All Oxygen is, is Cheap TalkThe cheap talk is on me tonight
but the gentlemen you are, you bought it all.
Dragging it out like a smoker savors the inhales of a cigarette.
The carbon is escaping through the corners of your lips.
Oxygen runs wild through the strands of my golden locks.
Bandit eyes and a smile I stole from a 10 year old girl.
"Ive kept you close in form of a note."
Admitting that lines 1-20 is your bible which you live by.
Im downing pure caffiene and,
youre casually reciting self flaws as if they were accomplishments.
Stages And ActsI take careful steps to the center of the stage, pull a deep breath, and yellStages And Acts10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"This isnt what I meant it to be."
Excuse: "forced myself to cry" Truth: "I cant keep myself together these days."
I'm up. Wish me luck. Break a leg, break a heart, whatever.
"my eyes water so bad now, they're almost always
black. my problem's gotten so bad now, my teeth
are turning black."
Do you like my smile?
"I'm giving up on everything.
Well, not my little habit.
I've got control of it."
Memorized lines. Because I relate so well.
I shot you a look that mattered. You gave me a glance that shattered.
I hate when you and me share eye contact-
it almost makes
tights , toe shoes , troubleWe're kissing in a closet.tights , toe shoes , trouble10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not exactly a stage, but I've got high nerves anyway.
My feet are arched to a ballerina's point and I'm all but
'falling out of my jewelry box'
"I'm off to the city. I Breathe Broadway."
You Said: "Forget it, doll. Forget coming back to me. I wont want you by
the time you're too used and loveless to be valuable to
You mean everything to me, bu
3am WaterworksWide eyes shot butterflies,3am Waterworks9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my organs contained them in a cage.
I sat, studied, I'd explain-
"I heard a drop of "self control" and "confidence in God."
Watched it shatter, shake, disintergrate-
We'd stop, we'd kiss, we'd hold, and you'd say-
"Breathe ,Girlie, breathe. Breathe babe please pray for me.
Cause I'm hands felt on spines
trembling nerves as I push the rewind
to hear a delayed message of regret but I'll keep-
BreakEvenAtDowncast.I remember staring at the cracks, looking for where the rain falls through.BreakEvenAtDowncast.10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Those yellow walls seemed to stifle me
when my father called and told me he was sorry
And he loved me.
Tears threated my eyes with that beautiful commodity.
(No one knows the semantics behind "I love you")
I stared at the sky until the stars behind my eyes collided.
Thinking "This will never be something that keeps me awake."
(From then on, everything kept me awake.)
The bird on my window said
"Hello, my wings do not work."
I pushed him off and learned how to deal with grief.
A lady walked in and confided
"Hello, I do not feel like breathing."
I walked her to the ocean, finding out that a ship wreck has its afterglow.
And walked back Home alone.
Ironing Bedsheets to BareskinI'll bring you back the sun.Ironing Bedsheets to Bareskin10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lasso it from the Pacific sunset
and throw it back up into our skyline.
Embrace its beauty
Cause this may not last long.
I've been praying for days on end now.
Let the light come and peek through your window.
Let it warm your face and greet you
"Hello Gorgeous" every morning.
Cause if I was there thats what I'd be whispering across the pillowcase.
And smirking in complete adoration
"You look amazing at the crack of dawn"
More amazing than you wrapped around me.
I look so helpless in your arms.
We'll fall into an even deeper sleep
and drown in a cotton bliss.
"Hit or Miss Girl."
I'm Thinking Lip LockMy breathing is steady.I'm Thinking Lip Lock10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am sinking into pillows in the same way that a ship sinks in the ocean.
with grace, with horrifying beauty, and without help.
The light that drifts in through the blinds
shadows half of your face and underlines my request
for you to be the cloest thing I've ever been able to call "company".
You can only nod and shut the shades completely.
Dancing across the sheets brings us face to face; toe to toe.
Breaks are automatic.
I'm going for a collision. a wreck of any type.
