In HindsightI'm not ready to meet you yet,In Hindsight10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need to have a mental breakdown
That I'd rather you didn't see.
You can meet me down the road
When my mess is just a story,
Part of my mysteriously alluring past
Not the painfully present now
It will seem so romantic,
My idealised mental anguish,
When you don't have to deal with it
Day after day
I'm sorry to tell you,
But please come back later
When I'm a bit saner
And you somewhat braver
And both a lot easier to love.
The World Wide WebAll this information at our fingertipsThe World Wide Web9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet we choose to look at cats?
Freedom to voice our every thought
A privilege left unchecked
A steaming pit of tricks and trolls
Accessories now abused
Drowning in the vanity
And self obsessed depravity
Our lives uploaded; digitalised
Essence poured upon the screen
Entitled to an opinion
Set up for a response
Like throwing a lump of meat
To a pack of wild dogs
“Ten years ago, these people would not be allowed crayons,
Let alone use of the internet”
Suppressed BrillianceAm I insane or philosophical?Suppressed Brilliance9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are my theories minute or astronomical?
Irrelevant or significant?
Are the machinations of my brain,
Foolish or magnificent?
Thank God that I am resilient,
Because you have been suppressing my brilliance,
All this time telling me that I am crazy,
But you were wrong all along,
Failing to see that I fit the pieces,
Of life’s puzzle together differently,
To compose a unique song,
Just because you don’t understand,
My thought process,
Doesn’t mean that you are smarter than me,
Watch me create a wonder,
And you shall see….
Liquid ChainsLiquid chains hold onto me like darkness of the nightLiquid Chains1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Armor, swords, and helmets from the times of death and fright
Paper used to save me in the darkest of all times
Letting out my anger in a silly mess of rhymes
Damaged by the memories of all I've never done
Ruined by the echoes, for the torture has begun.
Capture me with lies and tear me down with words of gold
Platinum and silver hold the stories left untold
Armor made of paper, as the moonlight fades to black
Liquid chains hold onto me, and I cannot fight back…
I am a labelI slid the blade across my wristI am a label1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
The DollhouseAn old wooden door, set into the brick,The Dollhouse1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cracked dirty glass, the panes very thick.
The rusty brass knob turns slowly with a groan,
You realize it's turning completely on its own.
You can't stop now, your interest has peaked,
You walk inside, each step with a creak.
Shelves line the walls, dusty and old,
As the door swings shut, you shiver- it's cold.
Glass eyes all around, do they move? You can't tell.
Each doll stares down, each doll smiles still.
You glance all around, and as you look,
You don't see that one little shelf has one empty nook.
You soon turn to leave, there's nobody there,
You won't come again, not even on a dare.
You suddenly find that the door is far away,
You're looking down from a very high place.
You cannot move, except for your eyes,
And then suddenly, you realize.
The other dolls' eyes are moving, it's true,
And now there's one more doll. It's you.
Losing a FriendDreams, no.Losing a Friend1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Spinning, spiraling, chasing you everywhere you go
"It had to happen."
No, it didn't.
Turn off the light.
Stop breathing, it's not worth it.
Play a sad song in your head
"Are you okay?"
I miss you.
I miss your voice
How could you be?
"It's not your fault."
Slowly, let it poison you
Let it sink into your mind
"You'll get better."
No I won't.
"It was meant to happen."
No it wasn't.
No.. he's not.
... "I know."
It BeginsOnce upon a fairy tale within a world so deadIt Begins1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lies a broken woman with a thought inside her head
Grab the knife and let it sink into your aching skin
Start to feel the pain again and slowly it begins...
Beautiful EnoughMeet a girl named No One, with a heart of shattered stoneBeautiful Enough1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Staring at the other girl, the one that's not alone
Girl with skin that glistens, with the eyes of crystal seas
Grin of shining diamonds and a laugh like a disease
Flashes just a glance and soon, she's every trouble's cure
She has everything… and No One's off to be like her.
Eating turns into a crime, she'd rather be away
Thrusting fingers down her throat to make herself okay
Watching as her very bones are seen behind her flesh
There she drowns in tears, for she has not yet seen success.
Minutes turn to hours, and these hours turn to days
Every moment slipping, slowly fading into grey
Rapidly, her body turns to nothing but her bones
As she fights for beauty, as she battles for the throne.
