25.Cross-posted from my blog. The entry is a little bipolar, my emo and epic nerdy fangirling all rolled into one. You have been warned.
Where do I even start? I'm glad to be alive.
It takes a lot of courage to put certain thoughts and feelings into words, too easy to be hurt for who we are, our heart's fragility can only withstand so much when it comes to our weaknesses, I think.
And so, I hadn't known how to write this, and I still don't exactly, not really. But last year -- getting over depression -- was surely the grandest achievement of me being 24 (and of course my doctor, who didn't even have to put me on antidepressants, thank you).
In many ways, I'd been afraid to write about it because I didn't want to jinx my recovery, it wasn't often I had something good like that. (Because you know, more than once, I'd thought that I was fine, just to find myself living in the very opposite of that the next months.)
It was a lo
Artists who need helpPlease read: If your problem was solved then please tell me then I can remove it out of the list and keep space for someone else cause the journal doesn't allow any more text so I cant add more D:. I dont want to make another journal like this cause if you read this journal, you will miss other so please read it & note me if your problem solves. And if you want to be added here (just important problems please, I won't add personal needed problem such as opening commission for buying my T-shirt, etc. Please understand it). Send me notes instead of comments cause I may miss it (and if you can, please keep it short so we can have more space for more peoples). Thank you.Artists who need help3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
In case I didn't read your notes yet (sorry but I have quite notes to reach ) or this journal don't have enough place to add more peoples, please feel free to add your (or your friends) problems here so we hope more peoples can see it .
Personal thoughts I want to share.Portfolio Golden Nights Pixiv Twitter TumblrPersonal thoughts I want to share.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Doujinshi Store Commission FAQ
On 10th September, my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer and metastasis on other organs. She left us
Behind the Journal - ExplanationEDIT// again // and once again ... yap againBehind the Journal - Explanation5 months ago in Personal More Like This
I FOUND IT! Told ya I would. In the Rule on FotC's http://futrue-of-the-clans.deviantart.com/journal/FOTC-Rules-366160903, the 'Respect' part at the top, yeah, here ya go http://www.samovarlife.com/6-rules-for-ruthless-respect/
I mean REALLY....
Been a while, sorry, early final + 6 projects + 2 essays and Blue was no longer on my to-care-about list.
ANYWHO, some of you may or may not have seen, but Futrue-Of-The-Clans has started to overhaul their group. Well, this may seem like a good things to most buuuuuut http://sta.sh/020da45pjoj5
Blue is still up to her old tricks. Not to mentions she still hasn't taken down the stolen work from Sparrow-puff and Novaling/Zaabu.
We really need to get those down above all. I'm keeping an eye on blogs and such so I'll keep everyone updates as I have been. If the admins wont do anything, I sure as hell will. Thank you very much.
Pimps and Whoas - June 26, 2013PimpsPimps and Whoas - June 26, 20139 months ago in Deviant Events More Like This
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Monster High Semi-Finalists Announcement
Because I am crazy. LOL.Something funny I decided to share with you guys to know what kind of crazy artist you are watching. This may actually inspire me to make personal art, lol.Because I am crazy. LOL.2 months ago in Personal More Like This
(Aaron is my boyfriend)
Me this morning when drowsy: "Aaron, I'm glad you're alive."
Me: I killed you at least two times in my dream and you sacrificed yourself the last time.
Me: "I wanted to save the goldfish."
I typed on my phone in the middle of the night so I remembered my dream after a tiny, tiny earthquake shook me awake ever so slightly (I didn't sleep well last night anyway so I could feel EVERYTHING).
I dreamed about legendary goldfish and why they don't exist as big as giant hills anymore.
Basically in the dream, the goldfish were made of gold, but they moved easily. They melted away into rivers because I screwed something up and that's why people pan for gold.
Aaron had to sacrifice himself the last time in order for there to be at least little tiny golfish in the world still.
Skype""welcome to next world of support"Skype4 months ago in Personal More Like This
SkypeID - Raufda
Skype is the fastest way for me to respond to anybody since its always there for my work and business.I love knowing my watchers a lot,learn their experiences and their culture and everything.I cannot do voice calls since my language is not English, No more needs for camera, since i am criticized by that a lot.
What all u can talk?
