5 Years!I recently made the milestone of being on Deviant Art for 5 Years! Wow, I've been a member here since way back in year 10 of high school, I did have another page before this one but I barely had anything worth keeping at the time so I just made a new accoun and it's been 5 long and eventful years.
So much has happened since I first made this new account back in 2008 (I know seems like such a long time ago huh?). My life has changed in so many ways and looking back on some of the things I uploaded and wrote here in my journal seem so stupid now, but at the time they were real and true.
I've made friends, lost some and gained new ones. Been through relationships, both the best and worst times of my life, found new skills, talents, wishes, dreams, goals and desires. Been enlightened by some of the toughest experiences and learned from my mistakes, inspired by friends and family and determined to make them proud.
My writing has come such a long way from the simple, cliche love poems
Nightmare Incarnate: Prologue Prologue: Airi, The NightmareNightmare Incarnate: Prologue2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Millennia ago there was a tale, that of a demon who terrorized her home village of Vallenn which was later earned the moniker “Village of Nightmares”. This demon’s name was Airi, she haunted this village for centuries, she had a rare ability that power was the ability to create dreams or nightmares, and the true reason for her evil behaviour was eventually lost to time. But Airi wasn’t always so cruel and heartless, she was once just a little girl in a strange world, her family had left the demon realm when Airi was born, afraid of the life she may have to live if they stayed in the demonic realm. However, the people of Vallenn weren’t too pleased to have a family of demons living amongst them, they were able to live peacefully for several years but when the town eventually found out they had demons living amongst them they took action.
Airi’s family p
NI: Chapter One, Page One Chapter 1: The Fateful EncounterNI: Chapter One, Page One2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Many hundreds of years later, Vallenn has become a very popular tourist attraction, what with its ‘Shrine of Dreams’, so popular in fact, people from all over were taking time out of their daily lives to come and pray for good fortune at this little rural town, still true to its medieval design apart from several extra homes and merchant stalls within the village. While many of the neighbouring towns had become great cities due to the entrance into the 21st Century, some became bustling towns and suburbs to accommodate the growing population and the tourism industry and others becam
NI: Chapter One, Page ThreeAbel opens the door and stops dead in his tracks, a few feet away several villagers stood soaking wet from the rain holding torches and several weapons, looking right at the two of them standing there with dark and menacing looks on their faces some even had looks of shock and disbelief while others actually had to be held back because they were ready to attack at any second.NI: Chapter One, Page Three2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“You have betrayed us Abel, we let you stay here and this is how you repay us? Why Abel?” One of the villagers calls out, clearly distressed.
“I heard her side and I just couldn’t stand by and let this continue” Abel explains.
“You don’t know what their kind is capable of, our ancestors had to seal her away. You don’t know what she’s done!” Another villager shouts, angrily.
“’SHE’ has a name, it’s Airi. And did you ever think of getting to know her and her family? No you didn’t, so was that a good enough reason to seal her aw
NI: Chapter One, Page TwoWhat is this place anyway?” He continues, looking around the tiny cell. Standing in the centre of a pitch black cell, the only visible objects are a door far off in the distance, the stone cold floor and the many chains that seem to disappear in the darkness but are attached to the girl who’s still lying naked on the floor .NI: Chapter One, Page Two2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“It’s called the ‘Underworld’ and it’s the only jail in the demon realm.” She replies, smugly.
“The demon realm? How is that even possible?” He asks.
“How about you start by helping me out of these chains?” She orders.
“I’m not sure I should do that.” He replies, cautious.
“Come on, do I look all that dangerous?” She asks, trying to look cute.
“Frankly? You’re really cute, but if we’re here in the demonic jail, then you must’ve done something wrong. If we were anywhere else? I’d believe you’re not hostile, but because we’re
Dust and AshesThey fled their fiery planet, with a glimmer of hopeDust and Ashes2 years ago in Sci-Fi More Like This
Escaped to nowhere, outnumbered and outmatched
In their single cruiser, against massive ships outgunning them
A bruised and battered Autumn abandoned ship.
The Cole protocol enacted, in escape pods they dropped
Onto the surface of an unknown world, one with many secrets
The humans regrouped, explored and researched
The aliens followed, in awe of their discovery.
A ring world, pure and beautiful
Harboring a deadly weapon
A mistaken religion
For a sacrifice of lives.
The war continued, for power
The power to control this great weapon
Mistaken as a gateway to godhood
Two sides struggled, endlessly.
Until the emergence of a third foe
One far greater and more fearsome
Using it's own warriors against them
Both sides pushed to break point.
Until a lone warrior, clad in green armor
Guided by that glimmer of hope
A mix of personality and technology
Fights through it all.
