Fighting with Myself... and LosingFighting with Myself... and Losing3 years ago in Drama More Like This
Fighting with Myself and Losing
As far as everyone else is concerned,
I am just a kid,
And I don't have any real problems.
My parents didn't just have another fight.
School life isn't hard.
I didn't just doze off in Social Studies,
Because I didn't have the strengths to hold my head up.
I'm pale because I don't get out much,
The sun rarely touches my face.
I skipped lunch,
Because I wasn't hungry.
I'm thin because I always have been,
Always will be
As everyone else is concerned
As far as I'm concerned,
It's an internal war
That I don't bother defending myself in anymore.
I'm never going to win
My head isn't a place you want to live.
So much going on at once,
Yet I can't make sense of any of it.
Things contradict themselves up there.
I'm supposed to love myself,
Yet I'm also s