MyLittleFishThey said you were like a fish-
spending your life in the depths only to resurface in a world you couldn't breathe in.
And I always thought
you were a wonderful prelude
to a damning life.
Now cover girl, you don't cover up anything.
Your makeup does not hide your flaws as you walk to the ocean and drown yourself.
The beach is your last runway, the lightening your last flash.
You yelled "Call this one 'Hollywood'" over your shoulder.
[He told me you do not know how to swim.]
"He's so handsome."
Yeah. He can't keep his hands off other girls and then some.
The boy took away the air you couldn't afford to lose.
He stomped on your lungs when you overheard him-
"She is the balloons that touch the ceiling at a birthday party.
After a few days you will want to throw her away."
Your smile crashed in the same way that the waves do.
You pulled yourself back and felt your
BreakEvenAtDowncast.I remember staring at the cracks, looking for where the rain falls through.BreakEvenAtDowncast.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Those yellow walls seemed to stifle me
when my father called and told me he was sorry
And he loved me.
Tears threated my eyes with that beautiful commodity.
(No one knows the semantics behind "I love you")
I stared at the sky until the stars behind my eyes collided.
Thinking "This will never be something that keeps me awake."
(From then on, everything kept me awake.)
The bird on my window said
"Hello, my wings do not work."
I pushed him off and learned how to deal with grief.
A lady walked in and confided
"Hello, I do not feel like breathing."
I walked her to the ocean, finding out that a ship wreck has its afterglow.
And walked back Home alone.
RyeAndAirI was thinking you make me feel things that I couldn't buy with a million bucks.RyeAndAir9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You crash my train of thought with
"Let's never talk about this or bring it up again."
"Okay. I agree."
I cant figure out what lies even mean anymore.
All I know is my eyes sting and my throat isn't working very well.
I manage a small wave and walk away as fast as I can without actually
b r e a k i n g i n t o a r u n .
Tonight I'll take pills and fall asleep with the t.v. on.
You called after me "Darling, we'll be seeing eachother soon."
I love you. And I'll never look you in the eyes again.
I woke up on the upstairs floor.
And took the elevator to the clouds.
Your sky blue eyes dont seem so deep up here.
as they did when we were at the bottom of
the ocean and every breath
I dragged in made
ItsAlmostLikeAHurricane You've got miles to go until you get to me.ItsAlmostLikeAHurricane9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You've got miles to go until you sink this low .
"I want you to hit rock bottom"
My pearly whites cracked on impact.
A little girl tugged on my dress and said "that boy doesnt love you"
I squinted up at the sky and said on a sigh "I believe you're right."
To my surprise she had tears painting her face.
"Don't give up. You dont care about something until you've lost it."
When my eyes refocused she was gone.
I sat down on a bench and on my left saw a sign that said
"Welcome to rock bottom. Rain's always falling, tears are always on the brink of our eyelids."""
I can't g
Last.Look.Crushed.You're crushing me.Last.Look.Crushed.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Boy, do I wish.
You see, I've got starry eyes for you but its only hurting me.
You're breaking hearts like its going out of style, but thats not "the bad part"
You don't want to shatter mine.
Call it my masochistic side, but give it a shot.
Bring a knife and give me a chance.
"forget highschool crushes and grow up"
Yellow flowers still make me swoon
and forehead kisses still make me smile.
You still make me nervous.
I'm not pretty but I still keep you on your toes.
With flaws we're batting a thousand, but
it just feels perfect.
It feels completely wrong that my breathing's tearing my lungs apart.
And I dont think my pulse was designed to race this fast.
My heart's screaming at you to love me.
You, raised voices, and dark looks are a shock to the system.
You leave me:
Hugging pillows and sighing into untouchable shoulders.
I Saw Stars"Reach for the stars" you said.I Saw Stars9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stood on tip toe and felt the air close in on me.
I was reaching for oxygen as much as stars.
My eyes and my lungs needed more than I could get.
You sit on the moon, swinging your feet, laughing.
Tears fall from my eyes and you yell down at me
"If you were at the height I am, you could pass that off for rain."
I ran inside the abandoned building that used to be "home".
The peeling paint chipped and when I looked, it was under my fingernails.
I scrapped my way to the room at the very top.
I looked up at the small lightbulb and watched it flicker out.
The window was missing too, a tree branch reaching into the room.
I let it take me and knew it was time to end everything.
It set me down on the moon and I landed facedown, lifeless.
You walked over and kicked me in the ribs.
"Get up. Reach for the stars. Hurry up, your time's almost up."
