I Miss You SometimesI miss you sometimes
When I thought I had forgotten even your name,
When you had not crossed my mind for
Months on end,
Suddenly it's like I was with you
Yes I know you were bad for me
And that is why I left
But people with sick minds
Don't give up until their body is poisoned too.
You were bad medicine
You were a malignant cell
You were a parasitic psycho-maniac
But you were loved.
NaPoWriMo: Day 4I might have a scrappers knees,NaPoWriMo: Day 42 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
wildflowers growing on my knuckles,
& I might remind you of every nasty thing
you ever did,
but I don’t see you in my mirror.
I just have the right
to hate my own face.
I think this hitchhiker’s heart
is breaking &
I don’t have the medical skill-
or the time
to suture the pieces
back together again.
Battle in my MindEat.Battle in my Mind2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
I love you..
beautiful.We were beautiful.beautiful.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but our separate worlds have broken us apart,
embedded its shadows into our muted screams.
so let it cut up our love and snip it into p iec es,
and let tragedy crawl into existence with its wilted bamboo limbs, let
the ocean wind blow what’s left of it
and we will be inches apa
rt, but still too far to be close.
let our monsters look like us
with bloody ribs of ink and debarment, empty hearts swallowed by their
i guess we never would've made it anyway. never.
i guess our forbidden dreams won't ever come true. ever.
but time won’t let me forget
I am depressed.I am sad. Crying. Bored. Alone. Empty.I am depressed.6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I am guilty. Scared. Angry.
I am tired. Restless. Jittery.
I am nervous. Disorganized. Self-consious.
I can't think. See. Move.
I am in a fog.
I feel ugly.
I am dying inside.
I am depressed.
What Is Love? A little over six months ago, a boy who was interested in me at the time asked me what I thought love was. "What do you think love means? What does being in love mean to you?" he asked. Of course, the first thing that came to my mind was a face. Not his face. Someone else's face. Someone I'd been trying to convince myself I hadn't been in love with for the past six months.What Is Love?3 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
I didn't tell him what immediately popped into my head, although I did answer him. And I answered him honestly. "Love is wanting to be with someone all the time," I replied. "Love is the pain you feel when that person is gone for even five minutes." I rattled off a dozen or so more things that constituted love as love in my eyes.
"Love is when you care about someone else's happiness more than your own."
"Love is when you want the best for someone."
"Love is when nothing else matters to you more than being there for that other person."
"Love means never leaving, even when things get really hard."
no light left to save these starsi.no light left to save these stars2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
blooming a blouse
of August blue
against nude trees
hands reaching for
no light left
to save the stars
they too fell asleep
a gentle breeze
banged and pulled
along the curve of sky
pulling the silver of moon
'mongst the horizon
hanging with dandled
LetterDear,Letter8 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You are my dearest, and closest, and most amazing friend I could ever ask for, and yet, all I want is to ask for more. I will never be able to thank you enough for sticking with me when things were at their worst; when I was at my darkest, and I couldn't see any way out, you were there. You treated me with the utmost kindness, love and compassion, and I have been only able to show you so little. Doing the best I can will never be enough, and never has been. You taught me to love myself, but to know when to fix and change when I need it.
For a time, I was the type of person who showed my "love and compassion" to people through gentle talk, kind, but shallow gestures, and perhaps even the few occasional genuine words, but you have helped me come to see that I must actually take sincere action and care when I want to show others that I truly love them--as a friend or how I like you; which is to say, even more.
I have been so misguided by this world, and so useless to those
coffee talkthey speak in thecoffee talk2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
rattle of coffee cups—
sea bent lungs await the press
of the espresso crave lips
as taste fills curling limbs
WorthlessWorthless,Worthless2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the name that cuts like a knife,
it's all that you see inside,
is breaking with every breath I take
the only thing I can't seem to face.
Landmarksshe strummed his ribcageLandmarks2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with delicate fingers and
hummed soft melodies
of unknown worlds –
go to sleep, my dearest love
as she traced the landmarks
upon his back –
go to sleep.
I Need You.What if I need you to stop me?I Need You.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if I need you to stop me making myself sick for the fifth time today?
What if I need you to stop me running that razor across my wrist tonight?
But I've got to not need you anymore...
Where are you?
