Still the Same Girl (first Draft)The Abyss was tempting again tonight. Just a few steps away from Bell-mère's grave it called Nami to take a final rest, too. Let go, It whispered. You gave so much already. Nami was as weary as an old sail hanging limply in the wind. No fierce wind could fill her with joy again, it all seeped through the holes that had been torn into her.
“You're still the same girl.” Nojiko had told her. She couldn't have been more wrong. The girl that was Nami had died along with her mother as Arlong had shot her. Just when Nami had finally been ready to call Bell-mère by that name. Mother. And Nami had died again when she was forced to work for Arlong's crew. The flag that killed her mother forever stitched into her arm as an irremovable stain of sin. And then maybe a third time, as she told the other villagers and was shunned for betraying her own mother. She withheld the real reason why she did so, didn't want to share the burden. She had thought s
RedecoratingMore persistent thanRedecorating2 years ago in Valentine Exchange More Like This
an irremovable black marker,
you engraved your words of love
into my practical stone heart.
You decorated that barren place inside of me
with flowers made of
your honest words,
your boyish smile,
your warm touch,
and the colour of your affection.
So gentle feelings began
to grow inside of me,
cracking open my stone heart,
forming a tiny gap,
just big enough for you to slip in.
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-ning to wake up
While Driving in the Suburbs on Valentine's DayI’m sure of nothing, no one;While Driving in the Suburbs on Valentine's Day7 months ago in Valentine Exchange More Like This
we’ll never be ourselves.
Our lone device is left to searching
through bins and vessels
on drives and circles
one by one, houses upon houses
secreting pills and thoughts and air
behind their stealthy doors and bellies.
I stab into each of their ugly little anthems.
What is mine?
What is mine.
Windows caught on Christmas trees
the pale hypnosis of television
bleeding through curtains drawn to a slit.
What dares to go on living in there?
Dawn comes drunk and begging
shrill and shameless, undiscerning
‘till the string breaks high above the plains
‘till it’s engorged on everything
the hairline crack in a potted blue sage
the lip of the gutters haunted by cats.
Houses are holding things close to their lungs
moistened in darkness, a glorious sadness
that no one's allowed. Left out! We're left out
of unholy communions, distensions of time.
I've only the rumors to cradle my demons
and only your face, sw
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i have primrose phrases for you
carefully placed into
meant to seriously contain
all the emotion you create
you are more the sun each day
and i'm the patient sea
i was a vacancy
that did not sit well with you
now your furnishings
comfort my indwelt rooms
oh you're a fragrant loom
that i am watching weave
into a beauty unknown
before this date; believe
me when i say that my purpose
is witnessing your patient stitch
from now until
the tapestry fits
crushes are weirdstanding on opposite ends of the Pacificcrushes are weird7 months ago in Valentine Exchange More Like This
watching sunrise and sunset happening
in tandem; you've left me starry-eyed
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People there to crush you
There will always be
People there to take you down
There will always be
People who want to change you
There will always be
People who give in
Never give in
Not to one single other person
Who doesn't love you for you
Who doesn't cherish every part you
Who doesn't respect every little flaw
That makes you you
And never let yourself get down
Keep your head up
When these days have passed
And we run head speed into tomorrow
These people who are there
To crush you
To take you down
To change you
These voices will become silent
And those who love you
Will be all you hear.