You held my hand and helped me up but when I got to my feet you let go and my knees unhinged.
FactoriesAndFailures"Yes,"FactoriesAndFailures8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"you make life beautiful
and loving you is living it in the best way,
His smile radiates complete happiness as he pulls her into his arms.
"It's like it's always been like this, will be this way forever,"
he breathes in her hair.
They were classic.
Then he met Heroine.
The type that doesn't save people
and he as good as yelled
"Forever is over."
Days, weeks, months, passed and she stayed awake for lonely nights.
One day at dinner she attempted a watery smile
[to wash out a dry conversation]
"Hey boy, I dance on water."
His face remained calm as he muttered
"Hey girlie, I swim in skirts"
Suddenly, she stood up and crossed the room in one quick move.
She opened the curtains to a spacious meadow where the ground was wet and the sky hung low with dark clouds.
He walked past her cautiously and pressed his face against the glass to see a woman standing on a small ladder.
i always leave things outi always leave things out8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Five nights ago I said
'do not tell me when you pack up your life-suit into an overnight bag
and aim your knees at runways',
those words came farther
than from the bottom of a wine glass,
sometimes I ache
in places I cannot name,
so I'd rather not try and say
what my swelling organs should.
I promised myself I would not hold suction cups to your front door
or paint stop signs on your wallpaper, or send out SOS messages
in Morse code when I should really be saying goodbye
with smiles and a good luck wink. But I was told not to make promises
I can't keep.
You say these things and I want to cover my womb up,
ashamed of the dry patches between my hipbones.
and I remember things like
us laid in a room punching the air away,
re-naming our hands and counting thread veins,
we were 10 years old again
telling secrets from different corners
of the mattress.
I remember things like the day you bleached your hair
and said you were leaving,
I put my forehead down and cried into places you
Next Exit 30 MilesOn the sidewalk, out of breath.Next Exit 30 Miles9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The boy held out his hand, she tried not to take it.
The girl held out her heart, the boy wouldn't break it.
The little stuttering kids were in love.
liar liar, wrap her in piano wire
They were just out</i> of it.
She ran into the cathedral to cure her broken heart.
He walked in ready to tear her apart.
(God helped both of them..)
She looked out the window and saw morning.
He glanced at her and saw she was crying, clutching her chest.
The boy was two steps away from asking her if she was having difficulty breathing when he heard her whispering
LIFEThe boys' and girls' bare feet were sinking in the green grass and sunlight backlit their shapes against the sky.LIFE9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She twirled towards him, still wearing the delicate white dress she had worn on stage minutes ago.
"You missed it. I was beautiful."
"What are you talking about? You are beautiful."
Lights danced in her eyes and she laughed softly.
"Bet you can't catch me."
He grabbed her hand and said "I've already got you."
"Not for long" she teased.
He pulled her closer and whispered
"Oh Dollface, I have you forever."
He kissed her.
Their eyes were both closed and the boy figured he was in love.
The girl smiled against his lips and felt lucky to have caught
ery,miss society.She lies in a field of wild flowers with her eyes closed.ery,miss society.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sun hits every angle of her face and what society would call "weeds".
This is the most glamourous that she has ever felt.
In the distance she can hear the construction; more "sky scrapers" being built every second, slowly closing in on this meadow.
She sings "Cloudy morning, my own early bird will save me."
A shadow falls across her face and a voice says "hey familiar".
She looks up at a brilliant smile that doesn't quite reach the eyes of the boy staring down at her.
tie, suit, the boy she couldn't sweat out.
White dress, composed, the golden sky enhanced her pain-filled eyes.
The buildings were coming up closer and closer now.
She would not move, taking a stand on her beliefs.
The boy turned away and his tears fell to the green grass.
The ground started shaking.
He walked to a safe spot as society stepped on what she would call
"beauty of the best ty
I'll Sit This One OutYou took the stars out of her eyes and placed them in the sky.I'll Sit This One Out9 years ago in Scraps More Like This
It seemed nice until you realized she can only see in black and white now.
To make it up to her, he visits with a look that says he's not really sure why he's here or why he feels like he owes this girl.
(small talk turns not-quite-casual)
He feels compelled to ask her how she is.
"Right as rain."
And as it's sinking in that he's the one who ruined her smile and made all her laughs hollow,
he thinks he hears something along the lines of:
"Baby you don't know how bad it is."
"You don't know how much I need you."
Then again, it could just be the wind.
(shrug it off. Go on, shrug off the thing that's killing her.)
