Letter to the Mother Mom,Letter to the Mother4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
how can you throw me out
saying you want me to stay?
How can you ground me at home
and still push me away?
Why can't you tell me: "I'm proud"?
Instead of: "You're not good enough".
You're angry with me when I'm sad,
You punish me when I laugh.
Why do I have to be perfect?
"You have to be better than 'them'"!
Is it too much to ask,
to love me the way that I am?
And yet you still ask yourself:
"Why is my daughter depressed?
Why in whatever she does, she
feels she has to be the best"
Understanding MeUnderstanding Me4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Have you seen my scars?
How many have you seen?
Do you know how I got them?
Do you know what they mean?
Do you know how it feels,
To truly hate yourself,
To be afraid to open up,
Though you know that you need help?
Have you ever felt the pain,
Of being left behind,
As one by one your friends disappear
And dark thoughts fill your mind?
Have you ever confided in,
A friend you thought was true,
Only to realize you scared her away,
And she no longer talks to you?
Have you ever blamed yourself,
For simply being you,
For all those stupid things,
You always seem to do?
Have you ever been called ugly,
By some guys you barely knew,
And started to believe,
That what they said was true?
Do you ever wonder,
That if you were not there,
If those people you call friends,
Would notice or even care?
If you looked into my eyes,
Could you understand,
That all I've ever needed,
Was for you to hold my hand?
RealPeople have hard time understanding each other. Maybe it's that we say the wrong things. Perhaps the words are proper and the timing sucks. At the beginning I used to be disappointed. Eventually I started getting used to it too. I've learnt not to expect anything.Real4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
And just when I stopped expecting - there it is.
It was a lot like wanting to be saved.
Like being trapped on an island, waiting for someone to come and pick you up. The first day you are scared and confused. You don't know what is going on. It might be dangerous here. You've never been in a situation like that. But you need to work something out.
The thing that you're actually worried about are the predators, heat. You don't even consider the possibility that help might not arrive soon.
Your survival instincts tell you to go search for water and food. But it's just in case, it's not like you're really gonna need it right? And when you're about to fall asleep, you think: Well nothing has happened today, but I'm pretty sure
Fading...Am I still here?Fading4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes I'm all alone and I fear
That at some point I disappeared
And just haven't realized it yet
Am I gone?
Do I exist?
Is being dead the same as this?
With no one to acknowledge that I'm real
I slowly,surely start to feel
Like an inanimate object might feel
Am I still here?
Under the apple treeI will wait for you underneath our apple tree. I promise will write to you every day. I promise I wont stray away from you, that Ill wait for you underneath our apple tree. The same one you carved our name into, the same one with the swing that you used to push me on. Ill wait for you forever.Under the apple tree6 years ago in Historical More Like This
When will you come home? Soon I hope. Ive spent so many days waiting underneath our apple tree. Are you thinking of me? Know that Im thinking of you, know that I miss you, know that I love you. Ill wait for you underneath our apple tree, the same one we used to climb as kids, the same one where we had our first kiss. Ill wait for you underneath our apple tree, till you come marching home.
I will never stop crying underneath our apple tree, Ill never stop loving you and Ill never forget you. We buried you underneath our apple tree.
I'm LyingI say I'm ok but inside I'm dyingI'm Lying4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blame allergies but really I'm crying
Tell you nothing's wrong
Smile like I'm happy
I'm really just faking
Behind this facade my heart is breaking
Maybe for a second you'll worry
I'll say I'm fine,everyone's favorite line
Then I must leave as my vision goes blurry
The sorrow begins anew
But I would
not want to bother you
I'll be right back,don't worry all's good
Everybody surrounds me,and it's so sick
They are vying
For my attention
Because it seems my life is perfect
The price of perfection-not worth it
I'll say I'm alright,I'm lying