I only exist in the past.Once upon a time, I filled novels with my thoughts, cementing myself into the binding of books, the spiral bound pages beneath my bed. But time passes, my hair has grown, my handwriting has changed, and I've lost a piece of myself.I only exist in the past.2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The moon eyed boy tells me that he loves me, but I've fallen out of love with life, and some skills, you can't relearn. I don't recognize the sound of my own voice anymore and my old words catch in my throat like a beautiful lie from centuries past.
For the first time, I am the girl I always wanted to be, apathetic and unafraid. But girls like me don't hide at night, stitching their souls into patches of their skin while the moon makes it's way across the sky. It's hard to be fearless when you let fear take you, grab you by the hand and whisper through the darkness.
But late at night, when the summer sky is swallowing us and we are more than happy to be consumed, allowing the dark silence to wipe our slates clean, I find myself missing the girl with the sun
Can You Remember me?Can You Remember me?Can You Remember me?2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Facing you, I stand up against the cooling winds. We are here now and you just stare. So you are here with nothing to say? Can you see the barren skies and the ugly scars in this place, or is this something you came across before? I can’t ask for an answer, because I won't believe the words that comes from your abomination. Can you tell me who I am? Of course not, because you can’t remember who I am. You are a sifer, mindlessly traveling between the tragedies, and now you can’t say anything anymore. Are you better off dead? So we are here now, and I wish to say something to you. What was the sin that only you created? Was it something more beautiful in your eyes?
Trusting takes two, and that is something I can’t do anymore. I’m so sorry, but please take a look around, nothing is here. No longer can anything be born in this place, so why do you linger here? Hope has died and was buried long before you arrived here. I can give you an ans
Damn Me, If you MustDamn Me, If you MustDamn Me, If you Must2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Ascent to the heavens where my bliss awaits
A lucrative expanse of sweet nothings
The essence of an embrace
Soon to be consumed in the warmth of promises made
Yet a chill on my spine distracts
Eyes of gold turn upon the creeping darkness
Where a handsome smile makes a malefic impact
The slamming of my heart rakes my ribs
Leaving my breath shallow and bone dry
Drawing me away from where the light had bid
Into, instead, the waiting arms made of shadowed blights
Silky smoke curls and adheres to my bronzed skin
Inky laughter which cuts to blind my sight
He is the Tempter, the Great Destruction, so corrupt
It's me he's always wanted, my everlasting admiration
Away he carries me, the descent so painfully abrupt
What would he do to me once we were alone?
Up, I glance into the sanguine crystals of his infinite eyes
To succumb to the seduction, I knew I would atone
No longer welcomed by the light of divinity
Shunned by the seraph protectors of purity
To live o
Center of My CalmCenter of My CalmCenter of My Calm2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll carve it in the stone
The ice encasing your soul
Through the pearls of memories
Stringing my dreams
Dawn of touch and touch of death
Cruel enough to steal my breath
So surreal, your duplicity
Bury me in imagery
Sharp angles jut, I wish to press
Blend the cut, a perfect mess
Ubiquitous, your mouth has become
Ribs bend, making room for one
Molten center, unmatched, blazing sun
Center of the day, host of my witching hour
Mortal, though you may be, I scour
Every minute, seeking to be devoured
And the emptiness that is left in your wake
Leaves me with this abstruse ache
It never fades, it never wanes
Until you please my presence again
I'll write it with my lips, burn it with my sighs
I refuse to be distant, displeased when denied
Cleanse this confusion
Strain my diffusion
I've branded your name upon my heart
My veins are yours to chart
So sail through my being
Never mind the corruption you're seeing
Ignore the lies that I've been fleeing
Go straight to m
Were We To Trap OblivionWere We To Trap OblivionWere We To Trap Oblivion2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sneaky you, unsuspecting me
I've waltzed to this song before
But never like this
Never wanting it so badly
Where I've stepped
Are land mines of words
That unravel my defenses
And you've grown on me
Invaded my inner sanctum
Poked holes in my theories
You've left me weakened
All my buttons pressed
As you ride from floor to floor
Within the elevator of my mind
I no longer wish for peace
I just want you near
So close my skin crawls
At the thought of your fingertips
Raking my through my flesh
Do not think of my pain
Nor consider my mechanisms
That deny the clockwork of emotion
For you've already infected so deeply
Not even death would erase you
From the futures of my thoughts
An embankment of smiles
Where you claw and collapse
Everything I've worked to build
Now I am transparent
I've become the air
Breathe me and I
Will first whisper the words
Before I scream from your lungs
And become the torrent
That drives your heart