Sunlight rips my eye lids open.
this dream only works when my eyes are closed and you're imprinted on the insides.
Ripping out my eyelashes to pass the time.
I waste away daylight making unrealistic wishes.
Miss Johnny RaincloudYou'd do anything to have the excuse to be executed in perfect formation,Miss Johnny Raincloud9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and flow with every flick of her tongue.
You keep me off my heels as I tip toed in the finest fashion to your doorway.
Sometimes I wish I had the grace of a jewelry box ballerina.
Other times, I'd peel away at my exterior to find a little less satisfaction.
Those promises are as vague as time and will come and pass by the seconds.
Lately the daylight burns quickly and you're already slipping away from me.
It's getting late so let the lighthouse be your guide home; straight to the point.
Clams spit pearls out into the blue like your one word replies.
Beautiful imperfections at their finest moments; blooming into ashes to trail off where we once started.
If those pathetic lines of yours meant anything more to you,
I would have heard them being murmured into the receiver.
God knows you couldn't muster up the courage to announce it as you planned,
I'll hate you before I grasp the knowledge of
Last.Look.Crushed.You're crushing me.Last.Look.Crushed.10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Boy, do I wish.
You see, I've got starry eyes for you but its only hurting me.
You're breaking hearts like its going out of style, but thats not "the bad part"
You don't want to shatter mine.
Call it my masochistic side, but give it a shot.
Bring a knife and give me a chance.
"forget highschool crushes and grow up"
Yellow flowers still make me swoon
and forehead kisses still make me smile.
You still make me nervous.
I'm not pretty but I still keep you on your toes.
With flaws we're batting a thousand, but
it just feels perfect.
It feels completely wrong that my breathing's tearing my lungs apart.
And I dont think my pulse was designed to race this fast.
My heart's screaming at you to love me.
You, raised voices, and dark looks are a shock to the system.
You leave me:
Hugging pillows and sighing into untouchable shoulders.
Im Minnesota and I Miss SummerI havent thought this much for weeksIm Minnesota and I Miss Summer10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as I roll over on the sheets
Im sick of my arms being wrapped around...
Baby, its this air, its only nothing.
Anyways you know,
Id rather be there with you.
But if thats asking for too much
I'll hold onto all these hopes and thoughts
Were more then "at a safe distance" and I hate it, I just cant stand it.
"Its okay cause it maybe lights out I know...
Youd rather be here with me."
May sometimes feel like an eternity
Well until Forever meets up with Friday.
Then the part is carefully unfolded
"Like my hand resting gently in yours?"
Like you running your hand down and across my face.
I cant help it if i melt down a little on the inside.
Nuzzled nose to nose.
At this angle yo
ItsAlmostLikeAHurricane You've got miles to go until you get to me.ItsAlmostLikeAHurricane10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You've got miles to go until you sink this low .
"I want you to hit rock bottom"
My pearly whites cracked on impact.
A little girl tugged on my dress and said "that boy doesnt love you"
I squinted up at the sky and said on a sigh "I believe you're right."
To my surprise she had tears painting her face.
"Don't give up. You dont care about something until you've lost it."
When my eyes refocused she was gone.
I sat down on a bench and on my left saw a sign that said
"Welcome to rock bottom. Rain's always falling, tears are always on the brink of our eyelids."""
I can't g
I Saw Stars"Reach for the stars" you said.I Saw Stars10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stood on tip toe and felt the air close in on me.
I was reaching for oxygen as much as stars.
My eyes and my lungs needed more than I could get.
You sit on the moon, swinging your feet, laughing.
Tears fall from my eyes and you yell down at me
"If you were at the height I am, you could pass that off for rain."
I ran inside the abandoned building that used to be "home".
The peeling paint chipped and when I looked, it was under my fingernails.
I scrapped my way to the room at the very top.
I looked up at the small lightbulb and watched it flicker out.
The window was missing too, a tree branch reaching into the room.
I let it take me and knew it was time to end everything.
It set me down on the moon and I landed facedown, lifeless.
You walked over and kicked me in the ribs.