Struggles no less than the rest
Pushes past these hideous parasites
NI: Chapter 1, Page Four“Anyway, I was hoping to get some clothes from the town before we left, but well. That didn’t go down so well, I’ve got some spare clothes though, help yourself we’ve not much choice, you’re not walking around like that.” Abel informs as Airi once again rummages through his backpack to find said clothes. Abel stands up and with a slight limp, walks over to a thick oak tree a few feet in front of them as Airi changes into the spare shirt and shorts that she retrieved from the backpack, Abel puts his stained shirt back on while Airi offers the jumper back, Abel shakes his head and she puts the jumper back on.NI: Chapter 1, Page Four2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“We’re not too far from another town, let’s just hope they’re a little friendlier, maybe then we can get you some nice clothes and some supplies for whatever journey we’ll have to make now.” Abel explains.
“Thank you…” Airi mutters, feeling a little depressed.
“Enough already, I just did
NI: Chapter One, Page FiveAs Airi follows Abel, he’s pulling out a dress almost black in colour with detached sleeves and ending in flower petal-like strips of material and a belt around the waist line, it comes with a pair of white knee high socks.NI: Chapter One, Page Five2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“Well? What do you think?” Abel asks, politely. Airi takes the clothes and stares at them for a while.
“Here come try them on in here.” Abel leads her into a change room.
“B-better take this too.” Abel sputters, blushing as he hands Airi some ladies underwear. He closes the blind but as he goes to walk away Airi juts her hand out and clutches his shirt.
“Are you leaving me?” Airi mumbles, a waver in her tone.
“I can’t stay in there with you! You are a girl after all! I’ll be waiting right here, don’t worry I won’t leave.” Abel embarrassingly assures her, Abel quickly buys some new clothes for himself, a red and black loose fitting singlet and a pair of white shorts. Returning t
RedThe music, the gentle watermarks upon this shrouded air,Red3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her voice, her smile, this lavender richness
Sweetness reflected eternally,
Reflected upon this incarnate spirit,
Upon this rippling flesh,
“I am naught but that which I will become,
I am naught but a constant vigil to her dyeing memory,”
Sentiments of a decaying voice,
Of a voice receding ostensibly into the withering mausoleums of extravagant apathia.
For the old must make way for the new and the new for the old,
In endless cycles, rotating and oscillating,
In memory and touch, in thought and speech,
Until the form is made to coalesce once more,
Until flesh is bound to bone in appropriated audit,
And the Preludes ring out again in their toxic refrain,
To herald the changing of times,
To herald the beginning which
……..will never come,
For he is forever bound to her,
And her to her gluttonous redness,
To the ephemeral sparkle,
And the incandescent aphasia,
Which bound two to on
ButterfliesYou've got me weak in the knees,Butterflies2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart is buzzing, like a bumble bee.
I love your style, your eyes, your grace.
You put the biggest smile on my face.
I'm looking for an opening, so I can make a move.
I never learned to dance, so this has to be smooth.
I just want to throw my arms around you!
I've got love I know will astound you.
Throw me a wink, just so I know..
You're feeling the same thing, and your ready to go.
Newly Formed SnowFloating along the newly formed snow.Newly Formed Snow4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
No path telling me where to go.
Nothing bare could be found.
Not a single soul around.
Trees covered with a sheet of ice.
New sites as I look thrice.
Beautiful sites never seen before.
Drawing me in, wanting more.
Magical everything seems.
Can't believe it's not a dream.
I take my step and blaze my way.
The sun appears to start the day.
Flood of Hope~ Nothing quite comparesFlood of Hope11 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
to the beauty of the rain
that crowns me in hope
and carries me away
into another world
where I feel so free
from this broken land
and haunted jubilees.
In the dreary night,
I can hear them sing
of the trifling rain
that this nature brings
and it makes me mad
knowing that they rebuke
this lovely thing called rain
that serves as my refuge.
Under it's healing touch,
my soul is at eternal ease.
Scars of shame disappear
like black holes in the galaxy.
Since my darkness fell
to the power of the rain,
everything is brighter within
and I've never been the same. ~
Levender EyesI slink on the boatLevender Eyes11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the river Styx,
Charon cackles, bobbing his head,
Coal waters pull us away.
“Short lived,” my guide rasps.
Pincers implant themselves in my iris,
My eyes pop like turquoise cherries.
Eyeless ruts breathe out dust,
My lips part, I vomit moths.
Look lavender eyes.
My chest cracks open
Rickety doors on rusted hinges.
RainI lay amongst the grass, swaying in the windRain3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
It's picking up, the clouds about begin to change
Colouring themselves grey, as the air around me
Cools the skin on my body, giving me Goosebumps
As the first drops fall, I can't help but smile
I lay there, as the rain comes down
Cleansing the earth, of all her impurities
Cleansing me, washing away my impurities
Drenched in water, I care not
For I love the rain
Rain, so clear
So pure, untainted
Falling lightly upon my face, so soft
Running down my skin, winding up my senses
I clamber up, and stroll through the fields
Drenched in the water, water fallen from heaven
Like a gift of the gods, the droplets gleam
Like an ambient wonder, a sight to behold
The way it streams down the leaves of a tree
The rain streaming down my skin, making me feel comfort
Making me feel, as though someone is with me
Comforting me, refreshing me
The ways it courses my skin, like veins of water
Dripping from my fingertips
Standing there, on the edge of the field
If Only You KnewIf Only You Knew2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only you knew..