To murder my memory
But don't yo
come now, blue jaymaybe one day you will see thatcome now, blue jay2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you are not the world
the world is you
but for now,
you hang as a marionette
from the strings of a blade's cut
perhaps you will free yourself one august afternoon
cut loose from the ties and the lies and the alibis
and dance to the breaths you take on your own
and maybe think of me when you taste
the moon and the stars and the sky of the night
for i have worked long days and strange nights to free you
come now, blue jay
and play me a sad song
about the one who was freed,
yet left her saviour to die alone
Pride, SwallowPride, SwallowPride, Swallow2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Echo, be thine light
Shine unto me and crave
Illness of separation
From self to dust
And spread me thin
Among the seeds
Of infinite eyes
Glancing at thee
Acrid is the ardor
Of pleasures bound
Thus forward I see
To seek and surround
The pews of myself
With the deadened doubt
Wither the flowers of mourning
And watch thine tears shine
A scarlet mist my lungs release
To shower my pale flesh
Expose the will of the weak
Tear down the barbed fences
Allot this space
It's mine and solitude
Drawn in chalk
Down your spine
As a winter chill
To ice thy eyes
Weather this torment
As a storm of needles
The end, once in sight
Will be a sour reward
I paint the blade
Across the surface
Of an unending day
And forget to regret
All the things that I'm
Too cowardly to say
TowersTowersTowers2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sweet knight, deserving knight
Come and release me
Hear my plight, fight my blight
Take me where we can simply be
Do you know you're in my dreams?
You are, riding your silvery maned mare
Holding me within your highest esteem
And galloping with intent to extinguish my despair
Noble knight, righteous knight
Crossing the horizon now
In my sights, soon to claim your right
I can nearly feel your lips on my brow
Do you know I've been waiting here?
Or am I a myth you hope to prove true?
I imagine your smile reflected in my solitary tear
So relieved that it is I you pursue
Sturdy knight, courageous knight
I watch you approach at last
Gleaming knight wielding impossible might
To my prison, which so many rode straight passed
Oh, my heart races as you come near
Sliding back the visor of you helm
Your handsome face chases away my fears
Soon to be the prince of my realm
Solo knight, savior knight
Arms open with promise, extended upward
Armor nearly white, standing in the golden
Content With Nothing, I Am NotContent With Nothing, I Am NotContent With Nothing, I Am Not2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Angela Malzow 2013
I've broken into your mind.
Yes, it was me this time.
No worries, we're not behind
On the contract we signed.
My peg leg needs a good wind
So I can totter on to find
A way for us to bind.
The malignant charade
Of our midnight parade
Has erased the scarlet shade
Of our passions, which fade.
Of all the farewells bade,
To heartache we've been enslaved
By the temptations we evade.
Will you let me see the side,
that you are always trying to hide?
All the things upon which we divide
Our malefic intents from our rotting insides?
No, really, I know we've tried
To make the best of this game of spies and the spied.
Among the dense garbage of the aftermath we preside.
Take into yours my clammy flesh
And hesitate not to infest
The very core of my chest.
That you and I should mesh
Into the solitude of a single caress.
Stomp and smash your heels upon the pests
Who are shackled by their ideals so repressed.
We chide and abide by our ideals
Afraid to e
What is loveWhat is love but a memory we can't let go,What is love2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A feeling that has faded yet we can't say no
A fortune of dust and vault of pain,
Why do we keep insisting on these kisses in the rain
When it stops like a truck that's run out of fuel
Why do we keep on loving when it's oh so cruel
Trying to forget, to protect your heart
When will we learn that it tears us apart
No war, no poverty, no hate, no crime
They say a perfect world will just take time
That love is the answer, but I still say
Love is a disease, so just stay away.
Mask of SentimentMask of SentimentMask of Sentiment2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And inhale your breath
As my own and know
The cinnamon spice of
As your finger
Traces my lips
The quiver we share
When lust paints
Into the welcoming arms
Tumble down into bliss
And warm my soul
Among your lapping shores
Where into your love
As your fingers drag
Lines of passion upon my skin
Writing the truth with blatant strokes
Refusing to hide among
The secret whispers of
You every waking moment
And bitterly resent the silence
I break upon the walls
Of distance to remain close
To the hands that hold my heart
And give me the affection
Because every word
Is as beautiful as the last
The promise you carve into me
Gives me peace and hope
Rapture smothers my pain and
Is a terrifying notion
When it seems all I've known is suffering
Shakes me to the core
As I seek your moonlit eyes
And recognize the honesty
I Fake It So WellI Fake It So WellI Fake It So Well2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The things I hate about me
Are all the things that people can't see.
