What more can I do?
What more can I do?
I've lost you, I've lost you.
The tides came in and took you,
Consumed you, and swallowed you whole.
The husk that returned,
It wasn't you, it wasn't you.
What is this fossil of a friend,
Changed, possessed before me?
I felt I could trust this husk once,
But you lied, but you lied.
No more than a fool,
More foolish than you, was I.
No more a man than a boy,
Filthy pig, filthy pig.
The tongue of a liar
Is forked for deception and hypocrisy.
You never listened, never heeded,
Poor fool, poor fool.
Whether right or wrong,
A friends consideration was I needed.
Yet the ocean spat you back out,
Foul taste, foul taste.
And returning meant little to you,
Wearing the cold rusted armor of apathy.
What more can I do?
I've lost you, I've lost you,
Find me again
when you've found yourself.
Can't Find JoyI stole the smiles from both of my parent’s facesCan't Find Joy2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The very same one I was responsible for
On the day I was delivered into their arms
In a cloth, from the beak of a black feathered stork
From the very first day with my very first breath
Though I was not able to speak a single word
It was evident as the nurses bowed their heads
That this boy with the dilated pupils was cursed
Everything I’ve ever grown to love and desire
In one way or another I have now destroyed
Yet still I have the temerity to question
Why it is that I can never seem to find joy
I stole the smiles from both of my parent’s faces
I would do anything at all to give them back
But some wicked actions can never be undone
And some statements I have made I cannot retract
Regardless of the depths that I sank or swam to
Whether I was responsible for what was wrong
My lugubrious mood could always be soothed
With memories of the black feathered stork’s bird song
Every page my trembling hand has ever turned
Such a Truth that was Never ToldSuch a Truth that was Never Told2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Such is true, yet nothing new,
That all debates should cease with compromise.
A halt has come, to the blind & dumb,
That even the sons believe their father's lies.
Truth never to be found, by the dead blood hound,
That the hunter without food, dies.
That founding father rolls in his grave, as patriots misbehave,
Dancing in the excrement that each of them buys.
Was never there a history to be told? A perfect perception to be told?
There was it warped, in none but a fools eyes....
Never again does memory remain, only to change unto disdain.
Fate walks among us, in tears and disguise.
Told were only lies by our Hermes, myths and false stories.
The cycle only carries on in repetitive disguise.
A reasonOur loveA reason11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You had to
A single one
Genre, Oh GenreGenre, Oh Genre2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shame befalls me, for what the muses inspire.
Is such the magnet of my psyche? Such dreadful words from pen to paper?
I question not my sanity, only the purposes for which
such written things flow from me, as to what message is to be sent...
Though dedication fills me to the brink, so does a constant curiosity...
overflowing to the shores of embarrassment.
Shame befalls me, but I write as a messenger, and my muses come from Above,
where even dreaded words are sometimes called for.
Of YouWhat is a matter when you don't know what is wrongOf You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The color of today is bright, it's dimly lost in what is going on
I looked outside for you, I found you inside of my mind
I think of you, I found it real in every thought
Its is amazing the things we do, no harsh words, we hardly fought
I fear no tears, I find it hard to understand, when I understand you
What I live for are things we shared and the feelings so new
I have so much to give, It's not much, its all I have for you
I know I am not perfect, but who is when I know what matters is you
You are all I think of, that is my world, a life filled harmony
I'd sink faster if you held me, you know.someone once told meI'd sink faster if you held me, you know.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the saltwater i tasted
was not the ocean-
but my tears.
someone once told me
that my rolling waves
tried to wash away guilt-
but determined seaweed
held too tightly.
someone once told me
that he knew how to swim
until the day we met.
he said he could only sink
when his eyes met mine.
someone once told me
that we’d meet at the bottom.
either of my heart-
or of the ocean.
Bride of the Dying WestBride of the Dying West2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She stands, clothed in white
In fields of scorching sand.
As the dust storms
Leave her panting lungs.
A grin with a lack of the sane mind
Discovers her lips,
As she dances with the bones
Of dead rabbits...
Screaming the schizophrenic duet.
There must be some amount of meaning
Some morsel of purpose...