Broken hearts must learn to beat, and this she came to know
Learning it the hard way when her heartbeat grew too slow
Yet, she somehow managed still to shine from what's within
Lying in her casket with her hidden, unseen sin.
Final thoughts ins
Poisoned LullabiesCradle me with bloody hands and wipe away my criesPoisoned Lullabies1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hush me into my sweet sleep with poisoned lullabies…
My Perfect WorldMy perfect world is one of strifeMy Perfect World10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
With tears and blood flowing free
Corpses and limbs will litter the streets
A courtesy to Death from only me
My ambitions will bear fruit
Red crimson, no other hue
Pictures will dot the remaining walls
Wistful ramblings shown with melancholic rue
The paintings speak of tragedy
Eternal suffering with no end
Of the figures that lie beneath and under ground
Faces; masks of agony and torment
Smoky plants flourish
Sprouting from maroon dirt
The flowers fall, wilting
Not a single petal unhurt
This is the world I longed for
A world where no one speaks
And nothing is left, nothing that lives
Or even a little seed
This is the world where no one is alone
For everyone reunites in death
And hurtful words and sneers are never spoken
For there isn't a single breath
There is no pain
For nothing likely can compare
There are no social statuses
For as corpses all are fair
This is the world I dreamed for
Where all my wishes wholly came true
But why is it, then..
Venomous SymphoniesPoisoned lullabies rest beneath the windVenomous Symphonies1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The aches and scratches upon my skin
My spine ripping through my flesh
Drenched in hopelessness and regrets
My veins bleeding, blood so thick
Stare at the clock as it slowly ticks
The melodies of venom sink into my mind
Death is the medicine curing the blind...
bedtime stories don't quite go this wayonce upon a time--bedtime stories don't quite go this way9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
no wait, that's wrong.
let's not start our story that way.
you find yourself in your bathtub,
the water scalding
and risen as high as the rim itself.
you find yourself submerged
and screaming out for somebody to help
you are being drowned.
monsters as black as the sky
are tearing at your ankles,
cackling and pulling you down and out of sight
and water splashes out of the
tub and you are seeing nothing
but old memories that stick to your throat
when you can do nothing but cry.
you find yourself in your shower,
curled up in a corner furthest
from the water because
you are afraid that cold water will wash
away your sins.
you are afraid that if that water touches
you in the slightest bit, you
will melt like the wicked witch, and
you haven't felt enough suffering to die
in such an easy way.
melting is far less painful than the ways
that cross your mind when
water falls over your eyes and stings and
you can do nothing but make
In a Little Girl's MindThere sits the girl with the things in her eyesIn a Little Girl's Mind1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Monsters, destruction, and sweet butterflies
Hopscotch and daisies, surrounded by screams
Beautiful dresses now torn at the seams
Crayons and paintbrushes, villains and grins
Young, gladsome innocence, hatred and sins
Little red houses on roads left to fade
Gorgeous moonlight shining off of the blade
Blood pouring out as she cries her own name
Knowing she's forced to take each bit of blame
She could have stopped it and left it behind
All of these things in her troubled young mind
She could have saved them if she dared to try
Rather, though, she left herself there to die.
Now, others watch as she sits on the ground
Keeping their distance and letting her drown
In her own worries and things she won't tell
Waiting for her mind to kill her as well…
And So Went The Bullet"Really, I'm sorry, I don't have a choiceAnd So Went The Bullet1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
After I do this, they might hear my voice
After the bullet is coated in red
All my unspoken words will have been said."
"Please, put it back, set it down on the floor
Though you feel you cannot take anymore
All that I ask is that you'll see the sun
Rather that treating your wounds with the gun."
Slowly, I stared into his tearful eyes
Holding the weapon with my last goodbyes.
"Sweetheart, I thought you should be first to know
Yes, I am sorry, but I must let go."
Holding the trigger and ready to shoot
Ready to end this destructive dispute…
"Baby, I'm begging, too many love you…"
And so went the bullet… for I loved him too.
SchizophreniaShh.Schizophrenia1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Look behind you.
"Are you okay?"
Shapes, forms, bodies, animals, plants
Shifting, moving, being
"What's wrong with you?"
You're a freak.
No one wants you.
You should kill yourself, let them out of their misery
Or we'll do the job for you.
"They're fake, you know."
No they're not.