Where are you when I swallow all those pills?
Where are you when I run out of a classroom bursting into tears?
But you're not here for me anymore...
Who can I talk to?
Who can I talk to when I don't want to eat for four days?
Who can I talk to when I can't take things anymore?
But you don't really care anymore....
Who can give me that support?
Who's going to tell me it's okay to be scared?
Who's going to give me that hug when I'm shaking?
But not you, because my problems aren't your responsibility anymore...
But now I am alone.
And I can't feel this way.... Not anymore.
I hate you.I know, and I'm sorry. It's kinda complicated, but please promise me you won't push yourself, it'll make it worse. You'll understand soon. XxI hate you.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No. Don't give me this crap. You know it just makes me pissed at you. Can't you just explain what you're on about for once?
I know, I'm sorry. And I know you're not going to forgive me for this, but please try to understand. It'll be better for everyone if I do it, it's the only way I can think of right now. Please be happy. Xxxx Love you.
I hate it when you do this. Sometimes I don't know why I bother when all I get is riddles. It's not fair.
I know. But I do this so I don't have to worry about you trying to prevent it. You'll get it all in a few days. Xxxx Love you.
I hate you.
I'm always surprised by how much I hate you.
How you still have this power over me,
How you still know exactly how to play me.
You knew me better than anyone else,
So at least you learned something about me,
Never-land.Never-land.Never-land.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let's runaway to Never-land.
Let's do it; just you and me.
We wont have to look back again,
we'll finally be truly free.
We won't be forced to surrender
or face the problems here.
We'll carve a new place for our own
And let the world just disappear.
We'll face pirates, ghosts, and fairies.
And dream our nights away.
Wont grow old, be forgotten or perish.
so promise me you'll stay.
We'll lead a band of vagabonds.
And climb up through the trees.
We'll fly kites till our discretion
all in the summer breeze.
Time will stop in time for dreaming.
And we'll never be hurt again.
We'll be happy and comforted
so come on lets go my friend.
We'll face our OWN reality
and be spared from a dying world.
Within our place of fantasy
the red carpet's been unfurled.
Take my hand my dear one
the adventures are waiting now.
Just jump into the magic
I promise I'll show you how.
You see you are all I need.
In this world of imperfection
I'll show you a life of happiness
free of tu
SuffocationI found a vintage denim jacketSuffocation3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in the bottom of my mother's closet,
underneath a black-and-white montage
of shoebox photographs with burned edges.
Like she had been trying to asphyxiate
the memory of my father
but kept coming up for air.
Life Sucks, So DieI may not be nice,Life Sucks, So Die3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I may not be kind,
But there is something
On my mind.
It is something
That I must share;
It is the reason
Why life isn't fair.
Life may not be kind,
Life may not be nice,
But it is what it is and that
Has to suffice.
We don't get a choice;
Life is just this
And we are forced to rejoice.
We must be thankful
For every and all
awesome and awful;
The rise and the fall.
It could be worse,
You could be in a hearse,
But what if that's what you want?
What if that's you're dream;
If it makes you smile and beam?
Then you're an outcast,
And the won't let you leave.
And your life just got worse.
all i wanted was you.hello there,all i wanted was you.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i used to think i was
only alive at night, i
only ever lived in my
dreams, but as i've grown
older i've come to realize
dreams don't last like
we think they do.
i'll stay until morning,
and never come back.
i gave up on everything i
ever wanted because you
told me you'd come back,
you swore you'd be there
when i got home, you
gave me a sense of security
i had never had nor will
i ever have again.
i'll be there until you need me,
then you'll never see me again.
i guess this comes with growing up,
there's something to be said for
people who are able to live so long
in a world that takes all you have
and gives you nothing, they say with
age comes experience and knowledge,
but how do we gain knowledge except
through our times when we find our-
selves broken and lying on the floor
of a bathroom we've never been to
i've waited forty years, maybe fifty,
just waiting by my window, hoping you'd come home.
i used to believe in angels,
i used to believe in love, i b
Love LetterDear ______,Love Letter3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I never thought I would fall for someone.
I've seen people in love, and I've seen them go through the pains of heartbreak and rejection, so I promised myself I would never set myself up for that kind of wound.