Her eyes are blind with boiling tears,
But still she smiles,
Dancing with those accursed rabbits.
As her bare feet reveal themselves
behind a ruined wedding dress,
They are not but bone and melted skin...
Ground away by her endless movement.
Ignored by her last nerve.
She stops in mid pose...
Her face of melancholy.
The tears burn away her cheeks,
Her gaze finds me,
With a scream, she dissipates into air.
The DifferenceThe Difference2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That the dove gathers twigs for it's nest, in which to live as a home, in peace...While the vulture searches for corpses, with which to satisfy it's gluttony.... Scavengers both, living & dying by the laws of a bitter nature.
A favourKill meA favour1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't deserve to live
The world will be better
My pain will be gone
So do me a favour
And do what I didn't have the courage
To do myself...
Shattered MemoriesPieces.Shattered Memories2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This place, wherever I look,
I can't think anything else than you.
The memory is not completely
gone; it still lurks here, hidden
behind every wall, every place,
hidden behind pieces...
I don't want this, but for every step
that I do I'm connecting images, sounds,
I'm remembering the past that's never gone.
I'm building again this puzzle undone.
Everything here is about
these damned shattered memories,
parts of me that I'll never forget;
they cannot be freezed and left behind.
...You were always on my mind...
Broken and despisedLittle girlBroken and despised1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Once so inocent
Now broken to the core
Of her very being
Her once free mind
Now trapped in a nightmare
Her once pure heart
Shattered into tiny pieces
Her once hopeful soul
Overwhelmed by darkness and despair
And no one notices
Because she hides her scars
Under long sleeves
Because she hides her pain
Behind a fake smile...
The Fallen Angel's SorrowLook upon my face in anguishThe Fallen Angel's Sorrow2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Erased is the beauty I had
Look upon my body in sorrow
Deformed beyond recognition.
But though I am now a monster
Please, listen one last time to me.
Cry not for the man that I am
but for the heart that I once had.
For though I am a monster, I still love you so much.
On FateHope lies in chances that a thing might be changed,On Fate2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But it's three A.M.and I've fallen apart.
Thinking that life is prearranged
I've decided that fate is hope's enemy at heart.
One is unchanging and cannot fall.
The other is needed to exist at all.
They Never Saw Me GoingThey Never Saw Me Going2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It was but a moment that floodgates swung ajar.
But a seconds worth of
salty water was realized
onto a desert plain.
A humid breeze blew through the bronchi,
filling the forest with
a hint of exasperation...
it was brief lifespan before
silence fell like the head hung low.
A last gasp of energy flew through a lonely
limb to a metal object
upon a coffee table...
It was but a moment that
the bullet tasted so kind...
but a moment that a short
lifespan was cut all the shorter.
Good Morning"Good Morning"Good Morning2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I read those two words aloud
Imagining your voice
Your lips whispering
Them gently into my ear
And then I'd smile
And say "Good Morning" too
As I'd let myself remember
Just how much i loved you
But now I look down
And all I see are two measly words
Sent from your fingers
Instead of your lips.
And while I tell myself
Those two words are enough
That your love and mine
Can traverse a hundred miles
A thousand miles
And still appear just as strong
Just as pure
And I worry, I fear
That my love may not
Be enough to keep you happy
And that one day
Just the memory of you
Won't be enough
To keep my tears away.
And every time I think that
Every time I let my worries attack
I feel my heart begin to break
Because in my heart
You're becoming someone
I can't live without
Even though I already am
And while it might be
The best way to save my heart
I don't want to say "Goodbye"
So I'll just say "Good Morning"
And wait for your reply.