'Oh!' They say, 'What pretty eyes!'
Don't they know I'm empty inside?
'Grow your hair! It was so lovely long!'
Living up to everyone's standards just feels wrong.
'We only judge you by what's on the outside
We don't care what you hide.'
'So long as you live up to our codes
So long as it's the photogenic side you show.'
Don't take me wrong, the compliments make me smile
Reassures me that I hide well what within has been defiled.
'Look! Again, your freckles are cute!'
Does it matter that my heart is destitute?
Nod and laugh at my hilarious jokes
Forget about my rotting yolk.
If I get a little skinnier do you think I'd be beautiful then?
How about the way I suck in my abdomen?
How about we fuck until my hips shatter.
Maybe that will stop this pesky chatter
Clicking about inside my brain
Telling me to accept your chains.
On and on, your voices carry the heat
Of your vanity and acrid deceit.
Another taste.Push me up against a wall, and show me how it's done.Another taste.2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Put my hand above my head, and tease me with your tongue.
Put your lips close to mine, and push them onto my face.
Leave me breathless and excited, longing for another taste.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
toleranceIt is often said that tolerance is necessary in a free and democratic society, but there is considerable debate about what tolerance is. One standard is that tolerance means putting up with others and respecting their basic rights. Others regard this as insufficient, and consider almost any expression of negative attitudes on the basis of factors such as race or religion to be intolerant. The focus of this essay is religious tolerance. This is the form of tolerance that was most significant to the founders of the United States. It will become clear, however, that religious tolerance is not as special a case as it may at first seem.tolerance4 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
Religious tolerance cannot reasonably be rooted in a belief that all religions are equally correct, or that religious beliefs are somehow above criticism. In fact, it is impossible to offer meaningful commentary without suggesting that at least some religions are wrong on at least some things. Clearly, those who advocate for gay rights are not intolerant sim
A Fall into Madness Where I Tripped Over YouA Fall into Madness Where I Tripped Over YouA Fall into Madness Where I Tripped Over You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Angela Malzow 2013
The voice, it soothes
Rings into my mind again
This voice, it moves
I'm coming, my friend
This voice, it lures
Caving away the walls
This voice, it lies
For this single moment I gladly fall
This voice, it seethes
Stings the edges of my lids
This voice, promises nothing
It's tone forbids
This voice, it reverberates
A nail in my chest
His voice, it slices
The heart from my breast.
At times I wish I could be inside that mind
All the torment I might find
While I writhe beneath those scalding hands
That promise an eternity of anguish
To bend and snap under that guise
And enjoy the perfection of my demise.
Sing to me this lullaby of endless night
The coal rains down, smudging our faces black
Allow me this one insight
To press my soul into the mold
Of your ever deepening gaze
Among the spines of your arms, I fold
Drink away the loneliness of my bile
I'll churn away within your bellied pits
Do you find me detestably vile?
the lilacs in the wind.the way she looked at me,the lilacs in the wind.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
something heartfelt and twisted;
something in her eyes
beckoned if ever so slightly
the forested garden of her irises
illuminated under the setting sun,
enlivened by the hazelnut
nestled between the pitch spheres
recalling the times we had held one another
neath a shell of endless & starless night,
swallowing past tears of bliss -
shallow gusts over her neck,
deep bite marks in my shoulders,
scratches like intoxicating fire up my spine,
fervent cries to the moonlight
drunk on the silver of the elusive atmosphere,
high on everything that smelled so sweet;
confections & peppered kisses
left gingerly on her jawline & shoulders -
like imprints forgotten on her pink freckles;
yellowed bruises & snagged notes
lining her cinnamon waves,
purpling contusions under a veil of
scars in places i hadn’t been able to see
nor lay my kisses upon -
the valley between her breasts,
stitches up & down her visible sternum,
marks & cracked porcelain over h
Last Breath of SunsetLast Breath Of SunsetLast Breath of Sunset2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Angela Malzow 2014
What have we been playing at
The toying of a kitten's paws
Raking at our hearts
Worship the blue moon
Feel each heartbeat
Compress within your chest
Take an endless breath
[[[Let me out]]]
Grasp your last
A soul to gasp
Tomorrow will arise
Speaking in riddles
How to survive and smile
When the gray chews
At the fringes of sanity
Pull at those threads
Until the decay gives
No one said
We have to live
Here in the middle of
Swallow the pill
Engraved 'Forget Me Not'
With opinions of love
And smile at them
True love, abused
Of a body held close
Off your skin
The heat rose
Irises kissing lids
Ecstasy upon relapse
Breaking blades on bones
Am I truly... So distant?