Her chair scrapes backwards and he asks "you wouldn't lie to me, woul
To Break A HeartI would like to tell youTo Break A Heart9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Our whole conversation
Started out with
The honest truth.
But it didn't.
I would also like to tell you
We talked like
Civilized young people.
But we didn't.
And last but not least
I would like to tell you
We solved everything
And became friends.
But... we didn't.
I was growling;
'Do you even love me
and you were sighing;
'I loved what we had
And that put us
Where we are now.
And you, not caring.
We were NOT JUST
Teenage fucking romance.
We were true,
And in love
... like you'll never be again.
You said you loved me,
In the nights
When I was pretending to sleep
And you pretended not to know.
Now you say
I loved you too much,
And make that your excuse
For forgetting about me.
Well, I'm sorry then,
For not setting a limit
To the greatest love of all.
And right now I wish
I could make you hurt,
Just as much as I have,
And drown you
In all the tears I've ever cried.
Thanks for the lies Babe.
You sure kn
Newi have a new window to look out ofNew8 years ago in Scraps More Like This
and old pearls to rip off my neck and watch them scatter.
i watched us scatter. like we were designed to.
she had told me
you're soul is a cage
and you only breathe freedom
when you make a girl feel like she is caught in the spotlight.
what could i do? you dazzled me.
Under the moonlight I would shoot you looks that said:
'I love it when
you hug me so hard
that my throat
and end up hit, right in the back of my knees.
Shock would cause my eyes to close too
as if they were shades you could just pull shut.
"you look beautiful
CompassionThis is no call out to a Romeo.Compassion8 years ago in Open More Like This
No plea to a Juliet.
Wherefore art thou so obsessed?
Thou holdest a secret rose in thine hand...
And call it compassion?
No. This is not compassion.
Compassion is no flower, no blooming romance,
Plucked idly in a field--
Full of wild lusts and infatuations,
Loves, friendships and otherwise. No.
Compassion is not In that field.
For it IS that field.
That garden, where both good and evil thrive.
And the flowers are too plentiful to pick, one by one.
They are taken in as a whole,
Cared for by the invisible hand
Of a watching gardener.
It is in those hands which sowed the field.
Not the single, velvet petal...
On a rose that's doomed to fade.
Downhill. Lose your Drive.MONDAYMONDAY.Downhill. Lose your Drive.8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i met him today.
i met you today-
the boy that will change my life.
my feet sink in this blindingly white carpet.
there is a trail of yellow flower petals winding it's way across the floor.
i would follow it, but i'm not sure what's at the end.
i throw away my nerves and thoughts and slowly step along the path.
it's you: you're the end.
I lay in the dark and wait for the part that you sing to me. When I called you my little songbird, you grinned boyishly and gave me a half hearted shove that caused me to laugh until I fell to the floor, holding my sides. You held my hands like we were playing london bridge and told me that this was f o r e v e r .
You pushed me into the pool, but I held your sleeve, causing you to tumble in after me. We laughed and tried to keep our heads above the surface. [You cannot float when you are dragging eachother down.] We floated perfectly. my.life.is.perfect.
TheSkyWontBeBlueByTheTimeYou..Weak in the knees, you don't feel a thing.TheSkyWontBeBlueByTheTimeYou..9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm the one who ends up falling.
You notice my eyes light up everytime they land on you.
(i'm like christmas lights. you can be electricity.)
And you couldn't crack this smile with an 80 pound cinderblock.
You make me stutter.
I can hold my breath. I just can't seem to catch it.
It confuses me.
How come I feel everything and you're stuck at level zero .
We're in the same car- i'm going 90 and you're going backwards.
Fields on a monotonous drive fly by.
You don't talk anymore.
You're never in the mood to see my pearly whites.
(which aren't so white anymore.)
Everything about "us" is smashed.
Stages And ActsI take careful steps to the center of the stage, pull a deep breath, and yellStages And Acts9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"This isnt what I meant it to be."
Excuse: "forced myself to cry" Truth: "I cant keep myself together these days."
I'm up. Wish me luck. Break a leg, break a heart, whatever.
"my eyes water so bad now, they're almost always
black. my problem's gotten so bad now, my teeth
are turning black."
Do you like my smile?
"I'm giving up on everything.
Well, not my little habit.
I've got control of it."
Memorized lines. Because I relate so well.
I shot you a look that mattered. You gave me a glance that shattered.
I hate when you and me share eye contact-
it almost makes
if I called youif I called you9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your skin is like cat-flaps, I tug on scar tissue, spluttering
chewed up adjectives all over.