HauntedEvery car from far awayHaunted2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
looks like yours
and I'm not quite sure
if I should stay and wave
or run the other way
because everything with you was bittersweet
and I don't know what to call you
my heart says you were mine
(my brain knows I wasn't the only one)
so I'm stuck with tasting
but never eating
I still see you in everything
in this old love song
in his face
on every street corner
I'm plagued by the thought of you
so tonight I'm dressed up real nice
to go on a date with a real nice boy
who brang me my favorite flowers
and says all the right things
(but he'll never be you)
and I'm trying to erase our memories
(but they're all written in pen)
Love is...LoveLove is...11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That kills you
And there is
In a brief
Armature ScriptureSometimes my left side tells meArmature Scripture2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that I'm coming on too strong
like a tidal wave of too good of intentions
and my right side wishes that these
waves would do nothing more but turn
into roses or maybe
or things like romance that float singly
in the air and travel to your lips,
slip into your mouth
fall down your throat
and reside in your lungs
only to be evicted when you decide
to let it all draw out in one long
But be careful what you sigh for
because you could easily float away
and I'm just at a love letter's length
waiting at your door step
with a paper and two pens
just in case one runs out of ink,
so take these words and eat them;
I really am willing to write forever
if it meant you would
to taste every single word
for I am nothing but a poet
and soon you'll have met another
but touch me while I'm here
and I'll stay
I'll ask why
this is why I write
to transcend the syllables,
and the similes like metaphoric smiles
Dear WorldDear World,Dear World1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
of those names you call me,
how you put me down,
and the pain you give.
It's not fair?
Why focus on me?
I guess it's better this way,
you hurt me, rather than the people I care about.
But, I suppose it doesn't bother you one bit.
I hurts that I'm broken, scarred, and useless.
But I'm tired now.
I have said what I needed to.
I have shed my last tear.
I will soon take my last breath.
You made me who I am, World.
I hope you're happy.
Beyond AbeyanceI used to write of darkness.Beyond Abeyance2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of a place so hollow and apathetic,
And my insignificant place inside it.
But silence was deafening,
along with solitude savage.
I suffocated on thoughts of oblivion.
And I floated there.
my realm of
It wasn’t until I closed my eyes,
That I dreamed of COLOR.
C r e a t i o n f l o o d e d m y l u n g s,
And jump started my blood flow.
I was given all the universe
.........Of which to shape into something b e a u t i f u l..........
S o I g a v e l i f e.
I t o o k c o n t
Playing With One's FoodPlaying With One's Food2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I write these words with tears depleting from my bloodshot eyes, by the dim light of the stars and the moon, upon a piece of paper I managed by luck to find. My efforts have been more than human nature would normally allow, yet the results are not as I predicted, favorable. I've not slept in days, and I now hide from what I pray are mere hallucinations brought about my forced insomnia. I never knew how utterly terrifying this journey would become, nor could I have ever predicted it. To whomever finds this note, chances are that it's far too late for you.
He begins with the sleep, and uses that as a means to make you more of the likes of a beast. It is for whatever reason, that this fancies him and his desire...it matters not where you hide, you cannot stay there for long...he can smell you, hear you, feel your very being from quite some distance.
The mind of a human is his most favored plaything...he will warp and tease it with the likes of starvation, dehydration
ImageWhat is reflection but merely an image?Image2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, is it not?
Why judge yourself so harshly, when someone thinks you're pretty?
You are the harshest critic to yourself, are you not?
The person in the mirror, is it me?
Yes, my conscious says, you aren't pretty.
I ask my friends, don't lie to me.
Yes, you are beautiful, they say.
No, I am not, my conscious says.
But hear me out, listen to me.
That one special person will think you're the most beautiful.
Destiny will connect you two.
You will always be treasured by someone special.
Someone who will always love you.
I Feel Your AbsenceWe will not be sharing a kiss tonightI Feel Your Absence2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And no one else’s lips will ever do
Patience is a virtue, not a hindrance
It will be a pleasure waiting for you
Though I’m in love with your body and soul
And dream of a shared passion between us
I’ll wait to hear your body sing my name
There can indeed be innocence in lust
Alas, I cannot dance with you tonight
As we find ourselves many miles apart
But still you dance around my cluttered mind
Quickstep to the beat of my hollow heart
Though I’m in love with your past and present
I shall slowly remove the hurt and hate
Replacing it with a loving future
In accordance with my belief in fate
A pain that only you can imagine
To be apart, now that our love has grown
And arms feeling as empty as my soul
When I can’t cradle your quivering bones
Though I now wonder how I ever coped
In the days, months and years before you came
I feel lucky to have you in my life
So for this absence I cannot complain