You can talk to me about anything anytime you want.knowing my watchers is one of the best gifts i got from deviant-art.You can ask me points,features,or any reviews.anything..you can share your new works there so that i can easily see them.
"I am planning on making a group with my friends there so that it can be used to support everybody and share their artworks so quickly. So welcome you all."
Purple is for FebruaryPurple is for February1 month ago in Personal More Like This
Aerial by escumeThe Alchemist Gold by TABASCO-RAREMASTER
Yesterday evening by MustafaSEZER
Violet by jane-beataForgotten fairytale by TheDewdropFairy
Amethyst Cave by dinodude511Wisteria by HikarinoChouSay Something....Anything...... by theresahelmer
Delicate Iris Updated by Scooby777Sometimes Change is Beautiful by TeaPhotographydont let me go tonight by augenweide
Psychopomps [Species Info] *September 17th ; Edited info on Wanderers, - note for the purpose of story developments.Psychopomps [Species Info]6 months ago in Personal More Like This
from the Greek word ψυχοπομπός - psuchopompos, literally meaning "the guide of souls"
What is "Psychopomps"?
A title of a story in development by kai-choo, we will be exploring the concept of the world between the living and the afterlife
What's it about?
Long ago, the Angel of Death
(or GrimReaper-san?)got tired of trying to deal with the recently dead's sheit unresolved business and left many souls wandering among the living. (can't blame the person, he's only one being.)
This created problems for both the living and the An
I have returnedI want to accomplish my goals on here. >A>;; That can't happen if I'm inactive! uAu;; I hope to draw some more art, adopts and others things I hope you will like! Also, hello to my new watchers! *u*//// nice to meet you! My goal for now is 7000 watchers!I have returned5 months ago in Personal More Like This
So hopefully one I'm done the auction prizes, I'll upload more stuff! :') <3333333333 Q________________________________QQQQQ
Here's what I'm working on!
Send Stuff to your pal Skirtz!FOR SCIENCE.Send Stuff to your pal Skirtz!6 years ago in Personal More Like This
P.O. Box 1051
Newman Lake, WA
Send this fool a letter, a drawing, a photo of your cat, random amusing things- whatever dude! I'll have a place here to share all future goodies and plaster them on the fridge for sure (unless it's a picture of your reproductive organ- CALLIN THE COPS HOMIE). I look forward to any and all shenanigans.
ALL HAIL SNAIL MAIL! YE OLD WAYS PREVAIL!
Oh how I love people-just a rant-Woah story timeOh how I love people-just a rant-3 months ago in Personal More Like This
So I'm home alone all day, and I decided to go get my moms Christmas present. All she wants is this Chanel perfume, so I called my dad and he told me to get a hella lot more stuff for her. Shit was expensive. Now prior to walking to the booth. They were having some people doing makeup to random people, thought it was pretty cool. And as I paid, the cashier asked me if I wanted to get my makeup done by them. Of course I was like noooo. But then he said that it's only for people who buy a certain item. I still said no
So as I was walking away to leave, this guy kinda jogs up to me, and was like. Yo, you seem pretty shy right? How about I do your makeup? He then showed me this isolated booth that he only works in, so I was like, okay, I can handle this. So we started talking, and turns out he got an art degree from lsu, and he showed me his drawings that he did in his free time.
So he shows me these color palletes, mainly browns and dark colors. And he looked like he
[CONTEST] $80+ worth of prizes (Ended):iconmkat7::iconbayneezone::iconshikadeidara: are holding a contest to draw our OCs![CONTEST] $80+ worth of prizes (Ended)3 months ago in Personal More Like This
-->The contest has ended . We are now currently in a judging process.
Rules are simple:
Pick the OC(s) you'd like to draw. If you are drawing multiple, only draw them with the characters from the same group.
Do not use bases or traces, original work only, and should be made FOR the contest.
Keep them in character.
There will be 3 categories in this contest
- 3 characters in a single picture
- 2 characters in a single picture
- 1 character in a single picture
You may submit one per category.
Submissions should be a form of visual arts, that is traditional or digital in any style of your choosing.
[Bullet; Green] You do not have to tell us if you are planning on participating, simply
I'm Not A Social Butterfly......well, anymore. But I'm not an introvert, either.I'm Not A Social Butterfly...5 months ago in Personal More Like This
Most of my IRL close acquaintances and friends always ask me "Rob, why you work so much? Why don't you go out with us like you used to?" "Man, we used to hoop all the time dude, when are we getting back to the court?"