I've seen people in love go to the other extreme, where they get stupid, get taken advantage of, get sappy to the point where none of their friends want to be around them, so again I promised myself I would never let my judgement be clouded.
I told myself that love, especially teen love, is fickle, false, and pointless.
And then you know what happened? I met you.
I met you. So simple when you look at it like that, one tiny sentence, three little words.
Amazing how much it changed.
It was not love at first sight. Love at first talk might be a more fitting expression.
Once I got to know you, I found you to be funny, smart, simply radiant, despite all of your problems and all of your pain.
Once I got you out of your shell, I was surprised, even taken aback, by how livel
love is the spatter of sill on bitter sun. blue slept sea blinking, smiling- lean in little forests of me. love blooms from lily buds, my half broken heart sinking, dying. but dear- had i loved you from the start.love is the2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
blue eyes stare in empty green, cradle in wood white, loving me more by more, and all between. feelings- fills me- with sighs (to fill this empty space). oh but i am ocean, sea lover & you are forest, with folding green leaves. too blinded with love to ever see, we will never seem to be the same. not quite meant to be.
Dear once lover.You stole my confidence; you took it like you owned it, you smothered it in neglect, and you threw it in the black hole of your absence.Dear once lover.2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You used my patience; you smoked it like a drug, you took advantage of my presence, you evaporated us into nothing.
You decapitated our relationship; you cut it at the root, you shook out all the good, and threw the body into your subconscious.
You cut up my affections; you stored them in your selfishness, and turned them to dust.
You broke my heart. You took it in your hands, you tore it into two, it turned cold as ice, and you shattered it across my future with you.
You shocked me to the core, a surreality I long to never feel again. The abundance of my tears was enough to drown me, and suffocate me into an eternal river of agony –– that my memories of 'us' will float upon.
You deceived me beyond repair, I thought you would hold me through the hard times, instead you trampled on my pride, you flattened my hope, you destroyed the lov
for this sinking hearti'll wrap you in salt water quiltsfor this sinking heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and carry your heart with me
(darling i will not break it and
hold your heart in me
as stick and stone seems
to be tearing me
by melon-lick bones
are breaking far too
Let Me Carry YouHush said the angelLet Me Carry You3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Don't be lonely anymore
I'm here right beside you
Like so many times before
Time and again
I'll be here to fill your heart
Tonight I'm gonna show you
We're never far apart
Hush said the angel
You can tell me like it is
'Cos I'm not here to judge you
All I offer you is this
Time and again
I'll be here to fill your dreams
Tonight I'm gonna show you
Love is closer than it seems
Let me carry you
Let me be the one
Let me carry you
I can be the one
Let me care for you
I can heal the pain until it's gone
Let me carry you so you can carry on
Let me carry you so you can carry on
What is LoveI won’t pretend to know what love truly isWhat is Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Love is an irrational feeling
That gives people the excuse to put themselves in painful situations
To be upset over and over again
And so that at the end of the day they can still say they 'love' someone
Love is power
You give someone complete control over you
Give them the key to a part no one else knows
And they seem to throw it away
Love is a delusion
It’s not all who do that
There are the faithful few
But for others
The heartbreak and loss and torment
Comes time and time again.
And every time they hope
Love is fantasy
That the next will have a different ending
The fairy tale story of prince and princess
Will finally be theirs.
Love is poison
It rips at you and hurts you
And for what?
The kisses and hugs
Happy trivial feeling of having had SOMETHING
Love is a pain
It keeps everyone blind
Willing to face the fire again
What Hurts the MostThere have been cutsWhat Hurts the Most4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And so very much more
But what hurts the most
Is 'what might have been'
Messsage in a bottleSometimes people cry out for help,Messsage in a bottle3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I think we all have witnessed it,
We watch them break,
We watch their tears,
And we see something in their eyes,
The last piece of hope,
The hope that as well could be a message in a bottle.
Who will ever know if someone noticed that tiny little bottle in the ocean,
Or if they did,
Did they pick it up?
I have seen a lot of bottles in my time,
And most of the time I pick them up,
But I notice quite a few times I don´t,
It is like they become invisible,
Even if they scream loudly right in front of you,
I think something is wrong,
Why do we leave the bottle in the ocean?
I clearly can see they need help,
And I see it,
I really do,
How can you pretend not to?