You did not believe me when I said 'you are a camera
snapping shut, your flash is too close
to my iris and I choke on the slouch in your stare'
You thought you were more of a photo album, an open book
with a spine that arches when I kiss your happy endings
then slap you shut, because I care about things
like the colour of your finger tips
and when you do not have time for dinner.
If I told you that you push yourself between my eyelashes at night
and leave red footprints on my cheeks for days,
what would you say?
If I told you that sometimes there's a dent
in my left rib cage where dust settles and smiles drop out,
would your chest ache too? If I told you I wrote this poem for you
at 1:07 am to stop myself calling you to say I miss you I miss you I miss you over and over
until all the water-yous loosen, meeting the carpet
would you say you miss me too?
I tried to unhinge my hair fro
scene in an airplaneClouds are touching the circle-shaped windows that are placed next to every seat.scene in an airplane9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sunlight breaking through and tapping on the glass.
Discursive and nervous I ask the man next to me if we can go down to just 50.
He says No, not without crashing.
I tell the man that the birds are making me nervous;
they're too loud.
He says Don't worry, the sky is getting dark.
Can we really fly through storms?
He says "nothing".
Rain starts to fall, why is my face getting wet?
He says Calm down, do something to make you calm down.
I stand and move to the aisle
and I'm dancing, fingers brushing the luggage rack.
As the thunder increases in sound and the lightning comes at shorter intervals,
I get faster.
Rain coats my eyelashes.
Hair is dripping wet.
My feet don't touch the ground.
I collapse in my seat as the sun returns.
He tells me I am a storm.
The birds are too loud
but sometimes I cry when they are quiet.
i'll never, never sleep alone.i'll never, never sleep alone.9 years ago in Teen More Like This
You broke his car to make him stay, but now he's stranded at home and sitting in a haze on the floor. And the walls turn colors for him just like your eyes do. And then he sneaks outside like a cat, and you are the loyal dog sitting by the door waiting for him to come back in. When he does, you hug him and smell the smoke and lipstick. It's either ignore it or confront it, but it's easier to ignore because you're afraid to lose him. He's only halfway yours as it is.
You remind yourself why you love him so you have reasons to back yourself up when your friends ask, but when you say them they sound so fake even you cringe. It's not that you don't love him, you just don't trust or rely on him. You've been broken, and you don't want to be again.
So when you go out by yourself, you watch as the strangers walk. And you note how the man places his hand on the woman's lower back in a manner both possessive and protective, and you question them to cover your questions about yourself. You figure
I don't believe it's pain.I don't believe it's pain.9 years ago in Teen More Like This
I blink, when people say "I just love love!", their faces flushed with pink heat. It's one of those things that just dig and dig at your skin until it rips a hole and scurries inside, like what children fear all those creepy crawly bugs will.
They're a bug in my system.
Maybe I've caught a bug. That would explain why I'm cold in summer. I'm always cold. Well, except for that one time, when I should have been cold. That time, it was only my toes.
It's generally my toes, now that I think about it. They're cold right now.
But lately, it seems to be spreading. My toes get cold, then my legs get cold, and before I know it, my whole body is shaking and shivering like it's New Year's Eve in Times Square.
Or maybe I just wanted to say that because I like to compare. It's the contrasting I have trouble with. I could say that it's only because I want to compare you to things that are considered beautiful, like the ball dropping in a blaze of glitter and shine while colored confetti flies and peo
badmemories.It's often strange to see you in person nowbadmemories.8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that teddy bear can't
make up for the fact
that you missed too
many potential memories.
(i was thinking about your shirt again
and how i can't find it-like sometimes
how i can't find where i hid the part
of me that loves you .)
today we talked on the speakerbox again
and fought the entire time . i believe
you thought we were kidding (well i wasn't.)
it's much easier to fake these kind of emotions
i sometimes think about before and
i don't even realize how i survived
without being in love (what sustained me
Hey Sunshine, you kill meLook across the room.Hey Sunshine, you kill me10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm smiling,you're laughing.
But we're dying to know what we're about.
We're biting lips for different reasons
nervous as hell, pain, turn ons...
You're dropping kisses on my lips and saying "I'll see you everyday,right?"
I fall a step back and say "No... we can't."
If I'm ruining this for you, what do you think its doing for me?
We can't work it out
i'm a broken heartI don't write poetry with the right heart,i'm a broken heart6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am a little disgusting.
A little pale.
A little starving
And a little pleasetakemeback.
I have a broken microphone in my chest,
trying to sing to you in muffled sounds
that I make.
I know I should not love you
in this way.
But I do.