"What are you doing?"
This is how I live.
Save me, from the monsters, the shadows
"What can I do?"
You can stop.
You can stop being ignorant
MonsterWaters of the ocean beating up against the shoreMonster1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Birds as free as dreams leaving me lifeless on the floor
Shattered, broken glass among the shadows of the ground
Voices spinning, spiraling without a single sound
Shining liquid sunsets falling slowly to the earth
Skies made out of platinum and lies of lost self-worth
Troubles drowning hearts and worries drenching hopeless minds
Piercing cries reminding us of all we've left behind
Tears made out of mirrors, windows from abandoned dreams
Sunlight made of darkness, laughter made from unheard screams
Homes built from the hatred that was once inside their souls
Forests made of suicide, from when they lost control
Midnight is the silence that we longed to hear once more
Though I fight the battles, I refuse to fight the war
Unkept silver clocks hang noiselessly upon the wall
Hear the silent footsteps of the lovely broken doll
Whispers of the roses grasp the things we'll never know
Fear the twisted, darkened memories of long ago
Words made out
HeartbeatThough these words are dreaded, I feel it is time to sayHeartbeat1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
All the things I never told you since we died away
All the things I liked the most, the things that made you real
These thoughts must be spoken for my broken heart to heal
Sure, I hate the feeling rushing through my broken veins
Every piece of lost emotion, every bit of pain
Even though this emptiness is cradling my soul
All that haunts me now is how I let it take control
All the tears, the madness, how I let it overrule
To my own existence, I myself have been so cruel
Never did I dare to say these words of lonely truth
Even though I know that isolation kills one's youth…
Here I am to say something I should have said before
Rather than refusing, simply shutting solid doors
Ever since you left me, all I think about is us
Every drop of moonlight seems to me like specks of dust
Ever since you vanished, yes, I've been vanishing too…
Each and every heartbeat is an angry cry for you…
GravityI promise I’m not like everybody else.Gravity10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I’m not here to
I’m not here to
I’m here to
I’m here to
I’m here to
Please don’t say I’m like everybody else.
Because I’m not here to
But sometimes, gravity is
Sometimes you’re going to
But I promise, even if I’m not there…
I’ll still be there, for you.
Suicide NoteAll I ask is, when I die, please do remember meSuicide Note1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not for things I've done and not for things I've heard or seen
Not for what I seemed to be, not even for the truth
Not for what I have accomplished in my shortened youth
Please, just let my feelings hit the cold, damp, moldy floor
I know my emotions didn't matter much before
All I ask is, when I die, don't worry over pain…
All I ask is, when I die, just treat me much the same…
SomethingEvery moment, every thought, an echo in your mindSomething1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every treasured lullaby you're forced to leave behind
Every broken moment, every twisted fantasy
Every empty shadow, every lonely melody
Holding knives against your skin with tears inside your eyes
Fighting back the happiness, yet fighting back the cries
How could one be joyous at a moment such as this?
Something could be stopping you, but nothing truly is…
CastleCome with me, little girlCastle9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let's watch the rose pedals fall
Let's bury your castle
And put up a brick wall
Lets rip off your butterfly wings
And place them in your grave
The demons have come to get you
You better start to behave
Come with me, little girl
For you can only have the gown for an hour
Do they love you, or love you not,
Ripping pedals off a flower
Come with me, little girl
Let's open your scars
And bury your castle,
In the girl you no longer are...
Sleep ParalysisIt is suffocating. This force, a nightly visitor, watches over me. I’d thought I’d gotten rid of it, but there he is, crouching on the ceiling above me.Sleep Paralysis9 months ago in Short Stories More Like This
My eyes are shut tight, blocking out the dim streetlight streaming through my window like the great wooden doors of a fort. My hands are clenched on the blankets I’m pulling in tighter, despite the sweat beginning to mat my hair. The world around me begins to blur away as I focus something, anything, to take me away from this darkness. His presence intoxicates me momentarily, for he wears the mask of sleep, but I recognize soon recognize him and begin to panic. My mind races, frantically searching for a happy memory, but these peaceful visions only leave me open and defenseless.
He seizes the opportunity, and swoops down towards my face. I don’t even feel him land. This ferociously graceful beast, now hunched over me, lets his jaw drop. The piecing drone of five sleepless nights is echoed in his cry. He sits on