My response usually consists of "I... just got things to do." And I do. I'm practically at the computer almost 18 hours a day, hacking away at the game. When my wife gets home, I spend a couple hours with her until she goes to sleep, and then I finish up whatever work until I hit the sack.
Then they'd be the ones to go on how much they hate their job. Actually, its pretty funny: One of my closest dudes has an artistic background in music. He could be killing it in the indie scene even; he's a very talented dude. But man, he's dealing with chick-o-drama, always spending his free time (now on GTA5) playing games or going to the bar, and then have the audacity to go on how much he hate his jo
Letter from mission!!!here is :iconpixiecold: again!!! ive got an email from my brother sanguis!!! he told me he wants to let you know the newest newsLetter from mission!!!3 months ago in Personal More Like This
Here is the message:
"Hey my awesome fans This is sanguisgelidus speaking. I am doing well on my Mission, sometimes it is like a rollercoaster ride, it is not always so easy to be far away from home and my loved ones, but still I enjoy the time and I learn so much!! I feel God`s love for me and all of his children everyday, that is what keeps me being motivated, even though there are some People, who are quite rude sometimes. But well, that is life I guess! ^^ I miss you all a lot, but I am still practicing my drawing/painting skills whenever I have some spare time. I just started rediscovering my love for pencil drawings I am looking Forward to the time, when i can start my career as a freelance Artist, but till then I still have some work to do to find those People, who really Need the hope of the love of God. I love you all and I than
Day of the Kiribans-WINNER EVERY 200 PAGEVIEWS!!!Alright guys since i no longer have time to do art for all the winners i am going to offer 5 points and a kirban every 200 views for a total of 80 points to win in all starting now, and ending at 200,000!!! The first one is less than 100 away!!!Day of the Kiribans-WINNER EVERY 200 PAGEVIEWS!!!2 months ago in Personal More Like This
Here are the kiribans that will count for a prize!
1. You must be one of my watchers to win
2. The first person to take a screenshot and send me a message with the link wins, NOTES DO NOT COUNT YOU MUST COMMENT ON THIS JOURNAL. this is so i can see who got it first.
3. To win you must get the EXACT NUMBER, a few off does not count
4. You must comment on the journal announcement to win, so everyone can see who got it first. Notes do not count. This will avoid timing questions and make sure I get t
Yearbook Commission UPDATE! (Jr. and Sr.)Sorry guys for the lack of update ugh OTL..Yearbook Commission UPDATE! (Jr. and Sr.)7 months ago in Personal More Like This
*Click for full view!
1. DJ (DJ-Kid)
2. Major Dixon (DJ-Kid)
3. Annalise Lancastrian(Seizui)
4. Reize Seatlan(Seizui)
6. Oranie-Labell Walter (QTMartina)
7. Nemo (poketix)
8. Damien (zoidsfan507)
9. Blake (zoidsfan507)
10. Devin Obsidian (xIce-Wolf)
11. Yan Honda (Miingno)
12. Jade Ailen Maine (Senyou)
13. Kyle Allen Stearns (Senyou)
14. Sophia (Mine)
15. Eric (Mine)
1. Tristan (Hayden-desu)
2. Natalie (Hayden-desu)
Ridiculous LawsuitsSince my last few journals were rather serious...time to have a little fun and since we are on the subject of law? why not look up the most redicolous lawsuits?Ridiculous Lawsuits2 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
I have had a wonder and found a few that I find very amusing or frustrating...
WHEN LAWSUITS ATTACK!!!
And now for our favourite! Those folk from the RIAA and MPAA! I am now convinced the're not an organization...they are actually a circus.
You don't have to worry about being sued for copyright infringement...because they will try sue you regardless .
Who Gets Him? 1"Hold up! Time out!"Who Gets Him? 13 years ago in Sketches More Like This
The Allied meeting was disrupted by the sudden outburst. All members turned their attention to the youngest ally, who had suddenly taken an interest in the meeting. The impulsive American was glaring through his glasses at the Russian he had interrupted.
"Why should you get Japan?!"
