5 Years!I recently made the milestone of being on Deviant Art for 5 Years! Wow, I've been a member here since way back in year 10 of high school, I did have another page before this one but I barely had anything worth keeping at the time so I just made a new accoun and it's been 5 long and eventful years.
So much has happened since I first made this new account back in 2008 (I know seems like such a long time ago huh?). My life has changed in so many ways and looking back on some of the things I uploaded and wrote here in my journal seem so stupid now, but at the time they were real and true.
I've made friends, lost some and gained new ones. Been through relationships, both the best and worst times of my life, found new skills, talents, wishes, dreams, goals and desires. Been enlightened by some of the toughest experiences and learned from my mistakes, inspired by friends and family and determined to make them proud.
My writing has come such a long way from the simple, cliche love poems
Nightmare Incarnate: Prologue Prologue: Airi, The NightmareNightmare Incarnate: Prologue3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Millennia ago there was a tale, that of a demon who terrorized her home village of Vallenn which was later earned the moniker “Village of Nightmares”. This demon’s name was Airi, she haunted this village for centuries, she had a rare ability that power was the ability to create dreams or nightmares, and the true reason for her evil behaviour was eventually lost to time. But Airi wasn’t always so cruel and heartless, she was once just a little girl in a strange world, her family had left the demon realm when Airi was born, afraid of the life she may have to live if they stayed in the demonic realm. However, the people of Vallenn weren’t too pleased to have a family of demons living amongst them, they were able to live peacefully for several years but when the town eventually found out they had demons living amongst them they took action.
Airi’s family p
NI: Chapter One, Page One Chapter 1: The Fateful EncounterNI: Chapter One, Page One3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Many hundreds of years later, Vallenn has become a very popular tourist attraction, what with its ‘Shrine of Dreams’, so popular in fact, people from all over were taking time out of their daily lives to come and pray for good fortune at this little rural town, still true to its medieval design apart from several extra homes and merchant stalls within the village. While many of the neighbouring towns had become great cities due to the entrance into the 21st Century, some became bustling towns and suburbs to accommodate the growing population and the tourism industry and others becam
NI: Chapter One, Page ThreeAbel opens the door and stops dead in his tracks, a few feet away several villagers stood soaking wet from the rain holding torches and several weapons, looking right at the two of them standing there with dark and menacing looks on their faces some even had looks of shock and disbelief while others actually had to be held back because they were ready to attack at any second.NI: Chapter One, Page Three3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“You have betrayed us Abel, we let you stay here and this is how you repay us? Why Abel?” One of the villagers calls out, clearly distressed.
“I heard her side and I just couldn’t stand by and let this continue” Abel explains.
“You don’t know what their kind is capable of, our ancestors had to seal her away. You don’t know what she’s done!” Another villager shouts, angrily.
“’SHE’ has a name, it’s Airi. And did you ever think of getting to know her and her family? No you didn’t, so was that a good enough reason to seal her aw
NI: Chapter One, Page TwoWhat is this place anyway?” He continues, looking around the tiny cell. Standing in the centre of a pitch black cell, the only visible objects are a door far off in the distance, the stone cold floor and the many chains that seem to disappear in the darkness but are attached to the girl who’s still lying naked on the floor .NI: Chapter One, Page Two3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“It’s called the ‘Underworld’ and it’s the only jail in the demon realm.” She replies, smugly.
“The demon realm? How is that even possible?” He asks.
“How about you start by helping me out of these chains?” She orders.
“I’m not sure I should do that.” He replies, cautious.
“Come on, do I look all that dangerous?” She asks, trying to look cute.
“Frankly? You’re really cute, but if we’re here in the demonic jail, then you must’ve done something wrong. If we were anywhere else? I’d believe you’re not hostile, but because we’re
Her Last DayShe walked home on a normal afternoon.Her Last Day3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Hadn't seen her sister since she ran away from school.
They'd mocked her once again.
The words never seemed to end.
That's when she saw her, and the girl's heart nearly stopped.
Her big sister hung in the stairwell on a rope drawn taught.
Life long departed, eyes glazed and empty.
The little girl stared unable to breathe.
Books fell from her dead fingers and she went to her knees.
Tears ran down her cheeks and she couldn't halt the screams.
Those words had been the last straw.
Scars had been torn open and left raw.
She decided this was the last time,
They'd have the power to destroy her life.
Thought this was the path to peace,
When her heart finally would cease.
But now the broken pieces are left for those whom she loved,
When at last she chose to give up.
Today was her last day,
As her soul fades to gray.
She stared at the casket with a soul gone numb.
This is what they'd made her sister become.
She couldn't even feel her parents embrace,
Waiting On YouLife will never be the same.Waiting On You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You will never love me,
You will never realize how much I love you...
You're just a chapter in the book of life
The life that can never be,
Because I don't know when I'll be able to end this chapter,
When I can finally move on...
