see
The way you look at her
A way you never look at me.
The monster whispers in my ear
"You're not good enough, you know"
I try to wave him off,
Try not to let it show.
That he's tearing at my flesh
Ripping my insides out.
He fills me with self-hatred,
Depression, and self-doubt.
"You'll never make it far,"
He hisses to my heart.
"Cuz you suck at everything,
Like your writing, and your art."
Outwardly, I cringe,
Letting loose a tear.
"This simply isn't true!" I shout.
"My dream come true is near!"
"Everyone else is higher up,"
He laughs and murmurs low.
"You'll never get that high
From where you are so far below."
I wince and pull away,
From something I can't see.
The thing that claws my life apart,
This monster inside of me.
"I have a future," I cry aloud.
"I truly know I do."
The monster only smiles
And to a vicious grin it grew.
"Your future's as dull as you are,
You're dumber than the rest.
And you're just as empty-hearted.
You can feel
Definition of a Writerwrit•erDefinition of a Writer1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A writer is a person
Who sees the world differently
From a high perspective of understanding
To an easily balanced imagery
They stand at the edge of the cliff
And run that extra mile
To gain what a normal person cannot see
And to obtain the hope that they wish to cherish
A writer is a person
Who buries their ego and places boulders upon it
They learn the rules, follow the rules, and will break the rules
And make writing their own
They lay upon the dusty old ground of a graveyard
And do an annual ritual to free the inspiration that has been pinned down
They want to show their abnormality to everyone around
And make this journey an unforgettable experience
Writers are masters of inspiration
And will set aside whatever may ruin the ecstasy of their writing
Which they will forever embrace
And will fight to claim the title author
In their world of words
Their stories are set free
Some are killed to b
WorthlessLay down, silly little boyWorthless1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Close your eyes, foolish child
Did you really feel special?
Did you truly think, you were different?
Stand up, silly little toy
Open your eyes, troublesome gnat
Look into the shattered mirror
Watch the salty rain run wild
Do you see silly, little, tool?
With your hideous eyes, stupid kid
Your worth has burnt in fire
See the pathetic pile of ash?
Such a smart, silly, little brat
Such an understanding, foolish, rat
You can see your end is near
Why not speed things up;
Silly, little, boy?
My SociopathMy sociopath.My Sociopath1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
People are just a means,
To achieve your goals.
You don't really care.
It's all pretend.
I wonder if they can tell?
But I'm different.
I'm your love,
Even if I don't love you,
Even if I can't love you.
You will protect me,
And care for me,
And I will show you kindness.
I will act as if I care,
Because you make me happy.
Your manipulations will get you far,
UntitledI like to lift others up because I know how awful it feels to be downUntitled1 year ago in Philosophical More Like This
The Father's LoveI lie here on the cold floorThe Father's Love1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Darkness is my only companion
Depression hits like a tidal wave
Live seems so pointless
Death will always be knocking at my door
And sometimes I want to answer it
But instead I shoot up a silent prayer
I'll hope to a God if he's up there
Maybe He can rescue me
Maybe, just maybe, He will hear my cry
Maybe, just maybe, He'll see my pitiable state
And while I lie here crying I feel something
A warmth consumes my body
I feel a peace come over my soul
I fall into the love of the Father
He wraps His arms of love around me
And somehow I think I might be able to make it
The dark suddenly does seem so black
The floor doesn't feel quite so cold
And life seems like it may be worth living
In this moment of peace, I gain strength
I rise to my feet and move towards the door
The outside world will try and crush me
It will beat me down and bruise me
But I know that someone cares
And maybe, just maybe, that will be enough to get me through this life.
HiddenYou doubt meHidden1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
cast me to the back of your thoughts
I dont want to be here
i want to be out in the open!
I want to be shared with the world!
because of the others words
you keep me hidden...
and whenever i show my face
trying to show you who you really are
you deny me
And shout those awful words
ever scaring words...
I guess i'll just stay here
waiting in the darkness until you're ready
continue to live the lie
continue to repress me
continue to deny me
I cannot fight it anymore
i cannot stop you
What is going on?
broken dishesgod dammit.broken dishes2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i woke up today
feeling just as sick
as i did when i went to bed
i woke up today
wanting to break
in my house
just so i wouldn't be
the only thing
Eyes That Watch MeEyes that watch me,Eyes That Watch Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
eyes that don't.