WARNING: This story contains "abridged history." It is my own take on the occupation of Japan after WWII. I do not claim that this is how the decision on who would occupy Japan was made. This was born out of speculation that I had heard on the subject. It is only a Hetalia fan-fiction and is not meant to offend anyone or any nationality that may be mentioned within. Please read my artist's comments for more information on this subject. Thank you.
My Stories' TimelineUpdated: "RyRy: Mrs Harris" is under the Past. Like super long ago in the past. Like they haven't even reached puberty in the past. Yep, that's right.My Stories' Timeline3 years ago in Personal More Like This
One of the most common questions I get is: "When does this [insert story title here] happen?"
In general, how should one start reading the stories in order?
I don't have a clear answer for this. Watchers is set to start 3 years after the squad was formed. Thus, I will arrange the stories I've written in 3 categories: the past, the present and the future.
1. The Past - The time the squad get to know each other.
- RyRy : Mrs Harris http://nixcoo.deviantart.com/art/RyRy-Mrs-Harris-373493451
- RyRy : One Shot http://nixcoo.deviantart.com/art/RyRy-One-Shot-331957557
- Zava: The Unexpected http://nixcoo.deviantart.com/art/Zava-The-Unexpected-322530756
- Zava: Before the Squad http://nixcoo.deviantart.com/gallery/#/d3ec8fd
- 10 Ways Challenge: Action http://nixcoo.deviantart.com/gal
Fanart for FitnessOkay, here's the plan.Fanart for Fitness2 months ago in Personal More Like This
Some of you will remember me saying that I have been working on losing weight. I'm currently sitting at 170-ish lbs, which is over weight by some 30 lbs for me, and my health is deteriorating from being sick, too much stress, not exercising, my cocktail of medicines, and not eating right. So, since I'm out of school until January, and I want to take advantage of the free schedule to be healthy again, I've decided to do a "fan art for fitness" campaign here. I've seen a few others around try this and it seems to be really successful! I'd sincerely appreciate all your help on this endeavor to better my quality of life. I have already started setting up a new diet plan, but, I'd like some motivation for my exercising, which I'm terrible at just doing the minimum. Kay, now here are the simple rules:
Draw or write fan art for any of the characters listed below, and I will do one of the following,
Close Shave: Part 1"Engwand?"Close Shave: Part 12 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Why do you do dat?"
England had to finish working on his upper lip before he could answer. "Do what, America?" he asked; never taking his eyes off of the looking glass, as he carefully moved on to another part of his face.
"Dat," America repeated, pointing up to England's face innocently. "Why do you do dat every mornin'?"
England finally glanced down at America to see the curious child pointing at his face. "Oh, you are referring this?" he asked with a gesture to his razor. "I am only shaving." The nation turned back to the mirror to continue his work, but his young colony was not satisfied.
"Why do ya shave for?"
"It's 'Why do you shave?'" England corrected. "And I do it, because I must."
"Well " England tried not to lose focus on his delicate morning ritual, while at the same time, his mind worked to come up with a more informed answer that would sati
Blessed FreedomAmerica tossed and turned restlessly in his bed. Now that's not a very easy thing to do when your arms and legs are chained and being forced apart in an almost spread-eagle position, but he somehow managed. He struggled to keep his breaths even as he laid there. He tried to will himself to stay relaxed, but it was no use. Something was keeping him awake, despite the fact that he was exhausted beyond comprehension.Blessed Freedom3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
Since he was not going to be falling asleep any time soon, he opened his eyes. The room was dark and empty. The curtains were drawn, and there was no lamp lit to shine any kind of light on anything. The room was so quiet, that the only thing America could hear was the sound of his own raspy breathing. Add the weight of the chains around him, and the young man could almost imagine that he was in some sort of pit or dungeon. Well, at least the atmosphere matched his spirit. &
Nom Nom #59 GreenHeaded created by TouchedDNom Nom #59 Green5 months ago in Art Features More Like This
:: green pistachio by moiraproject
Viridity by Karisca
Green? Yes a Kiwi by Janinedingx3
Green beans with rice by shatinn
Green is just better by alba88
Green Tea Mousse Cake w/Red Bean Paste by theresahelmer
Seeing Green... by theresahelmer
Green sun by guszti132
Green Tea Mousse by theresahelmer