You bring me up,
You bring me down.
I can't help but smile when you're around.
You make me frown,
You make me smile.
I'd run miles to see you.
You make me laugh,
You make me cry.
I try to tell you the truth..
But I can't utter a sound.
Paper ButterflyWhite-capped waves rolled onto the beach. A gusty breeze blew through the wildgrass lining the edge of the sand bank. Walking along the shore, a little girl held the hand of her father as he guided her along the sand. After a few moments of walking, he came to a halt then smiled down at the mess of blonde curls blowing in the wind.Paper Butterfly5 months ago in Scraps More Like This
"Ready?" He asked his little girl.
Her blue eyes sparkled when she met his gaze, a smile spreading across her face in excitement. Two little hands tightly gripped a red spindle on which a piece of string was wound. Tied to the end of the string was a large butterfly; a butterfly masterfully crafted by her own imagination. Magnificent reds, yellows, greens, blues, and purples were painted on the butterfly, creating a colourful contrast to the white sand beneath their feet. With a firm toss, the paper butterfly was released into the wind, taking flight and soaring gracefully across the sky. A laugh escaped the little girl's lips as she watched in wonder at the
Silent CompanionHe sat in front of his bedroom wall, staring at the dark shape before him. The creature, brought to life by the night light plugged into the opposite wall, remained unheard. In its silence, it watched him and his every move, mimicking each little movement perfectly. Its presence expected, yet fearful in the mind of a lonesome child. Tonight, his dreams had abandoned him, despite several attempts to call them forth. So he sat facing the shape, and fashioned his fingers in various designs and characters in the darkness, bringing them to life on the wall. Several minutes passed, or perhaps hours, but his fingers grew weary. Bored of the play which had amused for so long, he sighed and stared once again at the wall.Silent Companion5 months ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
He rose to his feet and placed his hands flat against the wall, connecting himself to his silent friend. The wall was cold to the touch, but he remained undeterred in his quest. A single finger traced the creature's outline, being as careful as he could so he did not cause his
HeartbeatAs I stared at your first picture,Heartbeat4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
tears fell from my pining eyes.
You were mine and I loved you,
but it was never to be.
A tiny little form on the screen
I could barely see, not moving.
You were beautiful and perfect,
and I could never tell you.
That precious little smile,
those wondrous big eyes,
your tiny precious ears,
I would never get to see.
Your soft young skin,
the small tuft of hair,
stretching little fingers,
I would never get to enjoy.
A little heartbeat I prayed to hear,
did not make that heavenly sound,
and my heart tore in two.
You were mine, but you silent
and always will.
I love you
CrushYou're so cute and so sweet.Crush5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Waiting patiently until we meet.
Some avoid meeting online,
But I think it will be fine.
You make me laugh and make me smile.
That hasn't happened in a while.
So casually with me you flirt.
I'm starting to forget I'm hurt.
It seems that you like me.
In person, we'll have to see.
In a few weeks you'll be here.
No connection I do fear.
Until then I continue to wait,
And hope that you are my fate.
I pray that you're one I can trust,
Because you are now my crush.
The CoinA single coin is tossed in the air.The Coin11 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It may land on hope, or fall on despair.
A choice between two, just one is essential.
One is life crushing, one full of potential.
Some will claim luck, either bad or good.
Others say fate, the cosmos knew it would.
There's those who have faith, who wish for the grand,
But that hope is empty if Life dealt a bad hand.
Some will give up and fold with their life.
Others keep trying and pull through the strife.
There will be prospers, there will be fails.
The coin is now falling... will it land on heads or tails?
Send me awaySend me awaySend me away8 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
To a place not tracked my miles
I know you don't want me to stay
So maybe now you can finally smile
Send me away
Like everyone else has before you
I'll find a new place to lay
For what else is a broken man to do
Send me away
Yet again I will play as the fool
Tear up my heart just to play
Then toss me like a useless tool
Send me away
What more can you want from me
Your leaving my heart to decay
So just let go and leave me be
Send me away
Away so I can go back to being alone
Go back to being cast astray
And go back to a world without a home.
SuicideI take pills to help me feelSuicide2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alright just for another night
As my life starts to fade
Into a sickly gray
I take a knife and take a slice
So for that night the pain can hold me tight
I take a rope
Around my throat
Then as i take a leap of hope
Then slowly i begin to choke
But as you may know
Yeah i did choke
Cause right now im writing this
Living just like a bloke
Im here today and maybe the next
But others are gone so lets take a sec
To wonder if we can help them yet
Lets all go out and help the rest
So lets all not stand aside
While all our friends cry
Contemplating on suicide