101514FAILED101514FAILED13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
never turn back.
i've been here a
it's the way the paint is
chipped on the curb and
the way the sun shines through
the cold autumn trees
the mute sound of these
passing by. earphones:
volume ten, song seven
mindripped and flattened
i should be on the tall tower, i
should be falling,
far away from here
it's the way the lightning charges the sky
just short of the clouds
and some nights i'm there, as the
wind crawls up the cliffside
seventy miles an hour, gusting
and it would have held me
fifteen inches from the
very edge, so i stayed
and my skin was conductivity
she's present tense
about a millionmiles away, no less
she wouldn't have known, if not for
the tone in my voice; it betrays me
but she'll move on, and
i'll move on without her
such it is
:// © 2002 J. Michael Renaud
A Mask of MirrorsA Mask of Mirrors13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Mask of Mirrors
I never knew you till you were dead.
I didn't know what happened in your head.
I never knew your secrets or your many men.
I didn't know that's what you needed then.
Some faulty wiring started it,
So I took up the floor.
I found some papers in the pit
And then I found some more.
While some of them were letters,
Many more were sketches bold;
They would have shocked my betters
By revealing scandals old.
In this world little 's certain,
Of few things I was sure;
I lifted mystery's curtain
When I took up that floor.
Inside the secret hiding place
Was proof I had not known,
A single thing not in the face
Of one round whom I'd grown.
I'd heard things and I'd seen,
But I hadn't quite believed;
I'd known the truth they hadn't been,
But I had been deceived.
Oh, confidence in judgement mine
And what I'd known was true;
It fell to ash with every line
And every sketch she drew.
A face unknown looked back at me
From pictures in my hand
And letters told the tales that she
I CAN SEEI can see you weeping,I CAN SEE12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't realize that I'm there.
Watching from the shadows
In an unblinking stare..
I can hear you shouting,
Though I do not know the words.
They're frightening and confusing,
I'd rather not have heard.
I can see your scars,
Though you've hidden them quite well.
I know they are a secret
I'm not supposed to tell.
I can hear the footsteps
Coming down the hall
I know that Daddy hurts you,
Mama, I've seen it all.
I waitI wait12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wait. I prepare for an arrival that will never occur.
You said you'd be here, but you've said that before,
Only to leave me standing here, foolishly holding
My heart in my hands, broken and silent.
You ask. I give. You beg. I give. You insist
That I stand still, not moving to the left or right,
While you roam freely and openly, leaving me
To follow you, and close my heart once more.
If I could say to you what's on my mind, I'd tell you I love you.
I'd tell you I want you. I'd tell you of the hurt and anger that
Simmer under my skin, but I keep silent because I know the cost.
I know that no matter what is said or done, I am wrong, as always.
I wish I could climb a tree, to the very top until there
Was nothing but sky between me and the stars.
I'd stretch out my hands to touch them, feel their energy
Thrilling through me. But I can't even get to the top of the tree.
I stay behind, head down, because I love y