Truly so devoid
Echo me, a r
if i could.1.if i could.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i’ll be honest with you;
there is a certain authority to being
somebody said once that writers struggle with reality
because we spend all of our time
constructing our own.
the truth is, life may be impermanent
but the details are not.
time has one direction
the past cannot be revisited
and history cannot be redone
with a red pen.
what happens, happens.
we are walking permanent records
that can never be expunged.
no matter how many orphans we pull from fires
no matter how many dying children we sing to
we still made our mother cry once
we still let our little brothers find us passed out
on the front porch when we were nineteen.
imagination is our primary retreat
because there, that boy does fall in love with us
and our first kiss is not spit on our chins
or misses landing on our nose
(maybe there are waves crashing in the background)
and we say everything right.
there, we have crafted a version of ourselves
that lives perfectly.
“if i could,” someon
The End Eats MeThe End Eats MeThe End Eats Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When it's decided, and we'll have nothing
But nothing is always something
And something means everything
Tear me down, my love gone astray
Do we have it in us
To break the manacles of misfortunates
Really, we've risen and I'm dispensable
But you refuse to acknowledge such misguidance
I'm not trash and you won't throw me away
This divide is where you've permeated
The stigma of my love
Love, what more to say
List the ways I can make your day
And I'll give all of myself to the task
Take me, if nothing else, that's something
Someone more than a lover
More than forever
No less than everything I've ever dreamed
While you rush, dissolve my doubts
Slip the chalky white of you passed my lips
Inside me, where you should be
A pill printed, singular heart
Drug away the formidable foe
What corrupts my smile
If we become infinite would you still give it all?
Fist in my chest, clutch me
Fuse with me, become one with me
The one where we called the apex
Our eulogy of passi
ProxemicsHis eyes glintedProxemics2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the glass embedded there
in every stare
The images scattered out in rays of broken light
to flicker on the wall
A strange assembly of delight
Now my eyes sparkled too,
though they sang a different song
but under the shadow of my gaze
the pictures could not be wrong
"Won't you blink a little less my dear"
I said without a stop
"I know you're tired now,
but you'll love me when it's done."
His blue eyes glinted
from the glass embedded there
guarded, leaking thoughts
reflected in his stare
"It's just a moment longer,
and I shall read our fate.
I know you'd like to shuffle
but I fear the closing of the gate."
The lights became more dim
as his sleepy lids slid
And though I tried to rouse him
He would not wake nor budge
His eyes glowed with
from right beneath his skin
and the wall ceased to reflect
the red-hot words he wouldn't lend.
Your Body Cried CrimsonYour Body Cried CrimsonYour Body Cried Crimson2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Behind the pretty words hides a mouth of razor fangs
Quite frankly, I'm completely deranged.
So few know what lurks in my mind
What nightmare places exist for you to find.
At times I picture kissing your lips
All the while my knife slips
Into your innards and rips
Away your trust.
Stacked behind the allure of my pale eyes
Are rows and rows of myself in disguise.
The masks I wear to convince you that you're safe
Alone, you realize you're the victim I've raped.
I took away your innermost emotions
And placed them within the hands of my devotion.
Now you're trapped in my toxic web
I swallow you and you sink like lead
To the bottom of my heart.
The way I love is violent at best.
For instance, I'd like to tear your heart from your chest
And drink away the nectar of your affection.
Your body, subject to my dissection.
In this game, only I will win.
My tongue is dripping your blood and sin,
Drop by drop it sprays away
And from you, your life I take
Companion, Be DeathCompanion, Be DeathCompanion, Be Death2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A place between here and there
The space between each and every care
Which binds us to every word
And every promise ever heard
Blacken our minds to the Great Divide
Wallow amongst the lurking shadows inside
They claw and mark us to match one another
Ill fated or poorly met, star gazing, damned lovers
Secrets, a sheet of plastic words softly spoken
The depths of swirling madness which had awoken
To lie and bind our hearts in common guise
The truth of our shared embrace, intents surmised
Embankments of the rivers of blood and tears
Where ambitions, hopes, and misery is lost among the endless years
We bring our sorrow as a dish to pass for the thieving mouths
They cannibalize our dreams and leave us hanging on the stripped boughs
Bared of our sins we rest our hearts on the breeze
The whispers of salvation clinging about our knees
I look at you and try to wear my wearied smile
But your chastising eyes strip away my denial
Turning over in our graves, the so