The chapter keeps getting longer and longer
Full of happiness,
I'm all alone
Even when I thought I wasn't,
When I was with you,
I was still alone
I just never realized it
I wish I had,
Or maybe I don't.
I wouldn't have had that happiness you gave me,
The spark of hope,
The flicker of light that life can be truly bearable
But that will never be...
You leave me to my thoughts,
All alone in this cold dark world.
I'm waiting for this chapter to end,
But that can't happen until I straighten things out with you...
Surviving Love"I love you"Surviving Love5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What a silly phrase
Everyone says it
But very few know the true meaning behind it
I guess they want to say it,
Feel like they NEED to say it,
Simply to know someone cares,
At least a little
But how can you pick the real from the fake?
That's a fact
The fakes are chipper,
While the real smile,
But it's just an act
They're dying inside
They just don't want people to know
For then they would seem weak
And they've felt weak their entire life,
Because no one knows the true dangers of love
Because no one's strong enough to talk about it
If they were,
People wouldn't long for it so much
They would run away
Far, far away
When you're in love,
It tears at your soul
It eats at your body
Consuming cell after cell
Until you can't take it anymore
You bury yourself in blankets
Not because you want to,
But because you have to
These are the people you need to fear
Who may appear weak on the outside,
PoemsThe Little ThingsPoems4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A touch on the arm
One look into your beautiful, blue-green eyes
All I have
I keep in my mind
Replaying over and over
My playlist of you
Of all the little things
The only ones I have
For what good
Is money or possessions
When the one you love
Will never be yours?
When you have to imagine
How it would feel
For your lips to meet?
I'd never tell you
How much I love to hear you speak
How many times I've listened to you
Watched you from across the room
Or how many times I've feared
That you'd realize it
And you can never find out
That my eyes have never seen someone
The way they see you
That my heart has never soared so high
As it did when you touched me
Or that each second I realize more and more
I Should Tell You
And over in my mind
Do you notice how I look at you?
Do you care?
Beautiful, beautiful wisdom drips from your every word
Craving your approval every second
You KillerIt's amazing how one person can kill your self-confidenceYou Killer4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It wasn't so bad
Not until I met you
You built it up
So much so that it was too much to handle
It felt amazing,
It was the first time that had happened in a long time
It was so strong
I felt as though I could fly
You destroyed it
The very thing that had been unachievable for years
I finally had it
But you being yourself,
Took it back
It was like stealing candy from a baby
All you had to was grab for it and it would be yours
And that's exactly what you did
Taking full advantage of the fact that I was weak
If I can't have your friendship,
At least give me my confidence again
Last Road TripFor hoursLast Road Trip2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
at each other.
for the way
Why so gloomy? Love of mine...
The sun will set.
The stars will shine.
No use to speak of death and doom
beneath this pale, seductive moon.
Don't Give Up- PleaseEvery day, every minute, every second, every where you look, there will be someone there to push you down. Someone looking to make your life a living hell and screw up what could have been the best day of your life. In middle school and high school every thing that happens to you is such a big deal. She called you ugly, he called you stupid, they laughed at you when you tripped down the stairs. No one had the balls enough to be a decent person and help you. Your world seems to be crashing down around you, and all you can do is sit there and watch it come down, brick by bloody brick. You think you have no one to turn to.Don't Give Up- Please2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
But that is not true. For every five people that hurt you, there is surely to be at least one friendly face in the crowd. Some one who has been there and understands the pain of those days. Someone who wants to help you. Some one to put there hand out and catch you when you fall. But you have to be able to trust enough to reach out. You have to put yourself out there
How Could You?How did I let it get this bad?How Could You?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm so ashamed
I should've seen it coming,
That you were going to hurt me this badly
That it's impossible for me to be loved,
Especially by you.
I can't even see your name and not cry
So what will this year bring?
But I had regained some hope near the end of last year,
Will you give me that again?
Or will you stay silent,
Making me go back into the darkness...
I can only hope that you'll help me,
Or at least,
I know you can save me,
But I know you won't
You're the one that hurt me
And what am I supposed to do,
When the one who hurt me...
Is the only one that can save me?
AC-DC TributeIf Dirty DeedsAC-DC Tribute4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
get Done Dirt Cheap,
I pray the Lord,
Bon's soul to keep.
He made a Jailbreak
and Let there be Sound
but he ended up tumblin' & a-rockin' down.
"You Shook Me All Night Long"
said the Fly on the Wall
after Big Jack met Rosie
in the ol' Big & Tall.
Have a Drink on Me,
best damn woman I've seen.
Let's Get it Up
for the War Machine.
I had some T.N.T.
and some dyna-mite.
Flicked on High Voltage,
& out went my lights.
Slidin' on the Black Ice
made those Wheels in my head tire
while a million Heatseekers
lit the Skies on Fire.
But my Rock 'n' Roll Train
on the Highway to Hell
got Thunderstruck by them big Bells.
So I'm Back in Black,
still a Ballbreaker too.
So For Those About to Rock,
I Salute You!