"Get up. Reach for the stars. Hurry up, your time's almost up."
You held my hand and helped me up but when I got to my feet you let go and my knees unhinged.
Nervous Meets FashionableWind blows hair across my eyes.Nervous Meets Fashionable10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Trust me. I'm trying to smile, and I'm trying my absolute best.
Gazes are still locked.
[it doesn't matter, we've lost the key anyway]
dolly dolly dolly,
the best isn't ever good enough.
The cliche love of walking on the beach has turned into a real mind hater.
I swear, I could look out over the water and see my heart sinking.
[The moon might illuminate the drowning scene.
Slow Down My Precious CargoToday I caught myself being daringSlow Down My Precious Cargo10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Leaning in dangerously too far
How I got the courage too....
So lets take this all the way
Or until we both freeze up
Glued, fixed in a dead on stare.
"You make me so nervous", it slipped right out i swear.
Lets see whos "beat" can win this race.
At the moment were both ahead of the tempo.
ThrowAwayAnyPotentialYouHave.From birds eye view I could see you flying so low (Solo)ThrowAwayAnyPotentialYouHave.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the truth is your bodys shaking and...
I'm not listening or caring.
Is it nice to lose all feeling in your face?
(those lips will never let a word slip out after this)
"Your secrets safe Baby"
I'll swipe this smirk with a look of deep desperation.
Your backbone is persistant.
Ms.Mistake,YoureSoOutOfPlace. InnocenceMs.Mistake,YoureSoOutOfPlace.10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Taste of cherry on your lips
with a hint of "never been kissed."
Loosely fitting fingertips
all about "the romantics."
Just a touch of my spine
makes me sprawl across the sheets.
Heart is throbbing
( Pressuring my ribs to give in )
4PMDecembeRScrapping for space4PMDecembeR10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
space inbetween the thing we call
we call distance, our home.
Where we find comfort in almost anything.
Just to keep our minds racing,
dream of things we only fantasize of.
And its 4PM somewhere greater than we could think up.
December sells intentions to us high hoping thinkers.
Magically the stone cold unthaws,
making soft spots on your lungs.
Taking it all in
Taking me in
With skyline seating.
So shoot too high,
dont dare aim low
Beauty is waking up with sunrise smiles on your pillow.
This is exactly how we'd thought it would be.
Its kissing under trees
with a light summer breeze
we belong so well.
"My favorite game is making you speechless."
"Teasing with anticipation kills me slightly."
Lining thinly jet streams across the sky
and the only thoug
5 Minutes 23 SecondsThis being short of spectacular,5 Minutes 23 Seconds10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
our conversation has no content or context.
Todays Lesson: Imperfections
Tomorrows: Forgetting yesterday's bad habits
The words hit me in the head and went to the heart with a great rippling effect in black and white.
Goodness to ever reach my ears from a liar.
"This town is in a breakdown
so I hope your put together securely at the joints."
Then thats where I begin to shake.
My convulsing makes you smile. As you say;
"What a lovely kind of panic."
Lets just see how blue I can get today.
Maybe its you who makes me the worst.
Because your words are as striking as your features.
So in Conclusion: Everyday I pray to God this fails.
Making a Break for ButtonsHeadlights are eating up the highway.Making a Break for Buttons10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drawing to a conclusion as we pull into the driveway.
"My parents will be gone for days
so how about you come inside?"
But I couldnt speak for the life of me,
"Yes" seemed to be the only word in my vocabulary.
Maybe the "Oh Hun just one more drink"
Was one drink to far for him to handle.
In my defense I dont know any better.
A loss fumble for the keys,
Vulnerable has brought me to my knees.
Slightly slurred stutter in his speech.
Im just his new fix for the new weekend.
Making a break for the buttons,
This boys all about lust.
It's Reputation or Bust.
And I rather tak
Manhattan HufferIm the Manhattan Huffer,Manhattan Huffer10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
CO2 Inhaler 2006
Process through my esophagus.
How I crave my deadly air.