Eyes that follow me,
eyes that won't.
Eyes in my family and
eyes in my friends.
Eyes in nature that
never seem to end.
Eyes that watch every move I make,
every breath I take,
every word I utter and mutter and stutter.
Eyes that judge me, love me and hate me;
Eyes that fear me, loathe me, pity me;
Eyes that want to be me and curse me for existing.
But the eyes that watch me the most,
always the most critical,
are the eyes that
I Miss You SometimesI miss you sometimesI Miss You Sometimes2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I thought I had forgotten even your name,
When you had not crossed my mind for
Months on end,
Suddenly it's like I was with you
Yes I know you were bad for me
And that is why I left
But people with sick minds
Don't give up until their body is poisoned too.
You were bad medicine
You were a malignant cell
You were a parasitic psycho-maniac
But you were loved.
TeachTeach how to read, not what to read.Teach1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Teach how to speak, not what to say.
Teach how to love, not who to love.
Teach how to think, not what to think.
Teach how to be, not who to be.
Teach how to listen, not what to listen to.
Teach how to stand, not what to stand for.
Teach how to write, not what to write.
Teach how to admire, not what to admire.
Teach how to fight, not who to fight.
Teach how to laugh, not what to laugh at.
Teach how to question, not what to question.
Teach how to accept, not what to accept.
Teach how to succeed, not what to succeed in.
Teach how to follow, not who to follow.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
It only hurts because we both feel the same wayDuskIt only hurts because we both feel the same way1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And in the depths of this never ending twilight my mind retraces its steps,
Following the veins along your arms and across your chest.
Counting the memories as they slip between my finger tips,
Remembering when times were good
And you said you’d write a love song for every one of my tears.
But those days are long gone, now fading stars in the darkest of nights.
When our souls were light and our days care free,
We would watch the leaves as they fell from the trees.
Each one a dying light, like a firework that streaks through the night
But we built a fire so big and so bright,
An undying passion blazing in the night.
I found heaven in your eyes the murky blue like stormy skies,
The curve of your lip like a mountain range,
I could sit forever and gaze at you this way.
My piece of heaven in the depths of hell,
Your light reached out to me and healed all my scars.
When you said that every breath I take is a tiny gift to you in a miraculous way, I welled up i
Shattered heartWith this broken heart I'll keep moving onShattered heart1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the scar you left me will help me become strong
For my heart used to be so numb, but then you showed me love
Sadly then you shattered it, once you saw I held you dear
But I hope you don't regret what you have done
For what I felt, you'll only receive it once
Glass HeartYou hold onto this glass heart of mine,Glass Heart1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
But in your hands will in be fine?
It's been damaged as you can see.
Each crack is so painful to me.
All the time new ones begin to show.
And the healing process is so slow.
Already such damage you have done.
And things between us have just begun.
I know I've been clumsy with your heart too,
But I would do anything to not hurt you.
Every joy will brings so much pain.
This roller coaster drives me insane,
But it's worth it for that joy.
You gotta know how I love you, boy.
I can't promise your heart won't break.
Sometimes you'll have all you can take.
All I can promise is that I'll try.
To keep you happy, I would die.
But as I feel like I'll fall apart,
I need you to take care of my glass heart.
ScarsKiss my skinScars1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
with your sweet, metallic touch,
and every moment after
I'll regret it so much.
I need someone to accept as I am,
hold me, comfort me,
like the sick child I am.
I feel the pain in my hip
with every move I make
as if it's just there to remind me
of the damage I ache.
It won't let me forget
how I finally slipped
and now it makes me wish
that I ceased to exist.
The VeilI look into the mirror and see a faceThe Veil1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is not one I am familiar with, my heart races
Shadows and mist part and the reflection comes in paces
It is of a woman, but I am a man, she reaches out to me, her hand chases
After me as I run, but there is no escape, for I am hers, hands and hearts entwined in laces
Honest PsychiatristNormal, your brain is not.Honest Psychiatrist1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take a guess at what you got.
It's needed for your medication.
Label shouldn't cause frustration.
Guess at what pill to take.
So many that they make.
Don't know about your brain.
Could make you more insane.
Effects are usually small.
You may have none at all.
We warn just so you know,
Your pain may just grow.
Your brain isn't fried.
Just another to be tried.
Patience is what I need.
I promise it isn't greed.
So here's another pill.
Maybe now you won't be ill.