100,000 tiny crystals in formation.
They dance inside this needle.
Im going to convulse until these old lungs forget to function.
And since we all love bumper cars,
Lets dare to drink.
Lets dare to drive.
Isnt it exciting?
To be a threat to windshields and wood.
I bet its a thrill to examine them upclose.
(If you keep this up Kid,youll be examined upclose.Under microscopes and knives.)
Maybe if youre lucky, the glass wont hurt as bad.
Maybe if youre lucky, youll make it home alive.
Single Handedly Sinking MyselfWhen I saw you at a distant glance, I felt hope tugging on the bottom seams of my shirt. And it made me think "maybe someone can make you feel completely sane and secure." But yet he is just a boy and I'm just a girl that goes unnoticed. Even if I made an attempt to stand out I'm sure he would never be interested. I could drop hints like bombs in war and still not make a dent in his thoughts. Or break this ice between him knowing and not knowing I actually exist. So I'll look down grasping my books as I blend in with everyone else in the crowded hallways of this school. "Hannah Hannah Hannah, get your heads out of the clouds. It's where high hopes are suppose to be, out of reach." I won't even listen to myself anymore. What's so special about him anyways? There are millions of others and they all seem to be the same.Single Handedly Sinking Myself10 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Yet everyday, for 3 years now, I've been falling apart slowly. With his words he never says to me and the looks that aren't focused in on me I'm disheartened even mor
Bravery AwardI keep my composureBravery Award10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and as you pull me closer.
Whisper "we're no good"
And not meant for this.
Its cresent and a quarter to 12.
and you should know better.
should know better.
and endless conversations.
Pure Skies and StorytimesEnjoying the softly played music sitting with closed eyes, listening to you play slow songs. I love to see your fingers press against metal to hear a chord strike against my ears, but each note makes me go even more numb then the first. Singing aloud regardless if others are listening, cause we're getting lost in the lines and our voices cooperate to serenade ourselves to safety. We can barely keep our eyes wide, my body goes limp and I'm lying in your arms, and I feel your stomach rise and as it falls I sink deeper into your chest. We're dreaming up lives not nearly as ideal as our own and we are both oblivious to what is going on around us. As we were lying down in the freshly cut lawn in my front yard, I realized how brightly blue the sky is against the clouds. Pointing up, tracing and outlining their cotton like structure and form, I found myself staring up aimlessly and out of focus.Pure Skies and Storytimes10 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
He rolled over, and propped himself upwards leaning on his elbows as he said, "What do you think a
Contemporary Girla girl stood on the street corner clutching a red balloon and an old, beat-up suitcase.Contemporary Girl9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
she was looking off into the distance, above the people and the skyscrapers and the look of determination on her face was so resolute that noone bothered telling her to get out of the way or that she was holding up sidewalk traffic or anything.
she was vivacious, religious, and ready to take on the world.
the dazzling city lights,
the dreary trash- covered streets,
she loved it.
people at work would ask her if she was thinking about ever going home.
she would reply "Home? like with Jesus Christ, my family, and anyone else I love ? I suppose I will go to Heaven whenever God decides that I've been out here away from home for much too long."
they would shake their heads in amazement and try to stop the jolt of sympathy they felt
while she managed a smile.
on the outside she was confidence, beauty, and building a very steady staircase upwards.
on the inside she was empty, excluding prayers and dreams.
Going out of Style.You're the best.Going out of Style.10 years ago in Scraps More Like This
You like me dolled up; you like me plastic.
I put on more blush to make my reaction fake.
I got ready for you.
(Ready, set, what?)
"Pick me up (lay me down) at quarter past 8."
When you said you liked my eyes I almost lost it.
I'm so easy.
(You're on. I know it.)
I'm the girl who tried to hold onto her dreams every morning.
I'm the girl who forgot they were always nightmares.
Stumble back a few steps, stutter a few words.
(my lungs dragging in breaths so fast its making my head spin.)
I almost forgot: you're my nightmare.
My heart stopped beating,